#my professor sucks

[mysicklove]

today i cried for like 2 hours bc i am taking this online (4 week) statistics class and i like regret it to the fullest amount. like my ass is getting kicked rn i do not understand anything and i have a midterm THAT IS WORTH 60% OF MY GRADE in 2 days. i was seconds away from dropping it and getting a W (which will look so bad for PA school)

anyways the point is i didn’t quit, so i will be ruining my GPA. so u guys have to be nice to me for the next week bc this will possibly be my first B since freshman year of high school 💖💖💖💖

#🔪 - mello talks too much #i cannot learn math from a textbook #my professor sucks #my mid term #is 15 questions worth 60% of my grade #goodbye #taking a 16 week class in the time span of 4 weeks is so silly of me #so so so silly #but it’s too late #FUCK IT WE BALL EVERYONE

[roci-wolf]

damn, it's been a long while.

i'm still not in the right state of mind to answer to stuff, but i promise i will soon. i'm patiently waiting for the Christmas holiday to arrive.

it's been a tough month, ngl 🫠 but it's ok. everything passes eventually.

also, huge thank you to the people that followed recently 💜

#roci's awooo 🐺 #roci's struggles #man i'm tired #and i got a presentation on the last day before christmas holiday starts #yes #on the 23rd #my uni sucks #my professor sucks #whatever

[carrotkicks]

this place feels familiar...

#the text in the drawing is a quote from professor N btw. #ignoring the fact that i suck at rendering. i'm super happy abt this #there was some vague color symbolism happening in my mind while coloring this. chuuya red. the world is blue. yeah.. themes. motifs. #and that's the part where cloneboy's hand slams against the tank next to chuuya's hand... that scene lives rent free in my head #<- merged with the scene where he sees verlaine's memory of rescuing him. #bsd #bungo stray dogs #stormbringer #chuuya #verlaine #rimbaud #actually i'm really growing on this coloring style.. grainy low contrast type. and textures #OHYEAH the first chuuya nakahara stormbringer angst brainrot art of 2024!!!! #.png

[homophyte]

people keep bringing up eugenics in my evolutionary bio class

#have to give my professor some props because he did go #’well the thing you just said is eugenics. and the world you’re describing sucks’ #literally ‘are we less evolved than people in ‘third world countries’ because we don’t deny people care’ #valorizing the horrific consequences of colonialism and then not applying any critical thinking to #who would disproportionately be denied care on the basis of so called ‘inferior genes’ #genuinely always surprising to me the way people turn their own lack of allergies into a moral good LMAO #if you care so much go breed about it somewhere else #myposts

[mintaikcorpse]

Love that scene in Pokemon Scarlet (and Violet but I played Scarlet) where the protagonists were in Area Zero and describing their parents, and Penny is like "Omg, my dad's so annoying! He gives me annoying names like Pen-Pen," and Nemona is like, "I grew up in a rich family, and my parents gave me a lot of freedom but still made sure to care for me," and then Nemona tells Penny about how nice the protagonists mom is, and then Arven, with his fucked up parents, is just watching like:

#like bro has the WORST mommy and daddy issues #he even says to Penny 'It must suck having your own daughter describe you like that' #since he would KILL for a mom or dad to talk about him with such love and give him nicknames #just let my boy live a happy life man #pokemon arven #arven pokemon #pokemon penny #penny pokemon #pokemon nemona #nemona pokemon #champion nemona #pokemon sada #sada pokemon #pokemon turo #turo pokemon #professor sada #professor turo #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarlet #pokemon violet #pokemon sv #pokemon area zero #area zero #pokemon #pkmn #talking #rambling

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

#muerto talks #just rambling #maybe im just a hater virgo with a strong sense of justice #i am just forever perplexed #learning that some of my classmates believe that you can be racist to white people is crazy #learning that some of my classmates are rude and dismissive to BIPOC students but they work in BIPOC communities #learning that some of my classmates weaponize their mental illnesses as an excuse to act shitty to professors classmates or clients is craz #there are zionists??? trying to be social workers?????? #i literally have classes with zionists #some people r doing a whole ass career change because they had a spiritual calling to help people?? #again not saying im such a great clinician im in training just like the rest of my program #but you cannot like tell me to even try to be hopeful about some of the people who will be my collegues in a year #because i have no hope for them #and its going to take making serious mistakes for them to maybe snap out of it #and that fucking sucks #nothing in my body feels safe around those people #like idc maybe im an elitist with impossible standards #maybe im the one asking too much from these people..... #the cognitive dissonance is real in these people man

[savoytrufflephd]

Let's talk about the title...

Having created this Tumblr for no other purpose than send HIUH (Hand in Unlovable Hand) asks to @thickenmyblood, I figured why not dedicate winter break to fic analysis posts?

So let's start with the title!

How could you possibly be here if you're worried about spoilers, but...

Hand in Unlovable Hand.

