#no longer at ease

[ellevandersneed]

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#chinua achebe #no longer at ease #books

[adamcadre]

~1800 words

#Adam Cadre #calendar #No Longer at Ease

[lxnarphase]

satoru who uses possessives in front of things like “my sweet girl” “my cute girlfriend” sighs in adoration….. satoru. < 3 always has to remind you that you’re his.

- 🪻

oh absolutely he has to put it in front of anything he calls you, even if it's just your name. 'my, my, my,' it's one of his favorite words when he's referring to you. he's so so possessive, the poor man goes insane if he can't think about you.

just imagine it, satoru being separated from you for longer than three days just comes back home and he doesn't have his sunglasses or blindfold on, and his eyes are wide and those pretty blue irises are charged to the point wher you shiver the moment his eyes land on you. "there you areee," he beams with a nearly insane smile, unblinking as he stalks toward you. if you didn't know this was your man, you would've been scared shitless. no, no, this was your satoru whenever he missed you too long.

"my pretty girl, my little angel, my babyyyy," he coos to you as he backs you further into the house until you bump against the wall and he towers over you. "missed you. missed you s'much. my princess...but you waited for me, right? waited for your 'toru to come home? hm?"

after you give him that nod and small 'yes', he's picking you up and carrying you to the bedroom, his hands squeezing your ass as he holds you. it's almost scary how it surprises you how hard he is already even though this always happens, but fuck, if it doesn't do something to a girls ego when a man like satoru gojo gets this turned on just thinking about you being his.

"good girl," he purrs into you ear, kicking the bedroom door shut behind him. he lays you gently on the edge of the bed and kneels between your legs, pulling down your longuing shorts. you know you hear the quiet sound of a rip but you can't think too much about it, not when satoru is staring you down like this..."you're always so good for me, aren't you," he asks as he puts your legs over his shoulders, kissing up your inner thighs. "mm, it's cause your all mine? mine? mhmm, you're mine."

i just. i love possessive satoru.....

#🪻 ━━ stars. #this got longer than i meant too woops #I LOVE YOU SATORU GOJO !!!!!!! #gojo satoru x you #gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojo smut #is this smut ??? #not really ?? #gojo satoru smut #oh well im adding the tag for my ease of navigation #💎 ── satoru. #𖤐 ── lxnarblabs.

[reasonsforhope]

Self-Care in Times of Atrocities

This is something I've been struggling with myself, and it's also something I have a general chip on my shoulder about (in terms of the corporatization of self-care, ugh), so here have a post

It can feel impossible or even cruel, to "practice self-care" in the face of the world right now - and in particular, in the face of the ongoing genocide in Gaza.

So, I think it's really important to say that self-care does not mean that you are always emotionally balanced at all, that you are never overcome with rage and grief at the horror of ongoing atrocities.

To never be overcome by rage or horror or grief or any other negative emotions would be to shut ourselves off from a huge part of the human experience, in a situation where our connection to our common humanity is, I would argue, more important than ever.

Some days you will feel completely laid low by that rage and horror and grief. Sometimes for a few hours, sometimes for days or more.

That's not only normal, it is a completely rational response to what Israel is inflicting on Palestinians right now. I think it's a completely rational response to any genocide.

In some ways it's also a healthy response. Bottling up or choking off your emotions isn't good for you. Refusing to ever sit with pain isn't good for you. Refusing yourself grief and mourning and catharsis isn't good for you. We know all of this.

Self-care, in times of atrocity, doesn't mean always keeping yourself on some kind of even keel. In a lot of ways I think it means letting yourself cry, letting yourself channel all of your storming emotions into a force that can help, rather than just eat you up inside.

And self-care isn't the kind of corporate, hypercapitalist "buy yourself out of your feelings" bs that we're quite literally sold, either.

Self-care is, very often, not about indulging or pampering yourself (not that there's anything wrong with indulging or pampering yourself).

A lot of the time it just means...taking care of your physical form, as best you can, even when you least want to, so you don't pile more on top of everything else.

A lot of the times it means making yourself eat something, even just some crackers, even though you feel sick from horror.

