#whom am I kidding

[arabian-batboy]

“This character’s development is always erased and he’s constantly reset to an annoying brat, I trust that this will not happen under your writing?“

“Oh, unquestionably! We will definitely fuck him up and make him suffer!“

Sir.......you didn’t even answer the question, suffering isn’t development.

#someone take Damian away from Waid #his take on Damian isn't that bad but you can easily tell that he's not interested in his character #but kudos to the interview for actually confronting a DC writer about Damian's development being erased #hopefully it will make them a little bit more self-aware #whom am I kidding #he will be an annoying brat again by the next writer anyways #Damian Wayne

[kalikatze]

I’ve been semi-inactive the last few weeks, bc the inlaws were visiting (luckily not staying with us, but still.. activities. outside the house *shudders*) and since next week friends of mine come visit, i’ll not be betting on being active again. So.. if there has been anything recently you want me to see, pls send it to me. I’m gonna try and do the hard thing of “closing all the catching-up tumblr tabs i have” and see if i can thus reduce my tab count unter 300 XD

#whom am i kidding #i do not have 68 tumblr dash tabs open #but we'll see #i hope to feel relieved #also come tell me about what you've been up to #i love talking to y'all #but i'm kinda low on spoons for initiating conversations.. #own post #rambling

[dameferre]

plagued by thoughts of barbie and queerness

specifically after my friend and i went to see it and were discussing it and i brought up the obvious queer coding she said ‘oh yeah weird barbie’ and i went ‘oh. no? stereotypical barbie??’

and when we unpacked it further i realised that she’d seen weird barbie as inherently queer bc of the way she’d been ostracised and called names that she made her own in time and could never fit in with the other barbies because of who she was and how she looked? and i saw stereotypical barbie as queer because of her lack of attraction to the people she was meant to be attracted to, liking them but never able to do so in the way they liked her. of being expected to act and be certain ways because of how she looked and the life she lived but not really wanting those things

honestly i don’t really have a point with this it’s just been ceaselessly rattling around in my lil brain

#the queer experience is not a monolith!! #idk!!! #also i was a weird kid (and yknow. black and brown) so to me weird barbie was just representative of weird girls #a lot of whom are queer obvs but the queerness Literally never read for me #barbie #ep #anyway barbie’s ace and so am i ✌🏽 lmao

[rayssion]

I'm sorry but are you telling me this scumbag Ares is abusing Clarisse??

This god, is abusing his daughter who is much less being and he threatens her??

Ares is literally one step to be one on one with Zeus in my list.

#bro rereading is a hard job like am I supposed to hate Clarisse during this? #while she's enduring all this stress? #like she finally got offered a quest that can bring her glory and she thrives to prove herself to her father (whom is the god of war btw) #and like these two other kids just jump right in and ruin everything for her #like her father is INSUFFERABLE and he literally threatened her #I'm not a big Clarisse person but this point #but it's hard not to sympathise when a kid is treated like this #clarisse la rue #sea of monsters #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo

[meteorstricken]

Listen. Listen. If this is one of the expressions that plays over the villain's face when telling the hero they don't need them, something significant other than pure hatred or malice is going on there. I'm just saying. Just suggesting. Just pointing a thing out.

#We're in the late night shitposting business here kids. #I mean really. Ultima barely stops short of talking about Clive (Mythos) like a jilted lover to Barnabas. #Poor blue bastard. The one human you don't detest and for whom you've yearned for centuries & that's the one who gets to put a sword in you #But we can work with this. This is the shit that deliciously cosmically horrifying yet deeply intimate fics are made of. #Let's not forget: Religious traditions and myths the world over tend to indicate that gods don't really like staying dead. #We can pull a Coffin Texts Spell 714 on this bitch no problem. #'I made my body evolve through my own effectiveness. I am the one who made me. I built myself as I wished according to my heart.' #ffxvi ultima

[lidensword]

I'm back with some fanart of characters that show up for 5 seconds! :')

