#what im getting at is i feel like ppl are sometimes like h8 was an amazing dad to e6 but was he really that special

[yumenosakiacademy]

theres this... disgusting feeling ive realized. it didnt use 2 happen, but like, i think i go beyond jus asocial nowadays. realizing tht i sort of quite like socializing sometimes, like how humans need 2 go outside n get some fresh air now n then (not Needed, but refreshing 2 giv the brain some respite), n it can even get me a bit giddy. but i cant trust it at all. no, trust mayb isnt the right word. bc its not like i dont think theyre not geniune. mayb its tht i realize they Are. getting close 2 others feels.. wrong. it shouldnt happen. my fickle feelings n the anxiety tht interacting w others brings shutting me down will only sour things. n the feeling tht i become intertwined w some1 tht i always always hav 2 b w them.. or respond 2 them.. or b present... i cant do those things. my heart isnt always here. n what if i dont Want 2 always b there? one isnt 'supposed' 2 do tht. u hav 2 always b 'friends', right? u hav 2 always Like ppl n Like talking w them n Like feeling stuck. but its not unpleasant. i dont h8 anyone ive ever talked 2. i liked them. it made me excited 2 b able 2 speak my thoughts n laugh at others jokes n laugh in return. but theres smth so wrong abt it all. i desire the closeness of companionship. the nice feelings it brings. the excitement behind getting 2 chat n discuss n joke. of looking 4ward 2 doing so. 2 feel needed n need in return. 2 feel as if im not jus a meaningless existence. like, hey, theres some1 who can see me! im not jus the small cat whos hidden itself in its small forest crevice, who will live n die alone n unknown. but thts what i want, isnt it? its overwhelming in the real world. other 'cats' r an unknown denominator. an unnoteworthy existence is a safer 1. i will only hurt those i touch. i will only ever want 2 live in a state of safeness. of having nothing i o or say meaning anything. of never wanting 2 b stuck. i dont kno. i dont kno anything at all. i jus kno tht i need 2 stay away. an involved cat is a dead one.

#ohh this is not a good mental morning #delete later #idek what the fuck this ramble Is i dont kno my feelings theyre all so jumbled. i wish 2 make my bed n lay in it. uncaring of others #approaching as i will lay in tht bed alone n die there. even if others joining in on the bed would b nice. 4 they will hurt in return. mayb

[queenaboleyna]

Henry VIII: I got the birthday cake!

Mary I: ...it says “Happy 9th birthday, Edmund”

Henry VIII: Oh shit. He’s gonna turn 10, isn’t he?

Catherine Parr: His name is Edward.

#ive been thinking lately i dont think h8 really cared that much for ed on a personal level?? #like yeah he was his long awaited heir and he did his best to keep him safe #but im not getting the vibe that he was the apple of his fathers eye as you know his son and not just heir?? #since ppl usually label him as the favorite which ig isnt technically false but #am i making things up?? bc ive recently come to realize i dont rlly know any instances of henry acting super fatherly to ed #what im getting at is i feel like ppl are sometimes like h8 was an amazing dad to e6 but was he really that special #maybe bc it gets compared to his treatment of his daughters which. not rlly hard to improve from rock bottom lol #am i blabbing nonsense idk #the tudors #history memes #henry viii #edward vi #mary i #catherine parr

[gatual]

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#stupid rant bc I'm annoyed bC #WHY when I do the slightest mean thing bc im either mad or in a bad mood then I'll overthink abt it and cry and feel like the worst piece o #and the 8 years will pass by and I'll remember that moment when I said sth mean and start crying again like bITCHH FIX URSELF GET OVER IT #or sometimes lmao. even remembering moments when other person was mean to someone dear of me makes me feel so bad like KSNSKRNSN WHATDIDIDO #I remember one time when I was around 7 my brother had an eyelash that had just fallen of his eyes #and he put it on his finger and told me to put my finger against it and ask for a wish it's a thing we used to do #but oh 7yo me was in a shitty mood and threw his eyelash away like bitch?????? mean mxthercuker u didn't have to do that HHHHHHHH he was be #being nice but like bro I should have gotten over this by now jdnwnekrbr mind I h8 u #I ALSO REMEMBER ONE TIME #my brother went on a trip and as a present he brought me a Keychain with my name on it and I liked it so much #I put on my school bag #but when I went to school (2nd grade one asshole of my classmates saw it and made fun of it saying that it looked cheap and fake #and I started crying bc I thought that my brother bought it with all his love for me and it didn't matter if it was cheap or fake #I still feel bad abt this WHY #well today mean thing was dad asking me what dish I wanted to eat bc he had three ideas and I said nOne bc I was in bad mood how rude bitch #but then they are the meanest to me but idt they regret it bc they keep doing it😞 #but i love them sm I can't ve mad this is so toxic hhhhh #what a nonsense rant I'll go to sleep hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to study sth #dl #wait but how does actual mean ppl feel like Ik this is all stupid shit #don't they feel bad after being mean sjsjdbejeb how do they work #how can i be mean without feeling bad tell mE

[enamored4]

ok i need 2 do a little rant here because 🙄🙄🙄 basically this guy on discord started hitting me up a while ago (he started messaging me around last november) and i only recently “fell” for him after realizing tht we share music and movie tastes and he sounded super nice and stuff. i was tipsy one day and called him a soulmate which i highly regret now. later he basically told me he was into me and i reciprocated and we started talking more, even video chatting a few times, and the most recent time we video chatted i got pretty high and spilled my guts, telling him about some of my deepest thoughts (my yearning for love, ideas on marriage/sex, my loneliness, etc.). basically i made myself extremely vulnerable, and this was only about a week after he told me he’s into me... way too soon, huh? i was hella flirty to him that night in a voice call w our friends, telling everyone i’d date him and that i think he’s cute and shit. surprisingly he did not stop talking to me after this and ig i should mention that he has a really good memory and remembers things i say which is like literally a bare minimum thing but since no guy ive talked to before has made an effort to actually listen to me it felt surreal and beautiful. now at this point i am thinking “wow, he actually is into me” but i was so stupid bc this is just fucking DISCORD and it’s likely not serious to him. he’s probably hitting up other ppl and like that’s totally normal and cool and what i would do too if i were actually acquainted with normal relationships/intimacy etc. but i lost my fucking cool because this felt so new and refreshing to me, when it[s JUST DISCORD. holy shit, i am so embarrassed........

to add fuel to the fire every time i would try to talk to him normally i would just go off into absurd tangents and say actual dumb shit and i was getting suuuuper self-conscious even tho i know im a queen. i could not act normal, period. i did the most childish thing ever a couple nights ago and msgd him like “omggg sry idk how to talk to guys xD plz tell me if i am annoying” and he didn’t reply even tho he was online. i got so fucking embarrassed at this that i deleted my entire side of our chatlog which dates back to like 2019 and then he asked me what was wrong on snap, acknowledging the message i’d sent (which means he’d ignored it). this made me super depressed which led me to overshare to him about my depression and then i realized that now he probably thinks im some psycho crazy bitch. i even deleted discord and snap out of embarrassment  *(but also mainly bc i was spending too much time on those things)

dudes like i fucking regret this so much. i should have never shared all those things with him which gave me a false sense of intimacy. i was obviously wayyy more into him than he is into me (though i thought otherwise since he’d been messaging me since last yr and i was always dismissive w my responses until just a couple wks ago). i know it;s literally not that serious sounding to anyone reading this but i genuinely felt like i’d met a soulmate. while i am annoyed at myself for being so naive and thinking this was something magical, i also realize tht i did nothing wrong and it’s normal to act stupid in front of ppl u like at first. if anything this has been a learning experience for me and now i will not give two shits about eboys who hit me up.  tbf this guy was nice and wanted to make sure i was ok so i honestly have nothing against him but also when he did not reply to my cringey childish message mentioned earlier it made me feel really fucking terrible about myself so yeah

also i h8 when guys take more than 5 mins to respond to msgs and on snap i was opening every message almost instantly or like a few minutes later while he took up to 30 mins sometimes and it was annoying sigh.... another detail that made me realize i was more into him than he was into me. ANYWAYS SOMEONE PLEASE COMFORT ME I AM SO EMBARRASSED THAT IVE LET AN EBOY MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY

#personal #RANT #long post #im so sorry guys #i actually would daydream about meeting up w him irl #so stupid #god

[morningsound15]

You say it's hard to come into a new fandom because you're not a "moderately well known" writer there. You say people should leave more comments and kudos. And that's all true. But when was the last time you gave an unknown writer a chance, the last time you left a comment? In my experience the well known/popular writers rarely give anyone who's not well known the time of the day. Looking at your bookmark list, full of the same popular names when it comes to supercorp and clexa, I doubt you do.

this ask made me sad :(

that’s not rlly what i was saying about entering new fandoms I was more being annoying & complaining bc i was feeling whiny, it’s no ones fault except mine that im not deep in any other tumblr fandom communities I knew it wasn’t good analysis just wanted to b annoying for a moment

I’d encourage you to look through my bookmarks tag, bc while ya there are a lot of clexa & supercorp fics because those are my main fandoms for reading (they are also some of the largest f/f fandom fic communities on the internet, so there’s constantly new & amazing content there), but it is full of a bunch of other weird rarepairs and couples from lesser known shows & things that are not very well known

also if i get to the end of a fic & i like it i literally always comment! or at least I try to. i didn’t always used to do that but the more involved I’ve gotten in writing fic the more active I’ve been as a fic consumer. I don’t spend all my time reading fanfic, so it’s harder for me to find unknown gems, which is why I like to put out calls for other ppl to send me fic recs! Bc there are some fandoms I’m not deep in so I end up finding stuff people have already read. ive left comments on hundreds of fics and I follow tons of different writers on here to keep up with their work & posting schedules! idk for sure if this is true I guess, but I think I’ve commented on every fic that’s in that bookmark tag, & I usually add a little note in the bookmark too, & if I revisit a story I try to comment again. Even if it’s just a “still love this” I do that, so would love for the accusations & assumptions to cease lol

(also it isn’t like a bad thing to like work that other people also like — sometimes there’s a story that’s so good you have to bookmark it.)

