#moth if ur out there i love u /p

[kittykai1103]

Soft dom Toji being your first time is a reoccurring thought for me

Warning: SMUT

“I-I don’t think it’ll fit t-toji” you say watching as he pulls his semi hard cock out of his sweats your already so exhausted from foreplay and he’s only been fingering you. “It’ll fit we just gotta keep stretching out this pretty pussy baby” he says as he begins working in a third finger, you moan out as you already feel so full. Toji begins to pick up the pace he’s fingering you at moving his fingers so they make a delicious “come hither” motion causing u to push ur thighs together slightly only for him to push them back apart with his free hand. As you lay there moaning and shaking you hear Toji making soft noises you open your eyes to see him stoking his cock while watching his fingers slip in and out of you with ease, a bead of precum leaking out the tip. Looking up to make eye contact with you he says “ your making me so hard baby, I can feel you squeezing my fingers.” At this point you can barely take it, “can you put it in now Toji. P-please.” Without saying another word toji takes his fingers out of you and lines himself up with your entrance, “ready?” He questions looking you dead in the eyes. “Ready” you say staring back at him. In one swift motion he pulls you legs farther apart and pushes into your plush walls groaning as u let out a loud moan. “Fuuuuck” he says as he settles himself completely inside of you his head falling into the valley between your breasts. After the two of you compose yourself Toji begins to move causing you to moan a few thrust later he hits that spot that causes your moth to fall open in a silent scream and your back to arch. “RIGHT THERE TOJI YES” you scream as he takes notice to your drastic shift in movement. “Right there slut you want me to keep fucking u there hmm” he says as he grabs the back of your thigh pushing it towards your chest so he can get to it easily. “ yes fuck yes” you say your voice getting higher and just barely above a whisper, Toji chuckles at your response. Toji begins thrusting into you so hard the bed frame began smacking into the wall creating a lewd song from the sound of his hips meeting yours and your voices singing together. “Toji I think I’m going t-to pee” you say feeling an unfamiliar feeling creep into your core sending static through your body all the way down to your toes. Toji already knew you were getting close from the way your pretty pussy fluttered around his cock and the cute squirming motion you began doing. “ that’s okay baby just let it all go on me” he says pushing ur legs even farther back fucking you in a full on mating press, your knees pressed squarely into the mattress. If he wasnt fucking you so hard you might have even been embarrassed you were being railed in such a position. To be honest you didn’t even know a position like that existed. a few thrusts later and you were practically screaming his name as you creamed on his cock. Your essence leaking out of your core and making its way down to your bottom. Toji threw his head back eyes shut loving the way you tightened with you released. You slumped down against the pillow letting your body relax as you felt Tojis hips begin to stutter as he came almost immediately after you with a low “fuuuuck” leaving his throat before he went still falling into your chest as your legs took purchase on his shoulders. “ how you holding up darling” Toji said head still in between your breasts after you two caught your breath for a minute or two. “ hmmm” was all you could say two busy focused on the feeling of tojis cock hardening inside of you. “ good cause I’m not quite done with you” was all Toji said before grinding his hips against yours.

#jujutsu kaisen toji #toji smut #this was my first time writing something on here sorry if it sucked :’) #I quite literally love this man #jujutsu kaisen #Toji fanfic #toji x reader #Spotify

[edith-is-a-cat]

Edie's Moots!!!

The ones I've interacted with (alphabetically organized)

💕@angelhairpastawithherbs - Mx. Rose Moth!! - HAS THE SAME MOTHMAN SHIRT AS ME AND THATS HOW WE BECAME MUTUALS SO LOVELY (thats why you are called Rose Moth in my head!!) #mx. rose moth!! 💕

🐙@azulashengrottospiano - Ms. Auburn!! - DWAYNE THE ROCK JOHNSON IS MY MUTUAL GUYS /j, Seriously so very lovely love dropping art in there inbox. *Silently foaming at the mouth with their writing* Literally feels like a celeb followed me back. Tumblr mom/oldest sister skjdnbvkjerfl ily /p and thank you for being so nice to me #ms. auburn!! 🐙

💫@bloody-puppets - My child!! - HIIIIIIII *spins you around like a hula hoop* Yes his tag may have been "father" but those are lies this is my child. Acc snatched up and will help u around tumblr bc you are child. please ill make a terrarium you you goobers #my child!! 💫

@ - Mr. !! - OMG TELLS YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING IM EXCITED FOR YOU WELCOME IN!!!

#mr. !!

🎩@dapperceature - Mx. Dapper!! - EHEHEH IVE MISSED YOU UNDERTALE FANDOM AND ITS SO COOL THAT I HAVE AN UNDERTALE MOOT ILY MWAH /p #mx. dapper!! 🎩

🍬@ferris-the-wheel - Ms. Ferris!! YOU COME INTO MY HOUSE AND BE RLLY NICE AND SUPPORTIVE FOR NO OTHER REASON THAN MY BLOG BEING VERY BLUE, why thank you the rolls will be done in a bit. (ALSO PICKED ME UP BY THE SCRUFF AND ADOPTED ME?) My favorite moot to chew on #ms. ferris!! 🍬

🦀@fryofthefrench - real person. WALKING NONBINARY PRIDE FLAG 🫵 #mx. samsung!! 🦀🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️🫵

🐍@l7k-a - Mr. Haru!! - I THINK I LOOKED AT UR PROFILE ONE TIME AND THOUGHT ABOUT FOLLOWING YOU THEN I CHICKENED OUT-- NOT TODAY and u like Basil freaking spinning and shaking. U r like my dad... you have asked me to sleep and isn't late several times. love u sm #mr. haru!! 🐍

🪻@h2llish - Mr. Devil!! I have a fourty bucks, and hopefully the ability to drive soon, wanna grab food?? #mr. devil!! 🪻

💪@i-like-forgs - Mr. Ryoko!! - reads your posts like I read the newspaper, making dramatic gasps ever now and then. I love being to see a little bit of your life. Rattles the bars of my cage, I'm so happy to see you. #mr. ryoko!! 💪

🐎@jangletam - Junior!! - Ken irl -- carefully fits you with a lovely cowboy hat and matching pair of boots #robin jr!! 🐎

✨@officialdaydreamer00 - Mx. Irene!! Picked me up off the side of the road after I reblogged one of his things an unholy amount of times (it was so cute tho I plan to read more when I have time :3!!) #mx. irene!! ✨

💤@vntey - Mx. Leo!! - Ur cool i like you goober #mx. leo!! 💤

🌸@sakka-kyuu - Ms. Sakkakuu!! - PLEASE PLEASE you are so cute and sweet and im a seal plushie to you omg my heart <////3 /pos thank you for existing here bpufvbehbtvhrbtvhbrv you are so neato #ms. sakkakuu!! 🌸

🎀 @shinysparklesapphires - Ms. Sapphire!! - HSHVJKDNVJERVHJBERHD PRETTY MAGICAL GIRL SO COOL HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII-- u r so neat I would love to hand feed you (edible) glitter #ms. sapphire!! 🎀

🪷@twistwonderlanddevotee - Ms. Sofia!! - THE WAY I STOOD UP AND RAN AROUND WHEN I SAW U REBLOG THE THING WITH THE PRETTIES WALLPAPER EVER-- I hope you get so much pretty stickers get you arts and crafts supplies and gives you stationary cause i feel u would like it (btw DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TAKING LONG BUT THAT WAS JUST SO SWEET AND I HOPE YOU DID SUPER WELL ON UR FINALS!!!!) #ms. sofia!! 🪷

🐇@twst-om-lover - Mx. Nightmare!! - spins you like a basketball #mx. nightmare!! 🐇

🐇✨@vivislosingitagain - Mx. Vivi!! Can we turn the ocean into tea together??? And then have a tea party if ocean tea doesn't taste weird! (I decided the second emoji for you hope you don't mind!!) #mx. vivi!! 🐇✨

🐈‍⬛@v-anrouge - Mr. Aster!! - You can have some of my blood if you want, fun fact, my blood type is ab so it's not really too useful if I donate it. I would love to bake you something and sit you down to watch a ghibli movie. I really like scrolling through your blog its very neat and i wanna put stickers and sparkles on it. Internet dad. do i have to say more? #mr. aster!! 🐈‍⬛

⭐🐍@weskers-husband - Mr. Miles!! - Hi gremlin boy I'm very glad you are here, post your art right fucking now.. Cool dude please talk to him and be cool to him, if you are mean to him I'm taking your keratin (also check out his poetry account @poems-husband >:D) #mr. miles!! ⭐🐍

🦈@whspermy-name - Mr. Minty!! - *gives you a 10 pound bag of gummy sharks and BOOKS IT for the hills* #mr. minty!! 🦈

🐀@xen-blank - Mx. Xen!! - IM INVITED TO YOUR WEDDING??? GIGGLES AND SHAKES YOU LIKE A JAR OF PICKLES glitters you glitters you glitters you glitters you glitters you glitters you glitters you glitters you (EHEHE U R SO NEATO) #mx. xen!! 🐀 You are welcome to ask to be mutuals! I will usually become moots with you on my own if I find you interesting or we just interact a ton!!

