#she's gotten me through a lot

[mocc-tok-flip-flop]

The submas brainworm is only getting stronger, so I have drafted a whole-ass comic for a new AU idea! One where Chandelure gets to take center stage and become the main character she was always meant to be~

The gist of the AU is that Chandelure has a ghostly soul-bond with Ingo, which essentially means that his soul is under her protection and he sorta registers as a ghost to other pokemon. Basically protects him from other ghosts trying to put their sticky paws on her trainer and also gives the two of them a bit of an empathetic connection. Not quite telepathy, but able to transmit complex feelings and lets them check how badly they're hurt.

Naturally, this means that when Giratina (who was honestly just trying to play around. They were given the tedious task of just opening rifts and looking through all those peep holes made them curious. So when they saw a soul that had a beautiful ghost bond, they became fascinated) snags Ingo and drags him through, Chandelure immediately feels when Giratina's power accidentally tries to overwhelm Ingo's soul and she absolutely loses her shit. Through psychically screaming and using her protective aura to try and bash Giratina, the distortion god acts like a dog that's done something they shouldn't and tries to hide the evidence of their messing around (Ingo getting fucked up via soul and getting not too gently dropped off a mountain).

I have more ideas, especially relating to how Emmet is taking his brother's ace losing her mind and how her actions affect the investigation, but if I keep going down these tracks I'm going to end up with another 90k WIP fic like i did with Naruto. (Though if people wanna see the AU written out...👀... I could absolutely be convinced. I'm very weak...)

#Whew...that's a lot of text for a silly WIP #but I honestly haven't drawn a comic in like 4 years so I'm actually kind of excited to finish this piece #not sure if I will do more...maybe if people have questions better answered through drawing... #poor Giratina. dude was just lonely #I kinda wanna have Chandelure have a Mystery Dungeon adventure to round up pokemon to rip through time and space with her #And of course she can't really communicate with Emmet #So his world is falling apart around him and his brother's beloved pokemon's insanity makes it seem like he's dead #oops...Chandelure please inform your trainer-in-law before the police arrest him on grounds of suspicion #aaaaand I went crazy in the tags too #oh submas boys...look what you've done to me... #submas #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #pokemon #my art #art wip #giratina #are there other submas/pokemon tags? I have only recently gotten into the fandom here on tumblr #Once I have a name for this AU I'll tag it

[subtle-as-an-earthquake]

sometimes i think about penny turner and how much she must love her brilliant, beautiful son, her only child, and how proud she must be of him, but how much she must've worried about him too over the years (and probably still does sometimes) and then i cry a little 🥺

gif credit @ihatealexturner [X]

more emo thoughts about this under the cut because it's just that kind of night i suppose

like, we know alex and his mum (both his parents actually) have a great relationship and they love each other very much, so i have no doubt that she's so very proud of alex for how hard he works and how driven and talented he is, so proud of everything he's achieved, knowing how much he and his creations mean to a huge number of people

but then also, how could she not worry about him, knowing that yes, he is living his dream, but he's also flying all across the world every few years, a different city every night, performing to the point of exhaustion, only to have to come up with the next big thing all over again? that's a lot of pressure on his shoulders, even if he does share a lot of it with the rest of the band. and alex handles it admirably of course, but still, if even i worry about him sometimes, i can't imagine how it must be for his mother (and father, of course, all of this probably goes for him just as much)

i also think about how she must have felt when alex moved to the usa, and how relieved she must've been when he decided to move back to the uk/europe, to have him closer again. and i wonder how she must've felt watching all those different personas and eras he created appear and disappear, maybe sometimes fearing he'd lose himself somewhere along the way, but still always seeing her boy underneath it all. i'm sure she's gotten used to it to some extent, but it must still be overwhelming sometimes, seeing all the hype and the scrutiny and the expectations and the temptations he has to deal with, especially knowing better than anyone how special and sensitive he is deep down. i can imagine she wishes she could protect him while at the same time knowing he's a big boy now, and he was always destined to make his mark on the world in a way that required him to spread his wings and leave the warm nest she'd created for him

and then i think she must also be so grateful to know that he's always got his best friends with him when he's on the road, to support him and share the load, and that he has so many more friends who adore him and always have his back, and how much of a reassurance that must be and then I just 😭😭😭😭 you know? 🥺

