#sorry about the 2nd part?

[this-is-krikkit]

You know I love me an Ask Game!

♥️ - family headcanon: for Hange

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon: for Levi

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♥️ - family headcanon - Hange

i have so many of these, thanks to the absence of canon material about their background. one of my favorites is Hange not having parents and being given up to an orphanage as a baby, where they met Mike and the two weirdos that they already were as kids stuck together and became each other's siblings. i also like to imagine them losing their parents because of titans, which could explain Hange's initial hatred for the giants when they joined the Scouts. were their parents both scouts in love who clandestinally had a child and therefore had to give it up with a letter explaining that to them later on? or was that a nice romantic story the people at the orphanage made up to cover for the fact that in reality only their mom was a soldier who nearly perished on an expedition while pregnant, and their other parent was some noble from Mitras who couldn't live with the scandal of that bastard child when she gave birth to them and died and the army traced the baby back to them, and instead gave Hange up immediately? i don't know, but i know i almost always imagine them as having no actual close family (and some dark/tragic story behind their conception and birth, alright). i think that comes from my mind making kind of an unexpected parallel between Hange and Temperance Brennan from Bones? they're both badass scientist people who are considered freaks because of their fascination for a topic others judge weird/dangerous/gross and have a very odd relationship to social norms, and i love them and will protect them both at all costs.

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon - Levi

post canon, i like to imagine Levi drawing. i don't think he intended on learning it, i think he starts trying to learn how to use his left hand to write after his right hand got blown up. but forming letters with the wrong hand is really fucking hard and frustrating, yet another reminder of things he's not able to do anymore in this useless broken body of his, and he almost gives up before he remembers Hange's advice, all those years ago after he'd first joined the scouts and let them help his illiterate self to learn the skill and listened when they told him to try drawing the letters instead of writing them. it worked back then so he gives it a go, and the difference with that memory is that right now, he doesn't have to rush to learn how to write reports for a professional reason. no, now he's learning how to write again just so he can update the kids on his life in his little cabin in the woods and sign a formal document once in a while, and now he has time to waste on this kind of mundane shit since the war's over and he doesn't need to be Humanity's anything anymore. and soon he finds himself tired of drawing letters and words and wanting to draw Hange instead. maybe it's because that one picture he has of the two of them they took during their trip to Marley is starting to fade from how much time he spends folding and unfolding it out of his pocket to look at their goofy, ridiculous smile and the gigantic lolipop they'd shared, maybe he's sick of being able to recall so many of the thrillion of words they threw at his ears during the time they knew each other but he's starting to forget some details of what their face looked like. maybe he just misses them, alright? whatever the reason, it works, and during his first attempts at drawing them it already feels like the closest thing to being with them again -even though he can almost hear them howling in laughter at the result because it's so ugly and inaccurate and not anywhere near what he pictured. he laughs along with them and tries again the following day, and the next, and many other after that. until one day, he nails it. he really does; he looks down at his work and that's Four Eyes right there, that's as close to a photograph as his hand can get. and they look so real, and perfect -and still, and quiet- on paper, that he doesn't feel like laughing anymore.

#shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #aot hcs #snk headcanons #snk hcs #levihan hc #hange zoe hc #hange zoë #levi ackerman #i* #asks #mutuals #dont f with moogles #sorry about the 2nd part? #post canon levihan #post canon snk #levihan #mutuals asks #my stuff

[hongjoongpresent]

the entire essay I could write about the background vocals in terrible man. you don't understand

#onlyoneof #why do you think that first beat drop at the first chorus hits so hard. dude #that's the only spot in the song that I can find where the background vocals completely disappear #also the chorus is the only part of the song where the beat is completely clear and not muddy #there are 2 other spots in the verses that has a bit of the chorus beat too but it's not *as* clear as in the chorus #god when that motto motto tsunaide mou uso demo ii kara furetete HITS. it hits #this song is so insanely good and for no fucking reason I could write an essay about it. maybe I should #the intro has that . instrument that I can't name in it and then the verse has that too but with the beat from the chorus #and then the prechorus is all wahhhwoohohhf floaty. it's floaty airy breathy no clear beat #AND THEN THE. CHORUS HITS and man. uifkvfjvnfjjvjfjvbvfj yeah #also the way rie sings mimi kara karada kills me every time. unrelated to the discussion around instrumentals but #THE BACKGROUND VOCALS IN THE 2ND CHORUS BTW #the woaaahhh that continues into wooohooohh in the chorus... #the ohoohhh ohooooh #dude? listen to hidoi otoko by onlyoneof. that's what I'm saying here #really listen #put it on repeat all day and notice every little instrumental and background vocal detail in it. maybe then you'll be normal #cuz I sure am. so normal and regular about this song #GOD it's so good #sorry if you don't get it. I'm right #the only crime this song commits is being too short #the ohh woahh in the first prechorus. that part is different in the korean version of the song and that one little part is why I prefer the #japanese version of the song. literally just one woahh background vocal is what makes me heavily favor this version. lol #me when I'm so normal about my favorite background vocal parts of a song. is that even a thing it is now. it is to me