#No kidding. That German soldier (whom I called Heinrich) has a few seconds of screen time and he's in the background!! #We literally only see his face. Nothing more. #But here I am giving him a name... some love... and a partner... #I regret nothing >:] #I'm done with this :') #Christmas Truce #Joyeux Noël 2005 #Background Characters #Mathieu Couturier #Thierry Morallec #Eliott #Heinrich #<- I'll have to find a surname for these two. #Morallec and Couturier are canon (I just gave them first names) #UPDATE: Eliott has a canon surname - Guimond. Found it in the list of the cast & crew. #Sadly there's nothing about Heinrich :( #Eliott/Heinrich #my drawings

[scuddle-bubble101]

Feeling... Out of place...You do not belong, the puzzle piece just doesn't fit. You slam your hands on each corner, pressing and pushing... And it never fits, it'll just chip anyways...

#serif talks #small vent #sorry...mood dropped.. this year has been so- so daunting. #I thought I'd feel better but..... ha- whom am I kidding

[sheliesshattered]

10 minutes left before I turn a year older and what did I do?

I ordered myself a lightsaber. ah yiss

#about me #2024 mood #Batuu Bounding #I've been planning on doing Savi's on our Batuu trip but I'm just not feeling the saber hilts themselves #I want something sleek and fairly smooth and relatively light that I can spin with #that is so not what's going on with the Savi's sabers #so just as we're getting down to the wire here I thought why not look online and see what's out there that more matches my vision #and I found one on Amazon. that can arrive on Sunday. that checks all the boxes of what I was looking for #and it's like. a quarter the price of Savi's #I have heard only wonderful things about the Savi's *experience* but mixed things on the sabers themselves #when I started out on this plan to Batuu-bound for my birthday Savi's sounded like a fun addition to the day #but since then I've come up with a whole Star Wars character with a backstory and a personality and a LIFE #and Savi's is not her path. absolute respect and love to everyone (including my family members) for whom Savi's was the right choice #but I am E X C I T E about the saber I picked out #not sure if I'll take the blade to Disney with me but I'm going to try to rig up the hilt to attach to my belt at least #see kids? getting older is really just about being able to buy yourself the toys you wanted as a kid #with no one to tell you no #and if you're lucky a supportive spouse who yells DO IT! when you doublecheck your instincts lol #hey one minute to go until b i r t h d a y

[goldensunset]

((i shift into Play Pokémon mode again)) oooh ok so in any game i enjoy periodically returning to the home town and visiting the player’s mom and stuff. the last few times i visited mom in nuvema town i was kinda surprised by how flippant her dialogue was. it was like ‘ok now that that’s taken care of better get back your journey!’ like hi honey get out of here?? anyway i’m not sure exactly which story event triggered it buuut now she has more interesting things to say

she comments on cheren and bianca and hoping they’re finding themselves on their journeys too (i care them!!!). she talks about what makes a good trainer (someone who cares a lot about their pokémon). she directly mentions the player’s father having gone on a pokémon journey once (yet not where he is now. lol) i love to see it!!!!!!

#goldie plays pokémon black #‘how are you doing? :)’ well you see i kinda just got roped into becoming one half of a prophesied yin yang kinda showdown #i received what’s effectively the fossil of an ancient legendary dragon and i am going to try to revive it on purpose #in the hopes that it’ll like me and befriend me and not go berserk #and then i’m gonna go fight this guy who’s hyped with delusions of grandeur who just needs some help honestly. whom i just want to talk to #and we sure hope that i’ll win this fight so that we don’t have the guy crown himself leader of the entire world and end our way of life #and we sure hope messing with dragons won’t have any destructive consequences #but yeah just par for the course as far as kids who go on pokémon journeys :) i’m definitely focused on the pokédex for sure #not stressed out at all or sad and worried for my would-be friend

[patheticblorbloscholar]

They had the audacity to give me a sweet blorbo with abandonment issues and bravery, basically a mini Jake and a sympathetic villian with no autonomy.

James really wants me to hurt doesn't he?

