#they're right though bc she actually needs therapy

[because-its-so-sharp]

Them: Azula doesn't deserve redemption

Me:

#atla #atla avatar #azula #azula redemption #azula recovery #they're right though bc she actually needs therapy

[madesofgold]

Don't you wanna live far away from your family and their expectations sometimes and just start a new life?

#i feel so suffocated by my mother #she always gets herself involved in my business and crosses boundaries bc she just can't help herself #and she gets to do it bc i'm home most of the time even tho i have my own apartment but that's also not far away enough #and she still doesn't understand no and how to let me live my own life and she doesn't have to do everything for me #and everyone else i also want to please but i'm also sick of it and even tho they all mean well and they all just want things to go well #i feel so pressured by it and i just wanna get away from them all #but no wonder they all feel so invested in my life bc we're close and i spend a lot of time with my mum and grandparents and 'step dad' #and that's nice and i'm glad we're close and i wanna be but at the same time it means they sometimes just care too much #i guess i shouldn't complain about that like it's a bad thing but it just feels suffocating sometimes #and i don't want to live my life so that they're not disappointed in me and worry about me and so they're satisfied #i've been having the wish to move to another city or country for a while now and i honestly think it would be good for me #and especially me and my mama so that she cannot always get involved and has to accept that she can't control all things #and always try to 'help me'. i'm almost 25 like i need to learn how to live without my mother always being there #and god the urge to move somewhere else is so strong right now #i wish it was that easy to just be able to do it but i'm also anxious and scared and nothing is certain in my life rn #i just want a change though #sorry tumblr i had to let it out somewhere and i don't have therapy right now where i can actually talk about stuff #which maybe i should think about doing again #rambles

[isa-ghost]

returned to ask for the chayanne and phil headcanons

[reverb] CHAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANE

qPhil headcanons masterlist

DO NOT FORGET CHAYANNE'S ROOTS OF STANDING ON THE VERY EDGE OF THE WALL DAY 1. This little motherfucker unlimited lives to give his papa a heart attack!! It is his fucking pleasure to be a menace!!

I've ranted about this before (can't find my post abt it) but PHIL DOESN'T REALIZE THE THINGS HE'S TEACHING HIS SON ARE UNHEALTHY FLAWS. THE BEING STRONG ALL THE TIME AND PROTECTING EVERYONE ALWAYS AND WHATNOT. HE DOESN'T REALIZE HOW DAMAGING IT CAN BE. STOP BAD DAD TRUTHING HIM, HE'S PASSING ON WHAT HE THINKS IS RIGHT BECAUSE THAT IDIOT EXISTS THAT WAY HIMSELF. GOD. THEY BOTH NEED THERAPY.

Chayanne is in kahoots with Tallulah to convince Phil to do a hardcore project level build someday

They love sparring with each other so much. Phil loves giving his son tips and seeing him rapidly catch on & improve and Chayanne loves to see his dad in his element and thriving

Crow brain says Oh It's Orange? Okay, Gift For Chayanne Yesyes

Chayanne is the king of well-timed Orange Justices and they always crack Phil up

Phil has no idea but Chayanne is trying so hard to set things up so Missa has a perfect and uninterrupted opportunity to confess his feelings. Chayanne's happy regardless of if they stay platonic or go romantic but he at least wants his papa to get the chance to communicate with his dad

Sometimes Chayanne misses 1 on 1 time with Phil. It's nothing against Tallulah (she actually Also desires 1 on 1 dad time), he just aches for the nostalgia of the early days. Phil taking him places and teaching him how to survive, the pleasant quiet and less tension. It's easier on Phil when he isn't watching two kids

The only reason Phil eats 3 square meals a day consistently is bc Chayanne exists. Btw Chayanne also loves making him snacks

He thrives on asking Phil wildly out of pocket questions. Like "where do babies come from" but more creative, less overdone. "What happens when we die?" type shit, things that make Phil do a double take and have a mini crisis

Chayanne wants to play irl fruit ninja with Phil but Phil hasn't been convinced to try it yet. (It IS working slowly tho)

Phil's lame dad jokes don't always kill Chayanne like they do Tallulah so sometimes he resorts to low blows: Little German Boy memes

Sometimes Phil gets chased around the house with a spatula bc he's being a little shit or a self-deprecating idiot while Chayanne so happens to be cooking

They do something special together on Techno's birthday to honor him. There's no set activity/event they do, it's just whatever feels right and most genuine at the time. Chayanne always makes a big potato-based dish to offer on a little ofrenda though

They're both kinda playing the I Pretend I Do Not See It game with the whole,, Chayanne fighting Phil (EK) thing. "Ah yes you were fighting Ender King physically, not at all him in my body, I wasn't involved at all, you weren't hurting your dad's body and I wasn't trying to kill my son not at all haha yep, neither of us are at all fucked up about it what do you mean" 🥚🐤 🤝🏻 😁🐦‍⬛

#qsmp #qsmp philza #philza #q!philza #qsmp chayanne #chayanne the egg #qphil headcanons

[vole-mon-amour]

3x11, part 2, RJK edition.

oh my god, just make out already, you two. Jamie is so fucking sad, who fucking hurt him, I wanna hurt them back.

Jamie is on the verge of tears, can't Roy fucking see it??? LOOK INTO HIS EYES AND SEE IT.

That is probably the most mature and concerned reaction I've ever seen from Roy towards Jamie. Like when he hugged him in s2, it was great. But here he's actually trying to TALK about it. He's genuinely concerned and interested in what's going on.

EMMY WINNER PHIL DUNSTER WHEN?????? Jfc. Just hug the boy, Roy.

;_____; Sharing trauma aka I've been thrown into Sunflowers and Amsterdam again. BEST FRIENDS.

Ok. This is ok. I'm okay. There was a glimpse where the kiss could've happened and Jamie could've continued wailing and it would WORK. Roy wouldn't even say a thing bc Jamie is a mess and it might now mean anything, and if it did, they can talk about it later.

Anyway. Jamie going in for a hug FIRST bc he trust Roy and he feels safe around him and he feels okay about physical intimacy and being vulnerable with him now. I wanted my hug & I guess this is the closest I can get to that one in 2x06. And with Jamie crying again. Ohhh my god.

