#this sounds like me bragging

[beeoftheanxieties]

I know there's a lot of jokes about Slovenia being one big village.

But I literally get the Joker Out guys as friend reccomendations on Facebook.

#before anyone calls me a boomer #i need fb for work among other things #but yeah I am collecting them like pokemon at this point #the worst part is that we have mutual friends #this sounds like me bragging #sorry #didn't expect to see jan peteh on my fb feed tonight #joker out

[just-null-cult]

I don't ever see noritoshi fanart and by GOD you're doing him so much justice....THANK YOU KING !!!! ❤️❤️🔥

I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF THAT VERY QUESTION WORD FOR FUCKING WORD. "am i doing him justice..?" youre fucking wonderful and tysm, i'll continue feeding Noritoshi content that we all lack bc of this. thats a sign from god baby. can i get an amen.

#kamo noritoshi #kamo noritoshi x reader #noritoshi kamo #noritoshi kamo x reader #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #also i know its not intentional but your name #devoti #sounds like devotee. like. like a cult member that im trying to indocrinate........ ty devoti. you will be in my heart forever #also i bragged to everyone i knew abt this in a very loud and boastful manner too #also lowkey i kept this ask w me just bc it made me giggle kick my feet and all that shit #i was trying a new coloring style too! idk how i feel abt it... #AIGHT. TIME FOR HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[high-voltage-rat]

Actually I'm still thinking about it. Another interesting way in which RvB is anti-war is the way that the Director fills the role of a villain and antagonist (especially in the Recollections trilogy, where he's a faceless villain we never see but is responsible for everything that happens).

In his memos to the Chairman, the Director emphasizes his sense of duty and obligation to the military- he becomes irate for the first time when he feels that it's being implied that he was derelict in his duty... or that the work he did out of that duty is being criticized for being against the military's interests. He also talks about Allison's death in a way I find... interesting.

"You see; I never had the chance to serve in battle. Nor did fate provide me the opportunity to sacrifice myself for humanity as it did for so many others in the Great War. Someone extremely dear to me was lost very early in my life. My mind has always plagued me with the question: If the choice had been placed in my hands, could I have saved her? [...] But, given the events of these past few weeks, I feel confident that had I been given the chance, I would have made those sacrifices myself... Had I only the chance."

The idea of sacrifice is central to the way he talks about his wife's loss, to the way he talks about the war in general. He talks of sacrifice with a sense of veneration- that it's something he aspires to do, that he longs for. There's a few ways we can interpret "I would have made those sacrifices myself"...

-That in Allison's place, he thinks he would have laid down his life too.

-That if given the chance, he would have given his life to save hers.

But most interestingly...

-That he would have sacrificed Allison's life for the continued survival of humanity, if that was what duty called for.

...And personally, I think all 3 are true.

In most war media, the Director's perspective on sacrifice is very common. Sacrifice is glorious and heroic- to die in battle is an honour- and it's the only way to ensure the group you serve survives. This is a tool of propaganda- nobody wants to go to war just for the sake of it, you have to give them a reason that the risk of dying or being permanently disabled isn't just acceptable, but desirable. Beyond that, most people don't want to do things they think are immoral- you have to convince them it's important, a necessary lesser evil. You teach them to sacrifice their morals, too.

The way they train soldiers to follow orders and to kill, is to convince them that they, and the people around them, and the people they care about, will all die if they don't. It's drilled into your head from day one. It's the way they ensure their commanding officers won't shy away from sending their men off to die. The message is constant- sacrifice is your duty, and duty ensures your people's survival.

In the Director's eyes, the damage Project Freelancer caused was his sacrifice. He never got the opportunity to sacrifice himself during the war- so he sacrificed others, as military brass do. The Freelancers- including his daughter. The countless sim troopers. Any people he considered "collateral damage" on missions. And when the opportunity to do so presented itself, he sacrificed a copy of himself- Alpha- and he sacrificed a copy of Allison- Tex.

The very thing that derailed his life- the loss of his wife- he made it happen again. He put her copy in dangerous situations, let her exist in the position of constant repeated failure, created the circumstances that would eventually lead to her death. He put their daughter in deadly situations that nearly killed her repeatedly, provided her with impossible expectations leading to self-destructive behaviours in the name of duty, implanted her with two AI knowing they could cause her permanent harm. He was confident he "would have made those sacrifices himself" because he did.