[piplupod]

it just seems cruel and sick to me that I tell someone "i think this little life has inherent value and I'd like to extend a little kindness to it when I am able to" and they laugh at me as if I'm being foolish and tell me I must squash it with my shoe :/

#to hear somebody earnestly tell you that and not even stop to consider you might be wrong. it is baffling #absolutely foreign to me. if somebody were to insist upon something so earnestly i think i'd at least stop and think for a moment #especially if it were about just... being kind to someone or something. it feels very strange that you wouldn't even pause #god im such a fucking sap. idk. this is all probably just ramblings of some naive sheltered little freak w stars in their eyes sdfjkl #''oh the world should be kinder to pests'' i sound ridiculous dsgjkl i am being laughed at by another part in the brain #i KNOWWW this is unrealistic and overly sentimental. i just feel awful any time i have to kill a spider idk #i dont think it should be all that ridiculous. but im probably getting too worked up about it fdsjkl #curse this overly compassionate freak brain of mine #anyways. sorry. i'll be normal now fsjkl. this was just weird and upsetting today #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[bisexualamy]

In that space between buildings, you are like one person. You haven’t felt that way since they ripped you out of the Matrix.

Rated T

Ships: Lucy Saxon/Simm!Master

Tags: AU - Canon Divergence, Second Person POV, Time Lord Telepathy, Pre Sound of Drums, Post End of Time, Reconciliation

Warnings: Implied/Referenced Abuse, Past Abuse (not depicted), Dark/Unsettling Tone

1.8k words, oneshot

#lucy saxon #simm!master #lucy x simm!master #dw fic #doctor who fic #my fic #dw #* #heyo time for my biannual fic posting lmao #sorry to my 2nd person haters. imo this fic called for it. also it's fun #if i'm not thinking about time lord telepathy assume i'm unconscious #what if i could see the most vulnerable parts of you but only if you could see the most vulnerable parts of me..... #what does it mean if you're a (semi) telepathic being cut off from telepathic contact. what would you do to get that back. would you?

[inthereellife]

Why do authors do this thing where they make a great hilarious wonderful delightful protagonist for the first book- and then never make that a character a POV character ever again for the rest of forever. Like-

The Locked Tomb Series by Tamsyn Muir

The Montague Siblings Series by Mackenzie Lee

The Queen’s Thief Series by Megan Whalen Turner

And I’m sure there’s more. But like…why do they do this?? 😭 I know they get disappointed when the following books gets less hype- once the POV character is revealed anyway- but surely they knew that was inevitable?

Authors should absolutely write what they want and I get that. But damn does it suck when the first book is like, the best meal you’ve ever had, and for the rest of the books you have to like, lick the plate for scraps of whatever’s left of your favorite thing from the first book.

(That’s not to say that there aren’t other good things about the following books. But there’s a lot of good books with good things in them. But each of the first books in the series above introduce such a fantastic protagonist that the readers fell in love with that character and- for me and a lot of other readers- those characters is what pushed those books from “good” to “favorites”. So like, yeah the following books may be good wonderfully written books, but when you take away what made Book 1 a favorite, its only natural that your reader’s investment is going to fade.)

EDIT: I failed to mention when I wrote this that I gave up on Harrow the Ninth early. This was apparently a Mistake because I’m being told that finishing the book might change my mind about including it in this list. So I’m gonna do that!

