#starts tearing up a little bit

[turnaboutsisterz]

lost media experts working tirelessly to find the tko rules secret good ending

#ok ko #ok ko let's be heroes #tko #carol kincaid #ok ko tko #ok ko carol #starts tearing up a little bit #thats her aby #trans tko #<= she/her tko u know the drill #procreate #ibispaint #digital art #digital artist #cartoon network #kennedy art #in my heart of hearts tko takes after carol while ko takes after venomous mostly #<= would elaborate more but i have less than ten minutes on break

[starheirxero]

So I found this on youtube-

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=9fPjEAZUd-s

This is so Lunar and Eclipse- This is SO Lunar and Eclipse, my goodness-

Hyperlink here but also anon how DARE YOU SO CASUALLY LEAVE THIS IN MY INBOX THIS DESTROYED ME. I got around to watching this a few says ago and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. Maybe you were never nice at all. I thought you liked me. FUCK EVERYTHING I made it into a mini comic because of how hard this gut punched me WHATEVER!!!! DIES ON THE FLOOR.

#asks #anon #LITERALLY DEVESTATING. ITS SO THEM IT ACTUALLY MADE ME TEAR UP A LITTLE BIT AHAJAHSJSNDK #THEY MAKE ME UNWELL. STARTS PUNCHING AIR. DIES ALL OVER THE FLOOR. AAUAUAAGHGHHHHH #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams lunar #lunar sams #lunar #sams eclipse #eclipse sams #eclipse #eclipse and lunar show #< implied 2 be around that time. yk...... #angst #xero creations

[melit0n]

Hands down, Give is one of Sleep Token's yearn-iest songs. Ever. It's not on par with TLYW, Jaws etc. (because that's a whole different layer of Sleep Token's yearning onion), but it's got a kick to it.

When I say that song is the epitome of desperate, I mean it.

Without thinking about it too much, the first time I listened to it my first thoughts were 'ah, okay, wanting to give all for your lover and be able to trust them, got it', but then I thought about it a bit more.

Like with all Sleep Token songs, it has a bit of an eerie undertone, which borders on slightly obsessive, depending on who you're talking to, with the lyrics. We have "I picture you when you are all alone", "I am the shadow, you're a passenger", "I'll be the limit of your light again" and, of course, "give me all that you can give" with "and if you want to give me anything, then give (give in again)".

Vessel is describing himself as literal darkness; he's a shadow in the gloom and whoever this is is a star glowing in the darkness. A light he aims to dampen because he wants a taste of that light. A taste of them.

However, it's this desperation for attention that gets me. "Give me all that you can give" is an easy example; he's desperately giving all he can possibly give in hopes of getting the same, or more, back. It's repeated over and over, half begging half demanding with soft dulcet tones and promises that he'll be watching for their enemies, to let them know that they contend with him etc.

Give becomes this two-faced thing of someone giving with all their might to someone who is afraid to trust, bringing up empathy from us, and someone who will not accept anything except everything. It's this sexually charged fight between who is a victim (or if there really is one here) and who is the abuser.

Further, to "give in" is to 'cease fighting or arguing; admitting defeat.' It's something primal and angry hidden under, or rather, mixed with passion, and it's incredibly well hidden.

#I know there is a bit of a divide between people who say it's just a passionate love song between someone who gives their all and is -> #only asking for the same back #Vs people who have the same ideas as me #so this is just my opinion! #would love to see anybody's additions or arguments for the other side though! #it does quite admittedly have me giggling and kicking my feet #'I will be watching for your enemies to let them know that they contend with me' had (still does tbh) me hook line and SINKER #and don't get me started on how he growls 'fibre from' in 'I'll tear the fibre from the filament' #it's this possessiveness and annoyance that's immediately hidden under 'I just wanna taste you better' #it's all these hidden little things that when you think twice about it it clicks #as per usual shout-out to Vessel for doing whatever the fuck he does with lyrics because I eat it up every time #give #give (song) #sleep token #st #sleep token analysis #sundowning #sundowning (album) #lyric analysis #mel's rambles

[bumblingbabooshka]

Harry Kim saying Naomi is lucky to be born on Voyager and that he would have given "anything" to have her life when he was a kid...

