#she didn't because it wasn't so easy

[iwasbored777]

Love learning new things just like the other day someone said that, apparently, in order to lean on Miles' shoulder Gwen had to use extra strength and concentration cuz it's already hard to sit upside down and she made it even more difficult by balancing her weight enough to lean her upper body towards another person and it made me think of how she didn't hold hands with him which was way easier to do in that position but she felt so bad that she rejected him that she said "fuck gravity he needs to know that I care. I already fell for him I might as well fall down too"

#love gwen's policy being like i can't be with you but i just want you to know that you mean the world to me #even if i never say that and if you don't think so you do #honestly this world is so messed up that it's hard to open up even when you want to even when she could in itsv unlike here #she didn't because it wasn't so easy #but i love that she didn't cuz her entire character was making friends again not making boyfriends #and i was happy to see that despite the chemistry and being so adorable they remained friends #and they knew each other for few days it was too quick #and his uncle just died #and peter was right there lol they couldn't kiss in front of him not the first time at least #so they should get married in the end of btsv it's only fair #gwen stacy #miles morales #gwiles #ghostflower #spider man across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #spiderverse

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

hello, i would like to hear about the titans fantasy au O.O

Oh man, you really shouldn't enable me like this... but if you insist!!

Alright, here's the setting: We're in some weird Lord of Rings/DnD fantasy setting with various magical creatures and inconsistent technological developments. Were tunics worn at the same time as ball gowns? Were carriages used at the same time as broad swords? I don't know! And I'm not doing any historical research! It's just haphazardly medieval!

Donna, for the most part, is relatively unchanged. She fits into this setting rather well. She is the demigod daughter of Zues, warrior in training, third in line to be Queen of the Amazons. At 13 years old she is a new arrival from her island nation and she is hoping to learn monster hunting (she's hoping to learn by doing). The one condition of her joining Diana was that she was supposed to stay with Diana at all times. Both of them nodded and smiled in agreement when their mother, the Queen, said this. Both immediately parted ways once their boat hit the shores of this new and exciting world.

Speaking of new and exciting, the King of Atlantis' ward is tagging along for the first time to see the surface world. Garth is fascinated (and a little terrified) and he's hoping to learn new types of magic! The Crown Prince (his older brother) Koryak says that he will make a fearsome mage one day and he really doesn't want to let him down. Garth imagines that one day his brother will rule as King and Garth will be there at his side as the Head Mage. He really has to work on his skills to get to that point though! Hence studying abroad. He's also... maybe... looking to meet some friends. Or any friends, really. He doesn't have any and he's heard good things.

Lord Richard of Gotham is so tired of politics. His... 'father' is the Crown Prince, next in line for the throne of Gotham. Not that anyone, including Bruce, is happy about it. The Kane family has had the crown for centuries and now, because the King only had daughters and Bruce's mom had the audacity to marry a Wayne (their rival house), they stand to lose it all. Thankfully, Bruce's status as Crown Prince is only temporary. As soon as Princess Kate Kane is married off, her husband will automatically be next in line. (Although they've sure been taking their time with that. What's the hold up?) So Bruce doesn't have to ever worry about being King and Dick (as Bruce's totally legitimate love child that Bruce didn't make up to make sure Dick could inherit everything if he ever died, don't do the math on their ages) doesn't ever have to worry about the throne at all. Sure, he's technically second in line but it's as far away from reality as a nightmare and just as scary. For right now all Dick has to worry about is being a squire, going on adventures and learning how to be a great knight! What could go wrong!?

Crown Prince Elroy is fucked. Seriously fucked. The old Crown Prince Oliver saw Roy at an archery competition and decided 'Yeah, that one.' Ollie offered him a room, food and all the arrows he could ever want. When Roy found out that Ollie was taking a page out of Robin Hood's book, Roy was overjoyed. The two of them had a blast stealing from the rich and giving to the poor. It was great! And then Ollie's father, the King, found out. He disowned Ollie, not that Ollie cared, and life went on as normal with one major giant exception. The King didn't have any other children (legitimate children anyway) and Ollie was now disowned. So the King legitimized Roy as Oliver's bastard child and heir. Or, sorry, Elroy because apparently 'Roy' wasn't fancy enough. Now Elroy is the Crown Prince. Elroy is under lock and key so that Ollie can't influence him. Elroy is being forced to study. (The King promised him that this was just to make Ollie see reason but Roy isn't so sure... the King is putting a lot of effort into his training...) The only saving grace is that Roy is being sent away this summer to learn sword fighting. Archery is 'a cowards sport' apparently and Roy 'needs to expand his horizons'. Well.. they certainly agree on that last one. Roy is making a break for it and he's not coming back.

