#that someone broke it up

[skyberia]

i lost myself trying to get you to spit me out

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #cazador szarr #artists on tumblr #drawings #you chewed me up until you finally broke me down.... and you turned me into someone else and i don't recognize myself......... #I DON'T NEED FAITH I NEED OUT!!!!!!!!!!! #i've listened to you're one of us now by movements 50 times over the last 10 hours

[tiredsadpeach]

I am so conflicted

#I had a therapy appointment today and kind of vaguely told her what happened between me and my friend #without letting her know that I feel like my life is empty without him and all that because I’m crazier than she knows #and she told me that if I was uncomfortable I had every right to express that #and I told her that I was really shitty with how I expressed it and so she asked if I had apologized for that and I have and then she said #like yeah I could’ve done it better but my feelings matter and I was uncomfortable so I shouldn’t feel too guilty for lashing out #she compared it to breaking up a fight like there’s lots of ways to do it and sure it could be broken up in a bad way but what matters is #that someone broke it up #and she also like asked what I would do if I was on the other side of the situation #but I’m just conflicted because I don’t like that my fp could be in the wrong I don’t like that #I love my therapist and I know she’s the expert and she’s a damn good therapist but just #he can’t be in the wrong I’m the one that hurt him I’ve done this so often and I told her that and she asked if I had been uncomfortable in #those past situations and like sometimes yeah and sometimes I’m just in a bad headspace and probably self sabotaging but I just idk I can’t #fathom me not being in the wrong here but deep down I know she’s right that he really should be wanting to evalute what made me uncomfortabl #and like try to make things better but I feel like I’ve made him feel like I just don’t care about him or something which is so far from tru #like not knowing if he’s okay right now is tearing me apart and my other friend also stopped talking to me but those two are dating so thats #probably why I knew if one stopped being my friend the other would follow so I only have one friend again I guess but tbh I shouldn’t have #any if I’m just going to do this kind of shit over and over #I also slightly feel set up and that’s the paranoia talking because I tweeted asking how I can be a better friend and clarified that it was #genuine and everything and my three friends told me I was a good friend #and just apparently not and I know it wasn’t a set up but paranoia and stuff says it was and hhh #everything is just so much and December is coming and my next therapy appointment is on me and my fps friendaversary #but also the day that an idol of mine died so that’s so cool #December is the worst month

[morganbritton132]

Eddie, shoving his phone into Steve’s face: Stevie, baby. What’s the wildest thing you’ve done for love?

Steve: Uh… I ditched my childhood best friends for a girl that cheated on me.

Eddie: Was kinda hoping you’d say something about our relationsh- Wait. Steve, you fought a monster. You literally rescued your girlfriend from a monster.

Steve, no big deal: I mean…yeah. I guess. Everybody does that.

#Eddie: uh no. other than you who has ever fought a monster for someone #Steve: you did. for me #eddie munson tiktok saga #steve harrington #eddie munson #also I love Nancy and I know some people say her and Steve broke up before she slept with Jonathan but no they didn’t

[triviallytrue]

There are a subset of polyamorous people online who are kind of annoying about it and insist that it's more natural or monogamy is inherently evil and I do find that kind of gauche and off-putting but

1. This is not at all representative of the poly people I have met in real life, who are literally just doing something that works well for them

2. This is also clearly a defensive response to the overwhelming cultural hegemony of monogamy

Meanwhile the people making memes about polyamory are just being assholes for fun

#i am sorry someone asked for an open relationship once three months before you broke up but that is not a lifetime pass to be a dick

[charlie-artlie]

vanessa and the terrible no good very bad job

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf vanessa #security breach #arts #anytime i think about glamrock shipping i can’t help but also think about their human handlers #i always compare it to like chuck e. cheese #like what if you came into work one day and someone said ‘birdie and mr munch broke up. everyone’s pretty upset don’t bring it up’ #like i’m OBSESSED with it

[microclown]

I've been stuck on viewing Maggie as Crowley's mirror, and for most of the show I like that interpretation. But once I started thinking of Nina as Crowley's Mirror in the ball scene specifically, I made a connection....

