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basketonthedoorstepofthefbi · 3 days

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Hello!!! I have a request if that’s okay with you. 💕

Would you maybe write a Spencer x quiet!reader? Where she doesn’t have the courage to talk to him because she’s too shy?

I don’t really have a plot in mind so that’s up to you!! I’m sorry I couldn’t come up with any ideas but hopefully it lets you write whatever you want. Thank you for taking the time to read this. And I read your other stories, you’re so underrated and amazing I love your wording when you write. 🥹🫶🏻🫶🏻

Hi Mary!! Thank you so much for your kind words c:

I did my best c: I hope you like it!

Round Table (Spencer Reid x shy!gn!reader)

Pairing: Spencer Reid x shy!gn!reader (if not gn please let me know, but I'm fairly certain it is!)

Word Count: 1538

Warnings: mentions of anxiety, but besides that none?

A/N: this was so fun c: i am really enjoying challenging myself with your guys' requests. hope you enjoy!!

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You were an incredibly anxious person, which, honestly, was okay. You tried not to let your anxiety hinder your life too much, but like any other human being, sometimes it got in the way. It was frustrating, sure, knowing that a situation would be so much easier if you weren’t so anxious about it, but you reminded yourself often that you weren’t perfect, and neither was anyone else.

Some people were afraid of heights, of the ocean, of needles. Some people had trouble going out into crowds or grew overstimulated in public places.

You? You were painfully shy. There was always an adjustment period to being around new people.

Baristas, the bus driver, pharmacy techs, cashiers at the grocery store - you did just fine. But those were one-time interactions, brief discussions that you could compartmentalize.

They came with a script to follow, with cue cards already queued up in your head as they occurred. You could put on an emotional mask for five minutes while the nurse at the clinic gave you a flu shot. You could smile and speak in your special voice labeled Getting Coffee, an octave higher than you usually spoke, in order to acquire your much-needed beverage. There was a clear goal in mind with each of these dialogues. Sure, you didn’t present as the most confident person in the world, but you always made it through conversations like these without stumbling over your words or being too terribly awkward.

You didn’t succeed as much with deeper connections, with ones that took time to cultivate. You were a guarded person to begin with, with only a handful of people you felt truly close to. Vulnerability had always been difficult for you, but you supposed you were in the majority on that front. It took a while to become comfortable around coworkers, extended family, hell, even your therapist. You had to have time to adjust, to settle in.

A lot of people in your life thought you were just socially awkward or even an agoraphobe, but you didn’t mind being around people. It was the intimacy, the connection, the having to give away little pieces of yourself, that made you anxious. It kept you from participating in conversations most of the time, usually only speaking unless spoken to.

You liked your job as a linguistics and handwriting analyst in the FBI for that very reason. You didn’t have to say much to people unless it was related to a case. With a clear goal in mind, a threat to neutralize, you could turn on that mechanical part of your brain that spouted off facts, information, theories. You didn’t have to tell anyone about your weekend, about your hopes and dreams or your favorite foods.

You were consulting on a case for the Behavioral Analysis Unit - a serial killer who stalked his victims months before their murders, sending handwritten letters and using poetry to taunt them. Your supervisor had asked you to collaborate with the BAU, sending you to the sixth floor on your own.

For the last two days, you’d been working closely with Dr. Spencer Reid - Spencer, he insisted you call him. Just a couple of years older than you, but still very young for his role in the FBI. He was friendly, and very smart, and he rambled on about all kinds of things -

Everything, actually. The Chinese food you’d had for lunch on the first day? He explained the origin of fortune cookies. Did you know their first appearance in the US was in San Francisco in the late 1800s?

Pointing out a Dickinson line in one of the UnSub’s letters? Did you know only ten of Emily Dickinson’s poems were actually published when she was alive and the rest were posthumous?

You often just nodded along and smiled, occasionally throwing in an oh, that’s very interesting to appear as an active listener. And you were an active listener. You did genuinely think he was interesting, and you found his info dumps to be incredibly endearing. But your contributions to the conversation were abysmal in comparison.

Beyond discussing patterns in the UnSub’s letters and what it might mean for each victim, you had no other fascinating information to share. You didn’t do well with small talk, and Spencer didn’t ask you any overtly personal questions.

It wasn’t until close to the end of the second day spent in the conference room of the BAU’s office that Spencer asked you a direct question about yourself.

There were three evidence boards set up, all full of scanned copies of the letters, each one pinned up meticulously by you and Spencer the day before. The large round table in the room had letters stacked out all around it, each one bagged in protective plastic.

Spencer was standing in front of the evidence boards with his arms crossed over his chest, studying the photocopies with his head inclined to the side.

He broke the silence you had been slowly settling into the past two days. “Your supervisor said you had a specialization in poetry?”

You nodded, stepping over to the table and carefully lifting one of the letters up. You liked how he spoke as if you two were in the middle of a conversation, when in fact, it had been totally silent for the past half an hour, save for the soft puttering of the air conditioning vent.

“Studied a lot in undergrad,” you squeaked out, clearing your throat as you held the letter up the fluorescent light above you to examine the stationary.

“What university did you attend?” Spencer asked, and you turned your head to find him inclining his head to the side. He actually wanted to know?

“I went to Bennington College to study poetry,” you said softly, suddenly finding it difficult to focus on the letter in your hand. “But I went to graduate school at Georgetown. Master’s in Linguistics.”

“Really? That’s fascinating,” Spencer commented, which caught you by surprise, especially because he didn’t sound the least bit sarcastic. “That combination of degrees is exceedingly rare. Generally people who major in poetry often either go on to complete as far up as a doctorate in the subject or they stop at a Bachelor’s degree. The latter statistically don’t end up working in a field related to poetry, either, so their degree is basically useless.”

You weren’t sure if you were supposed to be offended by that, so instead you just nodded your head politely. “Okay,” you murmured, biting your lip.

“Can I ask you another question?” Spencer asked, and set the letter in your hand down on the table. You smoothed your hands over the fabric of your shirt and nodded. “Do I… do I make you uncomfortable?”

You shook your head. “No,” you said assuredly, and then, a little more hesitantly, “…why would you ask me that?”

Spencer turned to face you. “You’re just very quiet unless we’re discussing the case. Which is fine, of course, but I just… I don’t know. I thought maybe you were annoyed by me or I said something to offend you.”

You felt guilt spread over you and your cheeks turned pink. The last thing you’d wanted was to make anyone feel bad who didn’t deserve it. And the very kind, helpful, and adorable Dr. Spencer Reid was the furthest from deserving to feel bad.

“I just don’t talk a lot,” you tried to explain. Your hand rubbed the spot where the top of your chest met the skin of your neck, an anxious habit you’d had for years. “I mean, I do with people I know, and that’s not to say I dominate the conversation by any means, but I just…” you realized you were rambling. “You didn’t do anything wrong,” you added, your voice just above a whisper.

“Thank you,” Spencer’s lips flickered into a straight-lined smile, one you had seen several times over the past few days, often when unintentional eye contact was made across the table. “For clarifying, I mean, that I didn’t offend you.” He cleared his throat, and leaned against the round table, standing just a few feet from you. Still a very professional and comfortable distance, but closer than he had been before. “So, does that mean that if we got to know each other, you’d talk more?” The corners of his lips spread out and his smile grew.

You tore your eyes away from his to look at the letter in your hand, the protective plastic around it crinkling between your fingers. You weren’t actually looking at the letter, though. You’d just needed somewhere - anywhere - else to look. “That’s generally how it goes,” you murmured, biting your lip.

