#truly depends with him

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[hwiyoungies]

when the realization Hits

#svtgifs #svtcreations #svtsource #svtdaily #forsvt #seventeen #soonyoung #this had me on Tears it took him a while to put two and two together but when he did #hoshi beloved don't lie truly is your game LMAO #b.edits #i have a wonu set cooking and possibly another hosh one don't know yet #it depends how i feel about flopping today LMAO

[pennyserenade]

thinking about mulder and scully and how gentle he was with her when she was lying there in the hospital dying. he walked into the room with a wide grin and held her hand and kissed her cheek, and spoke to her in hushed, conspiratorial tones, and everything was life or death but it was so quiet, so unimportant, as he sat by her side and looked at her. mulder looked as happy as he’d ever been, sitting there with her, and it wasn’t because he was; he wasn’t. he knew that she was dying, that they were coming upon the moment when she was no longer going to be with him sooner rather than later, and he was crushed by the weight of it, by the impossibility of it. when he came to see her again and she was sleeping, looking pallid and defeated, he slumped against her bed and cried on his knees in the dark—quiet, body wracking sobs she never knew about, because he never wanted her to know how weak her being weak made him. with the weight of impending death, mulder gave scully the most of life, all that he wished she could’ve received but hadn’t: that coddling, that affection, the beautiful mundaneness of domestic bliss. he listened to her—really listened to her. and he really loved her, loved her like a husband, or a boyfriend, loved her the way a better man would’ve.

and then when scully got better, when the cloud of death evaporated and she appeared before him with color in her cheeks and flirtation on her tongue, he took it back. gone were the days of all that soft love and affection and back was the mulder and scully of old. he sidetracked their team bonding workshop, pointedly ignored the glaring fact that scully agreed he needed to work on his communication, and got them stranded in the depths of the floridian forest. even better, he let her coddle him, let her hold him close to her chest and made her sing him a song as they shivered through the night and watched out for monsters that could kill them, because he couldn’t handle it. the idea of being anything to scully other than what he had been before — a nuisance, a challenge, a partner — terrified him so badly he went into overdrive trying to reinforce those uncomplicated roles again. it wasn’t that he didn’t love her. he did — he loved her to the point of insanity, to the point of self destruction (something she so worried about). he just didn’t know how to love scully when it wasn’t dire. he loved her so much that he could not stand the idea of failing her with anything inadequate and half baked. he was glad to give it to her when it was dire, but when it came to life long devotion, he needed a few more years.

#fox mulder #dana scully #x files #i think mulder and scully became end game at this point truly #like her original abduction scared the shit out of him and ruined his life obviously #but that time it solidified how important of a person she was to him. he realized he needed her and would do anything for her #she was his friend. his closest companion #her cancer made him realize he simply could not survive without her. he couldn’t #when she first told him about it being incurable he refused to believe it #and he so depended on her scientific nature — on her science and her rigidity regarding it — and he so valued the truth #even ugly truth. but not that one #he loved her and i think it was during this time he realized how frighteningly much

[light-bender]

Rereading Rhythm of War and listening to how Gavilar talks to one of the most driven, talented, amazing women in Alethkar like:

I want to haul up this man's soulcast statue and bring him back to life just so She can be the one who gets to kill him this time.

#cosmere #navani kholin #gavilar kholin #rhythm of war #brandon sanderson #the stormlight archive #tsa #i really truly hate this man #the level of committed dedicated verbal avuse he heaps upon her #because you can tell how intimidated he is by her #how dependent he is on her #so he must try and tear her down as low as he can #and even then #hes still quaking in his boots #i want to throttle this man #i want jasnah and dalinar to hear what he said to her #so they can revive and then kill him #because they would #how fucking DAFT do you have to be #how IDIOTIC #to try and insult and tear down such an amazing woman???? #i love navani so much ok? #im happy she found better #and honestly???? #never loved szeth as much as i do in this moment

[mxtxfanatic]

The way people view Bing-mei as a villain for having an appropriate (and I’d argue it’s actually pretty damn tame) reaction to being an abuse victim needs to be studied as a critique of how society very easily turns against victims who do not appropriately perform victimhood. In the story, the cultivation world outside of Cang Qiong Mountain are in the dark about how Luo Binghe was treated pre-Abyss, but we the audience know! We know he was abused horrifically for his first 14 years of life, 4 of those years under his shizun. Three years of kindness before being kicked into hell is not going to erase the scars left by that abuse. And just because we the audience also know that Shen Yuan’s Shen Qingqiu was not responsible for those first 4 years of Luo Binghe’s life as a disciple, that does not mean that he is let off the hook for them as the person assuming Shen Qingqiu’s identity, let alone the fact that he is the one who still forces Luo Binghe into the abyss, not Shen Jiu.

