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ipsiducis · 3 months

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#matt bellamy #dom howard #chris wolstenhome #muse #muse band #honestly how can I be expected to get anything done ever when this picture exists #and when i set it to my desktop background #also makes for the worst ever tinder comparison #dominic howard #listening to origin of symmetry xx anniversary remixx #writing about the band #looking at this picture #the brainrot set in so long ago #what did i do before i liked this band #looking respectfully

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void-botanist · 1 month

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19, 20, 21, 22 for the polycule of your choice? :0

whoops we're doing it for two of them :3 and I'll include Heith too

19 - Summarize your character's goals in one sentence.

Marcus: be okay and go home, but also never have to tell Heith about all of his lies by omission

Heith: figure out if she's actually for real serious about Marcus (she thinks she might be actually for real serious about Marcus) and one way or another move out of her hotel room on Aephar

Yera: be a mom and try to make peace with the fact that Marcus is not here to be a part of the family

Hossan: be a dad and help Umedes figure themself out

Gren: see Marcus again and hopefully find out that there was no need to be jealous about his girlfriend, and make sure everyone's okay, especially the baby

Pali: prevent Kiatcarmen from finding Marcus (though that isn't a very active job), make sure the shifter coalition in the court doesn't budge, and get somewhere with her studies of shifter magic

Umedes: figure out whether they want to have a kid or not help

Kiatcarmen: find Marcus, because Minaya must not ascend, and do whatever else she can to preserve her accomplishments in the kingdom

Pirianus: broaden Kiatcarmen's vision beyond legacy, or, failing that, as he has for some 30+ years, get her to open up to him

Caladea: see Marcus again, and for his polycule's sake believe with all her heart the lies they tell Kiatcarmen

Thade: continue completing the political project du jour and end up in a happily ever after with Pirianus, which might also make him more welcome in the palace

Orvi: complete the one thing he was installed in the palace to accomplish

20 - Who's in the way of those goals?

Marcus: his mother. Always his mother. And honestly a little bit himself

Heith: herself, mostly. This is so not like her - well, specifically the part where she's still here when there have been plenty of times to go home

Yera: realistically, Kiatcarmen. But she still sometimes feels like she's lost some of her verve

Hossan: Umedes is the big challenge here. They're just so indecisive

Gren: Kiatcarmen, but sometimes it's easier to focus on the fact that Marcus has an interstellar girlfriend that none of them have ever met and that's so frustrating

Pali: herself. There aren't enough hours in the day for everything, and she has to sleep ugh

Umedes: themself, because they were the one who said this would be a great idea for when Marcus comes back. Who 100% believed Pali and Minaya and her ferasca spouses that this would go great. And who also took one look at Yera & Hossan's baby and thought that maybe they were signing up for more than they realized

Kiatcarmen: Marcus. Always Marcus. But she also blames Minaya and Yera and Pali for his disappearance, and she needs Pirianus to just shut up. This would have been so much easier with Jimmy

Pirianus: Kiatcarmen because he put his eggs all in one basket. But he mostly blames himself

Caladea: Kiatcarmen, but she tries to focus on what she can do better, and how she's getting in her own way

Thade: he's beginning to suspect he's been in his own way this entire time but it can't be understated how much Pirianus is constantly hot and cold

Orvi: it changes frequently, but always some contingent of the court

21 - What is your character's relationship with their emotions?

Marcus: he can't control his bad emotions, so he suppresses them. This has never caused any problems

Heith: she's just as cynical about her emotions as she is about everything else, but sometimes she just can't not feel something completely unironically

Yera: she's gonna feel them whatever they are so [grits teeth] negative emotions are part of the fullness of experience (she will be screaming into this pillow later)

Hossan: left to his own devices, he would feel his emotions, and then let them cast away upon the wind. Being with Yera and Gren has made him learn how to interrogate them more

Gren: he feels everything. A lot. He also conceptualizes things in terms of feelings a lot

Pali: she would like to believe she doesn't have them, but then she lays awake at night deconstructing them

Umedes: they tend to put intense feelings away for later, but don't ever get to later unless later comes for them first

Kiatcarmen: her emotions are so rich and nuanced and nobody understands that, so all of her emotions collapse into some flavor of annoyance

Pirianus: don't like that feeling? Repress it! This will never result in it returning in continually more warped and incomprehensible forms

Caladea: being in the palace seems to have stunted her emotions - they're flatter, duller, and way more anxious no matter what they are

Thade: don't like that feeling? Deflect it! The more mirrors there are between you and your emotions the less you will ever know what they are and the less you can ever be responsible for them

Orvi: he has a mental Tupperware for emotions that allows him to keep control of himself. He is the only person on this list who will actually open that Tupperware on purpose later

22 - What regrets do they have, if any? (From any part of the story, not just exposition.)