My bookmark page is not representative of the amount of fic I read / kudos / comment on / enjoy! I don’t bookmark every fic I read & like, only WIPs I want to follow & things that really impacted me & blew me away, or things that gave me joy & I want to revisit some day. U cannot judge my fandom behavior on my bookmarks list alone (also those fics are all bangers so no h8 to those authors pls I literally love them). I try to have good fandom etiquette because that’s what I hope my readers would do too! idk if you’ve been following me for a while but I am pretty liberal about sharing fic recs & fanart on my own blog, like if I see creator work I like I always try to reshare. I don’t have very many followers but I don’t think that matters too much

sry obv I’m not perfect & don’t expect anyone else to b perfect so im sry if that’s how my words came across but it rlly is something fandom has lost since the boom of tumblr & fandom. idk sometimes I get comments or messages from ppl being like “I’ve read x y z stories of yours and I finally just had to comment” or “I’ve been reading fic for 5 years and have never commented before” and it’s like thank u! But also pls comment on other people’s stuff! Spread fandom love!

anyway sorry for the rant anon, I hope u have a nice day

#anonymous #asks

[kahananui]

hi  all  !  im  so  excited  to  b  here  w  u  all  n  cannot  wait  to  get  this  show  on  the  road  !  i’m  ruby  ,  i  go  by  she  her  pronouns  and  below  is  my  big  bubbly  hawaiian  boi  iz  !

paging  doctor  𝐢𝐬𝐫𝐚𝐞𝐥  𝐤𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐢    (  jason  momoa ) ,  the  𝑝𝑒𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑐  𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑦  𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔  !  they  are  forty-one  years  old  and  are  originally  from  honolulu ,  hawaii .  they  are  known  to  be  very  𝒔𝒊𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒓-𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒖𝒆𝒅 ,  but  they  can  also  be  𝒈𝒍𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒔 .  (ooc  ruby,  18+,  she/her  )

basically  giant  6’4  smile  w  pigtails

he’s  the  middle  sibling  of  5  kids  who  grew  up  in  a  pretty  poor  area  of  honolulu  .  his  parents  turned  everything  into  an  adventure  tho  so  they  never  saw  it  as  something  detrimental  .  just  a  ‘lifestyle’  lmao

throughout  his  life  he  was  always  the  carefree  guy  ,  mellow  n  everyone’s  friend  .  the  go-to  guy  for  a  pick  me  up  tbh  he’s  just  always  been  this  ray  of  sunshine

he  was  a  big  buff  guy  but  never  really  fucked  much  w  sports  other  than  surfing  ,  was  really  passionate  abt  marine  biology  which  translated  into  a  general  love  of  the  sciences  that  went  really  well  with  the  unyielding  determination  he  has

ended  up  doin  REAL  well  in  school  and  stayed  local  for  university  ,  got  a  bunch  of  internships  at  local  medical  centers  n  the  honolulu  medical  research  institute  which  means  he  YEETED  into  med  school  real  easily  !

his  20’s  were  spent  in  school  and  his  residency  was  completed  at  the  maui  children’s  hospital  ,  where  he  also  worked  to  establish  a  clinic  that  went  out  and  did  pop  up  services  for  kids  in  run-down  areas  at  a  more  affordable  rate  bc  that’s  a  cause  close  to  his  heart  !

basically  everything  was  goin  well  until  his  eldest  brother  had  an  accident  on  a  construction  site  that  left  him  unable  to  work  .  with  several  of  his  nieces  and  nephews  now  left  without  a  source  of  income  ,  iz  decided  to  step  up  to  the  plate  for  his  family  ,  as  he’d  always  done  ,  and  accept  an  offer  from  seattle  grace  to  come  work  for  their  pediatric  department  ,  as  it  was  a  huge  pay  raise  with  significant  resources

he’s  been  at  sg  for  a  few  years  now  and  the  ritzy  glam  of  the  city  has  been  a  huge  change  of  pace  for  him  to  get  used  to  ,  but  he  loves  his  job  and  is  super  grateful  to  make  enough  to  send  back  home  to  his  brother’s  fam  to  help  support  them  !

somewhere  along  the  line  about  4  years  ago  ,  he  had  a  fling  that  resulted  in  the  birth  of  his  daughter  ,  a  gorg  little  girl  named  kalani  who  is  the  absolute  light  of  his  life  and  brings  out  the  responsible  side  in  him  ,  even  if  the  whole  situation  w  his  baby  mama  might  be  a  bit  messy  lmao

* 𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚

basically  all  u  need  to  know  is  that  each  holiday  season  iz  spray  paints  his  beard  white  and  parades  as  santa  thru  the  peds  ward  n  it’s  the  thing  he  looks  forward  to  most

that  basically  sums  him  up

KSJDKSJD  i  kid  ,  but  on  the  real  israel  is  adored  throughout  the  years  of  his  work  for  being  just  such  a  friendly  ,  amicable  guy  .  he  loves  making  people  smile  more  than  anything  and  ppl  could  swear  he  doesn’t  have  a  mean  bone  in  his  body

he  also  doesn’t  have  a  thinking  bone  in  his  body  but  .  .  ..  we’ll  talk  abt  that  later  sdjfsdhfs

just  a  generally  kind  person  ,  ppl  would  say  he’s  soft  n  he’d  be  like  yer  darn  tootin  i’m  soft  lmao  he’s  not  at  all  ashamed  nor  embarrassed  to  be  such  a  big  teddy  bear

on  that  note  ,  any  complaints  he  receives  would  be  from  the  staff  that  he  can  be  a  bit  unprofessional  ,  bc  he  puts  his  heart  first  and  tends  to  think  later  .  he’s  cost  the  hospital  QUITE  some  money  in  experimental  treatments  and  failed  trials  bc  he’s  just  so  passionate  abt  saving  these  lives  he  sometimes  forgets  to  stop  for  a  moment  and  just  think

he’s  been  solid  as  an  attending  but  has  been  rejected  for  the  few  times  he’s  applied  to  the  head  of  peds  openings  since  he’s  worked  at  sg  bc  he’s  good  at  what  he  does  ,  just  not  very  reliable  to  be  good  at  the  technical  side  of  things

also  has  a  tough  time  being  serious  n  doesn’t  like  to  let  his  mood  go down  .  ..  .  when  things  go  wrong  w  a  patient  ,  the  whole  floor  can  feel  the  energy  change  bc  israel  internalizes  EVERYTHING  and  takes�� each  failure  as  a  personal  attack  ,  often  sending  him  into  moods  that  make  him  rather  difficult  to  work  with

also  can  be  50/50  as  a  friend  ,  he’s  either  amazing  or  will  flake  on  u  bc  he  literally  forgot  y’all  were  hanging  out  n  for  some  reason  he  thinks  all  will  be  forgiven  as  long  as  he  hugs  u  real  tight  ?

big  golden  retriever  energy  but  sometimes  we  h8  him  kJDKSDS

#* ╰ . 𝒊𝒊𝒊 . 𝖎𝖘𝖗𝖆𝖊𝖑 𝐊 . › 𝑔𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑒𝑖𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 ; INTRO . #goes w / o saying but like 4 plots ! :~) #hqsgintro

[macdvnald]

[ CHRISTIAN SERRATOS ] • [ SHE/HER ] | is that [ MARY MACDONALD ] , the [ NINETEEN ] year/s old [ GRYFFINDOR ] alumnus , walking down diagon alley ? I heard that the last time they had their fortune read, they drew the [ HIEROPHANT REVERSED ] , which seems [ UNLUCKY ] . hopefully they won’t come to any harm, considering their recent choice to ally themselves with [ THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX ] . they’ll probably be fine - I know they’re [ PERSISTENT ] , though apparently they can also be [ RUTHLESS ] . what’s the worst that could happen ? | 