Meanwhile, Shen Qingqiu, himself, knows that he wronged Luo Binghe and spends the rest of the novel attempting to make up for it. After all, the abyss, itself, and that final act of betrayal are a point of trauma on their own level above those previous years of mistreatment combined. Shen Qingqiu never absolves himself of his actions the way fandom does for him, but the fact that he feared Luo Binghe’s retribution is somehow enough to flip who the victim is and who the abuser is in too many people’s minds. Even Bing-ge and Shen Jiu get this treatment: people act like because Bing-ge allowed his resentment to consume him in his thirst for vengeance that this not only absolves Shen Jiu of the grotesque abuse he subjected a 10-year-old to for 7 years in an attempt to kill him but that it also makes Shen Jiu the “ultimate victim” of the relationship rather than the reaper of the seeds of abuse he sowed. Cause as we all know, vengeance makes a villain, but somehow baseless abuse does not (🙄).

People take fear (or claims of it) as the sign of “true victimhood” while anger is assigned as an “abuser emotion,” especially in cases of abuse where the abuser is well-liked, and I see this sort of idea in the stated reasoning behind 95% of the Luo Binghe hate.

#svsss #which is funny because in the other mxtx novels #i see people argue that the *absence* of anger or hate from an abuse victim #means the abuse just never occurred #so this truly only depends on whether the abuser is well-liked or not #also sqq fears lbh’s anger and rejection #way more than he fears pain or death #he is just not honest about this until the end #he doesn’t want to directly face post-abyss lbh #because he does not want to see him upset

[sinnbaddie]

Kakashi and Gai’s rivalry isn’t just a breath of fresh air because they aren’t pushed apart thus never genuinely connecting and being vulnerable with each other, but because it’s not made to be a joke either.

Their rivalry clearly could’ve been written one sided entirely, where Gai tries to engage Kakashi and he doesn’t entertain him, but he doesn’t. He participates and enjoys it. Kakashi is as odd and perhaps at times even odder than Gai and that’s why they work so well together imo

#kakashi hatake #might guy #kakagai #might gai #naruto #don’t even get me started on how different his rivalry w Gai is compared to his with Obito’s #his rivalry with Obito was at a time in his life where he was so cold and mean #and his developed rivalry really brought him out of his shell (besides Obito’s death and him being faced with the fact his father was right #^developed rivalry between Gai and Kakashi #idk they’re incredibly kind and pure to one another #and I think if he didn’t have Gai Kakashi would’ve died at some point #and I truly believe Gai wouldn’t be nearly as motivated if he never met Kakashi #I think they’re very dependent on each other and it could easily spiral into codependency but it never really does #because they’ve both healed separately and together and I’m doing so they have brought out their truest selves with one another

[greaterspawnislands]

with phil’s latest mcc win i want to share my favorite bit of mcc trivia on his page

truly who is doing it like him. my streamer

#mcc #mcc 26 #philza #slash affectionate i love him #but it truly goes to show how team dependent he rly is #i could go on for so long abt the qualifications necessary for phil to pop off he’s talked abt it himself before

[good-beanswrites]

An 0309 drabble for an anon ask I got a bit ago :) Thank you for being patient, I really enjoyed writing this!! It's actually a little moment I've wanted to write since I started Milgram fic, but never got around to it. (I mention his injured eye, but don't actually describe anything)

“Stop moving around so much.”

“Don’t tell me what to do.”

“I mean it. You’ll make things worse.”

Mikoto watched as the intensity in Fuuta’s gaze flickered between fire and fear.

He had a doctor’s kit laid out on his lap. Recently, Shidou had his hands full with Mahiru’s treatments and having intense conversations with Haruka, so Mikoto wanted to give him a break. With none of the injuries actually healing as they should, the prisoners were caught in an endless loop of changing bandages and checking for complications.

