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scripttorture · 5 years

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H! Do you know of any survivor accounts that focus on recovery? A big part of the story I'm writing happens after the main character is rescued from torture, and I want to make sure I don't downplay the effect it had on him and portray his recovery realistically. I'm mainly interested in a timeframe for reintegration/being able to go back to a "normal" life. If it's relevant, he is imprisoned and tortured (mostly beatings, stress positions, starvation and sleep deprivation) for about a month.

I’m sorry this one took so long. My best guess (and it is a guess) is somewhere in the range of 3-10 years. The rest of the answer goes into my reasoning, factors that typically effect recovery and things I’ve found helpful when I’m trying to write this sort of plot.

From the sounds of it I think the most useful thing would be someone’s diary, but I don’t think there is actually a published diary covering the period immediately after a survivor was released for months and years afterwards.

Survivor’s accounts often talk about recovery but- the thing is that isn’t usually why they make their experiences public so that often doesn’t end up being the focus.

Alleg talks about recovery but his aim in publishing his memoirs was demanding the French authorities stopped torturing people in Algeria. Similarly people like ‘Donny the Punk’ Donaldson and Nadia Murad Basee Taha talked about their experiences to highlight abuses that were taking place on a wide scale.

And that is often the reason people make their experiences public: to raise awareness, to draw attention, to demand change.

By its nature that kind of discussion tends to make recovery secondary.

It’s also worth noting that most survivors write about what happened to them a significant period of time after it actually happened. I believe there are some Inquisition era diaries that recount the period a victim was held for, but they’re rare and I think most of the authors were killed.

Monroe is interested in recovery but it’s recovery in a rather broader sense. It’s less about what people can do when and instead about the more nebulous idea of holding on to humanity and being able to have faith in other people. Her focus is war but this isn’t the sole focus of the book.

I do recommend her book, A Darkling Plain, generally. It’s most constructed of interviews her students took. Their instructions were to find someone who had lived through- Monroe calls it ‘political upheaval’, which sounds like a euphemism when she goes on to list war, genocide, violent revolution and oppressive regimes as her examples. The students were taught Institutional Review Board procedures and interviewed a survivor about their experience.

One of the things I think is… enlightening about the approach is that emphasises how close we all are to survivors. We all know someone even if we don’t know the details of what they lived through. I think it’s easy to forget that sometimes.

The interviews are very much led by the survivors. They’re generally looking back on experiences that happened years or decades ago. They go into how an experience changed the survivor, how it effected their outlook on life and whether/how they moved on.

I believe you’d find it helpful but I don’t think it necessarily answers the more precise questions that effect writing. When someone could return to a job, when someone might be ready for a relationship, how they’d interact in the community.

Based on modern accounts of the living conditions survivors find themselves in- I think the question of when people can comfortably do things is difficult because survivors are often put in a position where they’re either forced to do something before they’re comfortable with it or they’re actively prevented from doing it when they want to.

Let me try to explain that with an example. A lot of survivors now are in refugee camps. A person’s ability to find work will vary depending on the camp, the country and the individual’s legal status.

In some situations people in the camps are given very little support. In which case if the survivor doesn’t find some kind of work they might end up starving. In other situations a survivor’s immigration status might mean it’s illegal for them to work. Earning a wage can also be used as a reason to cut charitable or governmental support. Which can be a problem if the survivor is only capable of working occasionally and needs a steady source of income to keep them alive between the periods where they can work.

The environment these people are in can force them into work when it isn’t healthy for them or it can prevent them from working when having a job would help.

Environmental factors like these can obscure individual choice.

Generally I’d encourage you to think about environmental factors and how they could effect the character’s recovery. Survivor’s still have bills to pay and they might be surrounded by people who think working or going back to a mainstream school/university would be ‘good for them’.

Taking away environmental pressures there’s still a question of the character’s drive and motivation. A lot of people want to go back to doing things that are important to them. They want to recapture a sense of normality.

A character who feels very strongly about their job and is highly dedicated is more likely to be back at work quickly whether that is healthy for them or not. A medic who has built their identity around helping others is much more likely to be back at work after three months then someone who doesn’t identify with their job.

This does not necessarily mean the medic would be doing a good job or should be back at work. People do have a tendency to throw themselves back into tasks they identify strongly with.

