#this is ok to reblog btw!

[raylex]

decided to write a short piece about my s/i's first introduction with wander that also goes a bit into their backstory which i will likely elaborate on later - for now, enjoy their (our?) first meeting :) i had fun with this! ・‥…━━━☆

When you’re stuck on the same old asteroid for hundreds upon hundreds of years, the days get repetitive. They get even more repetitive once you realize that you’re not orbiting around anything and there is no distinction between day and night.

You get accustomed to it, sure - but it leaves you with a feeling of melancholy, wondering if this is all there really is. You live and you die on a bleak, lumpy rock going nowhere through the universe’s junkyard.

That’s why Lex was one of the few people who would be beaming with ecstasy upon discovering that they had crashed on an unknown planet.

Most people would spiral further and further into a mental breakdown when you end up stranded in a place you have never seen in your life - in a solar system you don’t know, in a galaxy you don’t know, in a cluster you don’t know. Lex, on the other hand, could have landed on the most empty, desolate, and lonely planet in the known universe, and still be grateful. Anything and everything would beat spending time on an asteroid for any longer.

This planet was beaming with life - life that Lex hadn’t seen in a long time, and life that Lex didn’t even know existed. Fields took up all of their vision as they stared off into the distance - nothing but patches of green grass, colorful flowers, overgrown plants, and swarming insects as far as they could see. Lex felt like they had finally died and gone to heaven. They had never seen such beauty in their long-winded life.

For hours on end, they simply wandered around aimlessly with no destination in mind. Would this be their new home? Maybe - it certainly wasn’t as claustrophobic as living on a giant rock. They didn’t want to waste time worrying about that for now, though - they kept walking and walking and taking in every little thing they could spot in their surroundings.

Eventually, of course, the sun would set - something Lex hadn’t experienced since they were a toddler barely able to formulate anything other than a bunch of nonsensical babbles - and they would lie down on the soft soil, embracing the planet with admiration.

They stared up at the stars, taking note of every little speck of light. When you’re alone for so long, you learn to read the sky from many different angles - even if it was difficult to make out any constellations. Merely bright points that would glow in the dark.

When you’re this entranced by the mere beauty of life itself, you block out anything other than yourself.

And that was exactly what Lex did, unaware that they were not alone, till they caught themselves catching glimpses of a mysterious silhouette hidden in the tall greenery around them.

The presence seemed just as eager to keep watch as Lex, but in an effort to avoid continuing to spy on them, they instead jumped out from their place of hiding, with Lex now able to make out their appearance - a short, orange, furry fellow with a big hat, and an even bigger grin on his face.

“Oh! Pardon me for snoopin’ around there, friend, but I couldn’t help but notice some commotion comin' from around here. Don’t think I’ve seen ya ‘round these parts before, have I? Folks call me Wander! What’s your name?”

Lex stared at the figure with a puzzled expression on their face. Slowly, after a few seconds, they lifted up their hand, pointing at themselves in confusion - their clothing already covered in dirt and grass blades after no longer than one single day of being on this planet.

Wander chuckled in response to their expression. "Yep, I'm talkin' about you! Are ya new? Ya looked lonely, that's why I came on over to give ya a warm welcome!"

Lex spoke up for the first time that night. "…Lonely?", they replied questioningly. Isolation was all they had ever known - to them, it wasn't loneliness. It was just the norm.

"Mhmm, lonely," Wander nodded along, his smile never once leaving his face. "It's fine if ya don't wanna tell me your name, stranger, I can respect a little need for privacy, but tell me - ya look like you're just burnin' to get somethin' off your chest. 'S there anythin' ya wanna talk about? Or maybe you're just shy? Whatever it is, I won't judge ya. My hand's on my heart, I promise."

For a long time, Lex was silent, and there was no sound to be heard anywhere nearby - not even a gust of wind or the sound of any fauna close by.

"…Could you tell me a story?", Lex finally replied. It had been so long since they had last had any interaction with another person. There were so many tales to be heard.

Wander's face glowed even brighter in response. "Oh, boy, can I! Let me tell ya somethin' - I'm a bit of an intergalactic space explorer myself, so I have all kinds of adventures to share!", he beamed, gesturing wildly as he began to recall all of the places he had visited as well as all of the sights he had seen. For every one of his journeys that he spoke of, his speech got louder and faster.

"But that's all I ever wanted to do! Every day, I've travelled across the universe, searching for every star and moon. No matter how far ya go, or how fast ya go, there's always somethin' new to explore. It's amazing! You should come with me sometime!"

Before he knew it, he found himself sitting closely next to the newcomer, still going on about all of the planets he had been to, vividly replaying the memories in his head.

Wander let out a chuckle at how carried away he had gotten. "But enough about me - let's talk about you! Where are you from, pal?"

