#some of the people in my class had been in the same classes as me since we were 4 ☹ and then one day you're grown up and they're gone

[justanotherhh]

some trailer things:

big fight around lust/ozzie's place that involves m&m and loona + we know fizzarolli is going to make another appearance, so i wonder how that'll connect potentially. also, new villain?

obvs the whole section of CHERUB working with DHORKS and this massive thing/portal:

john waters big villain episode???? (ghostfuckers from the looks of things)

also more crossdressing in that same episode + millie vs possessed blitz? both millie and blitz giving some evil dead type vibes?

more on stolas' whole social sphere and potential judgement and hell's class politics related to his dating blitz + p much confirmed that blitz will not take stolas' gift in the spirit it was intended

also, "you fucks think you can do this every time-" feels not just like it's about the wider class issues in hell, but maybe like it's personal (potentially with verosika? although it does seem like it's canon that he had more than a little bit of a hand in ending that relationship, so could just be him echoing everything he's been seeing in the treatment of imps and putting that onto stolas in this moment)

and then "thank you blitz, for making me so happy, even for a little while" is during this moment too. lot of teasers for how this is gonna go down (badly, upsettingly, emotionally)

the whole "do you feel any remorse for what you do" feels like a misdirect -- that is, it's edited to look like it's about blitz, but i feel like it's directed at stella or her brother

generally a lot of fun stolas visuals that i won't get into here, but am excited to see more contexts for

also this isn't new, but im always interested in blitz's heart/broken-heart forehead marking

blitz and tilla moment! generally more flashbacks (in the shape of blitz seeming to be almost at the movies, watching his own "failures") around the time of the fire! i didn't see any barbie stuff, alas, but the rest of it looks !!! also lowkey confirmed it was cash who stopped blitz from seeing fizz in hospital

who's this?

another sin? maybe related to ozzie and/or stolas and that judgement of the kinds of people they love?

blitz protecting stolas - maybe from the above, considering the hand motif of it all... stolas really living the life of blitz as a romantic hero, while blitz is barely holding it together as a person the whole time. different genres, my guys. different genres (that's their real communication issue)

this fuck-you-blitz cake looks like a verosika thing to do, esp considering it's her calling him shitty in the VO -- but yay, maybe giving that verosika catharsis, but also generally just verosika!

also the VO part where he says he doesn't want to be this way, he's wearing the same shroud as during his confrontation with verosika. idk, im just. contexts for things. i am curious

is the below also the same episode? I'd think so. it's set during halloween (?) and blitz is then maybe in the blood-covered shroud (costume? undercover? going undercover as a ghost? post-breakup stalking undercover ghost costume?)

MAMMON! and he looks pleased. oh dear.

this blitz + fizz moment

it kinda looks like blitz is wearing the same tee as when he and stolas have their moment + a horse bag + fizz casual wear. fizz generally in this trailer seems to be having the best time (outside the flashbacks). everything makes me suspicious all the time

(also generally hello all the different outfits coming up!!)

fascinated by this:

is that millie?

things we didn't see:

no barbie, no striker, no crimson, no asmodeus (directly, although his imagery is everywhere + fizz and mammon appear), no paimon -- this not to say none of them will show up, but am enjoying that a lot of this is clearly pulling from s1, with the focus on verosika, DHORKS, and CHERUB -- potentially a lot of the s2 villains need some time to lick their wounds a bit (and paimon was never a Villain, just a terrible parent... if he ever returns though...)

and barbie... i do want to see barbie again soonish ngl, she needs some proper introducing, but this is already giving so much callback and continuation of immediate plot-threads, very excited

#helluva boss #verosika mayday #blitzø #blitz #stolas #blitzo #helluva millie #helluva moxxie #helluva loona #DHORKS #CHERUB #helluva mammon #fizzarolli #stolitz

[yuurivoice]

I've been posting about it everywhere but Tumblr is going to get a quick n dirty review of Challengers aka the horny Zendaya tennis movie for those who might have only seen a trailer or memes.