The poor boy needs a vacation with both Roy and Keeley (and a lot of sex and love from them). I'd say RoyJamie only, but it's more likely at this point that ot3 happens instead of otp.

Well, it's close to Will walking in on Roy and Jamie kissing. Almost.

I'm fucking staying here. I don't need anyone else. I'm staying here and going down with this ship. Jamie full on can do whatever he wants at this moment & Roy would probably allow him. The hands interlinked on Roy's back, Jamie's head going from Roy's shoulder into the crook of Roy's neck. They really are best friends. Jamie feels so comfortable and safe with him. Putty in his hands, huh?

And I can't fucking keep quiet about Phil pulling this off. Like... MY GOODNESS, GIVE HIM ALL THE FUCKING AWARDS. It makes me sad but at the same time I can't stop laughing, and I'm sure this was the intention. Bc this dramatic wailing is truly something.

At the same time, "I can't sleep, and I can't eat" is a serious sign of depression or at least a serious burnout. Get Jamie a therapist and some quality time break from all the stress.

"Jamie is a mess & I gotta help him."

Keeley is so excited she gets to help Roy with Jamie. This is very ot3 of you. I gotta say though, Roy has to learn how to talk and communicate. It's all fun and all, the idea of when there's a miscommunication or Roy unable to go to emotional depths, but it's really important. In the previous ep he watched Jamie and came up with the right words for Keeley. In here he went to Keeley so she could help him with Jamie. I see a pattern, but I'd love Roy to act on it. Saw Keeley maybe, came up with the right words, knew how to act with Jamie, went back to help.

But then I expect both of them to go back to Jamie and help, so also very ot3 of them.

Jamie and his rings. Jamie being so many fans fav player. Jesus, I love this kid so. fucking. much. Get him into therapy again, please.

"How's he doing?" "Fucking hell." "I'll talk to him."

For a show that gives so many queer references, it would be weird if they were queerbaiting us tbh. It's possible, but it's still weird, especially with so many queer characters.

For the reference.

IF NOT OT3, THEN WHY THIS. They're gonna drive me insane.

#natiswatching #ted lasso #roy x jamie #roy x jamie x keeley

[snove101]

What're your hc's for Lab Rats?

oh my god bestie i'm so glad you asked 💥💥

silly hcs<3 a handful of them are probably inspired by others hcs or what ive read in fanfics :,)🫶

chase

• he/him bi transman

• the tism

• spike is,,,, still an issue

• eczema !!! lactose intolerance !!! a lot of natural inconveniencing things that you'd expect to be “removed” or smth from a bionic superhuman experiment. he's pissed abt it

• the tism (again)

• tied bree’s and adam’s shoes when he was a little kid because he was the first one to learn how to do it. he still ties adams shoes on occasion

• family therapist; desperately needs therapy

- send this boy to therapy please

• lots of insecurity based around his position as mission leader

• lots of insecurity in general this guy's a mess

• praise makes him feel all bubbly and 📳 inside /nx

- /x too

• absolutely did top surgery on himself. he doesn't talk about it bc of how,,, messy and frustrating it was

• trust issues that definitely did not stem from his paternal figure (lie)

• him and tasha are like 🤞🤞 besides adam and bree, she's the only person he's like,, emotionally vulnerable with

bree

• she/her bi fem leaning

• thought she was straight for like,, majority of her life so she'd throw herself at any boy within running distance

- kissed a girl Once at a sleepover and realized Oh I Can Like Girls 🏳️‍🌈

• adhd inattentive type !!!!! went undiagnosed until the academy days even though chase was like “r u sure you don't have adhd” every other month since middle school

• moderately popular on tiktok before the world knew about their bionics

-she includes adam and chase on occasion and ppl will ask who the cute boys are. she answers w what cute boys:)?

-she's made chase be her cameraman sm times (he doesn't mind it)

• SHE AND TASHA HAVE THE SWEETEST MOTHER DAUGHTER RELATIONSHIP I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

• down bad so easily it's embarrassing

• she's a little rat bastard on occasion. a little asshole as a treat

• the first person chase came out to as bi And trans 💥🫶

• protective of her family 💥💥💥 do Not fuck with them

• daddy's girl (we knew this)

adam

• he/him unlabeled !!! pansexuality is probably the most accurate for him but if anyone asks he just says queer and leaves

• stereotypical adhd. chase diagnosed him when they were kids and donald was like yeah sounds abt right then ignored treatment

• MOMMAS BOY 💥💥💥💥💥 (we also knew this)

-tasha actually trusts him a lot,,, mostly with things that aren't fragile/glass

• went to the taylor swift eras tour with bree

-he cried

• if he can respond to text in emojis he will. mostly w 💪😟⁉️💥

• protective of his family like bree but he Will fuck you up if you mess with them

•his eyesight really deteriorated after years of not quite honing his eye lasers so the man has glasses:) transition lenses bc he thinks they're cool as fuck

• he forgets chase is trans and doesn't recognize the severity of the girly insults

- chase thinks it's funny

• he doesn't know how to film tiktoks so he makes chase help him (again he doesn't mind it)

• he likes fnaf:)

#lab rats #chase davenport #bree davenport #adam davenport #headcanon #lab rats headcanons #snove writes:) #ty for asking i think abt these silly guys constantly #asks

[princess-of-the-corner]

I mean, discounting everything that lead up to and happened in Kuro Neko as Maribug telling Adrichat to fuck off bc she doesn't need him is a super one sided and kinda disingenuous look at it.

All of Maribugs choices are stemming from her trauma. Trauma from heroing in general, from events like Chat Blanc in specific that make her wary of her own partner, and the trauma Fu accidentally passed onto her with both his own paranoia and sacrificing himself right in front of her.

Just like all of Adrichats choices, to hide his actual feelings for the sake of someone who's love he's been taught he has to earn, are stemming from the trauma he got from the massively abusive childhood his parents subjected him to.

Trauma isn't logical, or rational, so of course neither of these unsupervised fourteen year olds with the weight of an entire city on their shoulders are making logical or rational decisions.

And bc their issues match up in just the wrong way, Maribug losing her mentor and getting a butt load more responsibility dumped solely in her lap by said mentor who taught her not to trust her partner drop kicked her into a spiral that she unintentionally dragged Adrichat into by virtue of them being partners and working so closely together.

