#so many spoilers

[sicnin]

"...to lose oneself..."

#weeping !!!!!!!!!!! crying !!!!!!!!!! #totk #totk spoilers #totk fanart #tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom spoilers #tears of the kingdom fanart #zelda #zelda fanart #zelda spoilers #light dragon #light dragon fanart #spoilers #so many spoilers #i drew this almost two weeks ago when i found out #i just... #baby girl im so sorry i will fix this #i WILL fix this #my art

[the-promise-has-been-made]

Like with all Mike Flanagan shows, I have to sit and stew on The Fall of the Huse of Usher for a bit to let it fully settle, and then I'll probably have to rewatch it to get the full picture.

But what I can say now after the first watch has sat with me for 2 days is that compared to Hill House which dealt with grief, Bly Manor which dealt with love, and Midnight Mass which dealt with faith, House of Usher for me dealt with consequences. Madeline and Roderick were offered the deal that they could basically do whatever the heck they wanted, and all the consequences of their horrible actions would not be suffered by them. Which is essentially what capitalist super-rich experience all the time - and we, the ordinary people, suffer the consequences. It's funny that they thought it worked like that, but I guess they saw their father who suffered no consequences for abuse and for mistreating their mother whom he had ann affair with (if it even was that, and not rape) - but he did suffer consequences, he was strangeled to death by a dead woman. And Griswold, who seemingly suffered no consequences for his fraud and the many crimes of his company, except he did - he was literally cask of Amontillado'ed which is honestly the funniest thing! But for the Ushers, the consequences were suffered not just by the anonymous masses, not just by the thousands upon thousands that suffered and died because of their actions (powerfully depicted by the rain of bodies Verna showed Roderick in their meeting in his tower) and not by Madeline nd Roderick themselves, but very directly, very brutally, by their own children - who all in the span of a few days were driven insane and horrifically killed. They were offered this deal, and while Madeline had no children and made sure afterwards that she never would, Roderick already had two children by that point. He signed that deal not for some hypothetical children he might have, but for Frederick and Tammerlane who were already alive then, and for his 4 as of yet unborn children! They barely hesitated. The Ushers TOOK that choice away from their children, they doomed these children before they were even born. And they doomed even their grandchild before she was born. If that doesn't show the crippling consequences of actions we take today, I don't know what does. Every decision the rich and powerful make today has devastatign consequences for generations to come - not hypothetical, but very real and very dire consequences. But these people don't care about that, because it's not consequences they suffer NOW, so it's not their problem. The Ushers are charicaturized representations of that mindset, their children representations of the generations of people fucked over by their decisions. That's why I am torn between feeling glee at the bizarre demise each of the Usher children met (cause let's face it, they were all assholes and messed up) and at the same time feel immense pity for them (because the fact that they were assholes and messed up was almost not their fault but a product of growing up under the trauma Roderick and Madeleine suffered when they were children, and in a mindset where they genuinely believed being richer than God made them immune to cosequence, and because their fate had been decided for them without their knowledge).

But also, Verna gave EACH of these kids an option. They were all going to die, sure, but they were given the choice to do the right thing. Prospero was offered the chance to end his orgy and his filming of incriminating material but he chose to continue. Camille was offered the chance to turn around and go home and instead die peacefully in her sleep. Napoleon was offered the chance not to lie to his boyfriend and bring a fake 'cat' home, and instead go home, sober up, get his shit together, be honest about his fuck-ups. But he didn't. Victorine was offered the chance to say 'no, this treatment is not ready for human testing' but instead she deceived what she believed to be an innocent, desperate woman into essentially signing away her life. Tammerlane could have stopped her jealousy, her envy, and instead reach out to her husband, actually communicate, actually appreciate him, but she didn't. And Frederick, well, Verna spelled it out for him, didn't she? He had to bring her home, he had to bring out the pliers. He CHOSE to abuse and brutalize and mutilate his wife when she was completely defenseless, helpless, and innocent - yes she had gone to the orgy because she felt unappreciated, unseen, and nothing actually happened, she didn't cheat, her only 'crime' was chosing to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. He chose to be a monster to her and to their child. All of them could have stopped, could have chosen to reflect on their actions and be better, do BETTER. Instead, they doubled down on their horrific behaviour, and sealed their own fate. All except Lenore, who until the very end chose to be good, chose to be kind, chose to see the best in people. That's why she was the only one to whom Verna appeared with kindness, giving her the certainty that her life mattered, that her sacrifice would save thousands, that her mother would do incredibly good in her name in the future, and she did not die with horror and suffering, she died peaceful, quick, quiet, like Verna had offered all the others. Verna was not so much a demon as she was the personification of "actions, meet consequences".

