#or just be near me in general

[fuckingarataswespeak]

School stress and scary kid update for those who know whats going on:

#I'm very anxious due to my LOSER LAME ASS PERIOD HORMONES but i'm literally so stressed about the scary guy in my class #I literally couldn't talk to my friend in class the other day because our teacher sat us near eachother and i was so on edge #he also keeps coming up to my friend but they are always with me so hes always right by me #once we got into our final year he just decided he was gonna ignore all the rules set in place like how he was not meant to sit near me #or just be near me in general #and now it feels like hes always near me again and im so so on edge #anyways there was already like no one in today and then my friend and the rest of the people left early for a school trip and so it was #just me and 2 guys who stress me and the scary guy supposed to be in this one class. and my course leader who is so great to me is out at #the moment and so is the SNA that is usually there to buffer things (although sometimes he makes things worse) #So i went to my year head and told her that i dont feel comfortable in such a small class with him so she organized an out for me #and anyways stuff went wrong the next period and he had supposedly signed out but our class went for a walk and we bumped into him hiding #in the park which was so fucking scary for me and we had to be so close for ages #and i literally had a panic attack last night thinking about him and couldnt sleep cause the idea of how little he respects my boundaries #anyways i feel like the bad guy in the situation because a normal person would be over what he did to me but i just keep thinking about how #scared he made me feel that day and upsetting everything he says and said to me was #hes also just an asshole. like hes not even that nice a guy. he wants to be like idk an underdog or something but hes actually just a bad #person #anyways i cant figure him out and im so anxious all the time i have so much going on and hes just making me so on edge that i cant focus #in class or anything and im doing my best but hes so big and intimidating #and hes so unpredictable #vent

[pinkcadavart]

Soldier side

#gives myself spoilers lmao #im still nowhere near this part but duuuude I have to draw him #dude that is like 5 foot 2 inches tall #digital #lilia vanrouge #twst #twisted Wonderland #twst spoilers #book 7 spoilers #book 7 twst #i definitely made him more muscular than he is in canon let me have my brainwaves he's just as strong either way i just hc shape shifting #twisted Wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted Wonderland spoilers #lmao im nervous posting this bc I haven't even gotten to this part AT ALL yet I just got excited sbksfkkg #general lilia

[river-of-wine]

If it’s meant to be, then it will be

#red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #molly o'shea #lyrics from sun bleached flies by ethel cain #more catholic imagery for this molly Monday #I started doing this as a bit but I cannot stop now I’ve been doing it for too long #I’ve drawn her over 100 times also #fanart #digital art #my art #molly’s religion is just very interesting to me #especially with how she references it in her monologue #when she asks Dutch who made him the lord God almighty #and the way that she and Swanson are often placed near each other #and how he recovers and she gets worse as the game goes along #I have a lot of thoughts about molly in general but her relationship with her faith is one of the big things #because it’s not really referenced but there’s plenty of way to interpret it #especially how it relates to her relationship and the way she views the people around her #she’s so interesting I love her so much

[tracle0]

Feast your eyes! My pride stars :)!

#pride stars #origami #paper craft #paper stars #handmade #arts and crafts #so it was my cities pride yesterday and I spent the ENTIRE month of July making these lil stars to give out to people! #it went really well actually #I was saying donations appreciated but not mandatory and some people looked so happy just to have some stars!!! #some people were SO generous too like oh my god???? #I think there was only one experience I disliked during the event where I was vaguely swarmed and people were helping themselves but #yknow we all get excited haha #got a really cute mushroom bracelet as a trade as well!!! #I have a fair few leftover - lots of aro and ace ones #couple of bi and a couple of pan #ZERO non-binary I should've made more!! #nd obvs some rainbow and trans cause I made the most of them #I'd say lmk if you're near me and you can have some but I am pretty sure none of you know me irl so you can't have any I'm afraid #oh also worth saying - I made the stars I could with the papers I had! Bought purple and pink but I did not try more complex flags cause #I mean. I couldn't really afford to haha? #maybe next year I'll try the lesbian flag too! #ok bye xx #trade-marked

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[jimpjin]

[veronica; ... no, its good to see you smile more often, but...

veronica; im just curious. you seem happier. have you someo- (’someone?’ cut off by courier’s head)

courier; its because we’re such AWESOME friends. its because he loves us.

Boone; yeah.    sort of.

courier/veronica; *girly squeels of joy*]

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Wanted to make a part 2 as a love note to you perverts that sugested he was only happy because of something disgusting like romance or ‘getting laid’. ick.