Or groaning and forcing yourself to drink a glass of water, because you can, you have access to drinkable water, and you can honor that for the privilege it is by avoiding a terrible dehydration headache.

Or making yourself take a shower, even though it's the last thing you feel like doing, because you have an important meeting tomorrow.

Or locking your phone in a drawer for a while, because staying up all night doomscrolling won't do anything but drain you further.

And if you're ever feeling too guilty to do any of that, remember: you cannot pour from an empty vessel. Meeting your own basic needs as best you can is one really, really important way to make sure you have the energy to help.

#me #not news #self-care #free palestine #palestine #israel #genocide #cw genocide #cw war #now I need to take my own damn advice and eat something #bodies are so rude #we need to be ready to be in this for the long haul #I PRAY that we won't have to be #but this has been going on for months and it could keep going on months longer with horrifying ease #take care of your flesh vessel so you don't burn out before this is over #because there are a lot of things that can help people in Palestine #but doomscrolling and not eating and the like aren't among them #grief

[muppenthings]

HEYOO!!! Love your art and ocs btw. So may I ask if you can please make one shot where Gorm is saving someone from drowning? Ik this is weird but you gotta know that imma weirdo so..

I'm happy you like them! This was entertaining to draw. ;)

#ask #Anonymous #Muppen draws #oc Gorm #cw drowning #cw tentacles #How did they get so far out? #Dragged out by a riptide? Fell asleep on a unicorn floaty? Aliens? Who knows #At least they got their hat back. :) #And is no longer drowning but that was a minor event #A very short oneshot as I ease back into drawing #Thanks for the idea :3

[bahbahhh]

last scene of TotK maybe?

#as in his burden is finally eased #and he’s no longer alone #so he can speak #and the first word he says his her name #and we end with their hands #throwback to Zelda’s diary botw #bahbahhhart #totk #tears of the kingdom #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom #zelink #link #loz link #loz zelda #Sidon #Riju #tulin #greyscale #loz fandom #loz fancomic #botw #loz breath of the wild #breath of the Wild

[feroluce]

Learned recently that the Xianzhou Luofu apparently uses a different script than Belobog and that's so cool, I love little worldbuilding things like that. ♡

And then I nearly keeled over imagining Gepard going for a daytrip with Caelus and Asta to the Luofu; Caelus is taking Asta so she can run errands (and go shopping, of course) and Gepard is tagging along because Bronya found out he'd been falsifying records about his paid time off-

(Bronya: You have two years of overdue pto?! Out!

Gepard: But-

Bronya: Go on vacation or something! Out!!)

-and. It's all a little overwhelming for poor Geppie.

Everything is so weird and different there. A part of him is curious and enjoys it, but he just doesn't really have that same pioneering spirit as his sisters and it's not as fun for him as it would be for them. He wishes they hadn't been busy and could've come along, he'd feel a lot better with Serval and Lynx. He can't even read most of the script, he's mostly reliant on Caelus and Asta or the translation function they put on his phone for him. He kind of just wants to go home. He misses his city.

And then he catches sight of a head of blue hair in the corner of his eye, snickering and messing with the script on one of the signs.

Gepard: Wh- You!?!?

Sampo: !!! :D

Sampo grins wide and darts off, Gepard launches after him out of habit, and somehow, even with Gepard being new and alien to the Luofu, Sampo always seems to stay juuuuuuust within sight, just close enough not to lose him or get lost completely.

Gepard is lead all the way out near the starskiff building grounds when he finally has to stop, because Sampo somehow scales the damn wall like a nasty little lizard, gets all the way to the top, then winks at him over the roof and tells him he'll see him later, have fun, give Serval a kiss for him back home!! Gepard flips him off even though Sampo has already turned around and left skxjkdkdmfkf

But then he finally sits down and looks around him and realizes that oh. He feels kind of. Better now. More on even footing. Stable ground. There's no snow, but the high steel walls and corridors here are more familiar to him than all the wide open space and brightly colored buildings of the main tourist section he'd been in. The background hum is quieter and gentler here, and it reminds him more of Serval's shop, as opposed to Starskip Alley's throngs of chattering people and fast-flying ships. The little pangs that made his chest feel hollow have eased up. ♡

Caelus, carrying a Certain Courier Package: ...We've heard from him, yeah.))

