#please come help us eat this

[capt-carter-mostly-official]

Would anyone like to come over for dinner? I accidentally used a double recipe and enjoy hosting friends — nothing fancy, just food and possibly a board game after

Edit: quick note, if anyone who wants to come is fasting for Ramadan, let us know so we can make sure you can eat with us(I’m not Muslim so I’m not certain when Iftar is, but we are fine with eating at whatever time it happens to be)

#please come help us eat this #it’s very good food but the base recipe feeds twelve #there’s only five of us living here #And this is more than we can eat before it goes bad #peggy carter #captain carter #marvel roleplay #mcu #mcu rp #marvel #marvel mcu #mcu roleplay #agent carter

[oozeandgoo-art]

This is going to sound unexpectedly specific compared to my usual vague-as-fuck questions. Context being: I want money, I cannot commit to doing commissions at the moment and drawing is my only marketable skill.

If you were to buy a character "adopt" - premade design for your use, art by me and no rights retained except to like merchandising that original art - would it be a significant factor in either a positive or negative direction if the art were originally done digitally vs traditionally?

Likewise, if you were to buy a traditionally-drawn adopt, would the inclusion of the original paper-and-ink drawing be a significant benefit to you that you would consider paying more than just "base" price for?

Third, regardless of medium, would you want "scratch" papers where I did the brainstorming before the final concept was finished - this wouldn't be at any extra cost i just wonder.

Fourth, would you prefer a "flat" sale or an auction? (I like buying things at auction-style sales, and it means you might get a cheaper price than i'd normally list whatever it is for, but I am given to understand that my preferences vary from the norm pretty significantly lol) .

Fifth, would TF or at lesat mecha designs be more interesting than non-TF ones or would more general "can use this as any oc for anything" type characters be more appealing?

Ah - sixth and last, do regular ocs appeal more or less than kink/fetish-oriented ocs like "suspiciously wide-hipped lady who just so happens to have a mouth in her crotch" or stuff in that vein lol? I'm not sure I can stop myself from coming up with at least one erotic as fuck design because that's just how my brain works, but it's good to know if i should try and focus on that or leave it be and just focus on concepts that seem interesting enough to get a shape out of.

#i know this is specific. please understand i want to eat good food again. #i am not in Serious Financial Worry i simply cannot afford takeout again. my dad is going to give me money when he gets around to it but #that might be any time between now and the end of the month #and about 80% of the money in my bank account is tapped for rx payments the second i get to the pharmacy so i cant spend basically anything #if you guys respond it'd be a big help #also if anyone is interested - first design im working on is a cordyceps-possessed archer elf lady. #and im thinking to list it for around $40-50 US and +$10 and shipping for the paper version #i get a good deal on shipping these days at least. i should be able to ship overseas for like $15-20 US and not $60 or whatever #eta. LOL. LMAO EVEN. ummmm im probably going to want $200 minimum for this archer design. theres three and a half full color illustrations #here. i detailed LACE. FIVE TIMES. INCLUDING A DIAGRAM #i spent eight hours i want like at least my old rates lol #its a cool ass design though. so its worth it. trust me <- biased #my mailing list as usual gets first pick of stuff like this #so if you want to see it go sign up for that and then come message me and ill forward you a copy of the email i sent htem #if they snap it up im not selling it publicly.

[binders-and-beanies]

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#sry I need to vent more abt my tattoo pain bc I physically cannot do anything productive rn im completely and totally incapacitated #can’t read anything beyond short posts or texts. can’t eat or move at all #tried to sleep through it so it would at least Be Tomorrow so I can get medical help. but the jolts of pain make me like Jump #hence me being sent home from work early today like it’s not even that I was complaining I was just flinching involuntarily so much #and was unable to work or function at all. thank god I don’t work retail rn I remember the pain of tattoo infections in that context #it’s so Abrupt it feels like I’m being stabbed or repeatedly bitten #literally trying not to scream bc I have a roommate. but he almost certainly hears me crying and saying ouch #which sucks bc I barely know the guy lol he has no context. At least on my drive home I could scream as much as I needed #literally would go to the ER if I could afford it and that sounds so dramatic bc it is #it doesn’t feel like it can wait. genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna get through the night #I haven’t slept in like 60 hours and I doubt I will tonight. but it hurts too much to even tell if I’m tired #and I don’t have time for this!! I have so much I need to be doing. I hate that the only way I can have Time is to be Extra Disabled #in a way that leaves me completely unable to do the things I normally can fight through despite burnout #and I was just at health services yesterday asking them to do insurance paperwork that they couldn’t do #it’s embarrassing having to be like hey I was just there but can I come back #I have Another tattoo infection but I pinky promise I take such good care of them #and my artist is like the best of the best too. it’s like it doesn’t matter what either of us does to keep me safe #and I know if anyone responds to this it will be to tell me to stop getting tattoos #but that’s literally like telling me not to get top surgery if I’m immunocompromised n might have recovery complications #both are equally important gender affirming medical procedures to me I’m not joking #and I hate always having to justify this whilst in agonizing pain. I hate answering the same things every time bc still no one believes me #I say this as someone who lives every moment in baseline pain that would have your average person writhing on the floor and I ignore it #this is truly unbearable if I hadn’t been through it a million times I would think it was life threatening #just needed to get it out ig. bc it’s all I can physically do. until health services opens in 12 hours #PLEASE let them have availability tomorrow bc i have literally no option on weekends #this is just. so upsetting and embarrassing. I don’t have time or emotional capacity for this #personal #mine #vent post

