#when will this misery end

[the-girl-in-the-high-castle]

Finding myself bored this evening, I will do a completely useless analysis no one asked for in this longish post. Since this show will never leave me alone and neither will my years long obsession with old ocean liners (especially the ones laying at the bottom of the ocean), here it is:

I don't know how it is today (the new cruise ships are no longer a thing of beauty to me, even though I've seen a similar thing there too), but at the time, every steamship company had its color displayed on the ship's funnels. We had major rivial companies such as Cunard Line, White Star Line, and Norddeutscher Lloyd.

Cunard Line ships had their familiar mostly dark red funnels with a black top.

White Star Line ships' funnels were yellowish with the black top.

And we also have the example of Norddeutscher Lloyd ships having full yellow funnels.

Now, these colors were there so that you could tell the difference, aka which company does a certain ship belong to (among other things such as design, call sign, etc), unless it's painted in dark gray or black war colors or as hospital ships.

Now, I don't know if Bo and Jantje or other people involved in the show went that deep into all of this, but the show doesn't follow these rules. Here, we have Prometheus and Kerberos belonging to the same company, but having different colored funnels. Kerberos red and Prometheus yellow. You can clearly see it in multiple shots, like the archive or the poster itself, and there's also a sketch:

You can see the real examples in history, such as the White Star Line: Titanic and Olympic (yellow with black top)

Cunard Line: Lusitania and Mauretania (this is particularly interesting because it was said by the people involved in the show that Kerberos was based off of Lusitania) red with black top

Or Norddeutscher Lloyd: Kaiser Wilhelm der Grosse (all yellow)

So, looking at the show following these rules, it would suggest Prometheus and Kerberos did not operate for the same company. But it's obvious those rules do not apply in the show, and I don't think the reason for that was that the showrunners didn't care, know, or find it relevant, I think it's simply because it was important for the audience to see the difference between these two ships. The difference is quite obvious when the Prometheus was found, since it was all dark and only floating, while the Kerberos was fully operating. On the other hand, in the graveyard, aka the archive, without the different funnels, it's impossible to tell the difference. I am convinced that the difference between them is very, very important for the plot. I have already written about that, so I will not repeat myself. Anyway, enough with the useless trivia.

#1899 netflix #1899 #1899 analysis #too much time on my hands #sorry for the long post #this is just me rambling because I'm a champion in useless information #my obsession with steamships and ocean liners and maritime disasters was what got me obsessed with this show in the first place #anyway bring me back my boat show #when will this misery end #useless knowledge about boats for my beloved boat show #i borrowed the pictures and am very thankfull for other people's great effort in creating them #btw lusitania my beloved you will always be famous

[llondonfog]

Silver having to correct himself THREE TIMES referring to General Vanrouge

“Fa- *clears throat* Lil- *CLEARS THROAT* General Vanrouge”

Sebek: *nodding* good work Silver!

MC/Grim: 🤨

AHHHHHHHHHH!!

on the flip side, could you imagine Silver being so fucking relieved at seeing Lilia at last, his father! his father is here, everything will be alright now! that he runs to him without thought and to the shock of all present (and horror of Lilia's soldiers) he wraps his arms around those small shoulders and presses his face against unfamiliar armor, unable to suppress the trembling, wounded little sound that flees his lips.

"Father, thank goodness you're alright—"

only for Lilia to push him roughly back (no one's been able to catch him off guard before, he should have easily dodged this human child's embrace, why did he feel so stricken by the sight of him, why on earth does he feel the crippling need to hold him close in return—) because he's no one's loved one, no one's father—

"Who—"

And what a day for surprise it is, when General Vanrouge has been rendered speechless for the first time in his life.

"Human, who are you?"

#lettie's asks #twst spoilers #going insane going insane #WHEN WILL THIS MISERY END

[lorddeathofmurdermountain]

Max0r just murdered my chat privileges because I dared to sing before he even showed up

#max0r #streamer #personal anecdote #were still in prestream chat #why must i suffer #when will this misery end

[the-prophecy]

Me: gets even a little bit stressed or sad

Migraines: bitch, u called ?

#boyfriends and girlfriends are gonna come and go but THIS is for life #when will this misery end

[omarfor-orchestra]

I'm sad I think I'll watch MF to get sadder

#when will this misery end #I'm not gonna liveblog it tho

[arturleclerc]

.

#when will this misery end #food poisoning is no joke 😭

[pxrxmoore]

tummy cramps. 18 dead 34 injured.

#when will this misery End #bp

[samble]

"homura is an evil abuser who wants to control madoka and hates their friends" tired trope, canonically untrue, congrats on falling for the facade put up by a middle schooler.