With work there’s also, potentially, an aspect of physical recovery to consider. A character who has survived a suspension torture, with the resulting nerve damage, may not be able to go back to being a pianist. At least not without a considerable period of time adapting to their disability.

Even if a character is still able to do their job without adaptions and feels strongly about it they probably won’t be up to handling much stress or their previous workload. This does not necessarily stop people from trying.

Whether a character identifies strongly with their job or not they might feel they ‘should’ be doing some form of work. And work has the potential to be extremely helpful during a mental health crisis. It can provide routine, a reason to get up when that feels impossible. A point of stability and a place of relative safety.

Of course the flip side is it can also become a huge source of additional stress and pressure. Which it is depends on the job, the survivor, the working environment, the support (or not) of colleagues and the adaptions in place to support the survivor.

Reintegrating into the community is also complicated by factors that have very little to do with the survivor character or their symptoms.

A lot of communities reject survivors. Child soldiers and victims of rape (especially if it resulted in pregnancy) are often portrayed as traitors who have taken the ‘side’ of their abuser.

This can apply to torture survivors too. If the dominant culture sees torture as a way of obtaining accurate information (this isn’t possible) then the assumption is often that the survivor must have ‘betrayed’ the community. People also tend to assume that if someone was arrested or otherwise targetted for torture they must have been guilty of something.

If the survivor was subjected to ‘clean’ (non-scarring) tortures then- well then people usually assume that the survivor is lying and they weren’t tortured. From the sounds of things all the tortures your character survives are clean.

These factors often work in tandem and make it impossible for survivors to feel welcome in their community. That isolation and lack of support has a huge negative effect on recovery. And because it’s so rare that survivors don’t have to deal with these additional stressors it’s difficult to estimate what recovery looks like without them.

Anecdotally a lot of survivors report that support from their families and from religious institutions was incredibly important to them.

I feel like a lot of this comes down to what a ‘normal’ life means.

Because life for this character probably wouldn’t be quite like it was before. But that doesn’t mean it wouldn’t look normal.

Perhaps he wouldn’t be able to cope with the stress, pressure or uncertainty of his previous job. But that doesn’t mean he couldn’t work. Perhaps he’d struggle to do things he previously enjoyed, but that doesn’t mean he couldn’t find other hobbies.

I’m sorry that I can’t provide an accurate, statistically supported timeframe. I hope that I can describe a helpful way of approaching the problem as a writer-

It’s unlikely that the character will be able to fix everything at once. He might be able to get a ‘normal’ working routine before he has a ‘normal’ social life, for instance. Or vice versa. I’d suggest splitting up the different aspects of his life that have been effected and thinking about them separately.

You can categorise things in a way that makes the most sense for you. I’m outlining the way I would do it as an example, but if my categories don’t make sense for your story then add or remove things as you see fit.

I’d split it up into: Work, Social life, Family life, Romantic/Sexual relationships (if applicable), Communal life and Ritual (ie engagement with wider cultural activities, such as religious services, may pole dancing, getting pissed at the solstice or anything else that’s a big event).

I’d try to think about them separately and think about which area is the biggest priority for the character. I’m assuming ‘work’ comes first for the rest of the example because survivors still have bills to pay. I’m also assuming the character has enough support and stability to recover at his own pace; that the environment isn’t pressured and his environment isn’t adversely effecting his recovery.

So I would start with the symptoms and the way they manifest.

If he has anxiety or hypervigilance, what kind of situations set that off? For instance if his symptoms are triggered by crowds and loud noises then he might not be able to work in a popular night club any more.

If his ideas of ‘normal’ and his goals revolve around doing that particular job again then his recovery and returning to work would take longer. It could take several years. If his personality/experience means his goals are more flexible then he might be able to find another career that provides a less triggering environment and includes something he liked about his previous job. In that case he might be working regularly again in six months or so. Possibly less.

That could then provide enough stability/routine to let him find a balance in other areas of his life.

If he has insomnia then trying to fit his life into a regular 9-5 schedule might be more stressful then it’s worth. Finding work that lets him be flexible about when he comes in, working from home or part time or free lance- could mean a speedier return to something like ‘normal’.

Once I have some ideas about one aspect I’d take a look at the others and the wider plot. I’d think about whether there’s anything going on in the other categories, the plot or with the other characters that could impact on the survivor’s recovery.