[videogamelover99]

It's delightful, how many fanfics incorpirate "Most of the bsd characters are Gen Z/Millenial" into their narrative. Yes the BSD world is way different than the real world, but you can't tell me the ADA doesn't have a mass group chat with several off branches where they shit talk each other behind their back. You can't tell me some of the Mafia members don't send obnoxious GIFs to each other when the right situation arises. Does Twitter exist in this universe? Is the fake name also a literary reference?

#bsd wan my beloved #tachihara sending an obnoxious meme to chuuya that means 'everything is on fire please come help us' #he cant get away with it with akutagawa you see #higuchi taking those 'are you in love with your superior' online quizzes #at some point dazai communicated with kunikida with nothing but emoji's and the latter almost killed him for it #do you think they have in-world references #like fukuchi has 50 different action movies made about him do you think they reference them from time to time #'oh! its like the scene where he has to fight 20 man eating werewolves!' 'its literally nothing like that dazai' #an hour later and somehow they're fighting werewolves #bsd #bungou stray dogs

[coquelicoq]

things i learned today:

my stepdad doesn't like the word obituary. why? well i can't be 100% certain because i asked no follow-up questions, but based on the way he relayed this information ("i don't like to use the word [lowers voice] oBITCHuary") i have a pretty good idea.

"we have to google meet" (as in, call each other on the Google Meet app) and "we have to google 'meat'" sound identical and i will interpret it as the latter regardless of how little sense that makes in context.

some drinking glasses have a little divot at the top of the handle into which my thumb fits perfectly!!!!!!!!

apparently when you find yourself at a branch of the library that's closing in three days for renovations, you should go ahead and check out all 11 books you have an eye on, because the computer will give you a due date SEVEN MONTHS INTO THE FUTURE. even though you could return the books at any other branch! jackpot.

#besties i am soooo sleep-deprived and i tell you when she said 'we have to google meet' to me... #i was like oh yeah makes sense. because you have anemia. and she was like what. and i was like wait googling 'meat' wouldn't help #with anemia...like you already know you should eat meat...you already know what foods meat is in...okay so why are we googling 'meat'? #fully trusting her to have a totally rational reason for announcing to me that we should google 'meat' while dropping me off @ the bus stop #fully prepared to support her in this random endeavor of mysterious utility #but she showed me her phone with the google meet icon and was like 'no i'm calling my girlfriend when you get out of the car' #and then we laughed hysterically for like three straight minutes. one of those days besties <3 #fun with words #libraries #my posts #no but the library thing is so funny. these weren't even holds i just started running low on library books so i took myself to a branch #only to see all these signs like 'closing in three days!' which i had no idea was happening because it's not my usual branch #so i was like okay whatever. good thing i didn't try to come three days from now i guess! #then i checked out and it was like due date: october 1 2023. they're like please temporarily store these books for us while we renovate 🥺 #we don't have room for them 🥺because of construction 😫 will you pretty please give them a good home for all of the spring and summer 🙏 #like a of all don't mind if i do and secondly that's so fucking funny what the fuck. you guys know about other branches right #like you're aware i can put these books in any book return in the county? yeah? alright haha take it easy

[m1d-45]

you understand me. you get it. creator might be having a fuckshit time but at least you can be a creature! but i’m also imagining… imagine just hanging out with your favorite characters as some kind of little animal bc sure they’d kill you if they knew you were the person they’re hunting down but pets and scritches are so nice…… worth risking your life for? yes. god yes. absolutely.