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history

mary had a little lamb? WRONG. mary had a little calf. because she was born on a dairy farm in the highlands of scotland ( laugh at my joke pls i worked hard on it ). she was born third to two muggles – a scottish father and a mexican mother, who loved each other deeply – and would eventually become their middle child. she could have become overlooked, but mary never felt discounted at home: while her parents were very often busy with the cows, their love ran deep.

her youth consisted of this: running through fields of grass, attending a muggle elementary where people sang songs at her ( old macdonald had a farm and mary had a little lamb ), playing with the animals, building tree houses with her brothers and sister and playing football every spare moment she got. it was good and simple and wholesome.

of course, strange things happened, as they tend to with muggleborns: she’d explode her brother’s toy when she got angry, or let things fly around the room when she was laughing. when she found out she was a witch at age eleven, things fell in its place. and the macdonalds, while traditional catholics, accepted mary, which is the most important thing of it all. her parents were shocked, yes, but they squeezed her shoulder and promised to discover this all together.

which?? very much influenced mary greatly? because it went against a lot of things they – and she, too – believed in? this has allowed her to have a faith in people, and while she may be cynical and bitter at times, that faith is still there.

hogwarts was as chaotic as home, and mary settled in quite nicely. sorted into gryffindor ( she guessed it was for her rambunctious nature, but who knew ), she found herself a second home and loved it. as it turned out, she was rather good with a wand as well – she didn’t do so good at essays, though – and genuinely liked learning ( except for history of magic. fuck that. ).

being a muggleborn had its downsides, of course, but mary never really allowed herself to feel discouraged. hurt? yes, definitely, but never discouraged. she wasn’t going to let it get to her, she told herself, but it did, especially when the harsh words turned into something more. it was during her confrontation with mulciber that mary felt true, harsh fear for the first time. she felt shut down, paralysed, depressed —– but then, after a while, she got up and took some important steps. she reported mulciber, which led to nothing, which caused her to feel angry, which in turn caused her to feel determination. if the system wasn’t going to be on her side, she’d just have to fucking change it, right? mary started throwing herself in her schoolwork, determined to join the dmle – hopefully as an auror, but any position would do. she suppressed her fear and the trauma that was there, and kept her chin up.

the entire mulciber situation is up for change, should we get a mulciber, or if it doesn’t correspondent with the plot/rp canon! 

graduation rolled around and mary got the five required NEWTs to even apply. it was a nervewracking process, but once she got into auror training, she cried. like. for a year. she was so proud of herself and she felt so determined and !! man. it was such a good, defining moment. around the same time, mary joined the order; she knew the ministry was corrupt, and that it’d not allow her to do everything she wanted to, when the order DID. mary had too much anger, too much determination to fight this bullshit to just stick with the ministry, and so the order seemed like the right place.

right now, she’s fighting. she’s gritting her teeth and keeping her goals in the back in her mind and is focusing. and she does not always feel brave or confident or self assured, but that does not matter: mary macdonald always gets the fuck back up, and that’s what she will keep doing until she’s completely knocked down.

personality & tidbits

mary is a human espresso. she’s so. damn. bitter?? despite the fact that she keeps on going and that she’s fighting her ass off, she’s tired and angry that things don’t seem to be moving in the right direction, she’s feeling bitter about the fact that this kind of discrimination is happening right in front of her eyes and that she does not have enough power to stop it. she feels powerless, which makes her feel bitter, which makes her cynical.

still! mary is not necessarily a debbie downer to be around. she keeps her bitterness ( and hopelessness, even ) carefully hidden in boxes in her mind. on the outside, she’s filled with quips and smiles and quick comments! just a sociable bean, but just a bitter one.

is a dog person and will fight anyone who prefers cats. has a cairn terrier called bowie. she loves him more than anyone.

obsessed with tea, tbh. her ma always said that ‘there’s nothing a cuppa can’t fix’ and mary definitely agrees with this statement.

though is also a ‘whiskey in a teacup’ kinda gal

can be spotted wearing either a rly nice ass blazer or a jean jacket, no inbetween. either office-fancy or farmer-chique

fucking loves muggle culture and loves fellow muggleborns and !!!!!! she loves it!!!

very much in a take-no-prisoners mindset at this point re: death eaters. it kind of scares her, tbh, but mary is very much capable of murdering a death eater, even if she could stun them — she’s just done. she’s very. done. with them. and this whole shbang? will only feed into this.

mary is ruthless, that’s what it boils down to. she’s a lot more than that, of course, but i chose that trait for her app because she is --- in small things ( football matches & boardgames ) but also in bigger ones, and of course the war is the main way it shows. mary is so angry. she’s so angry and scared and tired of feeling that way and tired of being scared to lose people and herself and of death and she’s so angry that people really are this way and that they really do these things --- she wants it to stop. she wants the world to be right. and sometimes she thinks the ends do justify the means. 

this is why she’s chaotic neutral and not chaotic good.

like ive had her turned to dark arts before just bc she’s so desperate to. fucking win.

and she’s also like --- mary doesnt care if she ruins herself? if she becomes a bad person who’s unable to live with the shit she’s done? as long as the world is better for it, as long as kids can go to hogwarts and feel safe and the world is a safe place for everyone. what does her soul matter in the grand scheme of things? she’d burn in hell forever if it meant the rest of the world changed for the better.

emotionally driven mess of a being

is catholic but struggles a lot with religion and feeling faithful, but she does still identify is a catholic, it’s just? complicated. it’s rly complicated and she hates it.

is a bit flighty when it comes to romance, def has a lot of one night stands/fwb situations though??? she’s just like??? i dont have time for romance its a WAR

has been trying to stop smoking for five years, but alas

mary also works part time at quality quidditch supplies because the girl loves quidditch ---- though not as much as she loves football.

a proud scot. probably lives in scotland, but i’m ... going to keep her living situaiton open and segue into Wanted Plots!

plot ideas

roomies ----- so mary is not Earning A Whole Lot Right Now but does not want to live at home any more because 1. its in the middle of nowhere and 2. most importantly, she’s afraid of endangering her family. she needs roomies! i’d love for her to live in glasgow/edinburgh/london/idk a city!!!

hook ups/fwb’s/etc ----- mary is what the old ppl call promiscuous and she sleeps around. so ! let’s talk! former hook ups! booty calls! friends with benefits! etc etc etc! 

party pals ---- mary likes going to pubs and clubs in the muggle part of town bc it is a LIT way to escape the reality of the wizarding world and also, muggle clubs have better music. come party w her!!!!

in the dragon’s den together ---- fellow ministry employees who side eye the ministry and whom mary can sip tea and judge their colleagues with

mudbloods club ---- mary loves her fellow muggleborns and i would love some muggleborn friends that she can be buds with. ranting about dumb pureblood names and traditions and the fact that wizards dont have movies

general friendship ideas ---- im just going to a bunch of ideas here: hogwarts friends, ride or dies, order pals, friendly exes, fellow tea drinkers that she can go on coffee/tea dates with, friends who are growing apart bc of the war (my fave), etc.

etc ---- some other ideas i want to spitball: purists who h8 on mary’s life, fellow diagon alley employees, fellow order members, Annoyances, there is solidarity in being scottish, ministry connections, etc etc etc HIT ME UP

#ootp.intro

[siribear]

