#love like ours is a punishment

[quetzalpapalotl]

Love/soulmates but like as a curse, I love you pathetically desperately despite all that's good for me and can't live without you.

#computer play Encadenados cover by Chavela Vargas #love like ours is a punishment #carried on the soul until death #my luck needs of your luck #and you need me much more #that's why there will never be a farewell #nor will any peace comfort us #and the pace of pain shall find us #on our knees through life #face to face and nothing else #i was thinking of megop but really this is the ideal dynamic

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[karamazovanon]

rip rodya you would've loved american psycho

#im only like 150? pages into c&p but this keeps haunting my brain so. here i guess #FUCK I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT HIS HAT #GODDAMMIT. WELL IM NOT FUCKING FIXING IT NOW #plus i havent settled on a design for him yet so itll def change. this is just to exorcise my brainworms #i dont even want to tag it skfjdkkf #i also love how one of the very first things fd did was make sure we know this guy is pretty as hell. thanks king #ugh i also forgot to add stubble whatever just take it #maybe ill redo it once ive finished it and have a better idea of what i picture him as #rodion romanovich raskolnikov #crime and punishment #back to our regularly scheduled tb/k posting soon i have 29489392 sketches im just too busy to finish them rn #anonart #rodya #alt caption: JUST BLOND BOYS DOING WHAT BLOND BOYS DO

[impossibleheartflower]

Anyways more parallels because I can't sleep <3

#do you ever think Lizzie thinks about tommy in the same way tommy thinks about grace? #also do you see how he's sitting at that empty table? it's like he's trying to recreate that memory in his head #like he's desperately trying to remember what he's fighting for #almost like he's punishing himself over Grace's death #like he's trying to say “if you don't do something soon this could be our reality. we could lose EVERYONE not just grace” #i mean the man does talk to himself about himself #y'know i hate to admit it(no I don't) but Michael is just a watered down version of tommy #michael gray #tommy shelby #lizzie stark #lizzie shelby #grace burgess #grace shelby #Lizzie come home please. Charles misses you 😚 #i love lizzie stark #grace is alright...for a dead woman at least

[uncanny-tranny]

If you truly want to do what's best for mentally ill people, you have to learn that you often won't be able to separate the "salvageable" parts of ourselves with our illnesses, and you can't pretend like we are sane people underneath the façade of insanity, like we can flip a switch and magically erase the differences that make us "disordered"

#mental health #mental health advocacy #i'm not sure how best to explain it but i see this attitude a lot that anything even mildly 'unsightly' must be punished or ignored... #...or fear mongered... #...or this idea that we *are* just secretly... not disordered and that we can choose every single aspect of our disorders and how... #...that will impact us and our world #it's really hard to explain if you haven't experienced it yourself. it's so hard to know that who you Fundamentally Are is seen as unhuman #that you cannot be disordered and seen as an equal in so many scenarios is precisely what i mean by 'if you want to do right [by us]' #we shouldn't HAVE to present as non-disordered or non-ill just to be treated like a person #i shouldn't have to be forced to pretend like my illnesses are an optional part of who i am that OTHERS should ignore so they can 'love me' #my illnesses are intrinsically tied to Who I Am. i will never have the opportunity to know what Being Sane is like and i shouldn't... #...have to pretend like that isn't the case #it's just fucked up to me to know that people would rather that we just... ignore often fundamental parts of who we are for *their* comfort #maybe that's how i'd word it? i find this a very complex topic but at the core... #...the idea is that we shouldn't have to fucking live a lie for the sake of the 'normal' folk #(obviously 'normal' isn't accurate on a technical level but it conveys how i see the conflict)

[dolores-slay]

An aspect of the astarion ascension discourse, that I am putting into a jar and studying, is many discoursers have that whole 'revenge is bad? What are you, christian???' be gay do crimes teehee attitude combined with a deep need to have things they like be morally justified, so are now recoding the world's most obvious metaphor for the cyclical nature of abuse as a be gay do crime boyboss taking back agency empowrring tale and are either ignoring the whole living sacrifice thing or saying 'well it would be dangerous having vampire spawn running around!' (and what about all the other sacrifices including children taken away from people very clearly inspired by the Romani whom their booboo is also racist towards btw?).

And it's such a losing battle cause you won't convince anyone your media reading is the one that's REALLY morally superior and pro victim and empowering and whatnot, you'll just be annoying af. If you can't handle enjoying fiction without having to whitewash your enjoyment of spicy and morally dubious fictional characters and events, maybe you should read/play/watch something else?

