#so obv one bears it

[delightfullygiddy]

Realized hours in hindsight that one of my supervisors was insulting me by calling me a child just because I pushed the wrong button in a transaction. Nothing bad- nothing terrible happened and was better for the customer- but I remembered hearing her talk under her breath while the customer was still standing there “That’s why you don’t talk while the adults are talking, don’t speak when you don’t know.”

and the killing thing is I didn’t...say anything- i literally let her have control of that entire conversation (she’s the particular one who doesn’t actual look at what you are doing/have done before spouting things to do. (Most likely she just likes telling people what to do and doesn’t actually listen unless you’re a higher up.

So the fact I was still submissive in all senses of letting her handle that scenario and because I did just one thing wrong- she assumed i was trying to take over? And it was literally at the tail end of the transasction- nothing else was going to happen after that. I’d LITERALLY done all the work prior. Ive been here long enough how to do things and yet she treats me like a child. Always coming from the corner saying “you know what you’re doing right?”

its.....a disgusting irritating thing ive gotten used to- but not to the point it doesn’t rankle anymore

#its a particular kind of frustration that simmers in my gut #im angry-obviously- but im also tired- and this is the only way i can conisitently bring income into the house #so obv one bears it #i just dont...like her #like its obvious- in a terrifying way- that she's like my sister #one of them #despereately needs to be in control or steer things they wantthem to be #and even if you are literally doing shit right- they have something to say #told the super- mind you I get in long before she does anyway- that id done the dusting and wiping the manager asked #the we get busy and dont have time to keep up with the cleaning and hanging #the we have more totes to empty out #has the fucking gall to be like hey when you get here i need you to dust/sweep/bag and all this pretty please? #she likes peppering her language with those pleases and thank yous but they don't feel genuine to me at this point #its just something to sound like she's thanking you but gets irritated when you are literally continuing to do your own shit #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh #i think im angry really thinking about now- so i'll go to sleep #its more treating me like a child bit that got to me #i already think myself mentally and emotionally inept in generally #ignoring lack of control over my life or having working prospects that you know...are actually fuffilling and stable? #so to contend with people like this is....bothersome

[chase-ing-shadows]

AU where Atreus gets stuck as a bear and him and Sindri have to go on a brother bear style adventure to make him human again.

also open to the idea that this happens after Ragnarok and this is the story of how Atreus and Sindri reconnect

#god of war sindri #sindri #god of war atreus #god of war #god of war ragnarok #i like the idea that this happens after Ragnarok alot #sindri is so consumed by grief and wants everyone to leave him the hell alone but this godamn bear keeps following him #and of course the godamn bear is actually Atreus #Hasn't he done enough already?? #but he so clearly needs help and Sindri can't fight off a bear that just refuses to let up #they make a deal that if he helps atreus become human again then he will leave him alone forever #obvs they end up making a fantastic tag team #freya tells them they have to travel to a high mountain and preform a spell in order to change him back #one adventure and some begrudging bonding/healing later and they get to the mountain #wacky bear shenanigans included #the spell docent work though #because Atreus is stuck this way because of his guilt #the spell only breaks when Sindri tells him that he's got to let go of his guilt #he finally listens to his brother's last words #godamnit i wish i could write coz this could be such a cool fanfic

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

Henry's weird about the machine in a 'I wish to create something that will surpass me and that I can happily die at the hands of' kinda way and Bill is weird about the machine in a 'I want to embody the metal that will outlive my flesh' kinda way. This leads directly into how they are weird about each other this is important.

#important reminder that these guys like in nowhere suburban utah and co own a small childrens restaurant chain fyi #wackos #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #william afton #henry emily #yelling about the bear #helium #willry #if you believe #obvs henry tries to commit suicide via robot he made and bill becomes one with the machine so they do kinda fufil these dreams in a #tragic kinda way #love to see it

[badolmen]

I can fix him*

*bad writing, underutilized gameplay mechanics, characters with unfulfilled potential, funded by bootlickers

