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1dcommunityficrecs · 2 months

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Fake Dating Rec List!

List number four is here! I asked (in what I'm sure was a very dignified and reasonable way that did not involve tearing my hair or beating my chest because I love fake dating a completely normal amount) and you guys sure delivered! So below, we have 16 amazing fics (plus one Honorable Mention), ready for your reading pleasure.

It's Fine To Fake It 'Til You Make It ('Til It's True) by Sunflouwerhabit (150960, Not Rated, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

Harry dreads an impending visit to his hometown, where he’ll be forced to reunite with a newly engaged ex-boyfriend, a childhood best friend turned near stranger, and a family who never understood just how desperately he needed to leave. In the midst of it all, a ludicrous Twitter proposition brings him to Louis.

Reccer says: Their characterizations and chemistry in this fic were greats

Sun Means Sky'll Be Blue by Pearlydewdrops (91152, Not Rated, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

As the only singleton under thirty attending his cousin’s five-day wedding, Harry is desperate to find a date, or at least a reason to get people’s questions about his love life off his back. So when Louis, Harry’s old uni roommate and fellow wedding attendee waltzes back into his life, Harry seizes the opportunity, pretending Louis is his ex-boyfriend and that it’s a sore subject not to be mentioned.

Reccer says: I enjoyed the hate to love aspect of this fic, and how they dealt with their feelings. It was also fun to read about all of the dramatics with the wedding and Harry's family.

Escapade by Dolce_piccante (146241, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

CEO Louis / Jack McQueen Harry

Reccer says: Everyone knows Escapade (I hope!) but it's impossible not to mention her. It’s the standard-bearer of fake dating fics!

Mistletoe’s For Two by Crimsontheory (90901, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

Advent fic, Harry and Louis pretend to be boyfriends. Or not...

Reccer says: The perfect advent fic I think, the kind you'd see in a Christmas movie.

The Games We Play by wishingforloushair (50000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post Warnings: Gun violence, blood, violence in general, a bit of ptsd-like symptoms

Harry and Louis are MI6 agents who have hated each other since basic training but now have to go undercover as a married couple

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keep you like an oath by alnima (18102, Mature, Zayn Malik/Louis Tomlinson)

A supercute Zouis fake dating non-famous American AU with a wild Louis and awkward Zayn!

Reccer says: I love Zouis and this fic gets their relationship dynamics perfectly.

MARRIED FOR A WEEK?! by gravitycentered (20000, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

Louis is a YouTuber, and asks his friend Harry to join him in a "Married For A Week" challenge. Neither of them wants it to end.

Reccer says: I love the depth of the story, the layers to their friendship and their history and their care for each other. There's also a really interesting interplay of Louis' YouTube videos with Harry's photography projects, and the ideas of what to capture or share and what to keep just them, what's posed or acted and what's real.

kiss me on the mouth (and set me free) by tempolarriefics (47000, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

When Harry can't afford to finish his university degree without financial aid, Louis volunteers to marry him in order to help him qualify. Of course, that decision is complicated by the fact that Louis has been secretly in love with Harry for years.

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like a moth into a flame by we_are_the_same (5397, Teen, Zayn Malik/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

A student writes Zayn a sex poem. The only logical conclusion is for Louis and Zayn to fake date.

Reccer says: Everything!! Zayn and Louis' relationship, the whole trope: everything!!

On the Horizon by FitzAndLarry (261051, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) Warnings: Minor PTSD, Anxiety themes

Pilot Louis meets Doctor Harry on a flight & end up fake dating on a two week cruise

Reccer says: Its just lovely! The way the characters are written, and their interactions with each other are done wonderfully.

The Greatest Thing by infinitelymint (163789, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

semi-cannon accidental marriage in vegas

Reccer says: The highs and the lows are captivating.

For Better, Worse And Mischief (I'm All Yours) by RedOrchid (37513, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

Harry and Louis get married. PR made them do it.

Reccer says: It was a cute read!