“So, if I were to, for example, ask you to meet me for dinner sometime, could the getting to know each other happen there?”

Your eyes fluttered over to Spencer’s and you saw him smiling. You could tell by how he looked at you, with his head inclined just slightly to the side, that he was being fully serious. You nodded, unable to control the small smile on your face.

Spencer grinned, and you could tell he couldn’t resist when he spoke again. “So, is that a yes?”

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yuri-is-online · 24 hours

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no cause the way you have filled my brain with sho brainrot,,,

baby acting like a mf guard dog for his favourite senpai, constantly wanting their attention 😭

LISTEN

I am so glad I waited to answer this for a teeny bit because I thought I was exaggerating at first because like. It was one voiceline right? WRONG. When you level him up he says "thank you senpai" and when I got his SR and slapped him onto my homescreen he does in fact try to get your attention and ask for help from his senpai. He's supposed to be this brash delinquent but he's shockingly respectful of one very specific senior even if he's just a bit sarcastic about it ugh.

Sho feels like he needs an excuse. He can't just ask to hang out with you because then it looks like you're friends, but if he's asking for a favor then you won't have a reason to say no. The Professors all want you to help out the ghouls so he can say just about anything and you'll jump at it, right? Yeah no that's not the real reason. He wants to have you to himself and if he words it like he needs help he can make excuses as to why you two need to be left alone.

Absolutely uses the fact that he can cook to his advantage. I think one of the main reasons Sho started liking the MC so much was because you supported his cooking. He seemed like he expected to be judged for it so when MC was just hungry and said his food was good? The only person he really seems to have cooked for up to this point is Leo (and Bonnie but she's special) so he wants that praise. And to hear you say he could charge money for it? Oh he was riding that high for ages. I feel like he already wanted to open some sort of cafe but really appreciated the support.

And it gives him the excuse to get you to stay around him longer when he asks for your help. Well he's going to cook anyway and you're hungry, so just stick around. He'll make something and pretend to complain about it but he likes feeding you. Well assuming you don't douse his food in hot sauce, though that won't stop him from making you stuff.

I really like the idea of him competing with the Frostheim ghouls idk why. I think MC should get to be good friends with Kaito and Luca and Sho should get to be a brat about it. Vagastrom and Frostheim already don't get along and he never got his fight with Lucas so yeah. He's super intense about how he's way better at protecting MC than they are, especially with Lucas. Part of it is because he feels guilty for going along with Leo's plan and almost getting you killed, he feels like he needs to prove that he's strong enough to not let that happen again.

Speaking of Leo... I sort of get the sense that Sho hides how much he hangs out with the MC from him. In book 3 Leo makes a bet that would see him getting Sho's food truck if he wins it so I sort of feel like if Leo knew Sho liked the MC he'd be insufferable about it. Honor Roll is stealing his best friend (¬､¬) how lame ugh. And he would try to sabotage it because he would find it funny, or even worse try to make Sho's friendship with you the cost of a bet. I could see Sho having nightmares about that.

Book 3. When Towa and MC go missing. I just know in my heart Sho was loosing his goddamn mind. Again I think he feels sort of guilty for almost getting you killed, and now that you aren't with his dorm you just go missing? Unacceptable where are you? How did Jabberwock fuck this up so badly holy shit. I wanna see him admit that he was worried about MC. I wanna know if he got into any arguments with the Frostheim ghouls while the professors forced them to stay behind.

... i kind of want him to argue with Jin. Like specifically Jin. For no reason other than it would be funny to me personally and like... Jin is the one who interrupted his fight with Luca so I just think it would be funny if they had beef.

I need to level his affinity more. I need to see more chats game please ;-; I love him shomuch.

#<3 asks #tokyo debunker #tdb #tokyo debunker x reader #tdb x reader #tdb leo #tdb leo x reader

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wolfs-archive · 22 hours

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"Woah, now I know why you don't drink with us!!!!"

Summary: Y/N has a secret crush on Felix. Little did she know he too liked her. All the boys are Y/n's friend as they go to the same college and live under the same roof. The other boys did know of Felix's crush but are clueless about Y/N. Little did the blooming couple know that an anesthesia would be the one bringing them together.

Pairing: NonIdol!Felix X Female!Y/N

Genre: slightly suggestive, fluff maybe, mentions of alcohol, high Y/N

Note: Y/N is sedated, The Felix or his other roommates mentioned here are no where related to the idol Stray Kids and are just a fictional character. Minors DNI please!!!

"Initially we give less dosage of anesthesia to patients who come for the wisdom teeth removal, since Y/N's so sensitive, we had to give her higher dose. So she would be high for some time, and would come to her senses after 8 hours. Meanwhile, if she faces any issues you can tell her to take the prescribed tablets. Also she is advised not to have any spicy or hard food for a week. Only liquid food for an entire day and soft food for the rest of the week." said the Dentist. "Thank you Doctor", Han said as he helped Y/N get up and made her go out . "Y/N, I'll get the medicines and you stay here" he babied her. "Who are you? I do what I want to." Y/N retorted. "Y/n ah, I know you are a brat, but I'll let this pass once, only just because you are under sedation" a triggered Han said as he left her on the chair to get medicines. On his way to the pharmacy, he met Hyunjin. "Han ah, where is Y/N? Chan asked me to tag along in case you needed help". "Bro, I have made her sit on the chair, can you please take a look at her. She is spewing nonsense. Such a menace she is." Han replied. After the medicines were bought, Hyunjin and Han helped Y/N walk on her way to their car. Hyunjin sat in the driver's seat and a staggered Y/N went to occupy the passenger seat. Not even 5 minutes later, she was transferred to the back seat and was made to sit with Han with all the fuss she created. "Chan, we are on the way back and .... Y/N!!! stop pulling my specs" Han yelled and after a heated argument Han relied to Chan about Y/N's diet and the dentist's advise.

Y/N is usually a bubbling extroverted girl. A beautiful girl who is one year younger than I.N. A person with both beauty and brains, had a lot of people courting her, but her eyes laid only on one of her roommate, Lee Felix Yongbok. Being a bratty roommate with others and making fun of everyone with all possibilities, she has always had a soft spot for Felix and has never made fun of him. The others had never doubted this because, she had treated him like how all would treat him. But be it arriving on time for a class, or making any meal, or saving a book she had all done it ready for him. Often the members would have late night outs and parties and she being the only girl was literally treated like a younger sibling and was never allowed for any late night parties. Whenever it would be, just "Saturday Nights" at their dorm, she would always insist on having orange juice or sparkling water rather than alcohol. The members though knew it, that it was because of her lower tolerance level and that she would be difficult to handle, didn't force her. On the other hand, she didn't want to because, she knew she would pour her heart out if she drank and didn't want to miss the friendship she cherished. So, it was only when she was with he girls that she drank. That was how much she loved him.

Similar to Y/N, Felix liked her but didn't open up his heart to her for the fear of loosing her friendship. He kept it to his heart, until one day, where they had a game of truth or dare during their "Saturday Nights" and he confessed to have feelings for a particular girl. Upon closely watching his previous movements, the group concluded that it definitely was Y/N. When he asked how, each of them had their own answers for confirmation. Seungmin said, "I saw you waiting for her after class, to walk along with her to our dorm, even thoug you didn't have class that day". " One night when I went to drink water, I saw you tucking up her bedsheet " Hyunjin replied. "I saw you having her as your wallpaper on your phone" replied Changbin. He also added, "I didn't mean to peak at your phone, remember; when I had asked for your phone to text the professor. It was that time I realised it". "Not to mention, we share the same room and one day I saw you texting her, you slept with your phone. When I tried to keep the phone on the table beside, I saw a notification with Y/N's name along with a light blue heart." replied the youngest. "Don't you think I know the way steal glances of her during our combined sessions?" asked the eldest. "I knew it the moment you told me weeks ago about how you wanted pasta for dinner just because Y/N had a bad day at college. You have never done it for anyone else" said Lee Know. "Remember the one day I borrowed your book for reference? Do you not remember what you had written in it? The entire book had Y/N's name on it just like how a psychopath writes a person's name" said Han "You have been too obvious with it around us. Y/N must be either dumb or must be really clueless about it" he retorted.