"homura sees herself as inherently evil and abusive due to her upbringing, past actions, and status as a witch, which is still ongoing even at the end of rebellion" fresh, new, actually closer to canon, doesn't demonize a child for being mentally ill.

#pmmm #madoka magica #do you understand. do you see my vision #it is VERY VERY COMMON for people (esp kids) to see themselves as edgy and evil when they're 'normal' over minor things #eg kids who listen to metal and think they Cannot Be Understood..... #let alone literal child who has spent almost 1/2 her life in a time loop watching her friends die a dozen times #even nowadays due to Trauma Stuff and mental illness i deal w being like #'wow im an awful evil person for [minor offense] [intrusive thought] etc' #im not even a 14yo raised orphan catholic who lived over a decade in a loop failing to save my friends #and!! EVERYONE ignores that homucifer IS A WITCH. #witches canonically CANNOT CONTROL THEIR ACTIONS (oktavia attacking her friends etc etc etc) #even if she's 'not entirely a witch' or one w more control she's still canonically influenced by her despair and misery at the end of it #see: her familiars running around her soul gem 'whispering' to her etc #'homura is an evil abuser w no good qualities' posts (esp in 2024??) drive me up the wall ffs #sambling

[nobleriver]

They've been there for millions of years, through storms and floods and wars and... time. Nobody really understands where the music comes from. It's probably something to do with the precise positions, the distance between both towers. Even the locals aren't sure. All anyone will ever tell you is that when wind stands fair and the night is perfect, when you least expect it, but always... when you need it the most... there is a song.

It's called marriage.

#dwedit #doctor who #doctorwhoedit #riversongedit #twelveedit #twelfth doctor #river song #alex kingston #peter capaldi #otpsource #otp: please don’t #this was an ABSOLUTE nightmare to color #took a whole week #this is why I look at THORS with dread #when a gifset idea pops in my head #i just decided to end my misery and release it #twelveriver #timelordgifs #dwgifs #tvedit #denim rose graphics #1k

[zeb-z]

I just think Tallulah gets to be upset about this. “It’s not Wilbur’s fault” “He’s not a bad dad” “He loves his daughter so much” yes! These are all true! And it’s not his fault! But he’s still not there. And Tallulah has gone through so much and still hasn’t seen him, the one time he was around was the one time she wasn’t, and all she has are letters and “I’m thinking of you always” and things that used to be theirs together, but he’s still not there. She’s waited and she’s been patient and she’s loved him all the same, and he’s still not there. Like yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, from the happy milestones to the traumatic events, he’s still not there.

She knows that it’s not his fault, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s absent. That in and of itself just adds to the sorrow, because she knows why he’s gone, and she’s been told time and time again it doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, she knows this - it doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting, that it doesn’t hurt, that she doesn’t yearn for her father to be there more than anything in the world, and he’s just not there.

So yes, she gets to be upset, and be caustic, and stomp her feet and write bitter messages, and be angry and vitriolic, because she’s a little girl missing her father, who feels things with her whole heart and soul - and that means she gets to feel the ugly parts of it, too.

#it’s like no wilbur isn’t at fault. especially if we’re talking about cc wilbur. but fuck man of course she’s gonna feel like this #this doesn’t make wilbur a bad person! he’s just a missing one. and Tallulah feels all the misery and bitterness as a daughter left behind #where is her father kissing her injuries and reassuring her? where is her father protecting her? hugging her at the end of the day? #Wil isn’t around to do this and she wants him back and he’s not going to be back. not for a while. and it’s not his fault but it doesn’t #stop it from being upsetting. she’s a little girl #and at least she has phil. her dad. who’s there time and time again. and it doesn’t make him somehow morally better or wtevr. he’s there an #Wil is not. and he’s going to continue to be there as a solid figure in tallulahs life that she needs #idk man like. fuck #lmao relating my own experiences from here below in the tags ✌️ #as someone who’s been in that position? a parent absent for reasons outside of control? yeah it’s sucks. and I love them and they love me #*with a parent I mean I wasn’t the parent lmao #and it will never be the same. and when they were gone and missing things I was furious at them #that resentment grows and then it fades and sometimes bitterness strikes again and it’s how it goes. love is still there #and it’s no one’s fault. it just is. and what is is messy #anyways #mcyt #qsmp #q!tallulah #q!wilbur #z speaks

[l3irdl3rain]

I try to be understanding and open minded abt other people’s decisions with their pet’s health but nothing makes me cringe more than seeing someone put their very elderly pet through chemo / radiation

#I mean a younger pet where there’s a real chance they’ll make it out the other end and be better? sure #but when you’re just getting your pet a few extra months but those months are misery? #that doesn’t seem fair to me #my post

[erynalasse]

What if Maedhros wasn’t nearly as protective and patient with his little brothers as fanon makes out?