#sorry #I’m just bitter because these books were some of the most fun I’ve had reading #with characters that I just thoroughly enjoyed reading about the world through #And then the next books are all followed by a POV character who is Serious™️ (or at least sees themselves that way) #Like #if Book 1 got it’s acclaim due to its Witty Sometimes-Ridiculous Lovable Well-Intentioned Disaster Protagonist #why do they decide to immediately follow that up with Serious Protagonist Who Takes Things Seriously™️ #? #like #if your reader base that loved the first POV is naturally going to be less stoked about the second? #your reader base that loved the first pov is naturally going to be less stoked about the second? #okay I need to stop ranting now #especially because I barely remember how some of the 2nd books of these serieses even went #(which is demonstrates part of the problem there huh :/ ) #maybe I should give them another shot? #gideon the ninth #the gentlemans guide to vice and virtue #the queens thief #tggtvav #the locked tomb #the thief #the montague siblings #I speak #writing #spoilers in the notes

[flovverworks]

after a billion yrs i added a lil line about my gbf verse.....<3 one day i might flesh it out to something in-universe, but since gbf is so "oh ure from another world? ya that happens..." i....am gonna keep w that..........(also cuz i do think discussing the different ways of magic, moon-enemy & this n that is more fun like this

#stardust speaking ! #i do wanna write but im unsure when ill do so #anyway i need to talk abut that one 1.5 moment with that weird car horn sfx after murrs fancy speech cuz i #was thinking about it again due to one of the descriptions in the alterego event #i still didnt check the website btw is it available info why snows adult and whites a kid or is that a waiting game cuz #that..... #sometimes when i think abuot paradoxroid i think about them. that one was fkd up #snow&white r so fascinating to me #snow & white & figaro & oz are even more fascinating #oz who only started learning abut the world because arthur asked things about the world................. #oz who made arthur pancakes................................. #they make me ill. figaro feels like he should be the most welladapted cuz in some ways he IS. guy who lies about his power and age and love #humans and that one offhand line in 2nd anni about how he has cared for kids!??!? dude i need to reread 2nd anni did that ever get brought #up again #but figaro & love is................guy who leaves when he thinks he isnt loved anymore #<-guy who was taught by snow&white who valued e/o the most #2nd anni makes me lose my mind. figaro and fausts convo. both who felt like it was the other who left LIKE FIGAROS SURPRISE WAS UNREEEAAALL #somethings deeply wrong with him i am so intrigued #i need to go reread his pt2 parts like what the actual hell dude #the mental gymnastics he does in one part is ? id like to study u and the twins under a microscope #this is all shallowly/casually speaking about it btw theres a lot of things left&right about all of these topics that makes them very yummy #i think what gets me the most about pt2 is that a lot of it is things that we alrdy knew regarding characters feelings etc. such as figaro #but seeing them say it themself makes me faint #OH MY GOOODDDDDD THE FLASHBACK CONVO WITH OZ AND FIGARO? ABOUT WOULD U SAVE THE PERSON U LOVE OR THE WORLD #AND HOW FIGARO ENDS UP FALTERING DEAR LOOOOORRRDDDDDDDDDDDDD #fucked up family (affectionate) #i need to think of modern aus again i thought about arthur calling snow & white granpa for one second and everything hrut #ok im sorry i dont know what possessed me. i promise ill be rereading stuff soon #one more thing. fausts part in pt2. god. but in this cursed world the sage trusted me...

[mifhortunach]

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#wrt lrb; i think it’s really well meant! esp as part of the whole ‘stop making romance the centre of everything’ thing but i do get it ig #that said fhdjdndkd ppl w no friends DO also get told ‘well yknow.. u got an SO u got family dw about it’ so 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ #fhdjdnd 2 segue into ‘let’s talk abt me time’ ; think my feelings of despair last ur wrt not being a real person are bc like.. i don’t do #anything.. i interact w everything 2nd hand or smth.. #& i’m trying v v v slowly to fix that but idk how #ppp #lol got asked by my manager ‘you’re not a talker are you’ & had to be like. i’m sorry man i’m not #weirdest part was that he then asked if that’d always been the case i #i just truly don’t know how or what to have a conversation abt #anyway i’ve got like no friends and i can only imagine it’s going to get worse. #i’m spending my time poorly

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

What's your PhD about?

I haven't started it yet cause I'm looking for funding first so this might change (also I've altered the PhD propossal depending on the professor that would be my supervisor) but basically I want to study the Muses through the lens of Cultural Memory.