The Director is the embodiment of the military war machine. As an antagonist, he is a warning against buying into the glorification of sacrifice. He's a condemnation of the idea that one should be willing to do anything to win a war- that duty to the military is the thing that ensures survival... All the messages that are pushed to ensure recruitment and obedience of soldiers.

He's a reminder that swallowing the propaganda leads to you doing terrible things... and in the end, you're a broken man left mourning the losses that you suffered even as you repeated them, convinced that it was all necessary.

#late nights with ali #ali watches rvb #not video games #rvb #red vs blue #leonard church #the director #director rvb #idk why I'm so fixated on thinking about the anti-war interpretation of rvb right now but I'm apparently going ham #it's just so fucking. wild to me. listening to the director's messages in S6 always has me thinking 'oh man this guy ate the propaganda up' #the OPPORTUNITY to sacrifice yourself??? homedog you sound like the kid in high school who brags he's joining the army as soon as he's 18 #to be clear: a lot of my thoughts on this stem from the fact that I come from a military family. I spend a lot of time with people who... #...bought in to the military propaganda and indoctrination. I see an amplified version of their perspectives reflected in the director. #to the military man sacrifice is the highest calling. sacrifice of your life. sacrifice of your morals. sacrifice of your wellbeing. #the things the director did were all in line with that fucked-up form of sacrifice. #and that they're portrayed for the evil they are is an important protest against the war machine's messaging.

[hellscap3]

I'll never forget my one teacher in college talking about how he worked on Deadly Premonition and how proud be was of it cause of the different ways they added 'psychological horror' elements. Meanwhile the games got scenes like this:

I had never heard of the game n later was the GGs playthrough of it where I realized it was the most abstract nonsense of a game I had ever seen.

Like. I heard about how great this game was as if it was this man's masterpiece on multiple occupations only to watch it and -- THIS IS THE GAME HE WAS ON ABOUT?? If they didn't have the same title and game company I would have thought he was talking about a different game. Literally.

#of all the games to brag to students about you pick this one????????? #dont get me wrong making a game at all is decent but DP is NOT 'psychological horror' its more just a fever dream #like the studio that made dp is CLOSED DOWN after all. #assumedly due to putting out nonsense projects like this #ironically this makes it sound like I care alot about the subject i dont im just speaking off the cuff in the tags #dont be too serious about random internet posts #txt.exe #deadly premonition #Youtube #+ its great in like a 'The Room' kinda way more then a serious way if u havent seen DP watch it just for the once in a lifetime experience

[bunnikida]

Not to toot my own horn but honestly I do think I'd be the fandom's favourite pathetic babygirl. I have everything you need, big sad brown eyes? Trauma? Funky gender and bisexuality? Self destructive tendencies? Neurodivergency? We've got it all. I would be blorboified sooo hard.

#and some other traits that sound too much like im bragging so we're not mentioning them #ignore this post i need something to keep me going

[narwhalandchill]

hoyo rly just went and put straight up whale sonar (Very Obvious clicks starting 1.53) into wrath of monoceros caeli all the way back in 1.1 already while presumably going all tee hee abt it like its just a funky easter egg slash potential lore pipe bomb as if it wouldnt be actively ruining my goddamn life 3 years down the line after noticing it for what it was (yes shut up it took me this long after watching whale documentaries all week to hyperanalyze silhouette of catastrophes sonar to realize they used it before too) like i cant stop thinking about it

like nvm the fucking fact that the title of the track Itself is soooo fucking suspect w what we know now like. isnt it Curious how youd call a song meant for a moment depicting childes Individual Personal rage at Us the wrath of the celestial narwhal. Not the wrath of the "harbinger" not the "snezhnayan warrior" or w/e. but The monoceros caeli . That is what serves as his namesake for this moment in golden house .

they straight up said HIS wrath = the celestial narwhals wrath like Huh indeed 🤨

and Then theres this shit like the tusk drop man like he Already displays shared core characteristics with the narwhal its soo

embodying and embracing a solipsistic character and arrogant ambition so immense the sole image capable of reflecting its essence back at him in full turns out to be no less than the cosmos-cruising godlike all-devouring narwhal?? 🤨🤨 that just fucking Happens to be your own constellation? AND the creature you woke up at 14 just by balling it and tripping on your way down to the abyss??? 🤨🤨🤨 who you remain inexplicably connected to??