sera and sunny + ib and eph

4:22 PM - iron bull is my precious son: my sister: after playing video games where you drive, i realized i became a worse driver because i keep thinking i can do all the twisty stuff and can hurt pedestrians 4:22 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats sera tbh 4:23 PM - X-Reyes: everyone has slowly stopped letting her drive if they all go out 4:23 PM - iron bull is my precious son: t b h 4:23 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im sure they are really afraid shed do a hit and run 4:23 PM - X-Reyes: they are! 4:24 PM - X-Reyes: even with eph in the backseat like, 'sera i might be off duty but i'm still a cop' 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sera's like bc ur a cop and u have to drive boringly, im giving u excitement 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: then she gets a ticket and ephs co worker is like 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: bro 4:24 PM - iron bull is my precious son: what r u doing back there 4:24 PM - X-Reyes: eph is the SAFEST driver 4:25 PM - X-Reyes: he just has his head in his hands like 'i'm sorry' 4:25 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i feel so bad for eph bc IDK HOW HE DIDNT LOSE HIS JOB BEING AROUND SERA 4:26 PM - X-Reyes: bc he's the only one that can reign her in really 4:27 PM - X-Reyes: like so sera gets caught running a red light but at least she wasn't speeding 4:27 PM - iron bull is my precious son: id be surprised if she didnt get like 3 tickets trying to drive to a  7/11 to get a slushie tbh 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: eph's on duty one night and catches sera speeding to like a walgreens or a corner store 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: and he pulls her over ofc and he's like 'what now' 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: 'sunny's sick and i'm getting her medicine.' 4:28 PM - X-Reyes: and eph is just like :||||| 'get in the car' and he turns on the lights and they speed to the store and back 4:29 PM - iron bull is my precious son: IM CRYING 4:30 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i love their relationship so much tbh????? 4:30 PM - X-Reyes: team gay 4:30 PM - iron bull is my precious son: team gay!!!!!!!!!!!! 4:30 PM - X-Reyes: i just imagine bull and sera are excellent wingmen for each other at bars and try to see how many people they can win over in one night 4:32 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so tru, no one knows how the two most chaotic people met but there sera and bull are 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: eph's just glad bull doesn't get into too much trouble 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: that doesn't mean he doesn't egg sera on 4:33 PM - X-Reyes: but only having to keep an eye on one person makes his job easier 4:34 PM - X-Reyes: (and bull keeps her in check sometimes. barely, but sometimes. the last time she tried to burn a building down, it didn't go so well) 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i cry 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sera's like fuck u authority fuck u rich people but bull is like rich people suck but at least im getting paaaaaaaaaaaaaid 4:34 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so bull tries to calm sera down 4:35 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i'm hashtag sorry but i still ship eph and bull deep in my heart 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'i don't think ephraim's boss will appreciate you doing that' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'effie can handle mr. tight pants' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'not after what you tried to pull earlier this week.' 4:35 PM - X-Reyes: 'shit.' 4:36 PM - X-Reyes: i'll probably do another ephraim run where i romance bull. maybe. 4:36 PM - X-Reyes: see if i can deal with his romance 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:36 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ;) 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's cute i h8 the kinky shit but his romance esp with male inquisitors makes me go :D 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's cuuuuuuuute i ship it 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: lol 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: just 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: sunny: iron bull? 4:37 PM - X-Reyes: and eph ducks his head and blushes and sunny just ruffles his hair 4:37 PM - iron bull is my precious son: C U T E HOW DARE U 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sunny teases her bro all the time lbr 4:38 PM - X-Reyes: she's def the more teasing between the two of them 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ok but come on. ephs face during th escene where the adivsors come in????? HOW IS THAT NOT ADORABLE 4:38 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i love those lil scene im cryin 4:38 PM - X-Reyes: that's my fave scene ngl 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: SUCH A GOOD 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: eph is so vanilla tho idk how he'd feel about bdsm 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: it'd take him a bit to be okay with it 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: vanilla eph 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats 2 cute 4:39 PM - iron bull is my precious son: eph is really cute he's my son 4:39 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:40 PM - X-Reyes: cassandra goes to sunny later like 'so your brother and iron bull' 4:40 PM - X-Reyes: sunny: 'ah. i told them to lock the door next time.' 4:40 PM - iron bull is my precious son: /SUNNY/ 4:40 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: sunny @ eph: am i going to have to make you a charm that locks all of your doors whenever you take your clothes off? 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: and eph is /morified/ 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: mortified* 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's always sunny in skyhold 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i just love the facct how easy eph gets embarassed 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: it's so cute??????? 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: it runs in the family 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: eph gets her back 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: theres something super endearing abt eph/bull i cant get over it 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: 8))))) 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: well i mean 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sunny gets herself back 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: she's fucking solas 4:41 PM - X-Reyes: lmfao 4:41 PM - iron bull is my precious son: thats enough embarassment, 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: just. if sunny's with cullen, and cullen walks in on bull/eph 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: or. if sunny has a crush on cullen and eph knows 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: and eph goes up to his sister (after she teases him) and he's like 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: 'cullen /did/ say there's nothing wrong with having a bit of fun' 4:42 PM - X-Reyes: 'you're terrible.' 4:43 PM - iron bull is my precious son: SIBLINGS 4:43 PM - iron bull is my precious son: this kind fo stuff makes me smile so big idk why 4:43 PM - X-Reyes: it's all so cute and fluffy 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i still cant believe bull is an actual kinkster 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sometime si forget bc i dont actively think of my faves sex lives 4:44 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but g e e z  e 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: a fucking kinkster 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: my son 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: lol 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: your son turning your other son into a kinkster 4:45 PM - iron bull is my precious son: all my faves are kinksters im happy 4:45 PM - X-Reyes: i can't believe 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im rewatching bulls romance and he si just 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: so head over heels i love it 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: he legit gets giggly 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: /iron bull/ 4:46 PM - iron bull is my precious son: p l e a s e 4:47 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:47 PM - X-Reyes: how does that dragon tooth scene work out 4:47 PM - iron bull is my precious son: https://youtu.be/EQCekHf036o?t=9m40s 4:48 PM - X-Reyes: eph: sunny take me dragon hunting 4:49 PM - X-Reyes: sun: excuse me? 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: im just saying bull is head over heels in luv with eph and thats the cutest i cry abt it all the time 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: his romance minus the sex is just? too cute? 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: why do you ALWAYS do this to me 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: he's so in love i cry all the time 4:50 PM - iron bull is my precious son: <3 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: amna: x is so in love with [sibling] 4:50 PM - X-Reyes: me: oh no 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: HA 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but it's TRUE?? 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: ok first how can they not love those kids 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but also look at bull's face and body language like come on!!!!!! he's always like <:) and legit giggle 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: s 4:51 PM - iron bull is my precious son: that dude is in love 4:51 PM - X-Reyes: sunny and eph literally grew up with no one loving them but each other and now they've got so much 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: they just had to find the right ppl <3333 4:52 PM - X-Reyes: an odd twist of fate 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: and the no matter how far apart comes to play here 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: dun dun dun 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: odd twist for sure 4:52 PM - iron bull is my precious son: look @ who's in their beds 4:52 PM - X-Reyes: mama trevelyan hates it but oh well~ 4:53 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i will fight their mother 4:54 PM - iron bull is my precious son: https://youtu.be/EQCekHf036o?t=16m27s 4:54 PM - iron bull is my precious son: i cry all the time 4:54 PM - X-Reyes: i can't get over ib's voice i'm sorry 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: LOOK 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: sometimes i like it 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: most of the time i loathe it 4:55 PM - iron bull is my precious son: but its my son! 4:55 PM - X-Reyes: lmao 4:56 PM - X-Reyes: i still can't get over cullen in that scene 4:56 PM - X-Reyes: 'do you see this?' '(covering face) no' 4:57 PM - iron bull is my precious son: cullen 'totally straight' rutherford 4:57 PM - iron bull is my precious son: cullen is me @ kinksters 4:57 PM - X-Reyes: eph totally teases sunny over it 100%

#siri drabbles #not really writing but i found this in my drafts #divinevivienne #amna.... i got so emo reading over this again i miss my KIDS

[eeslek]

feb2021 memories & photo dump & rant,, moments pass by so quickly when i’m having fun //and crying!// so it’s nice to look at my photos it gives me the comfort the moments&memories used to hold

// thinking of all karlas pop ups,,i luv spending $80 every time i go & getting korean corn dogs with everyone!

<3v secure in my friendships i feel like i hve too much luv for them sometimes

im living with my new obsession with scrapbooking/journaling <photo #4 is from my mood board!!>>

:4 i hope deeply i won’t be the 1 my dad will soon call to always pay his bail or put $ on his books,,,but there’s no one else i’d wNt to put that burden on so i’m ok with it being me.

——i was thinking abt how i’d never daydreamed about my mom & dad as normal ppl<like us as a family> ,ig i think they’re too broken to even fake it

i’m gnna over share rn but i think my childhood literally broke me,,,i feel like watching my parents beat eachother did something im so intimidated by men bc my dad scares me sm,,

sometimes i h8 myself for wanting them to be better :/ sometimes i wnt them so badly

it’s sorta hard carrying around my resentment towards them but i’ll carry it 4evr bc it’s too much a part of me to forget. they’ve carved their way into me & i’m trying to figure out if it left any good parts,,,some days it sorta hurts to think abt

black families don’t seem to get it ,,,there’s literally a physical drain when it comes to being so broken & sad,,, u think they’d understand since they caused it ?

::all that trauma from my family is catching up to me i think,, i don’t know if i can continue to hide <it’s time for therapy fr>*<

sm ups and downs & it’s only march let’s manifest it gets better

the fault in our starts was right when augustus said we’re on a rollercoaster that only goes up !🤣

4am & i haven’t slept, you can’t blame me for what i post !

[valkurious69]

My Sweet Sacrifice CH. 3

After getting all the deets frm the Moana aboot this guy Dysom an what she wants me to do w him, I decided it was time to take a well-dissolved brake. A gurl needs to unwhine and treat herself, ya no?

An what butter way 2 do so than by breaking a sweat?

 “ung!!” I giggled, fist hitting the punching bag hard. I was at the training strudio @the Valkyrie Academey. Oh ya, I go to school there, pretty standard 4 all valkreese my age. We lern how to use are poweres, fly, proceedre for taking ppl to vallehhr, etc:. Pretty boring sometimez, but I haf a few frionds that make it worthwell. I am so clos to graduanton, I can taste it. Taking on this missen from the Morigann will def make it happn sonner rather than l8tr, so I can’t afford to be out of top fiting shape. Luckily, I am in one helluva sexxy shap already.