#ra speaks #personal #sorry I made dr phone calls and have like. ten minutes til I gotta get ready for first class of the semester. let me have this. #I think I should get every COD game ever for free. it’s MY tax dollars at work after all (actually anything produced w us military funding #should be free I think I can trap even my bootlicker tax hating dad into getting onboard w this one) #anyways. ghosts was…decent. but jfc if you give me a silent protag I expect SOME self awareness in the writing. #why are characters calling to him on comms when they know he won’t respond? why doesn’t he have an AAC device or something more futuristic? #I’m just saying if you explicitly limit a character you need to respect those limits in te writing. it’s not that hard. #like non of the characters even acknowledge that Logan never talks. esp weird when he first meets the ghosts #also. obv not a big fan of ‘all of South America has United into evil space terrorists’ but it was 2013 so ¯\ _(ツ)_/¯ #wish we got to see some SDC civis y’know? get a bear on the average attitudes abt the whole. invading the US thing. #(jfc do not get me started on The Wall like this is a 2016 trump voter’s power fantasy) #also Riley was such an interesting mechanic why couldn’t they have at least substituted him w drones or something on the other missions?? #you get him for like. two missions. and then he gets shot and you have to protect him (gosh I actually loved that section) #just. it was clear Logan was The Dog Guy with an aptitude for tech. honestly Hesh felt more like the MC than Logan. #and while Logan doesn’t have a ton of personality we can glean as a result of non speaking + ZERO communication at all ever #seriously he doesn’t even like. wave or give thumbs up to people wtf dude do ppl just assume he’s psychic or something??? #I do LOVE the few scenes we get with him acting outside of player control/where he actually has agency (Elias’ death. the final cutscene) #and like it’s not much but it’s enough that I WANT to see what happens next #but alas. a decade old game without a true sequel (I think??? haven’t actually looked into it.) #my brother is making fun of me for being a COD gamer now like boy. I have no defense pls be nice to me T-T

[roseferncal]

*cardi b's voice* what was the reason!?!

#no seriously what does this scene mean why does it exist i cant stop thinking about it #the bear #the bear fx #the bear s2 #the only thing i can think of is that each of the characters have a moment of connection one-on-one with another person #syd and her dad #tina and ebra #richie and chef terry (although richie has like ten thousand one-on-one tender moments dont even get me started) #carmy and claire ofc #but also carmy and mikey #or mikey and sugar #I CAN KEEP GOING #anyway #the thing is marcus by this point has already had his one-on-one moment with Eyebrow Chef #and there's obv some nice parallels between that scene and the richie-terry scene #but this scene is SO different from all the others #and when i mean all the others i mean ALL the other scenes. not just the one-on-ones #i cant think of another moment like this in the show not even s1 #its so interesting and important to me idk #the only other thing that comes to mind #is in relation to that comment Eyebrow Chef makes about being Out There. that THAT'S what it's all about #and then boom marcus is faced with this random serious situation #christopher storer drop your location i just wanna talk real quick #my posts

[airanke]

appetence

Pairing(s): F!Reader x Tomura, F!Reader x Dabi, Dabi x Tomura.

Summary: appetence - an eager desire, an instinctive inclination; an attraction or a natural bond. Prompt: ‘something beautiful’. Genre: Gen/Fluff. Word Count: 1.7k Warnings: implied intimacy.

Notes: ShigaDabi supremacy-- I have several?? YN’s with quirks, the one featured here I call Crybaby YN. Her quirk is called Unburden which helps her heal ppl (mentally and physically). She is the same YN featured in Need. (The full image is on Twitter bye).

Waking up next to Tomura let you have the opportunity to admire his features. He preferred to sleep face to face with you, gloved hand resting on your hip bone. In sleep, he looked softer, and you reached up to trace your fingertips lightly along the curve of his cheek, to his sharp jaw. You thumbed the scar on his lip, then the length of his mouth. His rough lips had never bothered you, and you stretched your neck out toward him to press your lips to his.

When you drew back, Tomura’s eyes were open. He wasted no time rolling on top of you, white hair curtaining around your face. His gaze is intense, nothing but weighted desire as his eyes rake over you greedily, naked beneath him. You hooked your finger under his chin, giving a light tug while you pursed your lips. Tomura obliged, dipping down to peck your lips, following the curvature of your cheek down your neck to your shoulders.

