#xariah rambles

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RAI.diate's OC Blog

OC artworks and writing/storytelling rambles <3

I've actually got a few separate stories going on, though at the moment I'm pretty much exclusively working on Liar Liar, Chaos Fire. The story the characters belong to will be tagged in the post ;) (character refs linked):

Liar Liar, Chaos Fire (main)

Cyprus (he/they)

Xariah (they/them)

Myka (she/her)

Dawn (he/him)

Koda (she/he/they/it/any)

Yaashi (she/her)

Shenggou (he/him)

Vera (she/her)

Imara (she/her)

Blood Hunting

Ellise (she/her)

Lyari (he/him)

Echo of the Daimon

Zena (she/her)

Jo-Quinn (he/they)

Jace (he/him)

Nora (they/them)

Annerose (she/her)

Kenji (he/him)

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I am white.

I don't know the pain that black poc go through.

I don't have any idea what it must feel like right now for black poc,especially the young boys who finally had a hero to look up to that looked like them.

But I am in still in mourning. The news last night threw me into a massive panic attack for some reason. I'm still not sure why. He was not "my" hero perse. But he was still my hero as well. The Black Panther movie came out in a really rough time in my life. I love the MCU but at the time I was incredibly depressed. Nothing could pull me out. And then Black Panther was announced to come out near my 22nd birthday. It was the first time I was excited for a new MCU movie since Civil War came out in 2016. And there were four movies between that and Black Panther. I saw it in IMAX on opening day. It was the most beautiful movie Marvel had made in a long time. It touched my soul and it made me feel so much better mentally. And for some reason it made me feel less alone. It wasn't my story or anything I could truly relate to. But it made me feel better and see life differently.

And it also inspired a lot of my volunteer work. I volunteer at my local library doing after school programs for underprivileged kids and teens. I had started that before the movie came out but I put so much more heart into it after. Some of the kids started to show more heart after the movie because they had a hero that looked like them. They were so happy. And my kids who weren't poc who were rude to the ones who are started treating them as equals. Everyone was happy. That movie changed so much in the world. And Chadwick Boseman changed so much in the world. We truly lost a real hero. And he will be forever missed.

I haven't seen my library kids since the pandemic started. And I wish I had a way to check in on them. I just hope they are doing well with the news. But as soon as I see them again I will be there for them to mourn with. And I will carry the legacy of caring for people that Chadwick has set free in this world.

He wasn't my super hero to worship and relate to truly.

But he was still my hero.

#black panther #chadwick boseman #rest in power chadwick #forever a king #xariah rambles

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Ohmygods my feed is dead

I need new people to follow! So please reblog this and I'll check you it if you post

Kingdom Hearts

Final Fantasy

Mystery Skulls

Madoka Magica

Avatar the Last Airbender/The Legend of Korra

Warrior Cats maybe if that even still exists as a fandom

Sword Art Online

The Mortal Instruments/ The Infernal Devices/ Shadowhunters

Bendy and the Ink Machine

Bound video game

Fullmetal Alchemist

Horizon Zero Dawn

Disney shit

Marvel shit

Sailor Moon maybe idk

Markiplier

Jacksepticeye

And Pagan or Wiccan things.

I suck at making lists and I may edit this later to add more but who knows anymore! But please just help a girl out with get dead tumblr!

#xariah rambles #kingdom Hearts #final Fantasy #the legend of korra #avatar the last airbender #horizon zero dawn #bound ps4 #puella magi madoka magica #sword art online #mystery skulls #shadowhunters #warrior cats #fullmetal alchemist #Disney #marvel #pagan #wiccan #markiplier #jacksepticeye #sailor moon #bendy and the ink machine

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Check it out bitches I'm now the proud (almost) owner of a deluxe edition of KH3!!

#xariah rambles #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 3 #I'm so fuckin stoked

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Sup Bitches I'm Not Dead

#xariah rambles #I've just been dealing with a lot of doctors

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The thought running through my head that I could do my hair up like Steve's and then realizing I don't have any of my hair gel with me is kinda saddening

#xariah rambles #steve harrington #stranger things #how did I forget to pack my hair gel

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How do you flirt with girls

#there's this really amazing girl I like #But I've never tried to flirt up a girl before #So I have no idea what I'm doing #someone help #xariah rambles

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Someone should trade 3DS friend codes with me and play Animal Crossing New Leaf with me. I have mo friends and I want people to visit my town.

#xariah rambles #animal crossing #animal crossing new leaf #acnl

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Like legit though if you had told me even six months ago that I would be going on a date next week with one of the prettiest girls I’ve ever met next week I would think you were fucking crazy. I’m freaking out man.

#xariah rambles #how does one do dates #how do you not make yourself look like a complete fool

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I drove miles and miles but would you do the same for me Oh, honestly?

Ed Sheeran "Save Myself" (also know as the song that gives me life)

#xariah rambles #ed sheeran #divide #save myself #lyrics

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Logan was fucking amazing.

#xariah rambles #it destroyed me emotionally and it was worth it #Logan #Logan movie

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After finally getting to watch it Moana is officially my favorite princess of the new era.

#xariah rambles #Ariel is still my favorite from the renaissance era #but Moana was fucking amazing #Moana

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So my birthday is on Monday

I’m turning 21 on Monday! Yay! not really I hate my birthday with a passion

But anyway I made a Wishlist on Amazon in the hopes of getting some help with getting things since I am unable to currently get a job due to autoimmune diseases destroying my body.  Its a list of things I either need since I’m moving with my sister to get closer to better doctors or its stuff I just want to start up my Wiccan collection of things. So I’ve put the list here and in my description for anyone who might want to help out. And if anyone does I’ll be eternally grateful. 

#xariah rambles #birthday #birthday wishlist #wishlist #wiccan

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My mom knows I've been really depressed lately and has taken to asking me every night before I go to bed if I'm safe and I always tell her yes. Even though I'm far from it but I'm too much of a fucking coward to act on it again. The last time I did I was sixteen and had just gotten out of an extremely abusive relationship and no one felt the need to make sure that I was okay even though it was obvious I was on a downward spiral and by the time it was halfway through that year I was so bad I'd written up my note and snuck out the backdoor with a bottle of pills and hid in the woods behind my house and the only reason I'm around is because a friend found me and knocked the bottle away and talked me down. By the end of 2012 I was stable and back into things I loved and then I met the guy I'd spend the next four years with and who was my rock and kept me going through all the times I hit lows but we realized things were becoming toxic and we split up just two months ago. And now I'm falling back again because my rock is gone and I don't have anyone to help me. So I'm stuck in an in between with no where to go.

#xariah rambles #depression #what do I even put in the tags for this

[xariah-rose13]

I know this sounds bad but I literally can't get a job right now and may have to go onto disability because of awful autoimmune diseases that literally beat me down on a daily basis and wanted to see if I were to put up a wishlist for my birthday coming up for things I need for a day to day life or things for witchy things so I can get on that stuff if anyone would be up for helping with that maybe.

#xariah rambles #I'd even take gift cards for things #i just need help #my dad doesn't have a job so we can't afford some of the things I need #and I can't ask for help with witchy things because my parents would drop me off everything

[xariah-rose13]

I am officially 21! And my plan for my birthday is to literally just play video games with friends because that's all I wanted to do.

#xariah rambles #birthday #i can finally do everything I want since I'm old enough for everything