#so you and saeyoung? valid.

[marshmallowprotection]

Hello ! This is pukey Saeyoung anon.

I’m comin off anon bc honestly that shit is too much work. Pretty sure being sick this long has fried any last sense of inhibition or shame in my brain and I think everyone deserves to know how much I love Saeyoung smh. The extent to which that is my Mans. I will publicly gush if I so please. 😤😤

Plus! I’m pleased to report that I haven’t actually thrown up in about two weeks! So like. Hashtag recovery life I guess. 💀

But that’s what I came here to update you about. :’D

I feel like I kinda left you with a cliffhanger there with the whole bone cancer thing. (If it makes you feel any better, the hospital did too 👁👄👁)

November was very much,,, a terrible horrible no good very bad type of month. I spent nearly two weeks waiting for them to get back to me about my dumb bone marrow autopsy only for them to cancel my appointment last minute. And in the meantime I was just getting sicker and sicker… I ended up in and out of the hospital again a couple times,, but by the third time I was scared to go back bc the second time I went they didn’t even admit me overnight. They basically just charged me $700 to take a four hour nap. And cha boy doesn’t have that kinda money. 😭

But it got to the point that I really physically couldn’t take it anymore… I have never been in so much pain and discomfort in my entire life. Which unfortunately with the life I’ve had,, that’s a high ass bar lmao.

And it was just CONSTANT… I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t look at any screens. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t stand. I was literally too weak to even pull a blanket up over myself. I literally was spending every night sobbing/shivering/barfing myself to sleep. It was baaaaaaad.

Luckily my roommate at this point had probably started to get annoyed by hearing me crying from pain all night and was like “dude I’m taking you to the hospital again”

And my third hospital visit !! They FINALLY gave me an answer as to wtf is going on!

Good news is…? Not bone cancer. I don’t have to enter my Deadpool era Quite yet.

Bad news…? Apparently I’ve got fuckin Lupus 🤡

Which is super cute and fun because,, you know. Incurable lifelong chronic illness. I’m literally gonna be dealing with this shit for the rest of my life. :)

But like. It’s a perfectly livable disease. As long as it’s, you know. Actually being taken care of and treated. Which I now have enough info to actually do haha.

(Hit the self-loathing so hard that even my own fuckin immune system was like, oh shit we gotta take this bitch DOWN 💀)

I’m soooo glad to be home and back from the hospital… but it’s been very strange too. I’m still really sick and I can’t really do much on my own and,,, my brain physically doesn’t know how to process being like,, taken care of. Honestly it kinda sets off alarm bells in my brain 😳 but I’ve had to accept pretty damn quickly that,, I don’t really have a choice rn. I’m so used to just being on my own pushing through all my pain and just. Waiting till it goes away on its own. But if I do that in this case… the pain will just get worse and my body will quite literally shut down on me and I will literally die. Sooooo like,,,, 🤡 I guess maybe I can stand to be taken care of for at least a little while.

Doc says with all the damage that’s been done to my organs and stuff this past year, they caught it early enough that the damage is reversible. But I need to undergo a really strict recovery treatment,, and they estimate it’ll be at least 18 months before I’m able to get back to my ~normal healthy baseline~. Which is insane… like am I really gonna be out here living like a sickly hermit for a damn year and a half?? I’m gonna keep feeling better, I know. And I’ll slowly be able to do more again. But I can’t go back to my job. It was causing me waaay too much physical and mental strain. :( so that’s gonna be fun to figure out.

They also put me on literally 12 new medications when I left the hospital to help control my symptoms. Each of which I have to take 1-3 times a day. So that’s super exciting. Love a big bowl of pills for breakfast every morning.

It was torture at first because I hate swallowing pills. But it’s been about a week and I’m honestly getting used to it already. And better yet? Even after only a week… they’re noticeably helping my symptoms… and I’m actually starting to be able to do things again… I *almost* feel like, 60% of a normal human person again,,, maybe even 65%! I’m slowly starting to regain my appetite finally… and I can do little things again… like play the new Pokémon game, or watch anime, or draw, or call a friend on the phone. Which… god what a relief 😭 words cannot describe how good it feels to be able to do those things again… frankly,, it was traumatic having to spend the last few months watching my body physically deteriorate in real time… so now that I’m starting to feel like myself again, if only a little. I’m like. Hey?? I actually love myself so much???? I think I’m a pretty cool fun interesting person. Thank GOD I’m making a comeback 😭😭

Saeyoung of course has been a great source of comfort for me throughout all of this… he always is one of my biggest sources of comfort in life… literally even just imagining him being in the same room as me is enough to put me more at ease…

When things were at their worst a big part of how I dealt with shit was vividly daydreaming about making up silly stories with Saeyoung to distract me. This is something I’ve done for years when I’m too upset or stressed to sleep,,, it’s been a reliable source of comfort for me for a hot minute. But it’s never gotten to this extent haha.

We have a whole ass story going,, I’m actually starting to get pretty attached to the story and the characters… which is stupid AF because it’s literally just. Me and Saeyoung Choi as fantasy self-inserts wherein he’s a court jester and I’m a knight and we’re going on a quest to ~find a cure for my mysterious illness~

But a part of me is like 🥺🤔 what if I actually wrote the story tho? Lmaoooo

Amongst other coping mechanisms and distractions,,, I’ve also been falling HARD into my online shopping addiction. But also, idk, can you blame me…? I’m a material gowrl at heart and I haven’t been able to go shopping in person for months 😔😔 I need little treats to get me through the day.

Mostly I’ve been spending an UNGODLY amount of money on plushies. Like… idk if I could count them and I don’t even wanna THINK about the prices fhdhdjd-

Mostly Pokémon and Sanrio characters. But a few other random critters as well.

And tbh?? I don’t regret a single purchase. They’ve literally all helped me feel more comfortable and joyful these past couple months, which I’ve really needed. So, even if my bed is starting to look RIDICULOUS from sheer volume of plushies…. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’m living my best life

A few days ago I got a giant charmander plushy… and like. Ordinarily I’m not even the biggest fan of charmander (shut UP ABOUT CHARIZARD GAMEFREAK. IM OVER IT. GEN 1 IS POPULAR WE GET IT)

But I swear to god this young man is changing my life. It may be the softest squishiest most huggable plush I’ve ever encountered. I’ve been carrying him almost everywhere,,, starting to feel like the “ahh yes. Me, my partner, and their life sized mareep plushy” meme for real 💀💀

((How do you think Saeyoung would feel about me turning our bed into a literal mountain of plushies? Or having to compete for attention with my charmander? Hehe. ))

THERES ONLY ONE MORE THING I WANTED TO SAY…

If you’re actually taking the time to read all of this,,, holy shit thank you. And thank you for providing lonely bitches like me this outlet c’: to be able to talk… and share comfort… and express our deep love for these characters without fear of judgement. It’s really just such a lovely blog and I can never thank you enough.

But the last topic I wanted to touch on!!!