Aziraphale is playing God here. He has a vision- a happy romantic evening where people speak Victorian English, dress nicely, dance, and fall in love -and he wills everyone present to conform to his plan. But Nina doesn't conform. Nina feels like something isn't right. She asks questions.

She asks Aziraphale what's going on, why she doesn't feel sad when she knows she's sad, and Aziraphale doesn't give her a satisfactory answer. He tells her that the important thing is that she's here. She's here to play a role in his great plan. To dance in his ball.

So she expresses her concerns to Maggie. Maggie hadn't seen the issues at first, but she listens to Nina, and Nina gets her to acknowledge the absurdity of the situation just a little bit. Listen to their conversation at the dance again. It sounds SO MUCH like the conversations we've heard Crowley and Aziraphale have a thousand times during their 6000 year dance. Crowley calling out heaven, asking questions, trying to get Aziraphale to consider the absurdity of it all. Aziraphale mostly defending heaven, but listening, and sometimes acquiescing.

And this all falls in line with a point I've made before - In season 2, Crowley's relationship with Aziraphale begins to mirror his relationship with heaven. Aziraphale shows a pattern of not listening to Crowley the whole season, but especially in this scene. Crowley tries to ask him what is going on, and alert him to very real danger, but Aziraphale is dismissive. He is blinded by his desire to see his plan to fruition.

And just so we're clear, this is not an Aziraphale hate post. Rather, I think it might give us some insight into where God is coming from. Because Aziraphale's actions may be dismissive and controlling, but they are motivated by love. Misguided, certainly, but with all the best intentions. I have a feeling, when we finally meet God, it will be a similar story. And maybe both She and Aziraphale will learn that sometimes to love means to let go.

#keeping this post short because if I think about it too much I'm going to make myself sick #like how Maggie and Nina's conversation happens while dancing #and aziraphale and crowley have been having that same conversation and doing the same dance for 6000 years #it's so romantic and heartbreaking and poetic I think I might actually die #Also... think about how Lindsey broke up with Nina right before this scene #kind of like how heaven broke up with Crowley before the earth began fuck fuck fuk #and then Crowley yells at Nina to trust someone for once in her life like... #he knows nothing about her he's projecting SO HARD #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #gos2 #good omens meta #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #aziraphale x crowley #crowley #crowley x arizaphale #aziracrow #neil gaiman #go2 #maggie and nina #reposting slightly edited because I made a mistake the first time #thank you @tip-top-tickety-boo for pointing it out!

[little-pondhead]

Rick Astley Is Haunting You

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Someone bets Tucker he can’t hack into a hero’s patrol playlist and sneak a Rick Roll in there. He does, easily, and finds that said hero has horrible music taste.

So he sets out to hijack every hero’s music playlist he can find and rate their music tastes on a chart, sometimes adding in his own music or joke songs he thinks they’d like. It only gets back to the heroes when Tucker posts a video with his rankings. Up until then, they thought it was another hero or new villain messing with them. Not a civilian??

(Nightwing’s playlist is sixth on the list, and he’s furious about it.)

#dpxdc #pondhead blurbs #tucker just putting new music on playlists and judging superheroes #they hate it #someone pissed Danny off and Tucker hacked into their shit and played the baby shark song for three hours #i queued this #y’all ever try to take a day off and your manager straight up tells you that you can’t #because everyone ELSE is taking that day off? #anyways in other news I broke a glass because I did not have the time to recover from last week 🥂 #honestly if it was the main manager working today I would have insisted that I need today off but it wasn’t #and I’m not gonna do that to the manager who was on shift because that girl gets put through enough stress #so by the time you see this assume I’m already in a coffin

[not-a-snowman]

I find it funny how whenever Trevor does something violent or angry it immediately cuts to him in the documentary being like:

“Haha yeah, I’m not normally like that (I mean c’mon, just look at me) in my defense I was under a LOT of stress at the moment”

Like buddy, you were unbelievably composed despite the situation. After the day you had, I’d be CONCERNED if this didn’t end with you informing the audience to leave you the fuck alone, that’s the SANE and measured reaction.