Back in the car, when Han cut the call, Y/N "Bro, where is my love? I wanna meet him" she said. An astonished Han, asked who it was for which she replied that he knew him. Hyunjin in the driver's seat replied "I guess Felix is screwed!!!" Meanwhile, "You Quokka like human, where is my love? I want to meet him. Kiss him... Please bring him here." Han knew it wasn't easy and not right either to bring words out from her, so he decided, "Y/N let's play this game 10 questions. I'll ask you 10 questions and you have to answer them honestly. By the time you are done, I'll bring you your love. Deal? " he asked. "Deal" she challenged.

Even after 10 questions, he was not able to find out who it was and had arrived to their dorm. Han and Hyunjin had tricked Y/N into make her believe that they were at her "Love's" home and that she had to go in to see him. As soon as she entered, she started yelling "Lee Felix Yongbok!!!! where are you?". Hearing her voice, Felix came out to see what was going on.... "Come here!!!!" she ordered as she sat on their sofa, pointing her hands, implying him to sit near her. "What is it Y/N?" asked Felix as he sat near her. A wild Y/N, grabbed Felix's shirt by the collar, just leaving a gap of 2 inches between them. She could feel his breath pace take off and her cheeks now tinted with red. With a raspy voice, she said "Do you know how much I love you? Those freckles and the cute smile is definitely the death of me. In the future, if I get married, I want it only with you and our kids will have beautiful freckles just like you" she confessed. Everyone were too stunned to speak at the confession. Meanwhile Hyunjin, "Han, we were so clueless, the entire ride she was talking about.... was it Felix????" Han replied "Now with what she confessed, I think, no conclude that it was definitely Felix." "You know why every time you call me to have drinks I deny? It is because, if I drink, I would pour my heart out. I don't know what is in your mind and if you don't like it, I would crumble into pieces. i wouldn't be even able to face you" she said. Her hands now across his neck as she pulls him in for a deep kiss. Breaking out from the kiss, Felix says" Who said I don't like you? I've always loved you, and will love you. " as he tucked the small fringe of hair behind her ears. " Woah, now I know why you don't drink with us. It's okay." he says, as he carried her to her bedroom.

Idk if y'all want Part 2. But if you want, please feel free to ask it in the comment section.

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factual-fantasy · 1 day

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10 asks! Thank you!! :}} 🌞

AHEHEHE KICKING MY FEET AND GIGGLING LIKE A DORK AT THIS 😭😭💞🥺💖💖 THANK YOU SO MCUH!! I DO MY BEST TO MAKE THE EXPRESSIONS KF THE CHARACTERS READABLE AND DRIPPING WITJ EMOTION SO IM GLAD ITS WORKING!! :DD ✨💞✨💖✨

@gummysusie

Oh there's lots I'd be willing to eat if I had to! XDD

My memory ain't the best but off the top of my head-- I'm sure eating miltank meat wouldn't disturb me so much! :0

I like fish so there's a lot of those I'd be willing to try! Magikarp, uhhh those two grumpy fish that are either green/red or green/blue! I forgot the name..

Of course all of the food themed ones would be relatively no problem. Fidough, Milcery.. There's some bird ones that wouldn't be too upsetting too! XDD

As long as my brain relates them to earthly animals, I'm not too disturbed by the thought of eating them XD Im sure they have to eat pokemon in the actual pokemon universe! Where else do their meat based dishes come from? How else do they feed their carnivorous pokemon??

@girlsackthing

Not recently :(( but I'd like to pick it up again someday once I'm feeling better! :}}

@illogically-austere

Hey thanks for checking in, that means a lot 🥹

I'm hanging in there as best I can. I haven't eaten much but am getting plenty of water and rest! I'm hoping this horrible health trial thingy I've been going through is over soon <:}}

@sussyhahag

y a l i k e j a z z ?

@littlelightfish

Hey pal, I hope You're doing alright! Hang in there.. <:}}

I haven't worked much on Tuna's backstory recently.. but I imagined that his blood family was gone.. he lived on a ship with a real rotten crew that was horrible to him.

As for how he joined Seafoam's crew, I imagined that the crew rescued him somehow. Maybe Tuna's old crew attacked Seafoam's crew but he kicked their butts. Perhaps in all the chaos Tuna was left behind by "mistake", only for Foam to welcome him aboard?

Maybe his old crew got too intense and he ran, somehow running into Seafoam and he offered shelter? Or maybe his old ship sank and he was found by Seafoam..? Something along those lines-- XD

Anywho- thank you! Things are starting to look up for me, I'm hoping this journey is almost over! <:}}

@raven-bearden-the-interviewer42

"Seafoam's heart 🥰..... Metaphorically I mean-"

I would assume so! :0 Maybe a cookie like that already exists in the games!

Well that's hard to say.. I usually draw comics all in one pass. I sketch out the entire comic, and then I go back and draw all the line art, and then I go back and color it all in..

So in that sense 1 drawing for a comic could take days to complete. But if I were to focus on just one panel/drawing? I would guesstimate about 10-15 minutes :0

Now my name! My memory is a little foggy.. but one of my favorite things to do in drawing is to apply logic, reason and explanations for things.

For example, Captain Barnacles! He's a polar bear wearing a full suit and lives out in the Pacific Ocean. Obviously there's a lot that doesn't make sense about that- but mainly the fact that Barnacles would be way too hot!

So I remedy this by making my version of Barnacles have very short fur, a special diet that thins out his blubber, and a special suit that helps keep him cool! It's not perfect obviously but it helps make him living out in the Pacific seem more reasonable. Which is what I love to do, and how I thought of my name! Applying fact to fantasy, Factual Fantasy!

Hm, Bibi's worst fear.. that would have to be something bad happening to me or any of the fam I'd assume <XD

Nothing bad actually happened to Red, that nightmare just manifested because she loves/worries about him so much 🥺💞 Like a mother having dreams about their children getting hurt. Nothing exactly happened to cause it, but they just worry about their babies so much that those dreams happen sometimes..

And lastly, thank you! It's looking good that I might finally get out of this pit. So my spirits are high! :}}

@beryl-shade (sorry for the late response! <:D)

He typically will not allow it 😅 I originally had a drawing idea for this ask but I dont have the strength to get to my PC so I can just explain it!-

I imagined Octo and some of the crew all tied to chairs with some other pirates taunting them. Octo looks very bored and very unintimidated.