Like Candy in My Veins by Littlelouishiccups (31867, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

“Um…” Harry said slowly after a moment. “Okay. That’s… this is… Let me get this straight.” He lifted up a hand and swallowed. “You told your family that you have a boyfriend… and my name was the first one you thought of?” “Harry Potter was on TV, alright? It wasn’t that much of a stretch.”

Reccer says: Picture this: two outspoken, stubborn, pining idiots. Record store owner Louis, bakery owner Harry. Christmas, A/B/O, fake dating, too many pies, a “stolen” parking spot, a flooded bathroom, and puns!

Faking It by TheCellarDoor (46173, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

Best friends in Uni, fake dating to escape unwanted advances—it’s perfect.

Reccer says: The fake dating fic I keep coming back to! It’s sweet and hot and so fluffy.

And Then A Bit by Infinitelymint (158824, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

Or, take a parallel universe where Louis and Harry were never together, mix in a two year hiatus and an impending comeback, pour in a dash of lost fans, two tablespoons of strong friendship and a Modest! employee with a good idea. Add a squeeze of pretending to be a couple, lots of kisses and a tattoo or two. Stir. Serve: the mother of all publicity stunts.

Reccer says: One of my all time favorite fics! I just love how genuinely happy they are to spend time together, how sweet and soft they are at the beginning. And it’s lovely to imagine this as the 1D reunion we all want.

Just Pretend by Kingsofeverything (90207, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) - fic post

Divorced dads + teenage daughters = pretending to date to keep their kids happy.

Reccer says: I love older Larry—and kingsofeverything writes them SO WELL.

And our honorable mention -- this fic has been removed from AO3, so I didn't feel comfortable publicly sharing a link outside the writer's control or wishes (though I'm sure folks can find copies if they go looking), but I couldn't not mention this absolute classic which is one of my favorite fake dating fics ever.

Pull Me Under by Zarah5 (140140, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) Warnings: Homophobia, paparazzi harassment/stalking

Louis is a famous footballer outed against his will, Harry agrees to be his fake boyfriend to quell stereotypes and speculation.

Reccer says: Pining, emotion, beautiful writing... a fandom classic. Watching the delicate dance as they get to know each other and trust each other and learn from each other is beautiful. Zarah always does miscommunication so believably and realistically, where you can see exactly where things went awry but you still want to shake them because OH MY GOD YOU BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER

Read, reblog, kudos, and comment to your heart's content.

New category announcement coming soon!

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none-ofthisnonsense · 1 year

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rant/general anxiety following

So I need to apply to universities soon. Technically I need to apply next year (2024) BUT I need to take some tests and stuff and do trips for open days and things like that so the preparation starts in January. This is causing me a lot of stress but that’s not the issue

My dream university is Oxford. My second dream uni is Trinity College Dublin.

I’m really interested in languages (& linguistics) and acting, but I’m worried that I won’t find jobs if I do those studies and that I just won’t have assured for myself a good future. It’s well-known that most actors who aren’t famous really struggle and I just don’t see many opportunities in linguistics - as much as I want to do historical linguistic research, I do want stable income in the future, and I’m not sure either acting or linguistics can guarantee that (more than, say, a business degree).

Oxford is truly the university I want to go to, and setting aside the cost (It’d end up costing me about 50000 pounds per year with the overseas fees!) I just don’t know what to study. I’ve selected three courses that I’m interested in, namely:

English Language and Literature

English and Modern Languages

Modern Languages and Linguistics

I don’t know what to choose (that’s another thing to think about later on), but in two of those there’s Modern Languages, and that’s something I’m worried about - I currently take fluent English and French, and I’m learning German too (and Latin and Ancient Greek but they aren’t needed for these courses).

“For Linguistics and French, German, Modern Greek*, Italian*, Portuguese*, Russian and Spanish candidates would usually be expected to have the language to A-level, Advanced Higher, Higher Level in the IB or another academic equivalent.”