Maribug became Guardian out of nowhere, due to a tragic event she held herself responsible for. She'd been taught for an unknown amount of time, but presumably a few months, by a man who had more than a century to get stuck within a paranoid rut, and trauma specifically centered around her partner gaining information.

So when even more responsibility is dumped on her and her alone by her paranoid mentor, she's been primed for months to lean away from the partner who she should have been taught to trust and who should have been treated like her equal by their mentor from the start.

And Maribug leaning away from him unknowingly triggered Adrichat's own issues. He felt unheard and unnecessary as a hero and partner, just like he commonly felt at home with his parents abusive parenting styles, but bc he's been trained his whole life to bottle up his issues and be seen and not heard, that's what he tries to do with Ladybug.

And even though the actions Adrichat takes are more passive and quiet, verses Maribugs more active ones, they do just as much to aggravate both of their issues even further.

Maribug can't change her harmful behaviors if Adrichat is actively bottling up and hiding the pain she's causing from her, which meant she just pulled away from him even more without realizing how she was making him feel until he just quit, possibly seeming to her like it was a bit out of the blue, and actively adding onto the massive workload she's already been saddled with.

And these aren't issued that either of them should be expected to somehow get a handle on and get over and fix all by themselves at the age of fourteen.

Honestly Adrichat and Maribug just need one single, solitary adult in their lives who gives a shit about them and actually teach them to communicate and also get them into therapy.

Anyway, tl;dr, fuck the Guardians and Su Han in particular bc so much of this stems from their abusive ways of teaching that kicked off literally everything in the series and started the cycle of paranoia Maribug (and by extension everyone in her life, hero or civilian) is the latest victim of

Oh yeah no it's.

I totally get why they're both like that and don't think she was doing it just callously.

It's. It's basically how I write the Chloé/Sabrina cycle Up of trauma in HC/LL. They're a match made in hell because their trauma responses feed into one another.

Marinette's trauma response is to clam up and take on all responsibility herself, shoving away anyone who wants to help. Adrien's trauma response is to pretend things are fine and do whatever he can to please the people he cares about.

Which means that unless acted on by a third party, they're going to keep circling and getting worse

[hiddenbeks]

alone, desire & failure for the oc u really want to talk abt :3

not-so-nice oc asks

ooh well since we're touching on the topic of failure i gotta talk abt ultimate failgirl fereldan turnip champion of kirkwall hottest apostate in town aka frida! also she's my only dragon age gal whose tag is still empty and this is a great opportunity to change that

alone: how does your oc deal with loneliness? have they ever been completely alone before? how do they act when there's no one around to see them?

frida deals with loneliness by seeking company! she's used to always having at least a few people around and she would prefer not to be alone with her own thoughts so. she'll hit up her friends and/or go to the hanged man for a fun evening to avoid this :) if there's no one around to see her it means her energy is totally depleted and that's when she's at her. rawest and most bare? she might cry for an hour in total solitude or just lie in bed staring at nothing or do something else she'd never let anyone else witness. she is so used to putting up a strong and fun and unshakeable front for others!! alone time is for letting all her emotions out unfiltered oof

desire: what's one thing your oc wants more than anything in the world? are they open with that desire? why or why not? what would they do to fulfill it?

she's a simple gal. she just wants to live her life freely and be happy and make sure her loved ones are happy...

...until she arrives in kirkwall and gets to know the kirkwall crew and starts hanging out and discussing mage freedom with anders and merrill and learns about the conditions in the gallows... as years go by she starts desiring. bigger things. it's not enough that she and her friends are free - she wants total liberation and while she doesn't go around the gallows yelling 'fuck meredith' she doesn't hide her views either. after becoming the champion she becomes much more open about this because what are they gonna do? arrest the beloved savior of kirkwall lol?? and if it takes blowing up a chantry and starting a revolt to achieve total liberation then so be it.

she's not actually involved in the blowing up of the chantry tho (beyond distracting elthina as you do in-game) bc anders keeps her in the dark but. at that point she would've helped if he'd asked. in fact she would've done it in his stead because just as anders says 'i didn't want it to be connected to you' or something along those lines frida would also have wanted to shield her friend at the cost of her own safety. because that's what she does. she needs therapy.

failure: what's your oc's greatest failure? have they been able to move past it? does anyone else know about it?

ok so when i call her failgirl i don't mean it in a 'fails at everything she does' way. she succeeds in many things! but all her achievements in kirkwall are overshadowed by her losses that she sees as failures on her part. most people don't see it that way because they don't know about her personal life, they just know she saved kirkwall! she fights for the mages! she's a hero of the common people whoo!! the companions of course know about most of her losses as they're right there to witness them and even if she doesn't open up about her troubles they Know she is tormented

but anyway uh. her greatest failure is basically not being able to do what she set out to do in the first place which was protecting her family! bethany dies when they're fleeing ferelden (she shouldn't have let her run off like that!), carver catches the taint and frida dooms him to a slow death as a grey warden (she should've told him to stay in the city!!) and then leandra is killed (she should've been more alert!!!). she blames aveline as well for the last one though. as is her right because holy shit aveline you're bad at your job! also frida is getting tired of internalizing it all so she starts taking her anger and exhaustion and disappointment out on others. mainly aveline. they have a weird can't-stand-her-ass-but-i-need-someone-to-fight-with kind of relationship. idk.

she also believes she failed as a big sister to carver by not bonding with him as much as she did with bethany when they were younger and like. she still struggles to understand him... see things from his point of view... they never get to have a true heart to heart about their Issues before she sends carver away to join the wardens and after that they barely see each other anymore and hhhhh

at first it feels like she'll never be able to move past her failures. she simply distracts herself from all the sorrow by keeping busy but as years go by she eventually... grows around it... there are still people to care about and causes to fight for and she is still needed and wanted and she slowly realizes that she needs to move on? and stay in the present and work for a better future. i'm starting to sound so sappy lmao but my point is!!!! she will eventually make peace with it all. even though it takes a long time. (she gets to have a heart to heart with carver too because i love these two and want healing for them!!)

