#which i find interesting but i wont get into that

[maplesyrupsainz]

˖⁺｡˚⋆˙just screeching tyres & true love | MV1˖⁺｡˚⋆˙

pairing: max verstappen x fem reader y/n (she/her)

genre: social media au

warnings: mentions of sexual assault (pretty brief)

summary: in which an attempt to sabotage your relationship works in your favour

a/n: i love long specific requests like this tbh 🙏

request!!!: Max finds out about OC’s bad past when jealous fans leak private information online after news of them dating breaks out. However it backfires when OC bravely tackles it unashamedly because Max ends up respecting her even more after that.

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yourusername been a while gang 🫡

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user1 cute

user2 aww her & max holding hands

user3 is it just me or does she give anyone else the ick

user4 no, same

user5 me too something about her isnt right

user6 just say u hate women and go

user7 they wont last

user8 grow up

user9 not her pretending she actually has friends outside of max 😂

maxverstappen1 💙💙

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maxverstappen1 i love you babe

yourusername ❤️ i love u

user18 🙄🙄🙄

user19 get emmmm

user20 salty much

danielricciardo you tryna prove something?

yourusername noooo hahahhhh 😇

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maxverstappen1 see you soon❤️

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yourbff thank god

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user22 flying to y/n to dump her i hope 😮‍💨

user23 urmmm going where

user24 the silence abt y/n says a lot....

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user31 max & y/n how interesting

user32 lol not y/bff/n setting the record straight

user33 HE FLEW HOME TO HER GUYS

user34 i never doubted it 🙄

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user36 hope y/n is ok:( anyone with a fully functioning brain loves her!

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user37 i love maxyn

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yourusername thought long and hard about what to say to you all and came up blank every time.. what happened in the past is exactly that; in the past 🕰️ i don't wish to drag it back up and discuss it in a public forum for millions of strangers to see. thanks to my friends, family and anybody else for all the support i've been given it means the world, and i hope this is the end of this 😮‍💨🩵✨

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yourbff so proud of my girl

danielricciardo ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

landonorris go girl

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user38 omg all the support in the comments from drivers 🥹

user39 ily y/n

user40 the fact so many drivers love & support her says so much

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carlossainz55 🫶🫶

francisca.cgomes gorgeous person inside and out

lilymhe love you so much

user41 THE WAGS TOO

maxverstappen1 not a day goes by where i dont love you

yourusername i love you so much 🩵

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user42 someone's plot to break them up really worked in their favour huh 💀

user43 best couple on the grid srry to everyone else

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yourusername i love you thank u so much for everything

maxverstappen1 i love you so much more my angel

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[starboy-squeakers]

Again not a dungeon meshi reader/watcher but every time I hear about that laois guy I get reminded of how my system had/has a hyperfixation on dragons so intense that we got that big fancy dragonology book and we treated it like the damn dragon Bible for like years

Now, obviously, we understand that there's different interpretations on mythical creatures, and no one interpretation on a dragon is necessarily gospel, but that multiple interpretations on the classic tale of beasts of scale and fire are completely valid and to be expected!

however if you call an Eastern dragon a coatl I'm going to come to your house and slaughter your family

#THEY'RE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT #yes they have similarities but coatls have WINGS typically and dont usually have other limbs. they're more serpentine birds #meanwhile Eastern dragons (Chinese depictions for example) don't typically have wings and are more lizard-like #like Mushu !!!!!!!! Mushu is an Eastern dragon #and then there's drakes and wyrms. which are entirely different bc they can't really fly #drakes are more like draconic horses or dogs. no wings but four limbs and a tail with a reptilian appearance #wyrms are more serpentine with no limbs and no wings. though i think some interpretations of wyrms give them like.. two forelimbs #then there's wyverns. wyverns have two legs and two wings instead of the typical eight limbs (four limbs two wings) #(i also perosnally hold true to the interpretation of wyverns with poisonous stingers for tails but that's just me cause i think its cool) #..... how much of this is just me talking abiut dragons #explodes. #oh yeah and obv there's the HTTYD interpretations which i adore! they're interesting #the designs are so fascinating and from what ive seen seem to have some science behind them #and arent just the typical western style of dragons. which nothing wrong with the western style it's a classic ofc #but it's still fun to see some variation!! #and ofc there's WOF #which holds true to Western dragons in simple anatomy but has its own variations and of course its own lore #then there's. fuck i forget the name but it's a fantasy story based in China i believe #i loved it so much it was so cool #anyways it had a dragon character named Seryu. I love Seryu. he my favorite #anyways i liked the interpretation of dragons there bc iirc it held true to ummmmm some Chinese mythology involving dragons #cause Eastern mythology of drahons is . so much diffetent than Western #Western dragons are commonly very monstrous creatures‚ usually very animalistic #they tend to embody the Christian concept of greed/gluttony hence why they're so typically monstrous/villainous #which i find interesting but i wont get into that #meanwhile. i wanna say Eastern dragon legends more revolve around the idea of a dragon as more of a godly/fae-type creature? #that's probably a poor comparison but that's how i interpreted it. agian im probahly wronf about all of this #im some weirdo rambling about dragons on the internet. dont trust me explicitly #i need to get more dragon mythology books #HELP I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT I DIDNT THINK THAT WAS POSSIBLE GOOD LORD OKAY I'LL SHUT UP NOW