The 1st post this refers to

#sorry my tablet started playing up near the end of this #i think im going to chang the program i use #medibang always plays up #im also not used to paneling #or just using my tablet in general but ive noticed my strokes are getting cleaner so please hang in there for me! #boone #craig boone #fnv boone #fnv #fallout #fallout comic #veronica santangelo #fnv veronica #courier fnv #courier 6 #fallout new vegas #fluff #also WHY IS THE COURIERS OUTFIT SO CONVOLUTED I HATE DRAWING THE COURIER GRRRRRRRR

[rewritingcanon]

guess whos doing their uni assignment on the cursed child

#frick yeah dawg #its currently nearing 3am for me. why do the producers/stage managers gatekeep how they make special effects #like now i gotta source tumblr blogs 🙄 #so funny i had to analyse a review of the australian production which was just calling hpcc a ‘queer romance’ the entire time #LOLS so validating 😎 #makes me insane sometimes how the one part production and the cursed child in general is so skimmed over #whatever in tired as hell i need to finish this #harry potter #hp #hpcc #cursed child #harry potter and the cursed child #scorpius malfoy #albus severus potter #scorbus #rewriting

[justonegoofygoofygal]

me on a daily basis

#vincent charbonneau #dead plate #please release me from the purgatory that is fandom #i love it but sometimes it feels like stockholm syndrome #also just how general existence feels #me when i feel like throwing my lhone across the room then jumping out ghe window but then remembering that there's people near me #memes

[marlinspirkhall]

I do think it's possible to watch Red Dwarf at an impressionable age and still turn out normal, but unfortunately that did not happen to me.

#girl you got me tongue tied tongue tied whenever you are near me #gedagy durgle (dagy durgle) whenever you're around #red dwarf #sci fi #british sci fi #i should say this about British sci fi ib general but then we open the can of worms which is: #maybe living on wet island where there is no sun just does strange things to you in general

[puppyeared]

Atla live action 😐

#thats my honest reaction 😐 #to be fair ive only seen 20 minutes of the s1 finale bc my parents are watching it but. mmmmm kinda mid #like. the casting is definitely an improvement since the last time they tried a live action but it feels like the writing falls flat #or maybe im being harsh bc ive only heard negative criticism on it beforehand. but fr anytime u bring up the original its already #good and not just because its the original. so much fucking detail went into it to the point of someone noticing azula wielding mai's knive #to how well thought out irohs character is used as a way of uniting the cast especially as zukos foil #i heard that sokkas sexism was toned down and i have to agree that feels like a cheap move. like i get WHY they think it would be better #but its not about how that reflects on real world its about how it affects the story. sokka starts out as a misogynistic asshole because #it makes it that much more impactful when he changes. toning that down makes it flatter and makes his character development weak #and someone pointed out they didnt even make him wear the kyoshi warrior uniform and i know it feels like such a small detail but #come on man. they did that in the original because not only does it help him really walk in their shoes - wearing 'feminine' clothing and #makeup and having suki explain its significance but it also ties in with the shows theme of harmony and intersectionality #i was also disappointed when they had the fire sages explain how the water tribe draws power from the moon because in the original it was #IROH who explained it to aang and everyone else BECAUSE we as the audience is under the impression hes with the 'bad guys' #and it builds up to how he learned from the other nations which reconciles his past as a war general and his character overall #AND its an excellent starting point for the cast and audience to understand how the nations arent as closed off as you would think #plus you would think its only fire nation doing propaganda but they expanded on that with earth kingdom censorship and it WORKS #a lot of things in the live action also feel arbitrary like. they gave momo a near death experience for 5 minutes for no reason #im firmly on the stance of bringing back filler moments instead of putting major events right after each other so that u give your #audience a sense of time passing and to really absorb the story. but i think thats more like shock value than filler and yeah its a small #thing to gripe about but those things build up and its really annoying. the thing abt avatar filler moments is that however small #its at least meaningful. hell even the beach episode emphasizes how isolated zuko and his friends are as child soldiers #i also swore to never watch the first live action since it was that bad but i really liked the stylized tattoos they used for aang #anyway. those arejust my thoughts. im not gonna watch the rest because im a ride or die for the original aftr growing up and #rewatching it at least 20 times as a kid. but theres definitely room for improvement and i wish ppl wouldnt take it as 'better' just cuz #netflix is adapting it. i wouldve killed for them to just reanimate the entire avatar series and touch NOTHING ELSE no redub #no changes to the story. just reanimate the thing and leave the rest alone and youd make easy money just the same #ALSO its very jarring not hearing jack desena and dante basco voicing sokka and zuko cause their voices were the most recognizable to me #i get that its because its live action but im allowed to feel a little sad abt that. and uncle irohs accent was really soothing #yapping

[carcrashscike]

huge total drama 2023 finale spoilers !!

this was the highlight of the entire season for me and im being so deadass

#it is nearing 4 in the morning for me but i have so #so so so many thoughts about the finale and the season in general #be prepared. you aren’t you just aren’t #just know none of my spiteful takes involve the winner i am happy about the winner idc idc #total drama #total drama spoilers #td spoilers #tdi 2023 spoilers #tdi 2023

[birddcandle]

Do you know how much the people of Hels would pay for canary feathers?