#silly little bear's friends :]

[chibitabathasloves]

i think when it comes to learning a language it's better to learn smth fun than smth u "should" i never was able to get into spanish. and theres no real reason for me to learn lithuanian but its fun ! gl w danish !!

if you do end up reading the books i'll have to warn you of p much every trigger warning on earth ? thomas harris managed to trigger me on things i didn't even know could be a problem. so be safe out there. i haven't watched SOTL in a way that matters so i can't say anything about it (i know) or hannibal rising for that matter (havent even read the book version of that) but manhunter is also another hannibal i love ! he's in it for 8 minutes though. up to you if thats worth it. feed the book notes ! :) also i wouldnt be able to judge u for ur handwriting ! i have severe dysgraphia so i understand how it is sometimes. i can't promise id be able to read it though. (also unrelated and a bit late but if you want to share the italian will/hanna nicknames i think i'd love that knowledge)

my favorite part about NBC lecter is definitely his self control. his need for control actually. and to me the most important part about lecter is his survivability. that's why to me its always funny to think "oh old man needs his fancy silk and fine dinners, he'd crumble like feta if he didn't have them" but if this turns into serious analysis of his character then its glossing over the fact that hannibal lecter has reached almost perfect ataraxia ? like, he has perfect control at all times. he has control over the situation (his constant manipulation and schemes) but if the situation slips from him (getting tied up christ style and slashed at the wrists, getting kidnapped and tied up in the stables), then it doesn't matter, he still has control. because... he doesn't care ! hannibal doesn't lose his shit pulling his hair out crying screaming if his plans don't go according to plan because he's reached perfect control over his emotions. therefore he doesn't care if things go wrong, it's just another interesting thing happening in his life. if he doesn't allow himself to feel upset, if he doesn't allow himself to freak out over the loss of control, then he's never lost control in the first place, he can't get traumatized, and it's like nothing bad happened. that's why i think any upset he might have felt over the assassination attempt was played up/acted out so he could lure alana (who is attracted to pathetic men in need of fixing like a moth to the light). thats also why i think hannibal couldn't have suffered THAT much from being in jail for three years because... idk like sure it cost him something, it cost him his freedom and everything. freedom from murder. but the fact he gave it up willingly is so much more important to who hannibal lecter is - someone who will never be in a traumatic situation ever again and never get hurt again - than any luxury he might have had when he was free and has now lost. i think in comparison the s2 finale was more of a loss of control albeit partial and i think it affected him more negatively. what are ur thoughts

Okay, so I actually have my notes out, because I am an absolute little gremlin. And you're right about the sense of control over his emotions. When he had a noose around his neck he was still cracking jokes. And you're also right about playing up the trauma. If you watch him with Jack, he has his regular collar, buttoned all the way up with a tie. With Alana he wears the shirts open with a scarf to cover up the bruises that may or may not still be there. He acts like the idea of having something constricting around his neck is unappealing, but still steps into his tailored suits and ties a scarf around his neck anyways. Its a very shallow and easily seen through disguise (bruises from a noose would be much high up his neck).

When he was in the straight jacket at the pig pen he only had eyes for Will. Understanding that despite the fact that Will could easily dispose of him, it is still not the reckoning he was promised. So its only a matter of time until that happens. Its part of the reason I think he ledt Will unconscious while abducting Mason. A lot of season 2 is about the pull between Will and Hannibal I think.

The culmination of that tug of war leads to the first time that Hannibal is let down. It was a loss of control over his emotions, after all, one cannot help with who they fall in love with. He thought that Will would join his side, or kill him. Instead he had to deal with Jack Crawford in his kitchen. Hannibal smelled the betrayal on Will’s skin and gave him a choice. But what Hannibal couldn't see was Will trying to sort out his affairs, asking Freddie to not write about Abigail, to only write about him. I think Will was getting ready to leave with him, but unfortunately due to Jack it was taken from him in the form of a knife wound. Gutting him in the literal sense compared to the emotional gutting Hannibal received.

I think the second time he is let down is around the time that Will decides that he doesn't want to know where Hannibal is. Will went to forgive Hannibal, to see if he could love him, even if he wasn't aware of the love he carried just yet. And he was met with a bone saw and the promise of having his brain eaten. Will had enough, but Hannibal thought they could move on from it. I think that Hannibal knew that despite the fact that Will said he was cutting ties, that he didn't mean it. It's really hard to tell, but Will isn't making eye contact. And I think that's really telling.

I think that part of the reason that Hannibal gives himself up in front of Will is to show that he doesn't need all the trappings, just Will's regard. Its a cheap shot, but it clearly works. He seems to grow into his ability to roll with how his love for Will makes him feel. Reveling in the unpredictable nature of it and the man who causes it. I do believe Hannibal when he said he has found Will in his mind palace, victorious. Even if its just a shade of the man he desires. Which is why I agree that the S2 finale was much more rife with trauma for them both.

I am going to stop rambling now before this turns into a dissertation oh my god

#hannibal #sansnom #i fucking rambled oh my jesus

[myfriendthedictionary]

convinced i was a dragon in a different universe from the way i hoard gift cards

#adjsjkasd is this relatable my friend said it was when i asked her #okay to reblog! #moth if ur out there i love u /p #anyway i refuse to make another personal post this soon after making some this morning i cant do that do yall #so i will just ramble in the tags here #i think im gonna make cake #or cupcakes maybe #im not very good at frosting things but my mom isnt here to tell me how badly they look this time #so maybe..... #idk tho i never know how to decorate them #also im really bored and my cats decided to sit onmy head #hes so cute but hes too big to do this #i was trying to write earlier but he sat in front of the screen and cried #im taking this as him being homophobic since i was writing smth for kate and annleigh in the band au #anyway uhhh yeah thats it ramble over thanks for reading if u got this far! #paige rambles #paige.txt #food tw #food mention #(for the tags!)

[swellwriting]

tagged by @kabeswaters​ and @fortisfiliae​ love u both sm <3 <3

1. on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? it fluctuates but right now -1 

2. describe yourself in a hashtag? #anxious

3. if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? JAKE MOTHERFUCKING GYLLENHAAL 

4. if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? i dont know what that is hah

5. what’s one thing people don’t know about you? i guess some people don’t know i’m type one diabetic??

6. what’s your wake up ritual? uh phone, animal crossing, fruit loops, weed

7. what’s your go to bed ritual? I watch asmr videos cuz im usually high as fuck and they knock me out lol, or i watch tiktok or pillow talk with my bf nick.

8. what’s your favorite time of day? like 9 pm?

9. your go to for having a good laugh? my boyfriend always makes me laugh no matter how angry or upset i am so i’d talk to him uwu

10. dream country to visit? FRANCe specifically Paris oui oui with my french candian bullshit

11. what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? when they announced 5sos was touring with one direction and i had tickets, never screamed so loud in my LIFE

12. heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers duh

13. vintage or new? vintage babey

14. who do you want to write your obituary? ME from the great beyond, the only other person who knows me well enouhg is nick and i love him but he is very stupid.

15. style icon? uh harry styles, devon lee carlson, halsey, bella hadid, tyler the creator some normal people whos style i LOVE  from insta are rebeccaramsdale , kehllie , kikalateefff , yourgirlneens , lilxmg !

16. what are three things you cannot live without? phone, insulin, art, music

17. what’s one ingredient you put in everything? probs vanilla or hotsauce, the only two flavours.

18. what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? my dead brother DJ, kurt cobain andddd ryan dunn from jackass what a weird mix.

19. what’s your biggest fear in life? loosing my senses, loosing control, the fear that i am not actually real and ... oh spiders.

20. window or aisle seat? window 

21. what’s your current tv obsession? think its gonna be adventure time again

22. favorite app? instagram or discord so i can talk to my friends uwu

23. secret talent? i can speak french and giberish

24. most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? camping i guess?

25. how would you define yourself in three words? anxious, empathetic, creative

26. favorite piece of clothing you own? my vintage star wars shirt

27. a must have clothing item that everyone should have? blank tees, good quality blank tees!!! white black grey mhmhmh

28. a superpower you would want? i’d wanna be spidergirl

29. what’s inspiring you in life right now? nothing at all :(

30. best piece of advice you’ve received? my grade six teacher telling me that i was very empathetic as i was sitting at the back of the class crying because of the movie we were watching, she told me not everyone is empathetic like i am but its okay to be soft. but not to expect that from everyone else.

31. best advice you’d give your teenage self? teenage me was a mess but not messy enough that i’d change anything. i’d just say, things get better but im currently back in the state teenage me was in so...i’d be lying. maybe that wanting to kill yourself does not count as a personality trait - and start reading comics earlier cuz u really like them.

32. a book everyone should read? i read wack books, everyone on tumblr should read fangirl tho

33. what would you like to be remembered for? something i created

34. how do you define beauty? self expression and individuality 

35. what do you love most about your body? wait people love their bodies? not everyone was severly damaged by online diet culture and thigh gap era tumblr? weird ok

36. best way to take a rest/decompress? weed or bath or a movie

37. favorite place to view art? there is an art gallery in saskatchewan that i love, i was suposed to go there this summer before corona took over :(((

38. if your life was a song, what would the title be? either something short like “mellow” or fob style like “im so anxiuos all the time and nothing ever feels real and i dont know what im doing but somehow im doing pretty good while feeling prety bad and laughing through my tears lol.” or i’d steal “teen idle” by marina and the diamonds.

39. if you could master one instrument, what would it be? guitar or piano because im lame at both.

40. if you had a tattoo, where would it be? i want two moths above my knees rn

41 dolphins or koalas? neither

42. what’s an animal that represents you? im more of a pokemon, i think id be jigglypuff

43. best gift you’ve ever received? whenever nick buys me clothes from stussy or maybe infinity on high on vinyl.

44. best gift you’ve given? i bought nick the entire sin city comic series in one giant book.

45. what’s your favorite board game? monopoly

46. what’s your favorite color? yellow

47. least favorite color? that weird pinky purple

48. diamond or pearls? pearls

49. drugstore makeup or designer? colour pop and fenty

50. pilates or yoga? yoga

51. coffee or tea? tea

52. what’s the weirdest word in the english language? pumpernickle is my fav one.

53. dark chocolate or milk chocolate? MILK

54. stairs or elevators? stairs

55. summer or winter? summer, canadian winters are brutal.

56. you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? ur asking someone who has very specific comfort foods so i already do this - cheese bagel toasted with cream cheese and then toasted again to melt cheddar cheese on top. with a diet coke thats very important.

57. a dessert you don’t like? cheesecake 

58. a skill you’re working on mastering? im crazy so this is a lot but - writing , drawing and painting, polymer clay, sewing, resin art and pottery.

59. best thing to happen to you today? nothing

60. worst thing to happen to you today? the line at starbucks was too long and i had to get wendys instead, and a few other things i won’t mention.

61. best compliment you’ve ever received? whenever my mom says i remind her of my brother dj, when people say anything nice about my art or writing style. when people ask about my clothes. when my friend jess called me a “known softie” uwu

62. favorite smell? lavender

63. hugs or kisses? hugs

64. if you made a documentary, what would it be about? i’d talk about star wars for hours on end 

65. last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? of mice and men made me ball my fucking eyes out

66. lipstick or lipgloss? chapstickk

67. sweet or savory? sweet

68. girl crush? Zendaya

69. how do you know you’re in love? idk ive just always been in love with nick (since i was 15) before i even really knew what love was, i guess if the other person feels like home, you know ur doing something right.

70. a song you can listen to on repeat? nine in the afternoon by p!atd or a match into water by peirce the veil, over my head by fleetwood mac

71. if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? harry styles that mysterious fucker

72. what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? currently not looking forward to anything becase my life is super uncertain right now ha.. maybe the release of the chaos walking movie whenever that decides to happen.

tagging: i assume yall have been tagged in this already but just incase @beskarjedi @woakiees @bluemadcnna @carolinesbookworld  @theseuscmander and anyone else who wants to do this consider urself tagged.

