#so if you see me refollowing you then yeah

[slythereen]

Absolutely loving the discussion about marketing and what the angles/narratives at play are and what that says about what may be going on behind the scenes. Fascinating stuff.

I also had a tangential thought related to all this - I think the principal reason Charles and Max have not refollowed each other by now is that at this point it would be a HUGE media/PR moment. So rather than do so casually for no particular reason, I think they’re likely keeping it in the back pocket to be deployed at the correct moment if and when appropriate. Personally, I think the most likely scenarios for the Great Refollowing (TM) are either 1. Charles goes to RBR and they refollow each other as part of the pr push for that, or 2. After one or both of them retire in a ‘look guys! Remember this whole thing? (why yes I/we can get on trending even after retirement. My personal brand is *that* strong)

- zoomimal

praying to every god that it’s not the retirement plan, because as much as max likes to give me a heart attack i am hoping his retirement baiting continues to be bait for another few years at least. i fear i may not survive if he retires sooner and charles doesn’t win his inevitable championship against max. f1 fates cannot allow such an injustice

standing by the claim that charles leclerc could keep max verstappen in this sport & that imo is reason enough for rbr to be after charles (or, at least, for christian to be… christian i see you). no one on that team wants max retiring any time soon. (and as good a friend as daniel or lando is, i don’t think max views either of them as nearly as much of a threat nor is as competitive with them. he’d have fun. he would not be lured into staying if he planned on retiring.)

but yeah, much as i want to see the clowns refollow each other already, you have a good point. now it’s such a Thing they’ll prob wait to make it impactful. or just never do it unless/until they are teammates because they’re still pushing the “rival” narrative. silly season needs to silly harder for my sanity!!!!

#marketing and mayhem 2023 riseelmo.gif #f1 #charles leclerc #max verstappen #*delphi #mexico gp 2023 #actually this was from Austin i think #but tumblr is an evil gatekeeper #austin gp 2023 #good enough najdajbc #lestappen #paddock politics

[mcromwell]

Hello! I have been following your art for awhile now- I just had to refollow because Tumblr is a webbed site. If this is rude to say, ignore it, but I find your pieces inspiried! They truly are so cool. It got me to get a set of caran d' ache water soluble pastels myself! I have been hitting a bit of an art block lately, and I wanted to try something different than what I have been doing.

I just have a question about what you draw/paint ON. I see a lot of what you are describing as reclaimed support - what is it and how/where do you get that? It is wood correct? Is it a specific type of wood? Is there any specific way to prepare it for painting?

Thank you for taking the time for reading!

Hello there! Thanks for your ask! I'm really glad you're inspired and trying new things, and with my favorite art toy, no less. The wax pastels are truly a joy to work with. Like the crayon of my childhood dreams.

I typically paint on scrap wood. I will scavenge plywood, old shelves, lumber, furniture panels, flooring, etc. and prep them for painting. Part of my personal set of values I try to live by is to buy as little new things as possible and that counts for art stuff, too. I have a video about how I like to prep scrap wood here: https://youtu.be/9Ni8aIgB7F4?si=fBAaaB1fSWQC4bfS

Lately my friend and fellow artist Sasha reminded me that mounting paper on the scrap wood is also a thing! So I've been doing a bit of that lately, too, and it has been really nice for pastels and colored pencils. (I mount paper usually with Nori paste and/or matte acrylic medium.)

When I use words like "support" instead of scrap wood, sometimes that's just shorthand for "an archival panel of indeterminate material", such as my stash of 12"x16" PVC panels I got from a fellow art supply hoarder friend. It's strange to say "mixed media on plastic sign material" because that... doesn't necessarily bring up a clear idea...? But yeah, a lot (like the heron series) are done on sanded and gesso'd PVC panels that were once intended for outdoor signage.

Salvaging your own surfaces takes more time and work, but costs barely anything. It works with my rough and natural aesthetic so I lean into the wood's imperfections. Look, this one even has a hole in it! And you can see the grain and the pop-and-lock groove on the left. This was a piece of cedar flooring.

Boy he's a sad little guy isn't he

tl;dr I paint on flat sturdy things likely to last a long time. If you can sand, gesso, and attach wire hanging hardware to the back-- you're good. Go nuts.

