#r the same ones theyre gonna be forever

[crushedsweets]

I loved the ask about ticciwork what it would be like if they were able to date! Now I was wondering what that would be like with Jack and Toby!

Though I’m not sure if they have the same chemistry as ticciwork. 😭

Btw you have forever engraved ninakate to my soul LMAO I love them so much!! ❤️

I ABSOLUTELY CAN i think theyre super cute + i have a really sweet ticcijack ask i wanna draw soon. im gonna go off on a tangent about their upbringing and how that'd impact their sexuality tho, cuz i think that'd be relevant .

this was written more like notes for a one-shot of them getting together, rather than the format i did for ticciwork

ok. so for starters, toby has a huge wall to get over. i dont really have sexuality hcs for many of the creeps (jane and kate r lesbians, lius a gay man, ninas bi are my only concrete hcs) BUT i know toby's upbringing involved his dad constantly demeaning him for being 'feminine' (anytime he did something with lyra), a pussy, calling him slurs, telling him to man up, insulting any gay man he might see on tv, etc. and toby hates his dad, so he'd have an easy time being like 'ok whatever old man like i give a shit if a guy fucks a guy' BUT he would still feel a ton of guilt and shame if he were attracted to a guy.

jack might be a little similar, not because his dad was constantly berating him, but he still grew up in a pretty traditional house and his uncles/cousins would often tease him cuz he liked to cook and bake and had a lot of empathy. but he also went to university, and while it was still in alabama, a lot of colleges and stuff are a lot more progressive so it wasn't something he dwelled on much. live and let live, basically

AND AS A RESULT, it would be MUCH harder for either of them to make a move. toby would push any feelings down so fucking fast, and jack would just shrug it off and say he doesn't have like.. the "right" to have such emotions. after all he's done.

but they've also had a ton of intimate moments. the amount of times toby's been sat in his boxers while jack has to stitch up his stomach is kinda obnoxious. the amount of times jack checks toby's temperature and scolds him for dumb shit. toby scoffing and grabbing jacks wrist to pull his hand off, but his touch lingers

jack wears his mask a lot, but toby would make a comment. "i wanna see what you look like. it cant be THAT bad." and then jacks like ? asshole. so toby backtracks and is like "ok but if it is bad, thats kinda cool" and jacks like 'dude shut up'. but then toby would try and go on about 'im serious man you're over here stitching me up every other week and im practically the only person you talk to. let me see' and jack thinks about it. maybe not that day, but eventually he would.

if toby has already kinda come to terms with liking guys, OR he's so oblivious to his own feelings, he might say something stupid like "oh shit you're hot dude why do u wear that stupid ass mask" and jack would get embarrassed. and try to put it back on, but toby would snatch it and toss it on some counter and say "ok well now i know so stop wearing it" and jacks like. ok. fuck you. fine.

and toby stares a lot. like. a lot a lot. and jack kind of knows. the echolocation and thermavision helps him know toby's head is turned his way, but he can't exactly pinpoint where toby's eyes are. but he keeps turning away

toby would eventually just ask 'you gotta know im looking at you , right?' and jack is like ...well i thought so. thanks for confirmation. and toby laughs it off but jack is getting embarrassed

jacks feelings would develop slowly and he'd recognize every single moment he feels something. tobys would develop more rapidly, but he has no fucking idea what he's feeling is romantic. he thinks jacks attractive as fuck, he likes intelligent people, he likes how jack challenges tobys toxic ass mindset (only after the fact, hates it in the moment), and jack does a lot for him. patches him up, cooks him good meals.

the ask i mentioned said something about jack touching toby's lip and toby keeps looking at jacks lips and theres crazy tension etc etc etc. i genuinely dont know who would kiss who first.

if it were jack, toby would sit there kinda stunned, and jack would pull away and fumble out an apology. then toby tells him to do it again. and again, and again.

if it were toby, jack would immediately kiss back. he's had it on his mind for a long time, but genuinely didnt think anything would come.

toby would ask what now. he wants jack to set some sort of guidelines. he hates rules but holy shit does he not know how to navigate this, not with jack. jack would shrug it off and theyd try not to talk about it. toby might not come back to see jack for a while, but end up really hurt and dragged there to get his arm popped back into place. and jack would have to ask why he stopped visiting.

toby would admit it, finally. something about 'because i fucking like you and its really fucking weird and i dont wanna ruin the whole medic patient pal thing we got going on but this entire fucking time ive been avoiding you, im thinking about you a hundred times more'. and jack would ask why he thinks its weird. and theyd talk for a while

jack would ask toby if he could kiss him again, and toby would say yes.

#asks #ticcijack #creeped #theyre cute..... damn... #ticci toby #eyeless jack

[anonymoosen]

hi! I'm bored and so I was wondering to drop this in your inbox!--

who r your favorite tumblr artists, both activated and deactivated? also good job on reaching 102 followers in like what- 5 months??? congrats!!! (I wish I was like u I've I've trying so hard and I only got like 20+ and its been a whole fucking year ANYWAY-)

AHHHDHEJD YOU RLLY DESERVE MORE FOLLOWERS, YKNOW!!

ANYWAY- I HAVE SOOOO MANY FAVOURITE ARTISTS ARE CUZ THEYRE ALL SO FRIGGIN AMAZINGGG AHHHHH- IM JUST GONNA LIST DOWN LIKE 10 OR SOMETHING- (not ranked by order, I’m just listing them down hehe-)

@circusfreakk @rainybow8231 @laazytoaster @bonniecupcake @theautumnalcat @mushy-madness @merchuu @aceisew @ditzdove @porcelainfreak-zacrucian @strawowoberry @spaceboibrainrot @ghoul-ish-art @vinililacart @ematooney @reynaruina @nohemi650

THERE ARE LITERALLY SO MANY MORE BUT THE LIST WLD GO ON FOR ALMOST FOREVER IF I LIST ALLL OF THEM

AND SOME OF THEM ARENT MY MUTUALS AND IM SCARED OF RANDOMLY TAGGING THEM BUT AT THE SAME TIME I WANT MORE PPL TO KNOW ABOUT THEIR BLOGS SO IM GONNA LIST SOME NAMES-

@inimoose @moringmark @shandzii @bamsara @cosmicriff @l-ii-zz @emositecc @pichichustudios

THEIR BLOGS ARE THE ONES IVE BEEN STALKING (OTHER THAN MUSHY, REYNARUINA, BONNIE AND STRAWOWOBERRYS BLOGS) WAYYYY BEFORE I EVEN HAD AN ACCOUNT AND I LOVE THEIR ART SO FRIGGIN MUCH EVEN IF ITS NOT ART ABOUT THE FANDOMS IM IN

(THEY DONT KNOW MY EXISTENCE AND IM TOO SHY TO TALK TO THEM SINCE MOST ARE IN DIFF FANDOMS NOW AHHH)

AND LASTLY THIS VERY VERYYYY SPECIAL PERSON WHOS MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER IS DEFINITELY ONE OF THE MOST TALENTED ARTISTS IN THE MULTIVERSE AND I ADORE HER SO FRIGGIN MUCH THAT I MADE HER BDAY GIFT ART FOR ME MY PHONE WALLPAPER:

@peachiedookie-deactivated202402

SHE DEACTIVATED HER ACCOUNT BUT HER ART CAN STILL BE SEEN IF U SEARCH FOR THE TAG #PEACHIEDOOKIE ON MY BLOG

ANYWAYYY- I THINK I MISSED SOME EXTREMELY IMPORTANT NAMES WAAAHHHHHHJDJEJDEJ

(IMPORTANT MENTIONS: @ijustlikeiz @electronicribbonfashion @zims-left-antenna FOR BEING AMAZIM MUTUALSSS!! I ADORE THEM AND THEYRE MY ZIMPAIS TOO)

AGAIN THANK YOU TO THE 102 FOLLOWERS I HAVE (WHO ARENT BOTS LOL) FOR FOLLOWING ME!! AND THANK YOU TO THE ZIMPAIS IVE LISTED DOWN FOR INSPIRING ME SO FRIGGIN MUCH!!