#this said im depressed and i love my boyfriend #tag game #question game

[dilfsdotnet]

Yo you should answer all of these scene questions👀👀

:OOO

you think so lad???? shit dawg i was thinkin just a few at a time but if that what u want my dear nonnie i will supply

1. wats ur scene name?

i was thinkin maybe ‘gods mistake’ would be a good one but then. i found a way to make it both danganronpa related, and, even better, a fucking pun as well. ‘kamukura kamukura jasqueen’, or just ‘kamukura jasqueen’ for short is good k thxxx

2. describe ur dream outfit!

oooo gosh this ones trickyy!! there are so many good outfits out there, especially in the scene community!! but it’d have to have a few tiny elements of dr cosplay to add a lil of my dangan-weeb culture in there ofc! more specifically, id really love to get one of kazuichis jumpsuit and just wig out and add shit like this just because i could:

(id just rlly love going out in all those glowy/shiny things at night like all that haha..and yes the shoes would probably kill me/my fuckin feet if i tried to walk in them but shut up i love them theyre cute as fuck)

3. describe ur dream haircut!

oo another tricky one!! i do like my regular hair, and honestly id be lying if i said i didnt love ibuki’s hairdo too but id defs have to go with something like this!!

yaaaassss, so pretty and spikeeeey! maybe id dye my natural hair colour black and/or add some funky colours if i ever actually got this style down!

4. describe ur dream room!

i have a lot of ideas for dream bedrooms actually, but heres a visual image of one of them i found!!!

MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM

(this specific idea arose mainly just for the aesthetic but i also find it super cute and a good environment to be in general hhhnnggg)

5. if u could make anything out of kandi, wat would u make?

oh you mean those colourful beads and bracelet things??? i love those man!!! theyre so visually appealing to me aaaaa…id probably just make a fuck-ton of those and most probably use the little letter beads to say random words/phrases like ‘aubergine’ and ‘despacito’ knowing my shitposter self lmaooo! id definitely make a sansmaeda themed one too thoo fr

6. wat would u write on ur shoez?

it’d probably range from things like a simple kaomoji doodle to something randum and stupid like ‘seesaw’ bc yes asjnd

7. wat kinda piercingz/tattooz do u hav/want?

i dont think i rlly want any real piercings (at least not atm) but id totally go for those fake stick-on gemstone lookin’ ones! and as for tattoos, i cant rlly see myself gettin one of those rn either, but id want something like a mario power-up, preferably the bell one/cat suit powerup!!! its my favorite powerup and its sooo cute!!!

8. fave genrez?

i dont rlly have a specific genre, i like most kinds of music, but i rlly like energetic music that i can dance tooo!!! >w

9. fave bandz?

im a big fan of gorillaz and botdf!!! i like p!atd as well but havent listened to it in a while.. gatta catch up loool

10. fave songz?

my favs alternate a lot, but atm im super into ‘slow dancing in the dark’ by joji!!! so much emotiooon quq…also rlly hooked on botdf and jefree star’s ‘sexting’ tooo lmaooo

11. fave lyricz?

‘The world keeps spinning Among this sinning Oh what a cruel and disgusting place The purest moonlight Is bloodied by plight And screaming resonants But somehow I know That it’s all for show The world will reveal it’s true beauty soon And we’ll all reach towards the moon ‘

its so deep but its from a fucking kaito momota fansong and i love that asnkjdnefe

12. hav u evr been to a concert?

not in a damn long while my lad,, rip australians not havin many artists they like from other countries tour there ;-;

13. do u wanna be in a band?

ive always thought thatd be pretty cool ngl!!! tourin around with ur bandmate friends, makin awesome fuckin tunes, people lovin u and ur music, just livin the dream in general,, nice

14. wats da best soda/energy drink flavour?

havent rlly had any as of rn  my lad so i wouldnt know :/

15. wat do u miss most abt old internet?

i loved that we could all just be ourselves and act like the kids we are inside without bein reprimanded at all.. it aint rlly that much of an issue for me but i still think itd be a lot nicer if it was like that again sometimes,,

16. wats da best old meme?

ooohhh there are so many i still miss man! numa numa ermagerd and doge still remind me of the glory days…when old animeme was good and you could still haz ur cheezburgers in peace. also rage comics! rage comics were good what happened

17. best place 2 buy clothez?

i dont think theres any hot topics in australia but if there is. i will hunt it down you hear me

18. wat r ur fave accessoriez?

OH THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES??? as i stated b4 i rly love kandi bracelets and other glowy/led things!!! also rlly love ties with cute and fun patterns and long colourful and/or ripped socks like ibuki’s too hehe

19. wats ur best tip fr ppl that just got into scenecore?

im not rlly the best at advice, but my main point would be-just hav fun here dudes!!! dont let anyone else bulli u abt it, we’re supportive people, u can talk to me or anyone else whos willin to listen an/or help for reassurance ofc

20. opinion on furbiez?

oOH MY GOD YES. FURBIES. MY BABIES I WANT 10 OF THESE CHILDREN…I ACTUALLY HAVE A FURBY HE LIKES SLEEPING IN HIS SPECIAL DRAWER AND HIS NAME IS TINGLE I ADORE HIM I’LL POST A OF PICTURE LATER MAYBE

21. opinion on funko popz?

i like em and ive seen lots at eb games, but i dont buy em much..i do have a megaman pop with a broken arm tho loool

22. wats ur fave pattern? (zebra/leopard print etc)

i looove a lot of patterns but not gonna lie im always a sucker for rainbow checkerboard patterns yknow hehe!

23. fave color combo?

i dont have one rlly…soooo many possible comboooos…cx

24. sumthing u liked as a kid dat u still like?

im still going on girlsgogames and recently, ive finally mastered sues beauty machine!!!! its so good and fun all of ya’ll should try it my dudeeees

25. wats ur most used emoticon? 0w0

as most of ya’ll probs alredy know i spam ‘:O’ a lot, but one of my bigger favs is actually ‘x3′ and my fav kaomoji is ‘ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧’ (both of them are so kyooot >w

26. wats ur fav typin quirk?

i luv talkin like dis, but i dont rly do it that often loool…i awso wuv tawking in ‘owo’ speak wike dis >//w//>

27. do u wish ur fllwrz talked 2 u moar?

hellz yeaaa!!! i luv followr interaction my dudee! it makes me super happi when u all talk to me heehee! x3c

28. tag ur fave scene blawgz!

:O !!! oh gawd!!! i dont know many atm but heeereee!

@xxadam-antidotexx (op of the ask meme)

@glitchkichi (not sure if this counts but their stuff’s rlly cool >v

@otonashi-banana (scene boyf…wuv im more than anythin >///w///>

29. wat got u into scenecore?

i dont remember exactly how it happened but i’d always sorta wanted to go back to the glory days that was the old web and the scene era, and that, coupled with a bright, colourful aesthetic that i could really enjoy, drew me in like a moth to a neon colored flame ig looollll

30. how long hav u been scene?

i’ve only been officially apart of the community for about a few months now (at time of writing) i reckon so some things are still a lil new to me ig ^^;;

31. wats da best thing abt being scene?

the freedom of bein able to express myself 4 one thing, and its just so fun being so ‘out-there’ yknow???? it feels so great really

32. do u hav a fursona?

i…actually used to but ive moved on from the furry fandom and ive grown more attached to my human sona anyway sooo :/

33. r u in sum “cringy” fandomz?

YEA man!! i dont rlly think dr is inherently considered ‘cringey’ but undertale is and im in that one for sure!!! i also kinda technically never left the skylanders fandom(?) so theres that too ig??? oh yeah and who wants to let me draw my old moshi monsters characters COWARDS

34. do u liek plushiez?

YASSSS QUEEEN!!!! i have HEAPS of them in my room on my desk with my gonta shrine

35. do u liek stickerz?

also a big yaaassss from me dawggg!!! i love them and i love those ones that you stick on your fase like this!

its so cuuute!!!

36. do u hav a friendproject?

i dont, not at the moment a least, actually! didnt even know what it was til recently but it looks kewl haha

37. do u hav any other scene account?

well, i haz this one, and i also have an emowire account for shuichi if that counts!!

38. do u make art? (drawingz, blingeez, etc.)

YES!!! i love to draw and i also make blingee edits sometimes!!! ITS SO FUN XD !!!

39. wats da most scene thing? (anything!)

hmmm, weeell…i think the most stereotyped thing would be that kewl, suuuper big hair like this;

its really prettyyyy, and i love all that colouuur!!!

40. ask ur own randum question!!

hm, oh wowie, since the anon didnt specifically ask this one…POTATOES!!! X3

phew, finally done, that was a lot of typing! this was so fun to do though, so thank u nonnie!!! :3

#ask #ask meme #scene revival #scenecore #scene kid #scene #anon #oh god what now jasu

[spirit-shroud]

001: Underteltarune 002: Niko x Pancakes 003: Tinsel

nines i love u but ur really out here doing this to me huh? link to that one ask meme

On the Underrune Amalgamate: 

Favorite character: Asgore, Kris

Least Favorite character: Toriel (shes scary and reminds me too much of my real mom who is Not Nice ;~:) 

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): god i dont even like. know 5 ships. i dont really even partake in shipping anymore i just see cute fanart of two characters holding hands and im just like ‘hell yea’ 

Character I find most attractive: can i say asgore again without getting kinkshamed on main? because. ykno

Character I would marry: i think we already know the answer to this one (its asgore)

Character I would be best friends with: Papyrus, Napstablook, Noelle 

A random thought: i would die for toby fox

An unpopular opinion: i think the vast majority of sans-centric AUs are really weird? like. yeah sans is really cool. i think sans is really cool. i used to write primarily sans x reader fanfiction. i was a real skeleton fucker back in the day. but like. why dont we have wacky interdimensional AUs of like. anyone else. but at the same time the fanon version of Sans, as a standalone, collective OC we made, is really cool i think considering the real canon version is so.....underwhelming.also ralsei is 100% going to turn out evil or manipulative or otherwise a bad guy. i feel in my bones that that fluffy boy isn’t the friend we think he is. i will gladly engage in rampant discourse over this and i would love to read some other opinions on it. please @ me. 