#i like astarion btw #but he's a fictional pixel guy people are clammoring a real person creative to get 'punished' for #in year of our lord 2023 with writing strikes and creatives getting their lives made hell by ai garbage and corporate greed? #in year of our lord 2023 where fellow studios are sacking most veteran employees for no reason? #'offensive to victims' but u sure as hell would love to make a person in a precarious position lose their job bcs they hurt your feefees #I guess innocent people suffering is ok as long as u get your 'revenge' huh? #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #cw discourse

[creeperthescamp]

for as big as the oblivion crisis was, it's super weird that Skyrim doesn't even touch it beyond a few dialogue mentions :/ like it was a pretty fuckin violent tamriel-wide event, it's gotta have some more far reaching consequences over generations of people than just 'well that's the end of the third era'

having just finished the oblivion main quest, npcs talk of celebrating dagons defeat with new songs and broken oblivion gates dot the landscape. martins dragon statue serves as a somber reminder of all the friends you had that are now dead

in skyrim where are those songs? the oblivion gates? the graves? martin? the written and oral histories of the crisis itself and the aftermath? for a province known for its bardic traditions there's nothing about any historical events newer than 'ancient as shit' and it's really quite disappointing playing oblivion and knowing that none of it actually matters

i could understand bethesda wanting to distance themselves from the cheerful tone and style of oblivion in order to be able to appeal to GoT fans and in line with the popular gritty and '''''realistic''''' style of early 2010s media, but like. honestly. marketing is stupid af and not sticking with the Basic Lore of Literally The Previous Game's Main Quest really shows a lack of imagination and backbone on the writer's part. Like you want gritty and dark? There's an apocalyptic event right there and you could write about how people have been dealing with it!

man don't even get me started on the whole 'mages guild broke up cos people thought they were involved with the oblivion crisis' thing. common oblivion npcs literally talk about mythic dawn and knew what was going on. fucking come on man

och just a painful reminder that these games could be so good if they were actually like. good

#martin posts #tes #skyrim #tes oblivion #it just. makes no sense!! who the hell wrote and greenlit this shit? #also i really appreciated the attempts in beyond skyrim: bruma to bridge the gap between skyrim and oblivion!! #iirc theres a scene that plays out of thalmor agents questioning the bruma chapel guys over their decision to name the chapel after martin #the thalmor are like 'well ur trying to worship a mortal man as a god and that goes against the spirit of our agreement with the empire' #and the other guys are like 'but you never specified anything about st martin. hes not a divine and you cant punish us over a vague notion #of not being in the spirit of talos bans' and i was like fuck yes!!! i love seeing consequences!!!!

[tediousdelusion]

my controversial(ish, maybe, idk) take on steddy hands is that two semi-apparently contradictory things have to happen first and they are both along the stizzy axis: 1) stede and izzy have to each recognize the other as competent. this takes more growth in stede’s part bc... look my dears, my loves, perhaps even my beloveds. as endearing as stede is, he still ends s1 as an incompetent pirate. he’s never taken a single ship and he has spent his entire life in the lap of luxury. (for his fuckery, he lets the danish board their ship. they live, but they don’t take any property - which is the entire fucking point of piracy). the boy needs to face a material hardship. it builds character, much like working customer service.

and 2.) izzy needs to accept some mild hedonism. pleasure for the sake of pleasure is gooooooood. anyone who tells you different is selling something. this is the one that takes growth on izzy’s part - he doesn’t see value in pleasure alone and like, god, my man perhaps i wish i vibed with you less but...

if these don’t both happen, i can enjoy it, but i can’t believe it, if you feel me. stede is a man who is insecure bc he doesn’t think that he deserves what he has... and up to this point this has lowkey been true. and izzy is fixated on being needed to the point where imo being wanted doesn’t occur to him. (ed is a whole ‘nother bag of worms and this post is toooooo Fucking Long)

but in the end, they need all need to both want and need each other. i think need comes first, but want shouldn’t be short to follow. the want has staying power.

also you can’t dom someone while also being a total incompetent i didn’t say that yes i did (guess im drunk enough)

#ofmd #our flag means death #steddy hands #steddyhands #izzy hands #im trying to tag this properly so do or dont come for me izzy anon #i guess #weve tangoed once before and you are not to be forgotten #guess im drunk enough to post this #may delete or edit in the morn #but anyone my point is.... #my point is that i love polyamory and the far points of this ship could balance each other #do i think it will happen in canon no of course not i am a realist #but also i like the idea of even the quote end quote villain getting a happy ending #bc lets be real izzy is barely even a villain #hes an antagonist by the definition that he opposes the protagonists #but despite my fondness for the izzy is from black sails takes #like the boy would not survive a true gritty drama #he would never ever survive black sails #(i know not all of you have watched it but insubordination is punished by public flogging at a minimum) #(not... more chores. homeboy would lose at the game of politically motivated public murder) #(even my most innocent black sails loves do things beyond the moral event horizon of ofmd) #anyone the point is... #the point is that they should all come together and work it out

[wingsofmud]

Imagine if there were more than one group of false dragonets. Imagine if our main cast were false dragonets.

