#rambling instead of sleeping

[ukulelette]

thinking about paulchard again while it's late and I'm sick and I should definitely be sleeping but my brain can't get enough of them

Paul and Richard are two very different people. obviously two different guitar playing styles, but also different fashion styles, different lifestyles, and two different personnalities entirely. I think their most evident common trait might be how opinionated they are (at least in their work), and this is probably why it was particularly hard for them to get along in the beginning - and surely their positions in the band don't help here, being the two guitarists, always fighting for the spotlight...

when they progressively learned to respect, appreciate and love each other though... another common trait was revealed right before our shipper eyes.

their love language is physical touch.

Paul and Richard are affectionate. they crave love and attention and they crave touch above all. so of course they couldn't help themselves on stage anymore. what did you expect would happen after you put two super-tactile people who love each other up there?? it's like creating an infinite (gay) loop of affection. they can't keep their hands off each other now.

#rambling instead of sleeping #rammstein #paulchard #my post #i miss my boys

[briefhottubcoffee]

I think Twilight/Loid Forger (or whatever his birth name is) is a huge romantic. I think he truly believes in love, true undying love, soul mates, family, permanence, etc. he’s just convinced himself that he isn’t capable of love or doesn’t need love because, sadly, he believes he doesn’t deserve all those things. He can’t be happy, he can’t be at peace. He has to work endlessly to save the world. He’s punishing himself by denying himself true love, happiness, and permanence (he really, really wants these things)

So what’s happening in the story is, he finds Anya and feels himself loving her and being her father, and he loves it, he loves being her dad. But he can’t have a daughter, he needs to create world peace. So he pushes back and fights against all these happy feelings.

And with Yor it’s even worse. He could be falling in love with her, true love, and he’s blown off his feet. I don’t think he’s ignorant or oblivious to what he’s feeling for her at all. Like we laugh at him and make fun of him because he’s an obtuse, oblivious spyman. But he’s actually well aware that it’s love, but he’s denying himself. Because he believes being in love with his wife, and raising a daughter with her, and being happy together forever is the most wonderful, precious thing in the world. And it’s not something he is allowed to have.

(I think if anyone is confused and oblivious about what they’re feeling and what it means, it’s actually Yor. Her feelings are more obvious to us, the audience, because she’s allowing herself to feel openly. But she is just now coming to understand that she’s falling in love.)

Like, Twilight secretly loves romantic movies and books and stuff but all along he’s thinking “Oh I’ll never feel this ‘true love’ thing they’re talking about, ima SPY.” But then he meets Yor and it’s an immediate kick in the gut, fly off a cliff, swooning music when she walks in the room, I finally belong somewhere feeling. And in the story right now we’re seeing him go through the “Oh fuck no there’s no way this can’t be happening I can’t love her I’m supposed to love spying and the shadows and being alone forever”

I mean come on, this guy right here loves romance. He loves dates with his wife. He loves love. He is trying to create a world where children don’t cry and the world is at peace and everyone is happy and in love. Except himself. He’s the sacrifice.

This right here is Twilight indulging himself. Feeling that true love feeling and relishing in it, like soaking in the sun. But then he takes two giant steps back and distances himself from her, and shuts himself off from his family. They all suffer because of it. It’s like he’s torturing himself and unknowingly hurting her in the process.

I think what needs to happen in the story eventually is his acceptance. He’s in love with her, he loves his daughter. He’s allowed to keep them and openly love them forever. He deserves it.