Well one of the pirates makes the mistake of grabbing one of Octos tentacles and twirling it around. Octo immediately reacts and uses the other tentacles on his head to restrain his hand and start choking the guy-

The rest of the crew is just laughing and calling that pirate an idiot while he continues to struggle to get away from the angry Octo 🤣

Now on the other hand, if he gets a joking pat on the head from Seafoam? Or if Red is up on his shoulders and he pulls on Octo's hair by mistake? Eh, whatever he doesn't mind much. : '

#my response #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookie run ocs #my ocs

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ghouljams · 1 day

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scrolling through tumblr instead of doing my college paperwork (why do they need my immunization records? weirdos. thanks for accepting my application in like three days though) and sinking my teeth into fallout ghost bro (also you wouldn’t happen to have dorm advice would you im desperate)

i love seeing writers i follow taking these boys and pushing them that nice apocalyptic dark.. there’s something that itches my brain about fallout in particular and it’s feeding the worms bc truly anything can go with narrative depending on where you stick em. all that to say loooooooooove ur fallout stuff it’s living in my head forever now and you can’t get rid of me <3333 :3c

Fallout is such a great mix of post-apocalyptic but also there is a society to play with. It's fun writing darker fic with the boys, I like when they're a little fucked up. There are different morals out in the wasteland, you gotta draw your own lines in the sand, decide where you stand and where you aren't going. Ghost's prerogative is survival and revenge, we're just unlucky enough to owe him a debt and get carted along for the ride.

As for Dorm advice... Get flipflops for the showers if you have communal bathrooms. Leave your door open when you can the first week or so, that way people can say hi and you'll know when people are going for food; it's way easier to make friends over lunch/dinner. Don't worry if your roommate isn't your best friend, just try to be cordial with them. My freshman roommate fucking hated me, I ended up spending most of my time in my friend's room since they lived down the hall and my room was just where I slept and studied, it was fine.

Having a roommate agreement sounds silly but is really helpful if you're having any sort of dispute, you can point to the paper you both agreed on and say "look you said you wouldn't bring people back here without giving me a heads up" or whatever. On the other end of that, if your agreement says you'll alternate taking out the trash and your roommate hasn't taken it out, just take it out. It's easier to just do things yourself most of the time. Maybe it's because I'm an oldest child but I tend to just fix things myself when they bother me, trying to get other people to do shit is pointless 75% of the time.

Honestly most people treat the dorms as just a place to sleep and study. It's your home, but it's also not. Which always feels weird to say but you'll get used to it fast. Don't sweat too much about it.

#ghoul speaks

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windslar · 1 day

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OC Deep Dive Questionnaire Tag

A set of 20 questions to get to know your oc! I was tagged by @matchalovertrait and @simmenycricket. thank you so much! since we're days away from starting his generation, i'm going to be doing this with Reuben in mind.

What uncommon/common fear do they have? Contrary to popular belief, Reuben is not scared of death and is actually quite fascinated by it. He is fearful though of his own mind and how it's wired to undervalue his own life and reality. He's so hyper-aware of how life is so fleeting and arbitrary that it's pushed him toward understanding the concept of mortality (and exploring the possibility that immortality might be out there in some other supernatural realm). So, to answer the question without getting too deep into it, Reuben's big fear is his own brain.

Do they have any pet peeves? People who say "no offense" because they almost always mean full offense.

What are 3 items you can find in their bedroom? His phone, a record player, a dusty old book.

What do they notice first in a person? Reuben notices body language and eye contact first. He is very intuitive and can glean how comfortable people are in a situation, and he usually finds the least comfortable looking person and tries to keep them company.

On a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance? Emotional pain? 8/10. Physical pain? he may be a rancher's son, but he's a baby -- 4/10.

Do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure? Under pressure, Reuben goes into flight and retreat and hide out in his room mode. But recent events involving an ex-boyfriend who shall not be named have made him more resilient. He's got a little more fight in him now than he did as a teenager.

Do they come from a big family/are they a family person? He grew up mostly raised by his mom, but his dad has always been present in his life. He'd say he's close to both of them. While he was in high school, his parents had a surprise pregnancy so he has a much, much younger brother.

What animal represents them best? A cat for the introspection and for being deeply perceptive. Or a humpback whale -- for the introversion and the appreciation for music.

What is a smell that they dislike? Reuben doesn't really like floral scents like lilies or carnations because they remind him too much of childhood memories of accompanying his mom to the funeral home.

Have they broken any bones? One time, he climbed the windmill at their ranch and he fell and broke his arm. And no broken bones, but he did get a nasty bruise on his behind after he fell off Maple.

How would a stranger likely describe them? Some would say softboi; others would say babygirl.

Are they a night owl or a morning bird? Night owl, which is exactly why he needs to get out of the ranch and its squealing-goat wake up calls.

What is a flavor they hate and a flavor they love? Growing up with a professional chef as his mom opened Reuben's palate to a lot of good food. He's always been an easy eater, but a flavor he hates is liver. He can't stand the texture! As for a flavor he loves, it's garlic!

Do they have any hobbies? Playing the piano and reading vampire tomes and fantasy novels. He also swam in high school although he was no star athlete like his mom was.

Boom, surprise birthday party!How do they react to surprises? He would be so appreciative to the person who threw the party (either his mom or his best friend, Winona). He would probably hate being the centre of attention though. But he'll put on a brave face and try his best to make sure everyone is having a good time.

Do they like to wear jewelry? Yes, and I think more now that he's gotten older. He likes to layer silver necklaces. He's also thinking of getting some piercings... and perhaps some ink? Who knows.

Do they have neat or messy handwriting? Legible but messy. A little bit like his handwriting stopped improving in the 3rd grade.

What are two emotions they feel the most? Existential sadness and teenage angst.

Do they have a favorite fabric? Comfy, breathable cotton. Brushed plaid shirts. A vintage leather jacket.

What kind of accent do they have? Chestnut Ridge is in the southwest and people from that area typically don't have a strong southern accent like those from Willow Creek. That being said, compared to almost everywhere else, people from C.R. have a slight twang and a touch of that southern drawl. Reuben will probably say he doesn't have an accent, but someone from the city will definitely say he does.

I tag @wrixie, @dustbon, @natolesims, @druidberries, and @stefsimz. Please feel free to ignore 😊

#tjolc extras #oc tags #oc tag game

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manofthepipis · 7 months

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Here are my own Addison/Spamton headcannons to add on! :]

(buckle up cause I got a lot)

If Spamton tries to talk about personal memories that he tried very hard to bury, (like his puppitfication), he physically cant. If he talks about a memory that overwhelms him his body would spaz out in glitches and error signs. (kinda like a system crash)

I feel like if the Adds were to get the grasp of healing magic, the first one to perfect it would be Clicks. (bc he already makes tea that heals you!)

Sponsor owns a motorcycle! (because they thought it made them look cool) And regularly takes it out for a spin when he's done with work for the day.

Survey is a secret horror fan, and when having movie nights with the other adds, they would always recommend horror movies that they personally like.

I feel like Banner really focused on clothing after Spamton went missing, (he only really did this as a side hustle/hobby beforehand) as it was a good distraction and a way to cope, and he found out he was really good at it! And made it his primary business.

When an addison gives a gift with no underlying intention/price tag attached, it is seen as a sign of a genuine friendship, familial, or courtship relations, (like when they all gifted Spamton the new phone) as all addisons are selfish in nature

Clicks 1000000000% cried at the Barbie movie and has a poster of her in his room lololol

Sponsor absolutely LOVES those shitpost videos on TikTok, like that smurf-cat that's been trending recently? his feed is FULL of videos like that

Its hard for Spamton to open up for a variety of reasons, because he HATES it when people give him pity, he's been dealing with that his whole life, and knows that bigshot's don't get those looks.