You again told him that he could leave a mark if he wanted to - and again he told you that it wasn’t his job, as if it was something that belonged to someone else. Like every time before, it confused you, then Tomura was between your legs and you forgot about asking him why that was always his answer.

Tomura had always been more forward than you expected, from the day you met him to now. You had been the first person that he consistently took the hand off his face for, and all because he’d gotten annoyed with you for always trying to look around the hand to look him in the eye. He had loudly expressed displeasure at how quick you were to cry until the day you had to heal him from an injury he had sustained from the Shie Hassaikai. He never complained about it after that.

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Waking up next to Dabi is rare. Usually he is already sitting up before you have the opportunity to admire him in the only state you’ve seen him vulnerable, and today is one of those days. His lips are slightly parted, and you can’t help but reach out to touch his marred lower lip. It’s hotter than his upper lip is, and a texture you’ve always found intriguing. As you shuffle your body closer to him, you let your finger trace over the broad staples along his chin, holding his skin together.

Your nibbling on his lower lip makes him stir. He pulls you on top of him, where he prefers you to be, naked thighs straddling his abdomen. He admires the marks he’s left on your skin: shimmering burns that you didn’t dedicate any energy to healing. You cup his face in your hands, holding him still as you kiss him, murmuring reassurances against his lips.

His strong fingers dig into your supple flesh, simmering heat that decorates your thighs with more angry, blistering dots. You shed a few tears to mitigate the initial pain, brushing your lips over his cheek. He pushes against your legs, encouraging you to sit lower on his body. You watch his eyes flutter, let him admire you as you sit more upright, your hands tracing over his collarbone and chest.

Dabi had been more withdrawn than you expected, from the day you met him to now. Of everyone in the League, you had anticipated that Dabi would be the one to comment about the intricacies of your quirk and find it annoying, but he had been the one to brush away your glimmering, golden tears when you had first taken the burden of his pain from him. You had always wanted to ask if it was because of how his own quirk hurt him, but that was the one thing you could never muster up the courage to do.

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There were days you worried when Dabi got a little more forward while Tomura was around. Dropping the occasional flirty comment when you took away the burdens on his body from fresh wounds - but Tomura never seemed bothered by Dabi’s interest, and only if it was Dabi. Atsuhiro got sharp looks, Jin was vocally reprimanded, but Dabi? Dabi was allowed to touch you, and Dabi was allowed to flirt.

And you began to notice, that when Tomura got handsy with you, Dabi never batted an eye - but Atsuhiro and Shuichi often barely avoided getting burned, and Jin was always yelping because he forgot to dodge the small fireball that Dabi would undoubtedly send his way.

You had always assumed it was because they respected each other, and because you had made it clear to them both on separate occasions that you were only interested in being a bed warmer, nothing else. They both respected your choice more than you had expected a pair of villains to, and yet, if they felt that one of the other men in the League was getting too close to you, they certainly acted like you were exclusive.

But whenever you turned abruptly to glower at them when you were trying to treat someone else’s injuries, Tomura would whistle a random tune, and Dabi would find some kind of lint to pick off his jacket, as if neither of them had been glaring daggers at your unfortunate patient.

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The night was loud in the bar - like the old one, but crowded with members of the Liberation Front, and the League. You excused yourself, seeking solace on the roof.

Tomura, and Dabi were already there, foreheads leaned together. A cigarette hung loosely between Dabi’s lips, smoke coiling around their jaws. He shifted enough to blow a stream of smoke against Tomura’s mouth, chuckling when Tomura wrinkled his nose. They exchanged no words - but from what you could tell, no words were needed.

Dabi’s gaze was downcast, and Tomura looked at him the same way he looked at you: weighted desire. It was a gaze Dabi seemed unable to meet - so similar to how he was unable to meet your gaze at times. But he made the effort. He held Tomura’s gaze long enough to answer that desire, before his eyes went askance.