#THIS SHALL BE MY SPECIAL MESSAGE FOR FINALLY GETTING 100 FOLLOWERS- #THIS WAS A LONG POST JDJSJDJDD #ANYWAY IM SO SO SOOO FRIGGIN SORRY IF I DIDNT MENTION U- JUST KNOW THAT UR ALSO MY ZIMPAI!! #moosenasks #moosends #random Moosen noises #appreciation post #100 followers

[pumpkinsy0]

fuck it, this is generally how i see the shepards and their relationship w each other

tim and curly- in my eyes curly desperately wants to be like tim but does not understand that he cant be like him because he just does not think as logically as tim and thats what gets curly into trouble quite a bit, but at the same time curly just does his own thing, he just tries to b like tim in some aspects of his life and it dont work out, tim notices that and in a admires it????but that kinda stresses him out a bit more cause he KNOWS curlys watching, and what he thinks curly doesn’t understand is that he is also just a kid kinda, but they’re definitely close they just show it in a weird shepard way

tim and angela- not SUPER close but angela can go to tim for whatever, when she was younger she didn’t understand that tim was also a kid like them but as she grew up, shes more empathetic towards tim bc she understands what theyve been through especially tim, considering raising her and curly of all ppl isnt the easiest task, tim is her rock and her only positive older male influence in her life (curly does NOT count LMAOOO) she’d never admit it but he means a lot to her, angela is also more like tim mentally where as curly is more like tim physically??? i guess that makes angela what tim and curly would look like as a girl, curly thinks tim likes her way more than him bc they dont fight like him and tim do, but tim needs them both, curly and angela r literally his lifeline

curly and angela- as close as twin siblings can get tbh, one minute at each others throats, the next, theyre teaming up, u never know what ur gonna get man, but at the end of the day they’re there for each other forever, not much to say for em tbh

#curly shepard #tim shepard #angela shepard

[haknom]

MUTUAL AWARDS!!

honestly i used to want to do them sooo bad when i was actively posting on tiktok etc but never had the chance soo... EVERYBODY CHEER HERE THEY ARE!!!! *insert crowd cheering*

here are the awards for tonights show; funniest mutual(s), the one(s) i cherish most, my #1 hater, mutual that only speaks truth, best music taste (the artists we have most in common with), mutual with the best series/fics, the mutuals i look up to the most, the mutual i love hearing life stories from, and lastly, the mutuals i love being around!

let’s start off strong and go with my #1 hater !! 

lately, i’ve been getting sm HATE from my mutuals bc of the jungwon fic i am currently writing and it’s been coming from MANY of them. our nominees (by ME) for tonight are; fee, soph, rei, and diana.... It was really hard choice but. @feeeli wins the award bc tell me why SHE IS SO TOXIC DANGG like cmon bae it was never that serious 💔 we literally went from enemies to lovers so It’s an easy win tbh BUT SECOND PLACE WAS DEF REI LIKE DAMN SHES ALSO TOXIC 😭 i can say one word and i’ll get a “shut up” in response I SWEAR.

now that that little rant is over (love u both sm!!) let’s move onto the second award... the one with the longest name - best music taste (the artists we have most in common with). obviously my mutuals and i stan a lot of similar groups but there is the one mutual who literally. I js adore them for this. ANYWAYS NOMINEES FOR TONIGHT ARE moki, rei, and sia (literally gives the best song recs tbh). Really difficult to choose Once again but this award goes to... @mokiverse !! u don’t know the GASP i let out when i saw that u also love dept on ur carrd. LITERALLY NOBODY KNOWS HIMMM makes me so sad BUT DEF DESERVED THIS dept4life yall ! sia and rei have GREAT music taste esp sias song recs SHADY AND ONE NIGHT >>>> been obsessed since she gave me them!

3rd award of the night is..... funniest mutual(s)!! nominees for this one are rei, soph, flo, sona, sia, mari, diana, yen, sunny, esther, eju ema, sav, fee, and jules!!

no joke.. i wish i could js @ like every single one of my mutuals for this one bc u should see how much they make me laugh under the span of 5 minutes..

hard choice tbh and im Srs abt this one but i’ll try and limit it to at least 5 mutuals 😞 BUT ANYWAYS these 5 mutuals r like IDK They make me giggle, their comebacks r so funny and good, THEIR HUMOR?? dont get me started, and their jokes r js so good. the winners for this award areee @soov @son4taa @hanniluvi @wonieleles @eundiarys and @feeeli (again Ik) GUYS DONT BE SAD PLS if u dont win this is all for fun..... BUT REIS JOKES R SO FUNNY IDK WHY even if theyre directed at me im still gonna giggle.. SIA >>> her dn jokes when i first met her always made me laugh ESP THE CHEWING GUM ONE i forever hold onto it LMAOOO 😭 SONA AND SOPH.

theyre literally twins i swear Bc why do i let out the same three laughs whenever they make jokes. SOPHS SMAUS R SO GOOD AND HER RESPONSES TO EDITS OR REACTIONS TO THINGS LMFAOOO i saw ur reaction to that one edit soph Dont hide “eats my walls” WDYM??? 🤨 and sona is js so funny theres no reason needed. DONT EVEN TRY AND DISCREDIT HER 😒 i giggle sm its unbelievable. FEE!! double award how r u feeling bff!! ever since we met each other under esthers comment section LMAOOO ive always found u funny 😭

LIKE U SWITCHED UP SO FAST AFTER FINDING OUT I WROTE BAD NEWS?? WERENT U JS THREATENING ME A MINUTE AGO 😭😭 jules taehyun smau??? I giggle left and right I WAS LITERALLY LAUGHING AT 7:17 AM LIKE THATS HOW YK SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH ME LMAOOO

okay now for the 4th award “the one(s) i cherish most” No joke. this one is literally impossible idk how i was able to narrow it down 😓😓 but todays nominees areee.........................................................JK U RLLY THOUGHT 🤣🤣🤣 i cherish every single one of my mutuals! theyre all special to me to the point where i cant even separate them into categories nor rank them. BUT ANYWAYS next award guys!

this award is called “the mutuals i look up to the most” once again! this one was acc a hard choice since i look up to everyone but if we’re going by who i admire the most / am inspired by then it’s not that bad. here are the nominees!! sona, soph, rei, sia, yun, yen, esther and sue!! the winner(s) of this award will now be announced. @soov @soobnny @amakumos @hanniluvi @son4taa @yenqa @urszn Funny how they all won the award... BUT FR! yun has been my main inspiration for starting an acc SHOCKING IKK LMAOO and when she followed me back tears formed in my eyes HELP i was so surprised tbh but i admire her sm and enjoy ALL her works! as well as sue! i love sue and when i saw that she followed me back??? i literally SCREAMED.

LIKE THE SUE FOLLOWED ME BACK?? i rarely interact with them both since yk a little too shy to do so BUT YOULL SEE ME IN UR ASK BOXES OCCASIONALLY TRUST ! soph sona yen esther and rei i love them smm IDK WHY BUT they js inspire me to write and continue series i want to discontinue LMAOO support them Now. i will appear under ur covers at night do Not test me rn. 

next award!! “the mutual i love hearing life stories from” easy win tbh. nominees r mari, raven, and rose! AND TBH everyones life stories r so entertaining to hear but theres something abt this one mutual’s life... ESP THEIR LOVE LIFE HELLO???? the winner is.... @aezrali !! LIVE LAUGH LOVE ROSE’S LIFE STORIES. YOU LITERALLY LIVE IN A DRAMAA I SWEAR the asks u used to send me always had me so intrigued no joke. PLS BRING THEM BACK 🙏 still rooting for the second lead btw 🤞

7th award tbh Why am i on a roll. “mutual that only speaks truth” Literally everything this mutual says is agreeable (UNLESS ITS ABT ME AND THIS JUNGWON FIC 😒) this is like the 3rd award this mutual won LOL but tonights nominees areee raven, rei, and soph! but the winner is @soov ! EVERYTHING U SAW ABT THIS FIC IS WRONGGGGG (idk what u say so Dont ask me.) BUT ANYWAYS rei literally speaks truth and adds humor into it SO its an automatic win tbh 🤞 never mess with rei I learned that the hard way...

second last award for tonight isss; mutual(s) with the best series/fics! i’d say i nominated all my mutuals for this one but i do have personal favorites! @amakumos @son4taa @hanniluvi @yenqa @eundiarys !! all their seires and fics r so good. Literally go support them pls 🙏🙏 you’ll see me reblogging their posts A lot. So clearly theyre good 😂

LAST AWARD GUYS!! MUTUALS I LOVE BEING AROUND ! as i said before its impossible to put my mutuals into categories like these but if i HAD to choose i’d say @taejays because they’re very comforting and fun to be around! i enjoy our little chats about fics etc 😁 @wonieleles ever since i met sia i always loved being around her! shes one of my favorite people to speak with or at least have her presence around me.