The ideal thing would be to study them and their evolution throughout ancient Greece, but that's impossible so for example my current PhD director suggested I should focus on the Archaic Era (also the Dark Ages, so around the 10th to 6th centuries BCE more or less). I am very interested in the relationship between identity, literacy, and religiosity, so the Muses are perfect for it, as they were used by the Greeks as a sort of fact-check for aoidoi and poets, which were the preservers of Cultural Memory.

Most stuff that's been written about the Muses has always been very philological and especially related to the 'invocation of the Muses' so prevalent in Greek literature. I want to open the scope to new angles, something never done before, and I have experience working with Cultural Memory from my Master's Thesis, so I thought it would be a cool approach :) It's gonna be much more theoretical than you would expect, but I love that sorta thing. Also it's impossible to separate the Muses from literacy so I'll be looking at written sources for sure, my good pal Hesiod (whom my Undergrad Thesis was about) will occupy a good chunk of the research I'm afraid.

So yeah, that's it. This won't happen if I don't get funding tho, so I could just never write this Ph.D. Who knows.

#ask #sorry for the lengthy answer anon i've had to write so many phd proposals in the past few months i just go with the autopilot #i hope it's comprehensive enough. and please feel free to ask more questions!! i am very passionate about this so i would love #to answer more stuff like this :) #i'm currently researching my second master's thesis btw #it's gonna be about the cult of the muses in thespiai #so a bit of context #the heliconian muses (which are like the 'canon' muses; the ones described by hesiod) 'originated' around helicon mt #this is a real place in boeotia greece #the valley of this mountain is the valley of the muses. hesiod lived right there #in ascra. #ascra at some point was conquered by the city of thespiai. and it was part of it for the rest of ancient greece #(this happened very early on btw. like probably 8th or 7th century) #there was a sanctuary of the muses built in the vale #and this agonic competition (like a music festival) took place there called mouseia #it became incredibly important #but the thing is. this all happened in the hellenistic era (so 2nd - 1st centuries BCE) #there is barely any evidence of anything muses related in thespiai before that #noticeably it was in the hellenistic era when hesiod really became famous #so i want to study the evolution of the cult of the muses in thespiai; the evidence (or lack thereof) for it; and its instrumentalization #by thespiai #i'll mostly do it through epigraphy cause 1) it's the source i'm most comfortable with and 2) there's not really much else #i'll also sprinkle in cultural memory and some heavy theoretical stuff in there just for fun #so yeah i'm having fun with it :) hopefully i'll finish it by october!

[tachyon-omlette]

I hope you don't mind me popping in for the Oc interaction thingy. ^^' Either way, I was wondering how one of your Oc's would react to Strawberry.

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In short, she's a kind and sweet femme who easily gets along with her crew and often sees or tries to see the good in others, before judging them. Although, she's also easily intimidated and doesn't really like to get into fights, due to her frail body.

But despite being open towards most, she's also insecure about many things regarding herself. Especially the fact that she's basically a human trapped in a Cybertronian body, who also happens to have a very weird spark, due to the expiriments done to her. (Not that she could do anything against that.)

Gonna go with Eda for this, because of course I am.

Eda would be rather interested in Strawberry, given that he can sense that her spark differs from the average Cybertronian's - not necessarily in a direct way, but since she's partially human her emotional projection (as he senses it) would be somewhat enigmatic. He'd be wary of her for that reason, too, because if he can't sense her emotions properly he'd worry she'd make an attempt at manipulation that he wouldn't be able to detect. Any attempts at placation or friendliness from Strawberry would be met with wariness, obfuscation, and/or even hostility from Eda, at least until he can figure out her emotion-projection data well enough to ensure he can recognize her intent.

If they ever held a conversation, he'd appreciate how she attempts to find the good in others before casting judgement, though he'd imagine that he didn't make it an easy thing to do. He'd pick up on her insecurity if it ever came up, but wouldn't try to coax out its source - he doesn't like people prying at his own scars, and respects that those who make overtures to befriend him might feel the same way about theirs. It'd take a long while before Eda would consider her - or anyone, really - to actually be his friend, though, but as long as she didn't bring friends or try to convince him to join the Autobots, they'd get along well enough, I think.