When I’m looking across the different categories I’m also on the look out for ways I can use them to feed back into the plot.

So, if I stick with the night club example, perhaps this character has now started a job at a recording studio because this lets him indulge a passion for music with less crowds. And may be I can use that change in environment to introduce him to other characters. May be Drama at the night club is still effecting him through his social circle. May be working somewhere different means he’s unaware of the Drama and that aspect of the plot is going to take him by surprise.

Stress from the different categories will feed into how he’s doing overall and so will positive things like stability and support. Some of the aspects of the character’s life are likely to look ‘normal’ before others.

My best guess for reasonable time frames based on what I’ve read is something in the region of 3-10 years. But that’s taking everything into account across all those categories.

In the best possible circumstances your character could have one aspect of his life looking normal within a year, possibly even as short a time frame as six months. But that assumes an unusual level of support, financial independence, access to treatment and- the internal flexibility to accept a normal that’s distinct to their pre-torture experience. Which could mean a different job, or a different way of socialising or a different degree of engagement with the community.

Generally- there’s a lot lacking in the environment survivors find themselves in. There’s lack of support from family, friends and wider community, if not outright rejection. There’s a lack of accessible, specialist medical care. There’s a lack of safe housing and financial support.

My impression is that a period of years is closer to reality for most people. But we’re talking about fiction and you can choose to make your world better then the one we inhabit.

This kind of recovery isn’t linear. People do backtrack. Even people who are ‘better’ have bad days. Mostly- it’s about showing slow improvement over time and how frustrating slow improvement can be from the inside.

I hope that helps. :)

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thel3tterm · 5 years

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5 please

Sorry, its been a while since I got this ask, so I’m assuming its for this! On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?Answering this for Proto! Vials of programming fluids, packets of spare needles, seeds, jerky, keys, at least one knife. Thank you so much! Sorry it took me so long hahaha.

#ask #ask meme #ask game #realkevinday

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pitofghosts · 5 years

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Saoirse!!! (Please)

Yes absoLUTELY.

Do you love/hate/don’t feel strongly about this character?

I love Saoirse. With my whole heart. He’s the sweetest most caring thing to ever walk the earth and no one deserves him. He’s Too Good.

What’s your favorite trait of this character?

That he wants to make everyone happy.

What’s your favorite moment/event involving this character?

Oooh.... there’s lots. I think him teaching Kai Fen how to skate is a really good one. Or the time Heila and Tamar kept encouraging him to drink As Much Coffee As Possible and he kept chugging it back. Or when Kai Fen and Heila were learning how to dance and he just danced with a mannequin torso because he already knew how. OR when Heila taught him how to skin a rabbit and he got extremely grossed out.

I could keep going. There’s a lot of good Saoirse moments.

If you could have one power/attribute/etc. of this character, what would it be?

Saoirse please give me your musical talents. Please. PLEASE.

Have you ever pictured this character naked?

Kind of? Not for any explicit reasons but when I draw I tend to picture people naked first and then put the clothes on top after. I don’t visualize genitals though, just fat deposits and such.

When did you fall in love/hate with this character? I you don’t have any strong feelings toward them, why not?

I loved him right away, but I fell even more in love when I realized how much he loves Vwos. He’s so passionate about the Echyet Vis, and he adores his mother so much... He’s such a good boy.

Who’s your OTP for this character?

Saoirse x Knowing his own self worth as a person.

(((Saoirse x Kai Fen, of course.)))

#Thank! You!#afits #saoirse #realkevinday

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gideonaceleigh · 5 years

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03, 09 and 10 for the OC ask game please

03 what does your OC enjoy doing on their free tine? Iris loves to read! Cat spends time with her pet dragon Spoons and her plants! Jamal collects rocks, Talis explores whatever databases she has access to.

09 what job would your OC absolutely never do? At this point there isn’t much Iris wouldn’t do, she’s just trying to survive. Talis wants to explore anything and everything so she’s eager to try anything. Cat refuses to do anything not related to bossing people around my type-A queen. Jamal is completely unable to focus on anything he’s not interested in. Could he try to do something else? Yes. Would it end well? ahaha no.