#He sees NO downsides???? #Also I love how Neelix was yelling and panicked and Harry was like 'haha ok buddy. Hey this little guy is ugly huh~? See ya later!' #absolutely unbothered and not the least bit curious - love him <3 #saw someone post about how they don't like 'once upon a time' bc Neelix doesn't tell Naomi right away about her mother .... bro. #c'mon. Anyway I love Neelix and him trying so hard to shield Naomi from bad things / upset bc he KNOWS how fucking painful #it is to lose a family DID make me tear up. #Also Naomi in that burned-down forest (symbolic of innocence?) was a kickass visual. Neelix telling her about his family and Naomi trying #to comfort HIM??? SHE'S SUCH A GOOD KID MAN....Neelix making her a flotter doll was also v cute #OH AND Naomi going 'I Am Borg...' and Neelix going '~??? No you're not~!!!' and Naomi giggling...added NOTHING to the #episode - as it should be!! Sometimes you've just gotta have a really cute silly moment <3 #Tuvok: [says something] / Tom: Nice bedside manner Tuvok =_= #Tuvok: [about to say the most beautiful comforting words you've ever heard one parent say to another] And I took that personally. #Love how Naomi is scared of Seven at first...girl that's your roommate. #HEHEH she starts off the series scared of her but by the end she's her little buddy and also her intern #but yeah never forget that Harry Kim can and will say the most unhinged things but so casually that no one will really clock it #NEVER forget that he says he remembers.....either being an infant or his own birth - both WILD to me #Harry Kim lowkey loves destiny and being special and the idea of 'chosen ones' and the narrative even though he will fight it all if it #harms the ones he loves #Harry: (guy from an alternate timeline who replaced the dead Naomi with the alive one from his own) That kid's living the dream <3

[sysig]

He deserves a bit of everything, as a treat (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Up front - that first one was very inspired by one of Kurole's sketches of him - absolutely spectacular use of shapes ahhh <3 <3 #His iris dripping directly into his tears?? Excuse me I die immediately #I did a full study later since as noted that one was from memory lol - not quite! Kurole's shapes are so pretty ♪ #Peeps' shapes are some of the funnest to move around! He's so stretchy and squishy lol #He's so fun to pose #At first I was just going to doodle Peeps in the outfit the Watchdogs drew him in for The Cartoon because cute! #But I figured it'd be easier if started with the actual shapes they used - dissect how they lay on each other and all that #Turns out the bean form is also very cute hehe <3 They can try to make him as stereotypically dorky as they want! He's still the cutest! #He is quite handsome in the same outfit at his usual proportions tho #Not me always enjoying characters in glasses/putting characters in glasses #Of all the features I myself have that'd be the last one I would expect to be So about lol #Plus the little heels on his boots?? I can't believe the Watchdogs were Completely making a mockery of him hehe ♪ #Maybe mocking him a little bit for being short but he loves heels! He loves feeling tall! #And they match his shirt? Fashionable all the way around ✨ #Last one of him on Ziziks and trying(? maybe?? Lol maybe not) to relax #Open tourist-y shirt over loose swim trunks >>> #Gotta dork it up with the visor gloves and boots tho lol hopefully he put on sunscreen too #What would burnt Watchdog skin look like anyhow :0 Redder? #You just know he's still on call even if he managed to get some time off - and if he was forced off he's on call by choice lol #Little workaholic

[llumimoon]

started at the top of my oakworthy playlist this morning and now I'm at what I like to call the Fucked Up Arc