One gloved hand reached up to grasp Dabi’s jaw. Tomura turned his head, brushing his lips along the seam along Dabi’s cheek. Those simmering blue eyes closed at the touch, open to the affection. He relaxed further when Tomura’s fingers trailed down his neck, long fingers wrapping around the nape of his neck. Tomura’s head shifted lower, fingers tangling in what they could of the short hair at the back of Dabi’s head. Without prompting aside from that, Dabi tipped his head back, the eye you could see fluttering, remaining closed.

They moved no closer to each other as Tomura’s teeth scraped along Dabi’s throat; he let go, hand trailing from Dabi’s neck to cup his cheek. This time, even if Dabi wanted to, he could not avoid Tomura’s gaze, instead leaning his cheek into Tomura’s palm. Finally accepting the intensity with which Tomura looked at him.

You had not considered that Tomura didn’t challenge Dabi’s interest in you because of their shared interest in each other - and why fight over you when they could share you? You realized that Tomura didn’t leave any marks on your skin because he considered that to be Dabi’s job. It made your heart light with fondness; you decided to turn away and make a quick exit, to let them enjoy each other’s company without you standing there watching them.

Dabi noticed you before you could. Those brilliant eyes caught yours and the soft smile on your face was whisked away, replaced by worry. Red eyes were boring into you next.

“Sorry,” you whispered, gesturing behind you toward the door, “I--”

Tomura shook his head, “come here, stardust.”

At the same time, Dabi had wordlessly raised his arm and gestured for you. You went, tense, worried you ruined what little peace the two had away from prying eyes. Dabi’s arm curled around you the moment you were within reach. Tomura - to your surprise - plucked what remained of Dabi’s cigarette from his mouth.

That fiery internal glow made Dabi’s eyes burn a stunning azure, the last thing you saw before your eyes slid shut, Dabi’s mouth slanted over yours; firm, as he always was, but tender as if he was afraid that the intensity might hurt you. You grasped the lapel of his jacket as his fingers dug into your back. Smoke lingered on your tongue when he pulled away, brushing his lips to the corner of yours, ghosting over your cheek.

Compared to Dabi’s reverent touch, Tomura was much more volatile. He startled you when he fisted his hand in your hair, bloody eyes intent on your lips. His kiss was hungry, tongue insistent on tasting every last crevice; swiping over your gums and teeth. A soft gasp escaped you when he drew back, thumb resting on your lower lip.

His smirk was directed at Dabi, who chuckled next to you - an anxious sound, one you had not heard for quite some time.

You didn’t understand until Tomura reached for Dabi’s face, catching his chin. Dabi turned his head sharply, pulling his chin out of Tomura’s hold. Disappointment danced over Tomura’s features, whisked away when you reached up and set your hand against his cheek.

It was the impatience, you knew, that was causing Dabi’s apprehension. You would talk to Tomura about that later, to have patience with his flame. To give Dabi more opportunities to build up his confidence - and you would talk to Dabi, give him the reassurance you knew he needed.

You tugged Dabi in closer behind you, savoring his warmth against the chilly night air. Tomura needed no guidance, shuffling his feet to stand chest to chest with you, tucking his head against your neck.

The three of you stood there, basking in one another’s company. Dabi’s hand rested against your stomach, wedged between you and Tomura. His breath fanned over your hair. You traced your fingers over his forearm, while your other hand was occupied by Tomura’s. You brushed your thumb along his knuckles as best you could, because his hand engulfed yours. His breath was hot against your neck.

This was not a development you had expected - but it was beautiful, and it was yours.

All yours.

#Dabi x Reader #Tomura x Reader #Tomura x Dabi #Dabi x Tomura #ShigaDabi #dabi x yn #tomura x yn #dabi x reader x tomura #bnha #mha #Boku no Hero Academia #My Hero Academia #sorry my summaries are bad #I literally don't know how to write them but I'll learn LMAO #This one is just the definition of appetence OBVS #I do not know how to write from 2nd or 1st person really well so #bear with me while I learn LMAO #I will forever have more content for OC x Canon tho I am really not super comfortable writing reader stuff rofl #Crybaby YN