TLDR: The Fall of the House of Usher is the hardcore version of 'play stupid games, win stupid prizes' and will for me be part of the 'rich people actually suffer consequences for their shitty actions' cinematic universe.

#The Fall of the House of Usher #The Fall of the House of Usher spoilers #major spoilers #so many spoilers #the 'rich people meet consequences' cinematic universe

[averytirednerd]

About Episodes 7 and 8...MASSIVE SPOILERS!!

Initial thoughts (because if I talk about EVERYTHING right now you'll be here for at least half an hour)...

WHAT THE HELL?!

I mean I loved getting to watch the season finale, don't get me wrong. But I have just as many grievances as things I loved about it and also SO MUCH happened?!?!?!

Charlie: Loved getting to see her be all demon-y, I've been waiting all season. Also loved her and the cannibals (especially Rosie!!!). So glad she got to work w/ Luci to protect the hotel <333 She and Vaggie are adorable too.

Vaggie: I really enjoyed watching her and Carmilla's song, that was cool. Protecting her girlfriend, very cute. I liked seeing her and Lute have that little face-off.

Husk: Sad that we didn't get to see much of him, but I get it. His interactions with the others were sweet (especially Angel). I loved the one line he got to sing on his own in that last song of episode 8. 😍

Angel: Ngl I am very glad he wasn't the one to die. It would've been a fun little "oh crap" moment but I really didn't want to be right. He's still got business down there. His interactions with the others here are everything to me, and he's just grown so much and aaaaaa. It's lovely to see! I love him more and more with every episode.

Niffty: YOU GO, GIRL!!!! Love to see the stabbing. I also really loved the...one line Nifty got. Kimiko Glenn's voice is a gift, I freaked out over getting to hear one line. Anyway. not much else to say other than I definitely thought it was Alastor doing a big "oh look, I'm alive!" thing when Adam got stabbed, but I was pleasantly surprised.

Cherri Bomb/Sir P: I was surprised, to say the least, when Cherri and Sir P had that little moment. Glad they got it before he went and DIED. Cherri is such a good friend to Angel and she's great. Now, onto Sir P...WOW, OKAY. Glad we know Charlie's plan isn't completely stupid. Wonder how Sera's gonna react to him being there now, lol.

The Vees: FIRST OFF, VOX?????? "This is better than sex!" 💀💀💀 Truly was not expecting to see as much of the Vees as we did. Not complaining though. It was...interesting...to say the least, watching Vox get as excited as he did over the prospect of Al dying (still as obsessed as ever, fr). Not at all surprised to see Val and Vox have a thing going, I figured from the interactions we've seen so far. Them dancing together was silly, them practically making out was less so 😃. Also, gotta continue the love for Velvette--putting up with these two idiots must take a lot. Also also, her HAIR! HER HAIR!! EEEEE

Lucifer: I reallllyyyyyy enjoyed seeing Luci make a return to help Charlie, even if it was in one of those "last-minute saves" that I usually hate. Idk, makes sense here I guess because he's probably always watching over Charlie some way. ALSO LUCI AND CHARLIE GOING ALL DEMON-Y TOGETHER WAS <33333333 I really loved him starting off that last song in episode 8, and telling Charlie that he believes in her. It was so sweet. I love Luci sm, hoping he becomes a more integral part of the crew in s2.

Adam/Lute/Lilith: HAHA HOW DOES IT FEEL TO LOSE??? Lute got what she deserved with the whole...arm thing. ALSO WHAT--JUST GONNA CASUALLY DROP LILITH IN HERE NOW? Sure, fine, whatever, totally cool. Not sure how to feel about Lilith atm so moving on. I dunno why I was so shocked upon seeing Adam's face. I guess I expected him to...not look as good as he does? Also so upset that he broke Al's staff. How rude. He sucks.

Rosie: Not how I expected her to sound, but I'm most certainly not disappointed. I don't have much to say other than I loved literally everything about her. No complaints--at least not yet ig, need to go back and rewatch the episodes critically. Her and Alastor is everything to me, and seeing them dance was <333333 I cannot express my excitement over it enough.