#spy x family #twiyor #loid forger #anya forger #yor forger #come on twilight you can do it #you’re allowed to be happy #now I’m sad #thinking about this at 2am instead of sleeping #rambling

[oobbbear]

The fact that horse hoof is just one giant thumb haunts me everyday

#bearz rambling tag #I lay down #in ma cozy little bed #and brain says #hey #do ya still remember that bone fact #the horse one #I can’t sleep #I think about horse leg #just being a giant thumb #the mental image of #instead of hoof #they have just one big human finger #at the of their leg #I CANT sleep #my thoughts huants me #I’m scared

[chacolachao]

Something I've been thinking about since The Murder of Sonic... Where did that cake come from? I know he went and got it at the end but they stopped in a location they weren't scheduled to stop at, found a cake shop, and then bought it in a few seconds? Now, that's not the part that surprises me actually... It's the fact that the cake is customized. The kicker here is that the cake is flawless, doesn't even look rushed, AND its got a (presumably edible) image of Amy on it.

So there's a couple options here:

While on the train before getting murdered he gets on that computer that was in the back and rapid fire orders a cake from a bakery that maybe might be somewhere in the middle of their two destinations. (As this train is meant for fun events I assume it runs in a circle for this story**) He sends over an image of Amy too for edible printing. Then immediately after the train crashes he races to the bakery, wherever it may be, picks it up, and comes back with it. Definitely plausible, makes sense, though I'd have to check whether or not Shadow went for the computer room before Sonic could even get a chance to. **I don't remember if there was a specific destination

This dude gets himself murdered and immediately after the train crashes and everyone gets off, he races to the nearest bakery to pick up a premade cake. Along the way or once he gets there he sends them an image of Amy to print, using his hero clout to get it printed immediately skipping the queue. (Those things take like only a minute to print so it could work.) As he's waiting for it to print he decorates the cake. Roses could already be there but I'm assuming he wrote the words on the cake. He's the only one who could manage a rush job that well and we already know his muscle control is top-notch. Judging by his canonical signature below:

That's cursive baby, probably written quickly, but also perfectly. He could totally handle writing on a cake carefully. Photo prints, put on cake, race back.

One of these is more fun than the other and I'm too sleep addled to think it through any further.

#the murder of sonic the hedgehog #sonic #theory crafting instead of sleeping #someone ask the creators for me i know they linger #ramble

[911-on-abc]

Tommy Kinard listened to Buck say "I think this is an open line" and "That should be our motto, 'Who Cares?!'" in that helicopter and was like 'yeah... I want to suck that dude's cock'

#and he's so valid for that #bro's not a homosexual he's a himbosexual #tommy kinard #evan buckley #911 #911 abc #bucktommy #tevan #I need someone to install a virus on my computer and remotely shut it down so I can actually get some sleep instead of rambling on here

[s0apmactav1sh]

More knight!reader and king!price since Im sick atm so this is very self indulgant.

Cw: fluff and smut.

Thinking about the days where price gets sick, coming down with a cold, his nose blocked, throat completely dry, constant coughs he seems to be having and of course the headaches he just cant seem to shake. Theres not a single word spoken about the king being sick as it would only cause havoc within the kingdom as most would be worried about their poor kings health and wanting to bring gifts in hopes that he got better. But then theres you. His devoted knight and his lover laying underneath him allowing him to take your warmth from you since he's 'freezing' as he's told you.

Of course you dont believe that he is, since he ran up a temperature of 39.7° and he was hot to the touch but you would indulge in his little lies since he seemed so happy to be laying on your bare chest. The castle servents and guards however go about their days not coming near the kings chambers since he specifically requested that no one disturb him as he rested up and gained his strength back.

King!Price just expects you to dote on him, to make him feel small even though your not that much taller than him and by order of your king you do. Giving him loving kisses on the top of his head, rubbing his back soothingly when he complains of an ache there, holding a cold towel over his forehead to help with his temperature and helping him undress when he gives out again about being to warm now.

He cant be the only one naked, that be madness so like the obediant knight you are you undress after him and go back to laying as you once were only now the both of you are naked. And so after a few minute of mindless cuddling price starts fidgeting and twisting and turning saying hes only trying to get comfortable even though you can feel him subtlely grinding against your softened cock. But as a knight your not easily seduced. Even if it is your king whos trying to tempt you to bed him.