((Asta: Sorry it took us so long to get out here! I found this sword that Arlan would like and-

Gepard: It's fine, don't worry about it. Hey, did you know Koski is running around out here?

#hsr #sampard #gepo #sampo koski #gepard landau #hsr asta #caelus #sampo helping but in the most backhanded subtle way dkzjskkdj #I want Geppie to realize that he associates Sampo with home and that seeing him eased his homesickness and hate it sknzmsmsmd #I like daydreaming about Caelus Asta Gepard and Sampo all interacting bc they're my main team ♡ #their team name is Team Babygirl Privilege bdksjsjdk #the thing about Gepard falsifying his pto records is actually part of a much bigger much longer thought about him trying to- #-protect his soldiers from Cocolia. I HAVE. A LOT OF THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT IT. #the post for it is still in my drafts I just need to go get the screenshots ingame for it blegh #I wanna talk about it so bad though #soon soon....

[magicbats]

first simself in like 4 years lmao

here r the fits in reality i wear pajamas and the same t-shirt 90% of the time

#ts4 #simblr #*edit #i saw other ppl doing simselves and im easing back into posting so i thought it'd be a good trend to hop on :^) #my hair is actually longer irl rn i need a haircut very badly lol

[mamawasatesttube]

sometimes im tempted to just open to action comics #1 and read through from the very beginning. i haven't done it yet but the temptation does exist

#i read all of robin 1993 in 4 days. which is 180 issues. so if i read at a rate of 45 issues a day... #... round that up to 50/day for ease of math and i could THEORETICALLY get thru ~1100 issues in 21 days. #of course that would require me to be an insane person who does nothing but read comics for 3 weeks straight #so realistically it would take longer than that #but the idea that i COULD do this. it's rattling around in my head #rimi talks

[deus-ex-mona]

real talk: lxl should continue to explore romance fantasy concepts in their songs. it’s clearly working for them~

#typical prince aesthetics in romeo/julieta and nonfan… and now historical rofan in meoto… #(and there’s also whatever’s going on in tsuki no hime but that has no mv :( sadge) #sorry guys i still have meoto on the brain pls suffer with me~~~~~~~~~ #but mannnnn. i was struck by sudden inspiration for a meoto au a n d #well. ig now i understand why they skipped over the falling in love phase. romance is hardddd #i want to subscribe to the meoto expansion pack p l s i need to know what their deal is~~~~ #bc man. how in the world did they go from complete indifference to promising to stay together forever hello #what happened???????? excuse??????????? #man. m a n. ok i think im done for the night. i hope #LXL MEOTO CRISIS 2K24 #(but if anyone here wants to get into the otome isekai genre in general… i recommend starting off with ✨s u r v i v i n g r o m a n c e✨ #(it’s a great story and it’s still modernised enough to ease into the genre. and after that…) #(you can just go for the series with the most interesting premise/prettiest art/both tbh) #(though i personally recommend ✨the perks of being an s class heroine✨ ✨the villainess’s stationery shop✨ for milder content) #(and there’s also some series with both isekai and regression.) #(like they isekai after their 1st life in 20xx-> live out their 2nd life in the fantasy world -> regress to a point in their 2nd life) #(for that type i kinda like ✨i shall master this family✨ though ngl i’m mostly reading it bc i think the aunt is very pretty) #(a nd there’s the occasional modern regression story but that’s pretty soap drama-esque and the one i read got ridiculous at times lmao) #(but ofc the ones with less romance focus are fun too~~~~ like stories with multiple isekai-ed people for one) #(b u t i digress i think i’ll stop here before i lose the plot any longer ahaha~~~~)

[foldingfittedsheets]

My betrothed was complaining that when it’s time to get me presents I never have any idea of what kinda stuff I’d like. So I started making a list I called “Nonurgent Things I’d Like”. And then I realized most of it could be ported onto Amazon.

People are often sending tips with nice wishes, would anyone want a link to send me stuff off the list? It’s all just little quality of life stuff that I put off buying cause money or it doesn’t feel urgent.