What a goddamn masterpiece.

I expected it to be wild, but wasn't familiar anyone involved's game. Also didn't realize the soundtrack was a Trent Reznor & Atticus Ross production. Made sense when the credits rolled.

It was bold with its story structure in a perfect "you have to know the rules to break them" way, where you clearly get the way it bounces back and forth in time, with the distance between past and present getting shorter and shorter in a way that the climactic final set of the tennis match mirrors. Not only is it not cumbersome, the timing adds to the impact of events as they unfold. Wonderful work.

The exploration of a world-class athlete who is driven by the singular purpose of greatness is thrilling and heartbreaking.

It's extremely queer and, in particular, the energy between the two male leads in this uncertain rivalry / totally just bromance feels embarrassingly authentic. It mirrored some of my real experiences in ways that nothing really has before. Not always in comfortable or happy ways, but ways that felt familiar all the same.

You couldn't have forced me to watch a tennis flick without the wild unhinged energy they show in the trailer and it's so much more than that. I had several laugh out loud, throw my hands up in shock, stifled gasp type of moments. All genuine and earned.

Also, Zendaya has always been dope, but this was my "oh she can ACT act" moment. Girl wasn't fucking around. I hope this opens many other people's eyes, and she gets some roles that let her stretch her legs even more.

If you were on the fence, or worried it was set up to be a giant meme...nah man. It's fucking cinema. Top 10 all time for me. Will be watching in theater again.

#challengers #spoilers #not really spoilers but just to be safe

[cowboyjen68]

Hello Cowboy Jen! I was wondering if you had any advice for me

Here’s the situation- I’m a young lesbian (I’ll be 17 going into college) and I’m going to study geology. I’m assuming my classes and later on my work environments are going to be mostly men since geology is a male-dominated field. Any advice for being in spaces without very many women? And picking a different field’s not a very good option either, geology’s been my obsession since I was five and I doubt I could give any other field as much attention and focus.

When I was DEAD SET on being in the DNR or a Forest Ranger or some kind of Park worker I was in my tweens and early teens. I loved the idea of working with people and animals and outside and getting to use my hands and my knowledge of land and history. Then some Jack Ass at the Corps of Engineers station I volunteered at told me women couldn't really do the job right and it was too dangerous and I lost confidence. I stopped going and didn't reapply for the Mayor's Youth Parks program I had worked at for two years. I just left the idea behind. I see now all the older women park rangers that are around and read stories of women like my current boss who was a naturalist for years in our county. I work at a nature center almost entirely staffed by strong women with the exception of the CEO, the marketing guy and one outreach guy. If I had seen any of these women in my teens i would have said "heck yeah women can do this".

You are going to be that leader, that beacon. That is a thought to keep in your pocket on hard days.

The truth about working with men is, in general, they don't really care and they kinda just feel awkward. They lack social skills around women so they end up saying the dumbest stuff. I am not saying men can't be total pains in the ass or feel threatened by you being around, they absolutely can. At the end of the day we are all human and women are 50% of the population so at some point they have dealt with women in class or at a job.

Mostly just start off with giving everyone the benefit of the doubt. Saying stupid stuff to try and be funny is not the same as harassment or hate. If you don't feel offended or insulted or threatened don't try feel like you are because you think you are supposed to be.

Look them in the eye, do listen to those who have good things to share, teach or discuss. Don't dismiss men for being men. Just as many humans, they want to share what they know and tell you what they have learned. I have been taught so much by the men I work with at the farm but I had to tell myself to listen and not just paint them in my brain as being bossy or mansplaining.

Don't shy away from questions when you need help. Ask when you need to ask and thank them for helping when they do. If you are interrupted by them say "I am not finished, please wait your turn" or something similar. Stand up for your right to share what you know or to get more information when you require it.