My canon OTP: it warms my heart to know alphyne is canon in at least one place even if it isnt in dr

Non-canon OTP: ralsei x kris is the Good Shit 

Most badass character: susie Big Good and i’d let her forcibly remove my face

Pairing I am not a fan of: people are really out here shipping mettaton and gaster for some reason? i mean like the art of it is always amazing and what little i’ve read has been p nice. but like. what’s up with that. whack

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): honestly a lot of the characters, more specifically in UT rather than DR, feel incredibly flat. like once you start taking away your own projections onto the characters you realize that they really only have half a side to them at most and the rest is so vague and up for interpretation that there’s really no character there. except for like, papyrus, asgore, and flowey who are somewhat more dimensional. DR’s characters are about as whole as they’re going to be for the next 2-7 years and they feel much more like characters than, like, 9 projections in a trench coat 

Favourite friendship: all of them,,,, 

On Whatever The Fuck That Is: 

when or if I started shipping it: nines can you please do me a favour and inconvenience yourself in some way today? please like. forget your coffee in the microwave. fail to reheat something properly. lose under 100 words of a paper or a small layer of an art project. just. something. it is your atonement for making me read the words ‘niko x pancakes’ with my own two eyes in my own home 

On Tinsel (does it count if it’s my own oc? i dont think so. however, i’m such a ho for talking about my own characters i’ll do it anyway): 

How I feel about this character: son boy... a real idiot dumb teenager who i will protect with my life. and if anything happens to him that is out of my hands i’ll cry over it probably 

All the people I ship romantically with this character: i ship them w kris but only because oc x canon is good. you can expect a multichapter fanfiction starring this eventually because i have no self control. 

My non-romantic OTP for this character: tinsel + maple (jenny’s oc!!) is very good. they’re the Dumb Idiot Gang and they’re currently trying to invade the Mothia via wearing lots of feather boas and fake wings to disguise themselves as moths. 

My unpopular opinion about this character: can you have unpopular opinions about your own oc???

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: it’s still the beginning of the DR RP we’re doing so i don’t have much of a thought on this one yet. however i do hope someone makes an OC i can aggressively pair him off with for, ykno, reasons 

My OTP: the ultimate platonic fun gang consists of tinsel, maple, dorothy and luke so that’s what we’re going with

My OT3: nah 

[fxrris]

hello my friends it is i, ur friendly neighbourhood canadian moose !! i’m 20, use she/her pronouns, and i’m a virgo sun, pisces moon & scorpio rising. also a future vet but we don’t like to talk abt school because yikes !! i’m rly excited for this y’all don’t even know. this is my bby ferris & she’s a bit of a nut buT i hope u like her anyway ?? i’m a thirsty hoe and i wanna plot w all of u so HMU or just LIKE THIS and i’ll come to you !! u can also peep her pinterest board HERE for a lil more vibes but more info abt her under the cut !!

holy shit! did you see that? oh wait, that’s just ferris mcelroy, the local madelaine petsch lookalike. apparently, she’s been in Moon Valley for twenty-one whole years! they’re very enthralling, but also pretty reticent, which is why: a bouquet of wilted flowers, dirt caked under chipped fingernails, smudged eyeliner, and moths surrounding a flickering light describes their vibe effortlessly. I wonder what this 21 year old hopes to discover in good ol’ Moon Valley.

she’s v inspired by jennifer from the movie phenomena and a lil bit of luna lovegood !!!

so ferris was born & raised in moon valley and has lived there her entire life !! 

she’s always been a bit of an unusual gal ig ?? a quiet girl who kept to herself while her identical twin sister, piper was like...the more outgoing & friendly & popular one. but the two were still best friends & ferris didn’t really care that ppl didnt like her as much

she actually preferred it that way bc she’s always really liked being alone. she very very rarely spoke up as a child and ppl and teaches especially thought she was just dumb but she is actually v intelligent

1000000% nature hoe !!! she grew up always being outside and playing with bugs and in the trees. always walkin around barefoot and trying to talk to and befriend the plants and animals

she very much believes that she has a deep spiritual like......paranormal connection to nature?? fully believes that she can communicate with and understand plants, animals & insects and sense how they’re feeling and vice versa. she is very in Tune with the world around her

so she’s quite sensitive and her mood / attitude / emotions are also v heavily affected by like....nature and the weather and stuff u know. but she’s happy when it rains.

tw: missing person / death !! her twin sister piper went missing shortly after their 17th birthday and her whereabouts are still unknown. no one knows what happened to her and her mom still hasn’t given up the search. it was such a tragedy and it rly tore the family apart as u can imagine??? about a year after, ferris’ parents split up and her dad moved away bc he couldn’t rly take it and her mom is.....still pretty shook up about it. she refuses to stop trying to find piper and bc of that people think she’s a bit nutty ???? but what else is she supposed to do u know thats her babY. and she lowkey.....resents ferris bc she is just a constant reminder of their once picture perfect family and her mom always lowkey liked piper more rip

even tho no one knows where piper is or what happened, ferris fully believes 1000000% that she’s dead and the two of the can communicate. she was really devastated when she first disappeared as u can imagine but after speaking to her sister she is no longer upset about it bc she believes that her sister is at peace now and in a better place. she claims that her sister speaks to her in her dreams and also that she can communicate with her spirit. 

is it real ???? is it just her way of coping?????????? we will never know for Sure.

lots of people think she is just like.....out of her mind & full of it but she doesn’t rly care ??? like....these are her experiences and if u dont believe her oh well !!! join the club !!!!!

she has major insomnia that only got worse after her sister disappeared. she’s basically the queen of the no sleep club and she’s always tired but.....the bitch can’t sleep !!!!

she is basically in her own little dream world at all times and can be p disconnected from reality ????? like....she’s always got her head in the clouds

she lowkey ruins everything good in her life and is consistently fucking up. she has a tendency to push ppl away ?? just because like......idK she just doesn’t rly think people would like her if they rly got to know her so it’s better to keep people at a distance to start with rather than get attached and have them fuck off???? she’s never had good luck w relationships so it’s kind of sketchy to her

but she feels everything so deeply like.....she’s an incredibly sensitive person she feels everything sO MUCH

her house is an bug zOO. like, she has pet tarantulas and stick bugs and giant millipedes and ant farms and probably cockroaches and shit too like.....it’s GROSS but she thinks they’re rly cool and she likes to talk to them

she’s worked at the amusement park since she was 16!!!! she sells cotton candy :’)

her sexuality is v fluid and she identities as queer !!! she doesn’t rly think abt it too much ig ??? she just......likes whoever she likes and it’s not some big deal to her u know

did i mention that she luvs bugs bc..........................she luvs bugs

smokes a lot of weed probably mostly to help her sleep but also bc.....why Not. when she’s high she’ll just talk about shit forever man which is wild bc she barely talks when she’s sober ???

as for wanted connections i literally want...........everythinG but here is a lil list of ideas !!

a best friend !! probably since they were v young like,.......the one person who rly knows her inside & out and she can trust with anything

a drug dealer !!!!! i imagine she would be like kind of friends w them ?? since she is prob blowing up their phone a lot lmao. also just ppl she can get high with would b cool as well

an ex !!! she probably got scared and pushed them tf away and ran for her LIFE bc she just.......has Issues and it’s hard for her to connect w people

her sister’s friends !!!! this is something i REALLLYYYY want bc piper was v popular and well-loved so it would be interesting ??? they could like....resent her or think she’s a total freak or remind them of piper and they want to be her friend or literally anything i just Want it

maybe some hookups or somethin

someone who like....deadass just thinks she’s a fucking weirdo

also !!!! someone she has a big crush on but.....she is like too nervous to talk to them or like act on it or anything

some friends maybe

literally anything

#moon:intro #this is rlY shitty bc i have to leave right awaaY and i rushed but pls :') #come luv me i luv u all

[feral222]

98 questions

Thank you @hunbunnybby for tagging me aaaah 💖💖

1. Full name: my first name is sophie

2. Nicknames: /

3. Birthday: september first!

4. Age: uhm old/

5. Zodiac star sign: virgo

6. Moon sign: sag

7. Ascendant: aquarius

8. Venus: virgo

9. Gender: female

10. Pronouns: she/her

11. Sexuality: ???????????????

12. Myer-Briggs type: enfj or entj i cant remember aah

13. Relationship status: relationship 💖

14. Best friend: good question :)

15. Religion: next question :)

16. Favorite color: pink, red, orange and light blue

17. Favorite music genre: oh. hiphop. i guess

18. Favorite band/artist: besides being slightly overobsessing over lil pump, brockhampton And bts ofc, i listen to lil peep and other useless weird music, also german hiphop/ cloudrap, i am basically trash when it comes to music. oh and lana

19. Favorite song: top 5 bc i Can't decide: bts - baepsae, brockhampton - zipper, lil peep - star shopping, lana del rey - cherry, yung hurn - rot

20. Favorite holiday: christmas, i love getting presents and i love food, and i love being cozy

21. Favorite tv show: gossip girl or dance academy or avatar

22. Favorite youtuber: probably amber scholl i love her

23. Favorite perfume/cologne: i'm poor, i have body sprays wow. i love coconnut and i love warm scents

24. Favorite season: late spring early summer, the first really hot days where ur filled with joy about the hot weather and just drown urself in ice tea

25. Favorite flower: pansies and roses

26. Favorite gemstone: rose quartz

27. Favorite roller coaster: /

28. Favorite fruit: peaches, strawberries, watermelon

29. Favorite vegetable: in german its called kohlrabi, i translated it and its the same in english apparently. its the best. you can eat it raw like a snecc, or stuff it, or just cook it. i love it

30. Favorite icecream flavor: lemon, or cookie dough

31. Favorite candy: anything with caramel or vanilla

32. Favorite restaurant: /

33. Favorite fast food restaurant: K f c their mashed potatoes are??? heavenly

34. Favorite starburst flavor: /

35. Favorite pizza topping: sweet corn and mild chillis and mozarella ofc

36. Favorite chip flavor: saltyyyy

37. Favorite non-alcoholic beverage: ice tea. flavoured water with like peach or tropical. gimme that cancer juice. waldmeister lemonade, god tier drink.