Along with fashion, Banner is CRAZY good at makeup, and that's when he and Clicks have most of their gossip sessions when doing Clicks makeup when they're hanging out together

Survey has a soft spot for holiday seasons (not just because of shopping sales and spike and sales, cause all addisons are scrambling when october hits,) but also because it's a time they feel all warm and fuzy with their family :]

To add on to the motorcycle thing, Banner was very against Sponsor getting one, as he heard about horror stories on those "death traps" (his words)

to add on to the one above, Sponsor didn't wear a helmet once, (cause he only needed to go like, a street down to grab something,) and Banner gave him HELL. bro went on a whole rant about Bike saftey and Sponsor always wore a helmet after that incident (a mad banner is very scary! cause i hc that he always keeps his chill) (Banner is not beating mom friend allegations)

Jevil LOVES messing with Clicks the most, as he's the drama queen, and his reactions are hilarious cause he HATES the clown. Jevil will do things like change his wallpaper, take secret selfies, or just flat out jumpscare him because it never gets old...

Sponsor is a BEAST at Just Dance, like, bro is doing breakdancing for every single song, and he WILL make EVERYONE do the dances correctly, (as clicks likes to half-ass it by just moving the controller correctly)

Banner is the strongest physically out of all the addisons. Y'know like, that punching bag game in arcades where the harder you punch the bag the more points you get? Banner DEMOLISHED that, and has one of the highest scores still.

Clicks secretly plays dating sim games as a guilty pleasure

also have you seen eviction day yet? If not, I HIGHLY reccomend! I will add a warning for flashing lights and disturbing imagry though, https://youtu.be/fzzGtz4v3YU?si=6-AD5j8qrGARbdM3

but yea! here are my silly lil headcannons for the silly lil guys :]

i'm incredibly happy with the energy we've created in the studio today

also known as omg i love these headcanons like this is great food hfjdksjdjdks

the first one i also share! and it's a bit of why i headcanon swatch feels distant from spamton out of everybody he talks to. Like they were rlly close at one point and talked a lot, and swatch was his shoulder at high stress points in his job. However when the Horrors happened, he physically couldn't explain anything, leaving swatch to wonder what exactly happened to him and then build up resentment for keeping them in the dark. They even tried to help at first, but help turned to hate real fast when neo got involved.

i love the idea over clicks and spamton maybe bonding over some healing magic, like i had something similar in mind for a future chapter but this rlly has me smiling at the possibilities. spamton would maybe give him some tips- for a price. He IS thinking about trying to capitalize the whole healing gig after all since he's good at it.

banner going into clothing after spamton disappeared makes sense, especially with keeping busy trying to forget about him (it's awful hard to with the mannequins looking the way they do, but maybe that's a good thing in the long run) also i adore the mom friend vibe these headcanons have about him. i'd love to add on to the helmet thing, as I feel Clicks would join him on this (he's protective) but sponsor (and maybe even survey) claims it's fine if it was just once.

i completely agree with surv and the holidays. honestly i feel like they're the most ambitious with holiday sales and are unmatched, kind of peaking during seasonal sales in general (seeing how many survey ads are in place when customer shopping is at an all time high). spamton was indifferent to the holiday craze (cuz even when addisons were at their busiest, he wasn't) but liked when everything settled down after they weren't as busy to talk with him again. I have a picture in mind of survey chilling with spamton and realizing this, how happy he is when they're not busy (and feeling as if he was supposed to be), and being happy in return, if not sympathetic to him.

jevil pranking the adds and being a general nuisance is just so funny to me. gosh i can just imagine the absolute chaos he'd bring to a tea shop, mixing up the names and flavors, upon the other things (especially the wallpaper that has me cracking up with ideas). spamton, at the request (and payment) of clicks, gets jevil to stop (maybe. it's unclear if hes actually stopped completely or if there's smaller pranks here and there) but he secretly finds it hilarious.

overall these headcanons are great and i'm so happy to see them shared

#ALSO i haven't seen eviction day yet! This is the first i'm hearing about it so i'll give it a look :D #there's so many of them and i'm eating each and every one <3 #i'd add on to everything if i could but i feel like my add ons are long enough lmao srry #when i get talking about this feral lil beast of a character i cannot stop thinking and thinking #thank you so much for the brain food i love these #i lowkey wanna write a clicks and banner makeup sesh now #maybe as a one shot or something #maybe they rope spamton into it but he's not too excited about anyone touching his face but him (for obvious reasons)#but they like maybe wanna fix the blush on his cheeks since it looks kinda faded/scratched after he's lived in the trash for so long #he'd deny it but after a long look in the mirror thinks about reconsidering it #see im adding on but in the tags there's no hope for me hfjdjsksksk #dr!hc #asks #fanfic #sponsor being on a motorcycle is SO COOL i can't get it outta my head #long post

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awakenthebeing · 10 months

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Just placing more arts and things and requests here, don't mind em too much <:3

#Piepoe arts #Keppino arts #btw writing this here bc its been rough but!! thank you to creachers who made me more gifts #i have seen them and love them very very much/liked the posts despite not reblogging!! the brain is heavy so words escape me atm #but know i truly appreciate them very very much. though theres a lot happening irl i am so thankful for gifts that were made!! 🙏🥺#bless each of your kind hearts and be sure to drink water and to rest and eat foode. stay safe out there my dears!! 🙏🦩💕

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muckmage · 22 days

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the baby fawn is gently nudging a pile of leaves, twigs, and various fruits towards you. they seem to want you to eat it with them.

baby fawn i am so blessed to have this opportunity of course i shall eat with you. the fruits are so delicious and awesome and i can't eat twigs but i'm having so much fun swinging them around anyway. thank you baby fawn you are so kind and loving. i am hand feeding you some beautiful leaves and fruits and giving you gentle head pats and a forehead kiss also and then laying down and having a nice post meal nap so cozy in the sun

#aoauagahfjaj thank you baby fawn so much i love yoy #02 #to be real for a sec i actually forgot to take my antidepressants last night so i feel kinda awful rn lmaofksjksjs😭#but one of the things that helps abate the negative effects is eating nice food!!#cause when i miss my meds i don't get enough serotonin and ghat throws everything out of whack #but eating nice foods is one of the things that makes the brain release serotonin so as i'm eating i feel good and normal #which is all to say even just imagining this is enough to make me feel a lil better fksjks😭 thanks you:>

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sophiethewitch1 · 1 month

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Get yourself some soup and blankets girl!

a) any soap thats got a thick consistency actually hates me personally and b) i have another fever lmfaooooo

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #moots #cyb3rd0g #my beloved cyb3rd0g #for you are the only one who cares for poor me #but geniunely i love seeing you in my askbox thank you for being so consistent!!! you are very appreciated!!!#anyways me being sick doesnt usually affect my appetite #actually thinking about it never does im never NOT hungry. even when I'm really really sick (like hospital sick) i still get hungry #just any food options make me feel gross #also fun fact when i get super duper ultra mode sick i get really really stupid beyond my normal level #and always end up asking for the sorts of food i should NOT be eating #'greetings mother i know i just had a shivering fit so violent i almost bit my tongue off but id like dominos hawaiin pizza pls'#and they just go along with it because whenever they offer me something healthier i just don't eat it #can not tell you why im built like this yes it makes me feel much much worse #i think like at a certain point something gets disconnected in my brain towards pain and i start acting real odd #living in chronic pain has made me even weirder than i was before

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thetimecrystal · 4 months

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giving you hot choccy and wrapping you in a blankie, i know deadlines suck but please take care of yourself too, you write better papers if youre well rested and feel better than by forcefully pushing through it 💜💜

thank you so much, crow 💖💖

i stopped for today because i just stared at my last sentences with nothing going on upstairs, so i stopped for today

#i understand how my own brain works enough so i physically cannot force myself to work anymore #but thank you so much for the advice and the love ily💖💖#mica speak #the kipsabian #asks #food //

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crossbackpoke-check · 1 year