Lex looked at him blankly for a few moments, before re-adjusting themselves to sit in a more comfortable position. "My life has not been interesting, I'll tell you that," they laughed quietly - mostly in an expression of self-deprecation. They changed their gaze, pointing towards their crash site. "See that huge crashed asteroid over there? I've been living on that thing for as long as I can remember. Man, I hate that thing. I hope I never have to set foot on one of those overgrown rocks ever again."

Gesturing vaguely towards the night sky, they continued. "Hundreds of years just spent drifting through pure nothingness, until suddenly… well, I ended up here."

Wander's gaze followed theirs, also shifting to look up at the sky. "So you're tellin' me that for centuries, you were just floatin' around in space?"

"Yeah… I'm sure you can understand why I think my life's been pretty boring."

"That does sound… less than preferable," Wander nodded. "How'd ya survive all that time?"

"I'm not sure myself. All I know is that after years of eating rocks and stone, you become a little funny in the head," they shrugged, letting out a chuckle. Wander joined along with fits of laughter, seeming to accept this explanation as enough.

For a few minutes, they sat in comfortable silence, just enjoying each other's company.

"Well, you don't have to be alone anymore," Wander spoke softly. "You're free to tag along with us if ya want."

"Us?," Lex asked, glancing over at him.

Wander stood up, offering Lex his hand. After a moment of pondering, Lex put their hand in his. Wander grinned, pulling them up to stand on their feet.

"There's someone I'd like ya to meet," he chirped. "My bestest pal in the universe, Sylvia. I never go anywhere without her. We're tighter than bark on a tree. An' any friend of mine is sure to be a friend of Sylvia's, too!"

Lex blinked a few times, still trying to process everything that had just happened. They weren't sure they completely trusted these people - of course, suspicion towards strangers was something that was natural after having been by yourself for so long - but something about the way Wander looked at them with such hope in his eyes prevented them from turning down his invitation.

"Okay," Lex answered eventually, bearing a genuine smile on their face for the first time that night.

#their backstory is developed further than that but i'm not gonna make them traumadump their tragic past on their first meeting. anyways #this is ok to reblog btw! #i normally only write for myself so this is my first time ever posting my writing publically :) pls be nice #self ship #self shipping #self ship community #self insert x canon #oc x canon #my writing #i guess i have. a writing tag now. #🧡🪕 sunshine banjo face 🪕🧡

[sarksdimension]

Thoughts on endos?

So, this is going to be pretty long. I know this is probably just a “do you support endos or no” question, but I’m going to go right off and say a lot of things and a lot of opinions about the discourse that’s been going around. The TL;DR is that we support endogenics due to having endogenic aspects to our system while we are also diagnosed with DID, for anyone who gets worried from seeing a text wall or can’t read it all easily. We support all systems here.

Starting this off with some background by saying that we’re diagnosed with DID. We were diagnosed I think last year or two years ago, but we knew about our system for much longer. We’re also quoigenic, which for us, means that we’re not personally sure of our origin. If you had to label it, we have both traumagenic and endogenic aspects to our system, which makes things confusing.

We don’t think labels like traumagenic and endogenic are as useful as some make them out to be. If you want to use them for yourselves, of course that’s 100% fine, but there’s this expectation that everyone should use one of the two labels to pick a side and I don’t like that. It’s not like it’s even traumagenic/DID or OSDD systems against endogenic/nondisordered systems (which would still be bad), traumagenic does not always equal DID/OSDD and endogenic does not always equal nondisordered. There’s endogenic DID/OSDD systems and traumagenic nondisordered systems. The DSM criteria itself doesn’t say that trauma is the only cause for systems, it says there’s a correlation. We personally may be diagnosed and also have trauma, sure, but as far as we know, that trauma came after our system already existed. Regardless of that even, we still can soulbond and do similar endogenic things that are still related to our plurality, which puts us in a weird middleground where we, a DID system, can’t access DID spaces because we’re also partially endogenic or we support endogenics. 

Plurality shouldn’t have to be so divided. DID/OSDD systems have different experiences from nondisordered systems, of course they do, and there should be spaces specifically for disordered systems to discuss experiences exclusive to their system type, but that divide between endogenic and traumagenic should not exist. We’re all systems of some variety, and a singlet that’s against us usually isn’t going to care whether or not your system was caused by trauma. The singlet that hates systems is going to see that you identify as a system regardless of your origin and be against you anyway--look at r/fakedisordercringe and kiwifarms. We as plurals, even if our experiences are different, have a common enemy, and in-fighting isn’t helping anyone.

#plural #actuallyplural #plural system #plurality #alterhuman #endogenic #sark speaks #this is ok to reblog btw!