Alastor: Saved him for last because yes. If I wasn't limiting myself to a short paragraph for each, I'd be writing a whole essay just about Al, I swear....CANNOT believe what just happened omg. Not only did we get to see silly Al in episode 7, but we got to see scary (and scared) Al in episode 8. He's really freaking out, it's so entertaining! I'm so glad it wasn't him who died, I started getting a bit worried for a minute there....His relationship with Rosie is aaaaa, best of besties fr. Fighting Adam scene was glorious. Making Vox act like an idiot even when not trying was funny to watch (Vox's obsession with this guy is so silly). Him retreating sure was a move, but I'm glad he didn't get all stubborn and end up dying. Him ranting a bit in his section of the final song was so...AAAAAAA. Man is so scared, he looks stressed as can be. I need to see Alastor just have an external breakdown because he honestly feels like he's on the verge of one. 💀

Stopping for now before I go on a bigger rant than I already have. To those who read all this, I'm so sorry pfft. Feel free to leave a comment if there's something you wanna discuss (or, better yet, send one of those ask thingies. I do not have comments figured out yet...)

Anyway, have a good one <3

#hazbin hotel #hazbin #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin spoilers #like seriously #so many spoilers #hazbin hotel rant #hazbin hotel discussion #hazbin hotel charlie #hazbin hotel vaggie #hazbin hotel husk #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin hotel niffty #hazbin hotel cherri bomb #hazbin hotel sir pentious #hazbin hotel vees #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel valentino #hazbin hotel velvette #hazbin hotel lucifer #I Love Luci #hazbin hotel adam #hazbin hotel lute #hazbin hotel lilith #hazbin hotel rosie #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel episode 7 #hazbin hotel episode 8 #my post

[ineffably-poetic]

i finished good omens 2, here’s my list of things that made me go insane

spoilers below the cut, of course

First of all. In the scene where Crowley is making stars, he shelters Az under his wing, mirroring them in Eden. Thats’s amazing.

Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy plays. my life is complete (except not really because The Ending.)

going back to the angel!crowley scene: Az thought he called him gorgeous, when crowley was talking about the stars lol

Nina truly believed that Crowley was gay. As in there was no way he was straight. “Have you got a husband? A boyfriend? Is bookselling just your bit on the side?” AHGH

Beelzebub and Gabriel <333333

Shax saying she heard a rumor crowley and aziraphale were “an item”

THE MAGICIAN MINISODE. AND THE JOB ONE HA

Crowley and Az danced together. THEY DANCED TOGETHER. AND HELD HANDS FOR A MOMENT.

Gabriel read the first line of the Good Omens book. “It was a nice day.”

“You’re a good lad” “I’m not actually, either.” finally the fact that they have no gender is addressed in the show :00

”that’s the point. no nightingales.” sorry, neil, who GAVE YOU PERMISSION TO BREAK MY HEART.

“we could have been an us.”

”if gabriel an beelzebub can go off together we can too.”

crowley mentioning alpha centauri and Az giving him a Look

The kiss.

The kiss.

Maggie and Nina telling Crowley to confess

the poison/body snatching scene :)))

”I forgive you.” “Don’t bother.”

yellow bentley

the signs in hell: “Heaven looks down on you because you are pathetic” “we hate you” and, the classic, “please do not lick the walls”

“you told him to shut his stupid mouth and die already, and i. did not. care for it.”

and very other time crowley got protective over Az.

i cant think of anything else right now. but it was amazing. can’t wait for season 3 to be confirmed (someday soon, hopefully. if the studios could, you know, stop being so terrible and just talk to the writers.)

talk to me in the comments if you like, it’s 1am and i’m not gonna be able to sleep any time soon :,)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #good omens 2 #good omens s2 #gos2 #gos2spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #spoilers #SO MANY SPOILERS #ineffable bureaucracy

[beedreamscape]

I love how we get introduced to John's powers in the most casual and/or stupid ways:

*necro dead on the floor after bleeding herself for him* oi--? for fuck sake! *casually resurrects her* sorry, luv, did I say you could die? No, back to work

*water full of bodies approaches his shoes* ew ew hell no *lifts the fucking earth and moves the waters*

*tries being funny to his friends* guys guys meet Ulysses and Titania hhahah *puppets two very dead corpses*

*after eating shitty soup and watching his oldest friend explode* *freezes everyone and everything around him* casually: harrow dear what the actual fuck?

*rematerializes himself from bloody powder after stabilizing the sun* well, that was awkward...

Ugh! you're pissing me off *explodes your heart and cracks your skull*

*needs a sample of your dna* so anyway I ripped his whole arm off, don't worry, he didn't feel a thing

Oh look, peaches! *turns somebody's bone into a can opener*

Shit shit the cops are after us *raises 2 acres worth of a meter-thick meat wall with perpetual bone foundation* i think this will do for now

*gets outsmarted by some trillionaires* well well well not so fast *kills the entire solar system and puts out the sun and still fails to catch them*

#i love him so muuuch #go off king mansplain manipulate manwhore #but don't forget your best. manfailure #john gaius #tlt spoilers #htn spoilers #ntn spoilers #so many spoilers #the locked tomb

[yuzusern]

This year’s movie is 7/10.