You who just does have it in you to let him grind against you, using your strenght to flip him onto his bath while hovering over him, the veins in your arms practically bulging out and price is drooling at the sight. His own cock was hard and dribbling a pathetic amount of precum just at the sight of you above him. And who are you to deny the whimpery little 'please' he lets out. Just like that his legs are thrown over your shoulders and your face is buried between his cheeks as you eat him out, using one hand to keep his hips steady and the other to finger his hole open to take your cock.

And by the time you deem him ready he's already finished his second orgams all because of your fingers pressing against his prostate and the way you so expertly ate him out like a man starved. But even with all the stretching he still feels like he's beinf split open of your cock. Each inch going into him having him whining and moaning for more. And once your finally fully inside of him its price who starts trying to move so soon which has you gripping his waist with a bruising grip he'd think you were about to weld him like you would your sword.

Prices hands are moved to your shoulders, his legs wrapped around your waist as you pound him into the soft mattress below you both. Each thrust sending mindblowing pleasure through him and you, his hole constantly clenching tighter around you as you do. His moans are nearly echoed off the walls with how loud he's gotten and you almost feel bad on the poor souls who do unfortunately pass by the room because hes just being so mouthy, begging and pleading for what your already giving him. Mindblowing pleasure. You dont think of your own pleasure just making him orgams as many time as he needs until he is shaking from any form of stimulation to his lower parts.

He's almost disappointed that you never came a small pout on his face even as you so graciously pull out and go draw him a bath adding in his expensive bath salts he likes so much. Even as you pick him up and bring him to the bath placing him so gently into the water before getting in behind him to wash him off. You even deny his offer of a handjob or a blowjob that he wants to give a thanks. But no, you clean off his chest and stomach from the semen he splattered all over himself massging any aread where it may be sore. You even help him get dressed, choosing more soft things for him to wear. And if it wasnt enough that you did all that you even changed the sheets on the bed so he wouldnt have to sleep in dirty ones.

Amd even after all that you still got in beside him to cuddle him once again mumbling out a small reason as to why your not deserving of pleasure because of the blood on your hands the thousands of lives youve taken all to protect the kingdom. He nearly gets out a word but the way your hands are making small circles on his back have him dozing off before he can convince you that you are deserving of pleasure. You dont sleep that night still watching over him like a gaurd should be able to do.

A knight like you would never know the word pleasure nor the word pain because you had lost to much and gained so little that they no longer mattered.

_

I dunno what this is either but yh count it as fluff count it as angst count it as whatever you want but yh this is mostly just something i wrote bc im sick and prolly wont write for a few days till im better. Sorry for the misspelt words but just ignore them anyways enjoy :)

@rodolfoparras

#fjords rambles #call of duty #male reader #dom male character #sub male character #harpy gaz #pheonix reader #my brain is fried #the things i do instead of sleeping #monster au #task force 141 #simon ghost riley #gaz garrick #kyle gaz x reader #john soap mactavish #captain john price #poly 141 #nsft

[anna-scribbles]

anyway can’t stop thinking about how emilie’s crypt is the same as adrien’s bedroom. the emotional heart of the narrative trapped and voiceless in a false display of life/safety. emilie’s artificial sunlight and adrien’s barred windows. everything is about them and they aren’t allowed to be part of any of it. they end the narrative the same way they began it: without any say in the matter

#i’m having a night. #something about in attempting to subvert gender roles doubling down on them instead #i’m going to sleep now #ml #ml s5 #anna rambles

[tei-to-tei]

December 14 - Spare Time

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | ...