Like in your shoes, I probably would’ve murdered Vivian Walton live on tv. 

#American Arcadia #i love Vivian #But that will not be enough to save her #Also I swear if they keep running “Escape from Arcadia” this way #One of the cast members IS going to end up killed #Trevor is the mildest man and he still broke someone’s leg #Committed assault #And drove a car through a building #Had Angela been in his place someone would be dead

[naturecalls111]

Me, consuming any other media ever: how can I make this about zosan

#nc111 talks #zosan #this is about me playing fe3h for the eighteen billionth time and finding little delusional concepts in sylvix that makes me go #'nod nod nod that's so zosan of them so true' #like objectively it really isn't zosan of them at all but sometimes I see it between the lines and I'm like oh zosan sunglasses emoji #if you dare me i can even find the lawlu in sylvix im so talented #I'm not even kidding if someone made a game out of turning things into zosan i would never lose #i had an ant infestation in my bathroom the other day and I made it about zosan #my brother was like WE HAVE BIGGER ISSUES THAN YOUR YAOI RIGHT NOW #like........ there is no bigger issue than my yaoi at any given moment.....ever.......... #whispers although I have to admit I enjoy the sylvix dynamic more than i do the zosa- *gets shot* #im so sorry there's just only so much bickering i can take before i'm like *smacks ship* I NEED YOU TO BE MORE BLATANTLY KIND TO EACH OTHER #In a way that doesn't feel so teeth-gritty or. well. OOC. LOL #Anyone who likes sylvix AND zosan will know what i mean I'm not going to explain it. iykyk #WAIT LMAO IM NOT DONE. EDIT: #when my first boyfriend broke up with me i was a melodramatic little shit about it #had a diary that i would like pour my heart into and the other day i came across it #and it's really telling that my first thought was “omg.... so zosan-” LIKE GIRL GET A GRIP YOU ARE DETACHING FROM REALITY #all for zosan CRIES ALL FOR ZOSAN...

[honeyspawn]

I firmly believe that in no timeline is Paul Matthews Emma Perkins' "boyfriend". Whenever she decides it's time to start using labels, she proposes.

#she literally introduced him to her family before she wanted to label the relationship #but tbh i think it makes sense with her character #last time she broke up with someone it was because he wanted to get married #so she probably thought that pushing off labeling would take the pressure off getting married #until oops she realizes she really likes him and wants to spend the rest of her life with him? #it just feels correct for emma #starkid #team starkid #tgwdlm #black friday #npmd #emma perkins #paul matthews #hatchetfield

[softpine]

i can’t get it right since i met you when will this loneliness be over?

[transcript]

#once again matt tries to solve his problems by buying someone a stuffed animal fjksjds maybe it will work for him someday #kind of a random post but i couldn't find a better place to stick it #fun fact i'm such a slow storyteller that in a few days it will be an entire real life year since matt and stevie broke up... #camellia #frozen pines #stevie donovan #matt

[friendofgeorgeharrison]

George Harrison's letter to Bob Dylan, 30th October 1988 (x)

from Bob Dylan: Mixing up the Medicine, with pieces of the Bob Dylan Archive and The Bob Dylan Center in Tulsa, Oklahoma

#george harrison #bob dylan #traveling wilburys #he loved him so so much #and the reference to tangled up in blue #“it was great being in the band with you” #“and you were generous in being a wilbury!” #“i hope it was not too embarrassing for you” #“maybe we will meet again on the avenue” #it's like this quote where george doubts if he's a good friend to him #but i can just feel the love pouring out from him #i broke down when i saw this and im still crying #someone please buy that new book that's where from all the recent letters are coming from #buy steal or pirate it idc #george and bob #geo letter #geo handwriting #*mine

[evilkaeya]

Morpheus who goes from “how dare you suggest that I, dream of the endless, ruler of the nightmare realm, need your companionship?” to “Lucienne, meet my beloved, my boyfriend, my lover, the one who bears the key to my heart- Hob Gadling” 

god I love dreamling so much.