@redm4ri MY OG BFF!! when we first both joined walmart enhypen we literally connected so quickly?? unbelievable LMAOO but youre so exciting i love u sm @feeeli everyday We shall thank esther’s comment section that brought us together bff 🫶 it’s been like 3 weeks of knowing u and it felt like we’ve known each other since diapers...CRAZY RIGHT IDK WHY BUT IT SHOCKS ME EVERYTIME I THINK ABT IT i love ur company sm and our little secret gc LOLOL forever my #1 rival 🤞

@isoob MY FIRST MUTUAL ON THIS APP. everyday i wake up and i am thankful i met u! we literally fell off for like a good 10 months BUT WHO SAID THAT STOPPED OUR FRIENDSHIP 🤣 LOVE U SM EJU!! @ox1-lovesick ty for sending me that ask during math class! i literally smiled ear to ear when i saw it i was sososooso excited and happy u dont understand LMAOO but i love being around u sm LIKE its js sm fun I MISSED U SM WHILE U WERE ON BREAK THO 💔

and everyone in walmart enhypen! i cant rlly @ everyone before this becomes a whole long fic type post LMAOOO but i adore all of u guys and hope the world treats u best! i always wake up grateful that i accepted that little invite rei posted If not... this post wouldve never been this long tbh LMAOO BUT U GUYS R AMAZING AND SO SWEET I LOVE U ALL!

hopefully this wasnt THAT long PLS FOR READING AND I HOPE URE ALL HAPPY WITH THE AWARDS!! 

#☆ — mutuals #☆ — k’s thoughts #this was sm fun wtf #once again!! this was only for entertainment purposes pls don’t be sad 😓😓

[bonesandthebees]

anyways HRU BEE !!!! it feels like it's been forever since i've been here... ive been binging the show elementary it has Consumed my Life i watched 10 forty min eps in one day 😭😭😭😭😭I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED THE SHOW THOUGH SO IM BACK TO BEING A FUNCTIONING HUMAN BEING !!! did laundry, gonna go to the bank tomorrow and hopefully clean my room a bit kasdfjk also i started the latest rose chap but havent finished yet but SO FAR mmmm good food i love rose so much... the vibes r so nice man theyre suchhh summer novel vibes i love it soososososososo much ur fics always slap so hard man you are quite literally the best author everrr hehe

hi icy I'm doing alright!! been a busy bee this past week you know how it goes. also I'm doing laundry rn so laundry buddies!! I washed my bedsheets + comforter last night and had the euphoric experience of having also shaved my legs that same day and freshly shaved legs + clean soft sheets is just the best feeling ever in the world. rn I'm just washing some clothes of mine so I'll have to fold those later ugh. I don't mind doing laundry it's just the folding part I hate

so glad you're enjoying rose so far :) I'm having such a fun time with it even if I'm a little slower with updating it than I have with my other fics in the past. I'm just taking my time with it to make sure it's what I want it to be and I love diving into these characters so much. ty for the kind words icy <333

#ask #icyfox17

[loverofallthingssmart]

PLEASE UNLEASH your hadestown demons!!!!!

unleash my hadestown demons is right this is a BEAST thank you very much ive satisfied the brain worms by dumping all my thoughts under the cut

first off. the beauty of live theatre allows for so much nuance and beauty to demonstrated so i cant even begin to cover all the things that could make me insane its so wonderful i love live theatre everyone should watch at least one live theatre production i believe it will solve at least one problem they have

the tragedy of it all!! its a sad song but we sing it anyway, in hopes that we hope that orpheus doesn't turn. but he will. bc he loves eurydice so much so he went down to the underworld to save her.

guys. the repeated, cyclical nature of everything. its an old tale from way back when and its a sad song but they sing it anyway. the point of hadestown is the HOPE of it all wait theres an article (https://www.standard.co.uk/culture/theatre/anais-mitchell-hadestown-west-end-broadway-b1134613.html) regarding mitchell's thoughts on orpheus that make me insane im gonna paste a quote here:

"If Hadestown has a moral, she says, then it’s “you have to try, you have to have hope, not because success is a given – it’s not. Orpheus fails. We heroicise” – here she breaks off to apologise that jet lag has led to her making up words – “we heroicise Orpheus not because he succeeds but because he tries, and that endeavour alone is worthwhile. How to live, and not merely survive, is to believe things could change.” ARE U KIDDING ME OURGHH

which brings me to the topics of like. climate change and capitalism that the play discusses its so good. the fact that there's no spring or fall, only summers and winter because of persephone's absences, how "is it true" is just a song abt labor protests red carnations are a symbol of love and passion yes, but in germany theyre a symbol of the working class protest. its SO important hades has just created an industrial revolution, has built a wall, has workers work forever, "why we build the wall" is soooo incredible "hey little songbird" "chant" all the songs that take place IN hadestown itself are sooo gritty so despondent in a way its insane.

theres another article that discusses sm of it AND discusses like portrayals of persephone that i REALLY like. im gonna paste it here PLEASE read it it has so much good stuff from a classics person regarding it and OURGH too good

orpheus's "to the world we dream about" but then also "the one we live in now" like oh.okay. im NORMAL….

if u noted every single lalala in hadestown it would be 6 min long. the leitmotif oh i am so normal actually.

okay im not rlly a music person i call myself music adjacent bc my two closest friends r music ppl LMAOJDHJS but like. the first time u hear eurydice say "i do" i.e what you say to seal a marriage is after she tells orpheus she signed the papers. she does not say "i do" in the entireity of wedding song, where they talk abt their nuptials. she says "i do" in informing orpheus she cant come up with him. that she chose this life (or death i guess) of her own doing. isnt that vile….

in wedding song she goes "is he always like this" and hermes responds but then in "a gathering storm" she asks the same question to no response.. idk what's there but something is there.

hermes being the narrator thats involved in the play is SOOOO delicious for my brain, the way he switches between a character involved in orpheus and eurydice getting together, invested in their relationship to a all-knowing narrator who knows the end bc he sees this every time.

there's this sense that only orpheus and eurydice do not know they r in a repeated play. which heightens their love at first sight, the "i feel like i know u but ive just met you" OHHHHH my god.

the original nytw script having orpheus say "ur early. i missed u." directly paralleling hades and persephone but in a different context because OHHHHMYGOD and not even that but the fact that mitchell took it out bc she believed it engaged the brain when the moment should only directly engage the heart. so she had the lovers say each other's name. one last time. im soooo normal

also this is bc one time i was thinking abt hadestown and mitski's remember my name played so . just that song in the context of hadestown is SOOOO bc like. like. how eurydice couldn't rmbr herself when she became a worker but orpheus went down to save her and she remembered.

when he turns back and says.

"it's you" "it's me"

^ are you fucking kidding me. the sort of disbelief the happiness the love the incoming grief im inconsolable.

when orpheus turns back, eurydice says his name w so much joy SO MUCH JOY she is not upset at him. "what was there to complain of, except that she'd been loved?" <- quote from metamorphoses

like yes we wish orpheus doesnt turn around but at the end of the day, orpheus is still the trusting guy he was in the beginning. EURYDICE on the other hand KNOWS how cruel the world is and chooses to trust orpheus anyway. but. "it's a tragedy" and doubt creeps in. part of the tragedy lies in the fact that eurydice, "all ive ever known is to hold my own" eurydice runs after him w open arms, chooses to trust him, chooses to follow the trial, and he still turns around. BECAUSE he loves her ohhhmygod im so normal

obligatory mention to the fact that orpheus could never finish the song he was working on because it was a duet. like okay lol. im fine im normal hahahahaha are u fucking kidding me.

hades and orpheus are mirrors, there r two relationships in the musical obviously and it is clear theyre mirrors of each other even w/o the original script line but like.

hades gives orpheus the test that he himself goes through every spring. hades is the villain of the story yes but he is not evil. he gives orpheus the same trial, sees that if orpheus can judge him for losing faith in his wife through the course of their relationship, let's put his romantic nature to the test. let's see if he can feel the absence of his love and keep going. and he cant. bc orpheus has never had to learn how to fend for himself. so when u take away his support system, when u take anyone's support system, how is he, how r we supposed to succeed?

just. the song "how long" encapsulates hades and persephone's relationship SO WELL. "the girl means nothing to me." "i know. but she means EVERYTHING to him" the fact that this is the first time we persephone REFUSE a drink bc shes had enough oh were SOMBER somber the way the whole song just parallels itself and every verse GOD.

the love was there. the hope was there. its a sad song. its a love song.

every single time before they leave. every time they're on stage, eurydice is in front of orpheus. he trusts that she is before him and she never doubts that he is there. it is when their positions change, him in front and her behind that he bends. it is then that doubt comes in.

those r just the like the thoughst of the music and themes itself we can talk abt the ppl and the live play now:

so first. can we talk abt this we need to talk abt for reeve carney's last show the original orpheus his last show he didnt turn back. he and eurydice lived they passed the trial. sorry that makes me so insane bc like. imagine u play orpheus. doomed to a lifetime of looking back at ur lover and your final show, u finally get to stay. oh im very normal i just love the nuances of live theatre!!! what a send off!!!!

THEN we can talk abt how eva and solea play PERFECT eurydices, full of grit and used to the cruel nature of the world. and how lola tung i feel is a DECENT singer but shes not a eurydice shes so light and soft but idk. who am i to say.

also the soundtrack is just SO incredible so is the set design there's not a single ounce of stage space that is wasted like there are so many nuances like i cant even talk abt all that there is my FAVORITE musical for SOOO many reasons ough.

yeah i think that's it. this took me MULTIPLE hours and i feel drained abt talking abt all this. WOW i love hadestown not normal amounts. i can't die before i see this live its one of my goals i just need to see it live on broadway.