is this days late? yeag. i’ve been busy doing Things and god there are so many things to be done - teddy anon

i thought your last ask abt this was like two-three days ago but…. no…. i posted it ystderay…. huh-?

anyway you’re still so right. be a snowfox and hang out a albedo in his lab. shift into a cat and stick around the angels share. diluc let’s you stay. be a bird and fuck w the wanderer. just stay away from the narukami shrine.

like i…. if it was some sort of defense mechanism or like something you fell back on when injured…. razor following the sound of whimpering to you, an injured wolf pup, your form small in your weakened state. you can’t convince me zhongli wouldn’t help a bird with a hurt leg. beidou checks w the crew before saying yeah, kazuha can bring his friend of a stray onboard, since cats always land on their feet don’t they?

oh, and good luck on your Things!

#m1d : [chats] #m1d : [secrets] #teddy anon #oh to be a creature…… laying in my beloveds arms……….. ugh #translation it’s been way too goddamn long since you’ve had any sort of positive contact with another #if in your fear you bite at zhongli’s hand nobody can blame you; not even himself. he just picks you up gently #he wonders why he’s so insistent on helping a bird that doesn’t want to be helped but when he’s got you reasonably patched up and you trust #him a bit more he’s glad he did. being a god can get lonely and the fact that you willingly stay with him despite your unclipped wings… #or maybe ventis not allergic to you—because you’re not really a cat—and begs diluc to let him keep you because he’s never actually pet a cat #before and holy shit cat’s fur is so soft come on diluc pleaseeee? #he agrees with a sigh—he’s sad to see you go—and venti immediately takes you to whatever apartment he has that he doesn’t use #yeah he doesn’t have proper cat food or enrichment toys but it’s fineeeee he’ll figure it out (he won’t) #you end up eating cooked fish for like the next two and a half weeks while he convinces diona yes he actually does have a cat and yes he #genuinely does want the best for said cat so please just believe him and tell him what he needs to get. he’s so confused. what’s catnip. #oh to be a creature……. laying in the arms of my beloved….

[thepavementsings]

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#honestly #im supposed to be spending the weekend helping the guy im dating bake cookies for his friend's baking competition holiday party #and getting in the xmas spirit at the school party #and get do dress up and dance and have a bit of fun before finals eats us all alive #but instead ive come home to get poked with needles and prodded with various devices #because le hashtag chronic illness is rearing its ugly little head #giving me the friendly reminder :) that I dont get to be a 'regular' 23 year old #im trying so hard to just be a grad student. and let it be the incredible time in my life that it has been #and it's SO hard to be back home and feel like i did when i was 19 and sick and helpless and hopeless and sad #and everyone is SO supportive and kind and im trying to let them do that. and not be miserable on my own #and it is very very hard :) #so if anyone has any little holiday fics they love #or even like any holiday hc or ficlets or ideas that make them smile #please send them my way :)

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

I think a lot about what my ideal situation would look like with a girlfriend for someone who is never going to get a girlfriend

#I know people use the term ‘we feel like roommates’ as a bad thing when describing the dynamics of a relationship #but that sounds great to me #roommate with my best friend who I love and feel happy around and have sex with ?? yes please #no joined bank accounts we each just pay for our stuff or ask the other for help if we need it #our own bedrooms so we have our own space but can come and sleep together if we want to #our own hobbies and lives and dreams #but we can snuggle on the couch and talk until all hours of the morning #sometimes I might cook for her other times we just eat whatever we want when we want #if I ever have a gf I wholeheartedly just want her to be my best of best friends #I want us to be each other’s number one but also be our own people and have similar boundaries to that of friends #while still being closer to each other then anyone else #with lots of love and hugs and kisses and laughter and sex and just happy times #but I’m never going to get it lol

[madlichen]

i wish my autism beam was real and i could shoot people with it and also give them autism too so everyone could be autism because when everyones autism no one is