#inbox #ch: frida #da2 is so tragic. sigh. i love it #also wow did i really write 4 paragraphs of text for that last one #forgive me i have can't write concisely disease and also can't stay on point disease 😔 #anyway. she really needs to chill. someone needs to grab her face n tell her to stop trying to be everyone's hero and savior all the time 😔 #oldest sibling complex amped up to eleven babey!! #anywayyyyy thanks for the ask red <333

[narcissusbrokenmirror]

Uh i already talked abt time travel jatp fanfic BUT i wanna do it again i love it.

Check it out. Nick hands out a book to Julie that belonged to Caleb with spells in it. Including a time travel one. she decides to use to come back in time to stop Bobby from becoming Trevor Wilson or convince him to give Sunset Curve the credit for their songs, so Luke's parents will know his dream was worth it, Alex's parents will regret rejecting their son and Reggie's parent will get a ton of money they can get in a fund to Steve's college fund. As the boys agree, they use her phone as a catalyst/portal.

They come back in time bc Julie is gonna need guidance, time for shenanigans as people making fun of julie bc of the way she dresses, the boys handing out each one a piece of clothing for her. Julie find this girl that says Trevor Wilson is going to be the name of rock one day, so they realize they haven't gone back enough, so they travel again. They end up finding Bobby and he's dating Rose (julie was too stunned to speak) and not wanting to talk abt his band. Julie still goes and try to talk him abt the importance of keeping their memory alive. So Bobby decides to record the songs and give credit to Luke. happy ending. (unless..?)

Except when they come back to the present days, the world is a mess. Bc Carlos doesnt exist, instead, Carrie is Julie's sister and Flynn doesn't even know Julie, and she finds out that's bc Rose married Trevor, so now he's Julie's dad and Ray is nowhere to be seen. So they go back into the past again to prevent that from happening. But what happens is. Bobby and Rose dated, Bobby met a girl that convinced that his Rose was holding him back instead of helping him become a rockstar, Bobby never worked on his insecurities and inferiority complex or grief, dumped Rose and recorded the songs under a new name, thats when Rose moved on from her life, met Ray, actually fell in love and later, started listening to Trevor's songs, unaware of what he did.

But because Julie interfered, Bobby realized that girl didn't wanted to help him, and told Rose the truth about the songs, she convinced him to get into therapy, Sunset Curve songs were a huge success, he got rich and married Rose, and she never got to actually meet Ray. So the gang comes back and once they realize that they can't get their credit without ruining Julie's life forever and vice versa, they agree that is better keeping things the way they went, cuz that's how they were supposed to happen. also, since Trevor will get divorced from that girl and seek therapy, he can get a grip without Julie's advice.

One problem though. They'd be using Julie's phone planner as a portal and right when they decide to call off this plan and come back, Julie runs out of battery. As they are in the 90's and there's no charger for Julie's phone, they're scared that they'll be stuck in the 90's forever and Julie doesn't even exist yet and they panic saying that Willie was right and that magic was dangerous and they shouldn't have done that, they even consider getting into the HGC just to get the book again, when a portal opens in front of them right before they do it and its Willie, who proceeds to explain that anything can be used as a portal, including writing the date on his board and reciting the spell. They feel dumb. Especially Julie bc she was the one who had the book and she just left it open on the garage. Anyway, Julie goes home and hugs her dad very tight.

#this got so long omg can u tell i love time travel tropes? #it does hurts them a little when they agree that they have to let Bobby have a destructive mindset and engage in a toxic relationship. #but julie cant live without carlos and ray. and flynn. even if her mother is there. #dont ask how willie knew where and when to find them. he has seen things #or how nick got the book its another whole story. #julie and the phantoms #alex mercer #luke patterson #julie molina #reggie peters #willie jatp #bobby shaw

[lunar-years]

Hmmm I agree that Roy and Keeley’s getting back together arc has been pushed back way too far for my taste (and I don’t love how drawn out both of their individual arcs were), but I think there’s still time for them to get back together in a fulfilling way. We have three episodes left- that’s plenty of time for them to have that long awaited heart-to-heart where Roy finally explains why he broke up with her, then time for them to rekindle their friendship, and eventually tentatively start things up again. There probably isn’t time left for them to work their way back to exactly where they were before, but I could totally see them agreeing to try again in the finale. And since it’s probably the last season, I wouldn’t be surprised if there’s a flash forward a few years later and they’re engaged or smth.

I’ll be honest, I haven’t cared much for Keeley’s arc this season either. I don’t care about the KJPR storyline – it’s boring since its all new characters, and Keeley doesn’t seem like she knows or cares about what she’s doing. It feels like they’re aiming for an arc where Keeley realizes that progress isn’t always about moving forward. It’s obvious that she does not fit into the corporate world, nor does she want to, and that she’d be much happier coming back to Richmond. And I bet that’s how Roy will tie into it: just bc you can move on, doesn’t mean it’ll make you happier. And I do really feel that the best ending for Roy’s arc about learning to let himself be happy is by actually letting himself be happy with Keeley again. Anyway I have faith that the writers love Roy and Keeley as much as the fans do, and that whatever way they decide to end will be the perfect ending.

Ohh I really love your take on Keeley's arc and what they're trying to show with it and I really hope you're right. Even if it's not solely coming back to Richmond, but coming back while continuing to take on a couple additional clients freelance, or branching off with Barb to start something smaller, just generally taking it slow instead of leaping in to being CEO of a whole PR firm like she's done this season. Building her confidence surrounded by people who love and support her and whom she actually has time to see because she's no longer making work her entire life.

Roy's arc I think has been building up to him allowing happiness into his life in more ways than just Keeley. I think it will be a number of things for him: finally having a reckoning with her over the breakup, but also gathering up with the Diamond Dogs as an actual member, admitting he cares about Jamie Tartt, taking on a larger role as coach (perhaps by doing more of the pressers, we saw how good he was at it tonight, especially if Ted goes back to Kansas)... going to therapy (**hoping, kicking, screeching, praying**)....

You may yet be right about Roy/Keeley! Before the season began, I had zero doubts in my mind they were endgame. Also, I forget sometimes that between a lot of these episodes, we're meant to believe like...actual months have gone by, so it's more spread out than I'm thinking it is. However, it's also that the show has a lot they need to wrap up in three episodes if this is the end of the end, & Roy and Keeley are only one part of it.