#traditional art #scrap wood #reclaimed wood #reclaimed materials

[khoipyan]

keep me warm!

octavinelle with a gn!reader who makes them think that they’re in trouble, only to discover they’re just cold.

warnings; false sense of danger being given, that’s it. although, this one will be shorter than any fics i’ve written on my now deleted account! just for me to start my new blog (with the same username smh) off.

notes; to be seen as romantic. also i just noticed that azul’s is the shortest, jade is middle and floyd’s is the longest 😭 oopsie!

notes2; AUHDUFHHGH if you used to follow me, you might have to refollow me again because this is the first post on my account now. i may have accidentally deleted my blog so uhm… yeah. but first fanfic of my new account, with my other account @jeidoleech to repost any of this incase i get stupid again. that’s what happens when i stay up at night, i guess. 😭

AZUL ASHENGROTTO

it was just another peaceful day in mostro lounge, when suddenly you burst into the VIP room. it seems like you ran all the way there, because you were breathing pretty heavily, “AZULLL!”

azul jumps up from his seat, while turn floyd and jade look at you. what on earth? his face turns into one of concern, “is something wrong dear? if anything is, then i’ll—”

he’s cut off by you throwing yourself into his arms, “i’m colddd.”

…cold? you burst into the room dramatically shouting his name, and you’re cold…? he’s so confused, couldn’t you have just walked in regularly?regardless, he pats your head, “my darling, don��t you think that was a bit… much? you didn’t have to do ALL of that to get my attention— floyd, jade, stop looking at me like that, and stop laughing—!”

both of the twin eels found this situation amusing. as much as embarrassed azul is, they’ll probably never stop bothering him about it for the next few weeks. oh well, that’s expected

hey, at least you weren’t cold anymore? to azul’s expense of the tweels pestering him, of course.

JADE LEECH

“JADE! WAIT UP!”

he turned around and waited for you to catch up, surprised to see you. normally you don’t yell for his attention, so what could it be this time? has something gone wrong? he’s already starting to think of his next action—

“i’m cold. my dorm has no heat.”

ah. how unexpected. his eyes widened at the surprise, but promptly smiles at you. how cute. “why don’t you come over to my dorm then? i’ll be sure to prepare blankets and i guarantee it will be warm there. as a bonus, we can keep each other company so neither of us gets lonely.”

you stare at him, “snacks and we’ve got a deal.”

“how about a movie on my laptop as well?”

“i love you so much.”

“would you love me less if i had never offered any of this?” he’s doing it again. oh no.

you frown, “why are you like this…”

jade only gives a polite chuckle, “why not?”

FLOYD LEECH

you seemed frantic as you ran up to floyd, who was just finished his basketball game. “FLOYD! I HAVE SOMETHING I REALLY REALLYYYY IMPORTANT.”

not minding the other people watching, floyd takes a sip of his water bottle and quickly turns to you, “hmmmm~? what is it? is somebody bothering ya? i can squeeze em for you!”

“i’m cold.”

floyd only looks at you in surprise, but then laughs. why were you so funny? and so random, for what? but then again, that’s one of the reasons why you caught his attention. “shrimpyyy! if you were just cold, you could’ve said so instead of scaring me!” he goes to pinch your cheek.

you aren’t exactly warm yet, but your left cheek surely isn’t cold now, “floyd. that hurts. i said to keep me warm, not to start making my cheek hurt!”

he grins and stops pulling on your cheek, ruffling your hair. “alright, alright. one more game and we can head to my dorm, hmmmmm? how does THAT sound?”

“okay! that’s alright! i’ll watch and cheer you on, then!” you rub your face, ouch.

ace interrupts, “can we start now? i’m sick of you two lovebirds socializing like today is the last day.”

“i wouldn’t say i have a problem with your relationship, but i agree that we should start.” jamil also adds to ace’s comment.

floyd glares at ace, “don’t make me squeeze you, crabby.”

“eek! okay, okay, sorry. let’s just start the game, okay?” ace sweats, he wasn’t looking to be squeezed today.

you’re sort of embarrassed, but at least your face is warm!

— due to be edited at anytime —

#writing!🍤 #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst #twst x reader #floyd leech #jade leech #azul ashengrotto #azul x reader #azul ashengrotto x reader #jade x reader #jade leech x reader #floyd x reader #floyd leech x reader #scrib.bles🫧

[dreamiexd]

yeah i've noticed a theme of people trying to leave and announcing that they're gonna leave but then they come back the moment dt moves

a few blogs i followed said they were leaving so i unfollowed them and i still see them reblogging posts so i looked at they're back of course

but now i dont want to refollow them bc i Dont like when people say they're going to leave (and making a big deal of it) and then coming back the next day, it pisses me off so muxh😭

sorry i kind of went on a rant

yeah i notice it happens every time 😭 like i think it’s easier to say “i’m leaving” when there’s no content but then (the possibility of) content or movement makes everyone realize why they were in the fandom and the first place—to share their love for dteam, not to be morality-policed everytime someone fucks up. the biggest reason for the tumblr migration imo.

i don’t really care about people coming back, but i don’t like how it’s people that immediately switched up, doxxed george, called him slurs, and told him to khs. that’s not people we need in this fandom! and i get if people were triggered but holy shit get off the fucking internet if you get emotional and rash over things like this. stop tweeting out your every thought!! go to a therapist!!

