#made me feel smart or whatever

[loldental]

Literally I’m so in my feelings over better Nate than lever like oh my god. I’m going to cry.

#also the fact that I noticed the part where Nathan keeps going on about his name and randomly inserts calling him nate not in the same style #of writing of whatever #made me feel smart or whatever #but fr that got me in my feelings I like all the characters a lot

[ganondoodle]

said this on tiwtter too but im seriously at my limit, people go and be all like "oh my god young people have no idea of basic internet security omggggg" and the same person will immediately make an account on t/hreads that is stealing so much data from you its basically one step away from straight up kidnapping

i get we are all desperate, i really do, but i WILL judge you if you go and sign up for the literally shittiest app on earth thats really just a flimsy disguise of a bunch of data suckers in a trench coat

use tumblr, cohost, pillowfort, (the latter two also allow nsfw) ANYTHING but that suckerberg leech i am BEGGING you

idk how accurate it is but i saw the numbers of 75 MILLION sign ups for the threads bs, what the hell are you doing, i feel like im in one of those old anti technology comics were young people just walk off a cliff en masse bc they only look at their phone and nothing else while im the old guy in a chair watching them do it

#ganondoodles talks #are people seriously this blindly signing up for anything new a big -KNOWN SHITTY AF- corporation is putting out #isnt it literally just like insta but worse #like #if you dont like tumblrs layout or whatever theres also cohost #its basically like twitter but also has features of timblr #like having multiple blogs to on account #idk man i actually feel like im going crazy #what is this #this has made me feel more old than the knowledge that lil kids are doing a flat hand gesture for phones bc all they know are smart phones #if people are ACTUALLY making that thing be the next giant “”social media“” i will not forgive them #you will not peer pressure me there #-when i say at my limit im at my limit of desperate confusion watching people do the dumbest shit but going uwu the entire time doing it-

[pepprs]

feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair

#purrs #delete later #basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize #evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of #it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like.. #feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being #quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and #wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke. #i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be #this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about #myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what #happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome #this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music + #realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal #anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️ #at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is #just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳 #this is a ​really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already

[starlooove]

…what dark ass corner of tiktok did that screenshot come from??

Bro batfam tiktok is so 💀💀💀 maybe I haven’t found my people yet but the way they talk about Damian vs Tim is so fucking tragic “poor Timmy 🥺” this and “dc hates tim Drake 🙄🙄🙄” that like they not only think it’s an unpopular opinion to like him over there, they think he’s written badly SPECIFICALLY to favor damian like…

#listen i love canon tim Drake #if I’m talking shit about him just assume it’s that he loves coffee everyone is out to get him version #however tim Drake fans in general? #like the way they act about him #they act like they get crucified for thinking he’s the best Robin #but whatever this ain’t about him #the point is this is the majority of my batfam fyp and I’m sick #i don’t even comment or like that’s all I get 💀 #lbooster tok my beloved 🙏🏾 #ok i lied tho i dont #I don’t LOVE canon tim I think he’s ok #i think he’s very very interesting #like hes fun in a what the Fuck is wrong with you I think everyone who meets you should beat you up kinda way #but he’s not like. up there for me #bottom of batfam barrel #i like it when he used to face the consequences of his actions and arrogance #but i feel like they just wanna veer towards ‘he’s the SMART one and he’s always right but nobody listens 💔💔💔😭😭😭😭’ #and in Gotham war specifically #like IK theyre fucking with everyone but I’m biased against tim so it made me dislike him more #one of my #mutuals called him a wishy washy mf and I’m still dying

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

So anyways my plan for the next two months is to kickass at work while I get another job and then leave their asses.