[bigothteddies]

I *am* going to cause problems for myself at this job by spreading a countless amount of fibs over my relationship status

#unimportant thoughts #its none of your business ! #one person I told I have a partner #one person I told i went through a long term relationship ending last year #one person i told i had a hot date last friday after work and thats why i needed to leave early (i didnt) #that person told another person whom decide to give me a pep talk on how to get and keep women #and now thinks that I am single and mingling out there #(he was interested in knowing if it was a ‘new girl’ or an ‘old girl’ i went on the date with #(i told him new and then sat through him telling me how to be confident with women in order to keep their attention) #anyways this is fun and will surely have no consquenes on my life whatsoever :p #cant wait to take meatz to the company party in 6 months :p #genuinely hate people irl knowing ny relationships though like its none of your business #I know uou wont understand and I know if you find out im dating someone youll start assigning us monog traits #which feels so gross #and i csnt be bothered explaining polyamory to people its not my job to make them okay with that

[mass-angel-exodus]

> First time entering tumblr to browse my newest obsession (tcoaal)

> Immediately recognizing an art style on a specific fanart

> Finds out its you, amazing artist I knew from my previous obsession (dol)

Glad to stalk appreciate your art again mate <3

Nuh uh no I'm not whoever that artist is um erm they were probably gay or something um uh HEY LOOK

#but like damn is my artstyle really that recognizable 💀💀💀 #i keep forgetting that peoples interests can overlap #but i appreciate that you still enjoy my work thank you it means alot #see now im curious which fanart you saw that made you immediately recognize it #and im lowkey curious as to who you are but i wont press on for deets if you dont want me too #but uhh im gonna try and lay low until my mental health gets better hggdhd #im still happy to interact with whoever finds me tho #its good to have you back anon ❤️ #i miss everyone sometimes #asks #anon

[toytulini]

i may not be able to open posts from my notes or messages or get more context on posts via looking at the notes, but at least i can make fucked up coffee properly now