Basically, think of men as neutrally as possible until one proves he is to be avoided or ignored. Listen to your gut if you feel unsafe or degraded and keep notes on that behavior. If you must, tell your professor or a dept head if you feel like the bad actor will continue or possible endanger you.

Once you learn your trade you can recruit other women and share your love of your job/degree and some day it will not be more men than women around you!

#trades #women #on the job #careers #college

[lesbiangummybearmafia]

I feel jealous of everyone that lives in NYC. Y'all get the opportunity to go to the Theater district see plays and musicals with stars most of will never get the chance to.

I really wish some streaming service would make a deal with some of play houses and/or Broadway Theaters to record their performances so those of us that will never have another way to see those performances will get a chance to watch them. I know it's not going to the same experience as seeing them done live.

But imagine how amazing it would be for, say, children or their grandparent that's lived in, say, Nebraska their whole life could watch Broadway version of the Lion King or see Wicked.

They did it with Hamilton on Disney plus. It gave me a chance I wouldn't of had way to see it. It was amazing!!

I just find it extremely sad that only certain number of people are allowed to enjoy these brilliance plays and musicals, basically solely on location and financially able.

For example the only play I've ever seen in my life was done by the theater class at my high school. I don't ever remember the play it's been so long.

As hard as it's to comprehend for some, many of us are either not financially fortunate to be able to go to such things or don't find interest in them until older or we live in area of the country where they don't have access to such things.

That's why recording the plays and musicals having them available on a streaming platform would be such a brilliant idea. If they didn't want to do it during a live performance, which makes sense. Do a performance just for the recording. Which I actually think is a better idea, they could get better camera angles, the cameras could move around more freely, they bother a live audience that way and it would be recorded better for the views who actually going be watching it at home. Let's be honest I doubt highly they'd lose ticket sales, I personally think it would do opposite. I think it would make people that could go see it more inclined to do so. To experience it live, to get be that close to brilliant actors, to know before hand if its good for their kids, etc...

I hate that we live in such an elitist society.

#have an idea #put plays and musicals from Broadway on streaming platform #so everyone could watch them #because not everyone has the opportunity to go to play or musical in a theater #a streaming platform could give that to everyone #nyc #broadway #theater district #plays #musicals

[brittlebutch]

finally found a place to read With the Light online and i'm thrilled; if you haven't read this manga i do Legitimately recommend it

#N posts stuff #like don't get it wrong it Is Not a series about being autistic it Is a series about raising an autistic kid #but also don't be put off by that because it's legitimately a series that I feel Loves autistic people with its whole being #it's kind of a teaching manga so it showcases a lot of different opinions/characters/conflicts/etc. but the Framing is very consistent #in that the manga is Extremely of the opinion that autistic people are People who deserve to be Valued and Accepted As They Are #the onus for change is never put on autistic individuals the framing is basically Universal in the 'the World needs to change #to be more accepting' -- it's a very Social Model depiction of autism that ALSO never veers too far into the #'autism isn't even Really a disability' fallacy; it's very much a 'A lot of autistic people will need constant support in a variety of ways #throughout their lives but that isn't the roadblock preventing them from having their own lives; ableism in society is the roadblock' #the first two chapters are the hardest to get through bc they take place before Sachiko has any real understanding of autism and #so she's isolated and stressed out and the ignorance makes it difficult for her to care for Hikaru properly (there's also a lot of #other characters Blaming her for what's going on which goes unchallenged at this point though that changes later); but after she #understands what autism is she's Firmly in Hikaru's corner for the rest of the series - you can skip right to ch 3 without a problem #if you're not interested in reading about that initial conflict #there's still a Lot of conflict ofc but by then the chapters have some of my favorite moments so i don't want to advocate skipping #them; like Hikaru's daycare teacher explaining how Hikaru's difficulty speaking is the same as other kids' troubles with #things like jump-roping/etc.; and then a mother who has An Issue with Hikaru's presence in her daughter's class realizing the #depth of the problematic opinion bc Her mother (who had a stroke) faces similar ableism from her peers #i'm cutting this post off b4 the tags get Too long but if you're curious but still hesitant man. send me an ask and i will Happily #write an insanely long essay about how much i love this series; i have all the books i'm not excited about the online availability #for Me i'm excited bc i've been wanting to rec this manga for like almost a full decade and i can finally give you a link instead of #saying 'well. you can find used copies sometimes' lol