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wait you got me so invested in the stammer & heddy tailor au....

this is my standard disclaimer that i have never posted a fic on ao3* and for however much i say “au” i truly mean that it’s a universe that lives in my head & i am absolutely delighted to tell you all about, all the time <3 if it helps i ALSO got me so invested in the heddy & stammer tailor au

ok now that the author’s note is out of the way here’s some notes about the not!fic heddy & stammer tailor au:

stammer as the tailor from gent’s playbook, very reserved, quiet, with an excellent eye for details (honestly the evidence i have for his style sense is just that he’s best friends with pk subban so it has to be there somewhere if only by proxy irl) is hired by victor hedman, star of the tampa bay lightning who is every other tailor’s nightmare to dress (huge, opinionated, fashionable)

heddy is decently well-known throughout the league for being very well-dressed & becomes quietly well known for also being one of his new tailor’s favorite loyal customers [heddy has the nicest fabrics. he has his suits the first day a new collection drops & e v e r y o n e is jealous]

stammer’s business booms after heddy takes a chance on him as his first big client & promotes him, heddy sees him grow in popularity & get more clients

heddy also moonlights as a model for stammer’s suits on instagram, initially to help him grow his business because then he won’t have to pay for a model and then because he’s over there all the time anyway because they’re dating (that’s why the model’s face is never in the pictures)

there’s not really a plot to this besides the vague idea of a plot where stammer makes heddy his lucky suit that he wins the cup in & sews a special little tag into the lining of his jacket that says i love you

because love sometimes is picking out the perfect right color pocket square to match your husband’s beautiful suit that you fitted like a kiss to the curves of his huge body

& also sometimes love is making your beautiful husband who makes you beautiful clothing enjoy nice things for himself once in a while, like the fancy watch you bought him or the nice suit you custom-ordered for him (from him) just so you could take it off of him

#*i did very much post a zine on ao3 that was part of a really fun exchange that i loved doing (thank you leah for organizing!!!)#& had a fantastic time with however i have not strictly speaking posted a fic. one day i will. eventually. hopefully. pray for me :)#also one time my horoscope told me i was a ‘neutral projector’ & i’ve never felt more called out (‘loves making up things’/‘will not #actually write or plot but will explain every intricate detail of their world & character relationships’/‘hype up every member of the #writing chat & give good advice but never follow it’) like HI CAN U NOT DO THIS TO ME HOROSCOPE THANKS i was read to FILTH #liv in the replies #i do LOOOOOVE me a good one of them plays hockey the other one does not au sometimes they’re so fun to explore dynamics outside/inside sport #at the time i came up with this stammer was out on IR & heddy kept showing up to the playoffs in ridiculously nice suits what was i to do??#the gent’s playbook tailor will sometimes model his own suits w/o showing his own face which made it look like he had a secret model come in #heddy canonically says his suits make him feel better when he plays esp during playoffs & if he wins in a suit he’ll keep wearing it #oh also the truth of the love is in the pocket square bit? angela price i will never forget. anyway that blue suit i posted in the last ask #with the perfect pink pocket square? that pocket square is a pair of stammer’s boxers heddy took To Me. in my brain #me about the beautiful clothing: this is like daisy crying in gatsby’s silk shirts except it’s baby alpaca fur & also it’s not sad #it’s simply decadent & the inherent intimacy of a fitting mapping the body yada yada yada knowing the ways to flatter someone is a form #of loving them etc etc. love is art love is food love is given love is stored in the custom three-piece suit and tie #is this an enemies to lovers? workplace drama? is the secret plot i only just now invented & added that heddy is ‘difficult to work with’#but it’s just because he wants to look good & in the words of his own (real) tailor the hardest guy to fit because he’s so big? OHHH HOLD IT #I GOT THE PLOT IN THE TAGS Y’ALL AND IT’S STAMMER TEACHING HEDDY TO LOVE HIS BODY heddy who’s been told what to/not wear & you know.#the commodification of the body in hockey (but we’re not getting that deep) but stammer with a mouth full of pins tightening heddy’s pant #leg down even further as he listens to what heddy wants for once & lets him pick fabrics (this is the daisy shirt moment but it’s heddy #looking at fabric swatches dozens of books of them stammer helps him pick out matching linings &outsides &squares) & stammer compliments him #& they’re in love & idk NEARLY enough abt fashion but there r like codes? messages? to wearing suits i think w/the etiquette so that too #should this have also gone under a readmore? yeah probably. whoops #victor hedman #steven stamkos #tampa bay lightning

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ttimecode · 1 year

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my turn to steal ur ask box /lh BABHAAHABEBSBDBSVSVSV HI!!!! 💚💚💚

ok so like im honestly so deep into this whole emme's nightmares arc i think it would make a good fanmade pkpsta mod.... the mod is presented with the plot that ethan can't wait to be the next jo.hto champion and told her that he's going places and it definitely scared her as she's familiar with mt si.lver being a dangerous place as she had experienced its worst personally (and we all know she's trying to complete her data because there's rare pkmns there) basically she doesn't want him to go through what she did but didn't want to come off as too restrictive because she's not like that (but that was her mistske - because she does have to be responsible for his wellbeing because he's still young.... ooo internal conflict OOOO!!!!! SHES HAVING PROBLEMS MY GIRL HAS PROBLEMS)

so now she sleeps with nightmares (which are the songs) that are basically several "what if" scenarios of what could possibly happen to him, and each song descends into a more deeper and fucked up dreadful dream while still keeping ethan as the general subject.

first song is definitely the blake variant (because that's her big fear that seems likely)

second song is monochrome (it's ... more unlikely but her nightmares just became worse from there)

and then lastly insomnia with that ethan cover I shared hehe (because she can't sleep anymore, maybe. and he has no face. that's fucked up already)

maybe a nice resolution song in which the real ethan talks it out with her that he won't go there until the right time comes, and they hug it out :')

and then freeplay mode ... glitchy emerald⁉️⁉️⁉️ (thanks nero HAHSHEHAHEHEHEHSHEE) and then p.asta night with our characters 😎😎😎

ANYWAYS YEASH!!!!!!!! i had a lot of thoughts at school i had to brain dump em 😭 thank you for reading 🥺 sorry if it might be hard to respond since I dropped a lot of details but i just really wanted to share!!!! :')))

sorry for the late response im at school oops....

AAGHHHH PROTECTIVE BIG SISTER EMME... SOBBING SO HARD

THESE IDEAS ARE SO SO GOOD DUDE

MAN I WISH I HAD A COMPUTER SO I COULD MAKE COVERS OF THOSE PKPSTA SONGS....LIKE I COULD MAKE A JASPER + STEVEN DISSENSION COVER TOO.... i need to convince my parents to let me get utau or smth jxhsidbeobd.....

poor emme though... :[

THE IDEA WHERE THEY HUG IS SO SWEET THOUGH IM HAVING A ROLLERCOASTER OF EMOTIONS AGAGAHHHJ IM HUGGING EMME SO HARD

#THANK YOU JIL FOR THE FOOD AJSVRJEHEJWJW (foaming at the mouth)#sobbing while eatibg lunch in school........#SORRY I COULDNT ADD OR SAY MORE ABT THIS IM LIKE.....MY BRAIN IS EXPLODING I HAVE NO THOUGHTS #BUT I LOVE THIS SO SO MUCH AAGHH I WANT THIS TO BE AN ACTUAL MOD SO BAD #EVEN IF I WONT BE ABLE TO PLAY IT ANYWAYS...#jil! 🎉