#rottmnt #rise fanart #rise of the tmnt #rise raph #rise donnie #brains and brawn #they're sciencin' your honor #i love this duo so much even back in 2003 #“anyway journal” wise - i wanted to do so much today #like read fics and actually write again #but instead i woke up with a day-long migraine ;-; ended up just sleeping most of the day and drinking soup #i think i'm getting sick which sucks and staring at the screen just to doodle this hurt so bad #excedrin my love i need you to actually work again #whoops ramble over ok goodnight T___T #teidoodle #tei's dec23

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some fantasy traveler inventory details (like what they would carry in their bags), based on two of the recent costumes I did.. love finding random little scraps and items and putting them together lol

#it's obvious who's is who's since they match their outfits HOWEVER.. consider if they were switched lol #evil villain looking man carrying around pressed flowers in a cutesy lacy pouch #fantasy costume #what's in my bag #actualyl that would have been funny to make a video. I should make a video #I'm sure someone else has already done this #but like.. lifestyle vlogger type content however I'm dressed in fully costume as some weird elf or something #pulling things out of my bag and showing them to the camera and talking about how they're useful for whatever #but it's all fantasy scenarios and talking like it's very common #'and of course. i know it's a bit cliche #EVERY traveler has one of these. but you know. theyre just useful! thats why everyone has one!' *pulls out a completely unrecognizable item #thats like some weird fantasy world prop and doesn't even explain it because In-world it's normal and wouldnt need to be talked about* #'room tour' video and it's just like 'yeah I sleep on this mat under a bunch of trees uh.. over here by these rocks. at least right now. I #kind of wander around a bit. so' #Like a clothing haul but it's a potions shop haul or something and they ramble about some obscure drama in the potions community and how the #y hard to barter and steal and entire flock of sheep or something just to get one of them. etc. etc. #I could do ones for different characters too like. multiple people from different walks of life showing what they carry around with them. #just like this but more interview sort of vlog format instead of photos #This is where not having much money and not having my own house with land becomes an issue though #I think it would take you out of the illusion if the background was always the same. I can make small sets because there's one blank wall in #a room that it's easy to move all the stuff away from in front of and clear a spot and like hang up fabrics or whatever but still.. hmms #So one of those 'fun idea but dubious about handling the execution' things. also One Of Those Things where without looking it up you're 100% #sure it's already been done and you don't want to look weird since it's vaguely niche. Like if 100 people have done something it's fine but #if only like 3 other people have then you look weird maybe ghhjbj.. or only one other person gods forbid. looks even weirder potentially #Or do people not care about ''copying'' anymore?? idk. I'm not updated with the internet's changing culture. I just have a fear of accidenta #lly doing something like that and then people getting mad even though it's really just that I competely had no idea it had been done because #again.. I live under a rock and am unaware of everything lol. ANYWAY. also would require my face being on video which I don't like. Though I #would be in costume so that helps. I think to be fully comfortable I'd need light modifications to make my face look different. which isn't #hard but is more effort when it has to be translatable in multiple angles. ANYWAY. ghjbhj... Now I think it would be funny actually. maybe #one day. I haven't made any videos (aside from on the gameplay/sims channel) in a long long time actually. hmm'st

[steelthroat]

Ok, ok, ok- hear me out! The main trine of Seekers, but they're outliers and absolutely overpowered.

So, Starscream is immortal as usual. I mean it, he just cannot die. No matter how hard everyone (or himself) tries, he just doesn't die... or at least his Spark, and when I have the time, I'll elaborate and give him complications because yeah.

Thundercracker can control electricity, idk how idk why, but I need him to have a cooler power than just idk sonic booms. Let him live to his name. When there's a battle and there's a storm, I want him to be fkn overpowered. "Isn't it too much?" NO??? Just take a look at Trailbreaker or MEGATRON??? You can't stop me from giving my Boi cooler powers. Obviously, complications- but not now, now I need him to be cool and smile for the camera.

Now... now this one will sound crazy but! Skywarp. So, he can warp himself, now imagine him warping himself super fast at close distance. Not just fast, super fast, like for a VERY short amount of time it almost looks as if he cloned himself. Do you see where this is going? He can't do it for more than a few seconds or he's dead lol.