Should’ve named it Detective Conan: Tracking device tag (I’m corny)

Spoilers ahead in the cut ⬇️ And I mean a crazy amount of spoilers. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

Set in Hakodate, Hokkaido prefecture with the theme of the entire movie about swords and the lost treasure no one can find after they hid it.

Half Japanese rich guy (with a crazy band of mercenaries) goes around and tries to steal them for himself after KID steals the two he had in his possession.

There’s just so much lore and deductions in this movie that action scenes are halved compared to recent movies.

And the amount of tracking devices the characters used. Conan, the half Japanese guy, KID, the actual murderer, even Hattori!! I can understand most but Hattori??

Let’s not forget the love story between Heiji and Kazuha. At least it progressed, but figures the ending would end up like a joke as usual and Heiji’s screaming internally.

Momiji was in the movie but she was playing “Where in Hokkaido is Hattori Heiji?” And went all over Hokkaido looking for him (Her role was basically Hokkaido PR for the viewers. She helped with the puzzle solving but the rest of the time, she’s in her helicopter finding Hattori)

Aoko makes an appearance in the movie because her father gets shot protecting a suspect. Ran and Aoko don’t meet but KID’s pretty much keeping watch over them, hoping Nakamori will wake up. KID is blaming himself for not being able to stop the shooting in time. And that scene is burned into my memory because that is one powerful moment to realize KID never wants any harm to come to Nakamori, even if KID himself is getting shot at.

Kudo Yusaku and Yukiko also show up but if you weren’t in the loop about the frenzy that happened on Twitter, to put it short, Yusaku and Kuroba Toichi are twins. Yusaku is the older, Toichi is the younger. Which makes Kaito and Shinichi first cousins.

They’ve touched on this 18 years ago in files 570-573. Toichi told young Shinichi that he’s his younger brother (in reference to Yusaku). But it isn’t exactly direct and a very odd statement to make at the beginning of the case. Yusaku was also the one to name him KID because of Toichi’s handwriting of 1412 looks like KID.

But besides that case, they don’t touch it until the movie (which is also not canon btw, including all movie OVAs and episode tie ins). If Gosho adds it to his manga, then we can consider the fact canon (so 570-573 brother fact is canon for 18 years but people are deciding to scream about it now)

This whole movie revolves around the age old question, “Are Kaito and Shinichi related?”

But the one thing everyone should be screaming about is Kuroba Toichi is alive in the movie. After being confirmed dead and come up at the very end of the movie to text Yusaku, this was a shocker. And wearing an all black version of KID’s outfit.

As for the 2025 trailer, we gonna get Kogoro in a forest. In the middle of a blizzard. Don’t ask 😂 I was just as lost

#detective conan #kaito kid #kaito kuroba #conan edogawa #hattori heiji #new movie #movie 2024 #SPOILERS #SO MANY SPOILERS #the million dollar pentagram

[loverboy1717]

I’d like to clarify that the ending is good. The ending is GREAT! I would have let a certain somebody NOT fucking die. Especially NOT in the arms of a sobbing Ed. (But also Ed looked fucking good in that white blouse with the gold accents lbr) but I love that The Swede is back. I love that Jackie is on board! I love that Stede learned that piracy was never the goal but family and love were. “What’s that smell?” Was a call back to “the rotting first mate” line and I cackled. Buttons coming back to chill with Iz was impeccable. It was objectively beautiful.

There were a million other things that I loved, little moments that really made my heart happy.

But. BUT. The pace was a mess. There was no pay off cus there wasn’t enough time for actual tension. I know it wasn’t their fault cus MAX was the worst about their budget, but that was a premature ejaculation for sure. Like it was really truly a mess for pacing. We got more time with Pop Pop and his kid than we did with Stede and Ed at the end. Sigh.

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd season 2 #spoilers #BIG SPOILERS #SO MANY SPOILERS #our flag means death spoilers

[brainlessbaguette]

Okay I'm doing a Fionna and Cake ep 2 ramble, because there is so much Finn slander rn and after binging all of Adventure Time I'm losing my marbles over this.

So heavy spoilers below

This is probs gonna be a mess and idc if nobody reads this, I just want to chuck my feelings into the void of the internet.