Ajax you are not fucking dodging the same/parallel/split/mirrored one singular entity with your narwhal allegations . Like yes its very hard to have anything concrete on the subject of their undeniable similarities but the parallels are paralleling a bit too hard methinks .

(like hypothetically given some themes of chivalry and loyalty and looking after his family in his weird dysfunctional way Wouldnt it be funny if the narwhals core motivation was also one of protection and preservation in its own eldritch way like maybe one thats all abt a sorrowful voyage of entropy and eating world after world with the ultimate goal of preserving life itself and giving birth to a new living one in its own stomach even as the universe with all its stars dims down and dies one da---- oh whoops Thats Canon)

theyre sooooooo undeniably connected but howwww what does it all ultimately pertain hoyo i need the fucking answers 😭😭

anyway tho to talk of the sonar a bit more the singular other occasion featuring it in genshin OST is obviously in silhouette of catastrophe and the thing that interests me in particular is the like. Specific nature of the sounds/references used

bc. yes theres clicks in wrath of monoceros caeli but its also like. Whose clicks? that ones not a question for silhouette obviously the entirety of the sonar references utilized is very much like. You Are Being Hunted Down In The Dark By Sound Alone By This Particular Narwhal. the clicks grind the way sonar of a whale hunting very very close to its prey would. the EDM adjacent beats intensifying and overlapping on the way to the 2nd beat drop invoke the closing in on prey. its looking for you. You are already dead (nani??!?) etc etc

but the clicks in wrath of monoceros caeli are more distant. almost curious? like. literally. theres none of the frantic nature used in silhouette with how the sonar conveys what is quite literally the imagery of a whale lunging for prey right within its reach. the clicks are uniform and sound out during a lull in the melody. their frequency doesnt speed up the sonar is just There. its more reminiscent of sonar toothed whales use when theyre just looking for information . looking out towards anything that might ping back in the distance . just keeping an eye out

and like as much as of a mr "same entity allegations undodged" childe ajax tartaglia foil hat 5head i am. it must be noted that the dude himself has Not exhibited a particular tendency for sonar clicking (and if it was His sonar id be expecting clicks Much more akin to silhouettes sounds of whale on the hunt given the emotions present during the 3rd phase aka bro is angy). but. Well. we all know who very much has and now im kinda just

okay Sure it could just be a theming thing. as has been noted already. ajax' links to the narwhal are Shady. so his boss fight OST featuring both whale call motifs (the electric guitar mimicking whalesong is still soooo) and this particular sonar might well just be intended as establishing that connection too (or maybe even foreshadowing the strengthening of their bond later in fontaine thru childes growth in power). which is already based we love it

but. also . Also. if you just let me get a bit creative (read: insane) with the possible implications of the clicks' presence in particular . Like just a little bit . Hear me out

Did. Did ajax start malding so hard during golden house that his own fucking narwhal (naturally concerned) popped by through their connection to just. Click him up a bit to see whats up with its favorite human . All the while the mans just fully in the flow state murder edition not noticing a thing .

. Is this a regular occurrence

#this is now a certified headcanon im never letting it go actually #childe but he thinks he has tinnitus from this strange clicking sound popping up in his head every now and then #(childe voice) 'yeah i just get this craazy tinnitus whenever im upset or in danger or injured or all 3 isnt that funny.' #'somehow my otologist didnt believe me when i said it just goes away on its own when im fine again like go figure lmao' #pov youre just trying to chill and drink up this primordial sea juice ur swimming in before finding ur human and gtfo of this planet #except said human is just that fucking insistent on getting himself into near death combat situations for the kicks and bragging rights #forcing you to keep checking in hoping he wont notice (which he will not bc hes the toxic clueless half of this entityhood and or soul bond #theyre so weird and dysfunctional its unbearable actually . i love them #just the concept of the narwhal checking up on childe since he freed and woke it up but unfortunately is also an insane person..... 😭😭 #genshin #rambles #childeposting #narwhalposting

[caught-in-a-landslide]

Guess who fully completed the game?