#you can't tell me dream doesn't giggle every time he has to introduce hob to someone as his boyfriend #he probably repeats the word in his head when he's alone and smiles to himself like the lovesick fool that he is #also i know dream didn't tell hob who he was when they broke up ok #I just added that in for the dramatic effect #dreamling #dream of the endless #morpheus #the sandman #hob gadling

[dnd-smash-pass-vs]

Inevitable been thinking about how that one anon viewed Laios as a monsterfucker, and I think it made me realize the source of that confusion:

I think many monsterfuckers, and also many (dare I say most) monster devourers like Laios, both derive their desire from the same source: a latent wish for apoteratosis, the wish to become a monster.

Linguistic side note: apotheosis, becoming a god, breaks down to apo- (towards the end point), theo (god), -osis (turn noun into verb), so I swapped in the root for monster, hence apo- terato -osis. Side note over.

Monster devourers are a rather rare archetype in (mainstream) fiction, but they do exist. Those who seek to mimic or emulate the monster's power, those who find them endlessly fascinating and study them well past the point of obsession, those who wish to show their dominance over the monster by proving that they can kill and eat it... and I think Laios is the first I've seen who takes the title quite so literally, where his obsession goes straight to monsters-as-food.

Monsterfuckers, meanwhile wish to become close to the monster in a non destructive way (or at least a typically less destructive one, usually the only casualties are furniture and few bandages are needed, but I'll acknowledge that exceptions definitely exist). They wish to bond with it, to connect to it through lust or intimacy, to be able to stand at its side. They wish, on some level, to join it. Side note, I'm not saying this is true of all teratophiles, some are just kinky and driven by the thought of positive physical pleasure, or who find the personality of a given monster appealing, but I do think the apoteratotic desire is an underlying driver for many, I'd guess well more than half, it's just a subtle enough thing that I don't think most are consciously aware of it.

There's also a third point to the secret apoteratosis triangle that might surprise you: the monster slayer. Sure many, even most, slayers are driven by something like disgust or xenophobia or even rationality, but a significant minority land in the "if you can't join 'em, beat 'em" a.k.a. "I can't be you, so I'll destroy you" camp.

And these three reactions are, I notice, the three most common reactions that people have to one thing: the unattainable desire. The sentence begins "I cannot have it..." and these three camps end it different ways.

The teratophages say "so I shall dominate it." They seek what power they can grasp so they can have some modicum of control, so they can try to "have" it anyway. The kaiju corpse scavengers in Pacific Rim including refined and suave mob boss types just smacks of this attitude.

The teratophiles say "so I'll get as close as I can." There's a werewolf romance book where they're considering trying to turn the girlfriend, though they have no idea if she'll survive it (boyfriend was turned by accident then abandoned, so he's clueless, and they haven't found any others to teach them), and she says that she's fine remaining human, because she shares the power through him. "I have it, because you have it." The façade eventually breaks and in a vulnerable moment she confesses that she'd be willing to risk even a likely death to try to be turned. When they get in contact with an elder who can turn her safely she doesn't even wait a week.

The teratophobes write that whole sentence as "if I can't have it, then no one can." I'm sure everyone has seen enough examples of this behavior to understand that it's just a kind of love turned corrupt.

I'm not the first to notice the underlying apoteratotic urge: the aforementioned werewolf story, indeed many werewolf and vampire stories romanticize the transformation of a human into a monster. Back to Dungeon Meshi, author Ryōko Kui is fully aware of it with how Laios's underlying desire is eventually brought out of the subtext and explicitly named as his dysphoria with humanity, and his wishing that he could be a monster. For Laios that desire skipped right past the socially unacceptable monsterfucking, explicitly a form of bestiality in that world, to the socially acceptable devouring, though tempered by his respect and admiration of monsters into a desire for symbiosis with them. He cannot become one in truth (or so he thought when younger) but he could become part of their food web. It's as close as he thought he could get. Of course, that's the Watsonian explanation; the Doylist explanation is that Ryōko Kui wanted to subvert expectations, and also wanted to explore this angle of it.