#toy txt post #while i was away i began my journey into coffee snobbery. im doing my best. i have a lot to learn #i have a fancy hand grinder that all the ppl on reddit hemmedvand hawed andaid it would probably be somewhat #Acceptable for pour over coffee that I got for less than $100. i want you to understand the coffee grinder ppl are insane. #there are grinders for sale that cost like more than my car did brand new. these ppl are insane? i got a chemex pour over #and a glass stovetop gooseneck kettle cos i couldnt find an electric kettle that didnt have the metal touching the water. prolly cos it #would make them less energy efficient and defeat the purpose but i dont fuck w metal water vessels cos historically They Keep Betraying Me #by making my drinks taste like ass. i got some genetic fuckery going on ig. like the cilantro soap gene but its the metal makes water taste #like ass gene? idk. but i wanted a kettle that didnt have metal and i wanted that gooseneck pour so i found one on Amazon. surprisingly #hard to find? annoying. mostly bc every search engine is bad and kept showing me metal kettles anyway. i got a grinder i got a pour over i #got a kettle i got fancy beans from a local small business i started drinking it black. im going to unlock these flavors. i will get it #but also. im still a goblin. i put garlic powder in with the grounds and made garlic coffee. its interesting. it tastes like garlic. and #coffee. but actually the garlic is mostly an aftertaste? #so it feels very similar to drinking a cup of black coffee to accompany your garlic bread actually. the first time i made it i think it #underextracted the coffee tho. second time i extracted the coffee enough but i didnt like it as much? both times. fascinatingly #i did not get strong aromas! which was weird: i find both garlic and coffee have pretty strong scents already #i wouldve thought combining them would make it stronger? it was a little stronger while brewing the second time but smelled good to me #i find the flavor of it compelling enough that id like to try to refine it a bit more and see if i can make it good #ive come a long way since my first garlic coffee haha #(adding garlic salt to black coffee out of a keurig. dont reccomend this: garlic salt has too much salt and it overpowers everything. #could not get a garlic flavor without overpowering salt flavors. so it mostly tasted like seawater with a hint of coffee. garlic powder is #the way to go. anyway next i want to try it with a lighter roast. i was using medium roast #of a local brand that i would name for exposure but wont name lest it doxxes me haha #also want to try egg coffee sometimes? the vietnamese one. looks..intriguing. robusta beans scare me a little tho #anyway. if youre interested in interesting flavors i recc garlic coffee. it was intriguing. if i find a methodology i think tastes best #ill update yall #im also interested in other things. i want to experiment with spicy coffee. chili powder or cayenne #make the paprika dracula coffee haha #im also admittedly intrigued by butter coffee? as a flavor profile tho not for fad diet reasons.

[dullahandyke]

was gonna make a post bitching about how being a princess of heart works but then i remembered the whole union cross 'the 13 darknesses are sentient' thing and came up with my own theories but ive looped back around to being mad again. goddd why does shit actually work when you think about it im so mad

#i was hung up on the singular sentence in kh3 abt them releasing the lights into new vessels (EXPLAIN PLS?) #and ive come to the conclusion that the 7 lights are their own sentient beings like the darknesses who can interact with their hosts #and they explained the situation and all went 'hey jasmine/belle/etc id usually only do this if u died but like #the baddies all know where we are now. can we fuck off to new hosts so they dont find us' #and the princesses all went thumbs up emoji and off they fucked to arendelle #n then that leaves a couple options for kairi #first off her light went 'oh she has a keyblade? im staying here then. no need to ask her' #second off it asked her and she decided to keep it. which is INTERESTING and i will have to think abt to decide what it means #bcos like. im keenly fucking aware that we get Three whole sentences abt the situation in kh3 #and neither kairi nor the former princesses r there for it. so like. Assumptions R Being Made! #like i know the princess of hearts logic is literally just 'we made the disney princesses into macguffins'. but like. augh #this also brings me to question like. yeah yeah heart wont make a nobody. but like. what ELSE does lightdom grant #bcos we KNOW excess darkness has an impact (hi terra) #and if the only ppl without darkness are those currently hosting the light (and ven. hi ven) #then moving to another host like elsa requires purging them of their darkness. which i feel should. do something #IDKK im pontificating with shaky knowlege but like. u undestand #anywho leftover stir fry is calling my name xoxo

[capaldiera]

man idgaf about what treville and richelieu have going on (mostly nothing) (they dont like each other but they work together a lot bc of their jobs.) (i guess treville holding onto a sense of honour whilst working with the cardinal is interesting but like that's not. thats not really those two having something interesting going on). lets talk about the king and the cardinal man.

#the way the king sometimes resents the cardinal's influence but is so easily manipulated to feel lost without it. #the fact that he'll openly acknowledge the cardinal wants him to rule unfairly and play favourites. with a fond look on his face #''i will disband their whole regiment if that's what it takes to make you happy. only please don't leave me alone'' with tears in his eyes #all of which was exactly what the cardinal was going for and he just gets away with it! #the queen finds out he was trying to have her Killed and she says yeah fuck you obvi but i wont tell the king tho bc he loves you ? #i'm not saying any of this is like romantic to be clear lol. it's just very interesting #i mean i dont think it can probably be categorised really. but im definitely not calling it that #it is super interesting though the way the cardinal needs to undermine the queen and place himself closer to the king to succeed in his aim #it would be somewhat appropriate for sure to say its kind of a parent-child relationship in some ways but that's definitely not all of it #in terms of the way the king relies on him and his guidance. but again thats not all of it and he's not a child. or not actually a child. #and i could say this about any of the relationships between men on the show but of course Because they're both men that means the #Possibility of it being anything but fully platonic is not something he can acknowledge and for that reason whether it is or Not there's #still going to be a level of repression and denial that just complicates things. even though/if theres not truly anything to deny #meanwhile honestly i think the cardinal is personally being normal about it even tho he's a freak about a lot of other things #i mean idk that was my impression. i am sorta-watching through s1 again so maybe i'll develop my ideas on that #anyway #me.txt #musketeers posting