#cal rambles #this change imo starts when Obsessed With You comes on #but i hit my fav little order of songs within this area #which is cough it out -> sweet talk -> tattooed tears #its rlly funny bc this fucked up middle bit is most of the playlist #and ends at Flaws i think #and its cute for a little bit again #and then BOOM . HERMIE DIES #AND ITS ANGSTY AGAIN #the emotional whiplash

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 Brazilian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(aka me crying over an almost 18 year old race)

#I DIDNT REALIZE WHEN STARTING THAT THIS WAS THE RACE WHERE NANDO WON HIS WDC AAAAAA #pls me not legit tearing up over a race from almost 18 yrs ago #i feel validated bcs they just mentioned that the renault crew are crying AAAAAAAA #ive actually never watched a vid of his celebration(cause 'spoilers' lol) so hearing him yell the YES CMONN CMONNNNN made me ;;;; #hearing them talk abt all the 'youngest' records hes won at this points makes me teary #also also also 'first ever spanish wdc' AND HE STILL IS THE *ONLY* RAHHHH #ig its mostly bcs its rly cool to be able to watch these old seasons and celebrate them #but then also be able to tune into the current season and still be able to cheer for him and see him achieve even more #sobbing crying at him here saying that this wdc is the max he can achieve and then having just witnessed him reach his 100th podium last wk #(also fernando winning his first wdc and then missing out on his 3rd almost a decade later at the same gp sobbing crying) #2005 brazilian gp #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #formula one #(2005: 17/19 races watched) #fa14 #renault #giancarlo fisichella

[nerosdayinanime]

as much as i love his design i fucking CANT draw his expressions as exaggerated as i want to an its v frustrating

#kny sabito #sabito #fratboy sabito posting #neros art tag #halloween au #left side of his smile is limited bc his cheek scar and the right side is so wide he shows off his gums. like yk how when dogs/wolves snarl #they show off their gums that bit? he can only do that on the one side and he does it a lot #excited angry happy(he doesnt know how to smile 'normally') etc otherwise he creepy empty stare or scowl #Labyrinth (OOMPH!) came on and i started thinking of giyuu finding him in the labyrinth again #he literally had to fight for his fucking life. sabito wasnt being defensive he was going for the KILL. dead silent snapping jaws trying #to tear his armor off. giyuu tried to do the neck chop to knock him out but it only made him drop before getting back up a little #disoriented before he shook it off completely and kept trying to kill him. reinforcements came and darted him so they could actually #get him out and give him a medic check #the kitsune arm is way stronger than the rest of him #with that in mind actually he probably woulve broke giyuus arm or something. m gonna add that #also i genuinely didnt try with his smile in that second one i just wanted to get the general shape/idea/whatever bc i couldnt get it #how i wanted :(

[shikai-the-storyteller]

I somehow didn't catch this during all the chaos from that day but I'm rewatching Forever's conversation with Vegetta, and Vegetta told him: "You're a good person, and a good person knows what their mistakes are. You're a good boy. It's not going to happen again."

#i talk #qsmp talk #and just #I dunno man. that really got to me for some reason #I'm not someone who cries easily at all but this is the second time something related to the server has made me cry #and I don't mean tearing up I mean BIG time crying #which is even rarer for me #It was so sudden too I was literally halfway through a bite of food and I started instantly crying when hearing that #and now my food is COLD agh #Bobby's thing made me cry too but I get because there was so much buildup to it with everyone trying to save him and it was very emotional #but with this I literally just opened up stream and then 10 seconds later Vegetta says this and BAM #[skull emoji] #this post might self-destruct later idk I don't like getting too personal about stuff #I've also been doing so many text posts lately I never used to do that #but this series has made me feel a little bit better lately. or at least my passion for it has made me want to talk and meta like I used to #which is nice #anyways. ya boy's having a rough one I guess

[sqlmn]