[p2iimon]

drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me

#sammy is a brown bear (like freddy). his mom is white like funtime freddy #then crying child is blue (like bon bon. and to go with lizzies bonnet pink) (theyre not twins in my au but they definitely act like it. so #its like cute.) mrs. afton is blue violet (rockstar bonnie) bc i was running out of colors. i had already assigned her blue anyway. #max is black bc i seriously ran out of rabbit colors. or! no wait shadow bonnie. thats totally the inspo and not i had made his ears black #already. i think thats literally every rabbit color available. the afton family is pretty big. ig vanny. who would go with vanessa. obvi bu #shes not in my au. or at least not an afton. and therefore not a rabbit. if she was though shed be white. #and if you havent seen any previously drawn ones henry and william are yellow (obviously. they already have fursonas. theyre the reason #everyone else gets one. LOL) micheals purple like classic bonnie (who... is purple even if it was then retconned. hes purple. look at #withered bonnie. i hate ppl who say its just lighting. thats a lie by big blue bonnie. he was literally purple and then he changed his mind #like i said lizzie is pink like bonnet. and then charlie is black like lefty. because duhh. #DONT ask me about how this shit works okay. the rabbit dated the rabbit and the bear dated the bear. bc thats what happened. theres not #here. the bears got divorced. and the rabbits. the yellow rabbit and bear are fucking #no um. i like willry but i think if they were really fucking. i just think things would go differently. henry's gay in my au i dont think i #he actually had a man to fuck he'd manage to have children. its not who he is to me. will is bi but he obv thinks henry is some exception t #him being perfectly normal and straight. everyone wants to fuck their business partner. otherwise youd do it yourself #ig they can fuck after. i hate when people do these boring aus where henry and william never get married and william isnt a murderer and so #like what? theres nothing? just a couple of guys? if im looking for fics where theyre fucking im not looking for a fic where everything is #nice and clean. be serious. can we at least have some angst about it being the 70s or are you too much of a bitch for that too #anyway..... #simons spouting #simons fnaf au #OH also if anyone reads this whats the stance on this stupid idea i have where sammy pretends he has a thing for michael to annoy max. bc. #their parents had a thing for eachother. and sammy and max have a more familial relationship. and michael and charlie have a familial #relationship. but michael and sammy have barely met and do not at all. is it pushing it? i was thinking yknow from sammys perspective that' #'his sons' dad but! like you can fuck your sons dad. that's not weird. unless thats the way youre phrasing it i guess LOL. but i guess #michael would be like. thats 'my sisters' brother. and that is not someone you fuck*. BUT this isnt michaels perspective its sammy being #annoying. and from sammys perspective that is NOT his sister and there for NOT his sisters brother. *also im pretty sure this is subjective #if youre just friends. yknow. the ethics of sammy using this to bother max is not on the table because i think he deserves to be a #a bit of an ass. anyway LMAOO fkdglfg. let me know if youd like ive got anon asks on. please dont judge me for not knowing this.

[mvnces]

thinking about mr. john sobieski now & just how Big he is

#( * / out of character ; personal. ) #one of those giant costco teddy bears personified #or one of those massive fucking dogs that accidentally knocks u over because they #don’t realize just how big they are / how strong they are compared to sb #also for woof sobieski … god he’d be massive … like height and size wise obv ?? #but . on a softer note . he is just like … sturdy ?? looks like u can hug him / have him lay some of his weight on u & it’s therapeutic ?? #like . once again . those big dogs that are so sturdy and solid that when u hug them it’s the same sensation as a weighted blanket ya know

[scarlets-bitch]

when people talk about weight loss journeys or going out to get their hair done or w/e else I always say "oh well I don't really perceive myself" as an excuse for why i don't work hard on my appearance but honestly that's such a lazy thing to admit, and also the real truth is i don't want to put myself up to judgement and hate what i see and what i show to others

#i'm starting to work out again #it's good to do it for your own health obvs but #idk i like bears so much i kind of want to become one lol

[deityofhearts]

also I’m so far from moving but when I eventually move (hopefully this year or next year) do y’all want pictures of how I decorate my room?