I think, ultimately, I care way more about their individual arcs ending well in a way that is both satisfying and sensical than I do about them getting back together in the canon timeline. I absolutely do need them to end on good terms though, preferably at least as close friends.

What I want more than anything and still believe is in the realm of possibility is for them + Jamie to sit down and admit they are all caught up in each other irreversibly at this point and won't be shaken away easily. That they care deeply about one another and will most likely care forever (terms & conditions undefined).

#i really hope they don't do a sunshine and roses flash forward though because I HATE those lol #i want room to breathe in my future fanfics not a flash forward I probably won't agree with to add to my list of fix its tbh #(note also I'm biased because I'm not a roy keeley truther here I'm a roy keeley jamie truther) #like my actual response is what I want to happen on and feel is genuinely realistic for the show #but in the tags I'll just say that when it comes to shippery business. I'm a royjamiekeeley all the way. #and even that said I don't think any of them should be together NOW. that's a theoretical s4 arc for me. #(but yeah naturally i don't care about a roykeeley engagement) #ted lasso #roy kent #keeley jones #roykeeley #ted lasso spoilers #asks #long post

[lindszeppelin]

what the fuck i’m not a friend of mollie lmao i just think you guys are exaggerating lmao. if people hate sm her content just block her like you did or ignore it and scroll down😭 just bc you guys don’t like gossip doesn’t mean everyone else do. i enjoy reading what she posts about she always informs of things and tell small details which a lot of us find entertaining. it’s not like she is imagining harmful things of something like that it’s just fun and daydreaming about austin/olivia or austin/kaia. it’s not like any of them is going to see it, we actually enjoy it and if you don’t like it again, you can just ignore or scroll. you don’t have to interact with her or anything, and you don’t have to be mollie’s friend to see that she doesn’t do real damage, but of course if you take everything in the internet seriously, it’ll be your problem, but in that case i recommend going out and touch some grass. she doesn’t even take it so seriously and you guys shouldn’t either

okay i feel like i need to take all of you guys to school on how gossip is inherently toxic.

you caught me on a good moment anon because i got back from my therapy session, so im feeling more inclined to sit with this one.

gossip, while entertaining, is at the expense of real people. celebrities seem very far removed from us normal people because they're famous and we think maybe they're unattainable. that surely we are regular people can freely talk about the little intricate details of their lives as if its completely fine.

when i said that gossip can be triggering to some, it most certainly can be. lets just say that Austin Butler wasn't some famous celebrity, that he was truly a "regular" person. imagine if literally everybody around him was gossiping about his personal life, his relationships, his every move, scrutinizing him, calculating his every move and where he's going today or tomorrow. one would crumble under that pressure. spreading gossip can be harmful to those with compromised mental health issues. and CLEARLY in austin's case the poor guy is already going through the ringer.

the fact that some of the fans in the community perpetuate the gossip about his relationships, who he may or may not have slept with, and looking at his every waking move, is in fact pretty toxic imo.

let me reiterate YET AGAIN that i had no issues with mollie prior to her posting the largest wall of gossip i've ever seen in the austin tag. there are a lot of people in the fandom that don't wanna see it. we asked her to move her gossip to a separate tag, which is a nice compromise. we weren't telling her to shut up and not post her gossip. but hey, if you want to throw it back on us and say "fuck it, it's your problem" then we have the right to say "no, actually it's not"

i appreciate you telling me to touch grass though, i do it every day. perhaps you should as well

#lindsay's anon asks

[astridthevalkyrie]

trauma dump so my dad and i work in the same company right. he sits about twenty feet away from me (yeah it's fantastic i don't wanna jump out the window somtimes at all) but anyways today he comes over to my desk and in english and loud enough that my colleagues could hear he's like "your shower is clogged you need to fix it!" and a. my sisters and i have been telling him this for weeks so the fact that he is acting like he didn't know shows how little he actually listens to us and b. he only knows now bc since her bathroom is being painted my mother took a shower in ours and inconveniences only matter when it's inconveniences for them and c. he could have said this QUIETLY or in URDU and it would be fine but no apparently asking for respect in the workspace is too much to ask for so i told him "can you be a little less condescending about it?" and he got even more peeved and said he wasn't being condescending and was just telling me to clean out the clog (something i didn't even realize i could do like i didn't know i could lift the thing in the shower bc it looks screwed on and he's never told me this before) so i was like "okay whatever" and he walked away and i KNOW at least one of my colleagues overheard bc he joked something like "that sounded serious" so um. and yesterday my mom randomly got pissed at my sister and told me to stop teaching her to blame everything on my mother and i didn't wanna fight so i just said kay and tried to keep the mood positive with my mother because who am i if i'm not playing emotional support eldest daughter all the time and my dad heard the sound of conflict and went into the basement like the bystander and enabler he is!! anyways i have started another keigo fic that will most likely flop as well but idc because i'm having fun writing for him but i'm not having fun at home and i still lack the energy to find a therapist especially bc i know i'd have to pay for it out of pocket and i'd hear it from my parents (SEPARATELY ffs) that they don't think i need therapy but my sister has had trichotillomania for years and they're only now kinda seriously registering her into therapy after being told my several different doctors to do that because she has a fucking ANXIOUS TICK and they just don't see the correlation they don't see why she would have that and my mom keeps calling her crazy as though the woman doesn't have a barrage of mental health issues that she just refuses to address she has a therapist that she chooses not to talk to she takes depression pills she has meltdowns but it's oooover the second anyone else feels an emotion and now (and always) i'm being told that i'm teaching my sister to hate her and disobey her like BABE!!!! you are UNLIKEABLE and there is a reason no one in the house wants to spend time with you!!!! i'm already in this one stupid class that my parents pushed me into that i don't wanna get into but it's so annoying bc it takes up at least two hours aside from my 7:30 to 5 pm shift which if i go into office means i have to catch a 6 am train and be back at like 6:30 pm so i always push myself to stay up as late as i can to get some alone time where i can relax and then i wake up miserable and i push goals for myself to eat healthier and exercise bc i've gained weight even though everyone says i look like i don't eat (i don't) my mom will just randomly make a comment like "i can see your stomach poking out" or some SHIT like that and she's constantly trying to get me to drink her goddamn disgusting homemade mint water that will make my skin clearer and brighter but i like my brown skin and i'm not SELF HATING like some people! and she keeps bugging me to text the lady from this matchmaking service she enrolled me into but i do not WANT to because none of those men will like me because i god forbid put in my bio that i have ideals that i will not budge from and that i am a feminist and i need someone who will respect that i'm allowed to have as much freedom as them and desi men can't stomach that shit so. and my grandma uncle and his two kids are visiting this

