#when will that ever be sigh

[malinaa]

if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate. #you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you #think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth. #then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty #house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive #this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died. #and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first #place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever #given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and #you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's #everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you #have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love #more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me. #real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you. #and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love. #lit #the hunger games #everlark #otp: real or not real? #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #text #tais toi lys #thgpost

[ruporas]

can’t talk about it

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic starts with the sounds "thud, thud, click". Vash, mid-action of peeling an apple, turns to the sound, noticing who it was that entered, and says, "Oh, Wolfwood, you're back." He resumes back to his apple in the next panel as he speaks, "Where'd you go? You snuck out of bed quickly this morning..." Wolfwood's hand then enters the panel, hovering over Vash's cheek and Vash looks up as Wolfwood asks, "Can I?" Vash responds, "Not going to talk about it?" while using a hand to gently hold Wolfwood's hovering hand and presses a kiss to his inner palm.

Vash then gets up fully, setting down the knife down on the table and the apple onto a plate, He leans into Wolfwood as Wolfwood explains, "Had to meet someone. Nothing interesting to talk about." Vash kisses Wolfwood's left cheek and a hand moves to cup his other cheek while muttering, "You're being vague." Wolfwood says neutrally, "If yer really that curious, keep askin'. We  can talk about that instead of doing this." Vash leans back and responds, "Let's talk after, since... You look so tired."

The panel pans to a close up of Wolfwood's downcast eyes, bags heavy underneath his eyes. He doesn't allow Vash to sit in that moment for long though, then saying, "Yer not helping, Spikey. Being all slow with it... I could fall asleep right now." He moves his hand to start unclasping Vash's coat, starting from his collar. Vash with red cheeks, responds briskly, "Oh, shut up. I'm worried about you. I can't be worried?"

The final shot shows Wolfwood's back to the viewer while Vash's softened expression can be seen as he holds gently onto the side of Wolfwood's face and a hand firm on his waist. Wolfwood responds, "I'm fine, seriously," pausing for a moment before continuing, "Is it okay to still..?" Vash responds, "Yeah, it's okay."

The next image is a shot from later that night after the previous comic. Vash and Wolfwood are now in bed, half naked. Wolfwood's buries his face into Vash's chest, his arms wrapped around him, while Vash is petting at his hair. Vash reminds him, "Hey. You said we'd talk about it." Wolfwood pauses for a moment before piping up, "In the morning? I'm sleepy." Vash says, "Okay..."

The next two pages start from the morning after. Wolfwood is already fully awake, pulling on his outer jacket as he says to Vash, whos' still bundled in his blankets, "Breakfast is on the table. Make sure to eat it. I'm going to grab some things in town and then we're leavin'. Got it?" Vash says, "Mh." Wolfwood responds, "Good. See ya in a bit." The dialogue starts to shift into Vash's inner thoughts now, as he gets up and eats toast, thinking, "Wait. Weren't we supposed to... talk about it?" The next shot then shows him fully up, meeting Wolfwood in town. He carries a half worried expression with him while Wolfwood slides on his glasses for him. A quick panel shows Wolfwood's tired expression from the night before and quickly juxtaposes with Wolfwood in front of him who's smiling gently, the shades covering his eye bags. Wolfwood asks him, "Still not awake yet?" Vash pauses, his thoughts stirring, thinking, "Oh. I guess I was getting ahead of myself... thinking you owe me that kind of honesty." He smiles at Wolfwood and responds, "I'm awake!" His thoughts continue, "Maybe one day, you'd trust me enough to share your burdens."

The final image shows Wolfwood pulling at Vash's cheek and Vash complains, "Owwwww why..." Wolfwood quickly says, "You were thinking something stupid, right? It's all over yer face." Vash mutters, "Nooo, I wasn't..." END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Theyre both thoroughly exhausted tired individuals -- vash having to fight this lonely battle for over a hundred years and getting dragged #back into inevitable situation with knives after a 2 years hiatus of being a gunslinger. they both need so much Rest and comfort in this #department... .SIGHS. BUT I JUST THINK ABOUT WOLFWOOD . AND HOW... LITTLE He has existed on no man's land. how majority of his years being #alive is being used as a weapon and to kill when him at his very core is the most giving and selfless individual ever #badlands rumble inspired me a bit but i do think wolfwood gets dragged into occasional tasks from the eye of michael while on his duty of #guiding vash -- or i think that one chapter where we got to see other members of eom -- there's like a clear division within the eom too #i think.... so i figured similarly to vash but not to the same amount -- there are people that look for wolfwood too. but most of the time #it's probably wolfwood that has to look for someone else and take them out. i feel like it happens ever so occasionally. #evidentially these two don't talk enough canonically but they always know how to express things properly to affirm that they're okay #they have the worst time ever sharing burdens - can't willingly burden the other and has neeever asked for help or reprieve in their #desperate situations... vw is a huge case of right person wrong time syndrome so they just. in the time they get to spend together -- even #if romantically - they don't have enough time to heal to get over that kind of hurdle. They've just never asked for help in all the years #they've been alive -- they don't even know how to and its just aughhhsgskg #and well! they don't even need to ask! because they'll be there for each other anyway at the end of the day -- company and presence alone. #ruporas art