38. Favorite alcoholic beverage: mama russia :) and also i like baileys, and gin n t is very drinkable lol. at the end of the day i drink everything but i hate everything hard except for vodka, like i hate whiskey and rum its disgusting

39. Favorite video game: zelda or tboi

40. Favorite board game: /

41. Favorite city: p a r i s, where i wanted to go this year. but now bts tickets (!!!!!sdkjfghasdiufhzaisudfz THEYRE COMING TO GERMANY) are more important so goodbye summer vacation :)

42. Favorite dog breed: everyone, but the extra fluffy ones? Special

43. Favorite animal: moths. cats, deer

44. Favorite number: 2

45. Coffee or tea: tea

46. Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla

47. Leather or denim: denim

48. Short or long sleeves: short, or long sleeves rolled up

49. Patterned or plain: both :)

50. Floral or plaid: neither

51. Black or white: both

52. Makeup or no makeup: makeup

53. Tumblr or Twitter: tumblr

54. Facebook or Snapchat or Instagram: ig

55. Phone or tablet or computer: phone

56. Liberal or conservative: bruh its 2018 not 1918

57. Sunrises or sunsets: sunrise

58. Are you vegetarian: no

59. Are you vegan: no

60. Are you allergic to anything: cats. i cri

61. Are you polyamorous: no

62. Have you been out of state: ya

63. Have you been out of country: ya

64. Have you kissed a boy: ya

65. Have you kissed a girl: no

66. Have you kissed an enby: no

67. Have you broken a bone: no

68. Have you been to the emergency room: ya, infected a fresh thing with all the blood and juicy things :)

69. Have you ever been high: not yet

70. Have you ever been drunk: ha i had 2 blackouts this year already :)

71. Have you ever been in a band or choir: ya

72. Have you ever catfished someone: no

73. Do you have any siblings: ya

74. Do you live with your parents: no

75. Do you have more than 100 followers: ya

76. Do you have more than 1,000 followers: no

77. Do you have more than 10,000 followers: no

78. Do you smoke weed: no

79. Do you drink: too often but not often enough. once a week or every 2 weeks is ok

80. Do you have a job: kinda

81. Do you own any musician/youtuber merch: i own merch by: marina and the diamonds, yung lean, lgoony, miyavi, yung hurn, eeeehm more probably

82. Do you have any internet friends: ya n i luv u

83. Do you play any instruments: i wish

84. Where did you go/are you going to college: i am rn :)

85. College major: textiles and clothing

86. Names of all your group chats: dont have friends apparently oops

87. Tap the middle autofill button 10 times:

88. What time zone do you live in: +1 i think? europe time

89. Your best friend’s sign: /

90. Your 2nd, 3rd, and 4th closest friends’ signs: my close friends are pisces, aries, gemini, sag

91. Your crush’s sign: my boi is a cap

92. Your mom’s sign: leo

93. Your dad’s sign: aquarius

94. Your sibling(s)’ sign(s): leo

95. Your enemy’s sign: i hate leos.

96. Your ex(s)’ sign(s): /

97. An ex best friend’s sign: leo

98. Tag 5 people to participate: idk who to tag. i tag @kanashii-yunikon and @slowtofu <3

#personal

[phandomsecretvalentines]

(darling don't be afraid) i will love you

Happy late-vday-early-bday @ryn-exe (can’t tag?)!!! Hope u enjoy, soz if it’s not good but i’m not so amazing(phil)

This is 2.1k words. There’s a bit of dream-violence (not in detail) and a lot of anxiety and fear so if u don’t like that stuff!! Tell me!!!! And i’ll write something else for you, i don’t mind. (You didn’t say anything i wasn’t supposed to write but idk). I’d describe this as hurt/comfort i think lmaooo

Basic summery i wrote fo myself: Dan and Phil, and how they deal with each other’s 3am fears (2009 vs 2018, now)

From a pitch-hitter 💓💓

——

[Saturday; 10.26.09; 03:37]

——

Dan<33 (03:37): phil? :[

Phil (03:45): Yrha

Phil (03:47): Sorry!! Yeah**

Phil (03:47): Why are you up so early/late?? I barely woke up

Dan<33 (03:49): sorry i woke you :/

Dan<33 (03:50): my parents went away for a bit and i’m home alone and i cant turn off the lights cuz im too scared

Dan<33 (03:51): and i can’t sleep so bad even hugging pillow cant help mee :[[

Dan<33 (03:52): so im sitting in the hallway with every light im the house on alone in just my pants

Dan<33 (03:52): and i was a idiot and missed you so i woke you up at so late and now ur gonna hate me crap

Dan<33 (03:52): sorry

Phil (03:53): I’ll never ever hate you dan!!! <<33333333333333

Phil (03:53): I’m sorry ur so scared :[[ I wish I was there to be strong and protect u again

Dan<33 (03:54): i wish you were here too

Phil (03:54): :[ <3

Dan<33 (03:58): CDAP PHIL I THINK I HESRF A GHOST

Dan<33 (03:58): IR MONSTER

Dan<33 (03:58): FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Phil (03:59): Dan oh my gosh are you okay??

Dan<33 (04:00): yeah i think but

Dan<33 (04:00): i heard something phil

Dan<33 (04:01): im scared

Dan<33 (04:02): i can’t believe im 18 and i’m actually sobbing out of fear alone and naked in a hallway over a fucking noise

Dan<33 (04:02): to my boyfriend

Dan<33 (04:02): on skype

Dan<33 (04:03): fuck

Phil (04:03): Dan :[[ i’m so sorry

Dan<33 (04:04): it’s not your fault

Phil (04:04): Want me to call you??? (If u want)

Dan<33 (04:05): can we skype instead?

Dan<33 (04:05): i want to see your face plz <3

Dan<33 (04:05): if thats okay

Phil (04:06): That’s fine! One sec plz :]

——

[Phil would like to add Dan<33 to a call (02:33)]

[Accept] [Decline]

[Accepted]

——

When Dan answered the call, his face was red and puffed and wet. Even through the crap-pixel screen quality, Phil could see that.

“Hey,” Dan’s voice broke.

“Hi,”

Dan was shaking slightly.

His face suddenly flushed, “Oh shit, I forgot – I’m, uh, in only pants. In front of you. Crap.”

“It’s fine, I’ve seen you shirtless before.” Phil smiled what he hoped was reassuringly, “Are you okay?”

“Yeah — I mean, I am now. I guess.”

“Are you cold?”

“Kinda.” Dan admitted.

“Want to go to bed?”

“My room is too dark –”

“Well, I’ll be there, wont I? And I’ll protect you from everything bad in the dark.”

“You’re not really here.”

“Only ever a few hours away. And if worst comes to worst, I have the police line and the monster-killer line. So you’ll be super safe.”

Dan muffled a giggle, “Yeah, okay.”

He shuffled up off the floor, and made his way into his bedroom, clutching the laptop tightly.

“I dunno if I’m getting any sleep tonight, honestly.”

“You will! You can cuddle your pillow and I’ll tell you stories until the demons go away and you can sleep.”

“I’m not five, Phil.” There was no malice in his reply.

“You don’t need to be five for any of that to be true.” Phil said, serious tone.

“Okay,”

Minutes later, Dan was snuggled under his covers; hugging a pillow tightly as he listened to Phil go on about some guy at the market.

“Then, he pulled a hot dog out of his left pocket. Who keeps a single —”

“Phil?” Dan interrupted, his voice was dripping with sleep.

“Mm?”

“Do you think I’m stupid?”

“No.” Phil answered simply.

“I mean – for being so scared of such dumb stuff. Seven-year-olds are braver than me.”

“It’s okay to have fears, Dan. I bet you’re not the only adult with those fears either,”

“I’m scared of the dark. And ghosts and monsters and moths and demons and –”

“– and that’s fine. I don’t mind.”

“And it’s not annoying to deal with? I’m not?”

“You will never be annoying to ‘deal with’; I promise.”

Phil meant it.

——

[Monday; 12.07.09; 02:59]

——

Phil :]]]<333333 (02:59): Dan?

Dan (03:00): yeah??? <3

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:03): I’m scared

Dan (03:04): of what :[[

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): I dunno it’s just creaky downstairs and I’m alone for the night I guess

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:04): Nvm

Dan (03:05): no tell me i want to help u

Dan (03:05): plz

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:07): Well it’s just that

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): It’s really dark and windy

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:08): And there was a tree snapping against my window I thought our house might’ve blown down

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:09): And I thought i heard thunder which usually isn'tn too bad but right now its scaring me a bit

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): I don’t wanna be alone rn is all

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): But i am brave! So it’ll be okay i think

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:10): Don’t worry about me <33

Dan (03:11): i want to worry :[

Dan (03:11): you don’t always have to be brave <333 ily and i would give you the biggest hug if i were there

Dan (03:12): and tell the trees and thnder to fuck off and let you sleep

Dan (03:12): and then we would sleep all cuddled up togerher like we do sometimes and it would be warm and nice

Dan (03:14): i wish i were there with you

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): You will be someday so it’s okay now too :]

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:15): But plz tell the trees and thunder to fuck off it’s very loud :’[[[

Dan (03:16): if u call me i will????

Phil :]]]<333333 (03:17): Lol okay :p

——

[Incoming call from Dan]

[Accepted]

——

“Hi!” Dan really should be quieter; last time he called Phil at three in the morning his dad had yelled at him.

“Hi,” Phil’s sleep-laced voice answered.

A booming crack of thunder, and a whimper.

“Don’t worry – it… won’t hurt you.” Despite everything, Dan was sometimes still quite new to the role of 'comfort’ in their relationship.

“I know, just loud.”

Dan wished he was like Phil. He wished he could just pull out an intresting story, a funny idea.

“Sorry.”

He wasn’t like Phil, though.

“Want to play a game?”

“What game could we possibly play through a phone call?” Dan could practically hear Phil rolling his eyes.

Dan wracked his brain for quick ideas.

“Eye-Spy?”

“We’re… not in the same room Dan.”

“Yeah, true.”

Dan’s room suddenly felt rather empty and uninteresting.

Dan felt empty and uninteresting.

“What do you want me to do?” He finally muttered.

He held his breath.

“I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down. I like when you rant about things you love.”

Let it out.

“Oh. Well – want to hear my never-ending thoughts on WALL-E then?”

“Definitely.”

——

[Sunday; 02.04.18; 04:12]

——

“Phil?”

“Mhm?” He rolled over and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, “What’re you doing up?”

“There was a moth.”

“A moth?”

“Yes!” Dan looked around the room nervously, rolling on his heels, “It’s in the lounge somewhere and I can’t sleep knowing it’s out there — lurking.”

Phil groaned.

“Fucking kill it! Or set it free, I dunno. I just need it gone.”

“You are truly the perfect mix of 'needy child’ and 'angry businessman’, Danny.”

“Fuck off.”

“Mm, lemme get a cup then.”

Phil shoved on his glasses and stumbled out of bed into the kitchen, Dan following closely behind.

“Where was it again?” He asked, grabbing a wine glass from the cupboard.

They hadn’t really drank much alcohol these past few years– since Dan had gone on antidepressents— but they still always kept the glasses, to drink Ribena and seem fancy.

“No! You’ll need a bigger cup, it’s huge.” He whined.

“Okay,” he grabbed another glass, “where is it?”

“In the lounge last I saw.”

“I’ll go look, you get a piece of paper.”