[lorillee]

Bullshit anon back in town. I think the implication that Akainu is somehow involved with SWORD only means that if the only two people ol' dog cares about come to harm, well, things are going to get Ugly ugly.

WELCOME BACK!!! honestly its so funny that he fought so hard for the stupid fleet admiral seat just so he could sit there and do paperwork all day and make orders that all of his men just blatantly ignore. like frankly he wouldve gotten his agenda much farther just by letting kuzan be fleet admiral and then just going off and doing his own thing since neither of the other admirals have faced any sort of consequences for this behavior so far 😭😭😭 however back to your point. if we're being real. the thing is i dont think. he can leave. like if he actually abandons his post to go do something i will literally start screaming but at the moment i think its pretty unlikely. that being said i really really really want to see his breaking point like. at what point will he just Snap ??? who knows!!!!

#op spoilers #ask #anon #marine tag #the other thing is that honestly i dont actually think he would prioritize his personal relationships over his duty #like. see: what he said to that one deserter before said deserter got epicly melted #which actually i do find really interesting and i REALLY want to see explored #even if it probably wont be #but either way. honestly i just need an akainu flashback. will we get one? debatable. but i want one i need one so bad

[13eyond13]

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#things i am excited about at my new job #it's nice to SEE AND INTERACT WITH PEOPLE EVERY DAY #jesus between covid and working from home that was getting seriously hard for me to achieve #i find the subject matter interesting (it's medical stuff and helping patients which is way more interesting to me than the finance shit #i was doing at my last job where i just like helped financial advisors get richer) #my bosses are kinda young and cool which is nice because mostly i have worked for boomer men older than my dad #i get to people watch and learn new things and it's challenging but not TOO overwhelmingly difficult #it's admin stuff which i kinda enjoy in a dorky sim management job sort of way (i do that kind of shit for fun in video games all the time) #the one thing im worried about rn is that the person who's training me that im filling in for is leaving soon and they're my fave part #of coming to work right now because i just like hanging out with them and they have like this hypnotically soothing aura #and sweet kind personality so im afraid once theyre gone (a) i will suck at doing it all without them and #(b) it just wont be nearly as nice but #i must think positive thoughts and hopefully i can use their mentorship as inspiration too #i spent all last year failing at being a self directed online student and juggling random part time shit so i am SO GLAD #to have full time work and work that isnt horribly boring and lonely like the finance work from home one before it #ps the person who is training me worked for 12 years as a 911 emergency phone operator if you want a picture of how calm and nice they are #like they can make anything seem ok and fine and remain calm no matter what and their voice is the gentlest thing on earth lol #i get free asmr all day basically #p

[ruairy]

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#how long can i keep my impulse control in tact before i cave and buy winds of anthos lmao #i have successfully staved off minekos night market but only becuase the reviews have leaned majorly towards bad #i will probably buy it if it ever gets very discounted lol but.....eeegh #a Shame bc i was really looking forward to it lol #woa is like.....a lot of the reviews are good with caveats #but currently i am Bored and when i am Bored my impulse control leaves with its bindle #also like. its monday. im too tired to find another way to tackle my Bored #buying a game and playing it is very easy #I've been thinking about replaying legends arceus but i cannot predict if i will get bored immediately bc ive already played it lol 😶‍🌫️ #I literally do not have the attention span for games but i like games #like if i get bored of a game before i finish it thats the end i will never play it again lmao #paleo pines for example....i opened ariacotta canyon and then immediately my interest in the game died #faefarm also..... opened the volcano area and immediately got bored of the gameplay loop #don't even know what happened to Ryza 2 i just stopped playing and could never go back again lmao #all my attention span is relying on the scarvi dlc which probably wont be out until at least November 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️ #and the hypothetical gen 5 remakes which could easily end up being shit 😭 #aaaaaaaaaaa #i need more hobbies babes