Rn I was doin cardi to keep it that way.

“Wow, lookin gud Tamzin....” said my frond Stacey. She was ulso working out doin kickboxxin close 2 me. Her blonmde hair was pulld into a high ponytale, swingin as he kickd. She was more of a prep than I wos, but that don’t mean I h8 her. I mean, at first I deed, butt then I found out she licked Taylor Momsun as much as I did, and we were kool evar cents. (AN: if u don think teh pretty recklace is the BEAST BAND EVR than go KEEL YORSELF!!!!1111!!!) (TPR ROXXXX!!!)

“k thnx,” I repied, nonchaletly. I didn’t want her to no that I was realy sweatn. So not sexy. “u doin good yorself 2.”

“ugh I don feel liek it tho,” sje moned, pausing. “i keep fuckn up on my from. I wish i culd b as perfect as u at it.”

Couldnt argue w that. But I coudln say that obvs, or else I wuld look like a douch. Sometimes I wish Odin hadn’t blessed me with this curse of perefect beauty.

“Aw nah, don say that!” I assured insteed. “Here, let me show u how to improv.” I walked over to her, cumin from behind. I positned myself around her w my arms follwing hers, fixing her form as I explaned. My breaff ghosted her nick. ”U gotta be more fluids... let ur body take ovr...”

I leard a smol moan escape her.

I walked her sensuallie thru the motions and rubbed aganst her booty and thigs when we kicked, holdin her waist and arms steady. She trebeled but followed my instructshuns, punchn und kicking like I do. Afterwards, she was a hot mess, but a much more component 1. I smirked gloatfully.

“An that’s how u do eat.”

“Ohhhh w-wow! Thx tamzin!” she panted, flushed. It was real hot and all, but I din’t want 2 b a crepe. I mean she’s my FRIEN and all, it would b werd. “Hey, I wanna try it on my own now! Spar w me!” “K” I conceited, taeking my stance. WE started to flight, matching each udder’s blows, but I was still doin mych better if im being honest. Kick punc, punch kic, we ketp going round-4-round this way for a long ass time. Then, suddnly, I lept up to spin in mid-air and whip around real fast on her, extending my leg for a kick, when i heard a SNOP. 

I scremed loud and fell to the padded gym floor, holdin my knee.

Stacy was all like “OMF!!! sum1 get a doctor!!>” as I was passing out frm the shook. I was super happi she was concerned, but her shriek yelling was gettin om ny nevers. I mean i was in PANE for odin saks!!11!! She culd b a little moar genital. Footstep approched, some older valkyree teachers hearing her cry, and started to halp me up. But I was already fadin out of consceince, since the owie was too grate.

Next thing I new, I was woke up in a whole diff place.

 --------------------------------- (AN: srry not sorry I took so long updoting, but I haf a LYFE u no!!11!! I cant always b wasting my thyme onlin lik SUM PPL!!!! also I won’t update again til I get at lest 5 NOTES onm this chapp ok!!?? I don do this 4 my heatlh, which isn’t too good rn bc of that fall I just took lolllll lamo roflll ::;D)

#i so funnay #but that realdid hurt tho #oww #my immortal #my sweet sacrifice #chapter 3 #lost girl #parody #tamzin ran fenrir loki #valkyrie #fae #fantasy #the pretty reckless #comedy #writing #fanfiction #novel november #bisexual #girl on girl flirtin #sort of #when you tryin to hit on your straight friend #by correcting their form #and totally turn them on #only to promptly go and injure yourself #after needlessly showing off #way to go tamz #you're doing great sweetie

[ofhllfire]

it jay now fckin plot w me u lil dickens. ( also pls at least read the last bullet it’s v important like,,,, and i dont mean j important in that sorta ‘btw my fav restaurant is named after me’ i mean,,,, pls read it. )

hEY HEY HEY KIDS !! im weak and im bringin emma frost 2 the crew. let it be known that im still studyin up like i kno a good amount abt her but not as much as i kno abt ivy and even w ivy who i’ve played multiple times im like,,,,,, sO BEAR W ME!!! I S2G I WILL GET BETTER AS TIME PASSES I GOTTA BUNCH OF COMICS UP W HER bc tbh,,,, i h8 myself but i’ve never liked the x-men movie ( speaking of which im gonna have 2 crop so many fckin gifs and also probs make some rip ) anyWAY

my weird-ass app is gonna help w this let’s go:

“BOSTON (ig)“

first of all,,,, the xmen are like. everywhere so i just set it where she was born and, for the most part, raised. her dad was a dick. mom loved pills. one sister was also a dick ( and emma killed her later on lmao get rekt ). other sister was ok i guess. brother was awesome i love christian but also got real fcked up bc of their dick dad.

there were a bunch of debacles involving an uncalled for student-teacher romance, a loan shark fake kidnapping turned real kidnapping, another uncalled for student-teacher romance, a mentor who turned out to also be a dick but it’s ok bc now she knows how 2 do everything, was ostracized for being a mutant bc that’s how things go

will get 2 ‘do everything’ in the last bullet

“EMMA FROST GDI U AINT CREATIVE RMR WHEN U WERE THE WHITE QUEEN BC I DO“

the hellfire club was like super elite but also super corrupt and there were rankings and white queen was the highest u could get

while lana del rey fucked her way to the top, emma frost basically tortured and killed her way to the top

was like. on top of the fckin world for forever. the hellfire club was VERY pro-mutant, anti-human. but also very fucked up.

fckin loVED torturing ppl thru images put inside their mind. what a bitch.

she actually fought the x-men multiple times bitch u j wait.

...eventually teamed up w the x-men.

...eventually became an x-man. 

has fickle relationships w most of the other x-men tho bc like “who r u gonna be todAY EMMA HUH???”

“ANTIHERO (sometimes)“

she’s the ‘token evil teammate’ to the x-men bc who would i be if i didnt play a manipulative lil dickens ?? not jay. that’s for sure.

sometimes reverts to straight-up villainy. has killed innocent enough ppl during her time in the x-men. 

a bitch.

has a HUGE guilt-complex that has been lampshaded. like 100% blames herself for the deaths of every single one of her students (bc. a lot of her students have died. and it’s rly sad. bc her students are p much the only thing she cares abt.) 

like the comic that's famous for lampshading it (aka the comic that everyone fckin loVES and knoWS that talks abt it briefly) it’d be a spoiler 2 take a screenshot but gimme a second

after jean found out abt emma and scott’s psychic love affair she entered emma’s mind (technically vice-versa) and made her relive some p bad moments which??? honestly??? cruel. but also like,,,, bitch deserved retribution

the one thing that made everyone stop jean tho was as follows:

( 1 ) ( 2 ) ( 3 ) (shut up scott)

ALSO THIS IS A BIG ONE it happened right after genosha and for those of u who dont kno emma was in a coma then woke up in iceman’s body which should explain wtf is happening in the picture:

( 1 ) ( 2 )

v much blames herself for genosha too. which. she legit. didnt do anything. in.

so ya. she h8s herself sometimes. but.

also has a superiority complex. ok.

technically w scott (like,,,, before inhumans but im not counting that bc tbh i rLY FCKIN HATE THAT STORYLINE FOR A MULTITUDE OF REASONS) but,,,,,,, i hate how they got 2gether,,,,,, and it’s been lampshaded multiple times that how they got 2gether wasnt right (emma lampshaded it once) and how their relationship can be toxic sometimes so like.

v on the fence abt that.

she also got boy toyz tho. she aint a cheater but she still got some backup side-hoes.

speakin of. in the comics she’s only gotten w men. but she gives me a hella bi vibe. so she’s hella bi.

anywaY there’ll be more than these disorganized bullets when i get her full bio up sometimes tonight probs. buT powers includE:

a lot. i was gonna list them j using the wikia but that’d take up half of my space. most notably, she can read minds, see pasts, project images, heal traumatization thru mind stuff, make ppl see a $100 bill when she actually gave them a newspaper clipping, possess ppl’s minds, can turn into a diamond form and becomes impervious to bullets. when i get her abt page up they’ll all be listed.

marvel sucks they gave her v few weaknesses which is honestly v unfair but they are:

“while in her diamond form, frost is unable to access her telepathic abilities.“

“alcoholic: after killing her sister, she became alcoholic.”

that’s legit all they listed. 

i am not kidding when i say i wish she had more listed weaknesses like that’s such a mary sue powers thing.

anyWAY LAST BULLET:

ok. so most of emma’s powers would require god-modding if they were used on a playable character which isn’t cool if you don’t talk to the player ( this is why ivy hasn’t used her pheromone thing on anyone yet bc it godmods, but,,,, like,,,, almost all of emma’s powers do so this point is necessary ). if u respond with a “.” then u are giving me permission 2 let her be all telepathic-y towards ur character. i will obVIOUSLY only do it when it feels verY opportune. if u do not but there is an opportune moment i will come to u. 

like this or hmu if u would like 2 plot !! respond w a “.” if i can get fckin telekinesis-y.