#is this weird? #should i not be thinking about this? idk man #listen i obviously have no idea if she feels like this at all #i don't know her at all so i may be way off #but whenever i imagine being alex's mum these are just all the things i would feel 🥺 #and i don't mean to whumpify her or him #but it's just that i've talked to my own mum a lot about how it was for her when i moved abroad #and how she felt when i was going through some shit and how often she thinks about me #and like my things are all so minor compared to alex's life you know? #and I'm sure penny's gotten used to a lot of it and she's also just proud and excited but I just think it must also be hard sometimes #to be the mother of someone really special #anyway i'm a bit emo tonight #ignore me #alex turner #penny turner #arctic monkeys #minnie talks

[the-knife-consumer]

"Yona was just added bc Nintendo wants people to stop shipping sidlink!" Literally what the hell are you talking about

#yes nintendo is homophobic. no they do not give a singular shit about what their fanbase does??? what are you talking abouuuutttt #they literally dont care what people do as long as they get money??? like what #listen im upset abt yona having so many unanswered questions. mainly she came from another zora's domain #meaning she came from outside of hyrule. so that leads to a lot of questions. #but howww do you come to the conclusion that she was just added as a 'no homo' indicator #dont even get me started on the people genuinely unironically calling this queerbaiting. what are you onnnnnnn #'and oh but sidon said he used to see her as a sister! so its gross and wrong!' sidon literally thought out loud to links face abt how #had things been different and link had gotten married to mipha he would be his BROTHER IN LAW. SAID THAT OUT LOUD TO HIS FACE. so shh #imo. yona was added for one 'ohh wow exciting new character look at this' and two. as a way for sidon's trauma to be acknowledged #bc it was veeery briefely shown in botw. for like. a singular second if you snuck up on him at mipha's statue #but yona's defining scene in totk was her forcing sidon to confront that he wasn't being himself because of that trauma. and that #he needed to let go of the fear around it. if only temporary. because his people needed him. #so tbh?? sheis very important to the plot. she new mipha. admired her. knows why sidon still struggles with this and #how difficult and frightening everything becomes when he views the world through the lens of 'what if i lose someone again' #like. they added yona for his struggles to be spelled out to the audience even further #so to just boil her down to 'ewww woman gets in the way of my gaybies 😡😡😡'. hello. did you play the game. #do you even know who these characters are. quick gimme ten facts about sidons character that you didnt make up for shipping purposes.pronto

[citrlet]

very sad this morning seeing Ryan and Shane leaving youtube to start yet another exclusive subscription service :/

#this is a monumentally shitty idea #then entire comment section is UNIFIED ive never seen that before akfjsks #i had to say that early accessing like cc makers do here would have been way better #but now at this point the damage is done and a lot of people feel disappointed that they seem to care more about the money #and honestly i dont think they produce enough content to justify a whole new service #i love the mcelroys way more and what they do is so much better #youtube already has a built in tier sevice why cant they just do that??? #anyway i have so many thoughts on this #i honestly watched ryan and shane way more than when they were on buzzfeed #i watched for their dynamic and how fucking funny they are together not for the quality of the shows #so many people do not understand that people watch them for them not for high value production is #first matpat then jacksepticeye soon and now this :/ #im DREADING the day gab smolders inevitability retires because shes my comfort youtuber she and her content has gotten me #through some of my worst moments #ill shut up now #someone tell me how many dislikes their announcement has on yt im so curious akfkska #oh also and its like dont they get their fanbase is mostly young people who probably cant afford another streaming service #on top of bills and the cost of living now??