[hiemaldesirae]

Since the death of God, there's been a vacancy open.

an angel!vox drawing from @kevin-ibw's salvation hotel au because i wanted to try my hand at drawing stained glass (never again, dear god)

#ive been having a lot of fun experimenting recently #this is one of my proudest pieces i think lol usually when i post its just something im like eh ig ill post #but i like it this time! never doing it again tho i think ill bash my head into a wall if i ever have to do stained glass design again #sigh. all that work and you cant even see it because vox is in the damn way... #🌗 art tag #hazbin hotel #vox hazbin hotel #hazbin vox

[autismsupersoldier]

daniil dankovsky only ever leaned & slipped & lost his balance & just only brushed his hand against & just only unbuttoned his shirt so that he may see the wound better & everything else that may have happened was not in his control nor can he be held accountable or said to have been aware of anything

#they dont ever kiss they just stand there foreheads touching or heads on each others shoulders and sigh bigly and shakily like sick dogs #fandom is a joy. i am multiship man. 18928473 pairings enjoyed #rubiniil #stakh rubin #rubin stakh #stanislav rubin #daniil dankovsky #pathologic #pathologic classic #pathologic classic hd #pathologic 2 #pathologic fanart #do you like the visual representation of the tingling feeling you get on your skin when its touching someone special

[saikkunen]

Quirked up white boys with a little bit of swag bust it down sexual style.

#are they goated with the sauce? the world may never know #anyway. obsessed with these. zane's just like me with alan fr #sigh. *unzips pants* #also editors did a whoopsie-daisy with alan's arm there #it's fine no-one will ever notice except when you're deranged about 665 room party and shift through it frame by frame every couple of days #alan wake #alan wake 2 #alan wake 2 spoilers #thomas seine #thomas zane #tom zane #zane #ilkka villi #remedy #remedy entertainment #my edits #gif

[bisexualfbiagents]

I know what you’re afraid of. I’m afraid of the same thing.

Mulder and Scully | Elegy (4.22)

#fox mulder #dana scully #the x files #xfiles #txfedit #xfilesnet #msr #alternate caption was gonna be HEIGHT DIFFERENCE lol #i want to make more content out of this episode because there is A LOT to work with #but also tons of scenes are so dark UGH #but i mean that's literally every episode this show is lit like ASS #making gifs is now my passion but also my burden #sigh #also scully is so beautiful i only ever pay attention to her face and movements when making gifs lol #sorry mulder :/ #mine

[thespineoftherighteous]

i think Kevin's thing is that whenever Neil is Neilling he just despairingly asks "why must you be like this?" so much so that it becomes an inside joke among the Foxes. (somehow Kevin is the only one not in on it because he doesn't even realize he says it so often.)

#if it's mild Neilling then he just says it with a sigh #if it's hardcore Neilling then he'll repeatedly moan it out while hugging his knees and rocking back and forth in the corner of the bathroo #aftg #neil josten #kevin day #y'all I have so many aftg urls saved I just noticed. wtf #and the thing is #i don't really like my url (too long. I like short pretty ones) but I don't think I'd ever actually change it #mostly because Tumblr makes that very annoying sometimes #and once when I changed my main it made it like my old url was a deactivated account? so I couldn't access any of my old posts #and if that happened to this account id be pissed #mine aftg

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

#im still So Inconsistent when scribbling him #he never comes out the same way twice #but then again. do any of us? #anyway i think the Misfortune of the past week finally killed my brain #its a tiny smoking poppy seed resting in the middle of my skull floor #too much all at once. cant art anymore #i keep pulling out my tablet and setting up to draw #and then i stare at the screen feeling mild to intense discomfort #i try to scribble. it comes out Horrible. #i put my tablet away and go stand in the middle of the kitchen #i come back to scroll on tumblr #i feel Despair. rinse and repeat #scribble salad #is it distressing? yes! one more to add to the ever-growing pile! #i need to start pre-packing for my inevitable move #sigh... dont wanna go.... #but its not like i have a choice! i quite literally have a single option which is to say! no option at all! #apparently if im in a constant state of severe stress for long enough my creativity completely breaks. shattered right down the middle #too exhausted. the Despair is too strong #and once again i am accidentally venting on a scribble post! sorry! please ignore this im just Saying Shit

