#nice enough rooms

[mitamicah]

Another great concert although something felt a tiny bit more tense than yesterday...

I blame the venue especially with how the bus was right next to the queue so the guys might have felt that they had no privacy 😅

Lots of good band member interactions on stage tho 👀 plus - but I might be wrong here - I felt like I got even more attention from Bojan today the most obvious being when he got to give my little kris corner fist bumbs but held my hand in his and winked at me 🥹

I still havent told you a lot about Malmö so this may seems a big leap but yeah I promise I will get to it possibly after getting home to a computer and being able to type a diary for myself before making one for tumblr xD

#i will say it was a good gig although my fave on the tour i have attended is still Malmö #then i am unsure whether i liked Göteborg or helsinki 2 the most after that #helsinki one had a great setlist but probably have to be the fourth place for me #mostly because of my sitting spot the boys seeming to warm up to touring again and the fact i didnt get to queue #because we fangirled all day xD #i didnt get to queue that much today either #but that was because i got there later with the bus and got lost walking to the hotel and back #btw i didnt realise when booking but my hotel is a freaking boat !?!? #nice enough rooms #i am litterally just babbling now :'D #joker out spring tour 2024 #joker out #jo see you soon tour 2024 #sys tour 2024 #Göteborg gig #my gig #mine

[vellichorsdesire]

messily drawn ragapom i am so sorry for the inconsistencies…

extra:

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #ragapom #pomni x ragatha #my art #this all happens in pomnis room if it isnt clear #i just think it’s quite nice thinking that these two hang out often #that theyve grown close enough to be a little intimate #or in this case just share a bed #no questions asked…. #this is so messy im sorry </3 #buttonblossom #< just found out that tags exists??!!!? cute

[canisalbus]

If your still undecided about what modern au Machete would have as a job, I would like to nominate him as a niche fashion model. Not like a popular celebrity, because he's not conventionally attractive, but he has that aura. He can Walk (in heels!!!)

I want to give him an excuse to wear all different kinds of fancy clothes, basically. He deserves to be dressed to the nines and glare down at an audience from the runway.

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#modern Machete is into fashion without a doubt #enough to dream about being a designer or a model or anyone in those circles #but I'm not sure he'd have the personality for it #I think you need to be at least passably sociable as a model right? #bold enough to put yourself out there but also humble and cooperative so people will want to work with you #and you have to be adaptable and stress-resistant to deal with long shooting days and travel #you gotta let hair stylists and makeup artists touch you and be somewhat ok with dressing and undressing with other people in the room #I tend to think his day job is something kind of boring and not glamorous at all but he's very good at it and it pays well #and he uses some of those paychecks to buy himself nice things to wear #but it was very sweet of you to think he could be a model he would've loved to hear that #answered #anonymous

[mumpsetc]

I Clung To You in Hopes We'd Both Drown

#Hfjone #hfjone liam #Hfjone Backpack #Liam Plecak #Hfjone Airy #onehfj #TW Suicide #Consider This a Late Anniversary Drawing Since the Actual Anniversary Was When I Was Workin On Daisy 9 #More Purple Liam! I Like to Work in Sunsetty Palettes for One Art to Emulate the Waiting Room and Since That Removes Green and Blue #From the Palette I Tend to Jump to Purple for Him #Anyways This Was Mostly a Practice to Get Back Into Drawing Again #Every Entry I Forgot How to Draw Cuz Its 2 Weeks of 3D Work and Then I Like to Make a Big Painterly Piece to Get Back In the Swing of Thing #The Most Fun Here Was Painting the Golden Gate Bridge #Im a Firm Believer That Once You Get Good Enough At Perspective You Can Ignore It and Its Nice to Be At That Place By My Own Standards #+ It Was Fun to Render With All the Oranges and Purples and Reds. Im Trying to Blend With More 'Harsh' Colour Differences I Guess #Step Away From Shading Red With Dark Red Blue With Dark Blue ETC #Dreamy Art

[molsno]

what I've experienced and observed as an asexual trans lesbian is that engaging with certain kinks can be unhealthy and harmful, but it doesn't necessarily have to be.