#putting this in #2 am ramblings #bc i invested too much brainpower and time into this LAMSODJHHDFJSK #anyway. yeah <3 that's all. there r so many more nuances you could have w every decision made onstage for each production and it saddens me #that i cant know them all. but theres a beauty in that as well. #hadestown #orpheus and eurydice #guys orpheus and eurydice are actually my second favorite greek myth LSMSNBDGHSUJHD but god theres just so much. OURGH

[pacifymebby]

t r o u b l e / Chapter twelve

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Sylvie

It was something Tommy had told me when I was a little girl. The flicking of the switch in our brains. He'd used the metaphor to explain our mams suicide to me when I was too young to understand anything about depression, anxiety and those twisted intrusive miseries that so often drive people to their early graves.

I'd told him I didn't understand why she'd done it. Why she'd walked herself into the cut like that and left me and Sunny playing in the street. Why she'd let us watch. Why she'd let herself freeze. And that had been his answer. That some families are born with a switch in their heads, and that things can tick along just fine for a very long time, and we can be happy and full of love, and then one day the switch ticks over and a person changes. That they stop feeling like themselves, that they get a bit lost... That they can do things without really thinking or noticing what theyre doing... He'd said that thats what had happened to our mother. Her switch had flicked over because she'd been very sad for a very long time. Id asked him if his was going to do the same and he'd smiled, lifted me up to sit on his hip and kissed my cheek.

"No love, not mine, gonna be here with you forever I promise..."

And I'd believed him. Back then I'd believed him desperately. Now however I was an adult, I'd grown to understand the Shelby disposition, I'd grown to understand that it was a little more complicated than Tommy had let me believe back when I was a girl.

Because it wasn't just misery that could flick the switch, and when it did change and the current flowing through you changed with it, it was more than just "not feeling like yourself" that shook you. It was a heavy sinking feeling that slowed you, left you split down the middle and wrong on both sides. A little piece lost forever when the crack ran down your spine, so that even when the switch flicks back the other way, you're never the same. Never whole, never completely fine.

In the past I'd seen Arthurs switch change, I'd seen Tommys, Id seen mine. Id felt the split in the hollows of my bones and the digits of my fingers. That heavy seperation. Nothing grounding you. Mind severed from the body, body left wandering.

Id felt it before but never like this. Never over something as twisted with sorrow and bitterness as this.

Usually the switch flicked off at the smallest - to others- seemingly trivial of incidents. A lower than expected grade, failure to make even the short list for an audition. Seeing on of the other girls make a step more elegant and delicate than I could. Usually the switch flicked and I did my usual, took advantage of the numbness, pushed myself harder whilst I couldn't feel the hurting. Less meals, training harder, less sleep, lies told to Sonya and Ada, lies told to my doctor and teachers too. When I couldn't feel the hurting I could dance on injuries and grit my teeth through gruelling long days and nights.

Now however the hollow felt deeper, lodged somewhere in my ribs like a bad seed and the plan I'd pieced together in my head was far more dangerous only because I was far more certain I could see it through. Even if things didn't go my way.

When I brushed past Isaiah and made my way quietly to the bedroom it was Arthur I was thinking of still. His shakey voice, his determinations all but dust by the time Tommy had finished laying into him.

It was the thought of the tears in Arthurs aging weary eyes which had split me this time. It was the image of my big brother, trembling with rage and dissapointment, trembling with ley down, that kept me calm and quiet and steady as I wandered to the windoe frame and turned to face Isaiah.

"You're going to take me to london," I said plainly, looking at Isaiah with an unwavering certainty. My voice so quiet, so serious that for a second he didn't know how to respond. He looked at me with the beginnings of a smirk on his lips as he took a step back, the smirk becoming a hesitant chuckle, the grin lingering on his face awkward but amused as he waited for me to start laughing too.

"Oh no," I said my lips twitching with the smallest smirk, "please don't do that," I said holding his gaze, watching him wavering, "Don't think I'm joking Isaiah cause I'm not... You're gonna take me to London to meet with Alfie Solomons..."

"No," he chuckled, "fuckin no sweetheart, I'm not..."

"You are."

He kept grinning, turning away from me with a laugh of disbelief, shaking his head as he closed his eyes and sniggered into his sleeves.

It should have been infuriating, I should have been upset, but that switch had flipped and so instead I felt nothing. Just stood there, leanibg back against the cool glass in the bay window, tilting my head back to feel the mullions. Just waiting for him to realise I wasn't laughing.

"I'm not love, cause I don't wanna be skinned alive by your fuckin brother right? And if I go downstairs now and tell him I'm taking his fuckin baby fuckin sister off to London to meet with a fuckin king pin, your brother will skin me alive and feed my fuckin corpse to the dogs..."

I let out a disinterested sigh, tapping my fingers on my collar bone slowly, meditatively.

"You're not going to tell my brother you're taking me, dinlow."

I spared a glance out the top corner of my eye, noticed a damp shadow on the cieling high above us.

"Tommy charged you with my protection did he not?" I asked.

"Aye which is exactly why you ain't going to fuckin Camden..."

"Then you'll take me to London," I said with a shrug, ignoring him when he tried to contradict me, raising my voice just slightly when he tried to deny me again, "because if you don't... I will fuckin throw myself from this window yeah?" I said, my hand behind my back flicking the latch undone, a gentle pressure all it took to open the glass like a door stepping out to nothing but grey sky and grass pollen.

The breeze blowing in around my body is what swept his grin from under him. The cool air hitting his face, forcing him to look me in the eye and try to work out if I was winding him up. If this was some kind of Shelby trick. And perhaps it was, it just wasn't the kind you could smile about and it certainly wasn't think kind he'd have expected from me. The naive girl he'd grown up with, the one who hadn't been able to look him in the eye since she was ten years old.

"Nah," he said, his voice shaking with a nervous laugh, "love don't do that..." he was watching me, hesitant to believe me and yet, I could tell that he did. I could tell that he recognised the shelby resolve in me. That he was probably thinking of my mother just then as I edged just leaning over the window pane. Not enough to destabilise me. Enough to scare him.

"Seriously love... Come on Sylvia you ain't fuckin funny come here..."

"I'm not being fucking funny Saiah..." i said, "You're going to agree to take me to London or I'll let myself fall."

He looked at me then like he didn't recognise me. Like for a second he thought he was looking at somebody else. I held his gaze, my eyes glazed with a seperation Isaiah had only seen in my brother Tommy before. A death sentence kind of emptiness. The shelby resolve as I'd heard my father call it once before he'd left us.

"Say you'll do it Isaiah, quickly... Make your mind up or I will fucking fall!"

Now I knew he believed me, his hand shaking by his side, his eyes dark not with fear but anger in the moment before he grabbed me by the scruff of my shrug and kept his grip tight so that I couldn't do as I threatened.

He didn't move me from the ledge however, just held me there, his fist clutching my cardigan. It wouldn't actually be enough to stop me if I chose to let go of the window frame.

"You're fuckin stupid if you think I believe you for a second lass... You ain't suicidal over a fuckin ballet and I don't know what you think you need to see fuckin Solomons for but you ain't going... I ain't fuckin riskin me neck to take you alright?" he hissed, not raising his voice, not really scaring me like I imagined he wanted to as my hand slipped unseen under his tshirt, nimble fingers wrapping round the grip of the pistol tucked into the back of his jeans.

"Fall from this height won't kill you anyway love but I promise you you'll never dance again..."

He didn't feel a thing, too caught up in the glare he held, his hand still shaking as he held my flimsy cardigan in his hand, to notice my subtle movement until it was too late.

"Guess I'll have to make fucking certain then right?"

Until I was pointing his gun at my head, cold eyes determined to stare him out until the end.

He faltered when he realised what I'd done but only for a moment, making to knock the gun from my hand, forgetting I'd been pulling nimble little stunts since I was four years old. Not realising the damage I could do in the second it took him to make his move.

I'd brought my knee up swiftly and he'd be keeled over before he could process what I'd done. Knocked all the air out his lungs and left him stumbled back, holding onto the bedpost to stabilise himself. No longer holding into me at all.

"I said make your mind up Isaiah, I know you aren't stupid... You know I'll do it..."

He was wheezing when he looked up at me, his eyes struggling to open, in too much pain to speak properly though he tried.

"What the fuck do you want with Alfie fuckin Solomons?" he said through a wince, still clutching his groin, standing slowly, regarding me with hesitance then, "jesus Sylvia would you put it down?"

"Not until you tell me you'll take me."

"Right... Right... And what's stopping me shouting for your brothers right now yeah? Calling them up here..."