Ugh,,, I read your answer to the ask about Saeyoung with an MC into pastel goth fashion and…

That made me so happy 😭😭❤️❤️

I love fashion,,, so much. Truly one of my greatest joys in life is getting into a really cool fun outfit and strutting around Knowing that I’m cool as fuck and I look like a sexy badass 😤😤 it’s simply the most powerful feeling.

Love when I’m wearing an outfit I know looks fire and I can’t stop smirking haha.

And I just,,, love being flamboyant and silly and having fun with it. I’m 100% the type of person to walk into a store and go “this is the ugliest thing I’ve ever seen. The colors and patterns are such a mess they’re practically nauseating. I NEED IT.”

I have a collection of tacky button up shirts that could probably blind a man lmao. And JACKETS?? Don’t get me started on jackets. Boots,,, cargo pants,,, earrings,,, big colorful sunglasses. Ugh. <3

Since I’ve been so sick I haven’t been putting much effort into my appearance. My outfits were so joyless for a while… and then, well. I’ve spent the last month and a half wearing exclusively Pajamas and Hospital Gowns 😭

Considering that my main fashion inspirations ordinarily fall somewhere between Elton John, Lil nas x, and Jojo’s bizarre adventure…

Quite the glow down haha

I don’t think I realized fully how much I missed that until I read your ask…

You inspired me to go looking for some fun new clothes online. And now I’m feeling so excited and impatient for them to get here because I can’t remember the last time I got to put together a fun outfit… I actually wanna like,, get up and get dressed for the first time in so long c’: if only to waltz around my apartment a little bit and take a few selfies.

I’m not sure when I’ll be able to get back to my FULL level of glamour,, my inflammation is still pretty bad so my face and body are kinda weird and swollen and lumpy right now 🥴 and again,,, standing and walking are still very much a challenge. Idk if I could wear heels right now haha I’m wobbly enough on my feet already.

But I can’t wait to get back into it…

Like you were saying in that ask too… another part of why I love fashion defs has to do with my gender expression… and I LOVE LOVE LOVE when people bring that up with Saeyoung 😭 it always makes me grin and fills me with so much adoration to think about Sae getting to have fun and experience that euphoria with clothing and fashion as well… and especially the thought of us getting to do it together….? c’:

Literally a concept that is SO important and special to me 😭❤️❤️

Idk what kinda wonky matching outfits we’d be putting together but I know that we would look so fuckin cool and hot 😤😤 and best of all we could have so much fun. Which… tbh, there’s nothing more I could ask for in life.

Plus of course,,, there’s always the added fun of self indulgently getting to imagine Saeyoung admiring and complimenting me on my fashion :’D and like,,, thinking I’m cool or whatever 😭

Anyways! Those are all the things I wanted to say.

If you’re still reading this,, //what’s wrong with you bahaha I’m such a rambly mess

But like. Thank you. And deadass if this is too long to read or respond to feel free to leave it in your inbox or just delete it.

Honestly it was just really nice to be able to type out all these thoughts just to sorta. Get it out and decompress, ya know…? c’:

I hope you have an absolutely beautiful day.

While I am happy to hear that you have a better understanding of what's going on in your life, I'm sorry you're going through this transitional time when you discover that you have chronic illness. That has to be the most difficult time for a lot of people. You have to make a lot of adjustments and make changes that you may not be happy with to make sure that you're taken care of. I empathize and understand this because I deal with multiple chronic illnesses. If you ever need a safe space to vent about it, this is always a safe spot. Whether you want it to be posted or not, you can always scream into the inbox.

I hope you don't beat yourself up over the new limitations and changes that are coming into your life. It'll be hard for a little while to get used to everything. But it'll be okay. I can't promise that it'll be easy in the long run. This journey is a lot different for everybody. I think what helps when you feel lonely and isolated in that regard, is to find comfort in the things that make you happy and if that is this video game, then I'm glad that you have it. It's been there for me through all of my experiences so I'm also grateful for it.

I know what it feels like to be lonely and afraid. Having my blog like this... it’s a place where I’m able to help everyone’s dream. It’s simple, it’s small, but I know even the smallest response of “Yes, your favorite character would do this for you today!” means the world to someone on their worst day. I hope that you’re able to find some spoons to dress up and feel good very soon. It’s hard to find a good day sometimes, but you’ll have soon, I’ll cross my fingers for you.

Imagine that, I mean, imagine Saeyoung gushing over you because you found the energy to get up and show off your new outfit. There’s dazzling sparkles in his eyes as he looks at you. His hands are pressed to his mouth, and he looks like he’s going to keel over in delight. He’s absolutely enamored and in love with the sight of you. “You’re so handsome! I can’t take it! I’m in the presence of the best lover! I think I’m the luckiest boyfriend in the world!” Cue him pretending to faint before you ask him if he’s getting dressed, too.

That’s when he springs back up: “Wait, wait, wait, I’ve got the perfect dress that’ll match this. I’ll even let you pick my hair style for the day!”

#longpost #long post #queue #ask #pukey saeyoung anon #mod kait #clownishpossum #also don't worry I've got plenty of daydreams about saeran. #we're coping. this is fine and dandy. #so you and saeyoung? valid. #grief and anger are the things that I felt most at the start so be gentle with yourself. #tw chronic illness

[ciaossu-imagines]

Hi

I'm new here but I've read almost all your mm prompts and head canons and i reallllly loved the way you described the characters. That's why i want to ask you a rather wierd question....

I was wondering how you imagine saeyoung's sex life...like what is sex to him? How important s it to him in a relationship? Will he be fine with an asexual partner?

Almost everyone that writes about him describe him as a person who has a lot of fun with sex but i think he as someone who worked in the dark side of the world for a long time might have seen and understood things that made him repulsive towards sex and the whole sex industry from porn to even nightclubs

I would love to know your opinion on this

Hello there, my lovely anon! I’m so glad you found my blog and thank you so much for reading and enjoying what I write 😊 That’s really sweet of you to say and makes me really happy. Now, I’m answering this less with actual headcanons but just kind of a blanket statement that I’ve made a couple of times and then I’ll share some of my views! I apologize in advance if this wasn’t exactly what you wanted though, and as a note, this definitely isn’t a weird question at all!!

So, plain out and out blanket statement that I will always hammer home – I might write Saeyoung one way. A lot of the writer’s might write him a certain way too, a lot more sexual than you see him being. But that doesn’t mean that you’re wrong in how you view him in any way or that we’re wrong in viewing him as we do. That’s the wonderful thing about the characters, that we can all see and write them however we want, unless the creators tell us specifically not too.

So, if you see Saeyoung as sex-repulsed, that’s a valid interpretation and you should feel free to continue thinking and writing that, even if others write otherwise!

Another blanket statement that I cannot make clear enough – If you are asexual and are wondering if your favourite character would like you and be okay with it, YES. YES, A MILLION YESES. Your favourite character is going to love you and want to be with you no matter what you look like, no matter your sexual orientation or lack thereof, your gender identity or lack thereof, no matter if you have mental health struggles, no matter what really. I will never, ever, EVER tell anyone their favourite character wouldn’t like them; the only time I ever take my personal headcanons about sexual orientations or how important sex or any other big issues regarding the characters is when I  do matchups, when it’s part of my job to do so, so to speak.