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ofgentleresolve · 1 year

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Does Patrick ever let the ghost of Felicity guide his actions AS IN does he sometimes regret things, avoid things, pursue things because of how he feels Felicity might have felt about them? What about Myungdae? Does Yoojin ever fear that perhaps he's immortal enough to outlive the world itself, to then be stuck and entirely alone? Are there feelings of inadequacy of any kind that plague Ray and could he vocalise them? Does Lam ever feel like he's stuck, does he feel like he's exactly where he's supposed to be or is he haunted by trauma restlessness, that prompts him to always keep moving, metaphorically or otherwise? How does Mana feel about her hands, about her skin, can she hold herself? Does she feel comfortable or uncomfortable at the notion of offering herself gentleness? Does K feel as though removed from life as others feel it, does his involvement with so many high-stakes, national affairs and people, make him feel as though he's actually playing a part in getting something done or does he fear being a wheel in this kind of machine, because of the life he can't have due to that? Bonus, Hyurick Pain™ (i'm a huge fan~): Has Patrick and/or Myungdae ever feared as though losing Felicity as he did would make him... inadequate (not a good word, BUT I CAN'T FIND WHAT I MEAN), almost, to love Hyuk? Did he ever fear the world might doubt him capable enough of moving on? Does he trust in love?

@mythvoiced LENA THESE QUESTIONS WERE FIRE OH MY GOSH 😲😲😲 ( unprompted. )

Does Patrick ever let the ghost of Felicity guide his actions AS IN does he sometimes regret things, avoid things, pursue things because of how he feels Felicity might have felt about them?

hahaha, you would think that after at least ten years patrick would have moved on from felicity by now bc of the sheer fact of, you know, it’s been ten years and that realistic that is a really long time to be mourning someone :’D if we’re talking about relationship wise or even just in regards to friendships, I wouldn’t say it’s necessarily the ghost of felicity, herself that makes him hesitant to open up to other people, but rather it’s the suddenness and brutality at how she was taken that made him clam up. like, before meeting felicity, patrick was pretty closed off…like of course, hyuk was his bff ( and will always be his bff ) and is one person whom patrick is comfortable with being himself around, but it’s kinda like?? You know, different people will bring out different sides of you?? so in this case, felicity, since she was more on the cheery and outgoing side, being around her really encouraged him to loosen up, ‘let his hair down’ if that makes any sense :’D I would say patrick was his most playful when he was dating felicity.

Which is why when felicity passed, patrick didn’t just go back to the way he had been before meeting, he became much more serious and reserved- like take how reserved and serious he is in main verse, now multiply that by like 10 and you have patrick in the aftermath of felicity’s passing…I even would say he hardly, like really smiled for like, the first year after she was gone ( although it also didn’t help that communication between hyuk and him had been on the sparser side due to a. work and b. patrick really hermitting in response to the grief…

Where was I going with this though?? OH YEAH the brutality of her passing- so let’s just say when you see the body of the love of your life that has been burnt to a crisp, it does…things to your brain. It sticks in a very permanent way and makes him almost…scared to pursue new relationships bc what if something like that happens to whoever else comes into his life?

Which is why I will say that felicity’s passing, although he knows logically she would want him to find and pursue new relationships…the way he lost her makes him hesitant to say, deepen the bonds of friendship with other people since that requires a certain degree of vulnerability that he doesn’t feel comfy with ( hyuk is both an exception and not an exception in that a. patrick was already best friends with hyuk before dating felicity and b. literally ten years. It takes them ten years to actually act on these feelings ).

On the romantic end as well, he has been encouraged by fellow colleagues and friends to perhaps seek new love as he deserves it, however, again, it’s not just that felicity was so special to him and he didn’t ( I’m using past tense here bc of hyuk :’D ) think there was anyone quite up to her calibre and therefore wouldn’t feel that it’s fair to pursue something he only felt half-heartedly about, BUT also it’s that the way she went that again haunts and he instinctually doesn’t feel right about setting her memory aside for his own happiness.

( that and also when the ‘accident’ that killed her was covered up, it also happens that any trace of her was also covered up…and save for one physics teacher in LA, patrick felt like he has a responsibility to keep her memory alive somehow :’(( )

What about Myungdae?

So unlike with patrick, myungdae never quite?? Had the time to process her death ( granted patrick had ten years and in those ten years, peace and quiet and his best friend, while myungdae had half the time and none of those things ) aka he’s still pretty raw about her passing. Whereas he might be able to speak about hyuk briefly to team checkmate, felicity is an off-limits topic; his temper will be triggered if probed on it ( which is also why when naomi starts to appear in seoul, myungdae will be HM- let’s hope he’s reunited with hyuk by that time, otherwise no one’s getting any information about felicity there :// ).

Anyways, my point is that myungdae clings to the small reminders of felicity kinda like the way a child clings to their security blanket….it’s the reason he still carries around the pocket watch she gave him even though analog clocks are his worst nightmares :/// or why, say, he always keeps red hair ties in his desk/pocket or even why he’ll listen to sound of beach waves to soothe himself. for him, felicity is both a painful reminder and a safe space, as he associates her with the life he led five years ago…basically when he felt like a whole person, not an echo of that like shin myungdae and the black knight are D-:

Does Yoojin ever fear that perhaps he's immortal enough to outlive the world itself, to then be stuck and entirely alone?

As he says, he’s ‘been there, done that’. the place where I like to write him is where he’s come to accept that people will come and go, but for every goodbye there’s always going to be a hello- that being said, he finds that there’s no point in fearing the end of humanity ( although he really really would prefer if that didn’t happen ) when there’s still the present to contend with….but if that really does end up being the scenario, he’ll probably try to put a positive spin on it. Aka go befriend the aliens or whatever species end up coming after the humans :D

( although seriously, he really would hope?? That sooner or later his curse would end by that time…not that he’s looking for death necessarily, but rather, he’d like to go to an eternal rest once he is truly alone :’D )

Are there feelings of inadequacy of any kind that plague Ray and could he vocalise them?

I think it’s definitely living up to his dad’s legacy as his cooking in the past does get compared to roy evans’ cooking and is considered second to that…years of trying to live up with that does give him insecurity about just…being considered a good cook in general? Which is also why he indulges in his demon spawn recipes…bc he already knows it’s gonna taste terrible SO there’s no need to worry about being judged :’D

as for vocalizing them, that’s something he doesn’t feel quite ready to divulge to anyone about yet?? Annnd this is also why I would think that he likes lam so much bc lam?? Well yeah he’s a hot mess and while neither of them have spoken about their histories with one another ( yet ), but lam also is surprisingly quite open about his insecurities and opinions and of course no one likes to be around a grump 24/7 BUT…there’s something comforting to ray about the fact that someone can be so open with their opinions without fear of censure over what other people might say when ray can’t bring himself to be open about the bad parts of himself if that makes any sense :’D

Does Lam ever feel like he's stuck, does he feel like he's exactly where he's supposed to be or is he haunted by trauma restlessness, that prompts him to always keep moving, metaphorically or otherwise?

Of those three options, I think lam feels stuck more than anything. Although I suppose this might be a common feeling for a lot of people his age ^^’ sans getting screwed over by a friend and feeling guilt over that… in a physical sense, there are times where he feels really heavy and just can’t bring himself to do anything…most of the time that happens after he visits robin and it kinda feels like he can’t get out of his own body since the guilt ( metaphorically ) takes on a physical sensation and paralyzes him….but to go back to feeling stuck, it’s like, he is taking the steps to move forward ( aka with his job and making friends with new people all while figuring out who he is and what he wants out of his relationships ) BUT he also feels like…tethered?? To robin if that makes any sense?? Like, she’s been behind bar for at least two years and in those two years, she hasn’t really…changed aka her sentiments on what has happened, she hasn’t changed her perspective on the situations, those sentiments have only deepened…and so when he visits her it’s almost like unwillingly time traveling to how he was right before the accident….and he really doesn’t want to but also he knows that robin doesn’t have anyone else waiting for her on the other side so…it’s quite the predicament for him here :/

How does Mana feel about her hands, about her skin, can she hold herself? Does she feel comfortable or uncomfortable at the notion of offering herself gentleness?