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[celticwoman]

waking up to an empty house like 🧍🏻‍♀

#idk why i went to bed so late last night. im not a teenager #i was just bored i guess #my sisters are getting off in less than an hour tho so i wont be alone for much longer #im hungry but i think ill just skip breakfast and wait for them to have lunch together #oh and hopefully today i can take one of them to the book store #shes been begging me to take her to the one i bought that used copy of shiver at for days now #im happy to take her because i want her to read sooo bad. i mean that as in i love reading and i think its great she wants to do it #she told me she loves romance so i said id advise her! im so excited #also told me shes interested in jane austen which made me super happy and excited too #and im also hoping i can find a couple of the books on my tbr there. mostly the classics because they dont have a lot of books in english #but im sure theyll have a few classics #cami.txt

[jrueships]

Kyle's orchid !!!!

#i heard it might be for a deeper meaning in a family sense so no one is allowed to say anything negative abt this flower ok!!! #but we dont know for sure ! and his teammates dont either #i do gotta say tho.. if deebo had his own flower.. it would be a blue one #kyle would be a red one or some other warm color idk! idk much abt flowers but i do like them! #i like seeing the big fat fuzzy bees sleep in them <3 #this is cute !!! idk i feel like a lot of aries find deep meaning in peculiar but always interesting things #like loving really abstract paintings #idk! i may be just makin shit up idk anything abt zodiacs! #'he said it makes his room beautiful' kyle 'live laugh love' cursive signs mom lowry? #if we continue the stretch idea of deebo's flower being blue... and it being there makes kyle's room bloom... #🥰🥰 long distance husbands... bringing and keeping things around that remind them of their significant other.. #all the other teammates just saying 'idk' vs oladipo making poetic metaphors 😭😭 very deebo of him <3 #kyle IS a flower!!!!! #victor likes his vibes <3 #'he likes to make things blossom' AWWWW thats so CUTE and TRUE! kyle LOVES seeing others happy !! #always trying to make people laugh <3 give them his opinion n help them out <3 #this was cute !!!! it was a while ago i think the 21st n i wouldve posted sooner but i waited around for more explanation #i think this is all we're getting unless another reporter remembers to mention it ! #which they probably wont 😔 #i love victor he is my wife even if he has no eyebrows microblading or stage theater makeup he is my babygirl best #klow #woah viccy #pj #if anyone knows anything abt flowers .. lemme know !!! always up to learn !!

[vulcanhello]

#SCREAMING AND CHEERING AND SOBBING AND TEARING GRASS OUT OF THE GROUND AND POUNDING THE SAND AND FLOATING AWAY FACE DOWN IN THE RIVER #I FINISHED THE ABODE OF LIFE. THANK FUCKING JESUS #OH MY GOD ITS BEEN DAYS. THAT SHOULD NOT HAVE TAKEN ME DAYS #anyways. it was boring rip #the aliens were BORING the new planet was INTERESTING IN THEORY but BORING IN EXECUTION #it was just a lot of lame politics! and i LIKE politics ex machina is my fav trek book ok #but it was simply boring not much of value #i actually looked it up there were ELEVEN CAPTAINS LOGS. just pages and pages of kirk telling me. the idiot audience. what was happening #i think the only scene i liked was when kirk kidnapped like four of the planets leaders which resulted in a fr gunfight and spock got shot #thru the hand which is insane. OWCH #obsessed with kirk in this book tho he’s basically in the situation thats the premise of voyager where the ship is broke and they wont get #home for a hundred years unless they repair warp so when they find this planet that could help hes just weird about it #‘ohhh i cant break the prime directive’ YOU ALREADY DID #HALF YOUR CAPTAINS LOGS ARE U COMPLAINING ABT BREAKING THE PRIME DIRECTIVE GET OVER IT !! #anyways. do not recommend #and then when hes decided hes already broken it enough hes like whatever. spock we gotta start kidnapping people and spocks like #youre so logical captain 😐(meaning 😍) #actually tbf kirk had a few gay moments. good for him #whatever. anyways. new book time. i might try an aos book bc im sick of trek books including uhura in the beginning or in the blurb and then #shes just NOT in the book. power of imagination ill just pretend its tos. if thats even possible its been a while simce i interacted woith #with anything thats aos #ough im not a fan of aos spock. or kirk rlly. or chekov. or #gay sulu ftw tho #im trying to remember other aos things. jayla i loove. uhura i love but also i prefer tos uhura 😞 #hm. thas it #oh well #captain’s log #trek books