(Modern Greek, Italian, and Portuguese all have beginner options, but German doesn’t)

The only language between French and German that I have fluency level (A-level) in is French, but to be honest... I don’t really want to study stuff in French, especially when the resources will be available to me in the original language if ever I feel interested. That leaves German, and although this is my 4th year... I still have a lot of trouble with it, and I’m maybe A2 level. I used to be B1, but I missed a year so my level went down. That’s obviously not A-level, and not enough to register German as the main Modern Language I’m studying. But Modern Languages and Linguistics is the course I’m the most interested in from all three, and I really want to do it, so I don’t see a solution in this apart from studying German like mad next year, but I’m afraid that still won’t be enough. (If anyone has read this and has any input, please please please say anything about this it’s horrible stressing about it and anything would help)

I’m also scared of taking English Language & Literature because, well, while I love English, I’m not quite sure I want to spend an additional four years doing analysis, however much I like it (I love analysis, just not as much as linguistics). This does seem like the degree that brings about the most options for the future, though, and the most accessible one for me.

The last one in Oxford that I’m interested in (these aren’t actually ranked apart from ML&L, but I’m writing this as I think about it) is English and Modern Languages.

“For English and French, German, Russian and Spanish “Essential: Candidates are expected to have English Literature, or English Language and Literature, to A-level, Advanced Higher, Higher Level in the IB or any other equivalent. Candidates would usually be expected to have the language or languages to A-level, Advanced Higher, Higher Level in the IB or another academic equivalent.”

Same problem as before: I don’t have that level in German. I definitely have it in French, but again: I don’t exactly want to study in French, especially since if I really wanted to I could study for (almost) free in Paris considering that I’m a French citizen. French is my fallback for the situation in which absolutely nothing can be done to make my German better, in which case I’ll apply to the courses in French.

All this to say that I don’t know what course to try to apply to at Oxford, and just how difficult it’ll be for me to apply considering my level. I just don’t know what to do about Oxford.

Now, onto Trinity College Dublin! (Which I’m going to call TCD because it’s a long name.)

TCD was presented to me in a meeting for Irish unis and it stood out to me, and now that I’m thinking about it seriously I think I’d like it there. But if the choice of courses at Oxford was high, TCD has SO MUCH STUFF. I have never seen so many possible courses. At least price isn’t the issue there - I’d be at around 10000 euros/year which is feasible much more than Oxford’s 50000 pounds.

The courses that interest me are:

Acting (unsure if I’m really interested in this one)

Diploma in Acting and Theatre (same question for all things theatre... is it worth it?)

Drama and Theatre Studies

English Studies (see Oxford point about analysis)

German (JH) (I have NO IDEA what JH means. None whatsoever. I’m just interested by the course description) I feel like this one could be feasible if I enrolled as a beginner (I’d know the basics before other students but I’m willing to live with that no problem)

Linguistics (JH) (The opportunity problem)

Modern Language (JH) (Here, I think I could take German, or at least as a New Minor in Second Year. That seems possible according to the website? It would be if I wanted to take something else like Theatre or English.)

And that concludes the list! There’s a really wide range available at TCD and honestly that’s what scares me - what to choose? What if I choose the wrong thing and I’ll live knowing that I’ll have applied to something wrong when the other option was right there??

The German/French problem is also slightly present for TCD but much less majorly (ha), since they offer beginner courses for most of those. I’m just confused about what to choose, and I guess scared at the idea of college full stop. I just don’t know what to take. (Opinion that’s unpopular with worldwide education systems: DON’T FORCE PEOPLE TO CHOOSE THEIR FUTURE AS TEENAGERS. IT’S VERY VERY SCARY.)

I think that concludes the rant. I wanted to say something else about TCD but I don’t remember what, so I’ll stop here before the swirling ball of anxiety in my stomach becomes even bigger. Also, class at 8.20 AM tomorrow morning!

I welcome ALL comments and ideas and thoughts and reactions. Even just an emoji would help apease my stress because I AM SO STRESSED IT’S HORRIBLE I’VE NEVER FELT THIS ANXIOUS.