#miles spider socorro #recom quaritch #I have watched the movie now 10 times and I regret nothing #Its now my comfort film #And I attach myself not to the complex protagonist but his neglected adopted son whom he has yet to claim and a recom with his bios dna #Jakes kids are easy to love too dont get me wrong but Spider is special and so very mistreated #I could write essays on how much I love this movie and I am sure the following films #avatar: the way of water

[cowboyhorsegirl]

ANON FJSAOFJDKFJLAKJFDAF

i don't even dislike bucky as a character i'm just! so very uninterested in the romantic dynamic ppl paint between him & steve it truly inspires nothing within me.

(and! if you're looking to scratch that friends-to-lovers itch 616!stevetony is right! there! or if you're looking to scratch the friends-to-unwilling enemies-to-tentative allies-to-friends-to-lovers itch, again!!! 616!stevetony is serving it at the all-you-can-eat ship dynamic buffet!)

the thing that really soured me on the ship was the fans and i hate to say that bc everyone should get to enjoy what they enjoy! but yeah there's nothing groundbreaking or progressive about a story with two men sharing a meaningful friendship that can be read as having homoerotic subtext.

#obligatory not all fans!! but yeah it can be a bit grating lol #for your safety and mine i will not be posting your asks but i am happy to let you vent in my askbox for a bit <3 #i find myself way more drawn to 616!bucky and steve's relationship because can you imagine how fucked up it would be to see #the kid that used to look up to you and fight beside you and whom you took under your wing and tried to protect and FAILED to protect #during the war coming back into your life as a hardened haunted man. how do you forgive yourself for letting him down like that?? #how can he ever bring himself to forgive you?? even though you both know that you aren't responsible for all the hurt #you're also the only one willing to bear the burden of apology for any of it #also buckynat in any universe slaps they go hard in mcu 616 1872 ETC (except ults but bucky's got his own thing going on there) #james barnes #anon #signed sealed delivered

[friezaglasiencold]

Day 17: Crab 🦀🦐

Ah, silly me, I forgot again... what day is it meant to be now?

I'll just answer this one for last night.

Day 17: I'm sure you saw my little episode. They've become more frequent as Kuriza becomes more capable--probably because he spends most of his time now screaming (usually good-tempered screaming, but it's still screaming), testing gravity, and playing pranks on my conscience. Thank god for babysitters. I'd read up on what the "terrible twos" were supposed to be like going in, but I suppose no-one can entirely be prepared for having a child, especially not someone like me.

Ah, what I would do for an hour or two of quiet... and by all accounts, he's an EASY child. If he'd been a hard one I might have called it quits by now.

We actually do have childcare experts on board, since occasionally children are born on the ship before we can come into port. I think I'll be less precious with who I allow to look after him, and see what happens then.

#text response #crab game #((i dont have any kids but i do have 3 younger sibs two of whom i took care of as babies/toddlers so. i am pretty familiar w the Struggle))

[thatgirlonstage]

I get that “the family that moves into the haunted house doesn’t trust each other enough to believe each other when one of them starts saying shit is haunted” is one of those genre tropes that’s like, it needs to be that way to make the story go, but I think you could do an interesting subversion/genre bait-and-switch by making a couple that pretty early on goes “no, okay, it doesn’t matter if you’re hallucinating or if the basement really did try to eat you, the person I love doesn’t feel safe so we’re getting the fuck out”. Idk it’s just really rare to see romantic relationships survive horror films and I think you could do something fun with it.

#I am still thinking about burnt offerings after it wrecked my shit last weekend #and like the context of that film is that all those people hated each other’s guts both in the story and irl lmao #so it would never apply there #but it got me thinking bc #‘would you leave for me? even if it was all just in my head?’ #has the potential for incredible romance between characters for whom the answer is an unequivocal YES #I was ALSO thinking about that film #in the context of like. it Seemed Important that it was a nuclear family with a kid #so what happens to that story if the impetus is really #we’re renting this house out in the middle of nowhere in the country #so that when we quietly invite my husband’s FRIEND Dave to come join us #no one needs to know or be asking awkward questions about why Dave is spending the whole summer with us #this is partially me being like. mmm. #I think if I thought about it more you could Say Something Interesting #about the fragility of nuclear families and how the individualist mindset behind them #cuts you off from perspective and support #with this kind of story structure #and partially me being like #I think it would be funny if the house that eats you is defeated bc it doesn’t know what gay people are #just bamboozled. why is there another guy here. get rid of him. why isn’t he leaving #ALSO to be clear #in this scenario the wife is a beard #but that DOESN’T mean she’s expendable #it means she is these two men’s single most trusted friend and confidante #and that they are gonna fight tooth and nail not to let a house eat her #the house trying to sow distrust by manufacturing a scenario where it looks like the wife is cheating: WHY ISN’T THIS WORKING