[cassianandfenrysaremyboyos]

I'm sorry but this just pisses me off (Not Hunt obviously, but Bryce)

Bryce rant incoming which you can just ignore and I'll probably delete later

But Bryce just puts all the blame on the Asteri. And yes ultimately they are to blame in the larger sense of things. But Bryce plays a direct role in leading them down the path that results in Hunt, Ruhn and Baxian being caught. It was her need to find out Danika's secrets with no thought to the consequences, her idea to go to the Eternal City. And she takes NO personal responsibility for it at all!

Hunt is blaming himself for everything that's happened. Even when it's not his fault at all. When we're in his pov he's constantly drowning in guilt, thinking about how he should of done more, he should of tried harder, he should of been better, how it's all his fault this happened and that his friends suffered.

And then Bryce does none of that. When we're in her pov she doesn't really show any major guilt. I can't think of any times when she blames herself like Hunt does. And I'm not saying she should be wracked with guilt. But a normal person, a good person, will usually feel bad and will feel guilty and blame themselves to some degree when something bad happens and people they care about are hurt, regardless of how big or small they're involvement is, or even if they're not at fault at all, case in point Hunt being wracked with guilt even when it's not his fault.

And to make it worse she acknowledges that Hunt warned them, warned her. But that she disregarded it and would of done it no matter what.

And then she has the audicity to say she doesn't regret it. And she thought they were on the same page. ON THE SAME PAGE!!?? Hunt made it clear in hosab that he didn't want to go down this road again, that he didn't want to get involved. YOU just didn't listen Bryce. And yeah Hunt's an adult, he can make his own decisions and he could of said no and not gone. But of course, OF COURSE!! he wasn't going to let Bryce go down that road alone, because he loves her, and doesn't want anything to happen to her, and wants to protect, so of course he would never desert her. But that doesn't mean he wanted to do it!

For Bryce to be that unaware of Hunt's feelings, when he explicitly stated them. For her to be that disconnected from her mate's feelings that she's surprised that he wasn't really on board is kinda unfathomable to me. Just that complete lack of awareness really does make her look quite selfish/self centered.

Anyway sorry, this post is a mess but I just had to vent

And then when Hunt mentions the consequences he and his friends faced, Bryce makes it about her pain. She's hurt that Hunt mentioned that they suffered. And the worst part is, Hunt then regret's it, he regrets saying something that hurts Bryce, because he cares about her and feelings. And she does not consider his feelings to the same degree

It just pisses me off

#honestly with bryce's lack of feelings of guilt her lack of consideration of other people's feelings and her lack of taking responsibility #for her actions i think sarah has unintentionally written her as kinda a bit of a sociopath #anyway like i said in a previous post *sigh* i miss hoeab bryce my beloved #hoeab bryce had gone through so much and had a lot of growth through the first book and had so much potential for more #but then it just stopped. went backwards even. in fact i think hofas bryce has gotten worse #she's had no development for 2 books now and the further i get into hofas more and more apparent it's become how flawed #and one dimensional her character is #her being in prythian and the acotar characters carried her early chapters but now that she's back in midgard her lack of growth and #maturity is starting to grate on me. literally every other pov character has had more development then her #in all the other character pov's they are constantly self reflection they feel guilt they blame themselves they consider the feelings #of those around them. they consider how their actions have affected those around them. they take responsibility for their actions #bryce's pov does not do that to the same degree. if at all #there's minimal critical thought. no self reflection. a lack of taking any responsibility for her actions and the consequences #she's really is a very flat character. what you see is what you get #and her 'sassyness' (that was fine at first when there actually was more to her character) which is supposed to come across as #witty funny badass who takes no shit ect. more and more is just comes across as annoying and immature #and often inflammatory in situations that require maturity sensitivity and tact #her disrespect for the ocean queen who is helping you and is super powerful and not someone you want to make #an enemy of was just unnecessary and not smart tactically #and this is super nitpicky but I'm getting so sick of bryce's clothes. please get her out of those ridiculous leggins and pink sneakers #they were fine when she was going to the nail salon and the gym but how am i supposed to take her seriously on a world saving #mission in those clothes. how am i supposed to take her seriously as a queen (ugh) conversing with the ocean queen #in those clothes #and I'm loath to say it because i love hoeab quinlar with my whole heart but hofas bryce doesn't deserve hunt #the devotion and consideration hunt has for bryce and her feelings is not returned to the same degree to him #anyway i was hoping to get my hoeab bryce back but it hasn't happened but hopefully the second half of the book #can turn things around for her #pleaseee

[ante--meridiem]

Well. Potentially inadvisable message I sent a few days ago not really expecting a reply to did, in fact, get a reply.