(end of rant)

#haven't done an original post this long since my rant on cats first paris tranlation #*translation #i am not immune to typos #owl rants

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troglobite · 10 months

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lkjaflksdj

i'm in an anxiety spiral and i'm legitimately terrified now. fun.

so had an arachnophobia thing today. do not talk to me abt it.

and now i'm sitting here and i was abt to go to sleep.

and i've just been ignoring the fact that my nose has been congested for hours. bc i've been. too tired to bother. i haven't wanted to.

i finally take care of it. take the extra benadryl. i get up, i change my shirt (unrelated) and i lay back down.

and i realize my face is hot. like a little feverish hot.

and now i'm overthinking how weird my chest felt today.

bc i'm like "i talked myself hoarse on thurs, that's all"

but now i'm worried i have covid

bc of the congestion, the fever/face hotness, the tiredness, the chest weirdness

and like yes i have an autoimmune condition that i still have not had diagnosed (i have other shit going on, i'm tired and scared, i simply have too many hoops to jump through)

yes i have flareups

but this feels different

and now i'm not going to be able to sleep

and i have therapy in 6.5 hrs

and i'm going to have to take a covid test tomorrow bc i can't fucking handle doing one rn

and i'm just.

like.

so i leave the house ONCE. i have a NICE TIME. i get EXCITED abt something.

and now what, i'm either having a terrible flare up or i fucking have covid.

WHY.

I WOULD JUST LIKE TO HAVE A NICE DAY SOMETIMES WITHOUT HAVING TO DEAL WITH UNPREDICTABLE AND FUCKING MISERABLE CONSEQUENCES AND WORRYING THAT I'M FUCKING DYING

it would be fucking GREAT if the fucking government could decide to give a SINGLE FUCKING FLYING SHIT abt EVERYBODY and DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE FUCKING PANDEMIC so we could MOVE ON WITH OUR FUCKING LIVES

because i'm tired of this

i'm spiraling and i'm fucking tired of this.

i'm tired of being scared and helpless and depressed

i'm tired of not being able to plan for anything in my life

bc it's just this PIT of "okay what illness do i have. how serious is it. am i fucking dying."

and our house is all fucked up bc of the floor thing

we have to pack and move out for 2 weeks for them to take care of it

there are spiders EVERYWHERE bc of this FUCKING MISERABLE FUCKING VALLEY

i just wanna move. i wanna get a job. i want friends who actually want to play dnd with me. i want to not have to be the only one reaching out all the fucking time. i want to not be sick.

i want to move somewhere else and have some of my symptoms go the fuck away.

i want to not have to jump through 50000 hoops to get access to a doctor who will then spend AGES diagnosing me.

i would like to go more than half a day without having a fucking health scare.

I HAVE OCD.

I AM NOT BUILT TO FUCKING HAVE HEALTH PROBLEMS.

I AM NOT BUILT TO WITHSTAND A PANDEMIC WHERE NOBODY ELSE GIVES A FLYING FUCKING SHIT ABOUT THE FUCKING PANDEMIC

i can't do this anymore. i really, really can't.

i'm so fucking angry.

i stg i better not fucking have covid or i just might legitimately give the fuck up.

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cailenbraern · 2 years

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I'm genuinely flabbergasted that I've somehow managed to turn out nearly 50000 words in a fic for probably the first time in my life.

But now the anxiety kicks in because it's utter trash.

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sodrippy · 2 years

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life is literally so worthless if you dont have a work bestie

#told myself No More Sugars bc dental problems and its just a bad habit but my mates like hey im going to the servo do u want a v #and i was like ......................yeah..#and hes like yeah i thought so BSJXNE #thanks for noticing im fighting for my life out here king! appreciate it!#this projects giving me sooooo much fear anxiety imposter syndrome death feels :/#50000% compounded by the fact that 95% of my team is younger than me it makes me feel even stupider #anyway. whats a little more enamel erosion in the grand scheme of things!#im pretty sure i have a new cavity already so thats sexy!

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bbhl-incporated · 4 years

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Me, asking a question before drawing a three-card spread: is this job offer in Suwon the best I can get right now?