Shidou was grateful for the help. Many of the others tolerated Fuuta in the same way they spent only the necessary time around Mikoto. They smiled and placated him, acting like he’d gone mad all of the sudden. Whatever was making the others avoid the two of them, it drew the pair together. Mikoto was finding he enjoyed Fuuta’s company. Something about him was rather… charming. 

“Me? You’re the asshole that will make things worse. You’re no doctor! Fuck you.”

Eh, maybe he had gone mad. 

He took comfort, at least, in the knowledge that Fuuta was growing more comfortable with him. He sure had a special way of showing it, but Mikoto didn’t brag about being a people-person for nothing – he picked up on the way Fuuta sought him out during the day, pretending to be involved in his own activities. The way he struck up a conversation, then acted as if it had been Mikoto’s idea to come over and bother him. 

Therefore it was exciting, though not surprising, when Fuuta allowed Mikoto to help treat his injuries. They had only done it a few times, but today brought a whole new challenge. 

“I’m not performing surgery or anything. Shidou said it just needs some basic disinfecting.” He flashed his usual grin. “I have a steady hand – I’m a photographer, you know.”

Aside from Shidou, Fuuta hadn’t allowed a single person to look under his eyepatch. 

He remained unamused by Mikoto’s smile. For better or worse, he could always tell when it was forced. “It’s not like I have any proof of that. You could be awful at it, for all I know.”

“First chance I get, I’ll request a camera and prove it. Want me to take a picture of you first?”

“If you haven’t already messed up my face…” Fuuta’s focus was glued to the hand carefully reaching towards him. 

Mikoto pouted his lips. “Shidou trusted me enough with this. And you must have, because you agreed earlier. So If it’s not about me… You’re not scared, are you?”

There were some things that Fuuta didn’t stop to see through. He sputtered in surprise. “Hell no!” He lifted his chin, finally taking his attention off Mikoto’s hands. He stared defiantly. “I can take it.”

Mikoto felt a bit guilty for resorting to foul play. But not that guilty. “Good. Now hold still...”

He got right to it. One hand held ginger hair out of the way, while the other pinched the corner of the eyepatch. Fuuta’s good eye darted nervously around the room, avoiding the other's close-leaning face. Mikoto peeled it away swiftly, gently

As a horror movie buff, the injury didn’t faze him in the slightest. As someone who’d grown close to Fuuta recently, he felt a wave of anguish at the sight.

Fuuta squirmed. “It’s nasty, isn’t it…”

Mikoto reached down for some supplies. He considered mustering up a smile and saying there was no need to worry so much, but it would have been pointless. Times like these, it was kind of a relief when someone else could see right through him for a change. 

“It looks like it hurts.”

“Tch, I don’t need any pity from you.”

“I was going to say, you hide it well. You’re tougher than the warden gives you credit for.”

His cheeks flushed red. “I – I don’t need any flattery from you either!”

“Don’t need anything from anybody, huh?”

Before he could come up with a retort, he hissed through his teeth in pain.

“Ah, sorry.” Mikoto immediately retracted his hand from where it had been dabbing alcohol onto the injury.

Steeling his expression, he muttered, “it’s fine.”

Mikoto tried again. He made sure to move with even more steadiness, his face drawn up in concentration. He saw Fuuta’s features flinch when he touched him, but he stayed still. The two were silent, now, as Mikoto worked. Leaning his face so close made the short task feel much longer. The reddening in his cheeks didn't subside.

He expected Fuuta to snatch the fresh eyepatch away the moment he unwrapped it – he was shocked that Fuuta let him adjust it into place without a word.

“Alright. You’re all set.” He started packing up the kit.

“Listen, don’t tell the others. About my eye.”

Mikoto squinted. He gestured to the right side of his face. “I hate to break it to you, but the big patch kinda gives you away.”

“You idiot! I just mean, don’t tell them what it looks like.” He pulled his hood down over his hair. “I don’t need everyone trying to steal a look at it like I’m some sort of freakshow.”

“Hey, of course.” Mikoto gave him a smile, the kind they both knew was genuine. “I’ve got you.”

Fuuta nodded. He turned his face away, his fingers lingering over where Mikoto’s had just been. “... And… thanks.”