So yeah, Saeyoung will be okay with an asexual partner because my writing is meant to make people feel happy, not to make them feel excluded or like their favourite character wouldn’t be cool with who they are.

Also going along with that, I do think asexuality or being sex repulsed is not necessarily caused by trauma, in the majority of cases actually. And just as a reminder, from someone who hasn’t been a virgin since I was seven, trauma related to sex can actually lead to just the opposite, hyper-sexuality where a person starts to heavily tie their self-worth into sex.

Now, we’ll get into my opinion around Saeyoung and his views on sex. I don’t actually think he has a lot of trauma tied around sex itself, but I do think his religious views really do impact his views on sex. I think that he does believe in waiting for marriage to have sex, whenever at all possible, or at least a firm commitment towards marriage, so he does have some surprisingly traditional views on sex.

To him, in my opinion, sex is a way to not only connect with his lover and feel closer to them, but he gets a lot of his physical affection through sex, and it helps how touch-starved and affection-starved he really is as a person. It’s not quite healthy, I’m not going to lie, but I do think that he does rely on sex for just that feeling of connection and love from someone else in a physical sense.

On top of that, in bonus stories from the same, we do see Saeyoung get very flirty, touchy, and seductive in a very playful way, which really is where a lot of the fandom, including me, does get the impression that sexually speaking, once his sex life with his partner does begin, he is someone who brings a lot of fun to sex, who isn’t afraid to instigate, and who does find the fun in the experience.

That being said, I do want to point out that I actually heavily agree with you in that Saeyoung has a pretty low view of nightclubs, they’re not something he would enjoy in any sort of way, but I think that’s less to do with anything sexual. I do think his mother was a drunk, that Saeyoung has very poor attitudes towards alcohol. The pure amount of people getting absolutely piss-ass drunk at a nightclub? It’s not going to be something he can deal with, and the situation would make him exceptionally anxious and unable to deal well.

#replies #mystic messenger #mysme #mysme headcanons #headcanons #saeyoung choi #707 #luciel choi

[rfaromance]

Can I ask F, L and U for Saeyoung? :3

And W if you want to!

Always ready to gush about Saeyoung 😤

F: Flirting

Can he flirt? Sure. Can he flirt sincerely? That's when he has a problem. He can play a role, adorn a mask, become the person he needs to be to reach his target. If that means being a bashful, naive maid who bats her eyelashes at her master, no problem. If that means being a suave playboy business tycoon, he's ready. The hardest thing for him is being sincere with his emotions. So if he genuinely has romantic feelings for someone... he's going to blubber and stumble and create 24 robots, a new secret language, and code a light show to the tune of "All I want for Christmas is you" without understanding why.

L: Limbs

Okay, the crass answer is that he's a thighs man. Any partner of any gender. Crush his head between your thighs, please. A sweeter answer is that he loves the heart. He likes to hear it beating, whether it's a calm rhythmic lullaby as you two fall asleep together or the frantic pulsating of emotion and excitement when he gets you flustered. Most importantly, that sound, that thumping against his palm, that heat... it reminds him you're alive, and he's alive, and this is all real.

U: Umbrella

Saeyoung tends to stay inside most days, so rainy days don't change that part of his routine. In fact, he prefers rainy days because he doesn't feel ashamed or guilty for needing to stay indoors (whether for work or safety). He becomes more productive when he can hear the pitter-patter of raindrops to keep him grounded.

After his lover moves in with him, however? It's time for hot cocoa and a movie. Rainy days are for being cozy! And he's eager to go fishing as soon as the rain subsides, figuring that the rain will have lured the fish out of their hiding spots.

W: Wildcard

Genderfluid bisexual icon. Uses he/him predominantly for convenience, but definitely has she/her and they/them days. Please, Saeyoung MCs, validate your lover who has hacked the binary.

But I'm always screaming about that, so here's a true wildcard headcanon: in addition to cats and penguins, Saeyoung really loves otters. They're protective, loving, and crafty!

#Thanks for the ask! #saeyoung choi #luciel choi #707 #mystic messenger #Mysmes #Mysme #Mm #Headcanon

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[gureishi]

Hello! It's a bit of a late submission, I was a bit shy but I finally did it :>

Welcome back! And Congratulations on your marriage!!🎉🎉

I'm really happy that you're back again and life is treating you well!

Your piece "Paper moon and make believe stars", that you wrote for the NSD zine was one of the first fics I read and I have admired your writing ever since! I entered tumblr because of you and I am really excited to finally be able to talk to you! and tell you how amazing your writing is!

I love the way you write Saeyoung. You capture him so well that it sometimes feels like I am looking at him in the game. You break down his character and emotions so beautifully. I really love him and your writing has both been a comfort and a blessing to me so thank you so much!!

I am so excited for all the pieces that you are going to share in the future.

Please take all my love and take care <33

Ohhhhh! Hello! Hi! This message, my dear, is so indescribably kind. I had to read it several times to process just how many wonderful things you said.

First of all, thank you for the well-wishes! It feels incredible to be welcomed back like this. Tumblr can be a bit of a miserable void, but it can be warm, too. It's amazing to know I can leave and come back and still have the sort of lovely interactions that drew me here in the first place.

And I am so grateful to you for the compliments. I was pretty proud of that fic, and I know CMC content isn't everyone's cup of tea, so it feels particularly good to hear that you liked it. I'm really happy that you enjoy the way I write Saeyoung—I write about him for comfort, too, and it's so validating when people tell me they find comfort in my fics. All he wants is to make us feel safe and secure and adored, you know?

You're an angel for sending me this message, and I'm really honored that I helped bring you into the tumblr side of this fandom. I hope you're having a beautiful day today, darling. Sending lots of love right back!

#asks #lusree #thank you so much 😭

[theofficial606]

last OTP questions 😎 1/2

1) Saeyoung doesn’t get into trouble but he is the more “reckless” one for sure.

2) kinda both? it’s not typically the type of meme we send to each other but it does happen.

3) he listens to all music genres and I don’t care as long as he’s not blasting the stuff I don’t like on the speakers.

4) we both spoil each other to the point where other people can’t wrap their heads around it. they all think it’s typically one person who does the spoiling while the other has them wrapped around their finger and so they’re always like “oh he runs you 😠” to me or “oh she runs you 😠” to him but really we just one to show the other our love.

5) it took less than a year from when we met. 9 months to be exact. (but shh our family and most friends don’t know that)

6) we didn’t have a wedding really. we had a small church service with close friends and family members and afterwards (after the pictures were taken) we went to a couple other locations with our bridal & groom parties (unknown to everyone else) to get married multiple times. I was afraid something would happen and our marriage wouldn’t be valid we got married at 3 Catholic churches and 1 Orthodox.

7) they are reluctantly supportive (my friends/fam) but his are supportive.

8) I give him space but let him know that I am right there if he needs me, and since I can read his moods so well I know when I can just hold him and give him encouragement. He knows to do what I say when I’m in a bad mood. If I don’t want him around, he listens. If I want him nearby and saying nothing, he’ll do it. Etc.