Obviously we know the prophecy is fake, so then what's to stop the Nightwings from ensuring there are multiple failsafes? Just make it so the location of the dragonets is kept secret except from the Guardians watching them and the Nightwing assigned to them and bada boom you get multiple groups of dragonets.

Dragons not born on the brightest night? Okay, you made the prophecy Nightwings, take the eggs until they hatch then give them back to the Talons.

What if the main cast is a failed group that unfortunately established themselves as the true dragonets in the eyes of the public.

Imagine if Starflight's book was about him slowly learning about all these false dragonets who do not know about the main cast due to being sheltered all their lives and Morrowseer decides to cut his losses and get rid of the failsafes in case anyone puts two and two together.

Cue drama

#this has been my the false dragonets deserved better PSA #wof #wings of fire #wof rewrite #I really don't like the way the false dragonets are just there to prove our main cast's relationship is *so special* #I mean it is but if anything they should be just as close further proving that the DoD's relationship isn't so strange #that yeah the dragons can get along #the false dragonets could've been super interesting but they were all just hyper aggressive for no reason #except Fatespeaker but also she was the love interest so #also Tui's weird thing with punishing abused children who aren't uwu sweet in the face of their abuse #Flame and Viper especially deserved so much better #I imagine Morrowseer attempts to see who he can replace #but then eventually realizes that the dragonets come as a group or not at all #so ...child murder I guess

[mymarifae]

only on tumblr do you get people so absorbed in their toxic online echo chambers that they think killing animals is no big deal and that posting about incest and pedophilia and shit is “fine” because it’s all “fictional” and “fiction has no bearing on reality” and “i’m a victim of these things so it’s cool for me to ‘cope’ by consuming this content and i’m totally not normalizing and excusing its existence”

#like yeah idc how much you don't want to hear this sentence but killing animals is serial killer behavior. #a child finding enjoyment or stress relief in the torturing of helpless little lives is EXTREMELY concerning #and like no a child displaying those behaviors should not be shunned or punished like that's stupid. that's a child that needs love and HELP #what's really disturbing is nonchalantly bringing up those past killings as an adult without an ounce of remorse #because it shows that you... still do not value life. you still see those lives as 'lesser' than your own. #like what the fuck? #and fiction literally does affect reality dozens of studies show that our brains process 'fiction' the same way we process reality #idc how much you dislike the field of psychology like. bitch me too. some of the 'science' there is bullshit but guess what #sometimes science is like. real. and you can't deny it. there is a particular way that the human brain functions #we are really good at convincing ourselves that our thinking and inner processes are completely different than they really are #no amount of mental illness and trauma excuses repugnant behavior! it just doesn't. it absolves you of Nothing #you still need to take responsibility for your actions #seek help. get off the internet. get out of the circles that encourage and reward this sort of behavior. Heal

[inkykeiji]

listening to russian rap as i read my russian novel and daydream about my russian anime man

#it’s a sickness honestly #but i’m a quarter through crime and punishment and let me just tell you #i am kissing dostoevsky on his cold dead lips #da real one not our anime babe #i am now kicking myself for not pursuing the russian class i was enrolled in in uni #but i bought what’s supposedly considered to be the best translation #either way absolutely in love with the writing style #also love that dostoevsky couldn’t write until he had hit absolute rock bottom because wow what a True Writer™️ lmao #spotify made me a playlist based off the few russian rap songs i’ve been listening to on repeat and it’s actually so good?????????? #perfect to write yandere fyodor to ( ◡‿◡ ♡) #can’t believe he’s voiced by ray like i’m just throwing myself off a cliff for that man #clari chatters

[slopdoughnut]

hi! I saw the post in Asmi’s server! Did you watch The Marvels? If yes, can you choose a favourite scene? (I think the reference to fanfiction might be my favourite but the flerkens, man. They were awesome. Also iman vellani is my favourite forever.)