First and foremost I genuinely DO NOT believe Finn is using Jake's kids to replace Jake. Finn has always been very extroverted and has been shown to have separation and abandonment issues (remember how fast he freaked when fern ditched him or how weird finn sword started acting after grass sword shattered it, and just Martin). It makes sense for his character that'd he'd continue adventuring with other friends and family after Jake. We also have to remember PB and Marcie are out being together, so while I'm sure they still hang out its not as much as it used to be. I genuinely see him turning to his remaining family to see if they want to tag along. Like I could 100% be wrong, but I feel if he was using Jake's kids he would've pushed more to get TV to follow them, but instead he just asked once and then just accepted/respected TV's decision to dip.

Okay now Simon and Finn are both grieving, and neither of them are dealing with it well. Finn has clearly emotionally regressed a bit and is struggling with the loss of Jake. There were numerous times where Jake showed to be really cool with death and Finn not at all be cool with Jake dying. I wouldn't be surpirised if they never really made any progress with that problem, again pretty sure Finn has abandonment issues, so its very easy to see Jake's passing setting him back years in emotional growth. But people have been saying things like "Finn's being ignorant to Simons feelings" "He's in complete denial" "He needs to learn to be a better friend" "He's lost all of the character growth he had in the show" and I cannot deal with this. These comments are the reason I'm making this because shenanigans.

A quick play by play of the very important interaction that people seem to gloss over.

Finn meets up with Simon starting to lose his shit in the bar over Fionna and Cake. He immediately tries to calm him down and Simon freaks out a little more. Finn acknowledges this isn't about the stories and gently asks him whats wrong. Simon proceeds to tell him while clearly having a breakdown, Finn tries to calm him down and even tells him he's sorry. Presumably a "I'm sorry your feeling this way." Simon then admits some really heavy stuff and at this point Finn realizes hes way out of his comfort zone and asks if he's talked to Marcie, i.e. the person that would be able to provide more/better support. Simon brushes that off, Finn basically hits him with a "there's so much more to live for" and Simon says some even darker things, Finn looks around for help, and at this point decides to play the distraction card.

Thats still our boy! Hes damaged but not completely emotionally unaware. He also knew his limits, he looked for help when things got dark and then began to try some stuff that helped him. Like honestly if a friend was saying some of the things Simon was to me and I had no backup I'd also play the distraction card. Were they good distractions? No, not for Simon. But he was genuinely trying. He's not happy but he's staying cheery to try and get Simon in a better place. He also isn't intentionally forcing Simon to go with him, and takes him home as soon as he expresses that he's done.

Its a mess, they're a mess and are absolutley not the ones to help each other. The blindfolds in the forest or "the blind leading the blind" is the perfect expression for what this trainwreck is. They both need outside help and I think thats what we're going to see in this show. This was the first two episodes that set the stage. I imagine there will be a "Finn Mertens" episode, so like lets chill out and cut our boy some slack, at least until we see the whole story, he genuinely tried. Honestly, having just rewatched the whole show, I have a fair bit of faith in the writing team, I highly doubt they'd butcher Finn's character like that.

Anyway I'm loving this show so far, just bugged by some of the hot takes to come out of it. This is all my opinions, so I guess my hot takes? But I just wanted to stand up for the boy.

Also also, people better not be blaming Marcie for being neglectful. Shes barely been seen yet, and currently has no idea whats happening. Give it a bit.

I'm also under the impression Finn's got a separate arm for adventuring, soley because getting another major injury off camera is just kinda out of charcter for the show. But Idk maybe they're just trying something new.

#not a writer so expect errors #adventure time #adventure time spoilers #fiona and cake #fiona and cake spoilers #finn the human #simon petrikov #spoilers #so many spoilers

[mekare-art]

Bonus:

The many moods of Li Lianhua, Pt. 16, episode 27

HE‘S GOING THROUGH IT. It was so hard to choose which caps to use. I have about 100 more…

Pt. 1, Pt. 2, Pt. 3, Pt. 4, Pt. 5, Pt. 6, Pt. 7, Pt. 8, Pt. 9, Pt. 9b, Pt. 10, Pt. 11, Pt. 12, Pt. 13, Pt. 14, Pt. 15

#my art #mysterious lotus casebook spoilers #so many spoilers #mysterious lotus casebook #li lianhua #li xiangyi

[unfortunate-cantaloupe]

I CANNOT get over In Purgatory’s Shadow/By Inferno’s Light because the whole Tain dying debacle is just Garak wanting Julian to know him. He could’ve sent him away, told him to leave, and Julian would’ve but instead it was the most blatant show of trust we have seen (and, I’m guessing, will ever see) from Garak. It’s consuming my soul. And don’t get me STARTED of Julian’s constant worrying about Garak working on the whatever -it-was, even BEFORE it was revealed that Garak has severe claustrophobia. And the way Julian climbs in after him without a second thought once Garak starts having flashbacks i aM FROTHING AT THE MOUTH

#AAAAAAAAAA #It me guys I’m screaming about them #ds9 spoilers #so many spoilers #garashir #garak x bashir #elim garak #julian bashir #ds9 #deep space nine #star trek #star trek deep space nine #deep space 9

[mashithamel]

First there was this:

Then there was this:

Conincidence? Sure, could be. It’s a very good place to stab in order to threaten the life of a woman and her unborn child, without causing immediate death. Gives her time to be Healed or give birth.