#syndromes not evil the bad guy is society and mental health is so much more than keeping the crazies off the streets #i wish i could change society and be a queer little mouseboy who likes science #but no cannot have nice things society will make you the villain for trying to change it why are the villains always smart in movies #because they recognize the pain and suffering in the world thats why they see it and they actually do something about it #but that makes them evil thats why theyre the villain because they want change and change is bad #the us government is actively stopping me from changing the world for the better one person one autism beam at a time #birds arent real theyre government drones beaming 5g mind control waves into our synapses and i sciencedude have a solution #global havannah syndrome must be stopped we must the villain murderous scum hiding out in bushes from eating our babies #just so long as we only protect the unborn babies and not the children because the dead are more important than the living #enslave the middle class to the monopolies bring about the oligarchy bleed out on our machines to raise efficiency and bring costs down #in this essay i will explain why the coming downfall of society has everything to do with how we treat others #thiS IS THE POLICE OPEN UP THERE HE IS GET HIM wait no you got the wrong guy NO THE FBI NEVER MAKES MISTAKES I AM THE LAW #breaking news a man by the name of science dude has been arrested for reasons not even the fbi is willing to share #NO PLEASE IM INNOCENT HELP ME #wow they must have done something really bad if the police are arresting them lets influence our audience to think theyre bad as well #breaking news someone got cancelled its a crying shame this cancel culture business tune in next time to the only source of truth on tv #i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i want to live i w- #liiiiiiiiiiiiivvvvvvvveeeeeeeee #its a cold place and they say it gets colder #your bundled up now wait til you get older #but the media men beg to differ #judging by the hole in the satellite picture #the ice we skate is getting pretty thin #the waters getting warm so you might as well swim #my worlds on fire how bout yours #thats the way i like it and i never get bored #well the years start comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin and they dont stop comin #im crawing in my skin these wounds they will not heal #janine janine youd like to know me well but there are things inside my head that even i cant face #these and other song when you tune in and enter to win 0% apr for the first twenty months no money down offer lasts until 10 years ago

[cognitiveleague]

$0 in the bank (again), god knows how much the credit card is good for, and it’s still 3 days until payday. Don’t suppose anyone wants any small things translated or proofread on a pay-what-you-will basis real quick to help us make ends meet? Can do English, Japanese, and French, or Hell, if anyone needs Swedish for anything, I can ask my wife for help. I’m also experienced with editing/proofreading in English, business English, etc. (Ok to reblog!)

私と妻は今お金のせいでちょっとピンチだから, フリーランスの翻訳をしようかなぁと思っています。翻訳させたいことを持っていればメッセージしてください✉️

私は英語もフランス語もできるし、スェーデン語の必要あればスェーデン人の妻に手伝ってもらえるかもしれない。英語の校閲やビジネス英語の経験もあります。よろしくお願いいたします！

#ok to rb #translation #translator #my offer of ‘will consult on US health insurance for a donation of however much you want’ also still stands #any help would be appreciated #freelance translation #please give me work to do #we just need to be able to eat for the next few days until the day job money (such as it is) comes in #taking translation requests

[beholdthemem]

Well, on a positive note, I can at least say that I've finally started bonding with my sister's boyfriend as opposed to making awkward stilted small talk while we both wait for her to reappear and save the conversation.

#personal #he is a nice kid it's just that neither of us were ever quite sure what to say beyond just Generic Politeness #but there's nothing like a group 911 incident to break the ice and get you all to talk like normal people afterwards. #scared the shit out of him. i think this was his first experience with it poor dude. #when i left today he was still hanging out with taly because neither he nor taly wanted her to be alone and i ended up leaving him with #over 40 bucks for takeout because we have taly food here but the pickings for people without dietary restrictions #are slim and i was worried about him not being willing to leave to go eat and just skipping food altogether. #sweet thought but last thing either of them need. #just shoving him a wad of bills like 'here i gotta head out but please eat' #i think an ambulance has come to the neighborhood like. 5 times since I've lived here #and 3 of those times have been for us. #saw the older brother from the end of the block going back in without a word after coming out to see what was going on #and while normally i have no issue with that one- he's a bit of a hermit and put up with a lot from us neighbor kids when we were little #without bitching about it it's just tge younger brother i can't stand- i couldn't help feeling a little bit scathing about that. #okay there are you satisfied? did you get your look? your entertainment? you gonna go back home and be like It Was That Family Again 🙄? #gonna go back to your quiet life and your jackass brother? #ugh. I've gotten very mean lately. not to anyone in person i don't say anything that would hurt anyone's feelings #i just find myself... thinking them now. when i didn't used to. #it isn't nice. i wish i didn't.