I read the one ask about the feather farm and. Yeah here we are

this is art for @lunarcrown and @aquaquadrant ‘s Hels To Pay AU!! It’s so good the writing and drawings are IMPECCABLE

#my art #hels to pay au #htp art #doctor atlas #jimmy solidarity #he’s there :) indirectly #I need Atlas to get his ass kicked so badly #I hope his stupid little glasses finally crack and I hope his perfect smile loses some teeth #I hope Atlas burns in Hel(s) #also the amount of adjusting this drawing took to make him look symmetrical was a lot but so worth it #this au keeps me going I love it so much #also I’m a sucker for angst and feather farms I think fall into that category along with. The entire AU in general #I like to think that this #AU of an AU happened because maybe the portal glitched and spawned near the ranch but only Jimmy was home #And by the time Tango got back Jimmy was Gone #and since there just so happened to be a spot for a new farm Jimmy just gets stuck in there #doomed to repeat the same fate his soulmate once endured #I am just rambling now I apologize

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

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#guys (neutral) i have made a mistake #theres a guy in my classes whos also pakistani (but like FROM pakistan) and from generally the same areas as my family i guess #and we're the only two in the class (for context the other desis who make up the majority of the class are all indian international student #and i know that im a friendly person #but i fear that i made a connection with this guy too quick #and have given him the wrong idea #idk if hes just attached to me bc im the only other pakistani or that AND bc ive accidentally led him on or smthg without even realising #like he will hover near me and will only leave when i leave (and its gotten so bad over like 3 days that my other classmate noticed -> #and was like ... girl yk hes attached himself to u right #asdhjkasldadhajkldadhajsd #anyways thats besides the point #hes rly nice so i feel bad asdkjlasd;adjkl;adadjksd (and he doesnt rly have any friends here besides family and classmates so im giving -> #him the benefit of the doubt #and yall today was the only day i left class and he wasnt right beside me bc i think he left to do smthg #and i went to help anther girl get to her car #and i guess because he couldnt say bye to me (esp since its the weekend now) he started DMing me on instagram #there are more details but i will spare yall for now bc the ig messagse are whats makign me more worried <3333 #anyways gn #mehrtalks

[sualne]

Does our boy luffy have a last name in the crocodad au? Is he technically crocodile d. luffy in this or does he pull a sabo and only have a first name (also I am very 👀👀 at modern model luffy—he’s so fashionable!!)

nope! officially (though he isn't official) he's just luffy!

im glad you 👀 him dnfksn!! modern luffy is a model (among other jobs) with boa, he's been doted on by various ppl (which include boa), he's got a lot of clothes in a lot of houses!

#crocau ask #maudern ask #i love my modern loof. his life is huh. well. i wouldnt live like that. (couldnt also. im nowhere near as loved and luffy-ish.) #but i thought it made a lot of sense with how ppl treat him in canon and how he lives in general. also its just really funny to me

[snackugaki]

i’ll never come wack on an old school track

#fanart shitposting #AGGRESSIVELY ELDER MILLENIAL ON MAIN #the internet was a mistake in this one culminated moment #the minute I saw the Paramount website listed Donnie's height as 6'8 #I started learning damn near everybody was 6'8 #still shocked Michael Jurassic Park Crichton was 6'9" #sometimes Rise' dialogue catches me off guard #and I remember that it's now MY generation littering shows with our pop references #the first time it hit me was watching Chicken Little #just the ugliest little cackles #is it my best composition? #no #it just needed to exit my mind palace #evicted this shit with rabid fury #donatello #tmnt 2016 #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise donnie #bay donnie

[cordeliawhohung]

(Soft Spot - Everything You Touch Unedited Peek)

i feel a little like a failure with my writing lately but i'm at 4.6k words for the next part of soft spot now. how angry would you guys be if it hit close to 8k words because i think that's what we're working towards...

anyway, to make up for my... idk shit with writing lately, here's a(n unedited) peek into the next part for anyone who's interested.

Bitterly cold sand stung the palm of your hands as you looked away from that infuriating man. The ocean’s waves still crashed on the shore next to you, and you listened as the seagulls conversed on the rocks. Everything around you was perfect except that you were on the ground, knees in the sand, and Simon was not there to pick you up.

there's so many other bits i want to post but i'm forcing myself to save it for the actual release so enjoy for now i suppose

#soft spot glimpse #soft spot ramble #soft spot series #core talks #like i would really like to keep this part of the series to four parts #but this part is going to be so fucking long because i went a little overboard #8k is a generous guess too because really i'm afraid it'll hit near 10k #and idk i just like #i've been trying to spend time on writing because i really want to but everything in my life is holding me back #including right now i am so exhausted i can't keep my eyes open ): #here's to hoping i can actually write more tomorrow #this part is going to take forever to finish at this rate