by and large, most of the people who have "unhealthy" kinks are victims. that is to say, their kink originates from a place of trauma. someone who's experienced sexual abuse in the past, for example, may very well have internalized the idea that they deserved what happened to them. and because escaping that traumatic mindset is incredibly difficult, they may find themselves having sexual fantasies about being abused again long after the danger they were in ceases; to them, it can feel like being sexually abused means they're fulfilling what they believe to be their only purpose. these fantasies can be deeply damaging to a person's self worth, not just because they're blind to their own inherent value as a person, but because they're denying themself any form of sexual agency. they may very well seek out relationships in which they're abused once again. and that is unambiguously harmful! I've certainly seen several people that this has happened to, and it's an incredibly demoralizing and heartbreaking situation to observe and an even more miserable one to be in.

however, that isn't a universal experience. for some people, engaging with their kink with someone can actually be a source of empowerment. let's continue with the previous example. if, instead of seeking out a relationship in which they're sexually abused, they decide to engage in their fantasies with someone who genuinely recognizes their sexual autonomy - someone who they can honestly talk to about their experience, who respects their boundaries, and who communicates with them to establish safeguards to ensure that their consent is never violated - then they may well find a feeling of power over the situation that they didn't have before.

that isn't guaranteed to happen; for some trauma victims, their pain may be too great to replicate, even in a state of significantly reduced danger. some people may try to and discover that it is affecting them in an unhealthy way and stop. and that's okay! their sexual autonomy deserves to be respected. however, others who do engage with it may come out of the experience with a newfound recognition and acceptance of said autonomy. if they know they have the power to make the experience stop any time they feel uncomfortable, they may come to realize and truly believe that they didn't deserve what happened to them, and that they don't have to tolerate anyone who disrespects their boundaries in the future.

it's perfectly fine to not want to see someone's engagement with a particular kink. it can be upsetting for those who have been personally affected by it to witness recreations of it. luckily, in online spaces, there's an easy solution to this problem: you can avoid it by unfollowing or even blocking anyone who posts about it.

I find it troubling that so many people are averse to this idea - particularly because of the way they direct their anger toward trans women. it is a regular occurrence on this website and in fact most online spaces for someone to accuse a trans women (or multiple) of having an "inherently harmful" kink. often, these accusations are made with little to no context or even proof, if they're not simply fabricated outright (which they frequently are). accusing trans women of being sexual predators is one of the oldest forms of transmisogynistic violence you can commit, which is why I find it infuriating that this is such a common tactic in purportedly transfem-supportive communities.

perhaps you might be thinking that engaging in harmful kinks contributes to their normalization. I find this idea laughable, because sexual abuse is already normalized in society - it's baked into its very foundation, in fact. marriage, the nuclear family, christianity, police, the judicial system, and just about everything else was designed to give cishet white men absolute unchecked sexual power over women and children. and while some small advances have been made to chip away at this authority, by and large, these men are still free to perpetrate sexual abuse without facing any consequences.

minorities, on the other hand, have always been and continue to be violently punished for even being accused of sexual abuse. for example, there's a very long history of white women falsely accusing black men of rape with the express purpose of getting them lynched. still today, black people are viewed as hypersexual predators who pose a danger to white women and children for doing things as insignificant and nonsexual as wearing a revealing outfit. trans women are in a very similar position, with our mere existence being nothing more than a fetish to a significant number of tme people. it's no surprise, then, that accusations of sexual predation against us largely focus on the non-normative ways in which we often have sex.

what this inequality often looks like in practice is that cis men are free to browse the step-sister category on pornhub to their heart's content, whereas a trans woman who might, potentially, call her girlfriend her "sister" as a means of recovering from a form of sexual abuse she faced in the past is stalked online by people who believe her to be a physical danger to others, who will then publicize all of the details they can find about her private sex life with the intention of isolating her from what is likely the only community and support network she has. this should be obvious, but a trans woman without any community to accept her is significantly more likely to attempt to commit suicide, making this form of social outcasting a form of violence.

so the question then is, why does this happen? because let's be honest, it's not really about "removing predators from our communities", as much as people like to claim it is. if that were the case, then it wouldn't happen so disproportionately to trans women; the demographics of people accused would be more representative of their actual proportions. the real reason this happens is specifically because of transmisogyny. tme people, even those who are outwardly supportive, harbor internal conceptions of trans women based on stereotypes of us being sexual predators, and they react to our every action with undue scrutiny and vigilance. and because they hold the privilege of being transmisogyny-exempt, they can exert power over us in a way that they can't do to cishet white men by exiling us, knowing full well that they'll be believed by other tme people, even if they have no evidence of actual harm being done.