#ri asks

[davidrebooted]

Hiiii I decided to remake b/c of a bunch of reasons, Sorry not sorry :-), if you need anything you can message me on THIS blog. I will go through and refollow everyone right after this but if i miss you you can just follow me and ill prob follow back if we were moots alr

Expect the same things that were on my side (davidreblogged) on this blog (only now with irl cats posting on this blog) however dont expect cats the musical content (at the least not very often at all). So umm expect Men, Gifs, Art, etc etc

I will still be using these blogs so feel free to follow if you want!!: @davidrebootedart (Art only blog (If you are going to see cats content anywhere it'll be here but dont expect anything new)) @michaelgruberfan (Take a guess what it is)

More info:

However I will no longer be using these ones: @tuggerjerrie @alonzostrap @pouncepouncepouncepounce @davidreblogged (Shadow banned :///) (im prob going to go through at some point and reblog old stuff but blehh if you see that you see that)

IF WE ARE MOOTS and you want the url/ blog LMK! and ill give you it or at the least make you a member otherwise these will stay inactive unless I get another cats fixation/ start caring about the tumblr cats fandom a bit more again (ill prob still be active in mistocord)

All of my old blogs (Including davidrebooted and davidreblogged) will not go down so no worries if you want to go through it however I will be changing their names for the url :P

I think that's it uhhh all of my created media is on this blog alr that I care about so yeah, if you want my cats art just follow my art blog or whatever

and I hope everyone have a swagtastic day =^ ^=

#My posts #I will also organize my tags better on this blog hopefully

[xxlordalexanderxx]

There's no need to respond to this because this is more about trying to send you some good will and well wishes.

I'm sorry you went through all that. I'm sorry someone manipulated you into a relationship so they could weaponize you against their victims. I'm sorry they discarded you the second you made a decision based on your own merits. I'm sorry they've tainted aspects of role playing for you. I'm sorry for the damage they've done to you and everyone around you.

I'm glad to see you're still standing though and that you're willing to move forward with things. I'm amazed by your tact in admitting how things you were persuaded to do without thinking was wrong, and that you're opening the door for those who were bullied by you unknowingly are welcome to connect with you now if they so desire. I admire your grace and strength in all this.

I hope the bastard never darkens the RPC's doorstep again.

I wish you the best going forward. I hope peace returns to you and yours soon enough. ♥

Hey, thanks for the kind and graceful message. ❤️‍🩹

And yes, I will fully own my shit, I allowed myself to be weaponized by Shiloh and go along with these smear campaigns via blocking folks without asking questions, because he seemed like he knew his shit. But I should of thought for myself and asked questions, esp when I'm moots and or friends, with that person. And I will be doing so moving forward.

While I never went after folks, but just quietly blocked, that's still wrong and I'm extending an apology to those I broke moots with simply for taking Shi's word as law, as stated before my IMs and metaphorical door, are open to those who wish to rebuild bridges, mend good will, and only if you will have me. And if not, that is your right and I fully respect it.

I will be writing some apologies/and only reaching out to folks who re-followed back to personally apologize. I want to respect boundaries so If I've been refollowed then I take that as an ok to communicate. I do not remember some folks I blocked a year ago despite doing my best to unblock so if I can be reminded through some means I'll do my best to recollect and reconsider.

However some folks from around that time period I won't unblock for my own personal reasons not related to this whole mess.

But yeah, I feel the same and hope affected folks, my friends, and the rest of the community heals from this blight.

#⭐|slurkmun|⭐ #|🫖out of tea🫖| #💬;asks #tw drama #just in case #I'll only be answering positive stuff even if it's adjacent to the drama #ask to tag

[randomfoggytiger]

No Drama: Just Clearing Up Some Misconceptions

For the past few weeks, I've noticed that a few gif making blogs have been blocking me from seeing their posts... and I had my suspicions but didn't want to assume anything.

I'm crushed (no joke) to report my suspicions were correct.

A few weeks? months? ago, @jewish-mulder and I had an exchange which i thought was completely bantery and in good faith, see post here to determine for yourselves. The context was laughing over screenshots from DD's old skit with Gary Shandling. Anna/jewish-mulder read it through a bisexual lens-- which is a-okay to me! (the exchange is still in my archives here, for reference.) I saw it through DD and Gary's original intent-- Gary accidentally interpreting DD's actions as sexual interest rather than DD being a Weird Man TM; which is really funny to me. Regardless, either way is hilarious.

Soon after our exchange, I returned to the post to see if my last comment was responded to... and found the comments muted. Immediately after that, I noticed I could no longer reblog her gifs. Which... hurt; because, frankly, I was one of the mutuals that foamed over her new creations and supported (still do) her when she was debating putting watermarks on her gifs (because theft is revolting; and she has every right to protect her property.)