#I'm so mad about this #I've been at this company for 6 years and for the most part everyone I've worked with has been great #Easy to get along with. Smart. Caring. #I've had some not so great bosses and every once in a while I've encountered problem people #But repeatedly one person (not in my vertical but a key person in my org) #Has repeatedly made me feel like shit. Even if she claims to mean well or whatever #I absolutely never feel like we're ok the same team. It always feels like it's her team or death #Which is not an environment I thrive in #And then her boss (who is also my bosses boss) either feeds into that or exacerbates it #I wish I had had the words during our engagement survey because I'm not the only one who feels this way #So many people go into a meeting with her expecting to talk about one thing and instead she asks for something else entirely #It consistently feels like she has no trust in her team and she does not want to foster a culture of 'we're in the same team' #She is fostering a culture of 'im the boss so I'll dictate exactly what I want and I am free to change it at any time' #So. Anyways. If you know of companies hiring in their product or portfolio space hit me up. #I spent 10 hours trying not to cry at work today and then had three separate little cries #Going to going with my boss a little about taking a week off soon #He's going to be alarmed and concerned but like. He should be. #(my boss is generally great my only complaint is that he hasn't figure out how to work with his boss yet so that's compounding my issues. #But that is not all on him. And he has never once made me feel like we're not on the same team) #Blah blah ok. Tomorrow I work and then do the life shit I didn't do today #The day after that I do a second pass at my resume #And use a working block at work to figure out what I want (and sketch out my teams pain points and potential solutions)

[lasarcasticpanda]

something that i thought was very well done in Barbie (besides yanno all of it) is how Margot's Babrie doesn't think she's smart, because she has been labeled as "stereotypical Barbie".

like, multiple times in this movie, she has moments of very well articulated and intelligent comments, which have excellent comedic timing, but serve a wider purpose of showcasing how women tend to be given a Trait and that is your thing. she mentions how she wishes Smart Barbie was here or to wait for Leadership Barbie to swoop in because she's Stereotypical Barbie, she's not smart, she's not a Leader, she can't do this.

at some point after childhood, women get pigeonholed into a category, right (sometimes even in childhood if I'm honest)? weird, smart, hot, pretty, ugly, bitchy, innocent, prudish, slut, nice. at most, you get two of these traits for your peers and friends to label you.

and its hard to see that when it happens! it's only as we go on and start having complex relationships and experiences and interacting with people outside of our space that we start seeing that and start putting a name to the feeling of constriction that we've been having for, what feels like, forever.

THEN you have to contend with the reality that you are so much more than even all of those things and that's scary! you cannot fit into these small boxes, humans were never made to fit into boxes, you have to throw it out even as others play tug-of-war with you in the rain and insist the soggy, tearing box is so important and where would we be without it? you have to constantly face that and insist that no, it's not, and we'd be right where we are now, arguing over a wet box in the rain when the only thing either of us wants is to be warm inside.

and you have to learn when to pick and choose to just let go and leave the box and the person in the rain and when to keep fighting, even if you're so tired and cold.

and this just! HAPPENS! like there isn't a manual, there isn't a magical age you turn where this becomes clear to you! it's different for everyone and some don't ever have that and some have it so young and others not until they're old! it's such a lonely thing sometimes!

but then you meet other women, different women, so many women with so many unique experiences to add. trans women, women of color, nonbinary women, disabled women, women of every differing religion, ALL have these unique experiences with this phenomon, some have more boxes to throw out in the rain, some have to try and throw out wooden or stone boxes in a hurricane, the danger they face in doing so is sometimes so much more than what others experience.

but that moment of realizing women all have this undertone of understanding and dealing with this gives us the courage to join and hopefully make the tug-of-war easier, to make sure we all get inside to be warm. it's hard to pull that stone box by yourself, but if we join behind you, maybe we can win.

this movie encapsulates that so incredibly well? that speech from Gloria about how tiring it is to see herself and other women feel this way and be made to feel this way and to buy into ourselves is just! that moment of looking every woman in the eyes and telling them they're seen and their struggles are seen and it is so unfair!

and then Barbie says something else smart and, for the first time, acknowledges she did. "Oh I can't believe that just came from me" it has the whole time, can't wait for you to realize that you were always human, and look forward to seeing you in the rain and for hot cocoa afterwards.

#barbie spoilers #barbie #its so late and im not feeling good so i have no idea if this is coherent lmao #but! that was so interesting to me! #it was her acknowledging the smart thing she said near the end of the movie that drew my attention #because i remembered two other distinct lines where she showed this level of intelligence and i was momentarily confused #as to why the script drew attention to THIS one and not the others #and its because barbie was made to feel like an object and like she was ONLY Stereotypical Barbie in the real world #in Barbieland youre everything all at once and you can do anything honestly #in childhood youre everything and can be whatever you want #and at some point you leave that and the world throws labels on you as if theyre dressing you for war #and you have to find a way to get back there and eventually realize you cant so now you have to bring it here #and its not the same and its inconsistent but! youre not alone! #theres defo this for the kens too btw but im zeroing in on Barbie here

[yuukei-yikes]

haruka watches takane eat like a dog begging because he knows she will leave at least half its food. sorry i wrote a longer post in the tags.