#dd:ooc #well. look at me. actually. using. that. tag. #alsO j so everyone knows my new insult is 'dickens' bc it's hilarious. #i will probably. reblog this. a few times. mainly for the last bullet. #and also. bc. it wont show up in the tags until tomorrow. as i have learned from ivy. and from j looking in the tags lmao. #anyway this fckin suCKS BUT I WANT YALL 2 HAVE IT. #also i hope everyone feels cold when they open my theme. imma do some editing of the color scheme later but it still cold.

[vampirefucker2]

all the queastions btw i love you

I WUV U!!!!!!!!

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?uhhhhhhh my irl friend i think2. Are you outgoing or shy?UH!!?????!!!?!?!?!?! both3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?my wonderful boyfriend sorey!!!!!4. Are you easy to get along with?uhh my friendz said ya soo5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?i wouldnt b drunk but ????? idk???6. What kind of people are you attracted to?sorey7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?ya!8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?no one9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?uhhuhhuhuh idk10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?uh sorey probably11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?“im gonna take a quick nap wake me when the dryers done”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?not in any order butlo-fi children by wild partypay no mind by madeonno culture by mother motherback to front by early hourseverybody come outside by the pomegranates

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?ya!14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?uhh sometimes??????15. What good thing happened this summer?i got a wonderful beautiful boyfriend who i love very much!!!16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?theres no one to kiss!17. Do you think there is life on other planets?ofc!!!!!!!!!!!!!18. Do you still talk to your first crush?sdfds no i only crushed on him cause other ppl in my class were getting crushes and i wanted to be a Cool Kid19. Do you like bubble baths?ya!20. Do you like your neighbors?uhh never met them but i like their dogs21. What are you bad habits?i pull on my hair and pick at my nails a lot22. Where would you like to travel?netherlands23. Do you have trust issues?ooo ya24. Favorite part of your daily routine?this sounds gay but msgsing sorey25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?uhhh m chest26. What do you do when you wake up?msg my palz n pm sorey27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?idk its fine as it is i think28. Who are you most comfortable around?sorey29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?i think bt it ws complicated30. Do you ever want to get married?well me n sorey r p much already there31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?nope!32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?hhh idk i dnt kno much abt any celebs33. Spell your name with your chin.l,ersttg34. Do you play sports? What sports?i h8 sports!!!!!35. Would you rather live without TV or music?tv36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?ya37. What do you say during awkward silences?\nothing i leave it38. Describe your dream girl/guy?sorey!39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?thrift shop also like any decor store i luv homesense40. What do you want to do after high school?uhh well im there now and im jst working on portfolio41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?nope42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?i jst dont have uch to say bt i also might b depressed u never kno im a suprise!43. Do you smile at strangers?i try to bt only if we accidentally make eye contact44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?SPACE the deep sea is scary45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?sorey46. What are you paranoid about?everything!47. Have you ever been high?no!48. Have you ever been drunk?no!49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?uhhh i dont think so???50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?grey n black i think51. Ever wished you were someone else?uhhh i dnt understand th question 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?2 many things to name one53. Favourite makeup brand?uhsduhfui idk54. Favourite store?homesense55. Favourite blog?ilovemikleo1 hes a cool guy56. Favourite colour?pink! but i also rlly like blue and purple!n red an aaa i cnt pick57. Favourite food? sweets58. Last thing you ate?all dressed chips59. First thing you ate this morning?cherry gummies60. Ever won a competition? For what?i once one a ssb competition @ a friends bday party and normally i suck at smash but the prize was two (2) cosmic brownies and i Wanted them61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?nope!62. Been arrested? For what?i hav not63. Ever been in love? eheh yes64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?didnt happen!65. Are you hungry right now?not rlly66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyahhhhhhhhhh67. Facebook or Twitter?i dnt use either bt twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr?twitter tumblr is the devil69. Are you watching tv right now?nope!70. Names of your bestfriends? sorey bt also uhhhhhhhhhhhhhall my friends!!!!!71. Craving something? What?i jst want more chips72. What colour are your towels?they vary cause i have many bt rn yellow72. How many pillows do you sleep with?1.573. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?ya!74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?100000075. Favourite animal?crows n also ravens dont ask me 2 choose76. What colour is your underwear?skipping ths77. Chocolate or Vanilla?vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour?strawberry!79. What colour shirt are you wearing?mahogany80. What colour pants?black81. Favourite tv show?uh!!?!?!?!?!?!?!82. Favourite movie?the secret of kells83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?never seen mean girls 284. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?never seen 21 jump street85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?dont have one86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?dont have one87. First person you talked to today?sorey!88. Last person you talked to today?m in a call bt sorey ws th last person to say smthn89. Name a person you hate?uhhhh i do h8 someone but i cnt say who they r90. Name a person you love?SOREY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY BF SO MUCH!!!! and m friends91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?see #8992. In a fight with someone?not atm93. How many sweatpants do you have?like 294. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?2 many95. Last movie you watched?i dont rememberr96. Favourite actress?dont have one97. Favourite actor?dont have one98. Do you tan a lot?no i just burn99. Have any pets?i have a dog!100. How are you feeling?uh?101. Do you type fast?kinda102. Do you regret anything from your past?living103. Can you spell well?no but i thought this said \can you cast a spell well’ and i got excited104. Do you miss anyone from your past?ya .105. Ever been to a bonfire party?nope!106. Ever broken someone’s heart?mayb107. Have you ever been on a horse?ya108. What should you be doing?art109. Is something irritating you right now?not rlly110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?ya111. Do you have trust issues?ya112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?sheep!113. What was your childhood nickname?didnt have one114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?ya!115. Do you play the Wii?yup!116. Are you listening to music right now?nope!117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?ya!!!118. Do you like Chinese food?depends what it is119. Favourite book?haunting violet by alyxandra harvey120. Are you afraid of the dark?sometimes121. Are you mean?i think i am bt ppl say no so uh122. Is cheating ever okay???!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?idk123. Can you keep white shoes clean?sometimes124. Do you believe in love at first sight?mayb125. Do you believe in true love?ya!126. Are you currently bored?a lil bt not rlly127. What makes you happy?sorey!!!! and my friends!!!!!! and vampires……128. Would you change your name?im tryin 2 do it129. What your zodiac sign?cencer130. Do you like subway?its ok131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?ths wouldnt happen bt if it did id ignore it132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?sorey133. Favourite lyrics right now?“im like a bull in a chinda shop knocking off an knock off” frm no culture by mother mother134. Can you count to one million?no i dnt have the patience for that135. Dumbest lie you ever told?uhh idk136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?closedd137. How tall are you?5′5″138. Curly or Straight hair?curly139. Brunette or Blonde?i hav brownish hair bt i like both140. Summer or Winter?summer141. Night or Day?night142. Favourite month?julyy143. Are you a vegetarian?nope!144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?all!145. Tea or Coffee?coffe146. Was today a good day?idk it ws jst ok147. Mars or Snickers?mars148. What’s your favourite quote?uhfdsfuishfui idk149. Do you believe in ghosts?ofc!150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “he was dressed impeccably and properly, no matter the hour”

#ilovemikleo1

[mogamifucker666]

 cabana au plot thing maybe. i can’t write so.. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

premise: Mogami is an assassin/hitman, working at a tropical resort for cover. his mom is sick. he works with SG guy (Sargent) as assassins but also at the same tropical resort place. Matsuo is a rich gold digger, killed his last husband but was judged innocent in the trial. now he’s looking for thrills, doesn’t desire more money, just trying to have a good time. which for him means.. causing choas.

(this post is so long and dumb and gay i am so sorry for anyone on tumblr mobile RIP)

(edit: it’s even longer now and i tried to fix the typos from before. i hate how invested i am in this AU and yet i cannot stop.)

Matsuo comes to this resort regularly and the staff are Wary and particular about the staff they (somewhat) sacrifice to Matsuo. but Matsuo has MAD CA$H so they assign him like.. a personal attendant of sorts.

Mogami was hired between the last visit and this one, has been working there a lil while (some months but less than a year), Sargent is part of the resort’s management and works to cover for Mogam to give him alibis while he’s off killing ppl Just In Case

Mogami probably has an alias that he uses for like everything and that’s “Kai” bc he works by the ocean lmao. 

I guess Mogami works around the pool and beach? waiter/bartender type thing. trained as a lifeguard so he does that too.

Anyhow he gets assigned to Matsuo, is aware that Matsuo’s was on trial for the murder of his husband but wasn’t convicted, but doesn’t really know what to expect. definitely not the chaotic twinky gremlin that Matsuo is in this AU.