But this is the same show that also casually put a little noose in a shot with Mat. And had Nynaeve say “trust the river” in reference to breaking her block. They had an Aiel in a cage in season 1, and had Moiraine drop the idea of releasing the Warder bond in a chat with Alanna. And I stand by my theory that Nynaeve putting aside what she wants to help Lan do what he needs to do in going after Moiraine forshadows “will he ride alone?”. They like the little details.

So, you can believe it’s a coincidence that a former Daughter-Heir of Andor who gives birth to the Dragon Reborn gets stabbed the same way as a former Daughter-Heir of Andor (now Queen) who is carrying the Dragon Reborn’s children if you want. But you probably aren’t enjoying the show as much as I am 😁.

#wheel of time #wot on prime #wot spoilers #so many spoilers #i like the show #details like this are my cup of tea #especially when i only realize them a year later while rereading the books

[vampiromano]

I'M HANGING OUT WITH LOOP WEEHEEEEEE WAHOOO *EXCITED CARTOON NOISES*

#isat #isat spoilers #so many spoilers

[monochrome-stars]

SPOILERS THE ENTIRETY OF IN STARS AND TIME FOR THIS RAMBLE. im covering acts 1-6 so theres your warning now but the ramble is under the cut. fair warning, may not make much sense either

ok trust me on this. this song right here makes me think of siffrin because of the isat brainrot but IT WORKS. AND IT FITS SO WELL AND LET ME TELL YOU WHY

(this is also my interpretation of it and how i understand the song and link it to the thoughts and ideas in my head. im also picking out certain lyrics because its easier to explain, so i would recommend listening to the song for the full thing)

"And I placed my palm upon your collarbone, and I wished to fall asleep deep in your marrow."

siffrin craves closeness with the rest of the party and in the memory of bad touch and the garden room, for example, its clear that they have no clue how to ask for it, and their way of getting that closeness can be odd or just plain weird. like how the song says that "they wish to fall asleep in their marrow", its a very odd way of achieving closeness with somebody, almost like trying to melt into them. (this may be far fetched but it makes sense to me stick with me here)

"There's a hunger under my skin and its gripping at my bones. There's a hunger like a lions and its ripping right through my bones."

its that feeling of hunger that is mentioned over and over again starting at the beginning of act 2 leading all the way into the end of act 5 that siffrin feels and just cant get rid of

"I'm as calm as a baby lamb that is being led. I'm as blue as blood before the blood goes red."

since finding out about the loops, siffrin just accepts the fact that they wont stay dead when theyre killed, and they use it as a way to delete their mistakes. hes incredibly calm about touching tears, about slipping on the banana peel, about using the dagger, all of it. siffrin gets so used to the depression hes falled into and just feels bad all the time. the glass shard that siffrin repeatedly keeps cutting their finger on, and later in act 5, the same glass shard they use to carve stars into their skin. and it ties with the red that continues to pop up throughout the game.

"And how it hurts even in the sun. Its a goddamn joke how we can hurt even in the sun."

everything is fine from everyone elses perspective and theyre completely oblivious to the fact that siffrin is looping through time, spending actual weeks in a hellscape of their own making. hes dying repeatedly and nobody else is aware that this is happening and theyre all blissfully ignorant

"For a heart beats the best in a bed beside the one that it loves."

isabeau refuses to confess his love for siffrin, and siffrin refuses to admit that they crave touch, and yet, both sides love the other unconditionally. (not to mention they literally sleep next to each other every night.)

"Yes, a heart beats the best when in a head, death becomes irrelevant."

after a while, siffrin has become so used to death and dying that it doesnt even matter to him anymore. killing themself is just another necessary evil they have to face in order to get to the end, have the "perfect" loop, and find answers. since they found out they could loop, it has stuck itself in siffrin's mind that "oh i can just erase all my mistakes and start over again" without so much as blinking at the fact that it means dying repeatedly.