#but im also attached to the idea after getting her body back takane indulges in food a lot more #i think generally she's just so glad to have it back she stops taking it for granted and is like oh my god EATING #but it goes both ways same with sensory issues #takane is extremely touch/eating/sleeping averse #but suddenly gets this rush and is like i need to binge eat and hold hands NOOOOOOW #<- haruka's match made in heaven moments but he's smart enough to see takane's like overindulging and is like Ok. let's take a break💗 #takane gets so overwhelmed both negatively and positively like #omg im real!?!?!? AUGGHH to OMG IM REAL YIPPEEEEE!!!!!! #also working on not taking cover as ene bc at first she did and accidently drove itself craz #so shes like trying to work through it WITHOUT having to resort getting out of her body bc no problems are gonna get solved that way #haruka helping her through it all AUUUHCGGH #i have this very particular hc cuddling its basically therapy ok. because its all touchy and it helps her. #as much as it sometimes pains her so it can be both negative and positive #haruka is like :3 but if takane is squirming all uncomfortable he's like do we HAVE to do this youre NOT enjoying it at all and she's like #EUGH DONT TALK I CAN FEEL YOU BREATHING AGAINST ME ITS DISGUSTING #and haruka's like man when you scheduled to cuddle 1 hour a day i wasnt imagining this💔💔💔 #BUT WHATEVER HE WANTS TO HELP SO HE HELPS💗 he just doesnt want her to be all uncomfortable but takane understands she needs it #BECAUSE SHE CAN ALSO LOVE IT IT ALL DEPENDS ON HOW SHE'S DOING THAT PARTICULAR DAY #and as time goes on its more and more that she enjoys it and tells haruka he can now touch her without having to ask first:3 #i think at first its exclusively takane who begins any sort of physical contact not bc haruka is shy #but bc he doesnt wanna put her in a weird situation if she doesn't wanna be touched he probably only dares to like hold her hand. ñ #which is her sleeve. bc she covers their hands. lol #BUT TAKANE RLY COMES THRU i think they rly talk abt all this and she rly comes to him like hi. u can touch me without asking if u want. #and haruka's like ?? U MEAN I CAN KISS U WITHOUT ASKING??? AND TAKANES LIKE YEAH!!!and haruka's like OH MY GOD!!!!!!! #hey. sorry for being insane. i have very particular headcanons that i need to share i NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND ME #did anyone read all these damn tags #god idk why i dont write this as the post itself but then i cant go and copy the tags. what a nightmare #kagevinnie #headcanons

[fangedtracks]

guys i've officially made it as a TA aka one of my students gave me a hand written card thanking me for being "the best TA" and creating a great environment and making her feel better when things started to go wrong :^)

time to go cry!!!!!

#phd chatter #tbh i have seriously thought about dropping out bc i've felt like i'm not smart enough or someone made a mistake admitting me or whatever #but. then shit like this happens and i'm like no i can't leave i need to follow this through bc i LOVE teaching #also one of my friends brought up the point that if THIS is what i can do as a TA??? like if i'm this good as a fckn TA imagine how amazing #im gonna be as a professor when i get to decide the rubric and curriculum and deadlines and what not!!! #like i'm just . this term has been rough and i have been 🎵going through it🎵 but this honestly made it all worth it #like i love my students and i'm gonna reach out to this student and another one and be like hey!!!! don't be a stranger okay!!!! #anyway :•) #also group got cancelled!! so i'll be able to grade and take a nap and pack because TOMORROW TOMORROW TOMORROW #things are feeling ... good for once #oh it should also be noted this is my second term as a TA ᵕ̈ #like .... i feel like i'm kicking ass you guys ᵕ̈

[shevr]