#sorry if I sound like I’m bragging about it #it was worth it to go with getting all the achievements and beating shellshock mode #thanks for all your tips and advices to help me beat this game #this doesn’t mean I’ll leave it #as I wanna keep playing when bored #amnesia game #amnesia #amnesia the bunker #shellshock mode #all achievements #godspeed to all those out there that are still trying to get the achievements and beat the game 🫡🫡🫡

[cursed-and-haunted]

Fascinated by the people who can answer those "how many movies have you watched this year polls". Like you can keep track of that? You can remember? Couldn't be me

#mine #also time to say something mean: #the people who brag about watching 100+ movies sound like the '100+ books in one month' booktok people #to me

[destinationtoast]

Shared reader feedback squee

You know what I love almost as much as getting an amazing AO3 comment? Reading comments that others have gotten on their fanworks/creative works that have made them happy! So here's an experiment -- what if fan writers and artists and such start sharing more comments that we love? (Feel free to link to your work, too!)

I'll start with one I just got on Outgrow the shoes of expectations that is short, but so so sweet:

How I feel: ✨✨🥰🥰🥰✨✨

Please share yours too, if this seems fun!

#ao3 #ao3 comments #tumblr comments #wattpad or fanfiction.net feedback #ao3 bookmarks #whatever you like #please share! #reader feedback #art feedback #shared squee #maybe me sharing this comment will just sound like a brag #but I genuinely love seeing others getting happy feedback #and I'd love to see what's making your day #if you wanna share #:) #op

[ante--meridiem]

Extremely confidence boosting to me that every time I've read my poetry out loud in public at least one person has come up to me afterwards to say they like it. More confidence boosting than people telling me I'm good at anything else which usually just feels very awkward because poetry is something I don't feel I can self evaluate at all because I know how easy it is for something to accidentally come out cliched/overwrought.

#personal #this sounds like a brag and I guess I can't say it isn't but it does feel very reassuring #context here is roommate talked me into reading something for a poetry reading thing he organised #which was mostly a bad time because the room was extremely overstimulating & very little of it was in English #(which to be clear: I don't expect everyone to cater to English speakers or anything. it's just that roommate assuring me I'd understand #enough to make it worth it was integral to talking me into this) #(I now think he overestimated how much Swedish I speak) #(not enough to understand an even slightly complex poem that's for sure) #but people did like my poetry & that was a huge ego boost #enough different people have compliment various enough selections of poems I wrote on enougn occasions that I'm starting to think I might #actually be good at this #which is dangerous. stop boosting my ego before I do something dumb like think I might be good enough to try publishing #< only half serious

[moonyinpisces]

Gomens twitter is ridiculous which is why I like at least coming here and checking in on your acc 😭

girl i don’t even go there but if it’s anything like tiktok it’s just. it’s lethal levels of character assassination and less than elementary understandings of the basics of western storytelling. at least tiktok gets my pussy popping while it does it!

#i know this makes me sound super conceited but like. i’m a semester away from graduating with my second english degree #and i’ve been published and my day job is an editor #if there’s nothing else. i can brag about my literacy lol #ask box

[kaelthas-dickrider]

yall im getting at least 200k inheritance

#i feel bad even posting about it but its just so wild #ok like one my RAPIST dad fucking DIED #i am SAFE for LIFE #I LITERALLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO FLEE TO THE HIGH HEAVENS ABOVE #two like this is a life changing amount of money AND I COULD GET MORE.......... #i have given up on all of my dreams like i have accepted that as an adult your childhood dreams in some form have to die #but i have always dreamed of having a home of my own and i can have all my pets and plants ect ect #like it was a longterm “dream” like you dont think youre actually gonna get there #but its actually coming and i feel like im going up a rollercoaster like it physically makes me feel nauseous lmao #i feel like i cant even talk about it cus it sounds like a brag #its just all so wild idk how im supposed to feel #am i happy am i sad am i angry am i numb am i regretful am i remorseless #dunno man

[shima-draws]

There’s nothing quite like getting a wedding invitation from the guy you used to have a crush on in high school