[sporeclan]

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All grown up <3

#clangen #clan generator #warriors oc #warrior cats #sporeclan #only two of them got to get their names :(((((((( #you all have no idea how much i wanted to instantly burst into tears when spottedfrost saw mousegrove doing her best. sobbing. wailing even #also i love you piperkit. she cant stop talking about snails ever to the detriment of her family's sleep schedule and i love her for it #sc moons #sc:mousegrove #sc:piperkit #sc:finchkit #sc:spottedpaw #sc:spottedfrost #sc:cliffpaw #sc:cliffthicket #sc:foxspeckle #sc:oakfox #sc:minklake #sc:fadedtuft #a little fun fact i looked through the files to see what mushroompaws name wouldve been and it was mushroomprance... so cute </3 #im keeping cinnamonpaw's name a secret for now in case he ever returns #edit: i forgot to add the ages and genders................ sigh.............. its what i get for drawing while tired and exhausted

[royalarchivist]

Tazercraft and Richarlyson: [ Talking about the butterfly effect that led to Cellbit and Roier getting married ]

Richarlyson: The real cupid is pa Mike.

Pac: If Mike was unintentionally the reason why Richas died*, and that caused Roier and Cellbit to— Wait, you're saying I'm single because you died?! Oh what the hell. No, it's fine, that's fine, that's fine, it's fine, I stayed on the ground so that others could fly, it's fine.

Richarlyson: KKKKKKK Pa, you misunderstood me 0_0

#Pactw #Richarlyson #Mikethelink #Tazercraft #QSMP #Pac #Mike #To anyone who's going ''what the hell does that mean'' #I've been doing some VOD watching and I finally understand. #Pac unfortunately had / has a little crush on Cellbit #which is perhaps one of the worst realizations I've ever made #They smooched each other on the first (or second?) day the Brazilians arrived #(Cellbit called it a ''Friendship kiss'' and Pac said ''ah we haven't had one of those in a few years'') #and then later on Cellbit turned him down when he started getting interested in Roier #there was also a moment in Festa Junina where it seemed like Pac thought Cellbit was taking him to the church to propose??? #Idk man. I want to study q!Pac under a microscope #THE DUDE MAULED YOU IN PRISON. WHY DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM #good god nobody on this server is mentally well #I remember when I first saw that I was like ''? What does Pac mean by that?'' #sighs............. #* Anyways the death Mike was ''responsible'' for was the one that happened on the first day #That QSMP global later said didn't count #August 9 2023 #<- is the VOD date #Translated #Celltw #tangentially

[welpuu]

the next mystery

why is he goofy

and am i part of the hetalia fandom?

find out next time on the curios tale of welp

#hetalia #north italy hetalia #italy hetalia #sigh... #did i ever think the day would come when i used those tags? #no #but am i using them now? #it seems like i am #also #i have not watched all of hetalia yet bros so im not like tooo into it i just think hes a little stupid #thewelparts

[prince-liest]

I have officially hit a "too stressed to write" state of affairs that I suspect will last until this Sunday. Kinda hoping folks aren't too disappointed in the sudden change in regular update schedule - sorry. :(

#personal #if anyone ever asks me to be in a wedding party again I'm just going to tell them to get the fuck out of my house at gunpoint #normally I wouldn't feel bad about taking a writing break but I don't like leaving chapters hanging orz #but we're at “creative juices dead and also having stress nightmares” which funnily enough are my two major flags #for “hey bellamy! you are stressed!” for when I gaslight myself into forgetting that I am indeed capable of being stressed #at least my stress is on a schedule sigh #at least this particular aspect of it which is tipping things over into “too much” #dear diary #you know what i DO have spoons for however?? #binge watching the handmaid's tale #boy does THAT put some perspective on how nice my life is lmaooooo

[frankenfossil]

you're never going to be the most popular magical girl when your colour is orange

cassidy from sleepless domain

#i love orange #and i love creepy powers! #and i love cassidy's design the most of all the characters!!!!!! #tho i did not draw her outfit particularly accurately!!!! #sleepless domain #sd #art by ira #fanart #orange and blue #image description in alt #tarot #tagged that bc i was vibing w two of swords for composition even tho the symbolism i dont think works very well for her #you could force an interpretation that matches but nah. thatd be boring i think. i just like the pretty #i don't know which is the biggest problem when I try to scan coloured pencil drawings... #the scanner? the driver? me and the settings i have used? #they never look right and i don't really know how to fix it in gimp either #or any other software (that i don't currently have) #ah well #might try photographing things with my camera instead #idk #and NOT my phone camera like the nona drawing #my proper camera. but it's so many extra stepppppps sigh and i should do it when the sun's out but it's 10pm #whatever. posting now #if i ever take nicer photos of my drawings maybe i will post them but in the meantime have another picture with weird saturation levels #swords suit #tarot other #two of swords

[ex0rin]

It's not power. It's punishment. You don't deserve none of it.