At first I was oriented toward the Mountain Goats song (“No Children”), you know how it goes :

I am drowning there is no sign of land you are coming down with me hand in unlovable hand

And throughout the fic's posting, lots of readers have been alternately finding Damen and then Laurent very hard to like (which was an awesome reading experience in and of itself because fanfic doesn’t always tend toward deeply complex characters). So the sort-of-toxic relationship view felt plausible (except I was always going for “appears-toxic-but-is-actually-true-love-and-totally-fixable” because this is make-believe anyway and it’s based on CP, so).

But now I’m thinking, what if the “unlovable” is actually about people who think they are unlovable? And what if that’s not just both Damen and Laurent, but also Nicaise?

So, like, what if what this little family actually has in common – even if Damen appears to have a very different history and Laurent has said they are too different – is their individual fears that no one will ever really love them?

Like Nicaise obviously doesn’t think Damen can actually love the real him and tries to be on his best behavior (even while pushing Damen’s boundaries). And Nicaise seems like he’s doing his level best to drive Laurent away, so that when Laurent eventually abandons him – as he fears - he can pretend that’s what he wanted anyway. 

And Damen has panic attacks about Maxime not because he gives a shit about Maxime but because he’s let Maxime represent the idea that Laurent never really loved Damen, but was just using Damen and moved on quickly and painlessly. And Damen had no mother and had a distant father and a resentful half-brother and he’s only just beginning to believe that chosen family can be real family.

And Laurent completely doesn’t get that Damen has this insecurity because he sees Damen’s life as so normal and charmed.

And, finally, even though our unreliable narrator thinks Laurent has always been in control of everything, including their relationship and entrance into the family formed by Laurent and Nicaise, Laurent’s insecurities (on nearly full display in Chapter 19) have been sprinkled throughout this fic like breadcrumbs.

In the original breakup:

“We’re different. We want different things.” Damen said nothing. The coffee was ashy in his mouth. Dry. “I’ve got Nicaise,” Laurent said, “and I can’t—this is not working. It was never going to work.”

In the overheard conversation with Ancel:

Ancel’s back is all Damen can see. His hair shakes from roots to ends when he tilts his head in Laurent’s direction. “I thought,” he says, slowly, “that you wanted different.” “I did.” “Ugh, Laurent, you’re giving me a headache. What even is the pro—” “I’m not,” Laurent says, louder than before. The shock of sound works like a slap, and Damen wants to move back into the hallway, to scurry to the other bathroom, to leave them alone, but his legs simply won’t take him there. “ I’m not. I’m still—you heard what Nicaise—”

In Laurent's interpretation of the breakup:

“You wanted out,” Laurent says, “so I gave you out.”

But Damen finds Laurent so loveable – and he didn’t ever really talk to Laurent about the effects his abuse – that he can’t understand how unloveable Laurent feels.

So I feel like they three are all so much alike (and so lost in insecurity) that now they’re all talking past each other.

But I also feel like when they come back together in the right way, the family will be so good for each other, damn it!

#captive prince #captive prince fanfic #hiuh #damen x laurent #thickenmyblood #hand in unlovable hand #neither my wife nor child reads this fic and i suck at fandom these days but i NEED to talk about this masterwork #the sad thing is I'm a professor not a student

[myenterpriseisparked]

A small collection of memes I made to document my experience watching Star Trek Enterprise:

#this show was really good #except TATV #also Archer sucks #but anyway great cast #great crew #lovely ship #fun plots #Absolutely obsessed with the fact that Hoshi Sato was a freaking university professor at age 22 #and that she ran a gambling ring #also I love Trip Tucker #He's my special little guy #I love T'Pol too #if I had more room I would have made Phlox memes too because Phlox Rocks #Star Trek Enterprise #enterprise #Captain Archer #Trip Tucker #T'Pol #Malcolm Reed #Hoshi Sato #travis merriweather #Shran #Soval #Admiral Forrest

[rynliadon]

can you imagine if richard papen had just gone to like. ucla

#as a californian from a town very similar to his: it’s so fucking funny to hear him talk about how much he hates california #he’s like if i had grown up in this east coast victorian lake house i would have loved it bc ca sucked out my soul #ok melodramatic #i don’t have any rich friends a creepy greek professor!! i’m stuck in CA forever!! #the secret history #donna tartt #(also note: i’m like 20% of the way in LOL don’t spoil anything please 🙏)

[aroacettorney]

do not let caseys sunshiness distract you from the fact that she is just as much emotionally constipated as ludger.