(hit the character block limit) weekend and i have to make it into a fun game for my sister to always be around him and interact with everyone bc if me or her try to refill our social batteries in our rooms or interact with EACH OTHER instead of everyone else my mother will think it's the equivalent of stripping naked in front of everyone despite how she embarrasses us every fucking CHANCE she gets especially around her family and my grandma is back to living with us for at least a few months after this which means she'll sleep in my bed which means she'll use my pillows and take up half the bed and every time this happens my CHRONIC BACK PAIN FORGOT ABOUT THAT acts up more than usual so i'm considering sleeping downstairs but i tend to get anxious when i do that i'm just hoping it doesn't happen this time bc i'd rather be depressed as shit instead of anxious and anxiety scares me so bad i get into my own head so easily and i hate taking meds apparently i need vitamin d pills for the rest of my life and taking them makes me feel sick and i don't drink water no matter how hard i try bc the more i drink the more sick i feel and sometimes i go days without drinking water and sometimes i don't eat and sometimes i'm starving but after a single bite i'm full and somehow i'm still gaining weight and i can't expect anyone to care about this constantly because i'm no one's goddamn concern or burden anyways today i'm feeling really introspective and i want to sit with my feelings for a bit but i can't because once i get home (in the train right now) i have to have a one on one meeting with my course instructor and i miss acting but at the same time every time i think of it i think of that horrible incident a few months ago where i agreed to be in the ensemble of wizard of oz and the experience was so bad and the people were so awful and i was the only woc there and they treated me like dirt under their shoe and every time we had a show to put on i felt ill from how miserable i was and now i'm scared all my acting experiences will all be like this and i'm so tired i want to be held and comforted and i want someone to allow me to cry without telling me to cheer up and i want to stop being so nervous every time i meet someone new and i want my skin to be clearer and i want to be healthier and i want my mother to stop abusing me and i want to just sleep in for a whole day and have no one bother me and i want to answer all these asks in my inbox because some are more than a year old and i feel so bad and i go back to school in the fall and i'll be working full time and i can't even say well i guess i had a good break year because i didn't i was working the whole time and i'm almost always around one parent and i want to write without my wrists feeling pain and i want everyone to leave me alone.

#if i don't stop typing i'll spiral in this train and i don't wanna do that

[rescuefield-a]

a rundown of claire's kids, somewhat canonically, sometimes assumed / implied:

• sherry. this one is obvious, claire bonded with her in an instant that night in raccoon city and became claire's responsibility the same way she was to chris when their parents died. their bond is different because claire and sherry are not actually age to be mother and daughter, but it doesn't mean claire is not there filling the role anyway - always mindful to not step on anyone's shoes, sherry's got a bio mom who cared about her for better or worse and her presence doesn't erase that. claire fought tooth and nail to get her custody before simmons revoked her visit rights, and it was all for nothing since there would always be an excuse for which they'd find her unfit to be a legal guardian. the family claire, sherry ( and leon ) have created is not conventional, some could use a wrong acceptation and say they're trauma bonded - but the point is that claire made a promise to take of sherry and that's what she intends to do for the rest of her life.

• rani. i headcanon that she was around 5 when claire first met her. in a way her family situation reminds claire of her own - parents dead and her aunt took her in, just like it happened to claire with the burtons when chris was in the air force then stars. throughout the years after degeneration rani's aunt would drop her in new york during assignments where claire wasn't needed - they'd actually worked a schedule to make sure that rani would always stay with either one or the other. rani also spends most of the weekends over at claire's apartment, not that she minds giving aunt chawla some time for herself anyway. in canon timeline rani would currently be 21 and studying at NYU. her aunt died some time in early 2017 ( aged 60, unknown if it was on the field or natural causes ) and since then lives full time at claire's apartment.

• maalek. ( this one is tricky bc capflop didn't tell us shit, but who cares ) claire met him during her volunteering work in penamstan, his drawings catching her attention and quite literally starting all the chain of events that lead to her finding out about the outbreak. when we first see him, he's on a wheelchair and is declared mute by one of the volunteers even though he actually tries to speak a few words to claire, albeit unsuccessfully. i think claire spent a lot of time in penamstan after the events of infinite darkness, at least a few couple years since as we know of she's seen bsck in DC again only in 2010. claire made sure maleek would go to therapy both physical and for his mental health - taught him asl so that they could communicate with each other though she got him one of those blackboards that can be erased too. he was around 10 in 2006, which would make him 25 in current timeline. he's now comfortable walking with a cane, but still mostly communicate through asl. no need to mention he's one hell of a good painter.

• marilou. she gets an honor mention because claire met her back when she used to give ted talks in schools and they've kept in touch since then. obviously as we know marilou had a life already planned and it got crushed unfortunately, but it remains that she was still pretty young ( compared to claire at least ). though it's not outright specified, it's implied that claire took marilou under her wing after what happened in sonido de tortuga as is helping with the expenses for her college classes through a program with terrasave.