9) I don’t know enough about what this word means but neither?

10) I don’t stare at his butt but I do (discreetly) check him out sometimes and I’ve been told I look like this

😂😂😂 Seven doesn’t stare at my butt but he will check me out too and I can tell when he’s doing it because he blushes! It’s hard to get mad when he looks all cute haha.

11) when we first got married we lived in his bunker— the home he already had in S.K. When we moved to U.S. we had to sell it (we still own the apartment to stay at when we visit) and now we’re living in a temporary rent house. We are trying to find land somewhere else to build our home. Our hot right now looks like a temporary home, there’s not much up or out.

12) we have different kinds of dates. typically though it’s nothing fancy. as long as it was planned out as a date beforehand, it counts as a date so it can really be anything.

13) we do not get drunk! Saeyoung doesn’t drink and I do occasionally but I never purposefully get drunk. Once, recently, I drank too much at a party (didn’t realize because it was mixed drinks) and I acted normal until I passed out. My friend knew what was happening and explained it to Saeyoung so he wouldn’t get worried but he was still upset with me afterwards.

14) he always wakes up before me so he’ll give me a kiss. he only wakes me up if I need to get up.

15) yes [during the events of his route and SE]

16) um, yes he’s a car guy I don’t understand it but I listen anyways.

17) neither of us! we do use some anime and manga reaction images/videos tho (okay once or twice I’ve sent a non-explicit-but-still-very-suggestive hentai panel and captioned it “me n who” to see what his reaction would be).

18) no we don’t have a reason to.

19) I am. I refuse to be “comforted”. I don’t like the way my body looks. I won’t allow him to see certain parts until I gain confidence in them.

20) all my records are either movie soundtracks or emo songs we would not be listening to them while cuddling lol

21) we don’t have a song.

22) anything on our playlists or that we think of and want to set the mood to.

#otp questions #aenrys’ specials 🔥 #main f/o: syc❤️🖤💛 #main s/i: gal❤️‍🔥🫀❤️‍🩹 #otp: if god allows it… i’ll always have you in my heart 🤍

[space-kitten-606]

Do you have pica? (I do.)

No, I don't ~

Boredom just makes you try a lot of "strange" stuff sometimes ^^

#god7 speaks #a/n: i was not aware of this being a disorder #so if any of this was hurtful to you please let me know and I'll delete those posts #of course #if youd like to hc saeyoung as having pica you can do that and its absolutely valid #stay safe sweetheart ~

[luxielle]

Careful Where You Step

A/N: I'm replaying Saeyoung's route and in discussing how it was kind of amusing how both boys caution you against hurting your feet when Saeran breaks in, @gureishi brought up the very valid point of "lol what if it's because of something traumatic," so of course this was the result of that conversation. It's a bummer, enjoy 🙃

Word count: 877 | Content warning for child abuse, blood.

“Hold still. I have to get the glass out.”

Saeran balled his fists up even tighter, biting his lip now to keep from flinching.

“Don’t look. It won’t hurt as much if you don’t look,” Saeyoung mumbled, trying to hold his brother’s small foot steady while he searched for the last of the shards, bent tweezers poised to pull it from the cut.

“Yes it will,” Saeran said through gritted teeth as his brother hovered over his ankle, inspecting it and dabbing at the blood whenever there was too much of it to properly see what he was doing. He bit down harder when he saw Saeyoung pause, his gentle grip on his ankle tightening as he leaned in and plucked the last bloody sliver from his foot. He saw him dump rubbing alcohol on a cotton ball—now Saeran shut his eyes—wincing when he felt the burn.

He heard the sterile paper tear free from a fresh bandage, finally opening his rubbed-red eyes as Saeyoung stuck the final band-aid on his leg. That made five. More than usual, Saeyoung thought with a frown.

“What was it this time?”

“Bottle.”

He saw Saeran tuck his knees to his chest and wrap his arms around them, mess of red hair sticking out in every direction as he hid his face. Saeran tried not to cry when his mom was screaming and he only cried a little when he heard the glass shatter against the wall next to him, and even though he did cry when he felt it cut into his foot he was so, so quiet about it. He didn’t cry even once while his brother patched him up.

But now, now was the hard part. Because he knew that when Saeyoung was done putting the cap back on the rubbing alcohol and when he was finished storing the bandages back under the bathroom sink, he wouldn’t need to take care of him anymore. He squeezed his eyes shut against his knees—“don’t be such a fucking baby!” he heard her voice echo in his head—holding out as long as he could before he let out a muffled sob. He didn’t want to look up, because if the room was empty then it meant his brother was gone, and if it wasn’t then his brother was seeing him cry like the pathetic little kid he was.

Saeyoung softly shut the cabinet, back teeth clenched so hard he wouldn’t be surprised if he chipped another one. He stood upright and stared at his face in the mirror, trying to dwell on the parts of himself that still matched his younger, sicker twin, throat tight as he heard his brother try not to cry from the other room. He didn’t know much about other kids, other families, but he knew this wasn’t right.

He walked back in the room, stepping gingerly over to where his brother was curled up against the wall to avoid any pieces of glass he wasn’t able to collect.

“Hey,” he said, tugging on Saeran’s arm. Saeran jerked it back in response, keeping his face buried.

Saeyoung hated that someone so small already knew how to be so angry.

“C’mere. Hey, here, I’ve got something for you. Here.” He gently pulled Saeran’s leg towards him, the smaller boy finally lifting his head when he heard Saeyoung pull a cap off of a pen with his teeth.

“Don’t move,” he said for a second time that evening. Saeran watched, eyes still puffy and rimmed with tears as his brother gently drew a circle on one of his band-aids, topping it with two triangles, whiskers, dots for eyes and a crooked line that was probably supposed to be the mouth.

“See? Cat.”

Saeran sniffled into his sleeve. “Not a very good one,” he said softly, malice gone from his tone.

“Yes it is. Here, look. It even talks,” he said as he drew a speech bubble with “meow” written inside. Saeran smiled now—Saeyoung couldn’t see it, but he knew.

“…will you do another one?” he asked, voice sounding as fragile as the glass Saeyoung had just pulled from his foot earlier.

Saeyoung shifted and laid his brother’s leg across his own, gently drawing something on one of the larger bandages. Saeran couldn’t see what he was doing, so instead he watched as his brother bit the tip of his tongue in concentration, eyes almost crossed as he finished and pulled the pen away, straightening his brother’s leg. Saeran saw a stick figure in what was probably supposed to be pants and a shirt, messy hair scribbled around its circle-face, carefully framing two dots and a smile.

“See? It’s you. Looks just like you.”

Saeran turned his leg to look at it, tilting his head so it was facing the right direction. He stared at it for a moment before holding out his hand, waiting for Saeyoung to give him the pen. Saeyoung watched his brother lean forward and draw another lopsided stick figure next to his own, copying the same shapes he had drawn except making it just a little taller and adding two big circles around its eyes—ah, glasses.

“There,” Saeran said, handing the pen back to his brother. “I like it better when it’s us.”