#personal #for those with enough knowledge of blog lore to know what I'm talking about here: #I caved and messaged First Ex/Former Closest Friend again #out of a mixture of the fact that I keep circling back to that friendship breakup on an approximately monthly basis that I knew #I'd never be able to really let it go unless I at least tried once #and the confidence from my knowledge of him that if our positions were reversed *he* would have tried #in any case. He's not sure if we'll succeed in being friends again but he *is* willing to talk #on the condition (which I offered in my initial message) of me not telling any of the people we mutually know #that he ended up having issues with #that we are speaking with #& there is (unsurprisingly since there was clearly a lot missing from the stories I'd gotten) more to said issues than I'd heard about #which it sounds like he's going to elaborate on when we talk #I think the biggest difficulty for me in re-establishing contact like this is going to be accepting that he and my mother #outright despise each other now #which. l mean - I'd never claim she's perfect #she can be very blunt in a way that comes off as just *mean* and hurtful and I've been hurt by that too #but she's also been a much better parent to me than most people's parents seem to be to them #it's possible maybe even likely that if some of our arguments when I was younger had ended in us cutting ties rather than #eventually talking it through that I would see her the same way Former Closest Friend does #but they didn't and she's been at certain points amazingly supportive since #so it's likely I'm going to have a hard time reconciling the version of her he's going to present to me with that #even though I'm totally open to believing that he's justified in how he feels about whatever happened #& I'm not going to be able to process it out loud irl bc that would violate the 'not telling people involved about this' clause #so there may be a lot of venty personal tumblr posts coming soon to a blog near you

[pygian-weapon]

My current analysis of deep space nine is that the six degrees of separation rule is applicable to everyone on the station, but instead of just knowing someone (which is easy when living in a space port with people going on and off) it is that that everyone has slept with someone who has slept with someone else etcetera, so all residents on the station are six one night stands (or less) away from each other.

#Rom and the Bajoran President? Rom has gotten some sweet and tender Oo-max from Leeta who has slept with Jadzia who has slept with Kira #who is having a thing with her ex-rebel leader and current planet representative #Keiko and Quark? Keiko is married to O'Brien who <what happens in the holosuits stays in the holosuits> with Julian #who had a never to repeat sex-pollened encounter with Kira who eventually might get with Odo (?) and he and Quark have obviously a thing #What that thing is I don't know it's incomprehensible to me and everyone else #Sisko is a tough nut to crack I'm sure there are a lot of people with a crush but he has high standards and Kassidy is away most of the time #So I'm not sure if she ever got down to have fun with anyone else. Maybe the captain with the see-through skull which unlocks Dax etc... #ds9

[trashycosmos]

i've gotten into outer worlds in like the last week and Parvati being wlw & ace has been the best thing in the story so far and i will die protecting her and helping her figure stuff out with Junlei

#i just love her so much #i do wish you could romance companions though only so i could get with Felix #but Parvati is def a permanent member of my party anywhere i go and i've only been keeping Vicar for now bc i want to finish his book quest #if Parvati & Junlei don't end up together i am going to lose it #ALSO I WILL BE HEARTBROKEN IF SHE LEAVES THE SHIP TO BE WITH HER BUT SO ELATED LIKE CHASE YOUR STARRY EYED DREAMS GIRL #Falling Apart and Coming Together #The Outer Worlds #i think i should mention i've only just gotten to monarch so i feel like there's a LOT more story left for me to get through #the game is great while on edibles too but gdi if i don't forget dialogue & and how it relates 2 seconds after making a choice lmao

[nevada-got-screwed-over]

Actually I don’t think I’ll ever forgive how Wash’s disability and subsequent ‘cure’ was handled.