#long post #admission of admiration #vik just like hey sis btw thats a dragon slayer and i havent told him you can change into a ---- #well thats outta the bag now cool i guess #and then she returns WEEKS later and lands and asks him to bend down slightly #and she nervously says his name in his ear quietly and backs up to ask about if she pronounced it correctly #cause there was a little bit of a debate since its in a language no one uses anymore aloud #and he just starts to tear up and then hugs her and says thank you #and vik is watching with adlyn and theyre like uhhhhhhhhhh #and vik then has to be like hey old man you can let go of my sister now please let go of shilva im not sure i like this #hey old man seriously please #also hey shilva whats his name you have to tell me i need to know what his name is #and shes like teehee its a SECRET and vik is very resigned at this point and he still isnt told #so fine he can KEEP BEING THE OLD MAN

[piplupod]

whyyyyy do people think disordered eating is healthyyyyyyy i am going to explode myself soon i cannot live around these people any more my god

#i dont even want to say what all was said lol it's so fucked up #maybe I'll just go back to starving myself and becoming more underweight just to earn mothers approval (sarcasm) #actually u know what. even if i did that she'd probably get angry at me for it lmao she'd be pissed that I'd be losing weight when she isnt #I CANNOT TAKE MUCH MORE OF THIS IM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME #THESE PEOPLE ARE SO FUCKING AWFUL #I WANT OUT OF HERE I REALLY DO #I dont know how to cope w this honestly #i keep trying to twist things to be tolerable but jesus fucking christ the ED is starting to rear its head again #theyre just so fucking mean and stupid and fatphobic and i have to spend so much time around them #its impossible to block out #i keep finding myself thinking i dont need to eat veggies bc ''theyre basically poison'' and im just ARRGHHH #GET OUT OF MY HEAD PLEASEEEE I DONT WANT TO BE THINKING LIKE THIS #idk how to cope w this bc i HAVE the science disproving them and I've spent time undoing fatphobia in my own brain #and my family just keeps setting back my progress bc it is impossible to block them out entirely #i want to crawl out of my skin and jump into a deep lake and never resurface #im so tired of this all and idk what to do. tearing my hair out a little bit #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #fatphobia tw #dieting tw #ed tw #ask to tag

[starzwithapen]

Love adding our ocs into their universe . Trolls band together except Viva and Clay have a doomed girlboyfriend who's violently afraid of being betrayed and also views everything as a betrayal and makes it everyone's problem . Trolls world tour but with gay cowboy sub-text and shitty wingman Poppy and also more Cooper angst

#Poppy [terrible wingman] : im such a great wingman ^w^ #<- it worksout in the end #solar .... grabs her.puts him in my mouth . chews onher slowly #solar and bridget rso tragic to me actually . solar and viva go through similar things but react to them in violently diff ways #starztalks #slate and cooper r bffs i lovethem . so much . so much #SLAATTEE starts tearing up a bit . slate is the only one of silver's ocs i dont want to violently insult to hell and back anymore #like damn i feel kinda bad for the little guy . somebody give him a hug . and a boyfriend

[ilivelikeimtrying]

ROTTMNT Fic idea:

Mikey likes drawing/crafting things for his brothers, but doesn't know that they keep them until he sees Raph neatly fold his and put it in one of the drawers in his room that's filled with old drawings, and finds a HUGE secret board where Donnie has hung them up (he's sworn under secrecy to never tell the others, especially Leo), but no matter what he never sees Leo with any of them, either hung up or in a drawer, but continues searching until he gives up, thinking that he must've just thrown them away then.

And he won't lie and say that that didn't sting, even a little bit.

But that couldn't be further away from the truth.