Possible first interaction: Mogami is just trying to serve some drinks  and Matsuo intercepts him and he's like "can i help you.....uhm........?" (can't figure out Matsuo's gender) 

Matsuo, "that would be sir, thank you. but in a different context you can call me baby." Mogam is internally like o no-- Matsuo, not missing a beat, "and i can call you daddy." and Mogami is like. CRIngiNG he's like this is it, this is the curse brought on by killing people, the bad luck has finally caught up with me-- etc

Matsuo has a thing about paying ppl with Mogami’s job 4 sex/seducing them

Mogam is not about it

Matsuo won’t ease up

Anyway. things r tense and assassin stuff is more difficult bc of dealing with being Matsuo’s attendant. but there r days when Mogam isn’t working, where he has leave to “see his mom” which are often used for assassin stuff but. sometimes seeing mom. sometimes both.

Mogam still maintains his cool and indifference to Matsuo’s attempted advances

it’d be ridiculous if Matsuo very obviously fakes drowning. standing in shallow water (literally standing) and just flinging water around and looking like a fool, calling out “help me lifeguard! im Drowning! oh the humanity! i am struggling to breathe oh lifeguard please help me!” mostly bothering the other people around so Mogami feels compelled to usher him away but Mogami does Not lol and Matsuo just looks like a desperate fool.

maybe he actually pretends to drown

“i think i need cpr”

“i’ll just call an ambulance for you”

“come ON” as Mogami gets up and Leaves

Matsuo: >;;;;^(  Mogami: B^|

Matsuo prObably goes for some other poolboys in the meantime. partly for attention, partly because it’s what he does.

Matsuo insists that Mogami has a secret (and he does) but Mogam denies that he has any secret of interest to Matsuo

somehow Matsuo finds out about his mom tho and Mogam is like “ah yes. my dark secret. i am indeed secretly tender at heart and love my mother very much. u got me.” but like. no it’s that he’s killing people. But there is some bonding and more respect from Matsuo. some but not much.

the Advances continue tho Matsuo is like still like  “if u need money then sleep with me??”. Mogam is like. No.

also, at some point, Mogami to Matsuo “has anything bad happened to you at all in your life?” (bad things have happened but it’s been a While and Matsuo is hella detached from that)

Matsuo is legit like. lowkey a psychopath probably and breaks into Mogam’s (place of residence) (apartment proabably?) and Mogam gets back from a nearby “job” (shady bloody job) and Matsuo sees him (Matsuo wasn’t hiding lol) and Mogam Very Clearly bloody (under the shirt he was wear and since removed bc he’s home now) and is internally like “i’m not prepared to deal with this. this is over my head, the disappearance would go noticed, and would obviously connect to me... i’ll call Sargent. i probably have to kill him, such a hassle.. could be the end of things. what i thoughtless greedy awful--”

i drew it:

(evil gremlin pixie gets gay while dead-inside man contemplates the logistics of murder and disposing the body)

he glances down and Matsuo is like... sparkly heart emojis looking at the blood on Mogami and. Mogam is CONFUSED hE’s like “What.. are you doing looking like that?????”

(the blood drawn on his face/hand doesn’t make sense now that ive thought about it but. i can’t be bothered now.)

(my fave Mogami reaction to Matsuo is “bitch what the fuck” honestly) 

Matsuo is rlly hot about the blood i but Mogam is just tired of this he’s like. resigned and kind of given up and legit just “I’m going to take a shower”

“can i come with u? ::::3c”

“you can do whatever you want” (figures Matsuo will follow him but doesn’t care if Matsuo leaves and tells the police he’s just tired rn)

Matsuo does follow him (he’s got his Eyes on the Prize)(the “prize” has gotten more and more interesting and enticing as time went by and now he is enthralled. Matsuo is chaotic and freaky and i love him. kinky(TM))

Mogam is trying to ignore Matsuo in the shower but eventually just Gives Up and like yeah wow sex huh

it is. a lot more good than Mogam anticipated and Matsuo is very :^)))))) after (satisfied and “i told u so” and still sneaky but also. more solidly attached now)(Mogam is endearingly passionate  and it’s hot i guess idk don’t look at me)

Matsuo is probably the only (alive) person besides Sargent who knows he’s killing people so like. that relieves tension and allows for more intimacy ok

(im gay don’t talk to me)

at some point after that Matsuo is like “you like killing people”

“no, it’s just a job”

except he does and something happening close to the time of the convo is like ‘wait yes i do enjoy it..’

At Some Point Matsuo gets a wound over his eye (so the scar matches canon lol), it’s somehow a result of hanging around Mogami

thanks @ Nick for this idea: maybe Matsuo gets kidnapped and Mogam has to go save him. Jokes on Mogami tho Matsuo knows how to use a gun and can handle i knife decently. basically Matsuo kills at least Some of his abductors, gets his face slashed, and escapes by the time Mogami arrives to save him.

probably a sobering experience for Matsuo like ‘o right actions have consequences that affect me. wow. strange.’

this isn’t a deterrent for him tho, he’s still having fun, but he’s gonna be less flippant and careless from then on.

idK eventually an agreement of commitment happens and like. Mogam quits and the resort and moved back with Matsuo to the US i guess and now he doesn’t have to worry about money for his mom’s care bc Matsuo is stacked.

so Matsuo has married twice and the latest one is dead but the other one (his first marriage) is to Toichiro.

Toichiro’s wife divorced him, he’s rich and is some important af person in a corporation idk, he and Matsuo r together for a while and then married briefly and then Matsuo divorces him and gets hella money (awful. cruel. rude boy. evil. i love it) 

(their relationship was like. probably kind of sad bc Toichiro is pretending he’s not torn up abt his ex-wife and maybe Matsuo like?? wasn’t just being a gold digger and actually cared about him, but was constantly eclipsed by the ex-wife n got tired of it and once they were married he was pretty soon like “Okay. That’s That. Bye.” dark. idk Matsuo is an energetic and wild person and Toichiro is cold and dead inside and Matsuo probably brought a lot of like.. joy to his life, and he took that for granted n Matsuo left. bye bish.)(lmao i h8 angst i’m sad now)

the current dynamic between him and Toichiro is like.. whenever they see each other they just drag the shit out of each other and r snide and that’s their point of camaraderie but Matsuo rlly doesn’t care abt him and always rubs Toichiro’s unsatisified life in his face.

but Matsuo is with Mogami now and they’re back in the US (some big city, probably Los Angeles or NYC.. or both. Matsuo has an unnecessary excess of wealth he can have a house on both coasts) but they end up talking with Toichiro and so Toichiro and Matsuo r doing their nasty banter thing and Toichiro starts talking dirty and about stuff he and Matsuo did and Matsuo is kind of pissed and internally like ‘wow in front of my boyfriend?? i know i have no class either but xcuse u bitch :^)’ but. also talks abt the stuff he’s been doing with Mogami. meanwhile Mogami is just there SEETHING quietly, tensely but politely smiling, thinking 'the nerve of this awful man with ugly eyebrows. abhorrent.' Matsuo is keeping an eye on him as the tension is rising and eventually.. 'wow my murder bf is about to fight my ex and while that's Hot that's not a good idea---' so he he cuts the conversation off like "well, i know who i've chosen--" wraps arm around Mogami's waist "--have a good life pining for your ex-wife" and like. leaves. bye.

or “have fun trying to fill the void left my your ex-wife for as long as you live”

Matsuo’s second marriage is probably to Ishiguro and purely for the money. but Ishiguro is gross and old and Matsuo was tired of waiting for him to die and took matters into his own hands. and ended up with a lot of money and no jail time.

idk what else. vague ideas kind of like. Mogam has a day of and Sargent goes to visit momgami in the hospital as a way to cover for Mogami going to do a hit. or doing a hit for Mogam so he can visit his mom. tru friends. 

the beginning aesthetic being like. tacky tropical beach and it changing into like. lavish but sleek spy-aesthetic by the end is funny to me. tropical pattern prints and speedos and petty drama and humar to dark clothes and a scar  and like. weirdly devoted and sexy dynamic. silly to serious. hilariously bad rom com to..  rich murder gays (NBC Hannibal stole my aesthetic)

im starting to fall asleep but ya this au was originally 100% shitpost and yet here. i am. thinking about it seriously.

#entry #idea post #god awful but ineeded to write it down so i don't forgET anything relevant for draws #when will i finish writing my actual serious thoughts abt either of them/their relationship... smh

[rinpanna]

tagged in this Meme by @kageyama-tobiyo SMASH that mofo read more if u give a shit abt my existence 

1. Are you named after someone? 

i’m pretty sure i’m named after my mom’s grandmother??

2. When was the last time you cried? 

I think it was like a month or so ago, my mom was being overcontrolling and i kinda lost it (SHES A REALLY GREAT PERSON LIKE 99% OF THE TIME THO IT WAS JUST YEARS OF BUILD UP EXPLODING AT ONCE)

3. Do you like your handwriting? 

I joke a lot about how my handwriting is shit, which it is, but i still like it because it’s MINE and only mine you know??

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? 