I had a prior incident that I thought was Tumblr weirdness: after joining tumblr, @jewish-mulder and @baronessblixen were my inspirations; and I loved (love) their creations. The first time I got blocked, I chocked it up to Tumblr weirdness (the first wave of the porn bots wrecked havoc); and, after contacting jewish-mulder through anon/Ao3, etc., she was just fine reinstating me. I had so much fun with her as a mutual. And it's okay if I'm not her cup of tea-- no one is everyone's! :DDD If she had needed to block me, that was okay in my book. So, when she did, I thought it was either Tumblr shenanigans or personal taste. If she wanted to refollow, she'd see my work and hop on later. In essence: I moved on.

BUT the timing always made me wonder worriedly... and my worst suspicions were confirmed when I noticed other gif blogs started blocking me.

So... I activated Anon Mode and found this post about me (screenshots below):

What's even more... crushing? is that I checked her replies and... yeah, it turns out I WAS blocked intentionally the first time.

I don't know why the first time, either, so I can't lay out proof. Didn't even have a suspicion on my part then, honestly.

(Gonna be honest: my "uwu" was something I use exclusively for this fandom because I felt accepted and included, sharing a space with fellow fans of a show that pulled me out of a COVID depression. I guesssssssssss I should dial back on that.)

Here's my response:

Anna, why didn't you just ask me? Why did you block me, never communicate, and secretly tell others to block me as well? I've never and will never do anything to hurt or marginalize anyone. Why did you not give me the curtesy to defend myself?

I am not a bigot. I condone hate of any kind; and I wish everyone to live their lives in their happiest way possible.

I want to have fun on my blog, laugh at my own things, and appreciate mine/your/everyone's humor. Your sexuality has nothing to do with my estimation of you as a person; and I'm both sorry it came across that way and hurt that you'd assume so about me.

Truly, I do hope this is all a misconception. I don't bear any ill will, I'm sorry if there was hurt because it was unintentional; and I don't want to pit you and yours against me. Keep making awesome things; and if our journeys are separate, then I wish you a good one, regardless.

Thank you to anyone who read this. Please don't cause her problems, etc.-- I don't think you will XDDD just had to put it out there-- and feel free to keep on keepin' on with Anna. Mutually enjoy each other to your hearts' content! I welcome everyone and don't want to draw lines, because your fandom or interpretation experiences are your own.

But I can't tolerate misunderstandings or... lies? To this day, her work is an inspiration to me; and I'll still read and enjoy her fics that drew me to Tumblr in the first place. And it really, really hurts to think I'd never have known about this if I hadn't followed my gut.

If you think there's something I'm missing or have missed out on, feel free to tell me-- comment, tag, anon, or dm. I'm always open.

#txf #life #this is whole situation is... harsh #but I need to get this out #I've been wondering why everyone has been quiet on my TL #and why the fandom net has been closing in a little #follow/block whoever you want #but that's.. not fair how you did it #this is awkward #and I'm a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit shaky about posting this #this community means a lot #I don't want to lose anyone #but that's not up to me #draw your own conclusions #and-- most importantly-- have a lovely week #and if you unfollow this blog then have a lovely time enjoying people you love. If I can't be that for you that's okay~ #No Drama: Just Clearing Up Some Misconceptions #tagging this as #drama #so others can avoid #jewish-mulder #iwtb-scully #BananaChef #anders-hawke

[koumeowkami]

I've been doing well — though not without having what felt like a rough two weeks to end the year.. it really is ironic how the brain can be said to be humanity's greatest asset, but also, have it turn against us.

I suppose you have to ride through the waves till it passes, like a lot of stuff right?

But yeaaaah, holidays or festivities can be really busy so I can relate a bit, mornings were so stressful since we were visiting relatives — Ah, but you only see them so often, they say~

As for my thoughts on the pararai anime, I did have a list of comments that I jotted down while watching, might be a bit too lengthy for this ask so I'll send another one soon!

Oh right right, you also asked if I was coming back... I suppose I am here now, and still I go by my old url on a sideblog to talk about enstars from. My actual main is still in the works >_> the sideblog is probably what I'll be frequenting since I still do fixate on Enstars a bit — but I also have been taking a break from that, if that makes sense?

Stuff like refollowing my mutuals I'm still a bit iffy about, since most of them also correlate under the "enstars sphere", but then I realized I could come around to you ☆

— aeriko

hi hi again <3 our mind loves playing tricks on us huh... i'm with you there, first uni stress and then other personal issues ruining my mood right at the end of year, but we'll get through this one too, yeah? :') i'm really glad you're doing good now tho!

yeah yeah, it's good that you're taking a break <3 and also thank you for making an exception and following me from your sideblog :3 i wasn't using tumblr much anymore cause i felt it kinda empty lately so this could incite me to come back hopefully 🙏🏻 (save me from prritwt pls)

#ask #🥀; aeri! #(genuinely cried at the thought that you remembered me btw)

[red-dyed-sarumane]

