Damiar's not naive or blindly trusting. He's not delusional about Orin either. He knows she has no love for him, just like he doesn't for her. And he knows Orin better than to believe her to be a woman of obligations. But still, the way they indulge each other, the way they get lost together it's almost... Comfortable. There is a strange sense of domesticity in the blood and viscera.
And so her betrayal is an utter shock. Simply, because in his mind, there is no need for it. They are on the same level, right? They are doing this together, right? They are equal.
What he was never capable of imagining was her point of view. He doesn't realize when Orin is spoken of it is only in relation to him. He doesn't see the eye rolls when their men take orders from her without him present. He doesn't feel the red glowing eyes of Bhaal's alter burrowing into her back and dissecting her every step, only for the final judgment to be: you are not good enough. Damiar doesn't know, that her whole life Orin knows two things. That she will never be as good as Damiar. And that she has to prove otherwise in every step.
When it happens it finally clicks in his head. Somewhere between a cold edge of a dagger pressing under his ribs and insults spat in his face, his idiotic, self-centered, blind and dumb brain makes the connection. And it's not self-hate, or shame, or fear of his father that makes him give up and just sort of allow her to break his brain in. It's the fact that he has simply once again tried to fit his formless body into a space it never belonged in and this time it hurts. More so than ever.
different anon just watching the chaos, can i nibble on bakugou’s ear? i feel like he’d like that
😖🥴now THIS i can get behind... he absolutely would like it so you can and, in fact, SHOULD!!!
besides, this is much more versatile and can be done any and everywhere... in the bedroom, at the grocery store, even at a restaurant. so who needs to bite a dick when this works just as well
i put on my Testosterone Gel again for the first time in a lil while just cuz i ran out and had to get a refill and also got lazy BUT. i’m swag again 😎