[bootyful-seventeen]

I am heavily contemplating on buying myself a dvd player soon and buying all the DVDs for a ton of movies and tv shows I grew up watching cuz I miss the magic of dvds

#hear me out on this one okay. but the Barbie movies were magic on dvd back in the day #and I do wanna see if stores are still selling the old strawberry shortcake dvds before I go online for those #I wanna snort that nostalgia so bad #and of course I’ll need to get the dcau on dvd #like all of it cuz I’m so bored with the dccu since we don’t get as much new stuff #it’s always Batman or superman and love them but I’m kinda bored from always seeing a new bman or sups movie #Wonder Woman I wouldn’t mind a new actor for her but I know she’s not gonna be a muscle mommy which I’ll be sad about #give me a Wonder Woman that is built like rhea ripely god damnit #the flash is eh cuz I found out this whole time I’ve been watching the Wally west flash #but yeah Wally is who I want and then there’s the green lantern like dude is so cool iams all we have is the 1 from 2011 I think #sure I could watch some of the tv series they have but I have too many shows on my watch list it’s overwhelming at times so I skip over lots #tho I will have to pray like crazy cuz some of the things I know I want are probably gonna be expensive as fuck even as second hand #saw a class of the titans season 1 dvd going for $81 cad 💀💀💀 #the world is not kind to those who don’t love the digital age #I prefers my dvds cuz I own it and no one can take it away from me unless they physically steal it #omg I’m turning into my grandma cuz she still had the vhs player with some tapes too #just wish she never donated the tapes for swan princess 1-3 and Anastasia and ferngully and basically all my faves that she owned #like Ngl a part of me wants to hit up value village just to see if maybe they’re still there or if I’ll find other copies of the same things #cuz a perk about cities with older people is that you get so much older tech and other items it’s insane

[sunuism]

having social anxiety at the ripe old age of 24 is actually so embarrassing 😭😭😭

#we had a break in class today and some of the people went to smoke which they always do #and i went to the bathroom first but then was also gonna go have a ciggie and i saw them standing outside and i was conflicted if i should #go join them or go outside on the other side of the building #and guess what i ended up doing….. #i went to the other side and sat alone like a loser #anyways then when i went in again they also came in and a girl complimented my outfit #and said she has the same leg warmers as me and we talked about how they can’t stay up #and she gave me the tip to put a hair elastic at the top so they stay up better #and anyways i felt so silly for not being able to just go up to these people who i’ve been in the same class as for 3 semesters now 👹 #but anyways it’s also embarrassing bc i only started smoking recently and no one irl knows it #and i’ve never smokes in front of anyone so i’m scared i’m gonna look stupid hahahagga #and anyways this is the last week of classes and after this semester i won’t see these people again bc they’re japanese majors while it’s #just a minor for me #so it also feels unecessary to try and befriend anyone in this class now

[bladeofthestars]