[justonefeather]

I just want the energy to work out more often. Like i wake up exhausted. Every damn day. But i wanna get back to it. I feel like..... successful when I can hit a minute plank, or when my thighs burn the next day. It's like i won. i rotate my shit but most days are leg days bc my only good physical feature is my ass (not that it's amazing a++ wow! But I'd give it like a 7/10 yk??) And i need to make sure it stays aiight otherwise I'm undesirable and have no worth! :D

#Idk where that comes from even. Actually nvm i do #Its growing up a girl and society saying that. Plus dating guys who only care about using me and tryna fuck.. probably more things too #It's not true for anyone else.. just me :/ #This is also not a brag this is a cry for help lol idk how i think I'm gonna keep my ass if I'm tryna be 100 even..... #But I haven't even hit 130 yet. I gotta get back down there. That's why i gotta work out again!!! #Working out is easier than fasting for me tbh. Like they're both hard but I'd rather eat semi normally and try to burn a bunch off? #It's hard when I have early days though :/ I'm already waking at 6:30 don't make me get up earlier.... please.....

[truethes]

kinda curious to know the reason why we haven’t actually met inner greed yet.

#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜. #licht immediately points out what we think is inner greed is just lawless in disguise so technically idk where the actual demon was in that #moment tbh FYVGDFYUVGFVU #i was rereading someone's summary of 118 and they spoke about how like. #inner glut has this sort of like god / idol complex and refers to themselves as a 'king' #and tht nic and ild are just their pawns / playthings #and now all they wanna do is eat nics soul #its really interesting bc. from what we saw of inner greed and inner lust was just how intune they were to both lily and lawless #respectively ... they are also the ones who visited kuro last ( and lily was brought up by gear to mention that theyve become more aligned #with their humanity ) #it makes me wonder if the order kuro saw them in ( aka ildio then lawless ) was a point to that #considering kuro who constantly fights with his demon. refuses to accept it as part of himself - to freya / ildio ( who live pretty decent #human lives. however have battles with their demons when their grief / anger / strong emotions come up ) #to lily and lawless whos demons align with almost ' helping ' them out ( i use that vaguely bc idk what inner greeds doing rn maybe we're #going to meet them soon ) #someone out there knows whats happening in it rn .... #( alexa play waving through the window FIVUYDFGVFU ) #ive had a flare up this evening and i have only in the last hour been able to focus on things so please forgive me for my slowness i am not. #feeling 100%

[chocolaytte]

밤 (night) - i

#p:korea #c:seoul #l:university #d:20210824 #i really do use tumblr as my personal personal journal #i moved to a bigger house because my parents told me they would help me pay rent in exchange for having a place to stay when they come visi #well now they are here and they are backtracking #they told me they will not help me pay my rent anymore but they are staying at my house #and worse yet they are already inviting themsleves for next year #they have been here for two weeks and everyday they have made a cooment about my weight #that i need to lose weight exercise more stop eating this or drinking that #my mental health has plummeted #i am at that point where i go to sleep praying not to wake up the next day #the visa allows them to come for 90 days and they are staying the fucking 90 days #i really don't want to wake up tomorrow #and i feel like i have no one to talk #my friends once told me that i just complained and after that i haven't opened up to them again about my problems #so i always talk to my brother but i feel like i just bother him #please i don't want to wake up #i seriously haven't felt happiness in years #didn't feel happiness when i graduated or when seeing my parents after a year or after moving back to seoul #no happiness just apathy #i am seriously just waiting for the embrace of death #i even have a list of reason as to why i shouldn't jump of a bridge and the reason are mostly one piece and not wanting my family to feelba

[yuwuta]

friends with benefits with nanami wouldn’t work because he would think you deserve better. you think your arrangement is going well, kento has never complained before, and you’re certainly more than satisfied in bed. he’s handsome, strong, kind, generous with aftercare, and really fucking good with his mouth, so there are no complaints on your end. which is why it’s such a surprise to you when kento confesses that he doesn’t like the way he’s been treating you, and no matter how much you insist that it’s fine, and reassure him that he treats you more than well enough, he refuses. 

“but kento, i’m okay with this,” you attempt to convince him that hooking up is enough—he doesn’t need to feel like he has to do more for you, “you’re good to me, and not just in bed. please don’t feel like you owe me more.” 

“you deserve something proper,” he’s adamant, shaking his head, “you deserve more than convenient sex.” 

“but what if this is all i want?” you can’t help but to tease him. he looks awfully cute with his arms crossed, respectful refusal written all over his face, “i think eating me out on a weekly basis is quite enough, it would just be greedy for me to ask for more, don’t you think?” 

your jokes don’t amuse him, but his expression keeps you giggling. still, nanami sighs, and grumbles, “you should want more. it’s not greedy.”