#deity dialogue #I’m just excited by the idea of having my own room and being able to actually decorate it #this isn’t to say that I haven’t been able to decorate to some degree while sharing a room #but just that it’s hard for either of us to really decorate because space and like cats and such #and in the past even when I had my own room I was never able to decorate for various reasons #I’m gonna paint my walls #I’m thinking like a muted pink #because I realized I obvs want pink walls but in the last they’ve all been a shade of pink that I didn’t fully vibe with (I didn’t choose #the colour other ppl did) and then I realized I can just choose a different shade there are other shades of pink lol #idk I’m just so excited to paint my own room #I’m trying to figure out what colours like pink and ??? maybe pink and black accents? who knows #I wanna get a l little take china cabinet for my glass items to be safe #I’ve been alwyas on the look out for nice frames for my post cards to no avail #I also want somewhere to displace my fancy bear collection + katrina the fancy cat #also one of my bears vanished beargundy is missing idk where he went I miss him :( #anyways it’s very excited for lex and kait and I to think of how we’re gonna decorate the house we keep throwing around ideas #at a thrift store I got this really cute lantern thingy to decorate with as well #just #I loveee decorating #our house is gonna be so organized

[scalproie]

theres a non-zero chance that I will eat those words but still: if I had a nickel everytime the mk community saw a sub zero and immediately jumped on saying its bi-han I'd have. idk two-three? nickels at this point

#i did NOT forget you all saying the masked sub zero in the snowblind trailer had to be bi-han. like no cmon it was obv kuai #anyway I see literally everybody in the tags saying the guys in the mk12 trailer are hanzo and either one of the subz bros but like? #am i the only one who believe those are completely new scorpion and sub zero? #for scorpion its a bit tricky bc hes the only one who wore that mantle- #but the gentleman onscreen didnt gave me much hanzo vibes? outside of the general scorpion-ness #but the sub zero? i dont think its either of the bros. bear with me: #sub zero as a character has two sides and both are relating to scorpion. one is the bloody sworn enemies bc of personal affairs (bi-han) #and the other is the one that eventually is either neutral toward scorpion or downright get along with him (kuai liang) #a single brother cannot embody both aspects of sub zero because it would make the other brother irrelevant #but if they tried to do it. them going with kuai is more likely. bi-han has never gotten along with hanzo thats his whole thing #so unless theyre REALLY shaking things up. why would they even entertain the idea of hanzo and bi-han being sworn brothers in the trailer? #also i saw people saying its bi-han bc this sub zero doesnt have a scar: guys kuai didnt have his scar for the entirety of mk9 #so yeah i dont think that bi-han. this is more likely to be kuai. BUT i dont think thats kuai either #the vibes are not there. just like for ''hanzo'' #long story short: Im leaning toward thinking this is a new scorpion and a new sub zero 👀 #tagging later #mortal kombat

[introspectivememories]

tim and bernard give off major sasaki and miyano vibes

#bernard is sasaki #and tim is miyano #they're not like one to one but like 'in another universe' #just sasaki's general simp vibes and the way he has to take two buisness days to recover every time miyano so much as smiles #gives off major bernard in high school vibes #tim laughs as he does a fucking triple dog ollie or whatever #bear speedwalking to the nearest broom closet to scream: oh fuck oh god how is he so cute #tim verbally tearing into one of darla's more persistent admirers: you're broke you're ugly what makes u think you can even look at her #bear head tucked into his arms face firetruck red trying desperately to hide a smile: i'm going to mc lose it #also sasaki's general style is what i think bear looks like #tim gives me miyano vibes just cause i feel like he'd get all panicky whenever someone asks to know more about his interests #and not like in an insecure way but like he knows his interests are pretty niche #and there's only so many times u can watch someone's eyes glaze over before it's like #'you're obv not fucking listening. that's okay. we can talk about smth we both like.' #but like bear wants to listen even if he doesn't understand and tim has no idea what to do with bear's undivided attention #tim rambling on about computers and mystery novels: so like i definitely think the murderer is mr. fitzpatrick #but i can't figure out... how. why are you looking at me like that? #bear completely lost but enjoying the way tim's face lights up: im not lookin at you weird. neway how do you think lady london ties in? #bear learns to recognize tony hawk for tim #bear asks pertinent ?s about tim's interests #tim who has no idea how to deal with that: oh god oh fuck what the fuck do i do #bear sends him memes relevant to his interests #tim giggling and kicking his feet in the air #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber #sasaki to miyano #dc

[bumpscosity]

WAIT YOU CAN BRING IN RETIRED BUILD A BEARS TO GET BIRTH CERTIFICATES FOR????