WHILE TRYING TO SEND YOU THIS ASK I ACCIDENTALLY UNFOLLOWED YOU AND HAD TO REFOLLOW AHHH anyways. i just realized i don't think i've ever asked or seen you post about how you got into vocaloid/vsynth?? what got you into this hell. i'm curious

totally fine this site makes it so easy to accidentally unfollow people i did it at least 2ce in the past week

so when i was like somewhere in the 10-12 range i was super active on flipnote hatena & kept coming across ones that used voca songs tho i didnt know it initially. the 3 songs i really credit with getting me into it are circus' insanity bc that was used just so so much & this luka song was Also used SOOO much & one animator i really liked used seleP's ellie once. my one irl friend knew more than me & when i told her i liked the songs she was like "oh yeah those are vocaloid songs" & then between looking those songs up & a bit of help from my friend who admitted wasnt really into it as much as knew what it was & started falling down the hole. ended up on the official vocaloid site in the middle of v3 era & found lapis & liked her a lot & ended up on yt looking for more of her & also whatever voca stuff got recc'd to me i would say i officially consider myself into it in early 2013 when i liked enough songs & saw enough reposted that i got an nnd account myself to watch them from the source. ive never really been into the whole giving synths their own personality part of the fandom until the isotopes bc of the 4koma ive just always really liked how people use them in songs & get so creative with it. ive always been more into specific songs &/or series idk i dont see that really changing any time soon

#asks #kafus #ive wanted to be a vocap since i was 13 bc of songs like rimokon #& series like kagepro & pandora voxx & shuuenpro #i found notes from back then not too long ago saying all the synths i wanted & what i wanted to do with them #cute. nostalgic.

[mickmundy]

hii everymerc my name is dutch, i'm a 30 year old butch Iesbian (he/him) who loves team fortress 2, resident evil, and fallout new vegas!! i mostly post headcanons, talk about my medic/sniper fic and make silly shitposts. you can find my tag list here. let's be friends yeah? ^_^ my askbox is always open and i love getting messages, ask games and headcanon requests, so feel free to drop me a line anytime! i'll love you forever if you leave nice tags on anything i write/post! ;_;

this acct can be nsfw; i'd prefer it if minors didn't follow me. mutuals can ask for my discord, but i won't give it out to anyone under 18! i queue from my likes and unfollow/refollow pretty casually! i dont tolerate terfs, racists, zionists, and so on. if you see me associating with shitheads PLEASE tell me! i also block proshippers, "mspec/bi/pan" Iesbians as well as their supporters. not up for discussion, thank you!

#dutchfoolery

[legolasghosty]

tumblr randomly unfollows you all the time :((

How rude of it!!! That's so dumb! But yeah I've had it do that to me too :((( Curse Tumblr trying to break us apart!

(I really appreciate you saying this though, cause I'm an anxious disaster and sometimes when I see that you refollowed me I get scared that you got mad at me for some reason and unfollowed me on purpose...)

[unknwnxquantity]

There is no one from my past that I want back romantically. I’ve healed past all that and made peace with things thankfully. But there are ppl I miss being friends withhhh 😭 like this one girl. It’s a little messy with her bc she was one of my ex best friend’s hs gf. He introduces her to that friend group and I don’t think she liked me much at the time bc I was super close to that friend (and I was his first kiss Idek if she knows that lmao) anyways yeah we were just mutuals for years. Then ended up unfollowing each other on stuff. Which is fine, no hard feelings we weren’t close lol

Fast fwd to peak covid she hits me up out the blue. Refollows me when my ig was still public and id write my silly deep descriptions, DMs me on ig on some “I know this is random but I’ve been feeling lost lately and I just read some of your IG posts. I aligned with all that you said, my soul is calling to you and I really feel like I need you in my life” and some “it feels like every cell in my body is aligned, my ears are ringing, I really feel like I needed to hit you up. Your energy is pulling me in” And I’m like uhm…. Ms girl? What? lol. Me being who I am, a part of me is like omg she feels called to meeee and sees meeee but another part is like …😀? You are this man’s ex hitting me on some “crazy” shit. It was like a couple paragraphs of saying verbatim what I said and how she was feeling lost in life and clicked on my post and then it all started clicking. I responded back kinda vaguely and then days later she’s like hey I didn’t mean to scare you but I never felt that aligned and something so right in my life and was just so excited. And I’m like okay you got me lol let’s be friends and talk about spirituality. Bc I was also going through like a second awakening during 2020, like another huge spiritual journey. This was a phase of me just talking to new ppl on tiktok, tinder, etc, old friends, etc.

