I'm on my way to work, but I wanted to take a moment to share and celebrate. Today marks a year of sobriety. It wasn't always pretty or easy, but I made it.
But I didn't do it alone.
You guys are a part of the reason I was able to make it this far. Thank you for supporting me throughout this journey.
I’m six weeks sober from weed!! Six weeks was my last goal and my next goal is eight weeks! I’m feeling really proud of myself. These last six weeks have taught me so much about myself. Mainly that I can handle my life while being sober. There have definitely been stressors that made me consider breaking my sobriety but I consistently chose sobriety instead and I’m really glad that I did. Woohoo six weeks!
Back in June of this year, I chose to get super drunk at like 10 in the morning and then immediately resented myself for it. I made a list of how I want my life to be different knowing that my biggest barrier to achieving these things is alcohol. I have been sober from alcohol for 3 days and I'm excited to keep going. I know I can do it. I'm excited to meet my goals!
How I want my life to be different
I want a tidy environment
I want a cozy environment
I want a decorated environment
I want a cleaning routine that I can stay up with
I want to have a better memory
I want to improve my depression symptoms
I want to improve my anxiety symptoms
I want to have my compulsive thoughts addressed
I want to be evaluated for ADHD
I want school to be one of my main priorities
I want to go outside more often
I want to get back into cosplay
I want to sell my crochet items
I want to improve on following through with my commitments
I want a house that smells good
I want my cats to be healthy and happy
I want to not feel exhausted all of the time
I want to get back into writing
I want to complete a writing challenge
I want to read more
I want to write my research paper
I want to get involved in something new like roller derby
I was at home for a while, I don't often. I took a bus route that I am not used to. I did yoga after a long time. I returned the books to the library. I have finished my first exam this semester.
Sometimes I felt bad during the process, I keep thinking about cigarettes and beer, as stupid as it sounds. My head goes crazy sometimes when I have to deal with relationship issues. Alcohol provided us with a good mood and fun, although it was often the opposite. We are nervous without it, it is suddenly boring and we have a lot of time that we have no way to use.
Hey my darlings! Just wanted to share that I might not be super present around these parts for the next few days. I'm in the middle of gearing up to move out of my sober house - which means lots of packing and organizing.
It's definitely bittersweet, but it's also time. So back to independent living I go. Thanks so much for all of your support as I embark on this next chapter of my journey.
Be back soon!
Love,
Britt ❤️
P.S. While I'm gone, be sure to take care of yourselves. Drink plenty of water, eat some chocolate, get some rest, etc. 😘
I’ve been sober from weed for over a week straight. I’m having a hard day today and although I’m still craving weed, I’m craving continuing my sobriety streak more. So I’m staying strong. Next I’m going to try for being sober from weed for two weeks straight. I’m excited to tell my therapist the next time that I see her.
I had the worst day with my mom yesterday BUT I did not buy/drink any alcohol about it. I went home and worked on a puzzle and went to bed at 10pm instead.
And I woke up with a clearer head???? Crazy how that shit works.
I have a moment to celebrate for today as well! I was cleaning my kitchen and caught a pretty strong whiff of vodka that I must of spilled on something. I literally smelled it again???? And realized what I was doing and immediately cleaned up that shit.
Twenty one days. Twenty one days of waking up sober. Twenty one days of being high on just life and feeling better. As the days and weeks pass my sobriety gets easier. No drinking, and still no vaping. The worst thing I put in my body now is iced coffee or fast food. Which that’s another goal to come later. I’ve been doing this with very little support. People are slowly fading out of my life, but that’s okay. I mentally feel amazing with not holding any guilt towards myself. I have the determination within me now and I want to prove to people, and even myself wrong of knowing what it’s like to be sober. I remember myself saying that I would never beat the urge of a drink. But here I am and I’ve been fighting that useless urge for twenty one days.
PAWS can be a bitch but I'm getting pretty good at really and truly knowing that moments are temporary and there is another side to the valley. I'm capable of weathering the storm of my emotions without alcohol to numb, suppress, and distract. It's pretty awesome in all of the definitions of the word.