“kento, if i didn’t know any better, i’d think you’re telling me to raise my standards.”

he blinks, cheeks pink with irritation and eyes hollow with tiredness. you push every single one of his buttons and he doesn’t know why, but he would never stop you. maybe that’s where this impeding guilt is coming from—kento likes you, and he doesn’t enjoy feeling like he’s using you, even if you get to use him in return. he doesn’t want your relationship to be transactional, and he doesn’t like that you think such a relationship is okay. 

because, guilt aside, kento knows he wants more of you; he wants all of you. and even if you don’t want him back, he thinks you should know that you’re worth having all of, and nothing less. 

“maybe i am,” he settles, “you are worth more than an occasional hookup. you should be treated better than this, and i am sorry that i have let it go on for this long.”

“this is ridiculous—you’re nothing but good to me! and i like having sex with you. if you don’t want to have sex with me anymore, that’s fine, but—”

“i didn’t say that,” he interrupts. 

“so… you do wanna keep sleeping with me?” 

“yes. but we should go on a date before we continue.” 

“but what if our date is terrible. do we still get to have post-first date sex?” 

he shakes his head, stepping closer to you and holding your forearms before leaning down to kiss your forehead, “i don’t put out on the first date.”

you scoff, taking a half-step closer, snaking your arms around his torso, and grinning up at him, “what a prude.”

at that he smiles, before bending his neck to indulge you in one last kiss. “i’ll pick you up at seven.” 

#kento nanami........ the man that you are #you really could be having perfectly good mind blowing mutually agreed upon fwb sex and he'd be like... no. we're gonna have to date #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk fluff #jjk scenarios #jjk imagines #nanami kento x reader #nanami x reader #kento x reader #nanami smut #nanami fluff #nanami x you #💌.kento

[malewifesband]

EDIT: if this post has made you think about whether or not you are autistic, im really glad! i hope you get some better understanding of yourself and are able to find community and support

however before you go and tell a therapist and seek an official diagnosis please read this thread and consider the points made therein:

autism is highly stigmatized. be fully informed about what you gain and what you lose from having an official diagnosis before seeking one.

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people do correctly identify that laios is autistic fairly often but a lot of the reasoning begins and ends with his special interest and social difficulties, but honestly it goes far deeper into the build of his character than just those two things

his pain tolerance is wildly inconsistent, unable to tolerate a drop of hot oil (or any heat) but able to shrug off both his leg being bitten off and it being reattached

hes sensory seeking in the extreme. he rubs the bat bones against his face, pets and fluffs the shapeshifter tail.

his desire to eat monsters comes from three very autistic places. 1) the rules for why monsters are not okay to eat but animals are are arbitrary to him so he cannot follow them easily: he cannot understand the 'feelings' argument others make. 2) this too is a sensory seeking behavior. he wants to experience these new things, new flavors and new textures. 3) it completes his knowledge of the monster in question to also have data on its edibility. because he cannot draw that arbitrary line around all monsters, he wants to evaluate them case-by-case and see if real patterns emerge. butchering and eating the monsters improves his knowledge of them greatly and highlights their importance in their ecosystem, as well as making him a part of that same ecosystem

he cannot emote the way others expect him to. he compartmentalizes his feelings (to an unhealthy degree) because he needs a pragmatic solution. so as long as there is a problem to solve, that matters far more than evaluating his emotions and allowing himself to experience them. while this is also a coping mechanism for ptsd, it is a trait found in many autistic people regardless of trauma, as we have trouble sorting the feelings we have and often need time to think about what we feel, so it becomes easier to simply not do it and pretend we dont need to. laios emotions certainly affect him, with or without his processing them, but others do not see what they expect to see and thus dismiss that he is feeling what they would feel

he is incredibly gifted with pattern recognition, observation, and analysis within realms he understands. to understand subjects that dont come easily to him, he must filter them through his established schema (his special interest--this is why they are so special! they help us sort the world). when he isnt sure about the social cues and details hes observed in the shapeshifter arc, he filters it through the lens he understands best: monsters. he was making correct observations about his friends all along, but he could not be confident in that the way he was about their behavior when it came to his interest (chilchucks caution, senshis passions, and marcilles carelessness)

#laios touden #dungeon meshi #i can go on but ive kept this spoiler free for the anime onlies