“Im not much of a lunch meat kind of girl. Peanut butter is my thing.” THIS ANSWER DEFINES ME PERFECTLY, THANKS DAWN (i eat 3 jar of pb in 2 day)

5. Do you have kids? i am a MINOR!!!!!!!!!

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? not to sound narcissistic but yes, i literally never fight with my friends bc i am a Chill person and i am always there for emotional support. but if u dont like loud ppl, you would h8 me :^)

7. Do you use sarcasm? nEVer with adults/strangers but ALWAYS w friends

8. Do you still have your tonsils? yes

9. Would you bungee jump? “Remove the cord and we have a deal ;)” SAME DAWN SAME, but i would also bungee jump with a cord

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal? LIFE CINNAMON CEREAL I LOVE THAT SUGARY TOOTH ROTTING SHIT MMMMMMMMMMM 👌👌👌👌👌👌

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? depends, if im thinking about the next day and how it’ll be easier if i just untie them now, yes, but i am not normally prudent like this

12. Do you think you’re a strong person? I think i’m a lot more mentally strong than some people, and physically im Ok could be better. i could definitely kick @acejugs ass tho

13. What is your favorite ice cream? i can’t eat real ice cream bc dairy allergy but FAKE ice cream i love chocolate or cookies and “””cream”””

14. What is the first thing you notice about people? ASS, jk uhhhh idk it sound cheesey but i really dO only judge people by their personality most of the time. like if they’re a dick off the bat im like :^^)

15. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself?

i used to really not like that im kinda Chub but now i embrace it. i guess my height????? (IM 5′1 WTF IS THIS BS)

16. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? skin color shoes (aka: none) and blue pants with snow flakes on them bc during the weekends (sometimes bleeding into weekdays) i dont change out of my pajamas 

17. What are you listening to right now? nothing actually, but as i was doing my 59999 pounds of hw today, i listened to 

-carrie and lowell- sufjan stevens

-all of the kagepro songs- jin

-yuri on ice track from ost 1 hr loop

-weeb mixes on 8tracks

-atlas year one- sleeping at last (thanks @mochiiron )

18. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? pepe green so the children can get their daily meme fill

19. Favorite smell? this is gonna sound creepy as FUCK, but i perceive a lot thru smell especially with people so like. i love the smells of my friends (EVERYONE SMELLS SO DIFFERENT I SWEAR) and my mom and people i have crushes on (im like 90% sure i fall for people bc of their smell what kind of 2000 B.C. era head Ass)

20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? mom callin about groceries

21. Favorite sport to watch? HOCKEY or figure skatin lmao i’ve never done an ice sport im a fake fan

22. Hair color? black bc chinese ancestry yall

23. Eye color? Dark dark drak dark aDark brown

24. Do you wear contacts? No my prescription is only like -1,-1.5 so i rarely even wear my glasses lol

25. Favorite food to eat? im like high key obsessed with food so i cannot answer this question w a single answer.

-pb

-plain fuckin bread

-moms chicken soup

-CAKE

-poptarts

-lo mein

-carrots 

-pesto

-etc

(also: why is the eat in this question?????what else do u do with food?????? scream at it???)

26. Scary movies or comedy?

i never watch movies uhhh i’d probably pick comedy before scary tho

27. Last movie  anime you watched? i dont watch movies lol-- mob psycho 100 with my friend but i’m not done and she is o-(--<

28. What color of shirt are you wearing? my shirt is gray but i’m wearing a hoodie on top of it which is navy blue (no bra tho ;;)))) 

29. Summer or winter? SPRING

30. Hugs or kisses? hugs, i wont even let my mom kiss me lmao

31. What book are you currently reading? Going After Cacciato for school (its ok) and im about to start Ash by Malinda Lo (like after i finish this meme im oUT)

32. Who do you miss right now? i feel really bad but like/??  i rarely actually miss people? like when i hear from someone i haven’t heard from in a long time im HAPPY but rarely do i ever like mentally/physically ache for ppl (even my best best friends). but i guess i always miss my grandma because she’s kinda old and im always worried about her health and wanna be w her everyday :(

33. What is on your mouse pad? what year is it, 2006

34. What is the last TV program you watched? LMFAOOOO YOU THOUGHT I WATCHED TV, my mom had me watch a news thing about the yayoi kusama exhibit in DC tho earlier today, i genuinely can’t remember the source tho

35. What is the best sound? i don’t have a fave sound but i have plenty of sounds that i h8. i guess just in general good music is best sound

36. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? im not pretentious enough about music to answers this, sorry 

37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? probably antarctica! my mom worked in the travel dept at National Geographic when i was in elementary school so i got to go a Lot of really cool places

38. Do you have a special talent? i have an 80% accuracy rate for catching food after throwing it in the air. nat also thinks that being able to read and walk my dog is a talent but ????? i think a lot of ppl can do that. OH best talent: literally being able to turn everything into a meme

39. Where were you born? 

xiantan, hunan province, china!

#i've never made a personal post on this tumblr uhhhhhhhhh #anna memes #; ) personal tag #not gonna tag anyone but riin natalie grace and katie u should do this

[dvlanobrns]

all :)))

Send “✆” for a MORNING text. 

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜]: hey, mila, morning !! i hope you’re feeling better today than when i saw ya at the hospital. lemme know if you need anything !!

Send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[ DELETED TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: i don’t really understand you sometimes. like, it just seems unrealistic to me to be that optimistic all the time.

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: LISTEN I DON’T HAVE TIME BUT I NEED YOU TO TELL ME WHICH IS BETTER: CHINESE OR PIZZA ???

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: thers 50 thousnd ppl here & i mangedk 2 make th em al h8 me

Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. 

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: *hint hint* maybe you should come over & look after gia while kendall & i go for a date night :) *hint hint*

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: don’t tell anyone but sometimes i can’t sleep so i just stare at the wall until i do, sometimes for hours, like how i’m doing rn :\

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: i honestly fucking can’t stand the media.[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: like fuck off my life, stop pestering me & my family, or else i’m going to fucking beat the shit out of them.

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: why’re pineapples called pineapples ?? asking for a friend

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: i can’t ... lose her, mila[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: like i still feel like one day she’s going to wake up & decide i’m not what’s best for her after all[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: & seeing her walk out of my life again terrifies the fuck out of me

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: hey, i don’t express it enough, but i really do appreciate you & everything you’ve done for me. love you lots, kiddo, & lemme know when you’re out of the hospital !

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: i’m honestly interested but why are you dating jack again?

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: BANDIT JUST RAN DOWN THE STEPS & BEGAN FLOPPING AROUND LIKE !! IT’S SO FUCKING CUTE I GOTTA GET IT ON VIDEO NEXT TIME LIKE PLS YOU GOTTA SEE THIS !!!

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: bet you i can shove an entire shoe up ur ass if u don’t stfu[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: ....that wasn’t ... meant for u ... im sorry ...

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text. 

[ NEW TEXT FROM DYLAN 😜 ]: it’s like ... every time something good happens in my life, i end up messing that up somehow. i literally fuck everyone over in my life, like i’m afraid of letting myself be happy. i can’t ... what if one day i lose everything i have right now ?

#wtvrcam #| ⟢ ⋯ ⌜answered.

[miroirball]

i want to talk to my friends bt like,,, i'm also afraid that they hate me and just aren't telling me,,, an d lik e they said they dont but i know that i'm like the most Annoying person in existence (as evidenced by me sendin u complainin asks all the time, sorry;;) and like i would lowkey h8 me and i just ?????

r body deserves the idk!!! i'm just,,, so anxious that i cant breathe and i want to cry,,, i dont want anyone to hate me,,,, i kno im the worst Bt

:-(((((((( omg anon im sorry that ur going thru a lil crisis rn, but i just want u 2 know that its okay. take a deep breath n close ur eyes n think of the first colour that pops into ur head n just focus on that for a bit. just let ur mind calm down - everything is ok bud. 

ur friends do not hate u. i can confirm this 84754793857% because i dont hate u???? i might not know u, but ur still my friend, anon or not. just because u get emotional at times n sometimes it feels like u cant cope, doesnt make u Annoying?? its ok to be clingy n its ok to complain (lol tbh i complain like,,, wayyy too muchghdhghg anyways)

ily ok dont be worried abt what other ppl think abt u, bc if they find u annoying then chances are, theyre probably not good friends :/ please dont hate urself - u are worthy of all the love in the world, and that includes ur own love. self-love and care is no. 1. look after urself bc u are a bright ray of light, n sometimes ur light gets dimmed by a cloud passing over, but everyone has cloudy days n rainy days but thats ok!! its abt u and self-care in the long run. its abt u looking after urself bc u deserve to be happy n u deserve all the good things in this world, n getting thru the bumps in the road is tedious n tiring and incredibly frustrating, but ur gonna get there ok

n lastly, i know i keep saying this, but please look after urself - drink some water n do some breathing exercises n just focus on making urself feel better rn ok? dont be afraid 2 message me if ur feeling real Sad n Blue ok :~( ily if u feel like u cant cope just hmu @ my inbox

#please look after urself i lov u #dont doubt urself - no one hates u. u are a wonderful human being and u deserve to feel happy n carefree #ily!! #advice #Anonymous #answered