Now imagine you're a simple autobot on the battlefield, it starts raining, I mean like- a lor, very bad weather okay? Now you hear three jet-engines, and the sky is lit up by thunders.

Now you raise your head up to the sky and here they are. They're even worse than the tales that surround them. Thundercracker is redirecting thunders everywhere on the battlefield, Starscream is on a killing rampage and nothing is stopping him and then Skywarp starts diving towards you and suddenly there are like... 5 of them who shoot in your direction before becoming one once again.

You're fucked. You're all absolutely fucked.

#transformers #maccadam #steel rambles #possible fanfic idea #thundercracker #starscream #skywarp #this worked better as an animation in my head #I swear the moment I learn how to animate things is over #I am gonna do it #I won't sleep at night until I make this thing a reality #this is what I think of instead of studying #well enough procrastination for today Manzoni is waiting for me #maccadams

[enden-k]

living for these two comments bc u get it !!!!!!!

the cravings doodle isnt just about haitham kaveh sexy charged near kiss moment, what i wanted to draw (and hope i could convey even if its just a short thing) is my usual favorite thing ajdnd haitham being in love with kaveh for so long ever since they met in the akademiya, just carrying and living with these feelings all silently (you know me and how much i love this. i draw yearning pining haitham often enough atp ahdjsbd) and treating him with care

the moment hes all vulnerable and tired from the change of his workload and he returns to their home to see kaveh sleeping peacefully in the main room, cuddling with his clothing, its like all his feelings and affection and craving for kaveh pour out, his control slipping due to his exhaustion and he almost, almost gives in to his wants - and then immediately catches himself, refusing to just take what he wants, yearns for all these years even though he just could

(not knowing kaveh would happily let him)

despite his usual teasing and blunt behavior towards kaveh, he would never harm him or do smth to him without his consent. his love to him makes him want to give in and kiss him. his love to him also makes him restrain himself

(and besides that, he wants kaveh conscious and aware of it when they have their first kiss, if he returns his feelings (which ofc he does) 💚)

#i should sleep instead of babbling about this but it makes me happy ppl get exactly this yes !!! #this is what it is #rambles #tbd

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

no ok @funonion001 you've made me So fucking unwell over this it needs its own post

bc i also used to be like "ah, the neighborhood's a panopticon and Home is the 'warden'" but recent updates & general things ive read changed my outlook entirely. cause like... if Home (the town) was a panopticon, then Home (the house) should be at the 'head' of it all, where they can view everything. but Home can't view everything directly - half the buildings are behind it.

however. i don't think the panopticon thing is entirely wrong, either. there's some truth in it? i'm pretty sure that the neighborhood is Home. it's like Home is the brain/eyes/heart, and everything else are nerve endings. there's this one piece of livestream trivia that i think of, in relation to Housewarming: "...everyone believes their houses are alive in their own special way". what if this is kind of literal? all of the buildings are extensions of Home, or Home is just the core of it all. one big living, breathing neighborhood. Home might not be able to see it all, but he might be able to feel it

and then yeah from the more abstract side of things - your phrasing of "all the other houses circle home" made me put my head in my hands. because there Are a lot of conclusions/interpretations of all of that. also that sentence makes me picture a pack of wolves circling in on a kill, which is. hng.

Home is caged in. Home is surrounded. Home is always being watched. Home is never not alone. everything leads back Home. Home is holding it all together.

and like... it reminds me of Clown once mentioning (loosely, im going off of memory here whose reliability is tenuous on a good day) that part of WH's story relates to the autistic experience / when does a home become a house / will your neighbors treat you differently once they see the authentic you. and that, at least to me and one of my experiences, relates to a feeling of being watched/judged every time i leave my house. or even when i'm by an open window - everywhere i can be Seen, it feels like everyone is keeping one eye on me. existing in public spaces feels like a performance. i'm hyper aware of every single movement i make and it makes me feel so inauthentic and fake and alien and its So So stressful/uncomfortable.