#i don't have an asks tag yet #transformers #transformers oc #oc: eda of unicron #thank you sm for the ask!!!! sorry it took so long to answer #actually buckling down & thinking about how eda would react was very very fun #& if you have any thoughts about how strawberry would react to eda I'd love to hear em /gen /nf #eda prefers cybertronians who are sort of removed-from-cybertronian if he has to interact with them #& anyone who approaches him w genuine intent to befriend him gets to walk away w all their limbs. congrats strawb #the 1st part of this is initial reaction the 2nd part is if they met more than once #soundcrusher

[mxcottonsocks]

Thinking about Laura mirroring Anne today...

She gave me the letter. It began abruptly, without any preliminary form of address, as follows— "Do you believe in dreams? I hope, for your own sake, that you do. [...] - The Woman in White, First Epoch: Part 5

The guard closed the door. "Do you believe in dreams?" she whispered to me at the window. "My dreams, last night, were dreams I have never had before. [...]" - The Woman in White, Second Epoch: Part 14

#also thinking about marian's dreams... which feels so long ago now #i have been keeping up with twiww just between one thing and another i haven't had the time or energy to post about it #i have been enjoying it so much though #i think i may have some half-drafted posts so if i post anything that seems to be reacting to something from weeks ago that's why sorry! #laura fairlie #anne catherick #the woman in white #the woman in white weekly #1st epoch part 5 #2nd epoch part 14

[lochlot-moved]

tlou has been the only show I've watched where i find myself dreading the next season LOL fucking kill me I am ill

#euuuuggh #i tjink the moment tbe second game came out everyone was like well thjs is gonna hurt #i never even touched part 2 because i KNEWW and now theyre gonna make me face my fears #wheres my tlou fluff like jesus christ man #cant the found family just eat a pie or something #killing me over here #tlou #one tag lets see if anyone sees this who isnt alex #hi alex #sorry if this is vguely spoilery i didnt actually see the 2nd one so i dont really know what im alluding to #actually stressed about this i need to get a life

[piplupod]

head in my hands. i promise i am not a scary unhinged person fdsgjkl, and none of my silly happy posting is fake, i am just very good at repressing and partitioning things. i can be having the worst day of my life and still enjoy jokes and be genuinely having a good time with my silly little characters and stories i come up with. this brain LOVES to section off shit that is genuinely unbearable (because how else do you live with that? if not putting it in a place where you cannot feel it?) so that i can cope and find joy in life still fsdjkl i simply love having a good time too much to ever make it up

#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #i want to make friends and be a pleasant person to be around so badly but fhdsjkl then . this household hurts me as it is wont to do #and i have a small breakdown here bc it all feels so awful and i feel like if i keep it locked inside and hidden i will actually CrackTM #and then i feel like that is . well. understandably! a lot! for other ppl to see #and it is very upsetting and scary and awful to read. i know. im so well aware fjdskl #but also augh. augh augh augh. i try very hard to not post abt things as much as i humanly can avoid doing so #but i am very silly and fuck up my own rules for myself when i have a particularly bad experience w mother o' mine #i am worried that if i say anything to the effect of ''life is terrible and i am straight up not having a good time'' #then it makes all my other posting look disingenuous or smth. i am literally just posting what is on my brain currently when i post stuff #and oftentimes my brain is like... a silly little swirl-patterned rubber bouncy ball with a happy face on it HDSGJKL #that is like... a lot of my whole deal as a part of the brain fsdfjkl #even with all the grief and upset i can still have a good time bc we stay silly !!!! by god we stay silly through it all !!! #i will shrug my shoulders and say ''ah well what can ya do!'' after getting screamed at or told i'm a disappointment to the family lmfao #because honestly... what can you do dsfkl it is what it is and theres rly nothing i can do about this all #anyways i am talking toooooo much sorry fdsjgkl once again i will delete all this later so i dont upset ppl too much dsjkl augh augh sorry

[supercantaloupe]

violinists might hate me for this one but i must speak my truth i think there are individual phrases and melodic fragments in the brahms vln concerto that are great but the work as a whole goes on quite a bit and isn't as wonderful a piece as it's made out to be