I need you to know you're a delightful, funny person, a talented artist with a hard-won skillset, and a sexy elite gamer

i HAVE nearly finished elden ring so like...yueagh... maybe you're right

thank ye ♥♥♥

#NEARLY done. i gotta go kick godfrey's ass next . maybe today ?? #i beat maliketh & placidusax but i again feel like i didn't play fair for both cuz like #i was playing BAD against maliketh and struggling against just PHASE 1 on many attempts #so when i made it to phase 2 i panicked and summoned the lone wolf spirits #which did a very good job at distracting himand let me get thru phase 2 on that attempt #also summoned Latenna for placidusax ( ma go sûre tmtc ) #which just also distracted him + constant slow trickle of damage from afar #and actually dealt the finishing blows while i was recovering from laser attack #anyway anyway whatever it's ok #shevr #THANKS ALSO FOR THE OTHER NON-GAMING RELATED VERY KIND WORDS TOO AHAHA #i'm less smart about accepting those because it's easier to talk about killin dragons than to accept nice things abt myself as a person huh

[spacedustmantis]

i'm so happy that my primary reputation on this site is that i'm nice

#that's all i could ever wish for tbh #like sure #being seen as smart or creative or whatever is also cool #but nothing makes me happier than knowing i've made other people happy #and made them feel welcomed and safe and shit #i also just really like making friends :3 #buggy thoughts #buggy life

[fallowtail]

i try not to let it get to me but the knowledge i am always going to be The Stupid One in every situation i’m in just…really, really sucks. sigh. oh well. i stay silly :3c

#cant even blame it on being audhd because everyone else i know who is #is smart and talented and their brains work alright 😭 i'm just stupid and incapable #i feel like i’m the only person out there who does not get to experience any of the benefits or joys of these things #for me it is nothing but brain damage and endless suffering with no brightside or intelligence or anything #but then everyone tells me i’m the bad guy because if there was a magic button that would make me not audhd i would click it immediately #like why am i wrong for not wanting to suffer #everyone else seems to have a special interest or a fixation and they can remember information about those things but i...dont. i can't. LO #i do not experience the autistic joy everyone else talks about. i dont have the adhd focusing on what you like superpowers or whatever #my autism made me barely pass highschool and i couldnt handle community college and i had to drop out and i can barely handle having #an entry level job that everyone patronizes me about #i'm barely verbal and i am losing my ability to function to brainfog and everyone around me treats me like i'm their little pet idiot #but wanting to change that about myself makes me evil and bad or something i guess #sorry to whine on tumblr like the good old days but twitter is sick of my shit LOL 😭 #pmdd making me spiral worse than usual #one of those times where i'm realizing that if everyone else experiences these things totally different from me than maybe that was never #what was wrong with me in the first place lol. maybe i dont have an explanation and i'm back to being 10 15 19 24 sobbing wondering why im #like this. why i'm so stupid. not even in a self hating way in a legitimately proven way that i am functioning below average intelligence. #ok im done sorryyyyy god i forgot how good tumblr is to vent on #z

[strwbrymlkshake]

literalyl insane if my dumb feelings don't go away I'll have to start a normal normal rant tag for him I think –_–

#mine #i feel so bad i havent talked to anyone except my group thats involved in my hyperfixation recently uwagh #i will try to take a break tomorrow. hyperfixation doubled with guy im kind of obsessed with creates literally no time for anything else #im still taking care of myself while being so fixated i cant move for several hours. good on me for that #anyways anyways i tried not to be deranged today. not even fathoming romance atm im just happy i get to be around him teehee #made me rly think about how hes been very chill with everything ive ever said to him even tho i am a little freak . which is uncommon #i am not daydreaming about it because itll break my fucking heart but im content for now i think :) i like hanging out with him #'im normal about him' proceeds to talk abt him on my yandere blog. #im not feeling yanderish i just dont have another place to talk abt this stuff so here it is! bon appetite #im not rly freaking out as much and im good at distancing myself from him. even tho idk if anything will happen im trying to #practice controlling my insane person feelings when around him ;-; im doing good i THINK i havent been as weird #my thoughts around him are all weird and distorted and not quite romantic (yet?) but i know that i just feel comfortable w him #im:) im happy im enjoying. watch him get a partner immediately after this and i go batshit bc that is my freakin luck #well it doesnt matter i had a good time while i could and thats what counts ig . had only a smidgen of hope anyways! but its ok #i am so jaded to romance i am going to accept whatever happens and hope its atleast funny . and he finds humor in it #n i would get to hear his horrid laugh. itd be nice. i like it its very contagious. his voice maxes my brain out in serotonin #he was messing around w me in [hyperfixation] and i really enjoyed the attention hwuwhidhekfn made me flustered #i was saying like Romantic CodedTM things to him and he was just giving indecisive responses but not elaborating . so who knows #im not fretting or anything like its fun its chill i feel relaxed !! very casual stuff am having a good time. he has beautiful eyes also. #hes so talented and knows what hes doing. and hes so freaking smart he knows so much stuff oh my god. #i keep having repeated dreams abt him its weird fjdjfjdk. normal things to say abt ur friend btw. normal #i think his fascination w [redacted] is so beautiful his memory is rly good too. im NORMAL i swear #i like to cause spectacles that are memorable and funny so he pays attention to me more. i like attention from everyone but his is esp. fun #i love my friends so much i tell them that i appreciate them everyday. i hope they know they are loved so much #i probably just love the side of himself he chooses to show n not his authentic true self bc online stuff oh well #tho i do feel if you spend an ungodly amnt of hrs straight with someone then you are bound to know them more intimately #i love doing absolutely nothing with my friends and make our own fun in boredom. reminds me of my childhood #maybe i am allowed to think abt him awkwardly patting me on the head. as a treat #this guy reminds me of a previous love interest too except he doesnt emotionally abuse me or himself and has a freaking soul #💿