"Cause if you're dreaming about dying, then you're not really living, darling."

siffrins entire existence starts to revolve around the dying, the loops, and escaping them. he cant even be happy with the rest of his party because of how terrified he is of messing up. theyre practically conditioning themself to loop at any mistake they make, and they harshly berate themself for it too.

after doing the friendquests a couple times as well, siffrin has those thoughts of "your friends would hate you if they knew why you were doing this" and "if you mess it up, you can just loop back and try again". siffrin stops even paying attention to the present and is so anxious about getting the "perfect loop" that he isnt even concerned about the present but rather the outcome. i think that is ultimately what went wrong with the attempted friendquests in act 5 as well.

"You've gotta be starving, you've gotta be starving for it."

again with that hunger that cant be satisfied with anything. as the game progresses, siffrins thoughts surrounding the snacks and the food always come back to how hungry he is and how its just never enough. it keeps coming back and siffrin is literally starving during the game and it gets especially bad in acts 3-5

"And if you're crying by the moon, in the sun you better lift up that chin."

siffrin was so depressed for the entire game, but then after act 5, its like the sun rises again and they can finally escape the loops and understand that the rest of the party loves them. he doesnt have to bottle it all up until it becomes too much and he can actually begin to enjoy life again after the loops end.

"You've gotta be starving, you've gotta be starving for it."

everything is over, and siffrin can finally rid themself of those feelings of hunger. the feeling is replaced with a want for love and siffrin is finally opening up and letting themself be taken care of by their friends family after all that they went through. the raw emotion in the singers voice when she sings these lyrics also feels very fitting for this

if i could animate, i would definitely make an animatic of this song and the characters to show what i mean because it makes more sense in my mind. i have so many ideas in my head in regards to this song specifically and its infesting my brain

im debating whether or not i should actually post this because its a bit confusing and strange but fuck it we ball

#suicide mention #self harm mention #holy shit this is over one thousand words #im just silly like that #im so normal i swear #in stars and time #isat #in stars and time spoilers #isat spoilers #isat siffrin #siffrin #so many spoilers #im being so serious #long post #rambling

[wataksampingan]

So... Episode 65 was released on Fast Pass today.

Spoilers for Episode 65-67 and some parts of the webnovel

Intriguing how one or two readers were able to correctly guess that Dodolea had assaulted Theo. I had to bumble around Naver, earn cookies one pair at a time and be rewarded by having my heart ripped out of my chest when I read what happened to him.

(”Watak, the signs were so obvious, how could you not tell?” I dunno man, I thought this was going to be supernatural magic and curses, not actual literal sexual assault). The screaming and gnashing of teeth in the next chapter is going to be wild.

How far Dodolea went is left vague-ish on purpose, I expect, though the drugging is in itself already enough to condemn her. I don’t know what sort of explanation (not endorsement) will be given for her actions considering that when Theo bolted out of there, her expression is LITERALLY “o.o”

What the fuck is going on with her? Is she going to be, as the webnovel proceeded to explain, possessed by some witch that’s obsessed with a past reincarnation of Theo? Is this witch so ancient that sexual assault is not in her vocabulary? Is the real Dodolea already dead? Is this going to take some other less supernatural turn? seungu what are you planning?? I have so many questions???

Theo’s soft-hearted nature is going to be the death of him. And I’m going to strangle this palace aide - who was only doing his job - but nonetheless. If I were Gloria/Phineas/Saoirse and found out about this conversation, I would chuck him into a sewer and leave him there for a day.

“Think about what she had to go through in society after you refused to marry her”??

Listen here, you absurd little 7:3 hair ratio man.

The woman is a princess of the blood, significantly above his station as grand duke. The only reputation she’s gained is the misfortune to be besotted by this man who’s married, and perhaps an embarrassing way of showing it. The worst thing the nobles could have said was “well, that was very gauche of the princess, what an unfortunate choice, she has no taste in men, why does she keep trying” Clearly, she still can move about in polite society without censure coz she keeps fucking showing up to mess with Perry, make vaguely threatening remarks and just generally be creepy. Like, all of that has been on her. A princess of Castor, with such a powerful family, cannot possibly be taken down so easily in social circles.

His reputation, on the other hand, despite all the admiration from the average citizen, is way worse than hers, and always has been. He’s the one whose first wife moved out after two months, claiming he was the worst husband AND he’s a supposed war fiend, bloodthirsty and vicious. I get that gossip can be fatal but Dodolea is not about to be further humiliated by him walking out. He’s already built up a reputation for being cold and rude and giving people the cut direct so why should this be any different? 

Yes, yes, princess of Castor bla bla bla - but what’s your point??