so that pov + Home (and by extension, Wally since they're kinda one in the same) = well! all of the above! can Wally ever relax outside of Home's four walls? they're all looking at him. the entire neighborhood surrounds him - he can't go anywhere without running into them (the buildings and the neighbors). there's no escaping their watch and/or judgement. it's as if Wally and Home are under constant surveillance, or at least it feels like it - which is half the problem. or it's the entire problem? the fear of possibility, not reality.

and then for a different (but also connected for obvi reasons) interpretation - Home and Wally are alone. they are Singular in the neighborhood. everyone else is next to each other, even the stores are paired. but Home stands alone in the middle of it all. which directly relates to Wally and Home being aware - and also together in whatever state the neighborhood is in at the time of the whrp's creation. in a town of neighbors, Home & Wally have none. and that can connect them being at the center of it all, holding their world together - or breaking it apart

also: on the neighborhood map, the path only ends at Home. it's a loop except for the bit leading up to Home's doorstep. where Howdy's Place & Eddie's Post Office are the path widens into one huge circle with no end. Walk the circuit, end up at Home. walk the entire perimeter, and you go nowhere. there isn't a path out, the path doesn't end at any of the buildings except Home. there's something in that, i think.

there's more in my brain but i can't quite reach it...

#BUT YEAH THANKS FOR MAKING ME ILL IM. WAILING #your tags are always a delight #i See and Appreciate them! thank you! #if you want to rb with your own thoughts instead of me bouncing off your tags #PLEASE do so! i want to know your interpretations! #i miss things a lot! my brain is a bit too literal! Widen My Horizons! #rambles from the bog #homebogging #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #hng its 2 am gotta sleep but this is gonna be on the braintisserie for a While

[sleep-nurse]

does anyone else's jaw always crack/pop everytime you open it slightly wide. my brother keeps calling me a crocodile

#sunflower rambles #i've been having this for my entire life #i remember going to check because my gums were hurting last year #(i had a wisdom tooth coming out that i later got removed) #and literally 3 doctors pointed out how my jaw tends to pop and get stuck easily #instead of. yknow. checking that fucking wisdom tooth #is this not normal #i'm literally a cryptid i can pop my jaw constantly and twist my tongue and do a wave with my hands #that i scare my classmates with everytime. from elementary to middle to high school #they always say i have no bones #also i sleep like a dead dinosaur

[lemonysnicket]

my number one pet peeve in the entire world is that whenever you see the three ages of women on pinterest or in print shops its always this crop or its always some sort of crop that only includes the young woman and the baby and it always excludes the old woman and it makes me angry beyond words because they don't Get it. the cropped part everyone loves is loved for a reason because its beautiful and tender beyond words but by excluding the whole piece these prints and reposts completely change the feeling of the piece and remove all of the weight and the meaningful parts of it. makes me crazy.

the old woman takes the piece from another tender depiction of colorful love in klimts work to this quietly devastating monument to womanhood. the cropped version removed the old woman’s grief as she hides her face and it ignores the painstaking almost grotesque level of detail on every wrinkle next to the fresh faced mother and child. it ignores the absolute agony of feeling like the old woman sees the younger two as what she once was or wishes she still could be vs also feeling like they are all the same they are all the one woman. she was once that baby she was once that mother and now she is scorned and rejected and shunned and labeled ugly and seen as something unlovable. but she is all of them at once they are all one and they are all woman. and the disproportionate amount of empty space around the three women so close together makes them feel like one organism and adds so much to the piece. it’s not bright colors or intricate patterns like other klimts, it’s this hollow space, gilded and gorgeous but ultimately gray and expansive, that makes the entire work feel so much more poignant. the entire piece makes me want to cry in a thousand different ways, out of love for each of the women. but not just for the younger two. and that’s what bothers me so much about this dumb trend where people prefer the sightly crop of the beautiful lady and her baby. there are plenty of klimt pieces of gorgeous women. why not just use one of those? and i get it because the depiction of motherhood is so tender and joyful and beautiful. but it’s also not the entire story of the piece! goes insane and eats gravel. i dream of seeing this painting in person some day

#quill rambles instead of going to sleep apparently

[flamingredanon]

*peeks out of the void with a tiny AU idea that involves smashing two routes together*

So you know the Presumed Dead route where Henry just barely gets out of the crashed truck before everyone's favorite warden of leg day kicks it off the cliff?