#Hmm. Feels awful!! #Me to me: Maybe. I'm not quite over this. #IDK IT FEELS WEIRD MAN. I'm very happy for him. But also kinda bummed at the same time. #I think I'm more just dreading showing up and being like aha yeah! Here I am! #I haven't changed at all since we last spoke! Not at all!! #Nothing new or exciting going on with me ever. No accomplishments. No partner I can brag about. NOTHIN #Hey anybody wanna show up as my fake date. Fake dating to lovers AU /j #Idk it just feels wrong to keep hearing from my friends in high school who are all getting married and having kids #Meanwhile me. Who has never dated anybody ever. And has nothing to show from the past five years: #SORRY I'M JUST HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS I GUESS. AT THE RIPE OLD AGE OF 26. #Me: I've been dealing with my anxiety and depression on the daily for years now and yeah that's it how are you #My friends: I got my dream job and I'm marrying the love of my life and I'm going to buy a house soon!! #I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE. AND DIE. YEAH. THAT SOUNDS GOOD #Sorry I need to sit here and feel pathetic and hate myself for a second. Then I'll get overe it #*over #Shima speaks #Maybe I can lie and say I've been backpacking through Europe for the last five months. LMAO

[thefloatingstone]

Regardless of what fandom I become active in, I never really hit "Big name fan" status (which I actually vastly prefer for a variety of reasons) but I somehow always managed to have some EXTREMELY popular people be mutuals with me.

It's weird to me because I am just a little creechur. I never know why really big number artists end up being like "I'm gonna be friends with this rando".

#text post #I think about this sometimes but I never really say it out loud because I worry it sounds like a humble brag #or I'm trying to vague about something #when in truth I'm genuinely just like #''ok but why tho? You're super popular and have a shit ton of followers.'' #''So I don't really get what about me is worth being mutuals with but I am deeply flattered!'' #I am also very confused however

[delicateimage]

Hey girlies update time… I’ve been sent to a clinic for my weight and it’s been really stressful and my life is kinda falling apart lol there’s defiantly good aspects to it but ughhh I’m like :( bc my diets had to change so much and I feel so unproductive now and I’m really scared about gaining weight but they’d said I’d like die or whatever if I didn’t which um. I genuinely feel so disgusting heavy and sick and disgusting and DISGUSTIGN eww and my disordered eating brain is coming back in full force after silently controlling me for like nearly years at this point and it’s all so much. the hardest thing about this is that I don’t want to gain weight at all and particularly I don’t really even care to live anymore. I’m scared everyday I’ll fall deeper and deeper back into disordered eating I’ll get lonelier and lonelier I’ll get fatter and fatter I’ll lose everything I’ve ever built for myself… ugh this is a mess but ong.

#it’s hard because I don’t want to sound like I’m bragging like HEYYYY I GOT HOSPITALOZED FOR BEING A SKINNY QUEEN YASS but omg I can’t #this is so sickening I feel so fat and disgusting there were two days where I could feel like I could eat the calorie count they gave me but #now I feel like a FAT FUCKING BEKUGA WHALE I feel like I gained 40 pounds in a day I feel so hulking and disgusting I’m eating so much ew #the self harming intentions came back because I lost my only form of control over my autonomy. I feel like there’s no other way for people #to hear me other than harming myself and depriving myself #I feel like such a waste #it’s like tomorrow I want to go back restrict restrict restrict restrict eat 5 calories exercise for an hour #but I just can’t. #I don’t have anyone to talk to because no one understands. #I feel so lost #the one thing I enjoyed about the diet change is the snack kinda… it gives me motivation to keep going. #everything is so stressful though and I don’t know how to encapsulate everything AT ALL ugh #I’m so tired and I just want to fall over and die already but… idk #I want to restrict really badly. I want to purge and fast again. I want to become anorexic. I was at to scream out and cry and say that I’m #hurting and I’m weak and I can’t take it anymore #ugh #omg I haven’t made a huge tumblr rant in months omg I haven’t USED tumblr really in months omg #my ED loves tumblr like girl hey

[go-go-devil]

Oh yeah I also attended a lecture hosted by famous tumblr user Neil Gaiman a few days ago that was pretty cool too :)

#might as well mention it since it was practically back-to-back w/ me attending geddy lee's book tour show #didn't get to meet him in-person but he was a very great speaker and I got some great writing advice! #hope this doesn't sound too much like bragging lol