#academy's undercover professor spoilers #academy's undercover professor #casey selmore #the fact that casey has never told anyone including betty and terinna about delica/memory storming events is so wild to me #like girlie why r u suffering from all that by urself #ppl hating on casey for having negative EQ but that only reflects how much emotional support she usually gets from others #case in point: marias selmore #wouldnt surprise me if casey has never trusted to emotionally open up to anyone ever again when its her own family treating her like that #in her entire life casey is close to only 4 ppl but they are either: #1) her sister who historically sucks #2) bestie no. 1 who is almost always swarmed with work #3) bestie no. 2 who once again gave her trust and abandonment issues #4) bestie no. 3 who is not even a human but an automaton also learning how to deal with her own emotions #not to mention to maintain her reputation as a renowned detective she must have been neglecting her own emotional needs #casey selmore my beloved just because you dont look at it doesnt mean it is not there #casey tryna brush off her emotions after the memory storming and seek to solve the problem logically like a thinker she is but #she didnt realise that she was just delaying the inevitable and so the basara arc hit her like a truck + left her bedridden for a month 💀 #caseys apologies to ludger only really solved the problem on logical terms #but there is never any emotional closure between them bc they are both painfully emotionally constipated so back to suffering we go 💀💀💀 #lesson learnt from ludgercasey angst galore: stop trying to solve emotional problems with logics

[atissi]

this is a joke. i hated business school.

(conversation with @thesweetestclementine)

#CONTEXT: we were talking about the james somerton bullshit #anytime someone at a party asks me what i majored in i say 'marketing and finance but i hated it the entire time i promise im normal' #can confirm though that 80% of business majors suck ass at writing let alone coming up with original ideas #in first year we had a mandatory business writing class because it had gotten so bad among previous cohorts #and everyone i talked to hated it because we had to read actual books and the professors were lit. phds with actual standards #'they mark way too hard i got 60% on everything' have you considered that this is a. skill issue. #also 60% is just. expected for certain humanities courses lolll at least in business our grades get curved #so you're only hurting your GPA if you write worse than everyone else lol. but good luck with that #anyways that's just a fraction of why my classes were terrible. but the writing thing annoyed me the most when I was doing group essays. #beepbeep.txt

[hotmonkeelove]

Happy Snape Day!!!

Yes, I celebrate it!

Fuck Harry, fuck Rowling! Severus Snape is the real hero.

#severus snape #professor snape #greatest character ever #i truly love you severus snape #snape did nothing wrong #snape was right #pro snape #suck it haters #snape was the real hero #snapedom #pro severus snape #snape forever #book 7 isn't in my canon #snape love #snape deserves all the love #slytherin pride #rowling doesn't deserve the beautiful character she created #but then rowling doesn't deserve acknowledgement for anything given all the horrible shit she's done #j.k. rowling is a bully #and a sociopath

[day-colors]

#sorry no art this week my professor sucks so much. loathe having to see that guy four days a week #anyway fern doodle #sorry its all i got #fern #adventure time #doodle #art stuff

[fortunaegloria]

Harrison Ford in the telefilm The Possessed (1977), dir. Jerry Thorpe (x)

#harrison ford #the possessed #movieedit #filmedit #mine #this movie really sucks #the worst in his filmography and the worst I've ever seen in my entire life #the only things that are saved are his appearance and the final scene #at that time he was already giving off Professor Indiana Jones vibes #he looks so hot 😍

[mooseonabreak]

Forgot film bros existed until my film course lecture today and Dear God. Why did he have to sit right next to me.

#I’m pretty sure my professor saw me side eyeing the guy every time he made some weird comment #professor: Looks like mostly men in here have watched The 300 #film bro. snickering: yeah. for good reason #like bro what the fuck does that even mean #why did you say it so smugly #that movie sucked ass in every conceivable way #moose rambles #moose posting

[puppyeared]

i am playing professor layton and the curious village on my ds. very fun!!!

I don't know if i'm very far in because most of the time spent in that game was me being confused and bad at puzzles. it's fun though.

!!! im glad to hear youre enjoying it!! its one of my fav titles and honestly such an underrated series, id love it if more ppl gave it a try!

the puzzles can be difficult but very rewarding!! i used to dread them as a kid but now i find them nice and challenging. the math ones are still hard, but if u speak to Flick at the cafe he'll give you chess puzzles which i think were my favorite ^_^

#its nice because its story driven but gives u enough room to do the puzzles on your own to make progress.. and the rewards like #the gizmos painting pieces and furniture for the minigames are also a nice bonus because it gives u a little extra incentive to solve as #many puzzles as possible!! ngl i didnt know how the hotel room minigame worked but i had fun completing the painting and robot dog #plus the variety and the fact that u dont know which puzzles youre gonna get makes it interesting. and theres no harm if u cant finish or #end up missing some because you can find them in the riddle shack or just do a different one instead and its fine. very cool #i have dyscalculia so the math ones have always been hard for me and id need my brothers help so we'd work on it together #or i'd just search up the answer as a last resort............ #actually im gonna save u the trouble. if u get the camera case puzzle the answer is 95. ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW BUT ITS 95 #it took me like 2 hours with my brother just to figure that out and i dont want anyone to get a headache from that one ITS FRUSTRATING #ive only played curious village and pandoras box bc its the only ones i had as a kid. replaying pandoras box rn actually!!! #i have cracked versions of unwound future and azran legacy which come after CV and PB BUT my version of unwound future is broken #it freezes on the opening cutscene every time i try to play it which SUCKS bc i really wanna play the games in order. maybe ill emulate it #professor layton #ask #answered #yapping #doodles