Wally is a young apprentice working for his Uncle Barry. He's learning how to make medicine and treat wounds and find useful herbs. At least, he's learning that sometimes. A lot of his time is spent being a delivery boy. Uncle Barry says that's an important part of any medical treatment, actually delivering the medicine. Wally thinks that he just wants him to burn off energy. Regardless, Wally spends most of his time delivering medicine and he does it well. It helps that he can cross the continent before most people can blink their eyes. He can't tell anyone that though. Barry has made that part extremely clear. As far as their patients are concerned, Barry is a local doctor who just lives outside of whichever town they're in. There's a lot of things Wally can't tell people. Like how his eyes glow and magic lights up on his fingertips when he's excited. Or how he doesn't really like hats, he just has to wear them to hide his slightly too pointy ears. He gets it. He does. He's heard the whispered stories of fae, the hushed talk of changelings, he's read the old cracked tomes on the Elven Folk. He knows what people will think he is. But he isn't. He really isn't. He's just... Wally. And sure, he might be a little bit odd but he's just as human as the next guy, he swears!

Donna finds herself left on the doorstep of the greatest monster hunters in this new world. Garth is accepted to shadow some of the best defense mages ever. Dick finds himself stopping in with some fellow Knights (he is soon to be one after all) on his way home after a particularly hard mission. Roy finds himself shipped off to learn sword fighting from some 'trusted experts'. Wally is on a routine delivery run to drop off some supplies for his Uncle's good friends. Whether it's fate or something far more sinister, they all find themselves at the temple of the Knights of the Emerald Flame. Sir Hal Jordan, who was not ready for the sudden onslaught of children, panics and gives them a mission to get them out of his hair.

The rest, as they say, is history.

#i actually have really extensive plans for each character #especially Garth and Wally #its funny Donna just kinda showed up cause she heard about the Emerald Knights and just wandered in #Dick was literally just looking for a safe place to sleep for the night before journeying home #Wally was just dropping stuff off #Roy and Garth were the only ones actually supposed to be there. and Ollie was supposed to be there to pick up Roy #because this was just a ruse. it was a rescue attempt but Ollie got sidetracked #really Hal only agreed to Garth being there so that he could watch Hal do magic. and Hal wasn't even really looking to teach him #Hal just wanted an easily impressed audience so that he could show off #but then five fucking kids showed up and Hal was like 'oh FUCK NO! Here's an easy mission! go do this!!!' #Garth thought it was training Donna was chomping at the bit to fight something Roy just wanted to be unsupervised #Dick thought Hal genuinely needed his help with this and Wally was like '?!??! HUH?!?' #but hey. He went with it. cause Barry told Wally to always listen to Hal unless he's doing something stupid. #but Hal wasn't doing anything. Wally was the one doing something stupid. so it didn't count #anyway. i have. so many thoughts. literally its planned out until they're adults #dc #dc comics #titans fantasy au #wally west #dick grayson #donna troy #roy harper #garth of shayeris #fab five

[conchfritters]

i need to get less ashamed of talking about my interests on my 0 follower tumblr blog because if i don't point out that despite having one of the most interesting concepts ever presented in a genshin event, shadows amidst snowstorms was not actually well written, and was in fact pretty Poorly written, then who else will. Who else will.