Marcus: missing out on eight years of his "real" life, and especially not being there when Gren's grandmother died. If only he'd been stronger, he could have stayed

Heith: before finding out about Marcus, that she's kind of a flake to her band, but they don't seem to mind that much. After finding out about Marcus, that she ever thought there was some kind of "magic" between them and maybe she could feel naïve about love for two seconds

Yera: she regretted drifting away from her father and sister, so she's fixing that now

Hossan: most of his regrets are from the now-distant past and don't make much sense - even he will say so - but he always finds himself regretting that he can't seem to do more for people

Gren: not going home even more before his grandmother died, even though he was practically splitting his time between his home city and the palace. He also regrets letting Marcus leave, even though he had to, and there was no other real choice

Pali: after getting married, she got more distant from her professor mentor, and the regret hit her hard when they died

Umedes: most immediately, thinking that having a kid was a good idea (they are beginning to think that this is a pregnancy kink that got out of hand). But more than anything they regret not going with Marcus, even though they couldn't

Kiatcarmen: Ashmalo was a liability, but she still regrets that he died (despite her image she does not think that assassination is the right way to deal with most problems, including Ashmalo). Conversely, she regrets that she couldn't save Jimmy, even though medical science itself could not have saved Jimmy. She also regrets letting Minaya slip out from under her thumb, because if she hadn't, she wouldn't be stuck looking for her runaway son

Pirianus: that he can't seem to permanently extract himself from Thade. If he stops and thinks about it (read: gets drunk and sad) he regrets spending so many years of his life trying to get through to a woman who would just as soon throw him to the dogs

Caladea: that she couldn't do more for Marcus or Minaya or Ashmalo, and that she still can't. And that being stuck in the palace has left her struggling to try and pick up the pieces of her creativity and her passion even though it should have given her unlimited resources to pursue them

Thade: things he's said to people. Most of them used to be seared in his brain because he thought they were funny, and eventually he figured out that oh, maybe they weren't. But some of them seemed bad from the moment they came out of his mouth (not before that, unfortunately, because he wasn't thinking about it) and he wishes he could take them back for real, especially the things he's said to Pirianus

Orvi: that he's still here. He had one thing to accomplish, and even though it was complex, it's taking SO. LONG. He knew that marrying into the royal family meant that he probably wasn't going to permanently go home again, but the longer this drags on the less he even wants to show his face there, and he wonders if it was worth it at all

#I need to spend more time with Heith tbh. I know she must have other regrets in her life that feed into the cynicism #I'm just not totally sure what/what her situation is outside of her band #Kiatcarmen's polycule gives me the worst heartache help #I actually wrote like 2k words about some shit Thade said to Pirianus after she died and how that did not go well #honestly Thade also kind of regrets never yet telling Pirianus that he loves him as anything but a joke. but he's not unpacking that one #me: Pali was basically a wizard's apprentice before she got married but there are no wizards in this setting #me: wait #I think it's pretty clear actually that Pali doesn't really do regrets. she's maybe better at forgiving herself than any of the others #simultaneously laughing and crying when I imagine Umedes with the baby because they are TERRIFIED of hurting it somehow #despite normally being a very gentle person and very unlikely to do anything wrong #kink mention #c: Kiatcarmen #c: Orvi #c: Caladea #c: Pirianus #c: Thade #c: Marcus #c: Yera #c: Gren #c: Pali #c: Umedes #c: Hossan #c: Heith #wip: iecunem #50 questions ask game

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swiftcast-selene · 2 months

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Day 6: Road

"aye, aye, I know. it's cold, it's miserable. but count your lucky stars we know these roads at night, and the Imperials don't."

#BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE: I HAND POSED ALL 10 PEOPLE IN THIS IMAGE. PLEASE CLAP. I DID NOT KNOW YOU COULD IMPORT POSES.#however it is far too late now. i have gone insane #miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #ffxiv miqo'te #seeker of the sun #final fantasy 14 #gposers #PLEASE fullview these i will cry soo so so hard if you don't #ANYWAY. this would be maybe a year or 2 after the calamity......#he was in the conjurer's guild when it happened and like. the scope and sheer horror of it just cemented the idea he had #that he had to go out there and do what little he was able to do to help #and who was MORE affected by it all than the Ala Mhigans?#post-calamity; in the midst of Garlean invasion; and barred from their one escape route thru the Shroud?#so he spent a few years out there #not necessarily with the Resistance. but with bands of refugees #being passed around as the one magical healer willing to stick around #going to wherever there are the most injured or elderly or sick or kids #trying his hardest to make a difference even though the losses are nearly too much to bear on good days #i'd imagine they had routes where they could accompany people through Gyr Abania so they could make it to safer areas #or where they'd pick up supplies en route or patrol for safety #it's also where he realized like. ohhh. people *will* accept me. i just need to find the right ones.#spent many a night in some stranger's arms not knowing if they'd both still be there the next day...#until the Scions eventually picked him up~#and promised him he *could* make a difference.

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prettyinpunk · 11 months

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whats sluttier a man with no shirt or a man in a tiny tiny shirt

speedrun congrats gift for a very special girlie, beloved loml @originofpwoper 💖💖💖

#things that insane people do #the thing about being an artist is you can play dress up with your blorbo of choice like a barbie #reality is what i say and in my reality dominic howard wears a slutty little barbie crop top #THINGS INSANE PEOPLE SAY #euthanize me #the term speedrun has never been used so generously before its j bc im a slow as hell artist #obsessed musers will know my reference photo #thanks again to bestie domwhoreward for providing as expected <3 #im extremely deranged i love him #hopefully he doesn't look too weird i did my best skghfjd #dominic howard #muse band #muse art #tar.psd

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transdavyjones · 2 years

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cant stand 60s music fandoms *10 minutes later* me and the bestie!

#peter tork #the monkees #my art #fanart #mine #the monkees are in my brain 24/7 I feel like I’m going crazy #i for real cut my hair like his two days ago like what is wrong with me like actually.#i dont like....im not ever really into musicians in this way. like could not name a single memebr of my most listened to band #(before my most listened to became the monkees that is)#so this is....new to me.#I had to make an entire new sideblog for this bc….like where else do I talk abt them lol.#sorry if he looks a little crunchy I did most of it on aggie.io

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hauntingblue · 1 month

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Inept 8 year old boy dragon tries to save floating island is such a concept

#momo just tell him!!! you've done this before!!! yeahhh #'this roof ain't big enough for the both of us'#luffy just telling momo to throw him something too akdhakaj this is back to how he was with koby but it worked so...#just grow some balls man!!! if he can spit something so can you!! BITE HIM!!! AHEKAHQK HE DID IT!!!! YEAHHH!!!!#he drew blood omg.... hell yes..... just be careful he doesn't bite back #luffy's exposure therapy is so effective. worlds greatest psychologist i have been saying this.#also nekomamushi and inuarashi better not die. i am also saying this.#talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1050 #me as baby chopper crying. actually and for real.#i don't have any points to prove for this but sanji and zoro look married in wano. idk man. i can just feel it.#i remember several episodes ago i was complaining about the missmatch of the colors on luffy.... i forgor why the band is purple.... qjwjaj #the music.... slay #i might be getting the luffy worms again i feel so insane..... what do you mean the sky parted.... omg neko and inu.... KICK THEIR ASSES!!!!#luffy fighting kaido and he still has time to boss momo and yamato around ajdbaks and roast him too lmao #momo thinking about kinemon and kiku....#PEROSPERO AND JACK FINALLY!!!!!!!!! carrot omg..... pedro avenged ✔️ now fucking orichi.... how many heads does he have left.....#why is luffy turning supersayian aldjaksn #episode 1051 #just saw trafalgay written on a comment and idk if its on purpose or a misspelling but thags so funny akshaksjaka #yamato and momo father-son bonding time <3 teaching him how to be a dragon... so sweet #also the race of people that could set themselves on fire on mariejoa??? kinda random dropping it in there but alas... ✍️✍️#zoro didn't want franky to help but there he goes.... out of onigashima... a good franky fart would have prevented that...#petition to rename coup de burst to franky fart. like why is it even in french. he is A YANKEE.#episode 1052 #boy dragon sounds like boy genius. who wants to join my band

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capow02 · 1 month

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why do i for the ask game [:

Interesting pick! While I do like this song, I don't really have any strong opinions on it.

I do have a story about this song though! Back when elsewhere was about to release, they changed the website to promote it, and they used an 8 bit version of this song as the background music. I instantly fell in love, weirdly loving it so much more than the 8 bit versions of their other singles. So much so, I actually downloaded it and listened to it on repeat every time I caught the bus back from uni. I was obsessed and so hyped for the song, but when the album came out and I heard the real thing for the first time, I was actually disappointed. I definitely overhyped it in my head, but don't worry, I soon overcame this bias and grew to like the song as it is.