So, all taken together, I think people read Laios as monsterfucker coded simply because teratophiles, teratophages, and teratophobes all share the same root motivation: apoteratosis. Thus, all three branches are coded very similarly.

It's similar to something I've seen in Batman fandom: some fans project romantic love between various members of the Batfamily, which is both wildly against canon and thoroughly hated by some other branches of fandom. But it is understandable, since familial love and romantic love both come from the same root, love of another. If someone doesn't recognize the simultaneous similarities and distinctions, it's all to easy to conflate them. If you don't actually understand the distinction, then the signs of affection between siblings might look the same as the signs of affection between lovers. Likewise, if you don't understand the distinction, the urge of the monster devourers (or ecologists) might look the same as the urge of the monster fucker.

I've sat on this for near a month, partially because of my repeated absences, partially because I wanted to honor it with an equally in-depth response. But 24 days later I've still got nothing, while I can't speak for that particular person I think in general you hit the nail right on the head for the base roots. I got no notes. Even with Laios...like all I can add is how supplemental materials actually confirm he did want to be a monster researcher but found books too dry, the only one who seemed to really *get* monsters was shunned. and how wild he goes when talking with an actual werewolf, "The existence I thought unobtainable is now right in front of me".

#even that last part. like as someone who got married only for us to realize that we may have the wrong kind of love #then broke up but stayed good friends and roommates but throughly not attracted to each other. #yeeeeeeah. #not tournament #answers

[ingravinoveritas]

How did u feel with the age gap question was it pr or do u really think he meant it and this was the truth

This is referring to the question asked on The Assembly last night. I'll post the clip here, for those who haven't seen it yet:

A lot of what I felt while watching this was touched on in this incredibly thoughtful post from @body-face-words, so I encourage folks to give that a read. But I think for me, when it comes to Michael's answer, it's not a matter of whether he lied or told the truth. It's that his response was sweet, but it was also a version of the truth that sounded convincing because it needed to, because this was not a time or place where he could say what he actually felt.

I'm really not sure what people expected him to say, in all honesty, as he was never going to say anything that would make him or Anna look bad, and especially not anything that could potentially negatively impact the kids, so he instead gave a very perfect PR answer. This again does not come as a surprise because we know Michael has scripted his answers about AL/their relationship in the past, but I noticed how careful he was in his response, which seems to contrast with how off-the-cuff he normally is when discussing every other subject. Part of what so many of us love about Michael is how unfiltered he is and always has been, with the exception of how much he filters and edits himself when talking about Anna.

It also seemed like, at least from my perspective, that Michael answered the question without answering the question. What the girl asked wasn't so much about the age gap, but about AL being five years older than Michael's daughter Lily, and it would've been a perfect opportunity for him to mention her, or how the relationship with AL affected his and Lily's relationship. He could've talked about the falling out he had with her (and Kate) in 2019 once AL's existence/pregnancy came to light, and what has happened in the years since, or how Lily now gets along with Anna/her half-sisters. But instead Michael deflected from all of that and talked about everything while saying nothing at the same time.

It was also the things Michael didn't say that stood out as much as the things he did. In the entire answer to the question, Michael never once used the word "love." Prior to the show airing, I saw a lot of people online confident that he would say that he loves Anna, but he never did. He never praised her, never talked about the things he loves about her, or how glad he is to be with her. He never once mentioned her by name. The pivot and focus was on the kids, and there was a clear distinction made between how happy he is to have the family he does, rather than to be in the relationship that he is in. Michael's use of the phrase "very happy" was also identical to the wording of a comment AL wrote on Instagram the other day, which added to the whole "reinforcing a public narrative" feeling of his response.