10 does your OC believe in the afterlife? Cat 100% does. She’s not necessarily /religious/ (maybe? I haven’t delved far enough into that potential aspect of the galaxy). Iris is very conflicted, he mothers heritage (the Kalindorians) are very spiritual and believe in an elaborate after life, but she’s spent most of her life struggling to accept that aspect of herself. Jamal doesn’t really spend a lot of time thinking about such philosophical things. Talis is an AI, ‘death’ to her is a whole other can of worms.

#counting stars wip #writblr #realkevinday #thanks!! <3 #this was so much fun!!

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jesvisfarovche · 5 years

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Victor Hugo please

Victor Hugo: Do you believe in love at first sight?

I don't. I think true love develops over time, when people really get to know and understand each other. Love is a deep and complicated feeling, so one sight isn't enough.

I do believe that one sight is enough to feel attraction to someone. And that attraction can develop into something lasting and meaningful over time.

Thanks for asking 💜

#asks #realkevinday

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aroacevaljean · 5 years

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tagged by @ahobbitinthetardis thank you!!!

rules: bold the ones that are true, and tag 15 people

APPEARANCE: I’m over 5’5” // I wear glasses/contacts // I have blonde hair// I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings // I have at least one tattoo // I have blue eyes // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup// I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas // I wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS: I play a sport // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to tv shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during school or work breaks // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS: I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush // I have a best friend I have known for ten years // my parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // I have a long distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS: I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sun rise// I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching// I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colours // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favorite season

MISCELLANEOUS: I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick-shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multi ethnic // I am a redhead // I own at least three dogs

Tag: @broken-bits-of-dreams @aropossum @alicedraws-kostyalevin @artistic-old-soul @realkevinday @glitter-and-gcld @hqdestown @banderphucc @sneez @24601vjavert @jesvisfarovche @kcrabb88 @fanfeline @jeremystollemyheart @had-just-ten-hours-training

#ok i haven't driven stick shift in forever but i learned it so i could probably still do it if i tried #my post

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jespersimp · 5 years

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!!!!

(@realkevinday)

#my face

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littlespoonevan · 7 years

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hey update: i just finished reading and we'll be running AGAIN and i still love it! have you/would you ever write a cute lil snippet about the squads reaction to the last part of the fic w/neil's tweet & pic? and like the 'irl' reaction with him and andrew or maybe them interacting on the plane afterwards?

ahh thank you so, so much, bud!!!! ok i haven’t written andreil in literal months so i’m really rusty so pls be nice asdkjfahdsk spoilers for And We’ll Be Running obviously. so don’t read if you haven’t read that!!!

i hope you like it

Neil presses send on the tweet right before they takeoff, expecting the majority of the Monsters and Upperclassmen to already haveturned their phones to airplane mode – and delaying their inevitable freak outfor at least twelve hours. What he doesn’t expect is for Andrew’s phone to buzzand light up where it’s sitting in his lap.

Neil glances down at the sound, raising an eyebrow atthe sight of his own tweet appearing on the screen.

“Do you have my notifications turned on?” he asks,trying and failing to keep the delight out of his voice.

Andrew slants a glance at him, managing to lookunimpressed even while his right hand is still holding Neil’s in a death grip.

“How else am I supposed to keep track of all thedumbass things you say to hold over you later?”

Neil grins, nodding to the phone in Andrew’s lap. “Youcan hold this one over me if you want.”

Andrew narrows his eyes, picking up the phone withhis free hand and examining the screen for a few seconds before giving Neilbored expression. “You’re getting sentimental, Josten.”

“Maybe I was just telling them the name of my newsong,” Neil quips, idly wondering if the lyrics on Andrew’s palm havetransferred to his own with how long they’ve been holding hands.

Andrew rolls his eyes. “Maybe you should stop beingso obvious.”

“Maybe you should stop holding my hand then.”

That makes Andrew pause and Neil watches the way hisgaze flits from Neil’s face to their joined hands on the armrest. “You held myhand first,” he responds finally, looking away from Neil to stare out thewindow and effectively ending the conversation.

Neil just smiles to himself, brushing his thumb overthe back of Andrew’s hand.

He doesn’t let go.

Andrew doesn’t either.

Later, when he and Andrew are on a hotel roof inPortugal and Neil finally remembers to turn his phone off airplane mode he can’tsay he’s all that surprised by the string of notifications that appear on hislockscreen.