[nitw]

my hair is getting wavy again...... very fun

#the gender euphoria is strong lately!! stronger than my arms!!!!!!! #which are not very strong but still!!!! #now if only i could get some real facial hair.. #this is ok to reblog btw! #leo.txt #photos #it's my face! #trans #gay #nonbinary #mlm #trans selfie #transmasc

[bokkerijder]

pro-AI in the sense of "they taught a bread scanning computer to recognize cancer cells" etc etc

against AI in the sense of "we stole artwork from hundreds to thousands of artists, didn't credit them and didn't financially compensate them"

#rambles '24 #ok to reblog btw #all my posts are ok to reblog #if not i would make them unrebloggable lmao #edit: i am a fool #i said that thinking this would maybe get 5 notes or something #and now we're here lol

[iamramonadestroyerofworlds]

I am not joking I am not exaggerating the thirst on this fucking website for cis dudes w a lil extra fat on their chests... And the insistence on referring to those as titties and boobs and big naturals. Has made me (trans man) feel significantly better about my boobs! Everyone here sees a dude with big ol bazoonkas and goes fucking apeshit. Hell yeah. Men's tits. I got those too! Maybe they're also hot on me! Holy shit! Men's tits!

#gender #tumblr thirst #totally ok to reblog btw!

[wetslug]

ppl who r using poll results as a way to Prove Something about society or come to any conclusion.. i hope you are aware that tumblr users are one of the most biased population groups you could conceivably find. gob bless

#sis the variables... remember stats 101... ur data is only as good as ur sample #its like asking around at an old folks home and coming back saying 98% of those surveyed love prunes. therefore 98% of people love prunes #ok to reblog btw #polls r still fun i just hope you take into account who is responding to them

[xumoonhao]

web badges inspired by this post <3 / second set / third set

#stop reblogging this post if you’re a terf. i hope you fucking DIE #i love web badges i cant wait to make more <3 #free to use btw ! #ok to rb <3 #my art #web badges

[nordidia]

vent/comfort art to keep myself present during ptsd flashing

#actually im not gonna queue im just gonna post it now yahoo eat well #no context to what triggered him bc i didnt want to try going into stuff like that today #maybe leo got a bit hurt/lost and raph was in a sensitive spot #u can make up uir own thing #im tireed im gonna go to bed #this is ok to reblog btw #sunset duo #big comfort... snff... #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #my art #nordidia art

[lazylittledragon]

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

#ramble #ok to reblog btw i'm fine with this being shared #this was meant to be a short version but this is just the whole story whoops #sorry i realised the way i phrased it sounded like i'm the detrans you see in the news #i'm Technically a detransitioner because a lot of detrans stats are people who go on to RETRANSITION #because detransition is often because of social stigma and not because you realised you weren't trans #so anyway. terfs are cancer and if you don't think their bs is harming children you're wrong #i know it's easy to say 'you should've used your brain and realised those people were wrong' #but like. when you're 16 you're SO impressionable. even if you think you aren't #especially when you're watching people who have been transitioning longer than you and you assume they know everything #i was in my mid-late teens when 'transtrender' videos were MASSIVE and i believed it!!! and i was Not nice about those people #all they made me believe was that being trans couldn't be colourful and comfy and fun. it just had to be Pain #i hope everyone who contributed to the 'you need to be this way to be trans' mindset knows how much hurt they've caused #nowadays i don't care. go and be stargender. we have actual problems to deal with not debates about neopronouns #anyway this was long. that's the story

[nixiecat]

welcome to the gun show~

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#btw i changed my pfp what do we think #muscle mommy #girls with muscles #nixie pics #reblogs ok #trans #transgender #transfem #trans girl #tgirl #mtf #girls like us #girlslikeus

[glennmillerorchestra]

my collection of 1970s snoopy jewelry

#or should i say my mom’s collection that has been passed on to me #ok to reblog btw :) i know you all love snoopy #peanuts

[fizzfags]

the hands that held you down feel tender

#lukas gallery #ok to rb btw ^_^ #please reblog it i spent so long trying to get the text to wrap right

[pjharvey]

former old soul gifted kid pleasure-to-have-in-class tenderqueer adults when they find out sometimes mental illness makes you perform poorly in school and be badly behaved and mean to people

[frecklystars]

pls listen to the way Ken sings the word "granted" it's so funny

#OK TO REBLOG BTW this is so funny i want ppl to hear it #ryan gosling #barbie movie #the barbie movie #barbie 2023 #ken #barbie ken #i dont even know how i'd spell that #groauntauhd. that's a whole other language #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́- #love notes #audio

[seven-oh-four]

"it's okay as long as you're not hurting anyone"

me, whose pronouns are punches to various different body parts to denote the type of pronoun:

#this isn't making fun of people with neopronouns btw. #someone i follow reblogged a 'reblog if your blog is safe for neopronouns users' and tagged it with 'as long as you're not hurting anyone #it's ok' #and i just found it really funny to imagine neopronouns that can hurt you #shiny pile

[cityelf]

Being brave enough to ask what if everyone's favourite bear elf was instead a twink and also trans 😤

#i am joking please dont take that seriously #halsin #makeup test #literally everything i post is ok to reblog btw and my art tag is #attempts #go ham