The cards:

Me: uh-oh

#also I'm *appalled* at how accurate these cards are for past and present #Ive had no long-term vision #lots of anxiety + hard work with little return and often feeling like I dont have the resources to do the job right #working hard for little return on investment #and then *right now* I feel like Im all talk and no action + so is my workplace when it comes to fixing things #not to mention there is serious af gossip running around about employees .... myself included #it has been a major and defining issue this month along w my getting fired #the future one is really insightful . i may indeed be holding myself back . i have been rly hesitant to apply to things that require lots #of thought and effort . especially ones that want writing samples . i feel so fucking inadequate in that area #but then I'm limiting my opportunities for growth it seems . this may be a warning that if I stay too comfortable #by not going in and crafting / curating good samples ... I may be stuck in this unfulfilling trap #underpaid and overworked . 100% underpaid compared to my alum peers #did u know the *median* salary of graduates from my uni the FIRST year after graduation is 50 #50000 USD *#I am nowhere close and I'm almoat 3 years out . holy fuck . i dont even think Ive made 50k the past 2.5 years .

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lesbianistically · 5 years

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why does anxiety have 2 be like That all the time

#i want to like. take a nap from my anxiety #i cant focus on anything but the 50000 things in my life i feel stressed abt

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perap · 3 years

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i am so broke in animal crossing all because i needed more storage space for my house

#cant pay off my incline.#can barely pay 100000 to move nooks cranny 2 tiles to the left.#and after that im dead broke. need to pay over a million for my next house upgrade.#and i dont do the stalk market bc im forgetful and also anxiety ridden ant it #i make all my money off of fruit. thas it.#and isabelle wants me to remove my trees?? how am i supposed to have an income???#i suspect she has some ulterior motive other than just not liking trees..........#ALSO that 100000 fee for moving the shop 2 tiles over is bull.#cuz u cant move the shop. on top of itself. its in the way.#the shop is... in the way of itself?? ok animal crossing.#u want me to pay an extra 50000 all bc its /in the way of itself/#i have to move it twice and pay twice instead of just. scooting it over.#thanks nook. thanks.#*abt it not ant it jdvfg

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compassionatereminders · 2 years

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What you have found 5 happiness things in this year

Still being happy with my boyfriend, finally getting approved for disability benefits, starting to treat my anxiety with CBD oil, reaching 50000 followers and making plans to travel out of the country for the first time in many years are definitely in my top 5!

#chat with kat

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incorrect-next-to-normal · 2 years

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headcanons - henry marley

henry is extremely close to his parents, Margo and Andrew marley.

Henry's got autism and ADD. his main stims are hand flapping and picking at his skin. if natalie, gabe, or his parents notice him doing the latter, they'll hold his hands or ask him to help with something that requires both hands

henry is absolutely brilliant. 50000% a gifted child, except since he was diagnosed at a young age, he never hit that weird age where everything starts to go downhill when he got struck with other complications from his neurodivergences.

bc of his mama, henry first shot a gun when he was five and has yearly outings with his family at a paintball resort. if you break this man's heart you will die.

most of henry's baja hoodies have loose strings on the sleeves from how much he pulls at th em to discreetly stim

henry was bullied in elementary school, until in 5th grade, gabe broke a kid's nose for making fun of henry.

henry loves to stim with natalie's hair. he'll comb the knots out and twirl it around his fingers and tug on it lightly.

henry is panromantic, demisexual, and a demi boy. he uses he/him pronouns, and sometimes they/them

Henry's only social media is tumblr and an Instagram page which a) follows gabe and no one else and b) only posts blurry, cryptic photos of his cat

in 9th grade (14/15 years old) henry starts wearing a necklace with 5 specific gems on it. one for his mama, one for his pop, one for gabe, one for nat, and one for luna.

henry has severe separation anxiety. 100% the kid who cried on the first day of first grade because of his parents leaving. he manages it better as he gets older and gets a therapy cat, but it's still there.

henry and by extension, gabe, got into a fist fight with a teacher. they didnt even get expelled, bc it prompted an investigation into the teacher that revealed unsavory stuff. teacher was found dead a few days later.

Henry's mama has severe ptsd. she served in the military for years (classic case of under privileged kids being preyed on to join the military). henry watched his pa help her with it as he grew up, which is why hes so good with dealing w nat and gabe's symptoms right off the bat.

