So I was triggered hard today;
For a little bit of background, I was raised in my young years (pre-k—majority of 4th grade) in an evangelical Christian school, and I particularly remember the brand called, Abeka.
I talk about it all the time IRL, but sometimes I have people looking as if I was over exaggerating about the terrible curriculum, and the propaganda teachings. So, I decided to look up the brand on YouTube—and sure enough, I was fucking right—In fact, it was fucking worse than I thought!
It took me an hour to vent to my husband and I have been traumatized by my past education and struggling because I never learned problem solving skills, nor basic science until fourth grade and I was even held back in 2nd grade because of my ‘poor reading skills’ (I was fucking dyslexic) and was older than everyone else and made fun of for it. And I know, I know, people have had it much much worse than me, I am completely aware—but being a kid with ADD (inattentive ADHD) and dyslexia, I struggled sooo much until I was in late high school and college. I thought I was just stupid, I had such a hard time with school and not realizing I was neuro divergent.
Sometimes I think I am over with all of this, but then I watch something like a video about Abeka, or anything about Christian cults, and I’m back in elementary school thinking I was I had MR (I not saying that to be offensive, I actually thought I had MR).
Being gaslit and told that you’d do better if you just “worked harder” or “just focus a little more” or “just take your medication” is so fucking hurtful. And I really have a hard time moving on.
I’m 29 now and I hate that I still cry about things that happened when I was a child. But it’s unfortunately a part of me, and sometimes I really wish it wasn’t. I wish I was just emotionally stable and had a normal fucking childhood.
Anyways, TL;DR version:
Evangelical Christianity schools are fucking bullshit and harmful to children, full of gaslighting and propaganda, and can make people permanently scarred. Fuck that bullshit. Fuck Abeka, ACE, or any other pseudoscience or cults. FUCK THEM.
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really weird thing ive noticed lately re: hermits getting critiqued for stuff theyve said or done is that as soon as someone holds a shit opinion (even if it's just them being stupid, or a centrist, or saying a bad word without knowing what it means, or whatever) people immediately seem to flock to the 'this guy should die' 'kys' 'why are we giving this person a platform' rhetoric and like. that's not how meaningful change is made?
like, yeah, if one of my beloved CCs posted a tweet or video tomorrow about how much they hate gay people, or believe in conservative ideals, or they just said a bunch of slurs or whatever (these are hyperbolic examples obviously) then yeah, fuck them, they should go rot. but like, having some dumb takes, or saying bad things in the past, doesn't = evil terrible person...
idk, i feel like we can critique content creators without getting so insane about it. like, shit, there are things some of my favourites do that i don't like, but theyre not even really worth bringing up tbh. unless its something actually important, i feel like it just creates more drama out of nothing and all these assholes come crawling out of the woodwork to tell everyone how much they hate that creator. or find their content boring anyway so clearly they have no real merit to anyone.
more of an explanation of what i mean in the tags but yeah.
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I am tipsy rn, but I am just hooked on the clone wings au I've seen <3
Jango himself didn't have wings, maybe it skipped a generation
So when he sees the clones are born with them, he totally doesn't cry in his quarters in joy. Boba has wings, and Jango teaches what he can about wing care to the clones as much as he can
No matter what they try, the Kaminoans can't get rid of whatever is causing the wings to be formed, only managing to net a few clones over the years to be born without them
- said wingless clones are snapped up by Alpha-17, who makes sure they don't end up as test subjects or worse. He's missing a wing himself due to a longneck, so they don't bother fighting against the admittedly terrifying clone. Most of them become aquatic soldiers or various troops where wings would be a detriment
-- a lot of the wingless feel left out, but whenever they're around other clones for missions/downtime, they're usually given the honor to help care for the wings, and it's always a battle to see who can get one of them before their other brothers (bc no clone would ever hate another, I don't care what BB says >:(
The armor for the wings was not factored in, so the first Gen cobble together a prototype that is soon refined once it's proven they need the extra protection
the Jedi don't really know what to make of it at first, but the wings don't seem to impede their fighting abilities, so it's just brushed off
in fact, the wings help save more lives (bc a lot of clones die by falling like wtf)
it's considered a right of passage to be invited to help tend to each other's wings in their downtime
Those that are split from their batchmates/lose their squads have their feathers usually matted and tangled until they integrate and find someone they trust, and if they haven't, a medic will step in and force them to be tended to
Kix personally has the highest number of troopers he's had to sedate for wing care, and is quite pleased with himself
When Marshal Commander Cody haphazardly curls a wing around Obi-Wan during a briefing one day, the news spreads within the GAR by the end of the rotation (said commander is embarrassed, and Obi-Wan has to fight to urge to ask him to do it again)
It becomes a game to see who can do the same with their Jetti without their noticing, but the Jedi already know about this "game" and place their own bets on which of their troopers manage
Thoughts <3
And now, Im going to pass out
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So, while looking at what wing boi from @breannasfluff’s wing boi AU to draw fanart of, I looked at the Zeldas and noticed that Dawn(the original Zelda, like from the very first game) wasn’t listed down. So I took my design for her and gave her wings because I can! She’s a European Wren. Listen to them, you will be surprised at how loud they are for their tiny bodies. Found the bird while looking up the Dawn Chorus, birds that sing at dawn basically.
I haven’t drawn wings in a good while. I have also not drawn bird wings in a good while. Trying to find a good ref for the underside of these wings was so hard. So I kinda just…winged it. god i’m so funny. I also have a loose sketch under the cut that shows how her dress coat lets her wings out.
The coat is basically split at the back. I’d think they used to have buttons for those back pieces but they got torn off a while back.
Also my design for Dawn is a lot different from other’s lol, she’s blond for me because of that one design for her from the “Million Publications The Legend of Zelda Strategy Guide”. Although half the time she looks like Aurora and most of the time people don’t draw her. So I must attempt to change that by at least a little bit.
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