People told me not to trust her. They said don’t do it. But I’m glad I trusted her when I did. We’d talk about the most small but intricate stuff bro. From h0lly w3ird, to the stuff that starts with an A that’s depicted in monsters inc (I was going DOWN all types of dark rabbit hole conspiracies with others too during that time, it’s sad but it’s what’s happening behind the curtains)… all the stuff you can’t talk about on social media basically lol to spirituality. Deep rooted, ancient practices, rituals, astrology, medicine, holistic approaches, etc. or even random shit like how a leaf resembles human veins, and that the whole of one human represents a whole of one tree, and how it plays into a whole ecosystem of things. And how trees and humans are similar to one cell. Theres millions and billions, and yet it can be narrowed down to just one for our brains to try and comprehend the endlessness of the universe. Or like this one time I sent her a pic of the trees while I was in nature at this park I’d go to a lot during covid, that helped me heal a lot and I’d go on walks with my family and that started our little walks and talks, and for the first time ever I was close to my mom, bc of those walks. But anyways I sent her a pic and was like hey I thought of you and I sent a voice memo I think idk. But I remember her being like “I wonder what the birds are saying when they chirp.” And I was like YOOOOOO that really rocked my world. Like what are they talking about amongst each other? What other conversations have they had today? What are their day to day lives like? What is their level of consciousness? Do they realize they do the same shit everyday but that everyday is always a little bit different? A different route to fly, a different bug to eat, a different person they see at that same moment just going about their own consciousness? Do they realize the earth is dying around them? We all cross paths and yet never bat an eye to each other and not realize how fucking cool but random life is. We had a lot of talks like that. It felt like someone really got it. How mysterious and infinite life is. Infinite infinities, infinite everything it hurts my brain to think about. It’s all happening at the same time. Every timeline, every life, every fucking thing. Our death our past lives our future lives are all happening at the same time!! Are you even real? Am I the only consciousness and everyone else is a projection that was randomly set by the simulation? Why am I in this particular simulation? WHO am I really? That’s a scary theory I try not to align with that one. I need to stop my hearts beating fast.

Wait one more. Another random thing that came to mind is why do I feel pain if I bang my hand on the counter? Or a hard surface? What makes a surface hard? Why instead of pain, why don’t I feel happiness or yodel (yodel is never apart of my vocabulary idk why out of all words that was what I thought of)? Who decided that the feeling of pain is the appropriate reaction for when you bang your body part on something? What is pain? Why does emotional pain hurt more than physical? I know why, but who in the simulation made the rules like this???? Why does it rain from up above, but not from the ground up? Why does it rain period? WHO looked at the rain and said “yup let’s call this rain”? My mind always thinks like this sober bro that’s y I can’t smoke bc then I really start to see the world happening all in one moment it’s too much.

Going into my memories thinking about this is making me feel a little weird. Like I should leave her in the past. Which I am! But I’m always like no it’s okay let’s go through these weird feelings i didn’t need to bring up and explore it even if it makes you feel weird for the next couple hours or days. Just to revisit them.. I’m allowed to reflect.

Back to the original plot of the story, I had to cut her out my life tho bc she betrayed my trust. We started to like each other a little but she was in DR with her grandma for the summer. We’d talk almost everyday til she got back and we were suppose to meet up then she stopped responding for a bit. Something was off and she didn’t admit to it at first. Til she randomly tells me like hey.. I didn’t know how to tell you this but I moved in with my ex bf bc my family didn’t wanna take me back in (which is why she went to her grandmas in the first place). I felt so fucking betrayed. I stopped talking to her and she would text me hoping to forgive her and that she really missed me. I already knew she wasn’t the most trustworthy person to begin with, when I learned the tea as to why ex best friend and her broke up. I can’t really go into too many details, it was something she did, but she never told me herself so idk. lol but yeah. Even months after that, I accepted her apology bc it wasn’t really that deep in retrospect. But then I had to cut her off bc she said something while I was in my relationship about having a dream about me and we made out…. And once my gf found out about that bc ofc that’s gonna have to come up. There was other little things too that happened with her where my gf was like no she cannot be in your life if we’re in this relationship bc that’s disrespectful and she’s crossed boundaries. Which I agree. I cut her off out the blue tho, even after we had a convo about us being on good terms. It sucks but sometimes you gotta do what’s right to protect your relationships energy. She even re requested to follow me on IG over a year ago tho and that’s just a bit messy. Messy girl. That right there proves she does not take loyalty in relationships seriously. But is that unfair to say? She’s in one tho with a man traveling living her best life. Hope she’s doing good. Okay edit……. I found out she’s pregnant?? What is life. Congrats tho fr

Idk what the point of this was. I was feeling nostalgic this morning. I’m slowly learning that just bc you miss someone doesn’t mean they need to be in your life. Past me would be like BUT BUT WHY, WHY CANT PPL JUST GIVE INTO THEIR EMOTIONS :( But now I’m like I get it. Logically sometimes things are left better untouched. It’s a balance of knowing when and when not to do something even if you really want to. And even if the good intention is there, life’s about reading the room and trusting the universe. Not trying to bring things back to life when it’s better left untouched or at least untouched in this moment. Maybe it’s done for the rest of your life, or maybe just for this period of time in your human experience. It’s like when the media makes more and more sequels of a movie that was better off with just the one movie. Like Toy Story 3 and 4 wasn’t necessary. It was cute. But it tarnishes a little the image of how beautiful Toy Story 1 and 2 were. Or like jersey shore family vacation, like y’all need to dead that already. Again, it’s all about reading the room. You can’t just give into your impulses. That’s a main struggle I have too. So I’m trying to become more disciplined. That’s part of what life’s about (s/o to my Virgo north node🤪🥲).