#rottmnt #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #teenage mutant ninja turtles #my idea for this is that Mikey starts acting all weird and everything the next day and only makes drawings for Donnie and Raph- #(he's being petty- he knows- and it's not like he expected his brothers to keep everything he made- of course not- but still) #Leo's a bit hurt by this but laughs it off as usual and decides that he probably did something to make Mikey mad so he gives him space #it's just levels of misunderstanding- #Mikey thinking Leo doesn't care about his art- Leo thinking up the wrong different reasons why his favourite little brother #until Leo corners Mikey (literally) and asks him what's up- why's he been distant #and Mikey begrudgingly tells him the reason (though now that he says it out loud it sounds pretty childish)- and asks Leo: #'Why didn't you keep the things I made you? I worked hard on all of them just for you.' *tears* #and instead of making fun of him like Mikey kind of expected him to Leo Just smiles and ushers him to his room- #where he reveals a really big trunk from under his bed and opens it to reveal- #everything. #every little thing that Mikey has ever made him- ever- is right there- and he doesn't know what to say #but anyways that kinda my idea with it but if y'all wanma go a different route with it go ahead

[xhatake]

@abyssaldespair what holds me here destroys me as i go.

Quarrel - Hillary Gravendyk || The Lord and The General Din of the World - Jane Mead || I Grieve That Grief Can Teach Me Nothing - Brian Simoneau || The Children - Rudyard Kipling || In The Desert - Stephen Crane || Obito Uchi//ha - Naruto

#abyssaldespair #wweaving #mutuals can rb. #anyways i like the way this turned out #i was thinking abt all the grief in obito's head building up until he got stuck on the concept of rectifying it by starting over #& remain stubborn & firm in the concept #all while tearing himself to shreds a little bit at a time!!!!

[hobisexually]

x

#one of my best friends just texted me she gave birth today #and her baby is beautiful and healthy and so is she and I’m so happy for her #and I will be the best rebel aunt this child is gonna need #and she texted me before she told any of our friends #the text was the most her thing too and nothing like those standard baby announcements. bless her at least that hasn’t changed #so yk. all. Good. #but also. #this is baby number two while our third friend just announced his gf is pregnant too #and I am starting to panic a little bit #because what? #what do you mean we are in the life phase where we are bringing new life to the world? #I don’t feel like MY life has started yet? I’m still waiting for my own to pick up where I need? #and I know that’s the sweet combination of mental illness + being queer + burn out + pandemic talking #making it feel like. idk. I lost years cumulatively #and naturally I would Never say any of this to my oh so happy friends #but I’m………………… #bro what I was not prepared for this?????????? #and not this emotion in general #genuinely want to burst into tears #(1) pregnancy is a fluke #(2) is a coincidence #but (3) is a pattern #so this is where we’re at now and we’re never getting those years back #and I’ll be here just trying to figure out why the fuck I’m stuck in the past when everyone else is Living #anyways. #cant BELIEVE one of my LONGEST friends just GAVE BIRTH TO A HUMAN BEING #WH A T?????? #like . WHAT #even without all my complicated feelings about this that is WILD and INCOMPREHENSIBLE TO MY BRAIN

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I think in terms of logging on or logging off I’ve made the decision that I’m logging on. I’ve never had particularly good mental health but it’s always been at its best when I’ve best consistently on this funky little website keeping my little soup talks diary

#there’s definitely psychological reasoning there of like. keeping a diary or sorts? writing out and processing all of my thoughts #and feelings. and also because I am determined to be coherent making sure I explain why I feel the way I do makes it so I gotta know why #so I can’t really just jump to a conclusion or get upset without citing my sources Yknow?? #also definitely makes me go oh I’m insane for that one and so in the wrong. what’s the logical option here? #cause like. i know I type a lot and there’s gotta be a decent bit of interest to get thru some of these posts so not everyone’s gonna read #but it will make sense for those who do. and by extension the emotional little wet tissue paper heart of mine gets a crash course in logic #not to be mean to myself or anything. I’m just irritated with myself for having trauma and emotions #my life loves to be a cycle of opening up and then numbing myself to everything when it starts to hurt and then repeating #well everything hurts and it’s a toss up on what’s gonna happen rn #maybe it’ll get better! maybe it’ll get worse! it honestly depends on the first month of college. I’m placing my bets that that’s where #i make a choice. do I fix myself once and for all? do I lock my heart in a little box and tear it out of me? #we will see! not for another few months. but time sure will tell #soup talks