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#i'm so fucking stressed all the time #i want to be done with this stupid class #i wanna hang out and do stupid stuff with my stupid friends more #but they're all busy with other stupid shit #i'm just flailing around drowning trying to cling to something but all the rocks here are slick and the waves keep dashing me against them #like practically nothing is making me happy right now #there are too many people in my life sick and dying right now that need attention and my sister just had a baby #and is being hit with post partum and needs attention #but i *also* need attention. just cuz? i guess? #which makes me feel like such a whiny asshole #oh boo hoo i'm dealing with the same depression that i have been since i was thirteen and it's bad right now #just. fuck. #asking for help and attention doesn't get me anywhere #except with my partner but like. i fucking ache to just spend some time with some people?? #my partner is obv a person but i need a good group sesh #drinking and board games and dumb jokes and anecdotes #and 'i thought of you's #my life right now is work. come home and fidget on my phone bc if i start a task that task should be classwork. do nothing productive or fun #sleep. wake up the next day and do it all again #cram some classwork in on my lonely weekends after everyone i've asked to hangout turns me down #fuckin keep hitting all the pleasure buttons to see if something sticks #legitimately i think i'm addicted to sugar #more often than not nowadays i feel straight uo nauseated when eating sweet things #but instead of stopping i just keep going #and i go back for more later even though it STILL makes me feel like trash then too #maybe *this* oreo will make my brain feel motivated enough to do a task #the answer is usually no #but every now and then it works so i keep fucking doing it #took a long walk the other night and it didn't help me finish task but it did bring a little peace of mind #unfortunately my legs and knees have been starting to hurt a bit again

[sugarsugarmp3]

i turn 21 on monday and i just know im not going to enjoy this weekend at all...

#BIG vent in tags #the last two months have been honestly some of the worst of my life i am always always thinking about this rly shitty thing happened #and now i have to go home for my birthday weekend which i know i should be happy about and it is a good thing #but i just really dont want to go and i feel like a bad person for feeling that way #im doing better than someone i know and i need to go home and be there for them #i wanted to be in my apartment and relax with my friends #ive had 4 midterms this week and i am just exhausted with everything #and its not like it being my brithday will make my weekend bc thats literally impossible #and i feel so shitty about feeling this way bc im not the one who needs help right now and my bday shouldnt even be a priority in my family #bc we have bigger problems rn #but i still wish it was better. plus today sucked #i just am always awkward with people and i wish i was better at social stuff and ive felt rly lonely bc i only hve a few good friends #and trying to make friends is so impossible bc it seems like i keep doing the wrong thing and not being able to vibe with people #rn im just thankful for labs bc having constant lab partners are the only social interactions i get in almost all my classes #this girls would sit next to me in genetics and we would talk but i hvent seen them in a few weeks and i dont know their names #and im not great with faces so i cant even go up to them if i see them and i wouldnt even know what to say if i did #i see the same people in my classes but im sure they think im weird bc ive never talked with them but i always accidentally make eye contac #and one girl in 4/5 of my classes i sometimes talk with but i dont even know if she likes me and i acciendetnally made eye contact with her #while waiting for a lecture to start but then made no attemot to talk to her bc i thought itd be awkward and she probably thought i was #ignoring her #its just this week. its been so so shitty i dont know how to change thus

[bmpmp3]

(falls to the floor holding my head in my hands) i can't keep making all my ocs the same vaguely eastern european vaguely indo carribean mixed race guy i cant keep doing this

(looks up. eyes glowing red. levitating with unknown power) or can i..................................................