#my first build a bear I got around Christmas and the line to make the birth certificate was SUPER long so I couldn’t get one for her #I’d LOVE to get one now AUOGH #also she’s clarice from rudolph so even if they don’t have MY SPECIFIC version on file they probably have one from another year #that’s so so exciting #i remember putting some kind of barcode or something in her when she was stuffed #i think it was for the find a bear thing? i wonder if that has her exact bday on it hmmmm #i need to bring in gozer too but that’s mostly bc his voice box broke #but while we’re at it with that I should be able to get him a birth certificate #i got him second hand so I obv couldn’t get him one before but the fact that I can now is YAYAYYAYA #sassy speaks

[wild-at-mind]

Thinking about this due to a conversation I happened to have today: I think there's often a weird dynamic between people who came out as trans 10-15 years ago (or probably more, but I have to confess I don't know any) and people who came out recently or very recently, especially if they have known each other a while. I think from the person whose been out longer there can be a sense of 'well I'm glad you're happy now but I could have used you as an ally back then!' I'm sure it is easier to come out now than even a decade ago. But....as the very newly out person, it's hard to feel that dynamic happening because more than anything else, I wish I could have come out all those years ago as well. I wish it hadn't taken me years of unhappy straight world shittiness to figure it out. Would give anything to go back and redo those years. But then alongside the fact that people coming out longer ago were doing so in a world that was so much more ignorant about trans people than it is now, I wouldn't be surprised if this dynamic is often that the 'older' trans person was also out as confidently queer in their sexuality before coming out as trans, whether it's gay or bi, while the 'younger' trans person identified as straight. I insisted I was straight for years even though I knew I was attracted to women. I was in relationships with men so I could ignore it like a good ex-evangelical christian who hasn't quite shed the baggage. This is all to say that it's understandable that this happens, and yet I really strongly feel like an annoying baby to longer out trans people, and I really wish it wasn't so.

#i feel more alone than ever before since coming out...felt great at first but now it hurts so much #no one has the obligation to handle me with kid gloves obvs #this is my shit to deal with #just.....uuuuugggggghh #i can't bear the idea that people i'm supposed to have a lot in common with might resent me for the thing that caused me the most pain

[mummer]

#Haha.... we are laughing.......... #tho obv if we're thinking about cat and lysa it's the opposite. lysa the unloved only bearing one child vs cat having A Lot #lysa kinda getting rachel's infertility plot there ig. #but: leah bearing all these awful heirs vs rachel bearing prophets and sweethearts! stark main character syndrome lol #cat gets to be the mother of kings with a loving husband and what does lysa get... bound and sold and locked away for a war! #anyway i guess it's just kinda an archetypal sister story but my alarm sirens went off #icefire is so biblical idk if any of it was intentional but i KNOW grrm was poring thru his Kids Bible looking for the messed up stuff #actually tbf i actually do think the jaime cersei jacob and esau thing was at least an intentional allusion #in some capacity.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

sometimes characters using (or not using) each other's names can be so personal actually

#this sounds REALLY dumb but it just hit me that I'm on episode 7 of the bear and i... don't know if syd has ever used carmy's actual name? #like it's a whole lot of ''chef'' obvs but like.. #everybody else mixes in actual names. and sydney uses everybody's names. but like.... i cannot recall a single time she's used his name #meanwhile carmy's steady alternation between calling everyone ''chef'' and using names is very very nice #idk man I'm??????????????? #sydney baby loosen up you're fine it's all fine you're gonna be fine i promise #i don't mean this necessarily in a shipping way but I'm so fascinated by whatever syd and carmy's weird relationship dynamic is #like... work friends might become real friends??? or maybe are already??? #in the middle before i knew i had begun or whatever the quote is but like... without requiring romantic connotations #idk idk just throwing stones at the water and hoping one skips here i need to go to sleep soon #Lu rambles