Hughie begging Butcher | The Boys S03E04

#@sparklingbinjuice #this one's for you abby 😘 #jack quaid #hughie campbell #karl urban #billy butcher #the boys #cara gifs #gif request #that soft oh hughie #just gut me already #also hughie's deep sigh #when butcher finally looks at him? #has butcher ever turned him down when he's begged for something i don't think so personally #why yes i did skip around a bit for my own purposes

[silverskye13]

Will enby Helsknight/trans Tanguish/top surgery scars/stubborn avoidant Welsknight in a gender crisis make it into the main story of RnS? Like, a full acknowledgment of it? Because yes, us on tumblr are aware (and happily bully RnS Wels for it) but I’m curious to how it may be brought up in the main storyline instead of rambles and drabbles. (Don’t get me wrong, those rambles and drabbles are what get me through the day. But my best friend, who isn’t in the MCYT fandom whatsoever, just caught up with RnS and doesn’t use tumblr, and besides spamming her with tumblr posts I wanna know how much I can revel in the glory of the skrunkles with her!)

That is a great question, actually. And the answer is I don't really know.

So this is one of the downsides to writing things chapter by chapter. If I had gone into this going "oh heck yeah they're trans", this would've come up in the plot way sooner. It's nice information 1) for all the trans folks reading and 2) because it has the potential to inform the themes in the narrative. This whole story is about two chief things I think: death [the inevitability of] and identity [what defines you and why]. Why should you care if literally no one else (including the universe) does? That would be so cool to speak about in terms of a trans allegory! Why do you care about gender when it's just one thing in a world of crazy things? Or at the very least, how does it inform your identity? But this is a change I made on a whim suddenly, and I know Exactly Where I Want This Plot To Go, so trans topics and allegories as Plot Points probably won't happen.

On the more technical side of introducing trans characters -- how do you do that without just dropping "oh btw they're trans" in? Like, how do you make it a relevant thing to talk about, that doesn't feel forced or shoehorned in, especially this late in the story? Probably me overthinking, but I read it done wrong so often. It gets tired. And if I ever work on my original stories, there are trans characters in there! If I can figure out how to Do It Well in a fanfic, then I can figure out how to do it in original fiction someday maybe. So I kinda wanna take the introduction seriously? I've actually been thinking about it so much I've thought about rewriting the intro to the next chapter ahaha [it already needs rewritten in general, there's a lot going on, but the intro was going to be Helsknight waking up from something, and he sleeps shirtless, and not addressing top surgery scars then would be kinda silly I think.]

I can say at the very least, Gender Avoidant Wels probably won't factor in the story much. He is a character, but I don't think he'll become Enough of a character to faithfully address something like a trans self discovery arc. At best his issues with gender might be mentioned in passing.

Sorry! I know you probably want a better answer! My answer is basically: I don't know I'm still working on it. I want it to be there, but the capacity it's there is undecided.

That being said, I've been sitting on this glorious ask since the shenanigans started and the temptation to just Do That grows every time I read it:

#rns asks #trans tanguish #nonbinary helsknight #anonymous #no one asked but i think to date #the best intro to a trans character ive seen #is from the book 'what moves the dead' #where the mc explained they were a soldier and when you join the army you get assigned pronouns that only soldiers get #and they explain some people join the army to fight and some join because their old pronouns dont fit #and i dont think the mc ever defined why exactly they chose to be a soldier #but hey thats their pronouns now take it or leave it #them being a soldier has impact on the plot which means #even if the story isnt a trans story [about being trans] their pronouns still have weight and importance #the long pronoun explanation has a very compelling reason and never feels odd or forced #and it gets even more interesting in the second book 'what feasts at night' #where the soldier's PTSD has a direct effect on the ending of the story #[sighs dreamily] goddamn it T Kingfisher how do you always write so good #anyway enough about my writer crush on Kingfisher

[commander----shepard]

#Raúl Esparza #Raúl Esparza on the set #Raúl Esparza photos #Rafael Barba #El Rafael <3 #This is the best version of Rafael ever #he is so cool when he is shaven especially in the 22th season and up.....just perfect!!!! #The representation of the perfect man that Rafael <3 *sigh* #I wish he was wearing glasses in those.Just think what if he had the glasses of Merrick from The island.Them glasses are so cool I tell ya