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #mikoto kayano #0309 #thank you so much for the request woo!!! #lmao it leans more 'serious intimate' than 'sappy romantic' - i hope thats okay #and yeah! i was actually planning to have a chapter in thermoregulation where yuno treated his eye #but every way i envisioned it wouldnt fit right with the tone of the whole thing #so ive been considering other characters and mikoto works So Well -- i was really glad to finally sit and write it out with him!! #its just... having someone as paranoid and ashamed as fuuta actually letting someone close enough to see/touch his most vulnerable injury.. #it Gets me man 😭😭😭 #and mikoto is also showing a very open side of himself - he has someone who trusts him despite everything thats going on with him/john #someone he doesnt need to preform for -- someone who truly trusts him #;--; #im torn between picturing the prisoners staying away from mikoto t2 or him self isolating while they all still really like hanging out #i went with the first option here but it changes depending on the fic LOL #anyway i hope you enjoyed!!!! #the two start out sitting really far apart and awkward but by the end of t2 with mikoto treating him regularly they start sitting like that #meme where the girl is putting on the others makeup LOL #drabbles #what if i keep procrastinating on school writing and i just write milgram fic forever and ever huh

[beaulesbian]

The layers this movie has, almost like an onion.

#glass onion #knives out #im still not over all the parallels OTL this movie #its about how miles always uses someone elses work and words for his own #and so helen and blanc use his own monologue against him in the end #how the shitheads truly cant do anything on their own #either the puzzle in the beginning or stand up for the truth as helen asks them or basically their whole live to be non dependant on miles #and how blanc is essential for the help there but the final actions and words belong to helen *mhaw* #glass onion spoilers #glass onion a knives out mystery #daniel craig #janelle monae #benoit blanc #helen brand #mine #gif:knivesout

[brother-emperors]

I sincerely have so much fun trying to figure out if at any point you re referring to Mark Antony with fondness or with contempt

wheezing this is so funny, I feel like I’ve passed some kind of deception check

#tbh it’s always contempt but I do think that he’s fun sometimes. or at least interesting. I can’t deny him that #he commits unforgivable sins to me but also Richard Burton’s portrayal of him has me in a vice grip #it’s like watching a guy you don’t like do something extremely entertaining like I do not respect you but goddamn. #I guess I don’t talk about him as much here! but boy do I have a lot to say elsewhere™️ lmao #the real question is whether or not I’m feeling entertained or genuine disdain for him tbh (truly depends on the day) #ask tag

[sastiel-is-my-serotonin]

Sam being addicted to demon blood so Castiel offers an angelic fix, love that idea. And propose an expansion on that idea, that Sam gets so used to angelic energy he's capable of manipulating it the same way he can with demons. And angel blood is so much more potent and stronger he doesn't need to constantly drink it to keep these abilities. It's still incredibly taxing and difficult, but imagine everyone's surprise when Sam's able to take down angels without a blade of any kind. That he's able to do it with their grace and diminish it into nothing.

#He didn't know he had it in him until he was backed up into a corner with people depending on him #And he truly felt like a monster realizing what he had done even if it was out of necessity #And he can't even begin to look Castiel in the eyes afterwards knowing there's guilt in Castiel for offering that as a solution #Unaware of the side effects #Like that's free angst right there!! #sam winchester #castiel #sastiel #samstiel #Also what if I say Sam can either diminish the grace into nothing or rip it out of the angel and use that grace for himself... #So many ideas with this!!!

[twixfamily]

ok but here’s the thing. twilight probably assumes that a REAL FATHER would run home to his REAL DAUGHTER after a near fatal hostage situation and shower her with affection… oh he HAS to give her a hug with yor there watching! what if someone asks what his reaction was and it isn’t convincing enough? operation strix could be compromised if he doesn’t react the right way!

so if we get any emotional reunion between the two of them i think he’ll use that as an excuse. of course i believe he wad genuinely worried about her safety (he left a mission early to help her!!) but there’s no way in hell he acknowledges those feelings to belong to twilight rather than loid