The best part of this song is easily the second verse, from the line "a piece of shit" to the start of the second chorus. There's just something really satisfying about the harmonies and the way it all flows together. I also like the way the final chorus is stripped back, and the vocal improvs Cody does at the end. Other than that, nothing else really stands out to me.

I get the feeling that this song is overhated in the fandom, because of the sheer amount of attention it got from the boys themselves. I get it, and I definitely think they should've put more focus on some more obscure elsewhere songs (as good as it gets, taste of the good life and the magic 8 were right there) but I also understand the band's perspective.

Every time they did an interview, they were constantly singing its praises; Cody kept saying how proud of it he was, and how the chorus was the best thing he'd ever written. In a fan club qna where I asked them their favourite songs from the album, both Cody and Maxx said why do I (apart from Zach who said projector.) So while I understand it got a bit old seeing it all the time, I understand the boys wanting to give it so much attention. I mean if you'd written a song you were that proud of, wouldn't you want to show it off as much as they did? Wouldn't you choose that song to be the one to feature miku? (I still love the album cover art for that btw.)

Anyway. I loved the music video, the aesthetics were perfect, and getting a look at ego, karma and lady luck was thrilling. I remember spending so long on a piece of art for that video, and being so happy when they noticed it on twitter. Fun fact, I also used Zach's fight scene as an assignment for one of my uni modules. In any case, it's a fun song, and while I think it's a bit overhated, it's also not the best off the album. 6/10.

#i think ive posted what i did with zachs fight scene on here before #anyway #i remember when i was doing my constant listen throughs of elsewhere #and this song came on #i just wanted to skip ahead to as good as it gets #i know thats a little mean #i swear i still like the song #set it off #set it off band #sio #elsewhere #pow asks #sio pow asks

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nathaniacolver · 5 months

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"if [name of 'they're-not-my-crush-i-just-really-like-them!'] suddenly walked in here and started making out with you, how would you feel?" did wonders for the questioning queers, i've gotta admit

#core memory of me saying emma watson was my childhood crush & my two friends interrogating me on the way to chem from band #“wait you like girls?” “no i just...i just really like emma watson okay” “but you think she's hot?” “???? doesn't everyone?” “so you're gay”#“No i'm not...gay - i just-” (to the other girl) “yeah she's gay”#“if emma watson all of a sudden walked in here and started making out with you what would you do?”#and then my brain malfunctioned bc the scene was set in my brain. btw it wasn't even like good i just never tried it before #my roommate last year did this with someone else too and i was like Can Y'all Stop. I Already Know I'm Gay

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icharchivist · 9 months

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Since it came up a few hours ago, I looked at the video of Eguchin/ Vane talking to that poor fan and yeah. I'm pretty sure she was crying from the get-go but him calling her "Maru-chan" was so evil, she was barely hanging on after that. I suppose if they invited Hosoyan or Suzuken, the entire audience would be having that reaction, so maybe it's for the best. They're just protecting the public. "Would you eat stew if I made it?" Evil. Truly evil.

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bringing it back here if people need to the context of this ask and need to see just how evil Eguchi is. he KNOWS what he's doing. he KNOWS what effect those words would have had. poor fan was barely holding in together and he just came to ruin them in one single nickname..

if they invited Suzuken or Hosoyan the audience would have this reaction, so true. At least Suzuken could play it all tsundere, but Hosoyan would be able to lay it thick on the fanservice and everyone would suffer from it. But i don't know how Suzuken and Hosoyan are in term of giving fanservice, if they go out of their ways to get reactions from fans or just stick to the standards of their characters.

Eguchi though, i know he provokes fanservice much more. He knows when to stop everything just to have fan yells and swoons. He's evil and terrible.