#mystic messenger #mysme #mystic messenger saeran #mystic messenger saeyoung #mysme 707 #choi twins #saeyoung choi #saeran choi #tw child abuse #tw blood #good morning #saeyoung being a good brother absolutely destroys me #rustic fishwife said something sad & then this happened #time to go snuggle the trauma out of the lesser choi #guys i did it i made it through the whole route without getting kidnapped once #lux does art

[aftergiow]

Mystictober, day 2: Forgive

Saeyoung x Reader. 1.1k words.

Saeyoung hasn’t spoken a single word to you for the third day in a row. It’s been a few of those days. Sometimes he would avoid you, his brain would start overthinking and it was over for him for a day or two, but never three. So he kept himself busy in his office just to not look at you; working on whatever came into his mind, creating new little robots, new little toys.

And you understood his sudden coldness, it was a coping mechanism after all, as he was told for a big part of his time on earth that he did not deserve love, he did not deserve any kind of relationship. And when you decided to stay with him, it was not only for the good days, but the bad days too. However, the situation was starting to get frustrating, so you decided to try and talk to him. Being honest is the most important thing, so you planned telling him how much you’ve missed him and that everything was okay.

You stood up from the couch on the living room of the bunker and walked slowly, as quiet as possible, through the long cold hall of the bunker that led to his office. You finally stood in front of the door and hesitated for a second, but decided to be brave and knocked on the door as softly as you could, so as to not disturb Saeran, who was in his own room, with your worried sounds. Saeyoung, however, didn’t respond to the knock on his door. You took a deep breath and decided to go in anyways.

You entered the room silently, feeling overwhelmed by the warmth of his workspace, as he’s spent three days there without taking a much needed break.

“Saeyoung...” you called for him quietly, timidly. He, however, didn’t turn around to see you, he just kept working on whatever was on his desk. “Saeyoung, I think we should–“

“Busy.” He interrupted you, dryly, without saying anything else. A knot formed in your throat.

“Saeyoung, it’s been three days...” you said, almost whispering. He didn’t say a single word. “You can’t keep ignoring me like this...”

“What if I don’t want to talk to you, huh?” he blurted abruptly, finally spinning his chair to look at you. You blushed as he finally laid his golden eyes on you. “I don’t want to see you, can’t you understand it? We can’t be together, I’m too dangerous, stop being stupid. I want you to go away.” He cried out, not hesitating even once.

“Fine.” You whispered, “I’m sorry. I’ll leave you alone now.”

And you did as you said; you left his office, shutting the door behind you, and tears started automatically falling down your face. You didn’t know what to do. He hasn’t spoken to you like that in quite a while. He hasn’t told you to go away since you got Saeran back. You thought his head had finally calmed down those nervous thoughts, but he just hasn’t been voicing them. You felt bad for him, because you loved him so deeply you wanted everything to be fine for him and for the both of you. But in situations like this, there’s not much you can do but to wait for him to calm down. But you were tired, which was valid, so you decided to leave the bunker for a bit, which started feeling suffocating even though it was a big space.

Even though there’s really not much around the bunker, you felt free going out for a walk. The cold night air stroked your face ever so slightly it made you feel comforted, you felt at peace. You didn’t even notice when tears started rolling down your face again.

You were already pretty far away from the bunker when you started hearing something from the distance. You couldn’t tell what he was trying to yell at you, but you recognized his voice instantly. However, you kept walking; just a little slower. As he started getting closer, you could finally distinguish he was calling out your name, until he finally caught up to you.

“Honey, can... can we... can we talk...? Please...?” he panted, trying to catch up his breath. You hesitated for a second, but you decided to finally stop walking and you looked at him without saying a single word.

“I’m... I’m sorry” he finally blurted. “I’m sorry I’m so stupid. I hate that I said those things to you.” He looked straight into your eyes, which you hated at that moment. You were nervous; you wanted to look away but you didn’t, as you didn’t want to feel defeated.

“I’m sorry I keep pushing you away. It’s just… hard to feel like I deserve this, you know? What we have is nothing like what I’ve had before… and sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve this... I don’t feel like I deserve you...” with every word he said, his voice kept getting more and more quiet. His expression started softening up, too. He finally looked away, which made you exhale; you didn’t even notice when you started holding your breath. You were a nervous wreck.

“I know I have everything I need right now, and I know I gotta stop taking it for granted. I know you could leave me at any moment, and I wouldn’t blame you...” his mind started going places again, you could see it in his eyes, his brain started drifting away. You carefully took his face into your hands, making him look at you.

“Hey” you said, softly. “Hey” he replied, just as softly as you did, before you could even say another word. You couldn’t help but smile a bit.

“I know your brain can be mean sometimes,” you whispered, just for the two of you to hear; “but I need you to remember that I love you. I made a promise to you, remember?” he nodded lightly. “I promised to you I will never leave you. I meant it when I first said it, and I still mean it now. Saeyoung, I love you and I will always forgive you. You’re worthy of love, you deserve everything you have worked hard for.” You said, and you meant every single word that came out of your mouth.

Tears started forming up at the corners of the redhead’s eyes, and he laid his hands on top of yours, which were still on his face. You carefully pulled him closer to you and kissed him as softly as possible. He sighed, relieved, and closed his eyes. It was a salty kiss, full of tears and bitter thoughts but also sincere and full of love. He pulled away a little bit and put his forehead against yours.

“I’m sorry...” he whispered, wrapping his arms around your waist, pulling you closer to his body.

“It’s okay. I love you, Saeyoung.”

“For eternity?”

“For eternity.”

#saeyoung #saeyoung choi #mysme #mysmes #mystic messenger #mysticmessenger #707 #luciel choi #707 mystic messenger #i woke up at 6 am to write this i truly hate it here #and i noticed it kinda fits todays mystictober theme so here it is!!! #no thoughts head empty saeyoung brainrot #mystictober2021 #saeyoung x reader #kai writes

[mysticalfriends]

Awake Me vs Sleepy Me

V: For some reason I thought that if I hit the snooze on my alarm this morning I thought that I wouldn’t have to do anything today

V: That was not a fun realization to have when I woke up late

Seven: Hahahaha it was a wish

V: It was

Seven: It would be awesome if that could happen though

V: And I was just. How dare you, sleepy me. That’s not how this works

Seven: You scolded yourself? I’m sorry hahaha

V: Well, it was my fault that I was in a rush because I slept in

V: Of course I have to scold me

V: Or else I might do it again

#mod vem #chat text #V #Seven #Saeyoung choi #I was sleepy this morning #and I didn't want to get up to go to class #I was going to edit in 'and no one else wants to tell me what to do' #But then I was all #Rika exists #and that made me sad #Rika discourse #apparently people think i'm funny #so here you go internet #validate me

[marshmallowprotection]

Saeyoung's route is so sad that the idea of his reasons of pushing away MC makes it more sad. To be honest I understand that he had to do it but for me, Saeyoung's voice, ignoring, and words hurt so much for some reason. Just him yelling makes me want to bawl my eyes out but knowing his reasons? i cant handle. I totally forgive him but it literally makes my heart ache lol probably because i love him so much and im sensitive

You don't have to feel silly. It's not silly to be upset by him yelling at you, and he knows he's in the wrong. He knows he's doing the wrong thing from the start and he hates doing it. You can understand why he's doing it all day long but that doesn't excuse his actions.