#this is how we can still win #ofc i think his reaction at the end of chap 75 is very realistic to his character and agree 100% with his reaction #but #i truly would be surprised if endo doesn’t give some sort of insight into twilights feelings #but like my other post. i don’t think it’ll be some huge tearful reaction #it also is dependent on anya’s reaction when he gets home #all i need is a panel of him admitting he was a teeny tiny bit afraid that she would die especially after seeing a BOMB around her NECK #do y’all remember the two week gap where we all thought it was a real bomb #anyway sorry for clogging up the tag i just really love the resolution of this arc #spy x family #twilight spy x family #loid forger #yor forger #anya forger #spy x family manga spoilers #sxf spoilers

[selenealwayscries]

fuck you *puts your wizard scar in hanfu*

#mcyt #last life #last life smp #trafficblr #goodtimeswithscar #gtwscar #one funny thing bout this is that this fit isnt like an actual fit you can get #i actually looked up concept art from the p2w mmo i used to play religiously and just put him in it #... while also taking certain details out because if i do include them my hands will try to put a hit on me #i actually struggled a lot with the belt . the amount of time i spent redoing it over and over again is truly ungodly #had to take out some of My personal design preferences but its fine since i like it better like this #miss the mourning veil tho . its a banger idea #anyways more hanfu propaganda amirite haha #i wanna do hanfu designs for like . 1 or 2 characters from each last life faction #idk if i should do the southlanders or team best first . depends on which one i can find outfits for sooner ig #maybe send me some in my asks . make my life easier /j #anyways esona vc time gotta go binge insane football with my besties goodbye #catgirl supreme

[levinbolts]

i’m still thinking about it !!

#ffxvi #thinking about how clive only truly feels like himself when he has something or someone to protect #he literally HAS to have someone that needs him and depends on him #acts of service is his love language #the fact that gav needed him so very badly in that moment snapped him out of his spiral so fast #clive rosfield I love u very very much

[twpsyn-who]

Something something soulmate au in which you dream little moments of your future up until you meet your soulmate for the first. The catch? First, you dream only of your future with your soulmate. Little moments of you two together. If your soulmate isn't there, you ain't seeing it. Second, it is a dream. Not everyone is going to remember those. Third, it stops once you meet your soulmate.

Now this but JeanMarco. And I don't know about Marco, but Jean 100% remembers his dreams. It just sucks because more often than not there's more people around so, you know, finding out who's actually the soulmate takes some time on his part. Also he takes notice of the fact that he only sees moments of his time as a trainee. Aka something happens. Cue to Jean spending all his childhood trying to understand what his dreams are trying to say and eventually trying to keep them both alive during Trost.

#Is funny because Jean's on a mission man with little to no information #The idea is that once you meet your soulmate the destiny can change. So not all the things showing up in dreams actually happens. Depends #on individual to be fair. That's why you stop dreaming the future. #Unless you're Eren Yeager in which case um yeah man he also does influence a lot of shits so. There's that #Not much to say about this one honestly. I think Marco wouldn't remember his dreams most likely. #Oh yeah also the future moment thingy it doesn't need to necessarily be centered on the soulmate(s). As long as your soulmate is out there #somewhere in the background or in the close vicinity there's a big chance to see it. Is a mess #I don't know man I want more soulmate aus (in general but also more JeanMarco soulmate aus) we truly deserve them #Ok but Jean dreaming of Marco telling him he's a good leader and stuff and it isn't until then that he's like 'him. He's my soulmate' aww #Jean getting his development faster because of Marco via futuristic dreams #soulmate au #aot jean #aot marco #snk jean #snk marco #jean kirstein #jean kirschstein #marco bodt #marco bott #jeanmarco #Snk jeanmarco #Aot jeanmarco #aot #snk #etc etc #As always only Eldians have soulmates because I said so and because Ymir rules

[kennyomegasweave]

Sooo like does Boston even want Top that badly? Or does he just want him because he hates Mew? Because he already got turned down for a repeat performance before the show, but he's now asked twice more since he knows Top wants Mew and I can't figure out what he's even doing here besides just out here looking pathetic asking for repeat dick from a man that continually keeps saying nah.

And while it's gonnna work on the fourth attempt in the car, it's really sad if it take four tries for a repeat performance. Like my god man. Stand up. lol

#only friends #only friends the series #Boston is just #like what's wrong with him truly #is it even about Top #is it even about Mew #he keeps being an extremely selfish top in his hookups #but is bouncing on that dick in the car like his life depends on it #so like what is going on here #regular clyde