A Maedhros who in Valinor lets all of his younger brothers dig themselves into holes, because it makes him look downright saintly by contrast

A Maedhros who scatters his brothers across the east of Beleriand less because it’s efficient and more because they’ll all drive each other insane if they don’t have their own things to control

A Maedhros who gives up the crown to Fingolfin as much to achieve peace as to get his loose cannons of younger brothers out of the succession

A Maedhros who (rightly) disdains the pride and foolishness of most of his brothers, and doesn’t hesitate to say so to their faces

A Maedhros who disdains all his younger brothers for failing to hold their lands during the Bragollach (“a king is he that can hold his own”) when he saved Himring

A Maedhros who never forgives Caranthir for obtaining the traitor Ulfang as an ally in the Nírnaeth Arnoediad

A Maedhros who secretly believes Celegorm and Curufin got what was coming to them at Doriath: they made the problem with Lúthien’s Silmaril, and then it killed them

A Maedhros who quashes Maglor’s desire to surrender after the War of Wrath less because of the suggestion and more because it came from his little brother

A Maedhros who is relieved as much as grieved when his brothers die one by one, because they can’t cause trouble when they’re dead

#tolkien #silmarillion #maedhros #like at the end of the day #this must just be such an awful family to be stuck in especially after the oath #you’re all in the same misery boat but that doesn’t make it better #and it’s the worst when you’re in charge of the misery boat like maedhros #I could definitely see some resentment breeding #codependency isn’t the only adaption even though it’s usually more fun to write #and maedhros can be just a little nasty #as a treat ok

[burntblueberrywaffles]

Being completely and utterly obsessed with a dry ass fanfic tag truly is hell, my life is but a constant loop of

#Snowbaird #Anidala #my two main sources of misery 😔👊 #i escaped one hell (Anidala brainrot) just to immediately stumble into another (Snowbaird brainrot) when will my suffering end 😭 #fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #fanfiction memes #fanfic meme #fanfic memes #fanfiction meme #ao3 meme #ao3 memes #Burntblueberrywaffles #blue makes memes

[mymarifae]

i just want to share my thoughts about akito and Death. because even now—even off the back of an event like burn my soul—people STILL talk about him like he's an explicitly depressed, suicidal character whose every action is cause for concern.

i think the idea that akito is suicidal has been floating around for a very long time. and while it's not entirely without merit (more on this in a bit), it's still a misconception. and it really feels like kashika exacerbated the issue. which is unfortunate! it's sad to see such a beautiful song be misinterpreted like this.

now don't get me wrong! kashika is about death. but two things:

1. kashika may have been written for akito, but it's not just for him. it's also deeply personal to ryo haruka. there are certainly similarities and haruryo undoubtedly understood everything akito felt during the events that led up to the crawl green incident, but i don't think it's entirely fair to equate his very real emotions and struggles to those of a fictional character. he and akito share kashika! you can interpret it through either lens, but trying to do so through both is where things start getting messy

2. whiiiiich leads me to my second point. who decided that the only way to interpret kashika and its themes of death is literally?

i think it's pretty common for people to automatically interpret any themes of death literally—or at least very negatively. we're naturally conditioned to fear death, and then we're taught to fear it even more. it's the change. it's the unknown. it's the very idea of an "end." most people aren't very fond of these things! understandably so. but personally? i think the symbolism that can exist behind death is beautiful.

Death is the 13th card of the major arcana. above all else, it symbolizes change (positive change; it's always, always about what's ultimately best for you). Death tells you it's time to move forward; this part of your life is done. there is more waiting for you—new opportunities, new experiences, a brighter, more fulfilling future—but you must be prepared to let go.

the habits and routines you have now? the mindsets that have kept you alive? your current sense of self? whatever it is, whatever Death is asking for, you have to let it "die." it won't serve you anymore. it will only drag you down. and it might be terrifying and you might not be able to comprehend what lies ahead and you might want to kick and scream and struggle, but you can't cling forever. endings are never easy, and sometimes they hurt like hell, but with each end comes a new beginning.

and yes if you've read burn my soul this should all sound very familiar lol:

looking at death from this perspective, kashika and the entirety of find a way out should read a lot more like akito caught on the cusp of a monumental transformation. suspended between "life" (the old) and "death" (the new) so to speak.