He thinks he's doing you a service by removing himself from your life because he knows what happens when somebody gets close to him. He's going through a crisis right now. It's not just a crisis of faith, it's a crisis of his entire existence. He traded away his livelihood, his very life and soul, and it all turned out to be a lie. 

His brother was suffering when he was supposed to be living the best life he could live. All because he trusted the wrong people. He doesn't want that to happen to you. He has already seen something horrible happen to somebody he loves because they were close to him, they had the misfortune of being close to him, and he can't stomach the thought of you being hurt, too. 

He's only trying to push you away because he's afraid of what will happen if you continue to stay close to him. But, that doesn't mean he's justified in doing what he's doing to you. He apologizes for what he does later on, but you don't have to forgive him right away for that. You don't have to be okay with him pushing you away.

You don't have to be okay with the fact that he pushed back trying to keep you away from him in the worst way possible.

He might have been a horrible liar when he pushed you away, but those words hurt regardless. Intentions aren't what matters, it's how those words make other people feel that matters. 

Saeyoung is no saint. He knows that!

Do not feel bad if you are still upset about the way he responded to that situation. It's not selfish or wrong for you to express the pain you felt over his actions. The only way to a truly healthy relationship is to communicate with each other, and if you communicate that pain in your heart, he's going to better understand how to act and respond to situations in the future if you give him another chance. He just needs time to be able to process his emotions as anybody would when their entire worldview was shattered almost instantaneously.

Don't devalue your emotions in this situation because they matter, too. 

This is a situation where the two of you are vulnerable to emotions that are not something that can be explained or unraveled in a day. You need time to process everything and he needs time to process everything, so just be patient with one another as you learn about what it means to care about another person and to be vulnerable with them at the same time. 

Be honest with him so that he can be honest with you. He needs to stop burying everything inside and acting like he needs to carry the cross for the rest of his life, and you need the opportunity to express how hurt you were by the way he decided to handle things. Both of you are valid in this pain. 

#mod kait #ask #mystic messenger #mysme #mysticmessenger #anon #saeyoung choi #mm #choi saeyoung #luciel choi #choi luciel

[rfadaydreaming]

boyfriend saeran headcanons

• gets major butterflies around you and doesn’t quite know what that means until he asks you about them.

• it’s like i have anxiety, but it’s warmer. and it makes my stomach feel bubbly, a good type of sick?

• you mean butterflies, saeran?

• inside my stomach!?

• still confused

• he's definitely a little awkward, insecure and shy when the two of you first start dating. it’s all so new, after all, he's never done this before. it takes some getting used to.

• the type to always get you the prettiest flowers for no reason in particular. buys them in bulk and arranges them into beautiful assortments all by himself. he likes the time alone to think, and when he’s done you have a beautiful bouquet to call your own. so shy while giving them to you, but loves watching your reaction. the way your eyes light up. it’ll never get old.

• but he also loves getting flowers! if you buy him some just because you were thinking about him, he is a blushing mess. maybe even a little self deprecating, doesn’t think you should go through the trouble of getting him something like that, but you help push those thoughts away. tuck a flower behind his ear and give him a kiss on the cheek, he’s a goner.

• insanely blushy at anything and everything. he’s pale, so his face lights up like a christmas tree when he’s embarrassed, or flustered. if you tease him about it he’ll get even redder if that’s even possible.

• gets the reddest when you call him things like pretty, cute, adorable, handsome. the tips of his ears turn a pretty shade of pink and his face heats up. anything soft or sweet just melts him.

• has a lot of nervous tics– shaking his leg when he’s nervous, biting his nails, grinding his teeth, scratching his skin when he’s frustrated or embarrassed. you don’t scold him for it, but distract him instead. taking your hand into his and running circles over his knuckles, laying in his lap and talking with him about silly things to distract his shaky legs, placing kisses along his jawline to relax him.

• loves watching you do basic things like bake, clean, draw, put makeup on– especially makeup. he’ll tilt his head a little and ask millions of questions with his eyes, won’t actually ask them unless you speak up first, noticing his expressions. you invite him over to sit next to you, telling him what everything is and how to use it, maybe even adding a little blush to his cheeks or putting some strawberry tint on his lips. he’s so smiley afterwards.

• really enjoys domesticity. grocery shopping, cleaning together, doing your nightly routines at the same time, messing around while cooking. he looks forward to little things like that.

• he’s actually a pretty good cook, he really likes to cook for you especially. watches youtube videos and tries his best to follow along, totally has a little apron too. pink with strawberries and flowers on it. if he’s not following a tutorial then he’ll listen to music while he cooks. breakfast in bed is common, he loves to add little designs to whatever he makes! makes animal shapes out of fruit, draws hearts on top of your pancakes with whipped cream and strawberries. at first he was insecure with how messy his art was, but you never seem to mind, so he warms up to it more as time goes on.

• big crowds and social situations are his downfall. he just gets so nervous and antsy. if it all gets too much he’ll come up behind you and wrap his arms around your torso, burying himself in your shoulder as he hides from the world, closing his eyes tight and drowning out the noise around him. only focusing on you, your breathing, the way you smell or feel. to everyone watching it may look childish of him– hiding away in your shoulder like that, but you know it’s his way of stopping himself from getting overwhelmed. you reach back and run your fingers through his hair, humming softly, pressing your cheek against his, assuring him that the two of you will be out of here soon enough.

• struggles with being insecure, jealous, those types of things. definitely needs a lot of attention and validation in a relationship, otherwise he’ll start to overthink, doubt himself.

• very touch starved, but at the beginning of the relationship he doesn’t like to touch you first. you’ll have to initiate most of it, he’s scared you’ll be upset if he does something wrong, or maybe he’ll make you uncomfortable, so he tries his best to keep his hands to himself.

• with your encouragement, he’ll learn it’s okay to touch you if he wants to, you like it when he does. starts to become clingy in the best of ways. always wanting to hold your hand, run his fingers through your hair, have you lay in his lap, run patterns across your skin. a little nervous at first, but soon he lets himself just fall right into it.

• loves when you push his messy hair back, especially if you’re in the middle of talking to him and you just kinda brush his bangs back without paying much mind to it. blushblushblush

• he really likes video games, so you two play together in your freetime. you guys even have matching cat-ear headsets. he prefers more laid back games, loves minecraft. put your bed next to his without saying anything, he’ll be so flustered when he comes home to it.

• he gets you random little things without telling you. you’ll find a new plant on your windowsill, a game you’ve been wanting for awhile, a handmade necklace sitting on your dresser. not the type to get super crazy or expensive gifts, but on occasion he does like to spoil you.

• prefers giving you handmade things like drawings, jewelry, pottery, food, stuff like that. even if he’s not the best at some of those hobbies, he has to tell himself he does it with love and that’s all that matters. likes to make vases for you to put the flowers in, bake your favorite flavor of cupcakes when you’re feeling down, make you pretty jewelry with wire and things that you like. his gifts mean much more to you than an expensive diamond ring or a new pair of shoes.