#unknwnxquantity

[sunshine-zenith]

For context, I work in healthcare

Due to Reasons, there was a small but very much identifiable puddle of blood on the sidewalk/street outside my clinic, and I and my coworker had no idea if this was an Our Problem thing or a Not Our Problem thing. It didn’t feel right just leaving it — on one hand, we’re in a city in an interesting location, and those streets have absolutely seen many a biohazard in its days. Plus it’s actually not the most noticeable thing in the world, being mostly on the street/edge of the sidewalk. On the other, I feel like if someone needs medical help, they’re probably very stressed out and if they happen to look in the wrong direction and see blood outside the medical building it probably won’t help that stress, ya know? So we turn to the slack chat our coworkers are in

We see one of the trainers who has been there forever start typing — she’s written literal rule books for us to follow and knows a bunch of Big Important Secret Laws off the top of her head, so we get excited. Her reply? “I think that is a question for facilities!” Exclamation mark and all. Who is facilities? Fuck if I know, thanks for the help. After this, I get a bunch of messages from my coworkers that are telling us to look for an “emergency spill kit” (sounds cool, but we couldn’t find it because of course it wouldn’t be there when we actually need it), to contact facilities (who and how???), or saying they have no idea if that’s even our job but like. Yeah that’s not a great look. Again, lotta exclamation points in the chat

My coworker finds facilities but since she was actually a float, she couldn’t submit a ticket with them. I try to refollow the steps she took and I think I submit the ticket successfully but I’m not sure. I’m seeing a screen marking my submission as High Priority (Biohazard), and I see there are at least five unfamiliar names looking at it, but I receive no confirmation or notification or word or anything

The puddle of blood, which is still very much liquid at this time, has been out there for like half an hour at this point

At this point, I decide just throw on some gloves, grab one of our chux pads, and at least soak it up a little. My coworker is realizing she’s not the biggest fan of the sight of blood. We still have no idea if this is even an Our Problem thing.

Dear reader, to truly appreciate the visual of this next part you need to understand that a “chux pad” is one of those blue and white puppy pee pads.

As I am out there in the street, wearing my work scrubs and jacket, holding a puppy pee pad to the concrete that is rabidly turning red, someone chooses this moment to walk down the street. I try to ignore them. According to my coworker, who is watching this from the clinic window, this poor soul is very much not ignoring me. They start walking faster and even swerve their steps to give me a very wide berth. They were reportedly giving me major side eye

We, naturally, tell all our coworkers in the slack chat. Everyone laughs at us Because Healthcare Workers

At this point, the Identifiable Blood Pool could pass for a ketchup stain or something. From now on if I see a possible ketchup stain on the sidewalk, I Will Have Doubts. Whatever, good enough

Aaaaand then it starts raining. Not hard but it’s definitely heavy. It last for like fifteen minutes but by the time it’s done, the “ketchup stain” is gone. Guess we wasted that chux pad, but what can ya do

We move on, the slack chat makes memes about the whole situation, all is well. We forget about it because we have patients and labs and such. Several hours later, right before I clock out, what do I get in my email? A short message from facilities telling me that any and all blood outside the building is in fact a Not Our Problem thing and to just not worry about it.

Neat.

#the sun shines #cw blood #long post

[davekat-sucks]

Ya know draw whatever you want, turn a character into your oc or whatever but like have some self awareness that, that's what you're doing? People will change the gender and race of a character and say "it's just my headcanon" then get extremely defensive and try too peice together "proof" on why that character is actually this or that or some shit. And the evidence is hardly anything. Like do they actually believe what they're saying? It's so easy just to say that "I'm just projecting" I've seen it so many times where people see canon evidence of a character being a certain way and they'll hit you with "it may say that BUT we TOTALLY don't know for sure" Why do you care then? I thought you said it was a headcanon? That's what a headcanon is it's what YOU see, not what's in canon. One time a person who i was following, obsessed with a minor background character had asked what the gender of the character was to their following, seeing how it was a question, i answered, and said the character was female because it had breasts and another character had canonically referred to the character as a girl. When i said this to them they got PISSED and made a twitter thread complaining about how "we don't actually know for sure". What i think the case actually was, is that the person was probably just trying to get people to validate their hc because they liked headcanoning the character as a boy because they wanted their ship for the character to be gay. They even unfollowed me and posted about it on their priv. I went to go dm them and apologized that i didn't mean too come off as forcibly telling them that they couldn't interpret the character that way and i was making an analysis based off what i gathered. They did apologize and refollow me, and later on expressed regret for it on priv. Now i don't like talking behind peoples backs like this even if they did make an angry thread about me, especially since it's been resolved and i feel sorta bad for talking about it. But I'm just so sick of people getting aggressive right away, and i wish people would just slow down and not take stuff like this so seriously. Greatful the situation got resolved but I've seen this play out so many times where the situation was just aggressive all around. I don't like things coming to that and it's all over a fictional character.