#seashell resonance #Anyway amber hasn't shown up in any content since 1.0 where she wasn't optional or thrown out entirely in favor of standing as an #advertisement for euIa. case in point in the scene in shadows amidst snowstorms where you're waiting outside the cave for albedo the last #person joel was left with was amber. when euIa confronts albedo about the fake trying to lead joel away...there's no mention ever of the #fact that amber...was With Joel. Amber who is an Outrider trained to Notice Danger. Either left joel with fakebedo without noticing anythin #or the actual explanation: hoyo didn't care enough to write her because. well. Amber Bad #the next time we see her is when she shows up with bennett #amber used to have a lot of fire to her and this sort of unique not quite cockiness but like. easy way to tell she used to be the difficult #kid we hear about in her character stories and teapot dialogue #she serves no purpose in shadows amidst snowstorms #an event that easily could've capitalized on the Horror aspect of being trapped with a doppelganger of one of your coworkers and shown off #ALL the characters (because get this. You can make people wanna spend on characters who aren't meta by making them Like Them.) #but amber? no value in any event she's ever been in. she talks about good hunter and sticky honey roast. she gets flustered. euIa pays for #her meal. Remember how she was in Almost All of razor's story quest and then when they needed a knight to give him a gift in weinlessefest #they chose...SUCROSE AND NOELLE? #remember how collei has had more on screen interactions with fucking euIa and sucrose than AMBER #how amber and collei's reunion was what people wanted to see and instead it happens off screen and amber simply isn't relevant during #windblume? how amber didn't get a skin with lisa and kaeya? how amber has no appearance in kaeya's hangout event despite their dynamic in #the webtoon and her being suspicious of him presenting so much room to work with? #her tcg dialogue has a meta joke in it. Because amber bad and amber doesn't exist outside of euIa and connecting collei to euIa #and i could go on. about the writing for cyno. about collei. about the way they write kokomi or any genius character. about albedo even. #about all my Other gripes with euIa because they go to about every single aspect of her character except her Basic personality #which is to say the personality we see in most of her voicelines. she could've literally been a saving grace for the cast if she weren't on #of the like top 3 worst written characters #i could talk about like almost any character's decay but that's not the point. Not the point. Nobody look atme. #i tried to replace the L in euIa's name with a capital i to make this post not show up in front of her enjoyers somehow but if it does #sorry about that! no problems with you it's hoyoverse who has my ire #i have so much more to say even just about amber specifically since she is. Unfortunately my fav and unfortunately almost the only characte #i care about whenever my enjoyment of genshin even Slightly wanes #but nobody will ever see it because that essay i write in my head seven times a day is for Me. I'll die before i crack open google docs

[maydays-medbay]

After the last poll I made, it was clear that all of you really wanted to see Flamewire! So, here's his concept!

She is not a Decepticon, and she's very adamant about that. Not a Decepticon, no sir. However, his wares are open to anyone who wants the information he has in stock. Deception or otherwise.

Information gathering is his specialty, but her...other services are open as well for an extra fee. Assassination isn't cheap you know! It costs his time, money, skill, and her chassis if things go wrong (not that they will). Better pay up or stop wasting his time.

Flamewire was closest to Dropdash before the war broke out, but now it's pretty safe to say that their meeting would go horribly. Dropdash is incredibly loyal to the Autobots, so knowing that his brother would work for the enemy would enrage him beyond repair. Flamewire would probably have her goons escort him away if they met. He has a reputation to uphold, and she's not going to let her brother get in the way of that.

#flamewire #concept piece #transformers oc #transformers #maccadam #my art #my oc #digital art #I did this on my phone again lol #The screen is so small that it hurts to use it most of the time #He's based off of blue flames instead of the typical reds oranges and yellows #I thought it would be cool #plus I didn't want all of the siblings to be warm colors other than Silver #Goldrake is going to have warm colors so I decided she'd be cool colors #OH if it wasn't clear Flamewire's pronouns are He/She #The horns are also supposed to glow I think I just forgot to add the effect on them specifically #He as four optics and the other parts on her helm (top and sides) are big ole cameras #Many people don't realize that though because they just kinda look like headlights #It's part of why she can be so successful as an informant #Quick snapshots and stuff are easy when your head has cameras lol

[the-bisexual-a-genda]

I think the deal that switched Fig and Gilear's luck didn't start in the Night Yorb fight. I'm thinking about Sophmore Year when Gilear said he was going to turn his life around. I don't know. That moment keeps sticking in my mind.