#ɢᴇɴᴇʀᴀʟ meta. #these are claire's kids in every iteration of her life obviously like they're a package deal lmao #other verses might include more kids obviously but that's for another meta 😂

[morphogenetic]

Mediaposting 2023, #12: Succession Season 2

i think I like season 2 Overall less than I do with season 1, but when the episodes are bangers (6, 7, 9, 10) they are fucking BANGERS.

i also have literally no idea where season 3 and 4 are gonna go. like other than the one spoiler I know about s4 [which I'm not really surprised happened at this point] and the fact that kendall gets a shaved head eventually....NO idea what happens. at all. other than the repercussions that I'm sure happen after ep 10 lol

more spoilery thoughts under the cut (though tbh they're more about what I think is gonna happen next season)

-I knew about the "can't make a tomlette without breaking a few greggs" line. vaguely. what I did NOT know was that the line was said in THE SENATE

-honestly just so many good tom and greg moments. "we here for you" is still so fucking funny. the water bottle thing. Tom complimenting greg on his blackmailing skills. it's all so toxic and so so good

-speaking of Tom. "i wonder if the sad I'd be without you is bigger than the sad i am with you" is such an augh line and it's phrased in such a tom way. divorce arc so real

-shiv was so real for letting rhea be ceo and then immediately leaving bc of the cruises stuff. she girlbossed too close to the sun in episode 6 but then girlbossed her way back down to earth too

-i REALLY want to see if Roman actually gets therapy or if they just let him suffer like they did w kendall only getting two days of rehab. im also feeling like he might get more attention next season since shiv was more focused on during s2, when kendall was most important for s1, so maybe each season is more focused on one particular character?

-it's also fascinating to me that even though Roman is clearly the comedic relief sibling...he's smarter than he looks. he couches it in a lot of acting like he doesn't know anything - and he doesn't a lot of the time, lol at him buying the wrong soccer team - but like...the piece of episode 10 where he doesn't think the buyout will work? and in a way where his dad won't really get mad at him for it? he's kind of incredible at socially engineering people, in the way that youngest siblings often are. i don't think he'll ever lead the company but he could definitely be a way bigger player next season

-i know the entire point of kendall is that he's incredibly inscrutable and hard to figure out and like, a+ to jeremys acting on this, but he is even more inscrutable than usual this season. which felt weird after season 1 where he was definitely complicated but at least I could understand what the fuck was going on with him. now I'm a little ???? about it. i guess that's what happens when he's more of a background player this season though

-...but the divide between ep 9 and ep 10 kendall is both wild and totally expected. constantly going between defending his dad and treating him like a God and then saying he's a horrible person? on point. 10/10 no notes

-also I didn't really start paying attention to this until near the end of the season but the way that people have conversations in terms of the physical space between them is so important. it stood out to me with Logan and his kids. with Roman and Logan they sit apart but not distant, like business partners. logan and shiv? at first they had business partner spacing, then they had family member spacing. logan and kendall? circling each other like fucking sharks until the very end where kendall kisses his dad on the cheek right before betraying him. God. peak

-(SPEAKING OF THAT. THE PHYSICAL DISTANCE BETWEEN SHIV AND TOM DURING THE THREESOME CONVERSATION USED TO SHOW THE EMOTIONAL DISTANCE BETWEEN THEM. CHEFS KISS)

-ending the season on a boat was perfect after the season ends up being about the cruises drama. so perfect. i know it has the metaphor of pushing someone overboard too but (gestures) Boats

-i feel like I need to rewatch this season specifically when everything ends because a lot of the episodes felt....not pointless, totally, but more filler-y than season 1? like I really don't even remember what happened for most of the season outside of a few specific moments and I literally just watched it. idk. i mean the same is kind of true for season 1 but season 1 felt like it had more defined mini-arcs and I can remember more of what happened in that way

-i could write a whole thing on the pierces bc I think that was the most compelling part of the season outside of eps 9 and 10 but. ill spare you the details

-i like how by the end of the season greg is totally unimpressed by the size of the boat. luxury corruption arc

-tom and greg are absolutely having a screaming match next season about having the documents even after burning them and i cannot fucking WAIT

#(finished yesterday technically but I wanted to make this post sooner rather than later so) #mediaposting #successionwatch #junpei.txt

[leirsulien-archive]

for my baby alexis: 6, 8, 25, 35, 38, 45, and 47

thank you <3 <3

6. how have they changed in the last year? how about the last five years?

last five years: the last 5 years have definitely been the hardest of her life. at the start of them she had been the happiest she's ever been and thought things were finally starting to look up :) she was in a very happy relationship and had actually started going to therapy (after a lot of encouragement from her fiancee) to work on her ~issues~/herself. but ofc that bliss couldn't last bc she's my poorest littlest wettest meow meow and i don't allow her to be happy for more than 5 minutes at a time <3 .....her fiancee died and completely grief striken alexis hit rock bottom with her self destructive behavior at it's peak which amplified all her previous issues. since then she has actually made a lot of progress (though someone meeting her now for the first time would probably find that hard to believe) she's still incredibly closed off and struggles on a daily basis but she is trying her hardest to continue to crawl out of the pit she had fallen into and to not fall back down again

last year (going back from start of b3): meeting unit bravo and finding out about the supernatural has also changed her quite a bit, in some parts for the better...in others very much not. on the one hand there's the murphy trauma and having her entire world turned upside down which definitely led to a whole new set of issues. but on the other hand unit bravo has her slowly opening up again + seemingly overcoming her commitment issues with nate (though not really....)

8. what songs remind you of them? if there are specific lyrics or movements, list ‘em!

self sabotage by ruelle

if it feels too good to be true / than it probably is // I built these walls so tall pretending I am strong / but really I'm just fragile / I wanna keep you close enough / but far enough away for me to handle / just when I think that the monster is tamed / I hear it whisper "you haven't changed" / at the end of the day, there is no one to blame but me // I wanna change, believe me / the deeper we go, the farther I run / don't wanna be who I've become

control by zoe wees

even when I know it's been forever I can still feel the spin / hurts when I remember and I never wanna feel it again // I don't wanna lose control / nothing I can do anymore / tryin' every day when I hold my breath / spinnin' out in space pressing on my chest // sometimes I still think it's coming but I know it's not / tryin' to breathe in and then out but the air gets caught / 'cause even though I'm older now and I know how to shake off the past

shallow by carys selvey

I walk around everyday / with my head above the darkness / the storm below / I just can't face it // you say I don't care at all / but if you only knew / at night all the sleep I lose / over what I can't change // I need to think shallow thoughts / so that I don't fall too deep / in water I can't tame / 'cos that's the only way I know / how to stay breathing / and keep myself from feeling / every single blow that comes my way

giver by k.flay

I fell in love and then fell out / and I don't know if I can take the hit / I let a stranger in my bed / I pretended you were him / 'cause I needed to feel wanted / I gotta / oh, I gotta find another way // I'm learning to live / I'm trying to be better / I'm learning to give / but I don't know if I'm a giver // every day's another shot / but all I do is fuck it up // I got so much soul in my body / but no one keeping me honest / and whole days turn into holes in my mind

25. who is their best friend?

tina! they're childhood best friends who have spend most of their lives at eachothers sides. tina is the person who knows her best and really the only one who had been there for her the entire time. she has helped her through a lot of things like what's mentioned in 6.