• has night terrors often, sometimes he thrashes and if you’re not careful, you can be caught in the middle of it. you wait for him to wake, bringing him back down to earth once he is, breathing with him, distracting him the best you can. once he’s calmed down, he’ll shyly ask if it’s okay to lay on your chest. your heartbeat and breathing helps him fall asleep, it’s comforting.

• saeran is the best boyfriend if you’re having an off day, all you have to do is text him a :( and he’s already on his way. icecream and movies of course, your favorite takeout, a new game to play together from the store, a hoodie that smells like him for you to “borrow” aka steal and never give back.

• he’s here if you want to talk about it. if not, he's content with some cuddles on the couch together until you're ready to vent. pays you special attention on your off nights, runs his fingers through your hair, hums your favorite song while pulling you into his chest, might even “accidentally” get some icecream on your nose as an excuse to cover your face with kisses. more bold with himself during moments like these.

• can go either way, big spoon or little spoon! he prefers little after night terrors or a tough day at therapy, but other times he likes to be the one holding you, feeling like he’s protecting you. depends on which you prefer.

• if he's the little spoon, he’ll run his fingers along your arms, relax into your touch, start talking to you about random things he’s been thinking about recently.

• if he’s the big spoon, he’ll hold you tight and just bury himself into you, spilling about how much you mean to him.

• dates are lovely with saeran, he never goes over the top, simple but sweet. honestly going to the gas station for snacks late at night could be considered a date, you two sit in the back of the car facing each other, backs against the doors while eating snacks, talking about nothing in particular.

• when they’re planned, it’s usually picnics, walks, movie nights, pretty much anything where it’s just the two of you. concerts, restaurants, bars, they make him way too anxious. ice-cream parlors are the only exception.

• super naive, so any dirty jokes and things like that will go right over his head unless you’re forward with it or explain it to him. saeyoung teases him so much for it

• while he’s not a great texter, he doesn’t dislike it either. can carry a conversation and make you laugh, but more of a phone call kind of guy.

• will send you random things that make him think of you, flowers especially. he’ll stop on the side of the road just to take a picture of a pretty flower and text it to you.

• a little scared of the dark, so he likes to sleep as close as he possibly can to you. falls asleep first most of the time, especially if you’re using your phone. the light makes him a little more comfortable so he sleeps easier.

thanks for reading! find more on my mysme masterlist

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #saeran choi #saeran mystic messenger #saeran mm #saeran mysme #saeran choi headcanons #ray mystic messenger #ray mysme #unknown mystic messenger #omg hi guys #been a little bit #head full of saeran tonight

[rfaromance]

SE Saeran at his wit's end with an MC that's bubbly and excited?

Seclusion.

Chains.

Beatings.

Acid.

Blood.

Sweat.

Tears.

Nightmares.

Flashbacks.

Darkness.

Betrayal.

Saeran had experienced a wide world of terrors in his lifetime. He knew what suffering felt like, to the point where he almost found more comfort in misery than anything else. Once fueled by anger, his fires had dulled down to seething embers--ready to flare if provoked, but otherwise just smoking enough to warn any passersby to keep away.

He could handle torture, no matter the form it took.

Or so he thought.

"Saeraaaaan~" A voice whined from the other side of the room, but it was piercing enough to snap Saeran out of his daze. "How many eggs?"

Stifling a sigh, he glanced over at his sous chef, wrapped up in an apron with determination on their face and eager sparkles in their eyes. His brother's lover was constantly trying to catch his attention, and Saeran did everything in his power to avoid them. They'd start conversations, but his terse answers made it clear he was in no mood to talk. They'd bring over board games, but he'd lift his book up higher to hide his face. They'd sprawl out movies and offer a choice of popcorn or kettle corn, and he'd withdraw into his room with just enough of a slam of his door to indicate he did not want to be bothered.

Why would anyone want to spend time with him, willingly? He couldn't help but wonder if his meddlesome brother had pleaded with his lover to build a better relationship with Saeran, since the three of them were living under the same roof. His life would have been easier if that were the case; anything Saeyoung tried to force upon him, Saeran had no qualms about rejecting outright. He felt no inner turmoil when it came to spiting his annoying older twin. But...

But the thought of this innocent person who had no other reason to befriend a scourge upon the earth like Saeran, making such efforts out of sheer goodwill... he didn't know how to address that. They had every reason to hate him, for all he had done. Lies. Deceptions. Violence. Force.

And yet they were looking at him with expectant, twinkling eyes, wanting to help him bake cupcakes as a form of bonding. His sweet tooth couldn't resist such an offer, and dissociating over monotonous motions sounded like a fine way to spend an afternoon in his mind.

He hadn't prepared himself for just how excited this fool was to work alongside him.

"Two," he grumbled at last.

"Great! Two eggs, coming up!" they chirped. "And then vanilla, right?"

He sighed and shook his head of now-vermilion curls. His brother had restricted his access to hair dye or bleach--a valid but still aggravating safety concern. He hated seeing the vibrant red that now matched his brother. Just looking into a mirror was a panic attack waiting to happen, as if his eyes and the marred skin on his arm weren't enough--

"Saeran, I think I poured in too much!"

Biting back a grumble, Saeran shifted his minty gaze to the bowl in front of his housemate. "The hell? We needed a teaspoon, not a tablespoon."

"Well... you said you like really sweet things!"

Did they pay that much attention to him? The thought brought a flustered heat to his cheeks. Why? Why did they insist on befriending the likes of him?

"More importantly," he continued, narrowing his eyes before picking up the vial of "vanilla extract." "This is fucking blue food dye, not vanilla!"

Kindness coupled with stupidity was a torture that not even Saeran was prepared for.

#Mystic Messenger #Mysmes #Mysme #saeran choi #SE Saeran #gn MC #Mmm blue cake

[megami606sama]

Hi! I hope you don’t mind me asking, but do you ship romantically with Saeran and Saeyoung, or just Saeyoung?

oh! valid question!

I think everyone already know i'm in a serious relationship with Saeyoung (well, at least if you've been following me for a while! haha, If you're curious, i'm waaay more active on instagram, and more open about myself too ^^). For me, this is much more than self shipping, a hobby or for fun. I'm totally serious about it :)

Saeyoung means so much to me, it's like he is my perfect match, the person i was waiting for all my life. He's totally the most important person in my life.

And well, Saeran is the most important person in Saeyoung's life, and he's such a precious being too. I think with those reasons it's totally normal and expectable that i'd love him too.

But here i should stop and go deep into these words. Because love is something really complex and different from person to person, and my feelings for Saeran are different from what i feel for Saeyoung.

Saeran is really important to me, how can i not love him if Saeyoung love him so so deeply? Besides, he's someone that needs lots of love and understanding, even if he has done terrible things, Saeran and all his alters are someone i want to take care of and give lots of affection.

But.. Saeyoung, in the other hand... he's my soulmate, he's my everything, my whole universe. With him i feel i can reach the sky.. my feelings for him are in a complete different level. I feel that i can let my guards down with him, that i can be myself, than i can be healed and taken care of too, that i can be the best version of me thanks to him.