Genuine terror painted over Dan’s face, “I don’t want to be alone.”

“Christ’s sake Dan, it’s a moth, not an armed burglar. I think you’ll live.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I do. Now, just go a minute.”

He then ventured into the lounge, still half-drowned by sleep, when he heard a shriek.

“Dan?”

“Phil! Fucking help!”

Anyone else might’ve thought Dan was being held at gunpoint from the panicked way he was yelling.

“Coming!”

He went into the hall; Dan was standing there, paralysed with fear, as a giant moth flew circles around him. He had tears threatening to fall.

“Oh dear,”

Phil went over to the closet and grabbed a broom, spent a few go’s waving it around– and almost hitting Dan in the process— before smacking it head on.

“Aw, now I feel bad for killing it,” He whispered.

Dan was on the floor now, shaking, tears stained down his cheeks. He was in only pants.

And Phil was there.

“Well, the moth’s gone now isn’t it?” He crouched down next to Dan, putting his hands gently on his shoulders.

“Mmm,” Dan had his head tucked in his knees.

“Are you okay?”

Silence.

“That’s fine. Want me to make you some tea?”

“Yeah.”

“Okay.”

A few minutes later, in the kitchen, with dried cheeks; “I can’t believe how much of a wimp I am.”

The kettle rang, and Phil took it off the stove carefully.

“No —”

“I know, I know, my therapist told me. 'It’s never weak to have fears’. But I cried over a fucking moth. In our hallway. It’s late and –”

“– and that’s okay.”

“It’s not okay Phil!”

“It’s fine in the moment, that’s what I mean.”

He grabbed a NASA mug, and poured the boiling water in a teapot.

“I must be exhausting.”

Phil dropped in a teabag.

He still remembered. It was a promise made at 4am; a promise over Skype to a more-than-slightly-terrified eighteen year old.

A promise made to a bunch of pixel’s with a name and a face and fear.

A promise his Dan probably didn’t even remember, honestly.

“No, I promised that much.”

“Mhm,”

He poured the tea.

“So, two sugars or three?”

“Two.”

——

[Friday; 02.16.18; 05:12]

——

Dan was on the sofa; snuggled up in blankets and watching the winter Olympics through his small Iphone screen. His eyes were heavy, he yawned.

Their bedroom door squeaked opened.

“Hey,” Phil spoke quietly.

“Up so late?”

“You’re up too.”

“Well — I’m watching the Olympics. You know it’s on late in the UK.”

“Alright.” Phil shuffled into the kitchen, grabbing a glass and leaving the cupboard door wide open.

“Why are you awake?”

“Just another nightmare, s'fine.”

“Then why did you come out here?”

His voice might’ve been read as upset – he was just tired. Half the time Dan honestly didn’t mean to come off so rude.

“Dunno,”

“What was it about?”

“Uh — I think my family was trapped, you included, and I was the only person who could save them. But I had to do something… I think, I had to open a lock to somewhere? But I was too nervous. I saw everyone die; I knew it was my fault. I saw – you know, blood. Not too much. But it’s fine.”

As he spoke, he went over to the sink and got a glass of water, adding iced-cubes; his tone was unnaturally cool and casual.

“But I heard your skull shatter –”

“What the fuck —”

“Sorry! You asked though.”

“No – I mean, that’s horrible. Jesus christ, are you okay?”

Phil shrugged, “It happens, it’s okay though. Just a dream.”

It was only at that moment Dan noticed Phil’s eyes were a little too redded, his words a little bit shaky.

Phil started back to their room.

“Are you going back to sleep?”

“Probably.” His reply was tired.

“Oh – uh, well, why don’t you stay with me and watch the Olympics? I know you’ve never really cared, not your thing, but still I think that —”

“Sure! I’ll stay, yeah.” Phil quickly answered.

“Okay.”

Phil put his glass of water back down on the counter, and walked over to the sofa. Dan opened up his blanket fort and invited Phil in.

“These are the men’s single runs.”

“Mhm,” Phil nuzzled his head into Dan’s neck, which usually would’ve bothered him, but he didn’t mind so much.

A few minutes pass, “So what’s that guy supposed to be doing? I need your commentary; you know.”

I just like hearing your voice, it calms me down.

“Well, that’s the Japanese lead skater, which means —”

#submission

[moonlit-aura]

Character headcanons for me, Asteria, Clem and maybe White Queen™ please love me

okAY SO I REALLY THINK GETTING YOU INTO WRITING HEADCANONS FOR ME WAS A SHOOT TO THE FOOT NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT BUT ALRIGHT

Bozo the soft angel with rough knives of irony

1. Sexuality headcanons ur gAY (no but really u were bi when i last checked)2. Otp Bozocoa3. BrotpLegiozo? Bozegia? XDDDDDD4. NotpBozo x problems5. First headcanon that pops into my headIn reality Bozo is a soft marshmallow that squees when u hug her (but i gotta check that out yet ; ) )6. One way in which I relate to this character motHER  S T O P7. Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character Ur weight is good and u say it’s not???? Wth dzz8. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Problematic roll (only because this love is problematic cuz i love you too fucking much)

Asteria the witch that should die on a stake of galaxy

1. Sexuality headcanons She’s bi3. BrotpAsteria x her brothers, thats really nice relationship, too bad they’re dead4. NotpAsteria x happiness (jk not really but i didnt now what to put here)5. First headcanon that pops into my headAsteria was stealing books about astrologyfrom libraries, cuz’ u know when u dont have money or parents to sign the damn papers to get library card u gotta go with the flow6. One way in which I relate to this character scared child pls beware cuz it might kick7. Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character This one thing i wrote about all three of them oh god what an awful way to die8. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Shes the most problematic oc i have but i love her

Clem the goddess walking on earth and actually the disney princess

1. Sexuality headcanons She’s probs hetero (basics lol) but maybe pan??? Idk, she didnt get occasions to be gay yet, so she might be pan idk2. OtpClem x her murdere---- NAT I MEAN NAT 3. BrotpClem x Aun is the best brotp ive ever seen and im in more fandoms than i remember4. NotpClem x Nat’s pistol (wow that sounds weird aint it)5. First headcanon that pops into my headShe has pedantic tendencies; all things in the shop have to be sorted and neat, everything has its place and should stay that way.6. One way in which I relate to this character SHES TOO INNOCENT TO COMPARE WITH ME I CANT DO THIS7. Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character The FRICK rp.8. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? The most rolled of cinnamon rolls

White Queen (Alice du Drapeau Blanc Dans le Vent) the most coward of queens existing in the past, present and future

1. Sexuality headcanons Bi af2. Otpx Black King (Marie the Terrible howd you say?)3. Brotpx Jesus--- I MEAN BIS H O P4. Notpx White King, hes an asshole and danger help her5. First headcanon that pops into my headShes terrified of killing partly b’cuz of Thomas, and partly b’cuz shes sheen someone murder someone when she was a kid probably???6. One way in which I relate to this character COWARDS UNITE LOL7. Thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character Bi-polar in the rp lol whos even acting like that8. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave? Cinna-roll for sure

LOVE YOU BAE 

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Outside of their family, how are the kids doing socially? Do they make friends, trust people easily? Do they have a hard time keeping their powers a secret? Does one of their moms being a Luthor affect the way people act around them? How do they deal with their moms kinda being in the public eye?

oof well this started fluffy and got angsty and then got cute again so do with that what u will

so for the most part?  the kiddos do alright!!!  they rlly do, like they’re all enough like kara that ofc they attracts ppl like moths to flame

finn’s like easily one of the most popular kids in school, starting from elementary school and like he’s not one of the traditionally popular boys??  like he’s not a jock and he’s not one of those uber macho dudes but he cares so deeply and fully and like all the girls love him to death and all the uber macho dudes for the most part love him to death as well 

like he’s rlly soft and kind and remembers ppls birthdays and who has a nut allergy so he always makes sure to make a separate safe batch of baked goods for bake sales.  he’s that kid that’s got tabs on everyone and knows who is having a bad week and who might need someone to eat with at lunch and he makes it look so fun to be nice??  that he just manages to lead by example and national city prep academy is a nicer place for him being in it

maia’s that ride or die friend like she’s super intense and kind of scary tbh but god when she picks you, she Picks you and she’ll keep picking you, keep standing up for you, keep vehemently defending u until her dying day tbh like she loves so much like kara, once she sees the good in you, once she’s decided ur one of her ppl, she’ll fight everyone in her sight for u and that is so wildly appreciated, like she has all the girls at school wanting to have her on their side, in their corner and the best thing is that she is, she will be, no questions asked

like??  she’s not half as soft as finn but she’s just as caring, just as loving and she like??  doesnt have a cult following, but she definitely is that hot ass senior that has all the underclassmen stumbling over themselves bc she nodded at one of them in the hall during passing period and stella dies a little inside bc all her friends are in love with maia to some degree

stella is the one that struggles the most socially??  bc everyone loves finn and maia doesnt give a shit if some ppl dont like her, barely notices it, but stella is a little quieter and a little bit different and she kind of weirds ppl out bc she’s just as intense as maia but she doesnt have the cool factor, she stumbles over her feet and stammers and gets easily overwhelmed and most ppl get a little weirded out by how stella always seems to know how they’re feeling??  can sort of predict whats coming in a conversation???