@NickyOffical: yoU TWO ARE SO IN LOVE OH MY G ODASDKJFHSAKJFHASKJFH

@aaron_minyard: this is gross

@WildDan: get your boy, Josten ;)

@AllisonReynolds: nice aesthetic, 9/10. You’relearning

@mattboydofficial: that’s so fucking cute oh mygoddddd

@Renee_Walker: oh neil, this is so lovely!!!!

@RealKevinDay: shouldn’t you be rehearsing?

“Are they done being invested in our relationship?”Andrew asks disinterestedly beside him, flicking away the end of his cigarettewhen Neil turns to look at him.

“You just called this a relationship,” Neil replies,and he sounds dumbstruck and he knows it. He doesn’t really care though. He’smostly trying to stop himself from smiling so wide.

“I’ll be calling you something else in a minute,”Andrew retorts.

“You like me,” Neil says with a smirk and Andrewsighs.

“I would’ve thought that much would be obvious bynow.”

And yes, he supposed it is. That doesn’t stop it fromnearly bowling Neil over every time Andrew even tacitly admits it out loudthough.

Andrew huffs when Neil doesn’t respond, fingerscatching in Neil’s t-shirt and dragging him in for a firm kiss. He lets go whenhe pulls back but it’s only to slide his hand into Neil’s instead.

Neil ducks his head to hide his smile and accepts acigarette when Andrew offers it to him.

@ajminyard: I like you.

#andreil #andrew minyard #neil josten #the foxhole court #aftg #my fics #band au #killslay #asks

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pitofghosts · 5 years

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35, 36 and 38 for Kai Fen please! (all of the questions probably make zero sense in the actual setting but like imagine a modern AU or sth)

Yesss modern AU time.

(Also kudos for sending me something that made me realize just how much I don’t watch movies. Geez. This was so hard to answer!)

35. what do they tell people their favourite film is?

Probably Lawrence of Arabia. It’s old (Kai Fen is the type of go “I’m not like OTHER kids my age” lmao what a little shit), long, kiiind of pretentious, and features war and politics. It’s right up his alley.

36. is this what it actually is?

The kid loves V for Vendetta and The Mask of Zorro, but he doesn’t think of them as his favourites even though they absolutely are. He won’t even admit it to himSELF.

38. who’s their favourite harry potter character?

Keep in mind that I have:

only read the first book, once, when I was fifteen, and I hardly remember it

only seen the first few movies in bits and pieces here and there

But I think he’d really like Hermoine. She’s dedicated and driven, and she works hard. She also isn’t afraid to stand up for herself!

He’d like Harry, too, though. I think he’d relate to him the most out of the main cast.

#Tysm for the ask #but geez were these hard to answer #Kai Fen #realkevinday

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gideonaceleigh · 5 years

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8, 14, 19, 26 and 27 for the WIP writing asks thing please

8. When creating the characters for your WIP, what came first to you? Personality! It’s one of my favorite parts of writing. For Talis is was her eccentricity, Iris is unpredictable/unreliable, Cat’s a little more reserved (in public at least).

14. Tell us about an upcoming scene in your WIP, that you’re excited about. I’m about to get the final scenes with a pretty decent fight *eye emoji* muurrddeerr time!!

19. Do you know how your story ends before you start writing? ahahaahhahhahahahahahahha no.

26. What is the worst writing advice in your opinion? Any advice that is taken to an extreme ala only using said ever (or never using said lol)

27. Five years from now, where do you see yourself as a writer? I’d like to be published! Not necessarily the most famous or well-known but I’d love to hold the physical manifestation of my book in my hands!!

#counting stars wip #writblr #realkevinday #thank you!! <3

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pitofghosts · 5 years

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Stuff about Saoirse

@realkevinday’s influence

-I’m just making it canon now that HE doesn’t know what his gender is because I don’t know what his gender is. There’s a distinct “third gender” in Vwos and he isn’t sure between that and boy. He or they pronouns but usually he.

-He isn’t religious at ALL and isn’t even sure if the gods are real? He really just doesn’t think about it very much. He thinks Isayu could very possibly just be some woman kept looking young by Yshtran healers.

-His hair is so pretty and he really loves it when people touch it. He also likes touching other people’s hair!