35. when did they feel loneliest?

right after her fiancee had died. she had actually been so desperate that she called rebecca (their relationship had already been pretty bad at that time) who didn't answer, probably bc of work :)

38. do they see themselves as an important part of their party?

not really. she's very much a lone wolf, though she actually does enjoy working in a team with unit bravo a lot, but it definitely takes some getting used to. in the past she has always tried to emotionally distance herself from the people around her as much as possible and sees herself more as a liability for the people close to her. when it comes to the professional aspects she believes she works best on her own and hence thinks that she does not really contribute a lot to the team

45. what lies do they tell themselves?

asjdjfjjf plenty, way too many to list here, the better question would be about what she's honest to herself...

the lies she most frequently tells herself lately are about how she's doing (she's doing fine), her feelings for adam (what feelings) and her relationship with rebecca (she's totally indifferent to her :))

47. what could they talk about for hours on end?

hmm I'm not sure she'd talk to anyone long enough for that lol but she could definitely complain about adam for a good amount of time

[ASK GAME]

#well this was painful :) #you really picked some of the angiest questions for her and you knew exactly what you were doing ajsjjd #pearl answers #grapecaseschoices #misc: ask game #oc: alexis kingston

[some27-url]

OK first of all I need to write a disclaimer that I can just copy-paste into these kinds of posts that basically says like "I'm not diagnosed but I'm privileged enough that I'm able to try for a diagnosis and the appointment is set for my asessment and blah blah blah! So don't come at me please 😊"

Second I had a great day today all the way up until a coworker told me I was doing something wrong that i was inarguably doing right. And I told her she was wrong. And she said I was wrong.

Then I removed myself from her and went back to work and another co worker came to me to tell me that the thing I was inarguably doing right is supposed to be done wrong, everyone in the building does it wrong, but they do it wrong for a reason.

No I will not go into detail except to say that they're basically saying "yes, 2+2=4 but everyone in the building knows that youre actually supposed to record it at 2+2=6"

Which is ->incorrect<-

So like i understand that they do it wrong and do an extent why they do it wrong

And I understand that I need to do it the way they do it for consistency's sake

But my fucking (almost definitely) autistic brain would not and will not let it go.

I had to basically say "yeah, fine, whatever, its wrong though" and then excuse myself to the bathroom and cry/spin in a cirlcle/press on my eyeballs to calm down enough to keep working.

So anyways now I'm home bc that actually happened at the end of my shift and my skin is still buzzing about it and I don't know what to do??

Hubs is making me food and I have therapy this afternoon so that's good. The second coworker who came to talk to me has family members on the spectrum so I'm considering just telling her why I had such an explosive reaction in an attempt to, like, make amends? But idk if that would be appropriate given I haven't received a diagnosis.

Although at this point I'm convinced that everyone knows. Like they can tell maybe bc I stim often without realizing it and get into HEATED arguments about right/wrong? This also isn't the first time I've basically almost melted down on one of my people before.

Anyways I needed to type this out I guess and it was therapeutic but also

Theyre wrong. They are inarguably wrong. And they

Theyre wrong.

I just

I'm gonna go lay down 😅😭

#personal

[kimnjss]

Kez!!!! I LOVED this chapter!

Lemme break down as usual.

1. I understand 100% where Joon is coming from and I dont think he is wrong. Always giving someone the same advice is tiring. He’s honestly not the villain in this story. Tae and Reader are their own Villains. They clearly dont know how to incorporate their new selves into being together then that means maybe Joon is right. TALK TO EACH OTHER!

2. They been through too much to still be immature. Tae knows 100% she dont want Namjoon. He just knows he cant fight Joon because the reader wouldnt forgive him. They are both taking their frustrations out on each other. They can tell their is a distance between them. I was the abused kid who moved away(I said bye though) with little to no contact and when I came back, my best friend had a new group of friends, a BF and new interests and that was hella awkward. I know she felt that shit too.

3. Yoongi and Hoseok are actually terrible friends. But I didnt expect them to be the heart of this story. But pure comic relief. So I hope we get more of them later.

4. Tae needs therapy. Thats it. People have needed it for less.

5. Point to Muscle Man Jungkook for being able to pull an adrenaline filled rage filled Tae off that man without getting himself hurt.

6. He’s never fought? Girl, you gotta stop dropping these bombs on us like that.

You are such a great writer. Girl. I cant wait to reread this chapter on my break.

1. joon is one hundred percent right when it comes to the way taehyung nd yn are handling things right now . they are trying too hard to be what they were before they split nd not taking the time to acknowledge that eight years is a long time to be away from someone nd people change! especially in the age range that they were apart ., they don't need that type of overbearing protection anymore - but no one is saying anything .

2. nd they have no idea how to deal with that!! bc for the longest it has always been the two of them ., even when they weren't at the summer house nd going to different schools nd hanging out w their own friends - it was still known that taehyung nd yn were best friends nd they just clicked . now they have their own lives nd they're not as entune with one another as they used to be . nd tae is definitely feeling a way from seeing how close joon nd yn are . his suspicions of feelings aside - he doesn't like the fact that his best friend has a new best friend ., bc honestly - taehyung is not all that close with his friends - so to him it doesn't seem fair .

3. LMAO hoseok does not care abt a thing that's going on . he'll give some good advice when it's convenient to him - but that's abt it! yoongi tho.. we can say that he tries a bit harder to be a good friend ., but right now they're too wrapped up in each other to care abt what yn nd tae have going on .

4. yup! there's a lot to unpack when it comes to him ., nd the way he's dealing w it now is not it .

5. the way i imagined it in my head LOL jungkook was able to do that with no effort at all ., no wonder jimin is so head over heels in love with the guy !!

6. nopeee! he really only fights where yn is involved nd even then - he's cooled down a lot in the past eight years ., she just brings it out of him it seems...