#i watched a video from some Tsukipro's livereading #(i don't go there but i love the band Eguchi is part of like. legit some of my most listened songs ever.)#and Eguchi Takuya and Saito Soma characters are supposed to have. subtexts let's say.#they call each other honey and darling all the time #anyway they were doing a live reading at some point when Soma had to say 'Darling' and all the fans yelled #and the two of them paused. Looked at the crowd. And went off script.#with Soma repeating 'darling?' and Eguchi looking at him straight in the eye going 'Honey'.#only aND ONLY for fans to keep yelling #while Hanae Natsuki was clapping about how hard they were going #it's living in my mind rentfree.#i know Eguchi do all of that on purpose. He's evil. he knows what fans want and he doubles down on it. evil little man.#also did you know he used to steal gold brick on the sets of fes before #shoved them right in his vyrn bag #not to mention how he tends to climb sets while playing red light green light #he's a menace #ichareply #ichafantalks gbf #anonymous

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burningchapel · 2 years

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I thought destiny was mocking me when it put Kate Bush on TikTok's radar but now I know that was just the teaser for the pain over Mary on a Cross it had stewing in the crockpot just for me

#before u act like a bitch. i dont care about the band being accessed by more people #what i care about is the decontextualization of texts that is fundamental to their entry into the pop culture lexicon #its basic cci 201 shit. mary on a cross is gonna be getting the doc martins treatment just like running up that hill did #smh its like talking to people whose favorite the clash song is london calling but dont realize joe strummers a communist. go home.#i understand intellectually that people are not morally lesser for not caring deeply about the art they treat as consumables #but it is frustrating to see things you care about be misinterpreted or cheapened by a shitton of people thats called being human #do i think tobias cares? not really i think hes a shrewd son of a bitch with a diabolical scheme to explode the band onto the popular scene #in a way tobias is god the music is lucifer and i am the devil worshipper. no need to elaborate i think #that said. as those who know me will tell you. im equally obsessed with fucking the devil and fucking god. so there's no escape #anyways. in unrelated news. starting my job at a Catholic school next week ⚰️🙏🐐💀#❤️‍🔥 tag #god tag #devil tag #music tag #ghost tag #ghost bc #ghost #kate bush #ghost band #mary tag

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inlovewithifsvns · 11 months

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Did I make this blog just so I can post a wallpaper I made for my MC for @infamous-if? Maybe

Phoenix Cadence: he/they

(The large quote is from the Given movie, just adjusted to be related to Phoenix!)

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#infamous if #this if has consumed all of my waking thoughts i am in shambles #phoenix is just #very emotional and keeps it all inside #that one john mulaney meme #“i'll keep all my emotions right here and then i'll die”#was all impulsive and a little shit and then seven left #did a complete 180 in personality #secretive little fucker who is now so so afraid of getting close to others #infamous if oc #went from wearing their heart on their sleeve to wearing it on their cheek #went from “I'll do what I want” to “people pleaser extraordinaire” because they're afraid of people leaving #i mean they were already afraid of people leaving before but WOW was seven the final nail in the coffin #has like no social media presence #[pats phoenix] this baby can fit so much trauma!#[pats phoenix once more] whooo boy the ideas of their family fills me with both rage and disappointment #sad thing that makes me cry every time: Phoenix's name was given to them by Seven #when they were trying to see what name fits them better after figuring out they were trans #they hate being the “leader” of the band because they don't want to make a decision that causes someone else to leave again #anyways please talk to me about my ocs i have so much brainrot #this is literally just the tip of the iceberg i've got a pinterest board and two playlists #if i could draw and photoshop you'd best BELIEVE i'd be drawing them nonstop skfjskfj

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dimiclaudeblaigan · 1 year

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did smth rly important for all of society to benefit from

#DCB Comments #what... what do u mean u thought i was... playing another game...#oh also i am on chapter 18 so i am feeling very uwu this chapter #gonna fucking UWU my ass all the way through tor garen and drag my shithead idiot by the ponytail back into my army uwu wu wu #anyway oscar slays and i thought you all might want to know that #those stats on the first pic are the highest they can go btw besides weapon weight which is the lowest it can go...#but im too fckn filthy rich to care bc mercenaries get paid and when u cash in from the apostle herself u get rich #rich enough to afford whatever the fuck oscar wants #soren has three strength btw. i gave him a knight band for a lil while. he can shank ppl now like a real cute person would do #he can't shank ppl tho unfortunately bc fuck sages with knives here in this house it's easier to get exp by healing #can't have too many healers lying around. one day toto tortor will heal too... one day...#for now he's just an eenie beenie mage boy #how many ppl will oscar slay from now until he is a healy weely sage i wonder #but now of that matters bc i have a blorbo to knock around and force back into my army #actually it matters just not right now. oh hey i also trained marcia again for the first time in like ten files #okay im going to bed now send all your best wishes to my dummy dumm blorbo before ike whacks him a couple times #did you guys know shinon literally acts exactly like me when he's drunk i feel so sorry for him #i can't believe he does that but he does he basically uwus his way through being drunk #don't look now but i have headcanons abt the drunk part. not so much the uwu part #oscar slays btw and if u play por use oscar he's perfect he can do no wrong all he can do is be ur mvp #DCB PoR Run

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tkbrokkoli · 1 year

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tatoasting · 1 year

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Got so drunk today for the first time in a while. Dont tell weed because I dont know if she would believe me, but I like her cousin alcohol better. I dont love the needless incessant horniness weed gives me tbh. I mean, it's very helpful for my hypersexual gf, but for me personally, I prefer the social aspect of drunkenness more than the internal chillness & loving feelings weed gives me. But both are kinda cool, idk, in their own respects. Idk!