You know Lena, that’s actually a really good question because most times when I think about gentleness in mana’s case, it’s almost always in the case of how she treats others. THAT BEING SAID, that’s such an accurate observation on your part since a lot of times, I’ve found, people who are harsh with others, typically are pretty harsh with themselves as well…

In the case of mana though, when it comes to her own body, it’s still a process for her to consider her own body as well, a home to live in since for so long, she’s had to see it as purely a means of survival. ( ex. Providing company for mister dinh ). As result of that time, it could be safe to say, even though she was in a safe environment post high school and could have food to eat always, she lived as if she did before….which means, often skipping meals ( or just straight up not being able to eat well bc of her body reject said foods…) and have irregular sleeping hours. It’s not until daniel’s death though when these issues really started to become an issue for her as inadvertent brought up all of the trauma that she had pushed down from before college ( and this includes witnessing her mother’s death ).

To answer your question though, she has begun to acknowledge it more, aka take attempts to…pamper it if that makes any sense as in the past, she was more inclined not necessarily to hurt it, but more of to ignore it aka treat it as a separate entity that she has no real attachment to from herself. As for providing herself with gentleness, again, that’s also a process she’s learning to get use to although a good number of this coarseness that she was giving herself before was pretty subconscious as it took quite some time to realize that yeah, she blamed herself for both her mother’s and daniel’s passings. And as such, she self-sabotaged majorly in the first year following daniel’s passing….

Does K feel as though removed from life as others feel it, does his involvement with so many high-stakes, national affairs and people, make him feel as though he's actually playing a part in getting something done or does he fear being a wheel in this kind of machine, because of the life he can't have due to that?

I think for right now, at least in k’s main verse, from my understand, K is, as you’ve pointed out, very removed and isolated from life as the others might know it and he does that by choice. Even after he gets his revenge, you can see that he still remains by yo-han’s side and while part of it does come from an undying loyalty to the one person who has been by his side all these years, I also see it as because k has isolated himself all these years to follow yo-han, k feels he doesn’t have anything really to live for?? or at least a purpose…of course, it’s a very dangerous lifestyle and since k has fulfilled his goal, he could technically leave yo-han behind for their own safety. HOWEVER, they don’t and honestly, it makes sense to me bc dying is scary, but what’s scarier than that?

Living.

Bonus, Hyurick Pain™ (i'm a huge fan~): Has Patrick and/or Myungdae ever feared as though losing Felicity as he did would make him… inadequate (not a good word, BUT I CAN'T FIND WHAT I MEAN), almost, to love Hyuk? Did he ever fear the world might doubt him capable enough of moving on? Does he trust in love?

HAHAHAHA so this is where I get to nerd about why I love hyurick soooo much ( shoutout to alex @jeoseungsaja for wonderful ship and being a wonderful ship partner ), thank for this opportunity lena to allow me to indulge in hyurick PAIN :’D JFKLSDJFLK

So, this is actually kind of a question/concern I did have any ship that patrick would have following felicity ( and it was one w/ calum post mana’s passing as well ), which is that because felicity is such an integral part of patrick’s backstory and as a result, he will always love felicity…and unfortunately some muns/muses aren’t exactly…okay with that?? like I’ve had some muns who want their muse to be the ONLY one in my muse’s heart, which just isn’t going to happen :/ ANYWAYS, the point is that I knew that if patrick was to get into a romantic ship, there may be the question of ‘does he love this person because they remind him of felicity’ or ‘does he love this person because they’re filling in the void that felicity left behind’. In both of those cases, I know for a fact that patrick ( and calum for that matter ) would NEVER get into a relationship/ship if that was the case.

But that’s one of the biggest reasons I really?? Love hyurick!! because ( and alex feel free to correct me on ANY of this ) it’s not a competition between hyuk and felicity. Hyuk completely respects the place felicity has in patrick’s life ( and as a matter of fact, they were at the very least acquiantances ), understands that patrick will always love her, and would never try to replace her in patrick’s life. I like to think that when she was alive, she probably made like an unspoken promise with hyuk to ‘protect patrick because he’s too busy taking care of everyone else’. Basically, their mutual point is patrick so if one were to perish ( like felicity did ), the other would be there to take care of patrick.

On patrick’s end, again he would never to use hyuk to replace felicity in his heart because hyuk, first of all, is his platonic love, so they’ve already had a very strong bond hyuk?? understands that :’D basically, what I’m trying to say, is that patrick’s romantic feelings for hyuk developed independently from his grief. i also believe I have told alex that after felicity’s second passing, patrick does actually put breaks on the budding relationship between him and hyuk bc it wouldn’t’?? feel right to pursue this relationship while he’s properly grieving felicity’s death 🥲

BUT BUT!! I actually had this shower thought and honestly, this might explain why patrick knows for a fact that his feelings for hyuk are genuine. This was completely unintentional, but when I was developing felicity, she accidentally mirrored hyuk in that they are (were) both lively hotheads who also happened to really like the beach. and with her backstory now set in stone, they both have rough histories when it comes to families. It just might not seem that way initially because by the time felicity met patrick, she had softened a fair bit so some of that temper mellowed more into cheerfulness.

With this in mind, I actually argue that not only does patrick’s relationship with felicity inform how he approaches his romantic relationship with hyuk, but patrick’s friendship with hyuk also informed how he approached his romance with felicity. He was friends with hyuk first and knowing what kind of background hyuk had come from, it allowed him to also approach felicity in the way that would make her feel comfortable once he got the full picture. To summarize, basically he wouldn’t be the person is with either felicity or hyuk if he didn’t have a relationship with the other person :’D

Now for myungdae though- yowza, uh so what happened with felicity is more or less one of the reasons he avoids hyuk like the plague. Because it is partially because he doesn’t want ANACHRON to hurt hyuk the way they did with felicity, however it is also due to an internalized belief that he ultimately ends up hurting the people he cares about inadvertently ( considering that in those five years, there were individuals who did help him and then were killed and/or tortured because they did so ). At this point, moving on isn’t a thought for him because to begin with, he’s not even sure if he’s going to make it out in one point to have the chance to move on :///

#mythvoiced #( meta. )#( headcanons. )#everything changes everybody changes ( answered. )#lena thank you so much?? for asking all of these questions :'DDDD #as u can see...i was not able to shut esp with patrick's questions JFKLSJDFLKSDJFLKJ #i just?? had a lot of thoughts there and could not stop myself :'D #BUT ALSO THESE QUESTIONS ARE SO JUICY AND FUN TO THINK ABOUT AND #I LOVE?? IT?? AND U TOO?? LET ME LEARN HOW TO ASK GREAT QUESTIONS LIKE THESE 🥲🥲🥲#lena gives me so much brain food and it?? is unreal!! 🥹🥹🥹#really making me think about my characters in ways I haven’t considered before 🥲🥲🥲#….where do u get these thoughts GIB ME UR SECRETS 🥺🥺🥺#also hi Alex hope it’s okay that mentioned hyurick otherwise I can take those portions out 😌

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