[siriuslynephilim]

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#my dad: how did u do so well in the first exam and so bad in all the rest #and then he thought about it for a minute #and said #oh i know what happened #him: accha so 15-18 ke beech mein ghar pe ladai chal rahi thi na bc of anniversary on 18th #me (internally) : OMG when did u become so smart and so correct im impressed and shocked #him: so party ka haan na ho raha tha na that's why ghar walo ki nazar lag gayi #me: 😐 #like sure i mean whatever u say dude #it's good only for me it's taking the blame off me so i won't complain #tho i understand ig why parents are like this #adulting is already so hard at 19 so imagine what it would be like at like 48 #maybe it's nice to think that i failed bc of some external unknowable force wishing bad upon me #takes off some of the suffocating responsibility #these days i feel amazed like wow how tf did i waste 9+ months aise hi like wtf was that #and yes they were def a waste study pov but like ive def learned few things abt myself #1. talking to new people isn't hard at all actually it's the part that comes after the first meeting #it's the how do i make them stay how do i keep them interested #which ive realised is not a skill i possess so like idk ive made peace with the fact that im not gonna date someone for a long time now #it's good i can finally read fics without feeling disgustingly overwhelmingly lonely #2. healing requires a ridiculous amount of consistency and determination like u can't heal unless you aren't doing something to heal yourse #every fucking day #and that u need to put yourself out there and be in crowds even if it makes u feel lonely to see happy deep friendships #bc that's the only way to form them #3. time doesn't heal it just makes u forget and u learn to distract yourself better as time passes #cause tbh i simultaneously feel at the same place that i was last year and also so far away from it all #mes

[numberone-wifeguy]

04/29/24

#technically it's the 30th i guess but i haven't slept yet so it doesn't count. #i keep cycling between ''hey buddy. you've been assaulted twice by this woman very recently. why don't you be smart and not confront her?'' #and ''i can totally handle her. it's not that serious.'' #i am so miserably depressed it's unreal. so i'm also struggling to give even half of a damn either way. #adam is very anxious and i can feel him clawing at the edges of me. #it's weird to call him adam. i know that's his alias here but it's weird. #anyways. #i don't even want to deal with this i can't care. i can't make myself care. #i just want to be a hedonistic little fallen angel kin and eat fruits and go down on her even if she's hurting me. who cares. #everything hurts anyways. this body will die in such a short amount of time in the grand scheme of things. why not use it well. #i want to get drunk and eat buttery cheese and cum. whatever. #entry// #eta: chuckling. just realized the way i phrased that made it sound like i wanna eat cum. #not that i'm opposed it's just that what i meant was... i would like to experience orgasms and also eating cheeses.