#yeayea whatever. my preference is the worse one #but also weed does make me so not useful at all #and on alcohol I can at least manage to talk to people!#met some guy who toured with days & daze or however that band is spelled today #he was so cool and I was actually able to talk to him!!#high me wouldnt be able to do that! she would be like. haha yeah haha what? idc! look at my girlfriend except dont look at them theyre mine #im still drunk btw but I've eaten and its helping. just realized the world is still fucking. spinning tho #thafs all. going to find out in the morning what all the damage that has been done is #did absolutely flirt with a friend lots in front of my gf O.O #but they dont seem to even mind that lol they're just worried that shes a bad influence on me (she is but whatever)#oh. yeah im done typing now. need more food before I get too in my head & sober lol #lov uuuu ttyl

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lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar · 1 year

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showaddywaddy wikipedia, you left out part of the reason choise and the golden hammers combined to form showaddywaddy. yes they shared music taste and got along really well, but also the audience loved them together more than as separate bands. they SAID IT

#me #also it makes it sound like they weren't friends for very long before merging but i thought they said they were #malcolm buddy russ and rod were the golden hammers #they were a covers band #dave trevor al and romeo were in choise #and they did covers and wrote their own #and they all still did what they've been doing in their separate bands except as a bigger group #and i love that #they all got to do everything they wanted but with more friends #until the 80's when everybody started fighting but we're in the 70's right now

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haunted-house-heart · 1 year

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living with someone with untreated mental illness is like. i understand why you're like this and i do empathize but also like. jesus fucking christ get some help before i throttle you i stg

#i hate my sis so much. like i get it. i really do. a lot of how she acts is due to mental illness and trauma but at the same time she also #just really shitty. like ik recovery is different for everyone and you move at your own pace but she just. isnt recovering at all it seems #like its been 6yrs since we got out and my mom and i have worked really hard on getting better and changing our behaviors #all the while shes just getting worse and worse to be around. like shes legitimatrly turning into my (abusive) father #its terrifying honestly but we cant do anything about it bc you cant talk to her #you say like ''hey this thing you did upset me can you please try to not do that again'' not angry or anything and she starts crying and #yelling bc youre triggering her and its not fair and nobody loves her and like. i get that some people cry a lot and thats fine! i get that #but its literally impossible to talk to her about anything bc she acts like shes the victim and youre fuckin evil for telling her to please #not put her dirty clothes on my shelf i dont like that please. like thats not an unreasonable request and im not being mean about it! but #im the bad guy for doing anything that critisises her.#and she treats my mom like shit. like i could deal w her being a bitch to me but to momma? fuck no.#i dont believe you owe your parents shit but my mom has been a fucking saint when life dealt her a hand that shouldve made her a devil #she did her absolute best and *she* was the one that sacrificed everything to get us out #and my sister treats her like shes an incapable selfish idiot.#and she never lets me talk. shell talk for an hour about smth she knows i dont care about but when i try to tell her like. hey my fav band #is putting out a new album or smth im real excited about. she gets on her phone and just ignores me.#and she KNOWS this triggers me badly its made me suicidal before and yknow what happened then? i had to apologize for making HER feel bad #she talks over both of us but it you start talking when she was THINKING about talking she has a fit #and she actively tries to gaslight my mom. like im dead fuckin serious my mom has to ask me if smth really happened bc my sis told her it #did/didnt and she has to get me to confirm the truth for her #and she treats her pets like crap she should not be allowed to have pets bc she just loses interest in them and stops taking care of them #and we have to pick up the slack #its literally just like being with my dad again. walking on eggshells all the time #my mom cant watch tv at night bc ellie gets pissed at her for ''waking her up''. even tho she claims she never sleeps.#i hate her so so much i want to punch her i want her to move out i want to never ever see her again #but rn we cant afford to live on our own. so we have to stay with her #anyway.#vent #tw abuse

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