#like brahms knew how to write a good melody he did and it's better than Certain Other late romantic/early modern vln concerti #in that respect but as a whole. and i say this after just having spent a month and a half drilling it in rehearsals for a concert yesterday #it overstays its welcome for me and i find a good deal of the Virtuoso of the solo to be. not uninteresting per se but #not the most attractive to listen to? idk i'm sure i'd have a different appreciation for it if i was a violin player and not 2nd oboe #which has a pretty dull part even for concerti in that piece #but like idk some of that technique even in the hands of a master player sounds. kind of unappealing to me!? #a little scratchy and disjointed in places. and gd it just goes ON. sorry but the first mvt could be half the length and it'd be fine #okay i'm going to bed now. yell at me in the notes about how i'm wrong or whatever to your heart's content. bye gn #sasha speaks

[astrxealis]

good morning (uh. afternoon) fuuta's songs on repeat once again <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #haruka's songs r the easiest for me to repeat bcs there's smth so... 'timeless' about them to me? #idk how to explain. but it's really chill. i get a bit more tired after a while w fuuta but less now bcs more variety (aka 2 more songs) #+ i'm literally obsessed w his voice and sometimes i pay attention sometimes i don't and it's often. refreshing too with that said #haruka's songs give me such a sense of familiarity of sorts though... i think. and then mikoto's are very just wow <3 #LOOK idk how to explain but i love those three especially. i love everyone though #but fuuta has me obsessed most. and i'm sure mikoto when his 2nd trial stuff releases <3 ily haruka but you're like that #uh. uh. i think he heard me /lh his song came up........... bcs i forgot to turn on repeat and i didnt turn off the autoplay other songs #haruka baby i'm sorry JHWAJDHG ILY though yeah his songs give more 'familiarity' so yeah. it's also very refreshing #part of me feels like i'll never get tired of listening to milgram #AS A WHOLE I MEAN. ofc if it's the only thing i listen to that isn't the best LMFAO #a bit ago i returned to my habit of listening to random songs (mostly ffxiv or octopath) and just smiling and being a nerd #and then when i get bored quickly (by which i mean i have the urge to skip the song) and then whoosh next song #kinda missed doing that. although it can get time-consuming and then my imagination goes into overdrive and i lose track of time. oops

[orcelito]

OK my mind is just filled with thoughts of this thing I've been working on. I can't wait to read it in one go and absolutely destroy myself

#speculation nation #discacc shit #im doing this in the morning. since it will double as my editing sweep and the inspiration for the 2nd part #*part #which i have definitely decided to do. i need the emotional conclusion to it. #wont take nearly so long to do at least. but i need to take in the full picture b4 i can really get the mood right #get every single gut punch in a row. and only then can i write the absolute heartbreak of it all #Processing. it's important. #uwaaaaghh (the sound of me thinking about the characters reflecting on eeverything that happens in this thing. uwaaaaagh) #lmfao tho i was thinking about the trigger tags this bitch is gonna need. oh BOY theres a lot. it's kinda fucked up lmfao #sorry goro.

[scare-ard--sleigh]

what if i did it what if i took some classes and became an accountant and never had to deal with social media ever, ever again ????? 

#silver jelly #it's ummm been one of those days >> #work stuff #i was supposed to have a meeting with this man at 12:30. okay. cool! love that! #guy asks for a gcalendar notification so he doesn't forget bc we set this up last week--proactive; love to see that! #guy no-shows. eyeroll but whatever. guy messages us an hour after the meeting time saying 'sorry guys i thought this was 12:30 pst' #are you FUCKING kidding me??????????/ i am going to EAT YOU #so now i'm waiting around until 3:30 (bc whatever i have work to do anyway) for a meeting about stuff that apparently #does not matter anyway bc i made all this content under the pretense that we were revamping the whole site but we're not. so there's like. #no way to monetize it which is ofc all big boss cares about (predictable and honestly fair i get it) so it's all fucking moot anyway ahfjujh #i just wish they'd told me before i spent all this time and energy into making it stunning #i feel like that picture of charlie day with the cigarette nfjbghfjv i'm Losing it #i'm not even sure that i really want to be an accountant i just feel like people are so much more straightforward about money??? #like most of the problems i'm having are bad communication or people outright not being honest with me and that 2nd part is marketing babeyy #everything's so like 'That happened but how do we spin it THIS way; we can tell them xyz (even though it's really abz)' i just #i'm just sick of these little mind games and Trying To Figure People Out and management not listening in favor of talking circles #and it sucks because goddddd my work makes me so happy sometimes. the good parts are sooooooooo good. #but idk the past few days have felt like a real wakeup call. i say this like every four months but i'm not sure i can shake it this time