-He’s bi and when he’s with girls he always wants to be the little spoon and just Be Held By Them and he LOVES it when girls are taller than him

-He’s the opposite with boys. He Wants To Hold. Big spoon Saoirse time.

-Is there an instrument this dude CANT play? He’s mediocre at reading music, although that’s not much of a problem. Folk music like he plays uses more mini diagrams with count measures than standardized bars and tabs

-His first instrument was a woodwind but he much prefers strings because he thinks his voice is pretty and likes to sing along. His favourite is violin! His grandmother sent him one from Yshtral. He’s never met her but they write letters.

-He’s the type to throw himself from relationship to relationship and never really stop for a break in between. He just wants someone to love him.

-His mom never told him what his dad did other than saying “We don’t talk about him.” He tries not to think about it but he really does want to know. It’s killing him. He just pretends he’s okay with it.

-He has an older sister, Peigin, who lives with his father. He’s only met her twice. It was awkward both times.

-Likewise, he’s only met his dad twice. That was even more awkward.

-Hes very close with his mom but he wishes she was more involved in his life. He knows she loves her but sometimes she just feels so distant. Her “he’ll figure it out” approach feels very freeing sometimes, but he also sometimes wishes she’d just tell him no for once. He wishes he knew where the line was drawn. What he could do for it to be too much.

-He’s really good at first aid! And he might not be blessed but he knows a lot of the rules and tricks for Yshtra’s blessing. This makes him take on sort of a mentor role for Heila.

-Speaking of Heila, she teaches him a lot about Yshtral. Gorra is different in a lot of ways, but some traditions never change. Saoirse is really disconnected from his Yshtran heritage.

-He and Heila reach peak dumbass whenever they’re without Kai Fen. They both like to make jokes and they’re both partiers who live in the moment. Decision making skills go down 10000% when it’s just the two of them

-He has very specific and nuanced opinions on politics. He’s usually the first one reading the newspaper.

-His favourites in politics are, of course, President Kolina Isanov. He was ECSTATIC when he learnt her former right hand man, Arif Irivani, was going back into politics.

-When he met Arif he gushed over him and told him all he’d read about him, got stuttery and embarrassed and actually BLUSHED (Saoirse Minnet! Blushing!!! What!!!) because this IS him. He already KNOWS all of this cool stuff. He DID all this cool stuff!!! AA!!!

-He, Kamkim, and Pelageya grew up together. The three of them were childhood friends! Kamkim and Pelageya both went off to be responders. Saoirse, ever the pacifist, did not.

-He snores. A lot.

-Very cuddly too

-That combination can be kind of annoying.

-He used to be more confident about his body but he put on some weight after his mom went to Linast because he got depressed, and Pelageya chastised him for it a lot and now he’s kind of insecure :( He’s good at hiding it though.

-He swore an oath to a dying man that he wouldn’t willingly commit harm. He was like, six or seven years old. Civil wars are fun.

-He likes coffee. No one should ever let him have coffee.

-Almost always has a flask on him. Can someone please take the alcohol from him? He’s sixteen!

-Hes practically made of pockets. Lots of snacks in there!

-Simultaneously a good and bad influence on anyone he meets. He’s fairly emotionally intelligent and expresses kindness naturally, but he can sometimes pressure people into situations they aren’t comfortable in because HE thinks they’re fun, and that the person is just shy and needs to loosen up

-He likes the idea of being a traveling musician who is rewarded with luxury for his skills, even though he knows that for one person to have luxury and riches, other people have to be poor. He feels a lot of guilt for his dreams and morals not matching up.

-Looks after people when they’re hungover because he doesn’t get them that badly

-Knows that it’s obvious he has a crush on Kai Fen. He has never been good st being subtle. He doesn’t WANT to be subtle.

-Kind of possessive in a relationship? He’s a bit of the jealous type.

-Bad at expressing his negative emotions properly. Especially bad at telling people when they’ve hurt him.

-Is jealous of Kai Fen’s ability to express his anger so easily

-Wishes Heila would open up to him more. He worries about her

-Just wants to see people smile

-A really good kid I love him so much

-Everyone please love him he’s so good

#I got a burst of energy and knew I wouldnt be abke to sleep if I didnt write this #Saoirse

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