I think what struck me most of all, though, was how somber and heavyhearted Michael sounded while saying how happy he is. It reminded me of the song "I Am a Rock" by Simon & Garfunkel, where the upbeat and cheerful music contrasts starkly with the fraught, angry lyrics. There was no sparkle in Michael's eyes when he said it, no enthusiasm for what he was saying (which is particularly jarring when we know Michael has the capacity for incredible enthusiasm), and his face never lit up while he was talking.

There was one specific moment (which is also highlighted in the body language post) where he seemed to visibly wince and the micro-expressions were in overdrive, and it immediately made me think of a moment from Good Omens:

Time and again, I have seen fans talk about Michael's micro-expressions as an actor and how he uses them to such devastating effect (especially in the role of Aziraphale). And while these two moments are not completely identical, the idea of ignoring how Michael uses those same micro-expressions in real life makes no sense to me at all. In this instance, what we're seeing could be either because he has put so much of himself into Aziraphale that we can now recognize those "Michael" moments...or it could be because in both clips he is performing, albeit for different reasons.

The difference between Michael when he is doing this vs. when he is being genuinely himself is made even more apparent by the question immediately following this one. Unprompted, he brings up David, and the change in his expression and demeanor is swift and dramatic:

Having the mention of David happen so soon after the AL question seemed to highlight so many things. I can't help but feel that David is a security blanket for Michael, something he hides behind when he is feeling anxious or sad or overwhelmed. I wondered if perhaps he was even already thinking of David while answering the AL question, which would explain why he named him so readily--as if his mind needed to drift to someplace else just to finish answering that question.

To me, this made it abundantly clear that David is Michael's safe place. Here was where we saw Michael's eyes sparkling. Here was where we saw him light up from the inside. And it was David he kept returning to and bringing up during the rest of the show in response to other questions. So if that doesn't speak volumes about where Michael's heart seems to be, I'm not sure what does.

So yes, those are my thoughts on Michael answering the age gap question on The Assembly. As always, this is just my interpretation, but I am glad to hear from my followers with your take as well. Thanks for writing in! x

#angel19924 #reply post #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #the assembly #michael is a talented actor #but he can't hide his true feelings as himself #the only other time AL came up as well was when one of the interviewers said his mother likes Michael #and Michael said 'Don't tell Anna' as mirthlessly as possible #also the way he talked about being afraid of being alone broke my heart #it made me think of how you can be with someone and still feel totally alone #but i will leave it to my followers to make up their own minds #i'm feeling a lot of feelings #and will soon answer another Ask I have waiting about the show #anna lundberg #relationships #discourse #gifs by me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Late Night Talking

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#poorly drawn mdzs #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #This scene had massive 'we are the only two people still up at the sleepover' energy #thought let me set the record straight; wwx doesn't open up in the scene. He fully deflects #Nor does LWJ play with ants B*( #I wanted to merge the two scenes a bit that's all #My OG script was a bit funnier but it broke continuity so rip (i.e: wwx outright stated 'remember when YOU...' in reference to the ants) #also rip to lwj saying 'hey U up?' like he's texting his crush. I hope the spirit is still there #We all know lwj sticks to his 9pm bedtime no matter what #and wouldn't be traditionally texting on a cellphone #He wakes up at 4:30 am to go for a run #gets home at 5:30 to use the lan household computer to go on his shared google doc with wwx and comments 'are you still awake?' #cause lets me real. wwx might also keep a steady sleep schedule but at least he *can* pull an all-nighter #Can you imagine lwj at a sleepover? I admit to being the kid who went to bed and woke up 3-4 hours before the others #you either get fed up and wake someone else up for enrichment - or plan ahead to bring a book - or Walk Home #I fully missed out on all that deep heart to heart stuff. I usually was the one to go 'guysssss we are gonna get in troubleeee go to sleep' #wait this is too much sleepover talk I need to talk about wwx in the last panel. It's a mix of panic and pride. #He's just at the beginning of realizing this guy has changed a lot in 13 years #gonna be a while before more comic pages get posted but they're ready to go in the queue! #(I'm still posting other stuff daily though!)