#ramblies #like a silk pillow case for my knee pillow or longer phone cords for ease of charging and scrolling in bed

[gardenvarietycrafts]

Day 7

I finished the first sleeve! Only one more to go. I have short arms, so I did have to make some changes to the pattern to make all the decreases fit in the sleeve, and I have some ideas for next time to make it fit me better, but so far I'm happy with it! Hoping to finish the second sleeve tomorrow but I don't know if I will be able to based on how long the first sleeve took me.

I've also used about 2 less balls of yarn than expected. The first sleeve only took one ball of yarn, so I'm anticipating the second to take the same, bringing my total to 7 balls of yarn (approximately 1400 yds) vs the 9 balls I expected (a little less than 1800 yds). I'm not sure if the pattern just gave a lot of wiggle room or if not, where I used that much less yarn, but I have about 1000 yds of this yarn left over, since I usually buy a little extra just in case, and used less than expected. If you have any ideas for what to make with what's left, let me know!

#crafts #description in alt text #knitting #knitblr #knit #sweater #pattern is flax by tin can knits and im using their app to follow along with the pattern #yarn is wool ease in arrowwood #definitely have edits in mind for next time but really loving this for a first sweater #it does seem a little like the xxl just took their base pattern size and increased in all dimensions #because the arms are way bigger than they need to be and both the arms and body were longer than i wanted by about 2“ each #but oh well id rather have the arms be baggy than not be able to fit them through the holes #i can figure out decreases to reduce that in future versions but it's harder for me to make the arm hole bigger

[merakiui]

thinking about how one of beidou’s teapot lines is her inviting the traveler on a journey across the sea, and her rough estimate of how long such a voyage will take is about one and a half years.

just imagine being trapped on the alcor for one and a half years with yandere!kazuha, who loves you to the moon and back and cherishes you with the most adoring, suffocating form of love, all while beidou looks on and happily encourages the lovebirds. it’s even better if kazuha has persuaded you to join him on the journey. your first mistake was agreeing, for now you have nowhere to run to when it becomes clear that his love for you is quite unhealthy.

what’s more is that he’s always so polite and kind. you can feel frustrated when his hand entwines with yours when you stand on the deck and gaze at the vastness of the sky above or when he has breakfast prepared for you every morning, but you can’t truly hate him because he never gives you any reason to hate him. he’s pure-hearted in all that he does. he’d never hurt you. he’ll always bestow the loveliest of compliments to you. you’re his love, his muse, his sweetheart. 

even if you’re averse to him for the first months of the journey, you’ll come to accept him eventually. a year and a half is plenty of time to erode the barriers you’ve put up. and soon you might even come to welcome him into your quarters. there’s only so much space on the alcor, after all. kazuha won’t overstep his boundaries, but if you’re too inebriated to make the distinction clear as he guides you back to your room... you’ll wake in his embrace the next morning, and he has diligently looked after and cared for you throughout the night. he hopes you might do the same if he ever gets drunk. though that’s a side he’d rather not show you often. it’s not exactly the most romantic thing in the world if he’s stumbling around or belting out incoherent lines of poetry at the moon.

if you try to escape when the ship finally docks at a port, kazuha will find you. you can’t forget his impeccable sense of smell. he has your scent memorized. it’s practically carved into him at this point. he’s spent more than enough time with you to be able to differentiate your scent in a crowd of hundreds. besides, what are you even escaping from? he’s not monstrous. he’s not frightening. he’s just sweet, compassionate kazuha, a man devoted solely to his beloved. 

#meraki mumbles #yandere kaedehara kazuha #i was going to pen yandere scara thoughts but kazuha is on my mind hehe #i need to thirst over god scara and his robot... something about him in that large mech... orz ;;;;; #many many thoughts >:) #also consider: kazuha has baby-trapped you and now you're stuck on a voyage #that could last one and a half years at least (perhaps even longer) #and beidou is so happy and encouraging throughout the entirety of the pregnancy #no one believes you when you try to explain that kazuha's trapped you in this situation #because they just think he's a sweetheart who is in love and wants to start a family <3 #it's a perfect image he can uphold with ease #after all loving you and doting on you comes so naturally because everything he says and does comes from the heart

[dollypopup]

'Colin is knocked off the pedestal'

and we resent him for it. How dare he not be perfect? Say the perfect things? Be the perfect man? He's an idiot. He should grovel. He needs to suffer. He doesn't deserve Penelope

Colin is knocked off the pedestal

and he's a devil. he ruined her prospects. his actions have grievous harm. she should ignore him. she should ghost him. she should consider him cruel.