Henry's biggest sensory issue is noises. he HATES loud noises. he cannot deal with too many noises. natalie carries ear plugs with her for him and covers his ears when possible.

on a similar note, whenever Henry gets overstimulated, aside from trying to get away, he likes to hold natalie's hands or have them touching him. shes cold and hes hot, it balances things out for him

Henry's got dermatillomania, aka skin picking disorder. it's pretty bad and he never fully gets over it.

Henry's Instagram w cryptic photos of his cat, luna, is actually very very popular. like million+ followers popular.

Henry's got a whole lot of chew based stim toys. his favorite is a necklace in the shape of a music note. if he doesn't have something to chew on, like a necklace or hoodie strings, he bites the pads of his fingers.

my man thinks gender is a joke

his middle name is Benjamin

he loves to wear skirts. loves it. those really long flowy ones he can twirl around in. natalie thinks hes absolutely adorable.

henry didnt have to come out to his parents tbh. they just knew sjskns (rhat being said when he DID officially come out he was stoned af and it was midnight. he woke them up, wearing sunglasses, a Hawaiian shirt, and shorts and told them "mama, pa, I'm going to the pride parade." they had to stop him bc it was midnight and less than ten degrees outside.)

henry ends up as a child therapist. specifically working w kids who are neurodivergent or traumatized, and very often using music therapy. hes cussed our multiple people who dont think autism exists.

#next to normal #n2n #ntn #henry next to normal #henry ntn #natalie goodman #gabe goodman

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thatnerduknow98 · 3 years

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I need to rant about something.

I purchased tickets to a four day metal festival in Louisville in June. I’ve been to this festival pre covid and had a blast. It’s a mini vacation but it’s more than that.

It’s 50000 (or maybe not that much but certainly a heck ton) of people who have pent up anger, stress and anxiety all getting together and letting it out in a healthy way - thru music and mosh pits. Four days of it is rejuvenating for me. I am always a better person and have a better attitude after a concert.

There are people who want to cancel this festival because they’re afraid of getting the coronavirus.

I’m at the point now where I’m angry at these people. If you don’t want to get sick, don’t go. If you know someone who is going, avoid them. You are allowed to do that.

This is exactly the “if I can’t do it, no one can” sentiment that is extremely childish and selfish of people. I’m sorry you can’t go because you’re high risk, but don’t ruin it for everyone else.

It is not our responsibility to protect you anymore.

Six months ago it was all of our responsibility, but now we understand how the virus affects people better and we have an easily available vaccine. The truth is there is going to be a spike in cases whenever you open the world back up, so just get it over with already.

And before you call me heartless, I have lost people to covid too. But I don’t think these people would want me miserable inside my home not doing anything I love to do.

I personally would rather get the stupid apocalyptic virus at a concert having a blast than from a delivery driver at my home, shut up and scared. We’re all going to get it at some point.

But I’m not afraid to live.

I have been to three concerts since the world opened back up, and here’s what I noticed at all three:

If people want to wear masks they can. No one is going to harass you for wearing a mask if you want to. At least, not in Indiana or Kentucky.

People are respecting each other’s personal space without having to be asked to. In Kentucky a couple weeks ago I was in the second row and nobody was pushing me forward or even getting up in my face like they did pre covid.

We have spent so much time afraid of this illness that we have sacrificed everything we live for. People appreciate these experiences more and are willing to fight to keep them.

I even got vaxxed just for this festival because they required it. The vaccine legitimately scared me and I was skeptical of it, but I got it anyway because I want to go to this concert.

So I will be there, vaxxed and masked, ready to jam. Please don’t take that away from me.

#covid #angry rant #rant #angry #anger #i'm so fucking angry #metal #heavy metal #music

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none-ofthisnonsense · 1 year

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I posted 12,735 times in 2022

That's 12,646 more posts than 2021!