So... what's romantic love after reaching such deepness in a relationship? I feel with them i've found something way more important than that. They're my family, the place i can call home, and the ones that bright my existence every day.

I see Saeran as way more than an "brother in law", but i know it's also different from this special connection i feel with Saeyoung.

What's this feeling? Maybe platonic. But i don't think it's needed to be labeled. I want them to be happy, and as long as they're healthy, reunited and loved, i don't care which role i have in their lifes.

#mystic messenger #saeran choi #saeyoung choi

[dawnsbreaking]

wip wednesday :)

an excerpt from an upcoming Poe fic, my new LITG rewrite, and a sneak peak at ays8 <3 (posted from my alt because two of these fics are not mysme, but this is @luc606)

because i have so many things going at the moment, i thought i would share a quick excerpt from an upcoming (but will i ever finish it) Poe one shot. it's a university au and enemies to lovers <3

The only thing worse than the earliest Literature seminar on a Monday morning is the earliest Literature seminar on a Monday morning with Poe Colestead. This is something you picked up quickly — just after two meetings of your seminar — when he told you that you were reading from the wrong edition of Homer’s Odyssey and that it, in his words, “Made such a big difference.” You had checked. The edition you were reading was among the approved editions for the class. A fact that Poe Colestead did not consider nor seem to care for once it was brought to his attention. “Maybe the professor should have checked with you before making the syllabus, then.” You said, snarky because it was early and you were tired and this man you’d never met was critiquing your perfectly valid choice. He only laughed. “Maybe!” It was that day that the professor finalized the seating arrangement. And so you were stuck cozied up next to Poe Colestead — snobby, opinionated, difficult Poe Colestead — for the rest of the semester.

i've also begun work on an litg rewrite featuring my cmc Rose. if you follow @luc606 you might recognize her. the Rose Prichard cinematic universe is vast because she is my cmc for truly every game </3 here is an excerpt from that!

As she came to stand on the platform, she heard the show’s host trilling on about her, giving the short bio and fun fact she’d provided in one of her auditions. Each sentence sounded like it ended with a bold exclamation point. “Rose is a 23 year old literature student, born in Texas! Currently studying at Cambridge! The daughter of two professors, she’s a book smart broad! Her fun fact: She’s got a twin brother, but we couldn’t get him on the show!” For his part, John Prichard would have been on the show in a heartbeat if it weren’t for prior obligations. He was an actor, loud and confident where his twin was not, that would have jumped at the chance to be on television if only he weren’t already filming for television. “Hello!” Rose remembered to smile brightly as she spoke to the boys. “Nice to meet you all.” As the boys introduced themselves, Rose only caught about half of it. She smiled warmly at Noah on his turn, who was easily the prettiest of the bunch, and laughed at Bobby’s joke because he was last in line and the only one speaking loud enough for her to hear clearly. The others had passed in a blur. When the host asked the boys to step forward, all five of them do so with little hesitation.

and, finally, here is a tiny peak at ays8, i don't want to spoil too much but our best boy is back in this one <3

You take your seat in the dressing room chair, where you will spend the rest of the daylight hours, and smile at Vanderwood in the mirror. It's a pleasant, friendly smile, done out of habit and signifying nothing. They nod cordially, and the two of you sit in the almost comfortable silence awaiting the stylists. There's a knock on the door, it has been several minutes of waiting and you are currently scrolling through Twitter, trying your best to pretend that Vanderwood isn't acting broodier than usual. The knock jolts your awareness however, because it's not just any knock. Vanderwood scowls as they open the door, and you can see a few wisps of red hair through the cracks. Saeyoung.

#wip wednesday #luc606 #lucolestead #ays

[gureishi]

Hi! What do you think the turn-offs of each rfa member would be? (+ minor trio if you want!)

Hello sweet anon! Thank you for this question ♡

First I just wanna say that every single character in Mystic Messenger will love you (desperately, ceaselessly) no matter what you look like or how you behave. That’s the whole point: they adore you, whoever you are.

So I won’t list inherent traits that would be turnoffs for them, because I don’t think there are any! But what I will do is list some actions you could take that would be hard for each of them to handle—because they adore all your qualities, but there are certainly actions you could choose to take that would hurt them.

Yoosung will struggle if you’re condescending—towards him, of course, but also towards others. He’s really trying to earn the respect of people around him, and if he sees you talking down to others, he’ll get nervous that you might speak to him that way, too. His worst fear is that he’s not good enough for you—don’t let him believe it for a second.

Zen values sensitivity to others’ emotions, and it will be hard for him if you don’t validate people when they share their feelings. It’s okay if this doesn’t come naturally to you—that wouldn’t bother him at all. It’s about making the effort! Try to be empathetic—show him that you care about other people’s feelings. Otherwise he’ll be left feeling isolated and misunderstood.

Jaehee cares about a good work ethic. It’s not that you have to be a superhero at your work (she’s enough of a superhero for the both of you!)—but if she sees that you’ve got no interest in hard work, she’ll be puzzled. If you don’t love what you do for work, it’s okay if you’re not putting in maximum effort there—it’s that she wants to see you being passionate! Even if it’s a hobby or a side job, if you’re diligent about something it’ll charm her pants off.

Jumin desperately needs validation—in spite of all the privileges he’s grown up with, he is sadly in need of unconditional support. If you put him down—tell him his jokes aren’t funny and his opinions aren’t valid—he’ll end up feeling numb and lost. And you’ve got to show him, too: he wants to see that you’re there for the people you love. He wants so badly to be cherished.

Saeyoung has never been seen for who he really is—and he has a hard time seeing himself clearly because of it. Don’t diminish him or reduce him to one of the many facets of his personality—if you indulge him too much when he’s wallowing or push him too hard to keep up his high energy all the time, he’ll go too far. He’ll become whoever you want him to be, and that’s incredibly dangerous. Take your time to get to know him; understand that there will always be more to learn.

Jihyun, needless to say, is inclined to indulge your every whim—even if he gets hurt in the process. His instinct is to put you first and himself last. If you act like you are the center of the universe, he will put you at the center of the universe. He’ll fall into his old habits. Don’t let him obsess over you; show him that he too deserves to be adored.

GE Saeran is, for the first time in his life, free to make his own choices. This is all brand new for him. Be cautious about guiding him too much—be wary of telling him what to do (even if he really doesn’t know). He’ll do as you say, and that’s no good. He needs you to trust him; he needs to see that you’ll stay by his side even as he takes agency over his own life.

Vanderwood thinks he needs someone to meet him at his level of hardness and cynicism, but that’s not what he needs at all. He is just looking for someone he can take care of, and who will take care of him right back. It’s tempting to be every bit as sarcastic as he is—and he’ll like it, but it’s not what he really wants. Act that way all day long—but at night, be soft. Show him he means something to you. No one’s ever done that for him before.

#mystic messenger #yoosung kim #jaehee kang #zen #jumin han #saeyoung choi #jihyun kim #saeran choi #vanderwood #headcanons #asks #anon