[toytulini]

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#toy txt post #i guess i just need to find a different job since this one seems to be. not great for me #but i also like. dont know what wont be bad for me. like sorry i just dont think there are jobs that are accessible to me that arent going #to feel Like This #at least in some way. and this one has good insurance and shit. and if i can get my shit together it has fucking. paid community service #time that i could theoretically use to like. volunteer at the aquarium or smth and have a day off for it and get paid by my job #which could be a foot in the door to a career that i am interested in but im just fucking. stuck and fatigued and in pain and wallowing and #have no fucking energy and i cant do anything and im fucking nocturnal and i joke about it and i was fine with it but i hate it i hate #not seeing the fucking sun and i miss my old job which is INSANE but i know what i miss about that job was #that it was part time. and i regret not doing more with that #but im also allergic to normal hours i guess i dont fucking know #i know part of it is prolly just feeling profoundly out if control of my life so i just stay up bc at least thats quiet time for me #w no expectations but thats not even tru bc i shoukd be at least doing my fucking laundry or smth cos it would make sense #and the fucking answer to so many of my issues rn is like just do that then or just stop doing that then but i cant i dont know why im just #like this ive always been like this stupid useless cant fucking do anything cant fix my shit just fucking wallowing and angry and doing #nothing and its just gotten worse cos now i have fucking chronic pain and fatigue and now i REALLY do FUCKALL #im depressdd and anxious and in pain i should get a therapist but thats hard and i dont fucking trust ppl #i should move out and maybe that would help bc i wouldnt feel like i have to wear a mask around my own house but im barely functioning #as is w a lot of support from my mom i cant fucking live on my own #not to mention the whole country being so fucking. Bad rn. ive done nothing all day not even resting #and tomorrow ill wake up too late and be in a rush and in pain and tired and just #i dont fucking know #im so miserable and lately so many topics can just send my stupid little brain just Spiralling but i dont want to say that i dont want ppl #to feel weird for talking about fucking college. i dont want to sit here being so bitter that something in my brain broke about school #im happy for ppl who can do their fucking college shit i just. smth wrong in my brain and i cant dwell on it and i try not to be too #outwardly negative about it cos i dont want ppl to feel like they cant talk to me about it or smth idk #rambling and venting and im gonna hit tag limit lmao for sure #been having the same goddamn problems nonstop for my whole life and its just that i cant fucking do anything #i have too much shit i should rid of #whatever

[currentlyprocrastinating]

OKAY SO SINCE MY LAST POST GOT FUCKIN' WIPED COS OF SHITTY WI-FI—

ahem. i'll watch my language

SOUND THE ALARM AND PLS SEND HELP

I LITERALLY HAD A HEART ATTACK DKEHIDGDUSHBRD

I STG IF ANYMORE OF THE PHOTOS ARE LIKE THAT IM GONNA LOSE IT. IF THEY'RE REAL PHOTOS. EVEN IF ITS NOT FACES IDC

YA CONTEXT I JUST STARTED PLAYING THE APRIL FOOLS DLC FOR THE FIRST TIME

GIRL I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE AT FIRST, LIKE I WAS JUST GIGGLING ABOUT TEASING ZEN WITH SEVEN AND THEN I FUCKIN' NOTICED

I KNOW MY FACE TURNED INTO A TOMATO I FELT HOW HOT IT GOT

LITERALLY DROPPED MY PHONE

#ur in another dimension #old timers know i have a thing for saeyoung's gorgeous hands #like this was a shock enough #and look ooh psychology and shtuff or whatever like #hit with something that indicates they exist in the same world or whatsver #AND BUT YKNOW ITS ***THAT** #also now unlike my last (failed) post i got a bit further ahead in the chat #and zen finds the photo weird so that says something interesting about their universe. or like. its just how the creators chose to express #that its not supposed to be normal. so uh i wont dwell on it too much lol #also ig this is where the thing comes in? which ive heard referenced here and there online #i'll eventually get all 3 endings but for now im just gonna see where my natural choices take me :) #mystic messenger #mysme #707 #saeyoung choi #luciel choi #417 screams #lol #my playthrough #april fools dlc