up to this point he's been fueled by spite and desperation. two very intense, very negative emotions—but it's an intensity that worked. everyone else on vivid street had years of musical experience, and he had 0. he needed to catch up and he needed to catch up quickly because it's not like he could put the whole world on pause. he could take his time to learn the basics, sure, but every other vivid street musician would continue improving and growing while he did that. there would always be a gap between him and Them.

unless... he worked harder—WAY harder—than all of them combined.

and maybe that wouldn't do it either. maybe he would be stuck in place forever, always playing catch-up, always struggling to stay afloat, always being left behind. he knew this. and he knew the amount of destruction he'd end up inflicting upon himself if he went down this path. but in his mind, it was okay. it was worth it. because he'd rather die endlessly pursuing what he loves most than live not trying at all.

but in find a way out, when facing off against his old bullies, he starts to realize that he was wrong. he's not just stuck in place. he bridged the gap a long time ago, and he almost didn't even notice. and where he's going now, spite and desperation are the wrong emotions to sing from. he needs to let the unhealthy, extreme mindsets die, but also it's hard to let go of something when you would have given up a long long long LONG time ago without it.

but with time, and enough poking and prodding from ken and luka, he does it. he lets go. he lets the old parts of him die, and he passes on to the next stage of his life.

akito's character arc has always been about growth. improvement. learning. Becoming Better. and not just in a musical sense although Yes That Is A Huge Part Of It. his arc is also about his growth as a person. it's about him becoming more confident, and learning how to be kinder and more patient with both himself and other people. it's about him learning how to let his walls down and let his loved ones in. and to trust that they won't start kicking him to death once they're in there.

it's about him learning to exchange the Spite and Desperation for Passion and Love.

it's about him becoming happier.

which is why it's so fucking startling when people talk about him like he's suicidal and on the verge of a breakdown. like, woah, what?

as i said though, kashika isn't the only source of this misconception and i find more merit in the other sources because they're actual aspects of his character and scenes in the story and not song lyrics that shouldn't have been read so literally in the first place. like, yeah. we've seen a ton of unhealthy behavior out of akito. he's had a very extreme perspective on his place in the world from a super early age, and while the severity frequently gets exaggerated in fanon spaces, the shinonome household isn't exactly sunshine and rainbows.

he's been moody, he's been prickly and abrasive, he's lashed out. he keeps most people at arm's length and builds walls so high not even toya can get through them at first. he had to! he wouldn't have survived if he didn't! like, he was targeted and bullied by a group of adults when he first started singing on vivid street. that is actually a genuinely traumatizing thing to happen to a kid!

so no, i'm not against the idea that akito has experienced depression and suicidal ideation in the past. kinda comes naturally with the territory he ended up in. but that's the key word: past.

i get confused when the idea is dragged into the present. because again! the whole point of his character arc is he's overcome all that PAST adversity! recovery isn't linear but we're not about to see him hit rock bottom any time soon. or ever, actually. you know why? because we've already seen his rock bottom. stray bad dog. that event was his big breakdown moment. that's what opened him up to try to start healing.

we're not getting another stray bad dog. stop expecting another stray bad dog.

he's alright, i promise. he's growing up. he's gotten better. he knows he belongs in vivid bad squad. he knows he's loved. he knows his friends will be there to catch him when he falls. he's always been strong, but now he's even stronger. he's excited for his future, and i think we should be too.

#i posted this on twitter when find a way out ended but i realized i never put it over here :0 #project sekai #akito shinonome #vivid bad squad #long post #i love love love love when media isn't afraid to tackle Death as a positive theme #it's so rare. it's so refreshing #because like . i don't think we should be afraid of Death. i don't think Death should be seen as some horrible terrifying despicable End #it's as much a part of life as life itself. it's not a bogeyman out to get you. it's not a harbinger of misery and doom #it's life. it's okay to be a little scared - it's impossible to comprehend what lies beyond after all #but it's okay. Death is here to guide you. it's just time to move on. nothing more. nothing less.

[sehaniine]

how many die today? how many die tomorrow?

#aila #bg3 #the grief is never ending #she doesn’t understand the weight of her sadness yet #durge #dark urge #pre nautiloid aila #when she had long hair #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate tav #aila and the unknown misery she carries around like a blanket #art #my art #illustration #artists on tumblr

[tallymarkbrothers]

[Inktober Day 31 - Fire]

#baby's first murder and existential crisis AND panic attack #blaseball #parker macmillan #prime #misc art #not an ask #inktober #event: inktober #megan ito #what a perfect ending to the month i was so excited when i saw it was fire hgfhfgh #you guys really love seeing this guy in misery huh #its ok. me too