#sorry to be mixed on main again but im working on some rough draft ocs. i saw myself making the same dude again. i keep making him. #i know as a kid with a combination of the classic mixed kid feelings of alienation as well as being really really into cartoons #i vowed to myself that I SHALL make all the mixed race cartoon characters since i wasnt seeing much in the cartoons i loved #it was a little dire in like 2008 when i vowed this. its less dire now #maybe i can rest.....or maybe not...maybe its still more dire than i think............ #im in an interesting place rn living in a somewhat diverse area attending a pretty multicultural university so i got used to #kind of blending into the crowd but recently i was in an art history class. like one of the first i had been in person in years #(you know how it is) and outside of my vaguely ambiguous situation there was like one other non white person #and everyone else was white. and it became very apparent how white the class was very quickly because as art history students #race is kinda like. a big thing in visual culture studies HJKFKJLSDJD and like they meant well but it was getting a little dire because #so many of my white peers kept centering whiteness and white discomfort in like every discussion or brushing past the topic entirely #im biased because race is one of my main interests in art history but MAN i was like. oh god. i need to. intervene #gotta be more annoying about being mixed race in class. rolls up sleeves #gotta bring up every uncomfortable topic about representation and perception and power and dehumanization and intersectionality that i can #because no one else but me the other student of colour and the professors even think about it orz #sorry i know its obvious but sometimes it doesnt quite hit me that like. oh god. do white people really not think about any of this? #at all? unless its brought up? not even a little bit? i dunno its just kinda alien to me orz but i shall keep going #i shall continue on with my deep interest in orientalism within art history and its impacts we see daily #and also making the same guy in my funny little cartoons DJSKHJKSJFKD #(jkjkjk i dont JUST make that same vaguely beige guy. i also make a bunch of other guys. who are also mostly all multiracial too HGKJDHJFR) #(its what i do. its what i do)

[alongtidesoflight]

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#interacting with people outside my bubble is so weird so WEIRD sometimes #so the other day in class i was talking to this girl and i told her i'm autistic and she looked at me surprised and said i don't LOOK it #because and i quote with autists u can tell in the face #it took a while but i finally figured out she means down syndrome not ASD #and i had to explain to her that autism and down syndrome aren't the same #while i was doing that my teacher had to butt in to let me know that the correct term is asperger's syndrome not autism #to which i then had to explain that asperger's syndrome is not the only disease on the spectrum that the term has been removed in favor of #autism spectrum disorder and that i would know that because i'm on the spectrum and hear the terms every time i'm talking to a counsellor #or therapist #this was all in the middle of german classes so we interrupted the curriculum with this entire madness and it was just an insanely #confusing experience all around #to be fair i had to let them know i'm autistic at the beginning of the term because they're grading #our participation and i have some non-verbal days every now and then so they had to know #but i really wish i didn't have to put it out there like that

[kkujo]

school is so weird... you see the same people in the same building five days a week for the best part of a decade and even if you're not friends you know their names and faces... and then one day school ends and you just. leave. and never see most of them again ☹

#thinking about all the people who touched my life who i'll never see again #wondering about my impact #do people ever think about me #the guy who would play chess with me at lunch when my friend group started excluding me.. #the girl who came and sat with me at prom to watch the firework display even though we'd never spoken before because i was sitting alone.. #the way people impact you and then they're just gone forever. sickening #but people are kind and good. like. i have faith in humanity #there were mean people too obviously but. there's always kindness #anyways just thinking about that. like. the people i grew up with. i wasn't friends with most of them but we watched each other grow #some of the people in my class had been in the same classes as me since we were 4 ☹ and then one day you're grown up and they're gone #that prom thing was important to me tho bc prom night was literally the last time i saw everyone #bc i finished my exams the week before so. aside from going in to pick up my results #prom night was the last time everyone in my year was together ☹☹ and then i just never saw anyone again #i hated school but i miss it so much. most confusing nostalgia ever #i didn't want to be there and i was so happy when i finished and i wouldn't go back if i could #but it hurts bc i missed out on so many experiences and just being around people.. i miss it #starting college (uk college not university) in september so maybe i'll be able to heal a bit #bc getting sick and dropping out of school ☹ being stuck in toxic friend groups and never having proper teenage experiences ☹ #kinda fucked me up i'm ngl ☹ #(no surprises by radiohead playing) no it's fine. it's fine #the way you spend so long in one place... with the same people... and then it's just gone. fuck 🤦‍♀️ #even if you didn't like the place or the people... it aches in such a weird way omg.. #i literally couldn't drive past my school for a bit bc. i used to get up at 7am & go there every day. and now i don't. does this make sense #ok to rb

[observethewalrus]