#beans speaks #personal #rvb #red versus blue #the Carolina and wash plotline was a lil ehhh bc I don’t think they gave Carolina’s attitude abt his new limits a healthy foil #like it would have been see easy to have Dr Grey or Wash himself parallel her fear and frustration #and it could have gotten into such character depth too! #shine a light on her past trauma with losing people/them getting hurt to show that a lot of her perspective is ultimately selfish #which isn’t ‘wrong’ it’s normal considering what she’s been through but she needs to respect wash’s autonomy! #I haven’t seen 0 but. I heard. they gave him a. a fucking AI and it was all yippee he’s fine #as though that doesn’t go against like a major personal boundary of Wash (not a big fan of ai in his head) while also ignoring the whole. #yeah we just have to deal with this. it’s not fun and it’s gonna suck sometimes but it doesn’t change our love or respect. #sorry if I sound insane I also haven’t watched that season in a while and I’m. a lil. wooo tonight y’know #like as a disabled person w a progressive condition that is stopping me from doing things I used to be able to do #and will continue to limit my abilities as the years go by #it makes me wanna tear someone limb from fucking limb

[zebrafiz]

my face after looking at all the dog breeds in cas and seeing 5758493748593 doodles but no belgian malinois

#this sounds so pretentious 😭 #but yall have to understand…. i love them i wanted a belgian malinois for this sim sooo bad but NO! #she wants an attack dog trained in bite work and heelwork! BITCH! #also i have a visceral hate for 90% of doodle owners who purposely seek them out. i think they need jail time #i have rly gotten into like the dog community and I’ve learned so much shit. some good. lots of it bad. some of these ppl are wild. #I think getting an Aussie has also catapulted me into it bc I’ve only ever had small ones like a chihuahua and an incredibly demure #jack russell may she rest in peace 😞 #anyway that’s like my new fascination. i love trying to decide which breed is my dream breed LOL #so I’ve been going through cas like a nerd for the last 30 minutes critiquing the traits and appearances they come with #the yorkie is soooo cute….ALSO THEY HAVE BEDLINGTON TERRIRORS !!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!! #*personal #rant over. enjoy my tag talk

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

now I know that I can't make you stay, but where's your heart?

#while we're on songs that are Actually About Me And My Brother- #Lu rambles #feeling some kinda way babes. feeling some kinda way #I feel like it isn't affecting our little sister so much? maybe bc she's younger/has such a different relationship with him??? #my edit #music #mcr #this one goes out to gracie babes this song has gotten me through a lot the last year or so thanks for making me #into an mcr girlie kakdnfnskfns

[timegears-moved]

🥺

#bwark #aoc lb #scenes that hit hard when you remember that sidon looked up to mipha so much and put himself through the guilt of her death #so hearing this from her after he saved her must've meant the world to him #side note but aughghgh sidon's voice has only gotten worse to me with time. i thought it was okay when botw first came out but now :/ #on the other side though mipha's voice has greatly improved from botw #i get that mipha is soft spoken but her voice actress just had no passion in botw and sounded so bored. she does a lot better here

[corntort]

rip trace's place as your favorite av protag lmao

LOL i can't say indra beats trace but i ALSO can't say she's less of my favorite either. my love for her just takes a very very different form

#trace i find a lot of catharsis and relatability to i look at him and go 'wow im her' #indra i find a lot of RELIEF and refreshment in because she's a very very complex character. she's not this side piece or ornament or w/e #she's incredibly horrid and crass and headstrong and A BAD PERSON but she's going on this huge escapade spurred by her one tie to morality #not fueled by monetary gain. her one semblance of humanity. because despite all her wrongdoings and shortcomings she is incredibly caring- #for her family #that's a REALLY GOOD HOOK TO SWING FROM #because where we're at right now everything that's happened to her ingame me and my friends go 'hah.. yeah... she kinda deserved that...' #at yet despite her yells and shouts and INDIGNANCE . down to losing HER WHOLE ASS BODY #she's still pushing through. there's that little sliver of humanity again. #she's going to find her daughter even now that she's gotten Fucked Up for who knows how long #(we finished the cutscene of what i assume to be amashilama taking indra's body for her own use. leaving her trapped in the drone #with the young boy. who's name hasn't stuck in my head yet.) #rambles #indra av #trace av #ask #anonymous