[southislandwren]

okay i have ten million things to do before i leave for my event tomorrow. but for now im going to play games and chill out. i deserve it. also do you guys think i was appropriately pathetic and endearing when my repro prof was like "howd you do on the quiz" and i said 16/20 and he said "that's pretty good!" and i went "i wanted to do better" in the tiniest voice i could manage. i need him to pity me so i can pass

#i went up to him after getting my quiz back and was like dr. c? 🥺 how can a male produce spermatozoa but be considered infertile? 🥺 #we'll see how todays quiz went. im more confident on girl parts because of the whole afab situation but i skipped yesterdays class #so idk. i felt good about it but who knows. #i saw P in the small conference room and she was like hows repro? need help? #and i am SO soft that shes looking out for me i love my dairy people :((( #but idk. its only week 3. its going to get worse. #next week we're palpating cattle which i am historically bad at #(remember when i went around to three different cows and couldnt feel a single cervix. yeah) #but who knows! im smart i'll figure something out #i have like 3 different major situations going on rn. cant wait to get sloppy drunk on sunday and complain to my internship boss's mom #astro prof really likes me and i really like her and i really like astronomy #and i skipped lab and the eclipse prep got cancelled #so the next time i'll see her is tuesday and im giving my constellation presentation #(also how fucked up is it that i got assigned libra and my tablemates got fucking auriga. which has capella. which is my favorite star.) #feels kind of cheap tbh #also clarinet prof also really likes me and he wasnt mean abt the fact i only practiced twice this week #and he was saying i had nice embechure or whatever im not putting effort into spelling that correctly #and whenever other music people came into his office for whatever reason #he'd be like 'this is Hope! shes a dairy science major! this is her second clarinet lesson and she made it over the break!' #idk. its crazy to think about how bad i was doing on monday and tuesday and now im like. basically fine. #like yes im sad yes i was crying about being stupid and worthless earlier today #but im not in crisis mode anymore #idk. sorry. gonna play a game. probably mariokart or something #diary post #school post

[slvttyplum]

one thing about suguru, he can hold a grudge and can hold it for the longest time. he will literally argue with you while he's fucking you, and he has, multiple time in fact.

putting you in missionary while pushing your thighs up to your chest and giving you a kiss before his mood changes, and he starts spouting bullshit, you couldn't even rebuttal like you wanted to and that's exactly why he did what he did.

if he knew you were getting fucked out of your mind with the way his dick was touching and swirling your insides, there was no way you could shoot him down the way he knew you wanted to, and that brought a smile on his face.

no smart remarks, only stuttering and moaning trying to get your point across. he was never going to let you win whatever argument the both of you had that day, if he feels as though you were even on the track to winning, he was going to fuck you until you gave up.

“mm no baby. if i say i want you home at a certain time, that's what i want.” while pushing himself deeper inside of you so that you couldn't say anything and if you did, it would just be inaudible blabbering while you scavenged your brain trying to find the words to say if you could even get it out.

this is something that could be categorized as a toxic trait or “red flag” if anyone knew that suguru pulled you into the bedroom to just fuck you and argue with you while doing it, people would throw a fucking fit, not you though, you tried to hold your own.

blabbering your nonsense trying to defend your case while he dug you out, and it's not even like he did this on a whim. he fucked you so good that it had your toes curling and your stomach caving in like a caprisun.

don't play with him because he will do this off guard and all, you won't even know when he's going to toss you over and slide your panties off and just fuck you like he had all the time in the world. no one liked being right more than suguru did, it was in his everyday agenda to make sure that any and everything he said was right and that if you disagree then he was going to make sure you agreed.

“huh? oh, i thought you said something about me being wrong.” with a smirk on his face. suguru knew you like the back of his hand, of course he would know his favorite person, so with that being said, he knew that fucking you until you couldn't properly form a sentence would get his point across and not yours.

whispering in your ear while he pushed into your sweet spot over and over again, your heart racing so fast and your legs quivering with the amount of force he was putting on your thighs. expanding his point out even more just to hear that pretty voice of yours whimpering and pleading for him to just stop because you couldn't take it anymore.

all the pleasure was building up to the point you were getting cramps, so you knew you were done for.

“tell me im right, tell me that i fucked you so good that i made you a mess.” his mouth near your ear as he continues to fuck you in, your body jolting up and down, your mouth moving but nothing coming out, that's how he knew you were done.

“thought so. good girl.”

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jjk x you #jujustsu kaisen x reader #x reader #jjk suguru #jjk geto #jujutsu kaisen suguru #geto suguru #getou suguru x reader #suguru geto smut #jujutsu geto #geto x reader #geto smut #suguru geto #geto