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#got a message on fetlife from someone I haven’t seen in like 4 years #they’re trying to give away some really nice looking rope and it was nice of them to offer it to me even tho I don’t need any rn #they said theyre not involved in community stuff anymore cuz they’re focused on exploring kink with their partner #and goddamn if she ain’t living my dream #I haven’t been active in the community in YEARS #I’ve been to one or two munches since covid but that’s it #I spent years going to every dungeon party and class and munch I could think of #and they were all anxiety nightmares #if it wasn’t the anxiety of trying to make friends among people who already had their own very well defined friend groups #(literally no different than when I was in school) #then it was people who went after every single sub they met #who wanted a quick scene and then disappeared and moved onto the next one #when people did actually try and engage with me I never felt like we were on the same footing #it felt like I was being interviewed for a job and I got all the answers wrong #literally my dream is to have a partner to explore kink with #and still know they think about me as an actual person outside of kink too #I know it’s possible #I’ve known plenty of people in relationships like this over the years #but it feels like the kind of thing that always happens to other people #and I’m not meant for that #and I’m not saying kinky people aren’t nice #some of the nicest most talented most amazing people #I’ve ever met are kinky #it’s entirely me being a nervous wreck that made it so difficult for me to find my place in the community #personal

[hauntedpearl]

i got off booktwt for a good reason but my god the Babel-related drama has been hilarious and i am sad that i missed being involved in it real time

#LIKE. WHITE FRAGILITY AT ITS BEST I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD I WAS CRYING #this woman really said 'this book did what it was supposed to do (make white people sit in their discomfort wrt racism) and that was awful. #FOR ME personally. 1/5' sjgdhdjd like. LADY. #i mean a few of my friends didn't like babel but like it had more to do with the way it executed the premise..like some ssid it was not #engaging enough for the genre and all that. which is fair criticism imo. like i LOVE rf kuang but i also know she's not the perfect writer #or anything. but like damn. the way that woman went on a rant was sooo funny 😭😭😭😭 #she got trolled to hell and back which. like. okay. but also. SHE CHOSE TO PUBLISH THAT POST AGFSJDJD #and then she was like 'this book is racist to white people' so like. the performance of it all kind of broke down hsfshsjdkdld IT WAS. #anyway. was looking st my amazon wishlist and saw babel in there and was reminded of this </3 #rip i probably will never read it it's long as hell and i still haven't finished the poppy war trilogy #BUT IT'S ON THE WISHLIST JUST IN CASE #anyway 😭😭😭✨✨✨ #also side note: i literally don't think anything kuang wrote in babel would've been anything less than an acccurate representation of the #system. because like. she set it in oxford. and she. SHE LITERALLY WENT TO OXFORD AS A WOMAN IF COLOUR LIKE. #it's not exactly the same but my friend went to Cambridge and she faced a lot of bullshit too and like. one. can imagine. considering!!!! #anyway. maybe if we as oppressor classes didn't shy away from what we are doing to the world just because it clashes with our ideas of #self as 'Good People' then maybe we can actually make progress. like ignoring the porblem is not how you solve it etc. #OUGH. SORRY I MISS BOOKTWT SOMETIMES

[buysomecheese]

Fellas, tell me-

Is it very ESTJ, 6w5, 269 tritype of me to kin Upside Down & Inside Out (OK Go), Humpty Dumpty (AJR), Belonger (Maxton Waller), It’s Called: Freefall (Rainbow Kitten Surprise), Northern Attitude (Noah Kahan), All’s Well That Ends (Rainbow Kitten Surprise), Upside Down (Jack Johnson), I Won’t Let You Down (OK Go), Real Men (Mitski),? Is it?