#it happened before the pride armor #and he was making the promise with fig #who i think was an archdevil by then #or maybe the fact that she wasn't yet is why it didn't happen imediately #i dunno i dunno #i just keep thinking of it #something about gilear being the one to start it #not fig being noble #but gilear prideful #because even if the reason you improve yourself is for someone else #its still for you #i think he is the chosen one in that he was the one who made the choice #god they're so fucking interesting #they will both endlessly try to save each other but they're too scared to save themselves #because that requires really sitting with yourself and they're both so deeply insecure #fig has started it in the forest but gilear #gilear faeth #that man will not get to the hard stuff #talking shit about himself is so so easy #as easy as fig slipping into a disguise #but he doesnt know himself hasnt for years

[layzeal]

i know i talk about the tree scene a lot (deserved) but another thing i specifically like is that it wasn't a "test" of lwj's feelings. lwj catches him and what changes isn't that wwx believes lwj loves him back, it's just that wwx comes to accept that he, himself, is in love with him

#i know this doesn't make any sense im SORYY #it's just that #he's not testing lwj. when shijie wasn't able to catch him #he doesn't assume that's because she didn't love him #again. the whole THING about falling is that he would have been okay if he hit the ground #but falling still hurts. and if someone was there to catch him it would be more than wonderful #so he fell. and it didn't hurt #and he was finally ready to accept these feelings #IDK WHERE IM GOING WITH THIS IM JUST SAPPY #ugh. romance am i right #modao #lace speaks #look. it's just that it'd have been very easy to make it a test for lwj #''ill jump and jf he catches me then that means he loves me back'' no!! #he never assumes lwj's feelings!! this is about himself!! this is about what HE'S ready to accept #it's ''if he catches me. *i'll*''

[reluctantbylerblog]

I've been seeing so many bad faith analysis of taylor swift songs that were about joe alwyn since the news of their breakup. saying “something always felt off” about songs like cornelia street or sweet nothing, or implying “he couldn't handle her fame because his career wasn't doing well”. it's all so insulting to her and her own experience of HER relationship. get off your damn high horse and simply stop speculating about the details of a relationship that was intensely private for this same exact reason! because y'all can't help but stir the pot and badmouth someone who made her happy just because you want it to fit some narrative where she is a victim. controversial but relationships that were beautiful and healthy and happy can end. the sooner you can accept that the sooner you can stop trying to prove that he was secretly a bad boyfriend who “forced her” to be private because he couldn't handle her fame.

#taylor swift #it's really obvious you've got those hindsight goggles on and are making these songs fit into your biased narrative #because you can't deal with the fact that a relationship that WASN'T YOURS #ended amicably #bffr do you really think she would WRITE SONGS with a man who treated her poorly?? #and the implication that he was jealous of her fame because his acting career wasn't ‘‘succeeding’’ #as if them choosing to be as private about their relationship as they were #didn't signal that he's not hungry for fame at that level #because idk i think if they had been more public he would have absolutely been advantaged by that #choosing to be public would have helped his career much more and he didn't #and no one FORCED taylor to keep their relationship private #she's a grown woman ffs #her fame isn't easy on the people in her life and she knows that #but we literally know nothing about this relationship except what she has written about in her music #and to take that out of it's past context and force it into a new context just seems so mean spirited

[furshrimps]

This little dog has been through such incredible transformations, I'm frankly amazed she ended up not only looking like a perfectly normal elderly MinPin (she went from obese when she arrived at the shelter to being no more than a skeleton when she arrived in my sister's care, and I think the time between those 2 things wasn't very long) but also has evolved from a little snapping monster to an overall friendly (albeit quirky - and she does have some spice left in her if you force something onto her that she doesn't want, but you get my drift), people loving cuddle bug who happily sleeps on strangers laps and loves pets.

The transformation between the last two pics was so gradual that I didn't even really notice it until I looked at the older pics. At the time I really wasn't sure if her back would ever straighten again, I certainly wouldn't have been surprised had it stayed somewhat deformed, but it did. Just incredible what she has turned into if you compare it with older pictures! And once again, what a difference a fitting environment makes for a traumatized soul such as her.