But NO, he had to think of her despite himself, despite the emperor’s shitty behaviour and what she did to him. The LOOK on his face when the servant asked him not to sUbJeCt hEr To MoRe HuMiLiAtIoN (I still find this the most efficient orthographic way to convey sarcasm; my apologies if you find this offputting).

He sat there, subjecting himself to a panic attack and PTSD because he, at the heart of everything, actually seems to care about people. Even the reason he took the drugged drink from Dodolea’s servant in the past was because that man told him how much he admired the grand duke, and seemed to sincerely want his approval. So Theo took the drink to be polite. And suffered for it.

No wonder Daniel’s smoking by episode 66. I’d pick up a cigarillo/cigar too if I had to work under these conditions.

At least Episode 67 has Theo on... some kind of mend. And we get to see Phineas yell at him for being An Absolute Idiot. You can just about tell which panel involves him wondering why he went to all that trouble of going to med school (or its equivalent in this universe) when his own nephew insists on being Stupid.

(In case it’s not clear, I love Phineas with my whole heart and each time he looks like he wants to quit and become a humble radish farmer in the country, my love for him grows three times larger.)

I'll also have to be patient and wait to see what sort of hobby Theo apparently indulges in and is thoroughly embarrassed to be found out about (interior design/architecture wasn’t what I’d expected but y’know what, go off your grace). I don’t think I have it in me to download more random apps to earn free cookies for Naver. Then again, considering the medium lengths I’ve already gone to for this manhwa, who can say really?

Pictured: the relationship I have with this manhwa apparently

#MILAOWM #my in laws are obsessed with me #my in-laws are obsessed with me #spoilers #so many spoilers #so very many spoilers #Theo Lapileon #someone save this man #someone save Phineas also while they're at it #let him retire early #let Molton retire also #we need some HR intervention #this series is making me ramble as if I can earn free coins and cookies for it #MILAOWM episode reactions #MILAOWM spoilers

[hah-studios]

Guilt, heartbreak, mask, and mistake for Wonderland in Oz’s Dorothy and Alice?

Dorothy:

Guilt: I say Dorothy’s two biggest guilts were ones she couldn’t control (which says a lot about her character) that being scaring her aunt and uncle when she disappeared, and murdering Morgana (wicked witch of the west). When she returned to Kansas she did her best to not have her aunt and uncle worry, including dropping the topic of oz when they didn’t believe her. Like in the og Oz they are her main driving point-tho she’s loyal to Oz enough to put there needs above her returning home. And she never wants to kill again, no matter the villain. She accepts her guilt and always tries to repent for it.

Heartbreak: Dorothy’s parents died when she was 5. She has little memory of them but mourns the relationship she could have had with them. Her heart broke in two when she had to leave Oz, despite the dangers there she had formed her most important relationships there with scarecrow Tin man and lion. She has caught feelings for a certain Ozian but lacks the courage to even acknowledge them let alone confess.

Mask: Dorothy doesn’t intentionally hide her feelings. She’s naturally upbeat but her insistence others are more important and her belief in overcoming anything could suggest she has a bit of toxic positivity. She tends to hide/push down her anger tho.That being said she’s comfortable being vulnerable with Alice and the trio.

Mistake: While it deeply upset her Dorothy does not call Morgana’s death as a mistake but a tragic necessity to save her friends, the Winkies, and all of Oz. The Big Mistake she makes happens in my webcomic’s timeline so I can’t spoil it here. Odds are you’ll be like “Oh, Dorothy I understand where you’re coming from but that was SUCH a bad idea.”

Alice:

Guilt: Alice when the story starts, has only ever felt guilty for causing her sister distress. As the comic progresses she will say/do things to feel guilty for. But like-spoilers. But she’ll do her best to remedy them.

Heartbreak: Alice’s heart broke the moment she returned from Wonderland and her family stopped loving her, calling her crazy and shipping her away to America. Her heart will break a couple more times in the comic. But hopefully she’ll have the courage to let it be mended.

Mask: when moved to the academy where she meets Dorothy Alice tries to wear a mask of indifference and normalcy, trying to hide how wonderland changed her. The mask will pretty quickly fall off when she enters Oz

Mistake: trusting [redacted]

#so many spoilers #I love talking about wonderland of oz #ask

[theskeletoninthegarden]

The Doctor Who specials have me appropriately emotionally devastated and nothing bad has happened (yet)

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #doctor who 60th anniversary #big spoiler #so many spoilers #but seeing my Doctor run around the Tardis had me weeping #and Donna I missed her so so so much #I'm clapping my hands like a child #jodi's send off was beautiful but we were robbed of that kiss #i know she wanted to put things on pause and live in the moment but come on #one big smooch would have been brilliant