What if Henry wasn't that lucky and wasn't able to get out in time for whatever reason, or he did get out but the cliff he chose was just close enough for the falling truck to smack him down into the ocean?

And what if Dr V still found Henry floating in the ocean and decided to bring him back with the power of unethical science like in Revenged, but now Henry wouldn't be pissed waking up from betrayal since the only thing that betrayed him was a metal truck.

Just how much different routes like Toppat 4 Life or Valiant Hero might be with Henry being a cyborg.

#mod lizzy rambles instead of sleeping #thsc #i know there is also SSR and I think LNE that follows PD but my brain went to the other two first #might do something with a t4l version of this #but the idea is open for anyone to use or make their own variants #*rolls back into the void for bed*

[galactic-rhea]

Did you have any foreknowledge that Anakin would become Darth Vader? I feel like even if you had Revenge of the Sith must have been quite an experience

Lmao I didn't know that until I came across this gif here in tumblr:

'oh damn'

That said, because of that gif, I did know he was going to be one of the most iconic and recognizeable villains of cinema by the time I started to watch the movies. But, my knowledge of what would happen was very, very narrow, I was very in the dark about it lol

Is easier to point out the things that I knew when starting the movies than the ones I didn't:

-He would lose his limbs (I did not know how, I didn't know he literally burned. And I only knew that he loses his limbs because my partner )

-He kills kids (and that I knew just because a meme that my hubby had to explain to me, but I didn't know the circumstances. In fact, what I pictured was much worse LOL)

-He kills(? Padmé (I asked my hubby if he and Padmé divorced, and he just decided to throw that spoiler at me like "no, he kills her accidentally" without further context and I was like...oh woah okay...I...generally don't like villains that kill their wives but i'll still check that out)

-Samuel L. Jackson is in these movies! :D

-HE IS LUKE'S FATHER OMG OMG AND IS TWINS OMG LEIA?? ...Wait don't Leia and Luke kiss- Oh okay

And sufficient to say: ROTS still destroyed me emotionally, what a trip. But I had a blast watching these movies, and it was also a blast watching the Original Trilogy after that! I was so, so stunned about the end of ROTJ, because seriously I always thought Luke kills Vader even when my interest on SW was below zero.

And no, I still don't know how at 24 i managed to know so little about Star Wars SJNKJNSDF

What I thought would happen in these movies was that my guy here was going to be just this cool merciless villain from about the get-go and we would just met him as an adult already. Like, he would be this dark jedi working by himself ruining the order from the inside, going into murders on weekends and blame someone else for fun, the war would be his doing, and being creepy towards everyone included his wife was probably his hobby, idk, you get it, your basic 'cool lonely villain', like maybe a Sauron of sorts.

And then George Lucas tackled me with... this

Hey, I'm not complaining.

My hiperfixation on Anakin and Star Wars helped me a lot with my depression, truth be told!

#thanks for the ask! #ask #star wars #sw #anakin skywalker #rambling #silly posting #i am so so so so so so grateful that instead of an edgy cool villain i ended with a character so deeply traumatized and troubled #that i can relate he's also very neurodivergent and queer coded to me in a way which also makes him even more relatable to me aha! #i don't go into murderous reality breakdowns but the awful levels of stress and a bad unbringing and not sleeping at all hey i get it boy #sw rots #revenge of the sith #prequel trilogy #original trilogy