and that's the metric by which we should actually be judging the validity of claims of sexual predation - whether or not someone was actually harmed. if no one has genuinely been harmed, what good does it do to isolate someone from the only community they may have? that in itself is obviously harmful to the person being exiled, so the question to ask before utilizing it is: will doing so actually prevent more harm from being done unto others?

trans women as a whole are a deeply traumatized demographic. I can almost certainly list off more trans women I personally know who have been raped than who haven't. we are victims, in the vast majority of cases. despite that, we live under a veil of transmisogyny that constantly calls us dangerous degenerate freaks. as a result, some trans women develop coping methods you may find unpalatable. I'm not a very kinky person myself, and a result of me being ace is that a lot of even the most basic and common sexual acts are physically repulsive to me. because of that, I feel uncomfortable when I see people engage in certain kinds of sex and kinks, even if they're fellow trans women. you know what I do in these cases? I just don't follow them. I mind my own business and move on. it's really that easy.

arguing that nobody can engage in certain trauma-based kinks because it can harm them is short-sighted at best and actively dangerous at worst. how can you claim to be a feminist who supports bodily and sexual autonomy and be opposed to people having consensual sex you don't like? it's the same conservative rhetoric that aims to suppress women for taking control of their own sexual desires. it's one step removed from telling trans people not to get bottom surgery because they'll regret it. if you truly believe that people have the right to do what they want with their bodies, you're going to have to accept that some people will do things that personally make you uncomfortable, and you're going to have to acknowledge the fact that just because they make you uncomfortable, that doesn't mean they're harming anyone. just mind your own business. it's seriously not hard.

#I've finally had enough I'm done playing nice and tiptoeing around the blue whale in the room #I'm almost certainly gonna lose followers for this but I don't really care anymore #if after reading this you're still a reactionary who chooses to paint trans women as degenerate perverts just get out #txt #transmisogyny #my writing

[unityrain24]

#mm felt nice making a list #sadly rainbow goldfish crackers didn't make it one there -_- not enough room #unityrain.txt #tumblr poll #tumblr polls #poll #polls

[darth-sonny]

"Box..."

Mikey paused.

The cat's cradle in his hands was unfinished - halfway done - but that didn't matter anymore.

Leo spoke. Spoke for the first time in weeks ever since they brought him back home...

And Mikey was confused as to the meaning of his brother's first words.

"What did you say?" he asked.

Leo raised a heavly bandaged hand - his only hand - and slowly pointed one finger at him. Mikey could see with crystal clear clarity how heavy the way Leo's arm shook, as if the action alone was so physically daunting that it tired him in just a few seconds.

Mikey was ready to gently take Leo's hand and lower it down when his brother spoke again, voice raspy and so, so different than what it had been weeks ago.

"Box."

With his brother's hand pointing at him, Mikey connected the dots.

"I'm... I'm Box?"

Leo nodded. "Box," he repeated again.

Mikey tried to smile, he did, but the way Leo's eye went to look down at the blanket covering him in shame made him realize that his smile was more or less of a grimace.

"Ssso-... orry..."

"It's okay!" Mikey chirped, wincing a bit at how Leo flinched at the loudness. "I'm fine with a new nickname!" He hummed, making a show of thinking the name over. He even scrunched up his beak. "Hmm, Box... Box... I like it! Box! We can add that to the list-"

"Na-... name..."

Mikey blinked. "What?"

Leo leaned forward, his face twisting in pain just a bit as his finger poked Mikey in the middle of his plastron.

"Box... is y-... yeerr... na-name..."

Leo's face then changed to one of confusion.

"Wha-... what's a-a ni-nick... name?"

lots of severe head trauma + deliberately messed with memories + recently getting possessed = amnesia

(mikey is box and raph is brute. the rest of the fam will get theirs once i decided on what they will be)

#it's the biggest contributer as to why leo doesn't tell anyone why he thinks there's something wrong w/ him #imagine - if you will - that you are a person who is badly hurt and a kind family takes you in to heal you #they treat you well. treat you nicely. you like them well enough and treat them like they treat you #but they're a family and you're a stranger #and then... there's the idea that you believe that there's something wrong with you but you don't know what #and you can't tell them because... well what can they do about it? #it's not about you #dodn't burden this nice family with a stranger's problems. not when they went out of their way to make room for you in their home #(leo can't help but agree with the voice in his head) #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #leo hamato #mikey hamato #prime leo au #sonny draws #my art #sonny writes

[odessastone]