Yeah. It shouldn't be that big of a deal.

#fandom #fandoms

[freeuselandonorris]

hiiii i love your stuff SO so sososo much, sorry for just now accidentally unfollowing and refollowing instead of clicking the "ask" button I?? don't know?? what happened?? anyway!! 33, 39, and 43 if you want!! or any combination thereof :D

ahaha no worries, it happens!! and thank you 😘

33. Do you want to be published some day?

i already have! i’ve had some short stories published and a couple of poems. outside of fic i mostly write literary/contemporary fiction and cyberpunk/speculative fiction.

i would dearly love to have a novel published one day. i’ve been writing a cyberpunk novel about a tech start-up turned sex cult for a couple of years now which has been an exhausting but very fun process that has taught me a lot. whether it’ll ever see the light of day, who knows, but i’d like to hope so.

39. Share a snippet from a WIP

here’s the opening paragraphs of an appalling daniel/lando/oscar threesome i started after the daniel.jpg photos, which i am chipping away at slowly but greatly enjoying:

Vegas, baby. It’s a cesspit. A monument to money: spending it, losing it, making it back, and all the terrible and fun things you can buy with it. Sex, drugs, cocktails strong enough to strip the top layer of skin off your tongue. It’s tacky as all get-out, fake as hell. A pink plastic dildo compared to an honest-to-god flesh and blood fuck. Basically all of humanity’s worst impulses dialled up to 11 and squeezed into 350 square kay-ems. Daniel fucking loves it.

He finishes explaining all this to Lando with a bit of a flourish, and then zips up and goes to wash his hands.

and here’s a little snippet from the next chapter of that one from work can come over on monday night, a scene i wrote almost entirely because i was desperately entertained by the idea of george taking the register with a clipboard at GPDA meetings:

“Alright, Piastri,” he says when he sees Oscar, smiling and standing up to shake his hand. “Good work today. Those upgrades are looking sharp.”

“Yeah, cheers,” Oscar says, sliding into one of the chairs next to Albon, who’s nursing a hot drink in a paper cup and already looks bored. “Perfect way to celebrate, this is.”

Alex gives him a sidelong smile, while George frowns very slightly, eyebrows pinching together like he can’t figure out if Oscar’s joking or having a go.

“Definitely my ideal way to spend a Saturday night,” Alex agrees, taking another sip of whatever’s in his cup and wrinkling his nose. “Christ, can nobody in this place make a decent cup of tea?”

The room is slowly filling up, and George cranes his head to count off the numbers, ticking off names against a register on his clipboard. Oscar stifles a smile.

43. Do you take a sadistic joy in whumping your characters, or are you more the "If you hurt them I would kill everyone and then myself" kind of person?

it depends on your definition of hurt! i definitely take a sadistic joy in hurting them in a kinky way sometimes, but i’m no good at writing full-on angst or even really hurt/comfort. i do tend to put some struggles into my fics, especially the longer ones, because otherwise the plot can drag, but i don’t especially look forward to doing it other than in the sense that it’s a good writing exercise to imagine how the blorbos would react to emotionally tricky situations. this is especially fun with F1 drivers are they are generally emotionally stunted.

it also depends a lot on the character, because some of them (charles, george, jev) are very emotionally intense and prone to self-flagellation which means it’s both canon and satisfying to make them struggle, as in beautiful one day, perfect the next for instance. others, like daniel or oscar or max, are various flavours of repressed and/or not emotionally demonstrative and so it’s interesting for me to think about how they would react — both outwardly and inwardly — to difficult situations, like daniel’s veering between denialism and the odd flash of reluctant maturity in you know how sticky it gets, or oscar’s tendency to compartmentalise and make lando think he’s uninterested in ‘this one from work…’

thank you for askinggg ❤️

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[mxplumberry]

SEEING YOU REFOLLOW ME WAS SO JARRING. BRIEFLY CONFUSED. but oh my god yeah i wish deleting a sideblog Didn't do that. sorry that happened good lird.

I'm so sorry to everyone that had to go through the confusion.

This truly is a webbed site. They've fucked this place up severely by now