"I'll have hit the ground before they make it up here," I said with a small smirk, a shrug which disturbed him.

"You're fucked up Sylvia..."

"Yeah,"

"This is fuckin... Its fuckin unhinged love put the fucking gun down!"

"Keep your voice down Sai, wouldn't want anyone disturbing us..." I said lowering my voice to a deadly kind of quiet, my calm reminding him of Tommys calm. The quiet insane. The certain kind.

"Syl please... Lower the gun eh? Don't be daft sweetheart lets, lets just fuckin talk about this for a second eh? Please love..."

I'd never seen Isaiah beg before and the sight amused me, I couldn't hide the small smile which tugged at my lips.

"Nothing to talk about Isaiah... Help me with this or watch me fall... You're being awful hesitant Sai, starting to think you won't mind either way..."

"Jesus fuckin... For fuck sake Sylvia!" he groaned head in hands, "fuckin...fuck, fine... Fine I'll take you to Alfie's, but just fuckin promise me first yeah, if I do this you'll give me the fuckin gun and you won't ever point that thing at yourself again alright?"

"No," I said, "get me one of my own, I like it..."

"What?"

"Get me one of my own and I'll give you yours back... otherwise how will I know you're not just going to go straight to my brothers?"

He starred at me in disbelief, jaw hung open, face still stuck in that half cut expression of discomfort. I hadn't just scared hjm, hadn't just caught him by surprise. He really wasn't sure, in that moment, he really wasn't sure who he was talking to. He just knew it wasn't the Sylvia Shelby he'd known all her life.

#peaky blinders imagines #peaky blinders imagine #peaky blinders #peaky blinder fanfic #peaky blinders fanfiction #Trouble

[lightningmickqueen]

f1 drivers as underrated and/or unreleased taylor swift songs that altered my brain chemistry

george russell: "i'd lie" because listen "he tells a joke, i fake a smile" he's the least funny person ever but i'd still laugh and also i definitely lie when people ask if i love him (i do but i refuse to admit it publicly if you tell anyone i said this i will lie!!!)

lando norris: "thug story" because of the second hand embarrassment but also i wouldn't be surprised if he knew every word

yuki tsunoda: "today was a fairytale" but unfortunately today was not a fairytale!!! maybe one day he will live to fairytale again but til then he's still feeling this magic in the air though i have faith and i believe

alex albon: "crazier" because listen this is like THE slow dance rom com song from the iconic masterpiece rom com the hannah montana movie and if that doesn't describe alex albon idk what does

nico hulkenberg: "lucky you" ok i love taylor and i know she was like 12 when she wrote this but this song is mid just like hulk <3 however unlike hulk , taylor is no longer mid !!!

lewis hamilton: "superman" i don't know if i need to explain this one i think it makes sense this is just him he'll save the world or go to work it's the same thing idk

pierre gasly: "we were happy" ah a song about young love. love when you're young. love when you were friends and you were young and in love . and then it stopped . no longer friends and young and in love. i wonder why that makes me think of pierre gasly.

esteban ocon: "i heart ?" because listen . "another mess i didn't plan, and i'll bet you thought you beat me" listen!!! not only is that esteban coded but also he's definitely blasting this in his driver room at alpine to piss off his childhood best friend turned rival turned roommate turned ???? aka a certain pierre gasly

logan sargeant: "who i've always been" listen u cannot deny that logan can drive and that's what he's here to do !! the easy ride was never his ambition

oscar piastri: "welcome distraction" SOLELY for the bit where she's like "gone and spilled my coffee trying to get the phone because i thought it might be you" because that is the most oscar piastri thing ever it's so adorably awkward

max verstappen: "beautiful eyes" listen his eyes are SO pretty they're actually illegal in 197 countries if you dont see the vision go to specsavers

charles leclerc: "sweeter than fiction" aka the reason i made this post. this song is SO charles coded and you know what ? ?? ? i will be there time and again and in that perfect weather it'll be like we don't remember the rain we thought would last forever and ever and there'll he'll stand ten feet tall i will say "I KNEW IT ALL ALONG"

lance stroll: "point of view" because from his point of view he's doing GREAT the grass is really green on his side of the street or maybe that's his car. who knows who's right but he thinks he's doing great so

carlos sainz: : "love they haven't thought of yet" it's very cute and honestly very 16 year old taylor but there is something just sooooo carlos about a song about not wanting what's normal but wanting the best and a fairytale even when it doesn't and can't exist <3

zhou guanyu: "superstar" he is literally too powerful for the f1 grid this man is the most well rounded well dressed mfer there and everyone else is no one special theyre invisible

sergio perez: "stupid boy" he is SO. literally any time you expect something decent or good he does the opposite. his most consistent trait. ugh

kevin magnussen: "R-E-V-E-N-G-E" it's on his list of things to do this week he's gonna make SOMEONE feel sorry. not sure who yet but it'll happen

valtteri bottas: "matches" but it's his attitude towards mercedes also "i gave you space you took my place and gave it to her" he may be besties with lewis but he will never like george <3 that's ok tho he looks great w a mullet and he's gonna burn it down

mick schumacher: i don't want to lose his face i don't want to wake up one day and not remember what time erased and i don't want to turn around because i'm not scared of what love gave me and took away and i don't want to lose his face

sebastian vettel: "just south of knowing why" listen it's about driving all night searching for something you'll never find he's definitely done that irl and also he doesn't have a plan he doesn't have a map he doesn't even know if he's ever going back

fernando alonso: "only the young" i know you're doubting me but this is about winning and overcoming the odds and also only the young can run (from him)

#f1 #formula 1 #taylor swift #literally started this because of sweeter than fiction so thank you paul potts #actually so proud of this thank youuu #pls reblog and tell me ur fav

[shoyowo]

imma just ramble about your tags for a sec because like I'm always thinking about the twins vs iwaoi vs kagehina and how the two setter-spiker pairs that kghn are explicitly compared to have known each other their whole lives/since birth while kghn had (1) interaction in middle school and didn't really know each other til karasuno and like, OF COURSE Atsumu's pissed that Osamu's not gonna keep playing vb with him because he's never been alone, never known what's like to not have Osamu by his side while kageyama responds to Hinata's 2 year sabbatical with "took you long enough" because Kageyama waited 14 years for Hinata to show up and this is absolutely nothing in comparison and iwaoi have known each other for so long that theyre confident that no amount of distance can come between them when oikawa goes off to argentina. And remember when oikawa predicted kageyama's move because he saw him and iwaizumi's bond in kghn even though they only knew each other for a couple months and the only pair that could replicate the freak quick were the miya twins who've known each other their entire lives but kghn only knew each other for a couple days when they did the quick and wow, sorry for how long this ended up being but them (!!)

GO OFF !!! im gonna be v long myself too so adding a readmore <3

SO BASICALLY TY FOR BRINGING IWAOI INTO THIS BC THAT'S ITS OWN BEAST !! like it's soooo insane to me that not only is kghn paralleled with the two lifelong bonds in the manga and ALSO their promise parallels the marriage proposal by Nice?? like it doesn't have 2 be romantic but the fact that they parallel ANOTHER lifelong bond is so 🤨🧐🧐 to me so had 2 get that out of the way.

imma get the miya twins first. the vvv blatant parallel that hits me immediately is actually the running practice scenes like miya twins have always had each other 2 compete with and push each other and kghn only had that after they met..... honestly this makes me think abt how osamu always softens atsumu's edges and how hinata does that w/ kageyama too and i start thinking abt how his middle school wld have gone if hinata was there as a buffer!

like 2 me atsumu called kageyama a "goddy two shoes" in training camp but LMAO if not for osamu he'd also be the abrasive annoying setter that ppl hated despite his talent yk??? the difference is that atsumu always had osamu but kageyama didn't always have hinata. pluss literally everything u said abt atsumu's reaction to osamu leaving vs kageyama's reaction to hinata leaving like literally having osamu w him all his life spoiled atsumu fr.

not only r u right abt freak quick only being replicated by atsumu and osamu who knew each other sooo well and literally no one else but also like i think the freak quick itself is smth to dissect like kageyama's precise yet vvv fast and therefore impossible to hit tosses + hinata's freakish athleticism that was never fully used to it's potential but lack of volleyball acumen... like they fit together like puzzle pieces 🧩

and god iwaoi parallels makes my head SPIN. first off like u said the whole oikawa seeing iwaoi in kghn and therefore reading him and LATER kageyama seeing kghn in iwaoi and reading THAT is sooooo. iwaoi's bone deep understanding of each other that was borne out of knowing each other forever vs kghn's bone deep understanding of each other thro sharing the same immense passion 4 the sport !!!!!