#anyways if you know anything about enneagrams or grottoes or mbti please. tell me about myself (/nf) #(/nf) #the rest of my tags are venting feel free to ignore those #I’m not going through anything rn #I’m feeling totally fine #(I want to Punch some Certain People in the ducking stomach) #(I haven’t had a menstrual cycle in Months and I’ve been literally feeling entirely fine and I’m healthier than ever otherwise so-) #(- I’m worried about that. I think English is incredibly fucking stupid as a class. I cannot Wait until college. this is such a period of-) #(- growth and change for me. I’m getting a job. I might ask someone out. I still can’t drive and I’m upset about that. I know who I want-) #(- be friends with now. things are coming together and I am weeding out things that are bad for me. I’m so derealized half of the time and-) #(- it contradicts with everything else going on so strongly. I wish people would own up to their faults and not take on more than they can-) #(- handle. I have so much confidence in myself and my abilities but I don’t think I’m worth anything. I know what I deserve but that’s-) #(- the bare minimum and nothing more. I know that if I Left today I’d believe that everyone would love on within the week but I also know-) #(- there are people and organizations that would Not work the same or nearly as smoothly as they do now. I don’t know what to do with-) #(- myself but I have Everything planned out. maybe I just need to work out and be active idk I’ve been in a car all day.) #estj #6w5 #269 tritype #what is a #tritype

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today was such a day (negative, mostly)

#it’s my sisters birthday #she’s been really stressed because of my parents being so actively vehement at each other all week. she’s okay rn though #um #my friend teacher she/herred me like three four times while introducing me to somebody!!!!!! #and then???? my next hour teacher deadnamed me in front of the entire class because she doesn’t understand having multiple names in multiple #classes and yesterday she was bringing up how a different teacher had called me ari and i was like oh huh yeah okay i go by many names #like trying to be funny and vague about it but then today you know what she did? she called me ari-arthur-anya #she called me two school names and my FUCKING deadname because she doesn’t GET IT and im so FREAKING mad at her and she does NOT get a card #im so pissed im so mad at the two teachers that i thought were probably the most accepting teachers that i’ve ever KNOWN and now here they #BOTH of them on the same day one after another an hour apart!!!! im so pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and i know that mr hidaka didn’t MEAN it he’s talked to me about gender and stuff like!!!! i know it’s not representative of all of him but #it just hurts really bad that people who i know and love who are SO important to my feeling even a little safe at school #it hurts really bad knowing that they don’t even think of me as myself. that mr h can just forget to use my pronouns makes me want to cry #im so tired of it being something that people have to remember to do. im so tired of this other everything being the default #i need a fucking beard or something i guess. give me some time please!!!! i want to be a teenage boy please!!!!!!!! im so tired!!!! #i had a good morning with mr hidaka mostly like. basically i skipped my first hour class i couldn’t do it today i didn’t want to be there #and i couldn’t do it. so i went to his room how i do. and i said can i stay here. and he said of course i could but i would get marked #absent from my first hour but as long as i was okay with that i could stay. and so i did and i was working on stuff. and then #another teacher showed up. and okay something you guys for sure don’t know about my friend teacher is that he’s a frisbee coach at my school #like he’s in charge of the ultimate frisbee team shdhdf. he’s really into it it’s not really a sport feeling thing but it seems like fun #so anyway the other teacher was like hey (hidaka first name) me and some guys from the team are gonna go throw some frisbees do you want to #and mr h was like. yeah sure!! and he gave me the option between i could stay if i wanted but i could come with too and i said i’d come with #but i cant do frisbee. so it turned out to be the kids from the team and the other coach were doing fancy stuff together and me and mr h #just played some catch and he showed me how to do it and it was really fun and nice and it was really good #so it sucked when then the other teacher was like. so who’s this lovely person anyway? (exact words he said) #and my friend teacher mr hidaka said oh she skipped her first hour so shes here with me #and that hurt my stupid feelings pretty bad!!!!!!! i didn’t say anything though #and then the rest of the day happened. and now im home #all i have left for the rest of the school year is just my chemistry final so im not doing homework tonight #im still making finishing his book into a high priority it’s higher than the project