but god when she makes friends, they are so so protective of her.  like??  stella is disliked by a lot of ppl, is a pretty easy target but her friends love her so so deeply bc she knows how to help them best, is v careful with their feelings in a way that not a lot of kids think to be u know??  she’s not the most popular, but she’s p well insulated by the time she hits high school, has a rlly solid group of friends that stick close to her

this kind of goes hand in hand with the first part but here’s some other anecdotes lmao

finn makes friends so so easily like that boy walks into a room and within the first ten minutes he’s already got five new friends like??  he’s probably one of those student ambassadors, shows all the new kids around the campus tbh and like for sure has brownies or something to give them

like???  he’s for sure voted mr congeniality.  For Sure.  he collects friends and favors so easily and so quickly and he loves them all so much, you would think that maybe some friendships arent as deep as others and that’s true, but that doesnt mean he doesnt love those friends just as much, wouldnt drop what he’s doing to go pick them up bc their car died on the highway

that said, he doesnt trust super easily??  like he’s p wary in general, a little more suspicious of ppl than he ever lets on.  like it takes him a Long time to rlly ever tell his rlly close friends any big details abt himself.  it takes him even longer to ever invite ppl over to the house, even tho his moms are like you can??  pls do??  have a childhood kiddo

maia takes a little longer to make friends i think??  but that’s more a matter of her not noticing someone is trying to be friends with her, like she’s sort of above it all a lot of the times, often wrapped up in her own head.  but like i said, she’s p intense so once she’s noticed, she’ll dive in head first like all in, ride or die

and its so funny bc she is so so like non-plussed by things like what movie to see or stuff like that, she’s kind of a rlly great friend without meaning to??  like oh, yall were planning to do a mall night but ur period started and u dont have the energy and now u just want to lie around and eat ice cream??  she’ll pick up ur fave flavors and probably a couple redbox rentals and is down for a movie night, maybe becomes ur favorite person in that exact moment

she actually trusts ppl more easily than finn, if only bc generally the ppl that are more insistent abt actually getting to know her, not just that scary person she puts forward are usually ppl that genuinely care abt her and want the best for her??  that said, she gets in with a bad crowd and dates this super fucking awful abusive asshole that sort of destroys that innate trust for a while.  she gets it back eventually, thanks to those friends she had before the entire experience, who stood by her even when she tried to push them away

stella takes the longest to make friends??  she’s like that shy kid in the corner that wont make eye contact but when she does u feel like she’s probably seen ur soul and knows all ur secrets (which....techincally she doesnt see souls and only knows maybe four or five of ur secrets) but she’s rlly sweet and v earnest and ppl sort of find her endearing after a while

like??  she finally finds her ppl when she joins the drama department and switches soccer teams and gets into debate and starts a chess club, like??  when she starts actually embracing who she is and not trying to model herself after maia or finn or kara or lena, when she sort of loses herself in doing things that are actually interesting to her and not just what gets her the least negative responses from other ppl, she makes so many friends !!!  like girl just has to get out of her own head sometimes

of the three kiddos, she definitely trusts the easiest, just bc like??  she knows what ppls intentions are, knows when someone’s hiding something from her or has ulterior motives for trying to befriend her.  like most of the work is done for her just at first meeting like she rlly doesnt have to worry too much abt trusting ppl

they all sort of struggle with hiding their powers??  some more than others for sure

like finn probably struggles more than maia??  bc maia keeps taking that power-suppressant all through school, but finn wants to learn to control himself, wants to not be as dependent on something else to make him more human, safer for others to be around.  so he wears the glasses and softens his touch and makes sure he never moves too quickly, gives up on sports and works hard to never get angry, never let the hum of his heat vision get too distracting 

its rlly hard when he’s around his friends, harder when he starts dating, bc other ppl dont have to worry abt the stuff he has to worry abt??  like he has to have like a lot of talks with kara abt it bc he gets overwhelmed a lot, worries a lot abt accidentally hurting someone he loves

maia on the other hand struggles more with the lying??  like she has this ride or die mentality and it fucks her up that she cant tell the ppl she trusts this giant secret abt her, this thing that defines her existence??  Fucks Her Up tbh like.....she’s like a vault, her friends confess all their shit to her and she hates that she cant do the same??  cant do that without endangering her brother and sister and moms and, rlly, her entire family and she’s not going to do that, wont ever do that

so like she struggles with that, but the actual powers part of it isnt as big of a thing for her bc she keeps taking the suppressant bc she just??  doesnt trust herself not to.  doesnt trust the power in her hands, like she wont take it on the weekends bc thats when kara trains her and finn, takes them to the deo to spar but during the week, when she doesnt have kara’s steady presence to ground her, finn’s quiet hand at her shoulder to stop her when she’s about to go too far

stella struggles with it but its different??  like she’s not hiding superhuman strength or the ability to fly or anything so conspicuous, but she has to like.....constantly monitor what she says and how she acts towards ppl that dont know like??  ppl get kind of weirded out when she knows stuff abt them or like....knows their heart or some shit when they’ve only rlly known each other for a few months

that said, she also gets away with a whole lot by just saying she’s rlly empathetic with this weird little smirk that her friends think is just her poking fun at the fact that she can be kind of spacey and not super aware abt other stuff all the time but lol little do they know

i mean??  at school??  most ppl dont know like she’s mrs danvers or (insert kiddos name)’s mom and like especially in elementary school, she’s not the one at pta meetings bc she knows what will happen if other parents see her and make the connection??  so its usually kara and she usually flies under the radar, like ppl kind of know that she’s the kara danvers from page six, wife of lena luthor and doing the gala circuit when needed, but no one ever like rlly registers it ya know??

likes the kiddos friends kind of put it together but she’s still just mrs danvers to them, their friends rlly cool mom that helps them do these rlly awesome science experiments when they come over and are bored.  a couple ppls parents find out and refuse to let their kids go over anymore and the kids dont understand why and lena like.....lost tbh.  like how does she explain that??  how does she let them know its her fault, that she did this to them by association and for that she is truly sorry

but like the kiddos rlly just let it roll of their backs like it only happens maybe a handful of times and their friends are still their friends at school

but like??  when they get older, they get more vocal, like??  they’re proud of their mother and theyre so fucking sick of hearing the weird, awful comments ppl make about luthors whenever lex winds up in the news again and maia reaches a point of just FUCK OFF levels of anger, starts screaming IM A LUTHOR TOO, MOTHERFUCKER when she tackles someone in the hallway after hearing superman should do the world a favor and just get rid of that entire rats nest during passing period and that’s sort of what outs them all

things change a little after that??  like most of their friends stick around, but there is definitely a wariness towards the danvers kiddos after that, but they bear it with pride, like finn and stella arent upset in the slightest.  like??  so they lost a couple friends; good, better leave now bc they love their mom a whole hell of a lot more than those ppl and that’s never going to change

like??  they rlly arent that aware of the weird spotlight they live in for a while when they’re small, particularly maia and finn like......kara and lena kept their relationship rlly rlly quiet for a long time.  like??  no one knew they were an item until they rlly needed to come out and say it, and then they got engaged and married rlly quietly, just family and lena kept her name professionally so no one rlly knew.  and they kept her pregnancy under wraps, not necessarily hiding??  but just not announcing it either and quite honestly the press doesnt know abt finn until some opportunistic pap gets a shot of kara and lena with little roly poly finn at the park, looking every bit the deliriously happy family they are.  its much the same for maia, with no one outside of their little circle of friends and family knowing abt her until someone catches a picture of them with two little ones, not one.  and like stella??  hell, stella doesnt rlly get a debut until she’s nearly four tbh and its bc she v seriously asks to be lena’s date to her gala and like how was lena going to say no to that request

that said, when they get older, they’re kind of prime targets for some asshole opportunistic paps to swarm and try and get quotes from, try and smear the luthor name some more.  lena issues a no nonsense statement that she’s fair game, but her children are off limits.  catco worldwide issues a similar statement, that the family lives of their reporters are not open for discussion and that such targeting of children is a reprehensible act that has no place in journalism

that helps, that and the ruthless way their family encircles them, fights the press and tabloids and fights to give the kiddos as normal of a life as possible.  and like???  they rlly do.  there’s a couple incidents where the heightened scrutiny was noticeable, but mostly??  the kiddos rlly dont notice, just flip the newspaper over when its lex on the front page or switch whatever gossip show off when the topic comes round to lena, little things like that that help them live as normally as they can

#supergirl #supercorp #lena luthor #kara danvers #superbabies #anonymous #human interaction

[bellero]

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

I was tagged by the lovely @occupation-napenthusiast

A - Age: 15

B - Biggest fear: The dark and Moths? Honestly I have no idea why..

C - Current time: 5:35pm

D - Drink you last had: Glass of water (it’s legit all I drink..)

E - Every day starts with: debating on actually getting out of bed..

F - Favourite song: Brother - by NEEDTOBREATH

H - Hometown: Wales, kind of hard to say where??

I - In love with: Jared Padalecki, he’s my love, I love him.

J - Jealous of: no one

K - Killed someone: UR MUM LOL..jk, but no I haven’t. I’ve wanted to..

L - Last time you cried: I was crying of laughter yesterday, I don’t remember why..

M - Middle name: Lois Emily

N - Number of siblings: Three older brothers (kill me)

O - One wish: That the world was less shittier..

P - Person you last called/texted: My mam

Q - Question(s) you’re always asked: How can you be gay if you were Bi before?(Legit had that question asked like.. five times today)

R - Reasons to smile: The cast of SPN.. that is all.

S - Song last sang: Shape Of You - by Ed Sheeran<3

T - Time you woke up: around 9:30am or something??

U - Underwear color: Black. (like my soul) (JK my souls probably a rainbow or something..)

V - Vacation destination: BRIGHTON, I WANT TO GO THERE SO BADLY!

W - Worst habit: chewing on the inside of my lip.

X - X-rays you’ve had: my chest, ankle and wrist.

Y- Your favorite food: CHOCOLATE CAKE!

Z - Zodiac sign: Taurus

Tagging: @queandean @deanseggsandsam @shadowgirl007 @keirawillow

None of you HAVE to do this. Completely up to you!

[g-spotss]

Tagged by @wheelerss and pretty much only doing this because she knows where I am and could feasibly kick my ass. Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… And most importantly, have fun! a - age: 18 b - biggest fear: debilitating loneliness c - current time: 11:54 d - drink you last had: Mountain Dew brah e - every day starts with: not getting out of bed until absolutely necessary f - favorite song: Hear Me - Imagine Dragons, or Delirious - Grace Potter g - ghosts, are they real: maybe the real ghosts were the friends we made along the way h - hometown: Columbia, Tennessee i - in love with: haha j - jealous of: the rich and fulfilled k - killed someone: all day I die and scream l - last time you cried: the tears don't stop comin' and they don't stop comin' m - middle name: Brooks n - number of siblings: 5 o - one wish: I want my friends to be happy if that's not too banal. p - person you last called/texted: texted would be @sorrowful-sonata and called would be @chesnaughtsmash q - questions you’re always asked: "what the fuck is wrong with you" r - reasons to smile: moths, cute delivery boys, sleeping in s - song last sang: I'm humming Song of Storms if that counts t - time you woke up: 9:00 u - underwear color: y'all don't know about my skeleton underwear v - vacation destination: idk I prefer roadtrips w - worst habit: I'm clingy and weird. x - x-rays you’ve had: right arm y - your favorite food: I like potato skins, chili, and Chinese takeout. z - zodiac sign: Gemini tagging @sorrowful-sonata and @dan-velma-ur-jinkies

[prettiestar]

tagged by @king-crimson a. - age: 19 b. - biggest fear: moths, puking, being hated by the ones i love the most c. - current time: 15:22pm d. - drink you last had: soda e. - everyday starts with: me not eating anything f. - favorite song: oh no!, grace kelly, sex and summer g. - ghosts, are they real: idk h. - hometown: guayaquil i. - in love with: a star j. - jealous of: idk? k. - killed someone: not yet l. - last time you cried: like a week ago m. - middle name: romina n. - number of siblings: 1 o. - one wish: pls dont let me fall asleep in my next class p. - person i last called/texted: jess q. - question you’re always asked: if romina is your middle name, then whats ur first name r. - reason to smile: bucky barnes s. - song last sang: ready aim fire by imagine dragons t. - time you woke up: 7:00 am u. - underwear color: satin pastel blue v. - vacation destination: if everything turns out good, mexico w. - worst habit: never finishing any tv series or anime, not starting conversations, not looking when i cross the street x. - x-rays you’ve had: torax and leg y. - your favorite food: does micheladas count z. - zodiac: scorpio

cant tag rn bc i have class but go ahead if u want to !!!