#i didnt mention this but god the someone even better reveal was like a stellar culmination to their bond..... #it changed the world on its axis for me #hinata shoyo #kageyama tobio #someone even better #hq #ALSO SOZ I WROTE A WHOLE ESSAY #hq meta #magic answers

[cerealmonster15]

Give me A D and L of your Twisted OCs do it

ty for always enabling me and my twst crimes despite not twsting yourself kjdsfj 🧡

also tagging @cosmiccoincidence ty for the double enabling WOO

ok here's the sketchy whatever i did 2night, was gonna do some basic colors but i got sleeeepyyyy so maybe tomorrow ill do that lol

HEHFHSFEHFJK anyway. alda beloved none of this will make sense to u so ill try to give spark notes explanations as i go but. these two goobers are rsa [royal sword academy - the rival school that seems to be more based on the Good Guy™ disney characters rather than the main school's villains lol] students.

the very short summary is guy on left (Char - I looked thru sooo many names for him and that's the one i ended up on lol. some twst names are really on the nose like VIL for the EVIL QUEEN so why cant i use char!) is cater diamond's [a canon character who's said to have moved around a lot] childhood friend from when they were like 5 but lost contact w/him. Dañarte (literally not a name. it's spanish for 'hurt you' and it only came up/his existence spawns from a typo turned autocorrect in a message i was sending my frined and we just kept it for funsies and i made a character out of it lol 😭) is his shady cousin that has a charming friendly appearance but is going to cause problems on purpose bc hes a bitter baby or whatever.

i have a lot more details w/them and their connection with BESTIE CATER but that's not what the ask was about so i will HOLD BACK!!! for now.

ok answering the actual questions under a cut bc blahblahblahblah

A) Why are you excited about this character?

because!!! i see a lot of people make really creative twst ocs based off other disney characters and i think that's SO FUN!!!! i dont really think i myself am very creative of a person, but this was something i kinda got to have fun with. i had the initial thought with char based off one random fanart I saw like forever ago, so i borrowed the starting idea and then just completely ran off with it to do my own thing, SPIN MY OWN WEB!!!! [i think the fanart was like, just some random rsa guy recognizing cater; it was japanese fanart so i had limited google translate on my side - idr if the childhood friend thing was part of it or if that's just a thing my brain decided to fill in the blanks?? anyway i went from there / designed my own random guy / started LORE BUILDING and EXPANDING]

also their involvement is very much a soap opera esque TEEN ROMANCE DRAMA which i think is funny. a lot of this came from just talking to my friend in discord cuz there was no engtwst at the time and she was the only person i knew that i could talk to about twst, so even tho these are my characters, it's something that spawned from me going ham in our discord messages and us bouncing ideas off each other and just havin private fun. unrestrained goofs!!!

D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

HMMMM well according to all the doodles i'd compiled in one spot, it does look like i just went with my initial ideas for both of em and kept it. they r not that deeply thought out bc i am Not much of a designer - god bless the school uniform i could steal so i didnt have to come up w/clothes kfjlsdf. and tbh theyre pretty basic right now so for all i know, maybe this is the prototype. maybe they've yet to go through their first evolution. WHO KNOWS!!!! but in their case, their existence came more from the SOAP OPERA DRAMA storyline i came up with, and wasn't so much based on appearance/character design. i mostly just had doodles and sketchy concepts just so i could continue to doodle parts of said story for funsies to send my friend on discord lol

BESTIE THERE IS NO L!!!!! instead of asking u what u meant im just gonna assume u meant I since lowercase L looks like uppercase I 😌 SO YOU'RE GETTING I!!!

I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

ya lol. this 'story' is very much based off like a few lines of canon lore that i just SPRINTED OFF with. drag and dropping these 2 guys into the story - not really related to much of the main story, but just kinda there to cause more teen drama. for funsies.

ANYWAY THANKS FOR ASKING LOVE U BOTH BYE!!!!!!

[x]

#gaminegay #cosmiccoincidence #asks #twisted wonderland #twst oc #cereal tries to draw #ummmmmmmmmm!!!!! #how come i was trying to be brief and concise and i still Talked So Much #i held back a lot of details. and yet.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #covers my face anyway bed time bye!!! #ocs #oc: char #oc: Dañarte

[girlwithfish]

literally no one was asleep for naptime when i left for break theyre all probably gonna be awake when i get back lolool. also theres a MAN here ? lol. rheres like two new ppl who came in but i think they r from different centers but idk why theyre here or if its permanent or temporary but yeah theres a dude here which is rare bc all my coworkers r women lmaoo. and like everyone is sick so that sucks im rly paranoid of gettinf sick again bc it was really bad fir me last time and my coworker has the same thing rn nd a diff coworker did last week nd i do not want to go thru it again for real hahaha. i need to start wiping my phone down nd my car and everything uggjdjdxjkskdd. i want to lay in bed forever and never do anything again

[niceinchnails]

amy

im gonna do these in the same post to keep the dash from being clogged o.k?also i accidentally undid this post and it deleted most of it

amy.

Sexuality Headcanon: SHE/HER GAY and in qpps with kif OR transbisexual!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gender Headcanon: i danno........she could be whatever she wants to be.

A ship I have with said character: KIF theyre so cute togetherrr omg. t4t realness i liked watching their relationship it was so adorable

A BROTP I have with said character: ZOIDBERG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!theyre my biggest friendship pairing in the show like goddamn theyre abslute best friends forever and i wish they had more moments together gah..............

A NOTP I have with said character: zoidberg also.its so wierd to me I dont like them romantically together or god forbid sexually its just so wierd and icky to me.... Ok one more sorry this ones gonna b an unpopular 1 but i dont like what she and leela have in canon...like conceptually i think their dynamic would be cute but what they have in canon isnt that good srry <- one pairing thats better in fanon than canon

A random headcanon: i think shed look rlly good in pink tuxedos TBH...... like her thing with her outfit is she likes pink but wears less "ladylike" clothes so i think shed ROCK a pink tuxedo and generally more clothes that r masculine but some shade of pink. i think shed have a lot of fun crossdressing + being gnc and stuff

General Opinion over said character: i love the way she talks and also how shes just a fun gal!!!!!!!!!!! 1000000000000/10

ZOIDBERG.

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gender Headcanon: two headcanons for this guy. 1. hes an alien so i dont think he subscribes to the human definition of gender but hes cis 2. Transgender. either way he uses neopronouns simply because of the two posts i saw on my dash. A ship I have with said character: this is the most embarassing part everyone will kill me for this. 1. Farnsworth. yes its because of The Scene but also in my mind theyre so divorced its unreal. theres only one evidence of zoidberg being married EVER shown and its this one

and while i do believe its a one off joke it would be much much more interesting to say theyre divorced that would explain a lot of their behavior and how they act together. i have a lot more reasons but i dont wanna sound like weirdo so im moving on. 2. MARIANNE..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Shes literallu so perfect theyre so cute together and i cried during that episode becfuase theyre so perfect and i loved seeing zb happy he has the WIDEST smile around her its so adorablee i really hope theres more of her in the new season. 3. hermes LOL if only for the "just friends spooning" thing they did that one time.

A BROTP I have with said character: AMY!!!!!!!!!!!! talked abt it alrady so i wont explain again

A NOTP I have with said character: amy as well for the same reasons above.and also leela

A random headcanon: divorced as mentioned above. i dont reallu have much headcanons for him actually. OH AURISM autism ♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️♾️Definately some autism involved wsomewhere here Also he likes to draw. hes not very good at it cause he keeps snapping pencils but by god if he doesnt try.

General Opinion over said character: HES MY FAAAAAAVOURITE charcter in futurama EVER. hes so lovely and kind and i fucking love when he said fuck in that one episode or the show gives him an opportunity to be badass its so satisfying. i love tihs guy

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[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

god im so tired i feel like im. yea. but like genuinely FUCK trans people who try 2 be fuckin trans police likeeee FUCK U when ur tryna reinvent gender roles I DONT NEED TO BE COMPLIMENTED ON HOW WELL I PASS I PASS PERFECTLY WELL AS MYSELF BC I AM ME MOTHERFUCKER I DONT NEED TO BE A CIS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN BC IM A TRANS PERSONS IDEA OF A MAN U FUCKINGGGG cop,. stop fucking cringing at me wearing a skirt go stick ur head in a toilet u fuckingggggg. bitchasss motherfucker. there is NO way i wanna wear fuckinn trackies n a hoodie all day bc that works just fine 4 other ppl but it gives me fuckin MORE dysphoria stop projecting ur dysphoria onto me youuuuu fuckingggggg. pussy. u can enjoy ur dysphoria hoodie without putting me into it as well its not a get along shirt u fucking idiottttt. wed get along better if u didnt shove our heads into the same hole. yeah. im justtt. pissed. attttttttttt. cops. for existing. and ppl who act like cops. kill the cop in ur head bla bla bla.