[empressofmankind]

Indirectly, this post is about how we mis-remember things from our childhood, simply because we remember a child's impression. You'll have to bear with me for a little, though.

I started a re-watch of the One Piece anime after... I don't know, two decades? I last watched it in my tweens, or something. It was hard to come by. My dad downloaded it bit by bit for me because dial-up and I had to watch it on his PC. It was that long ago.

The reason for the rewatch is this post that I made earlier, regarding Netflix' month-long spamming me until I caved to watching the live action, early last week.

You see, the live action be all:

...and Netflix wasn't wrong, in that post I made earlier. It was objectively funny, because it felt so painfully true, which is why I made the post. They just went and dunked a sizable chunk of my childhood into a can of sexy sauce and called it a day. Its short of a miracle that it worked (for me, personally), because it usually doesn't (for me, personally). Famously: Euron Greyjoy in the series. I want to forget that exists.

And I am not even mad at Netflix, because everyone who's been here longer than this week knows this is my type. Psychotic delusions of grandeur and questionable clothing choices included.

I did, however, feel that sort of slightly self-righteous huff of (you may imagine an old-timey tone here, if you like): 'but that is not the canon, I remember clearly how it was~~'

And so, I started rewatching the anime.

Me, re-watching this in the year of our lord 2023 while it's still airing new gdamn episodes like the digital clap, faux-complaining as one does: 'life was so much easier being ten, and the cartoon clown just being funny and stupid, and not a sexy disaster boyfriend'

The cartoon clown:

Me: ...shit.

So, anyway. My whole life is a lie now, and I thought you should know.

#if you remember things from your childhood #just don't look them up lol #even when it turns out perfectly fine (like this did) #its still so massively massively weird to be so blatantly and rudily confronted #with the fact that you're an adult now #an adult with a horrible taste in men that apparently always existed #even if I was a kid and not thinking that way #I picked whom I picked as a fav #I am thinking about this a lot now #buggy the clown #OPLA #captain buggy #one piece #OPLA vs OPA #just fangirl things #buggy thoughts

[twoheadedfather]

feeling bad for myself not in a "i feel bad that i went through that" way but in a "i cant believe that child me, who i have no relation to and whom is a completely separate person to me, had to go through that"

#i hate it when kids get hurt! not me tho i have never been a child so #i didnt use whom right i think #who cares im just a teenaged boy #child abuse #childhood abuse #child neglect #childhood neglect #childhood trauma #trauma #dissociation #depersonalization #derealization #tw derealization #tw depersonalization #tw dissociation #like i even look in mirrors sometimes and im like “oh wow that person in front of me is just a kid” BRUH YOU ARE THE PERSON IN FRONT OF U?? #but me? i am not a kid #i am a full adult grown man with 3 kids #life is confusing

[stylishanachronism]

Unrelated to anything but a client was Extremely Weird about the concept of genetic testing earlier this week so now I can’t stop thinking about it, because on one hand I do see his point re: eugenics and slippery slopes, but on the other I’ve got something nasty enough in *my* woodshed when/if I have bio kids I need to get tested to ensure they, y’know, survive being born

#like unfortunately for me I have absolutely no idea what it is #one of my great-etc-aunts got a no fault divorce in the 50s because she and husband the first #had three kids none of whom developed a brain inutero #it was extremely ugly #but they both went on to a. get remarried and b. have kids who did have brains #so it was something just totally incompatible in the genetics somewhere #unfortunately this was well before genetic testing was a thing and google only turns up dementia cures and jokes about real eugenics #which is not what I’m looking for #also please stop being weird about quasi political topics I am a banker not a therapist and I am not here for this