Granted, she walks kind of funnily and has certain balance/ coordination issues (may or may not be caused by knee issues), but she looks pretty normal now and it's amazing.

#peanut the minpin #I don't have a proper pic of her yet I'll have to take one when I see her again lol #that's the best one I have currently #but this just came over me so suddenly that I wanted to post about it right now 😂 #I'm seriously blown away #she also didn't seem to have any idea of what play was #but she learns and it's kind of adorable because what she comes up with us so quirky #and not necessarily easy to understand especially if you don't know her #Sammy is kind of the same in that his playing wasn't/ isn't always easy to separate from warnings #another similarity is that they both have very obvious movement quirks that I believe are caused by being previously obese for a while #I could be wrong but these certainly are striking similarities

[theradicalace]

thinking back on my childhood and coming to terms with the fact that i was maybe slightly neglected emotionally

#ace rambles #my mom always comments on how i was such an easy child to raise #because she could just set me to a task and i would stay there for ages #(except for when i would randomly decide to leave the house just for funsies) #which #we're not even going to get into how absolutely autistic coded that particular trait of mine was #but like #i have a lot of childhood memories of being. largely unsupervised #and it wasn't really my mom's fault what with her being chronically ill and my father working a 9-5 #and i really WAS an easy kid. apart from my wandering spells i didn't really get into much trouble #but sometimes i wonder if i would have turned out different if i'd had adult figures to actually bond with more often #i don't know #my childhood wasn't BAD #it just could have been better #god don't listen to me wtf am i saying rn #i owe my mom a lot she tried her absolute damnedest and i generally turned out fine #ughh why is this emotional unpacking shit so much work

[54prowl]

i miss my girl x

#prowlle art #cw vent #it's been a lot #it's only been around 40 hours #but i saw her food bowl and lost it #she still had leftover homemade cat food in the fridge #now idk what to do with it #idk what to do w myself but overwork myself with comms and art #i feel like if i stop it'll catch up and paralyze me #i cleaned up all of my comms last night but can't get to coloring for some reason!! #i usually don't do vent art because i like drawing when im happy but damn you know? what do i do #she was a terrible cat she always bit and scratched and i miss her so much #i just wish she wasn't in pain when she passed bc i wasn't there #she was confined #i wish it was easy for her #i need closure so badly #but i didn't bother seeing her remains bc i think i wouldn't make it out of thevet's morgue #i wish this passes easier but i also feel guilty should it be #and it feels like a disservice to her that i'm asking for money but god i am already struggling #my contract ends in december and i've been putting off my job applications bc i haven't been in the right mindset #ugh i feel so!!!!!!!! all over the place!!!! #sorry to new peeps thinking prowl is fun and cool and positive #the human behind prowl is going through it #ok back to our normal broadcast #i am bumping works hoping it gets somewhere #i really need the cash #prart

[deanpinterester]

sometimes i think about the time i failed a midterm (and i mean failed in a literal sense, not like "aw i got a B+") while i was in an enriched high school program where everyone else was getting A's. in hindsight it should have been clear i needed help and i was struggling. but all the teacher said was to try harder next time

#uhhhh me #when i say i hated high school i'm usually just taklking abt the years i was in this program lol #i don't even know how i got in. i felt so alone when my grades couldn't match up to everyone else's #i didn't know how i was supposed to talk to my classmates about it because they all seem to just Get it and i just didn't #AND LIKE. i didn't even get a stern talking to by the teachers or principal or anyone #teacher just said 'wow you really don't like this class huh' as she handed the test back to me #and i had to seek her out MYSELF afterward to ask how i could make up my grades #genuinely wondering if a student's grade suddenly dropped like that isn't it a cause for worry #or had my grades been slipping so casually that they just assumed i was slacking off #oh ya to be clear it wasn't like something bad happened in my personal life or anything #i just had a rly rly hard time focusing on subjects i couldn't logic my way through (that being history and english) #(math was easy to get through bc there are formulas) #eventually i did figure out a way to properly study for tests #but like. i feel like the teacher upon seeing my failing grade could have offered me some studying strategies? idk #i don't rly resent her for it but at the same time. WOWIE that was such a shitty time in high school

[running-in-the-dark]

every time my mother tells me about all the cool things she did when she was young/my age/whenever, all the fun she had, all I can think is: I want to be happy for you but I can't. I'll never have any of that, I'll never have those experiences, because you've been telling me that I'm bad, not good enough, too loud, too quiet, too much, not enough, wrong in every possible way, all my life and it broke me.