408 posts created (3%)

12,327 posts reblogged (97%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 2,108 of my posts in 2022

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#ask - 80 posts

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Longest Tag: 139 characters

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Cats-ucopia: Paris 1989

For @storyweaverofgondor‘s blog anniversary event, I did something I didn’t think of at first - I retranslated JSfJC from the original into a new (better imo) version.(If you’ve known me long enough, you can realise how much I am annoyed by the translations.) I really liked comparing the original to the English lyrics, so this was fun!

(I also wanted to sing it and edit with background music, but I fell quite sick this morning and that is Not Possible.)

Translation under the cut!

Italics represents lyrics that are the same in the original version. I tried to make it more literal than the original, so as to preserve as much of T. S. Eliot’s original text as possible.

“CHANTS JELLICLE POUR CHATS JELLICLES”

Êtes-vous né aveugle ?

Voyez-vous dans le noir ?

Sur le trône d’un roi

Pourriez-vous vous asseoir ?

Peut-on dire de vos cris

Qu’ils sont pires que vos crocs ?

Êtes-vous roi de Paris

Quand vous marchez tout seul ?

Parce que

Jellicles peuvent et Jellicles vont*

Jellicles vont et Jellicles f’raient

Jellicle f’raient et Jellicles peuvent

Jellicles peuvent et Jellicles vont

Quand vous êtes dans l’air, tombez-vous sur vos pieds ?

Sentez-vous les changements qui se passent dans l’air ?

Êtes-vous capable de retrouver, aveugle, votre chemin ?

Savez-vous pénétrer dans la Félinosphère ?

Parce que

Jellicles peuvent et Jellicles vont

Jellicles vont et Jellicles peuvent

Jellicles peuvent et Jellicles vont

Jellicles vont et Jellicles peuvent

Jellicles peuvent et Jellicles vont

Les repaires des sorcières, pouvez-vous y aller ?

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13 notes - Posted December 14, 2022

rant/general anxiety following

My dream university is Oxford. My second dream uni is Trinity College Dublin.

English Language and Literature

English and Modern Languages

Modern Languages and Linguistics

(Modern Greek, Italian, and Portuguese all have beginner options, but German doesn’t)

The last one in Oxford that I’m interested in (these aren’t actually ranked apart from ML&L, but I’m writing this as I think about it) is English and Modern Languages.

All this to say that I don’t know what course to try to apply to at Oxford, and just how difficult it’ll be for me to apply considering my level. I just don’t know what to do about Oxford.

Now, onto Trinity College Dublin! (Which I’m going to call TCD because it’s a long name.)

The courses that interest me are:

Acting (unsure if I’m really interested in this one)

Diploma in Acting and Theatre (same question for all things theatre... is it worth it?)

Drama and Theatre Studies

English Studies (see Oxford point about analysis)

Linguistics (JH) (The opportunity problem)

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14 notes - Posted December 9, 2022

I am 15.

I am 13.

I am all of the ages and people and places that have composed me.

The birthday party when I was 7.

The theatre when I was 12.

I am a shell made of the glowing pieces of all that I have left behind.

I am a fractured mosaic of collaged memories.

A mother's cries for a lost child

A daughter weeping for a past she cannot know.

Diligent screams of families of children past.

Unfulfilled conditions to lead to futures that cannot be.

Choices gone back too late after the unescapeable consequences

Responsibilities ignored in favour of a gilded cage of freedom

Ambiguities fallaciously interpreted into wrong rights

I am 7, and I have not yet known loss.

I am 11, and my life has not quite begun but the beginning that's started is unbearably joyful.

I am 14, and things once gone cannot come back.

I am one and a half, and life-changing events have affected me without my knowledge.

I am all of the ages and places and people that have composed me.

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@thegentlemanstar this is it 👉👈

15 notes - Posted October 24, 2022

anyone have any profile picture suggestions?

18 notes - Posted August 31, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

There’s a strange number of people active in both Cats the Musical and the Lord of the Rings fandoms, but I wouldn’t change it for the world! (It’s very fun to see this incredibly specific crossover be so popular (compared to the size of the Cats fandom) since it’s not immediately obvious. But I love it!)

31 notes - Posted October 1, 2022

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