anyways

. im gonnago to sleep. tmrw is gonna b better bc god. today was a whole lotta anxiety. not the bad kind. bc i realised today. i finally have problems that dont feel like theyre making me feel so fucking empty. like im soooo anxious and worried abt these problems but these r normal people problems now likeeee. i can cope w this kinda stuff. wowies. so tired. gonnna fall asleep at my desk. this music is loud iand it feels like itss. a big ocean. ive almost drowned so many times yknow. crazy. i wanna swim in a river w my friends. only river close to me is dirty as fuck tho n will give me diseases. or probably has a body in it somewhere. wanna find a good river i wanna. yeah. ok my head feels like. a carousel or whatevr. or like. oh my god i havet listened to hsi song in so long this is so 2021 core. wow. did  i just type core with my own two hands. god. ok. gonna text my friend. and be like. i love u . and then im gonna sleep. and think abt my friends and my more than friends and my less than friends. forgot hwo good this song was. mmm yea. ok. tmrw got english period3 . reminder 2msyelf incaase i get scared i get the period wrong. lemme check acrually

yep. english period3. 11.15-12.15. right there. and also. reminder 2 myself to. get to Maples house at 3.50ish and then. we go to my place. and if it rains thats good. if it doesnt rain we cry forevers. we could maybe like. chill in the garden. or watch movies. movies r good. could even kick my sister out of the livin room so we could watch movies there. n like. give her a distraction. or like. let her watch as well but idk if wed want her. bc like. yea thatd be awkward. idk. we could just watch movies in my room. or we could watch heartstopper like we said that one time bc its feelgood and i love feelgood shows and its aalso smth ik is good and is familiar 2 me and my autistic ass is scared of watching new films. id that an autism thing. well my ass is still autistic. so fuck u. and ur allistic ass. unless its not then i apologise to ur ass. ok.nighty nighty. oscar if u see this . um. Hi . ur coolllllllll as fuck ok yeah fuck u im gonna embarrass u in a publiccc postttt by sayingh howwww cool u rrrrr okie yea byebye. and also byebye everyone whios not oscar. ur also cool but not as cool.

#night thoughts #so tired #it s a very specific feeling #but ive frogtoteen #how to #feel #think #nboth #idk man #blah #ever make noises at ur cat #like #bwahhhh bwah bwah #bwah bwehhhh #bweh bwah bwoooooh #and pat hima nd hes a little bongo pat pat paty #and u throw little apples at him c the apple tree has 2 many so the tiny ones fall off #and he jsut like #is like #bwah #at the apples #okie goodngiht

[boypussydilf]

oh my god, talk about the doctor and the master now. i accidentally typoed doctor as cocter at first. cockter. is this anything

the cockter. timecock. i am the doctor and this is my cock. im so sorry. everyone look at my immortal freaks . there are no cocks involved. um originally i wasnt gonna put this post under a readmore bc for some reason i wasnt expecting it to get long but like, it did, so, n. now those sentences r gonna be all anyone sees unless they click through. that’s great

describe their canon relationship/dynamic

BY GOD!!! they’re childhood friends. …i think. i think its said or at least implied that they knew each other As Actual Kids and not, like… however the fuck old they were in The Academy. im saying they knew each other as kids. played in each others backyards or whatever the fuck baby time lords do. anyway. childhood friends childhood BEST friends who Continued to be best friends for the rest of their lives because they’re so similar theyre practically like the same person. except for that the master let the society they were raised in & their own ego get to them and goes around believing they Deserve completely to be obeyed and served and get to do whatever the fuck they Want, and the doctor on the other hand had a granddaughter to take care of and then he meets humans and learns The Wonders Of Compassion by force. They are the same person on different paths and are forced to be enemies because of it. “Forced” by their own decisions and worldviews, but still. They were best friends who promised to Be Together Forever and then they left each other and they both just want to go back to being best friends and doing everything they planned, SO badly, but neither of them is going to budge from their own way of thinking, so all they get is little bits of banter and the hope that maybe they can convert the other one to THEIR side and scraps and echoes of what they could have if they had each other.

And also they try to kill each other. Mostly the master tries to kill the doctor. He actually SUCCEEDED one time but yknow, regeneration.

your ideal/headcanon version of it? how does it differ from how it is in canon & why is this your favorite version? any other alternate versions of it you enjoy?

oh fuck before i do anything else i need to go look for one fic thst isnt actually related to any part of this except being about them I FINALLY FUCKING FOUND IT. GOD. i dont think i have time to reread it tonight though. sad. SO ANYWAY. they are one of those pairs where like. I like them so much for specifically exactly what they are in canon instead of for Potentials and visions i have in my head. they’re perfect the way they are. I mean that technically varies from era to era of the show because different writers but…. the core concept is always pretty much the same and it’s good. they’re good the way they are.

I do have to dedicate a line to the headcanon people have that twelve & missy were fucking in the vault. Sorry. Yknow i think ive seen two different fics where bill refers to it as “the sex vault” in her mind in passing. Reasonable conclusion i guess

what do you like about their relationship, why is it interesting or enjoyable to you?

i like wanting something you can’t have & wishing to go back to something you can never return to, and i like character foils and people who are just variations on the same concept, constant reminders of what you could’ve been if you’d taken 1 different step. and also i like when they make stupid jokes at each other like the fate of the world isnt at stake or like they arent about to fight each other or so on

what about the individual characters involved? what does this relationship mean to them, what makes it unique among their relationships?

*taps literally just the entire summary of their relationship*

Ok that and like …. they both on some level see each other as the only person in the universe who can TRULY understand them. They’re Time Lords for gods sake theyve had superiority complexes ingrained in them since 5 minutes after they were born (or loomed, whatevers to your liking) and even the Doctor isn’t completely immune to like. Oh my massive alien brain and two thousand year life means you humans can never really Get My Feelings. which is sort of fair but not really. And they’re both, like, basically exiled from their home- when their home EXISTS gallifrey is destroyed with all the time lords dead every other week but like the rest of the time it isn’t. anyway they’re both Renegade Time Lords, they decided to Leave and to interfere in the lives of Outsiders and they have broken like every law that exists and they are no longer welcome home. So with both of them thinking they’re Above any other species, as much as the doctor tries not to, and both of them being unable to turn to any other members of their own species, they look at each other and go. You’re the only motherfucker in this universe who can handle me. You’re the only person who can get me. You’re the only place i can go to for real true complete understanding. Please come back to me so we can be bitches together.

they’re also each other’s Exceptions <3 the master will just kill people instantly with no hesitation no second thought and no remorse. and like. Technically regeneration makes it. harder to die. what with the coming back to life thing. but there are ways around that. The master could straight up kill the doctor forever they could’ve done it already if they wanted to. but they don’t bc they care and theyre hoping they can still be friends again. And the doctor tries not to kill people, generally, but some threats outweigh that. If there’s someone with a bomb that can end all life in the universe, and they can’t be reasoned with or incapacitated, but you do have a gun, shoot them in the head. On the other hand, the master poses a very significant threat to a lot of people all the time and the doctors like. ican’t kill them tho. theyre my friend :( Doctor people are dying

favorite interaction they have in canon

the scene in. i think its the sea devils? where they have like a 3 minute long swordfight and towards the end the doctor has the master’s sword and is holding him at swordpoint. stops to steal one of his sandwiches and take a bite. then gives his sword back to keep fighting bc hes having fun.

also like. literally every time they interact in series 10. itsall so fucking good but thats also very nonspecific so mmmm. the whole bit at the end of the eaters of light, with the doctor going “that’s the trouble with hope, it’s hard to resist”, and saying, maybe the master’s turning Good, but maybe it’s all an act, and her agreeing, “yes, that sounds like something I’d do” and it’s so- s10 is so fucking good, man, and they manage to play it JUST right so that up until the last minute you really just… dont… know. maybe the master is actually changing. maybe she really is feeling remorse and remembering compassion maybe she really does want to be good and maybe she really is trying and maybe she really is getting there. but maybe its just an act. a trap. another trick from a master of disguises. a way to get under the doctor’s skin. you can think one way or the other but you can never feel certain until the moment she literally kills her past self to turn around and side with the doctor. to go fight alongside her friend, to go Do Good, despite the fact that she’d be walking directly into a hopeless situation, a certain death, there is no benefit to this there won’t even be a victory and she’s doing it anyway, and maybe she wouldn’t do that on her own, not yet, but she’ll do it to be by her best friend while he makes another one of his stupid, stupid decisions.

and then she dies, and he has no idea she ever turned around. but it’s the thought that counts. without hope, without witness, without reward.

doctor who series 10 is just *clenches fist* god. the master just wants to live. the master just wants their friend back. these are the things that keep coming back. these are some of the most crucial aspects. and. and. and s10 is. she wants those things so badly that she will give up everything else she has, she’ll change her entire life, become a completely different person, however long it takes, however difficult it is, all for those two things. this just became about the master for a while i think. thats ok.