Goddamnit they are spreading my blog everywhere lmao

Unfortunately, I have not watched the marvels yet, I like to watch things in time-line order bc I'm insane. They added the defenders/origin stories to the timeliness , so now I gotta watch em all first

#marvel #the marvels #daredevil #jessica jones #the punisher #iron fist #luke cage #i love flerkins tho #we called our cat flerkins for like #a year after re-watching captain marvel #marvel's defenders

[incognito-unfamous]

"It wasn't him imprisoned. Actually it was me"

#grindeldore #albus dumbledore #gellert grindelwald #fantastic beasts #hp #our suffering for person we love is the real prison sometimes #we share their fate #this man suffered all his life #he didn't come to wedding because the blood troth was destroyed and he knows he hurts gellert they were like married #broken vial didn't change anything #they continuing love each other #and when he defeated gellert in 1945 he was defeated too #he has been punishing himself all these years #for sister's death for not stopping gellert on time and for betraying him #feel his pain his love #and when he cried on kings cross station he cried because harry told him about gellert's sacrifice because he died and the way he died #at voldemort's hands and because he knew gellert has good in him why he fell for him so hard #don't say there were all gellert's manipulating and charisma but not only that #albus continued to believe in gellert's good #and he cried because he was right about him and he was loved right back all this time

[pyreshe]

honestly, i know i'm not the only one with this issue, but i have Got to stop using you guys to be mean to myself. every day i catch myself thinking that i am annoying people who i am mutuals with; that you guys roll your eyes when you see me posting, that you resent it when i talk about my day, that me sending an unprompted meme is an intrusion, you hate me when i don't answer an ask, etc. and that is mean! to both of us! not only do none of these things bug me even a little when other people do them, but we're all adults and if i was actually annoying to u it'd be as simple as not following me!!

i need to stop letting my anxiety and stuff hold me back and i need to fucking stop thinking about people who have given me nothing but support and friendship and love as being so mean that they'd lie to my face about how they really feel.

#taps the 'we use our loved ones images to punish ourselves' tweet thread like the simpson bus driver #i am gonna keep actively working to curb this thinking bc u guys deserve better and so do i #mental health cw #ask to tag

[ginkovskij]

i've fallen in love with the definition "unintentionally dostoevskian"

#from a commentary about dostoevskij's characters and stories to be so tightly entwined with life that our stories at times become #like a story of dostoevskij which makes us unintentionally dostoevskian #love love love #hell yeah i'm re reading crime and punishment

[runningatypufullspeed]

Guys (HAHAHHAHAHA OH MY. GOOOOOOOOOGGOGOD GUY. LIKE FROM *GETS TORN APART BY A MECHANICAL HOUND*) if I go completely off my rocker and start shitting out scythe content like as in from the book arc of a scythe DONT PANIC I’m still into f451 it’s just that my school’s cruel and unjust hand is FORCING me to move on from my dear late wife also known as my current hyperfixation FAHRENHEIT 451 which to be clear I am NOT READY TO DO but because of HORRIBLE and UNUSUAL CIRCUMSTANCES I will most likely be taking to the LITTLE FREE SPEECH I HAVE and unloading all of my SCYTHE RELATED PSYCHOLOGICAL TURMOIL into the WILDLANDS OF MY SHITTY ACCOUNT. (they’re making me draw something for scythe, but I’m still into f451) so if you see me scytheposting it’s because. It’s because I HAAAAVE TO. I HAVETOI HAVETO I HAVETOIHAVTEOTHAVTEOHAVTEOHAVETO NO CHOICE IN THIS MATTER I HAVE TO I

#not that I don’t like scythe btw I just think that’s Fahrenheit 451 is BETTER. and don’t lecture me I read the entire SERIES okay like the p #plot is fine I just think that f451’s writing holds a lot more artistic merit #flowery and poetic or soem shit. love that bro #scythe is a bit lacking on the metaphors imo #again I LOVE BOTH OK but Ray Bradbury writing style 🔛🔝 #stinkygirldays pee you!!!!!!! 😡 #unshowered #this is soooooooooooooo #hashtag POOPY! #Mildred save me. pour a lethal dosage down into my gullet and hold my hand tight as the poison rots my liver and tears my body apart #clutch my teary face into meeting the pallidity of yours and speak to me of those dazzling parlor walls and that happy dancing family #maybe together in the afterlife we’ll meet that picture perfect life you’ve always dreamt of #or maybe we’ll meet in a thicket of greedy flickering flames #a just punishment for turning our backs on those who burned in the waking world. you and I #the same oxygen that gave us life was just as quick to take it. but we were dumb. we were ignorant #and so we too shall burn #SAVE ME MILDRED. SSAAAAVE MEEEEEE #I don’t wanna dfraw 😢💔