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks

[midnightsgetawaycar]

Sorry for the upcoming rant but I really need people to stop shaming people who record any part of a concert and share it with others. A lot of people weren't able to get tickets for the era's tour, and while I'm fortunate enough to have tickets for an upcoming date, watching the first night live because of multiple amazing people who streamed it made my entire week. Those posting the different songs, are giving me the ability to hear the live versions of songs that have never been performed before, and some she's not going to play again during the tour. Some of the songs on the set list being my favourite songs. It's one thing if the person is being rude while filming, but if they're just minding their own business in the seats that they purchased and aren't bothering anyone, why are you, someone who's not even a fan so fucking bothered? So bothered, you feel the need to post about it and shame others. Stop judging others for wanting to share the joy of these songs that mean so much to people. You can enjoy a show and film it at the same time. I'm planning on recording a few of my favourite songs. The songs that have gotten me through the shit year that I've had. Like I'm sorry that I'm going to record a song that I quoted in my grandpa's eulogy. Sorry that it's going to bother you, someone who doesn't even care about her music and the connections fans have with the songs.

Honestly, let people be fucking happy, and let people decide how they want to experience something.

#sorry for the rant #eras tour #Taylor swift #I'm planning on recording a few of my favourite songs #like the songs that have gotten me through the shit year that I've had #I've recorded songs from 1D concerts and a TS concert from fearless and they bring me back to that time and bring me so much joy #obviously as long as they're not ruining others experience #there's respectful ways to record without bothering those around you #if you're not bothering anyone why do you care so much #people piss me off #let people have fun and share what they've filmed #a lot of people aren't able to attend any concert and they want to experience it #the same goes for international swifties who have no tour dates #let people be fucking happy #lord knows there's not enough of that in the world right now since it's going to shit #sorry for this rant - it just really bothers me #they paid for the seat - they can enjoy a show while recording #it's their decision #eras tour spoiler #When she sang fearless it meant so much to me and I'm beyond grateful for the videos and those who went live to share the experience #this is why I fucking hate the world #let people be happy

[pointsfortrying]

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#rye rambles #sees post ab crossing paths w/ that one child as a kid #thinks ab kindergarten best friend for first time in a long time #which. feels weird bc i used to think of her near daily #i missed her so much moving country w/ parents who cannoy explain the meaning of that moment #i missed her so so much #she was one of the kindest people i knew in my childhood and i cant even remember if I'd known her for longer than a few months #i can barely remember a thing ab her. but she was kind #one of the only things i do remember was her holding me and pecking my cheek after i was bullied #and spending our recess looking for four leaf clovers together #i still miss her but i moved on <- which. i know is a 'duh' moment but. i feel like means a lot to me #bc i clinged onto that desire to go back n find her for fucking Years <- for various reasons bht #but #tldr; i have people i would live for and care for deeply i have friends i have a future #and shit is so so hard and so so scary but i want to see it through i do #and none of that are things i could have said a few years ago so like #damn! #we've gotten this far #gah. im becoming [redacted] yesrs old in like. 2 months as well there was a time i thought theres no way i would make it #but like! shit! im glad to be here #there are so many horrors and things are so hard and scary and sometimes im so fucking tired but im glad to be here #tldr tldr: <- rye is so so eepy and staying up and got nostalgic n got in rambly tmi mood again #@ hope i have no idea what kind of person you are today but thank you for being kind #i hope you're doing well #i hope you've found so many four leaf clovers #i dont expect or think you'd ever think of me for various reasons many of which obvious but i hope if you do you'll know im doing well