Earlier I had a game with an Ashe and Cassidy duo who were engaged in what I can only describe as a Lovers’ Quarrel lmao. They spent the first half of the game fighting with each other, spamming “NO” at the other and jumping to their deaths. Honestly I was mad but it was also funny as hell. At one point the Cass went up to her and said “I’m your huckleberry.” To which she replied NO. and he promptly turned and jumped off the map

#you’ve heard of jealous Gency duos now get ready for self-sabotaging Cashe duos #they finally got their acts together in the second half and they were REALLY GOOD but it wasn’t enough to turn things around 😞 #overwatch #cole cassidy #elizabeth caledonia ashe #as someone who ships them as a disaster couple this is EXACTLY how I picture their dynamic tbh LOL #they’re on a nice expensive international vacation to Eichenwalde and at first it’s all smiles and laughter #then they’re stuck together on the long ass flight and in the hotel room for days on end #and everyone around them starts seeing the cracks forming lmfao #til it eventually culminates in this big public blowout #I was playing Illari and I could just FEEL the extra irritation radiating off her #she went in on this vacation group with the last of her allowance money. She’ll never make that mistake again

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[drawthething]

Their friendship is so odd yet so precious

I-It's the school ceiling crawl space in case no one can make out what nonsense thingy I scribbled in the back 😐

#everyone be nice i'm not in the mood for background or shading today #mr branca has a hidding place for backup mops somewhere in the ceiling i guess #tina's not finding the way to the boys locker room at all no not at all 👀 #anyway FINALLY I got a Branca doodle pumped out #he ain't got enough fanart and I'm part of the crime #I FAIL HIM #that wagstaff faculty mega doodle post is coming soon i tell ya #bobs burgers #bobs burgers fanart #bob's burgers #tina belcher #mr branca

[tarmac-rat]

Brokedown Palace

#Cyberpunk 2077 #CP2077 #V #My V #Riley Aldana #I found this place in Pacifica a little while ago while I was exploring...some old abandoned hotel on the side of the coast past the Pistis #With working doors and a few meda up rooms and some minor loot #Which makes me think that the devs once had a mission set in this place and then it got cut (likely for PL) #Or maybe I just wasn't exploring Pacifica enough in 2020-23 #Either way the view was nice :3 #Aldi speaks

[puppyeared]

i am playing professor layton and the curious village on my ds. very fun!!!

I don't know if i'm very far in because most of the time spent in that game was me being confused and bad at puzzles. it's fun though.

!!! im glad to hear youre enjoying it!! its one of my fav titles and honestly such an underrated series, id love it if more ppl gave it a try!

the puzzles can be difficult but very rewarding!! i used to dread them as a kid but now i find them nice and challenging. the math ones are still hard, but if u speak to Flick at the cafe he'll give you chess puzzles which i think were my favorite ^_^

#its nice because its story driven but gives u enough room to do the puzzles on your own to make progress.. and the rewards like #the gizmos painting pieces and furniture for the minigames are also a nice bonus because it gives u a little extra incentive to solve as #many puzzles as possible!! ngl i didnt know how the hotel room minigame worked but i had fun completing the painting and robot dog #plus the variety and the fact that u dont know which puzzles youre gonna get makes it interesting. and theres no harm if u cant finish or #end up missing some because you can find them in the riddle shack or just do a different one instead and its fine. very cool #i have dyscalculia so the math ones have always been hard for me and id need my brothers help so we'd work on it together #or i'd just search up the answer as a last resort............ #actually im gonna save u the trouble. if u get the camera case puzzle the answer is 95. ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW BUT ITS 95 #it took me like 2 hours with my brother just to figure that out and i dont want anyone to get a headache from that one ITS FRUSTRATING #ive only played curious village and pandoras box bc its the only ones i had as a kid. replaying pandoras box rn actually!!! #i have cracked versions of unwound future and azran legacy which come after CV and PB BUT my version of unwound future is broken #it freezes on the opening cutscene every time i try to play it which SUCKS bc i really wanna play the games in order. maybe ill emulate it #professor layton #ask #answered #yapping #doodles

[floydsteeth]

Todays modern au drawings, Keith!