#like #I can't just stop thinking this #I can't just stop being like this #my brain is. not capable of that #yeah shit is more complicated than that. things aren't that simple. her life wasn't always easy #but that doesn't make it okay #knowing that the way she treats me is wrong doesn't change anything either #idk. maybe it would have been like this anyway. but I doubt it. #I'm just so tired of being afraid all the time #I'm tired of hearing her brag about her awesome experiences and the guys she dated and the holidays she went on and all that shit #while I can't fucking go into a supermarket on my own #and then she wonders why my brothers didn't turn out like me. well maybe the fact that their parents were nice to them and helped them #with shit all the time had something to do with it? maybe it's that they were allowed to be kids? maybe it's that they were allowed to #make mistakes? maybe it's all the fucked up shit that happened to me and not to them? #but no you're right it's because they're simply better than me. they're just inherently good and fun and interesting and I'm not. sure. #I'm tired of all of it #I know I should simply go no contact with her and that would magically fix everything somehow. #sure. losing the rest of my family at the same time would probably be great for me since I have so many other friends! great idea. #I just want to drown tbh #yeah I'm feeling very emo tonight I don't fucking care I can say stupid shit if I want to #I'm gonna go cry now #yeah I'm bitter and pathetic. that's literally the problem #personal

[axolotluv]

I love my mom so much ❤️

#ax speaks #vent #went out to go make a bagel and my cat had a hairball on the couch a few hours earlier #it was my responsibility to clean it so i was already upset from him having it ON THE COUCH #it was easy to get it off it'd dried a little so i just needed to take off the cushion cover scrape it off and then wash it #but THEN my mom told me to wash THE WHOLE COUCH #i got more upset obviously #been having a rough time lately so i'm very fragile and i just wasn't doing well #she noticed i was tearing up and didn't mention it but instead tried to cheer me up by offering to get sodas and even go on a drive #(drives are my main de-stressor and we haven't been on one in almost two months) #my favorite thing is that she didn't mention me crying #i know for sure that's why she offered #i just like that she didn't mention it because then it'd feel more like pity instead of comfort #also i would have started bawling if she mentioned i was crying and i don't want to do that in front of anyone rn- #but i love my mom so much #she's the best

[freakoutgirl]

I do think there’s a tendency to make people feel bad about their “irrational” or “problematic” emotions, and telling people “well that’s something you have to deal with and not blame other people for” 

like... trying to reparent yourself and strengthen your emotional immaturity is WORK, and yes absolutely it’s work that needs to be done, but it’s not going to happen overnight. people will mess up, people will get too emotional to think about their coping mechanisms if they don’t have enough experience with accessing those tools while feeling bad. don’t let people cross your boundaries, but try to extend compassion when you can

#personal #idk thinking about a very personal experience #like telling morgan i was having mental health issues and her going radio silent for two days #i didn't really realize why i was so upset even though i knew i could cope with my stuff on my own #until i was like oh. this is how i felt as a kid when my parents ignored me when i was having intense emotions. #like being in 8th grade crying myself to sleep after three hours wishing that my mom would check on me #alright yeah. #and i KNOW this about myself. and i know that people not responding is normal. #and i know that she was dealing with things so i knew it wasn't personal. #but i still felt that anger and that panic and that intense loneliness #because that shit doesn't just go away!!! #honestly i think i did pretty well considering how emotional i was #like. giving space the last 24 hours. telling her firmly i was hurt when she did respond. #and like idk if this was just her not responding to dumb texts i wouldn't have been hurt #but the fact that it was about something emotional was REALLY what triggered my further emotional spiral #idk it's just a lot to work through!!!! and it's not easy