favorite interaction they have in your head/a situation you want to put them in

Oh god oh fuck i dont have anything for this ummm. I am so fucking tired. I want them to take a nap there we go thats it post wrapped thanks for coming everybody

#ough im so- #GOD i know its not gonna happen but can we please get dhawan master written by RTD? #please? please? please? #ghhapgugogugoggih #im dreaming of it. #basilask

[planet4546b]

this is an extremely bizarre question i just thought of but. thoughts on the s/n cast being in a lighthearted (??) au a la hs/college/coffee shop au but still forced to meet (group project members, reluctant coworkers, etc.). i have no idea if this makes sense fksjks

ohohoho this is very fun. time to normalify my favorite weirdos!!!!

lighthearted au of choice is 'everyone works in the same shitty mall' because its the one i can make make sense in my head the best. dont ask why jdhslkag

sam is the long suffering assistant manager for a best buy. eric is the actual manager and the rest of the spire network folks are the other employees here. darcy has stolen at least 2 entire xboxes. indrani, grace, and sam walk to the food court together every day to have lunch together and shittalk everyone else.

sam has a ham radio hobby and uses her store discount to buy parts (i havent been to a best buy in forever idk if they have those. bear with me here). she is a radio nerd in every universe and i love her <3

mel works in the new escape room (cy also works here) and is weirdly serious about it?? emily works in a trader joes. jackie is in the weird little board game store you know the kind.

jackie steals pokemon cards from behind the counter for mel. mvp

i could literally just have said they know each other from working in the same store but instead im about to build the weirdest relationship map ever because #ilovecomplexity. ok here we go

mel, em, and sam have lived in this town and known each other since they were kids. mel and sam were closer in high school, but then mel left town to go to college for a few years (before dropping out), and sam and em started hanging out a lot more. jackie just recently moved to town to go to the state school nearby (fun fact: in a previous version of this story it took place in suburban illinois, and emily went to university of illinois urbana-champaign so lets say its there for funsies). emily is also taking classes there so she and jackie ended up in a class together (em is a math major and jackie is the worlds most pathetic physics major so they probably took like calc 3 together or something) and thats how jackie got dragged into the group!!!

sam has the worst little awful apartment youve ever seen (its literally the r/malelivingspaces i dont deserve a bedframe post) and jackie is somehow always hanging out there (jackie lives with 3 roommates and is always in a fight with one of them). sam frankly does not mind. the two of them get a long a LOT better without an impending apocalypse. physics student jackie + radio enthusiast sam spend a lot of time discussing like, the electromagnetic spectrum and also jackie is making sam watch breaking bad and sometimes they play minecraft.

emily: im gonna ask sam to have dinner at the california pizza kitchen with me

mel: what the fuck. thats a terrible idea. why would you take her to the fucking california pizza kitchen in the mall we literally work at. what??

emily: ...... should i do the cheesecake factory??

jackie is the ultimate 'lie to your boss. leave work for no reason. just walk out. fuck it ✌️' guy and is constantly trying to get the other three to spend work hours just sort of fucking around and hanging out with them. like theyll tell their manager theyre taking a bathroom break and then walk down to the escape room and talk to mel for 30 minutes. mel, who takes her work in this universe as seriously as in canon, absolutely HATES this and is like no im not skipping work with you. stop it. but caves eventually and spends a lot of time just sort of wandering through the weird field behind the mall with jackie and getting high. its great

chaos and absolute tragedy when the sbarros in the food court is replaced by a fancy health food place and its the only topic of discusion for months. no survivors

emily and mel are on a much better path towards actually mending their relationships in this world. i think they both still live at home, and having their other siblings leo and addie around (as well as their mom and grandma) makes them WAYYYY less likely to want to tear out each others throats. sam loves going to dinner at em and mels because it reminds her a lot of her own family (and because shes known them so long shes been going over there forever. helped addie with her math homework when addie was in hs kinda vibe. its nice)

also while sam is still estranged from her family in this version, the paternal relationship between her and eric is also much more clear, which is also nice. sam PEOPLE LOVE YOU.

luna this is bad. im actually kind of very invested in this au now. im kind of going to keep thinking about it all week. uh oh. anyways this is very scattered but thank you for the very fun question MUAH

#asks #cherrytries #i legit am KIND OF REALLY INVESTED IN THIS NOW. jhkldshakjg #the ultimate joy of making aus for your own ocs. truly one of lifes pleasures!!!! #also its so fun that like. sometimes i realize just how well i know these characters bc this took very little effort #to actually come up with. i was just like. yeah i know them. i know what they would do. very fun!!! #signal to noise #oh also fun fact about me. i. dont know how coffeeshop aus work??? i dont understand them?? #is it everyone working at the same coffeeshop?? is it one person is the coffeeshop employee and the other the customer they always see???? #like i genuinely have no idea. regardless fkjdsagkas

[brandy-eyes]

new girl au rants cuz im weak n stupid

okay! so yk that apartment schmidt moved into across the hall? thats jules, kat, maddy and cassies apartment now! and the loft is taken over by our lovelies—lexi, rue, fez & ash.

i want lexi to be a struggling actor, going to college for fine arts, she’ll have this part time job working as a teachers assistant, i think. might change that. i want her to move into the apartment the same way jess did, except she’s gonna have rue with her instead of being alone and just going through a breakup. maybe i’ll have her go through a breakup? just for drama!

rue works from home, a writer, maybe? im not sure for her yet. in this universe they don’t know fez or ash or anyone else really, just grew up with each other, moved to LA together (probably bc suze & leslie felt a lot more comfortable with forever anxious and paranoid always on the verge of a breakdown lexi & former drug addict rue to be together, and also cuz theyr besties!) for college and never ended up moving back. cassie also followed for a ‘fresh start’ and met jules & kat & maddy n all of them. mutual friend & resident party animal BB comes by once n a while to deposit booze & trash the place with a banger before disappearing for another few weeks or days and then does it again, like a boss bitch.

fez & ash will run their business outta the loft, except for the fact that fez is gone a lot at night for parties and shit, usually leaving the teenage angst ash alone with lexi and rue (mostly lexi, bc rue likes to tag along with fez—and lexi trusts her now, enough not to follow.) and like. lexi makes them watch fixer upper and shit and ash is forever pissed he misses the walking dead reruns bc she wanted to watch houses get ransacked and slapped with a pretty stick.

grandma marie takes the spare bedroom in the back. they have a list of contacts in the fridge fez says to ‘give a call, hit em’ up’ if they’re ever in a bind or some kind of trouble. fez never, ever brings back work to the loft bc ‘its not fair to them, they jus’ need a place to stay—‘ and the brothers are slowy weaning off the drug dealing scene, anyway. hence the need for roommates. i want fez to work at a bar, like nick, obvi.

At some point i want to follow the fake dating trope—yk, they get invited to a wedding and lexi needs a date cuz she doesn’t want to look stupid and rue is going with jules so she enlists new bestie & sort of crush fez to take her in his fancy lil caddy and snazzy suit like the darling he is! maybe i’ll make the wedding cassies? she’s sort of cece in this situation, anyway. i think it’llbe funny if like at some point suze has to crash at the loft for the wedding and she makes everything hella awkward and ash is hovering in the background watching lexi argue with her ma like 😶‍🌫️

i also think it woukd be fun to have them play true american? but like instead of the boys teaching them its lexi and rue inviting all the girls over and teaching fez & ash the game they made up when they were teens. i think they’ll be in their mid twenties, 24-26–ish, so ash’ll literally be twenty one but for the sake of the teenage angst get up he’s sixteen going on seventeen! leave me alone! Ash does go to highschool, only bc i think its funny that lexi gets to be his teacher’s assistant and she like reports back to fez the drama ash has going around at school.

i’ll have faye come stay with them around the time lexi tries to get in the dating scene and rue is like!!! bitcch!!!fez!!! for some drama and stuff, but they end up being besties dw abt it. lexi does get a little heartbroken doe cuz she rly likes fez but doesn’t wanna intrude? also fez forgets to tell them that faye has a mf bf, so rue stomps in his room LIVID and is liek YOU LED HE RON MFFCKER—and hes like. wtf r u talking abt….

also i want lexi to get to put on a play about her teenage years sometime during this period too, except this time fez gets to come & custers a dead bitch. i think i am going to follow some canon episodes of ng just bc they have such good ones that would fit the euphoria context—(jules & rue run off to mexico and rue gets arrested for stealing a wrist band off a kid and running from the security staff, jules drives home and has to wrangle all rue’s roomates into helping get her out, etc,) & i jus love them sm. so

thank u for coming to my tedtalk, it was bullshit, ik. idek if i’ll write this? would anyone read? anyways bye!

#euphoria #fexi #lexi howard #fexi fic #fez and lexi #fezco #fexi euphoria #fezco x lexi #ashtray euphoria #fexiedit #ashtray #brandyeyes new girl au no one asked for