Colin is knocked off the pedestal

and we don't want to see him have a happy ending. she should end up with someone else. hea with Debling. fuck his brothers. he's stupid. he's blind. he's oblivious. he's an asshole. he fucked her over. he doesn't appreciate her. he's nasty. he's mean.

Colin is knocked off the pedestal

except he isn't. Colin is still on that pedestal. Colin is still expected to be perfect and when he isn't perfect, we are angry at him. we think he's The Worst. We want him humbled

We do not see that Colin was never on that pedestal. That he was never perfect. That he was never meant to be. That the perspective the audience has had of him is through Penelope's eyes, in which she thought he could do no wrong because she was so blinded by infatuation. But we were meant to know better. Colin is silly. Colin is rebellious. Colin is not listened to in his family. Colin is lost. Colin is sad.

Colin IS humbled. Colin's mother doesn't notice when he's courting someone for months. Colin's sister asks why he even came back home if he liked traveling so much. Colin's brother makes fun of him for being a virgin. Colin's letters go unanswered. Colin doesn't have close friends. Colin doesn't have a future in place. Colin is heartbroken. Colin cries alone in his room, silently, turned away from even the audience. Colin is invisible. Colin is a charming, pretty ghost in Mayfair and no one sees him

not even us

#colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #bridgerton #polin #colin thinks 'if only i can be on that pedestal someone will actually love me' #and it doesn't work #it isn't possible #colin thinks 'if i can just bring levity and ease and say the right things i'll be accepted' but he won't be #he can't always bring that #he can't always be that #and the instant- THE INSTANT he is no longer perfect colin #charming colin #smiling colin who always says the right thing #colin who is in any way difficult or complex- we think the worst of him

[haldenlith]

KAYN CAN GET STUCK IN SHIT?!

... That is fucking hilarious and exactly what that gremlin deserves.

#Heartsteel Kayn #I was under the impression he could just shadow-bloop through things with ease #the Paranoia bloopers are everything #I wish the video had been longer #I love that chunk of those bloopers is just Kayn being dumb #I feel so bad for Yone

[astrangertomykin]

The first time Essek felt a wave of Dunamancy pass over him felt like freedom. Each spark shooting through his veins helped ease the tension in his muscles until they were just a dull throb instead of a burning star. His bones, which were usually so heavy, floated as if he was gliding on air; it wouldn't be long until he actually was.

There was something different from any school of magic he had tried before, something that made him feel like he was breathing for the first time. There was an electricity underneath his skin that awakened every nerve ending. Not in the painful, stabbing way that had accompanied him since his youth but something that left him wanting more.

When the magic ebbed from his fingers, the coldest drew closure. The weight of the world slowly crushed Essek back down to Exandria until the world was suffocating him again. The withdrawal shooting ice through his veins until his body was screaming for the warmth it had only just come to know. The moment Dunamancy first flowed through his essence, Essek knew, was the day he was truly lost. He would chase that feeling for the rest of his days to chase the pain away. Essek would be the one to decipher Dunamancy's mysteries and make that power his own, that first wave of freedom his call from the Universe that he was made for this purpose. He would do anything to feel a single second of that spark beneath his skin again, anything to unravel that feeling and never let it go; no matter the cost.

#essek thelyss #dunamancy #critical role #heavily hc chronic pain essek #originally this was gonna be a little one shot with a longer story #but ironically chronic illness is a bitch #anyway yes Essek heavily abusing the release dunamancy gives him as it's the first time he has felt that ease #and it blinding him to morals because surely surely something that can ease so much pain must be worth the pursuit #no matter what could happen in the middle #so he justifies it all for the greater good #the knowledge that would be uncovered #yeah anyway lmao