#Little drawings of nice Keith #And a big drawing on alter Keith #Nice Keith is small cause I didn't have enough room on the page for another big drawing #Alter Keith gets different hair cause felt like it #Also caus either fir the greaser aesthetic more #Also small Emma #Ikepri modern au #Ikepri #ikepri keith #Ikepri Emma #Alter Keith #Ikemen prince #keith howell #I've yet to start my more detailed drawing of Keith and alter Keith #I need to draw this before I started it #So that I could like #I guess vibe with the modern au them #Concept sketches before a full drawing that's coloured and everything #I was gonna line these but then I got anxiety of #“What if I made them worst :(” #So yaknow #sketches #ikemen fanart #Arsons art :P

[skunkes]

accidentally sanitized my desk too much while cleaning it. Removed the clutter but at the cost of rainbows and whimsy everywhere in the form of all my markers surrounding me

#talkys #what ive learned while cleaning is i have too many items i dont want any more but feel bad parting with #and not enough items i like #but idk. i cant buy items i like (like little figures and such) bc i hate owning items #and also the new items dont fit anywhere among the old items i cant part with #i will never have an aesthetic room unfortunately. which is fine‚ but not when itll never look nice to even myself. whatever

[thebirdandhersong]

am I simply............. to be an educational pit stop and temporarily necessary mental/emotional/spiritual support for the men I love for all time?? like yes the two boys I've loved in my life I DID love with all my heart however the first only started reading the Bible regularly and investing in his church community after I broke up with him (these were things I kept suggesting while we dated, but which he brushed off and didn't take seriously) and now it's looking like I am an emotional bookmark for the second. like I'm in between one page of his life and the next, and am helping him process and am teaching him how to deal with his emotions properly, but what I'm doing for him is literally all that I will be to him, and he likely won't remember me when I move out of the dorm and graduate.

#i DO love him i DO want to help him #however i do wonder why he's chosen to confide in me. why he asked me to keep him accountable for something #that by all rights was his responsibility and his own romantic business #he IS young and he IS kind of immature in this area and i get why he asked me. i really do. he was afraid and i'm his friend. #but anywayyyyy this has been a TIME #i am trying not to be like well why is it my job to better these men #not to give myself too much credit LOLLLLL it's not like i'm drastically shaping them in any way shape or form #it's just. i know how much attention and hidden care and worry and affection and consideration i put into all of this #i too would like to experience it the other way around #where i am not the only one who is paying attention to these things and wanting to support and care for and watch over the other person #not that i'm doing anything with the expectation of reciprocity. goodness no i'm not stupid enough to expect anything now #but it would be really nice. REALLY NICE. to not be giving and giving and giving #and then going back to my room and then crying my eyes out because it feels like it's either all for nothing or has no weight to the boy #the waiting room chapter

[huginsmemory]

To follow up on the previous post mentioning that I knew I'd be meeting law soon in op and being excited because I'd know I'd like him. WELL. He's not the character I imprinted on. I mean let's be real I'll probably imprint on him aggressively when I learn more about him but u know who I DID IMPRINT ON? EUSTASS KID. THATS RIGHT. my gender envy snatched that boy so fast do u understand the envy of a person who as a kid was so desperately adhered to Toxic Masculinity and Always Wanted to Be Buff. Boy howdy did I mention I so badly wanted to be perceived as Male and that roughness expected of them. And Eustass Kid fulfills that roughly masculine stereotype to a tee EXCEPT not since he's also leaning into punk subculture and gender defying lipstick and it's not meant in an effeminant way but kinda a Don't Fuck With Me Way which his whole look screams and so suddenly that's TEN TIMES BETTER BECAUSE FUCK GENDER STEREOTYPES. and also did I mention he's clearly supposed to be Celtic/Scottish? and as a person whose also Scottish I'm like oh FUCK YES. And oh no that's EXACTLY the gender vibe I want. And then u don't know anything about him for the next age I guess since they all disappeared

#god i was such an ass as a kid. how did i realize i was not trans of somesort earlier... #oh wait cause my friend i grew up with ALSO adhered to toxic masculinity and we both wanted to be buff men. but shes now happy in her #relationship with her partner and i think the gender part doesn't matter much to her #which. well to each their own #anyways terribly embarrassing for my brain to latch on so hard #also as someone who does tanning and he sorta has that fur coat/warrior vibe my brain is like We Need More Furs in My Room #just finished two sheep skins two months ago which are on my floor #but itd be nice to get another bear pelt... oooo if its a grizz i might throw it ontop of my bed since itd be big enough #i already have a bear pelt over my desk chair tho. but. also 👀 #theyre so cozy ok #gender envy #hugin rambles #eustass kid #one peice musings