#y entonces que me digas que no #me pone triste y sentimenta a l #es que no puedo dormir y ya no quiero vivir #porque me falta mi otra mita a ad #ask meme #thanks for tagging ily!! #about

[annelisterofhalifax]

A bad wrist,Lady Vere Cameron and an uninteresting sermon

1835

M[ar]ch Sun[day] 29

9 1/2

10.55

No kiss. Fine morn[in]g F 45 1/2° at 10.20. H[a]d Mr Jubb for 10 min[ute]s, dress[e]d my wrist

right, and put a spalk on it 1st ti[me]. Go[in]g to York on Mon[day] subpoena[e]d on 2 trials, t[ha]t of

Morrison, for violat[in]g a lit[tl]e girl aged 5, tak[e]n to Mr Jubb the next morn[in]g, will recov[e]r, and t[ha]t of a boy convict[e]d

of manslaughter. Br[eak]f[a]st and sat talk[in]g till 11.50 wh[e]n ca[me] upst[ai]rs, fr[om] 12 to 2 wr[ote] 1/2 sh[eet] note pap[e]r 2 2/4 pages to

L[ad]y S-[Stuart] and 3 pages to L[ad]y St[uar]t de R- [Rothesay], and 1 page to L[ad]y V.C [Vere Cameron]. A-[Ann] and I at Lightcliffe  

ch[ur]ch in 19 min[ute]s.

at 2 3/4, wait[e]d 13 min[ute]s. Mr Bellamy d[i]d all the duty, preach[e]d 34 min[ute]s, ex tempore

and uninteresting[l]y fr[om] ps[alm] 51 v[erse]. 6. Ho[me in 23 min[ute]s at 4 3/4, dress[e]d, fr[om] 5.20 in 1/2 h[ou]r

wr[ote] 2 pages and und[e]r the seal and finish[e]d my no[te] to Vere, kind no[te], hope and th[in]k she is right in

think[in]g Mr Cam[ero]ns eye chang[in]g ‘fr[om] bet[ter] to worse and bet[ter] ag[ai]n’ is a good sign. ‘Has an[y]bod[y]

‘ ev[e]r fanci[e]d the digestive powers at all in fault? You kno[w] how m[u]ch I am interest[e]d for

t[he]m, and t[he]refo[re] for all concern[in]g you’. Kind reg[ar]ds and th[an]ks to Mr Cam[ero]n for his troub[le] ab[ou]t my carr[ia]ge

will wr[ite] ab[ou]t in a day or 2- in fact ‘I put off all writ[in]g t[ha]t does n[o]t eith[e]r partic[ularl]y bear

‘up[on] heart or buy[in]gs’ on acc[oun]t of my wrist. ‘Wh[a]t my medic[a]l man calls spalked, t[ha]t I

still wr[ote] w[i]th pain and diffic[ult]y’, gl[a]d she is at Lodge etc etc. ‘one line fr[om] an[y]bod[y], to

say all is well, and wheth[e]r the young Laird be co[me] or n[o]t, will qui[te] satisfy me’.Gl[a]d h[i]s  

sist[e]r L[ad]y Alb[ini]a Fost[e]r, is go[in]g to take y[ou]r niece Aba [Albibia] Hob[ar]t b[a]ck w[i]th h[e]r and t[ha]t V- [Vere] likes h[e]r fine

niece, so m[u]ch. ‘Y[ou]r plan is a ver[y] nice one, and reallygi[ve]s me pleas[u]re, y[ou]r broth[e]r

‘ August[u]s will be pleas[e]d, and I ha[ve] n[o]t forgott[e]n the inter[e]st ab[ou]t h[i]m I learnt to feel at Hastings.’

Th[in]k L[ad]y Gord[o]n will feel the loss of h[e]r moth[e]r. ‘I th[in]k she,’ L[ad]y G-[ Gordon], ‘h[a]s deep[e]r and bet[ter] feel[in]g t[ha]n  

may so[me]ti[me]s

‘app[ea]r. Does Mr Camer[o]n kno[w] an[y] good Scotch gard[ene]r w[i]th wh[o]m one m[i]ght a year or two hence apprentice a

‘well- principl[e]d boy, the son of an old serv[an]t?’ My no[te] to L[ad]y S-[ Stuart], kind as us[ua]l, glad t[ha]t

h[e]r last few lines, 3 w[ee]ks ago, ga[ve] a rath[e]r bet[ter] acc[oun]t of h[e]r. Gl[a]d she is w[i]th Miss Tate.

‘[Expect] Vere has, in h[e]r state of uterm[os]t disengagement, c[oul]d n[o]t ta[ke] bet[ter] care of you. In

‘k[i]nd attent[io]n nobody[y] can exceed Miss Tate. I trust she is in strong[e]r health

t[ha]n she w[a]s 2 y[ea]rs ago’. Am conclud[in]g by my comp[limen]ts to her, ask if I may not congrat[ulate]

her L[ad]y S-[ Stuart] and L[or]d St[uar]ts go[in]g to Constantinople.’ I long to kno[w] if it be true’.

He w[oul]d n[o]t like S[ain]t P-[Petersburg] b[u]t sure[l]y w[oul]d ma[ke] no object[io]n to C- [Constantinople]. ‘An emb[ass]y w[hi]ch at t[hi]s  

ti[me]

so loudly calls for a diplomatist of first rate talent, n[o]t dishearten[e]d ab[ou]t the

scrutiny. Hope all will go well, if writ[in]g to L[ad]y Harr[ie]t beg my love and th[an]ks ‘for

‘h[e]r long interest[in]g let[ter] and got the ver[y] pret[ty] draw[in]g of her ‘cabinet’ w[i]th w[hi]ch I am qui[te]

‘delight[e]d, it brings to my mind a host of agreeab[le] recollect[io]ns,’ will wr[ite] to h[e]r ‘as soon

as my wrist is out of bandage’. It is still ‘spalk[e]d t[ha]t I wr[ite] w[i]th diffic[ult]y and pain.

‘Bel[ieve] me alw[ay]s d[eare]st L[ad]y St[uar]t ver[y] truly and ver[y] affect[ionate]ly, y[ou]rs A Lister’.  My no[te] to L[ad]y S[tuart] de

R-[Rothesay] to say I r[ea]d a day or two ago in the morn[in]g Herald the [?] of L[or]d S[tuart] de R-s [Rothesay’s] appoint[men]t

to Constant[inople], an emb[ass]y requir[in]g 1st rate tal[en]t. ‘Is it true t[ha]t the d[uke] of Wellingt[o]n h[a]s filed up[o]n

‘t[hi]s trust w[i]th his us[ua]l discern[en]t, and t[ha]t we are to ha[ve] a man of bus[ine]ss, and of master-mind,s[u]ch as1835 M[ar]ch ‘L[or]d St[uar]t 

undoubt[abl]y is?’ prob[abl]y w[oul]d n[o]t ha[ve] lik[e]d S[ain]t Petersb[ur]g and 

can serve up bet[ter] at C-[Constantinople] ‘I long to kno[w] if his Lordsh[ip] is, 

or is to be appointed, and wh[a]t do you th[in]k ab[ou]t it? ‘I am sure you kno[w] 

my real anx[iet]y for anyth[in]g and ev[er]yth[in]g to hap[pen] t[ha]t can do you 

serv[i]ce, or gi[ve] you ‘pleas[u]re. I admire L[or]d St[uar]ts tal[en]ts,and wish his 

count[r]y to profit by t[he]m, b[u]t if the ‘appointm[en]t were made, I c[oul]d 

scarce[l]y rejoice till I knew t[ha]t you were satisfi[e]d. Hope they are all 

enjoy[in]g t[hei]r s[tay] at Highcliff etc etc  ha[ve] ask[e]d L[ad]y S-[Stuart] if I 

may n[o]t congrat[ulate] h[e]r, gl[a]d she is at Miss Tate’s, hope Mr Ja[me]s 

Wortley is safe in spi[te] of the scrutiny, fear Mr Cam[ero]n is no bet[ter] ‘ wh[a]t 

a bless[in]g t[ha]t Vere is so free fr[om] alarm! my love to the d[ea]r girls, and 

bel[ieve] me, my d[ea]r L[ad]y St[uar]t, ver[y] truly y[ou]rs A Lister’ Wr[ote] all 

b[u]t the  first 2 lines of today till Din[ner] at 6 1/2. H[a]d Charlotte Booth a few 

min[ute]s whi[le] A-[Ann] and I were seat[e]d at the din[ner] tab[le]. Charlotte 

ca[me] wi[th] a req[ue]st fr[om] Miss Hebden for so[me] new th[in]gs, ans[we]r 

yes!. S[e]nt off und[e]r  cov[e]r to ‘The Lord L  Stuart de Rothesay, 3 Carlton T

errace, London’ my let[ter] to ‘The Lady Stuart de Rothesay’ L  and my let[ter] to 

‘The hon[ora]ble Lady Stuart at Miss Tate’s 21 Grosvenor Place’ and my let[ter] 

to   The Lady Vere Cameron at the hon[ora]ble Lady Stuart’s Richmond Park’. 

Coff[ee], ca[me] upst[ai]rs at 8, sat talk[in]g 1/2 h[ou]r t[he]n skimm[e]d ov[e]r the 

1st 8 or 10 pages of  vol[ume] 2 Sharon Turner’s sacred hist[ory] of the world 

t[ha]t I g[o]t b[ou]ght, for A-[Ann] the oth[e]r day. Th[e]n wr[ote] the last 7 lines. 

Till 9.50 Read[in]g ov[e]r the Introduct[io]n + and the 1st 8 pages of Philip on the 

Vit[a]l Funct[io]ns, t[h]en ten min[ute]s w[i]th my a[un]t. Fine day F 47° at 10.5 p.m.