#yall really love this post don't you

[yayswag]

rlly silly doodles based off of a post the hc goat @tegr1dy made about stan and kyle adult braces that had me laying awake at night 😭😭😭

#tegri1dy i love ur blog- you REALLY get style <3 <3 #...i imagine that at first kyle is devastated but stan convinces him it'll be fine and they can just dress like hipsters and it'll be cool #then like two years in stan is so done with it but kyle is deep in denial at that point #been reading a lot of sekrit fics lately and the way she writes them as like these losers who spend their whole lives together but just.. #kind of awkwardly avoid dating for seemingly no reason even though they're in love?? fascinates me.... i don't know if that was a good desc #btw lol i think i'm gonna try posting a little bit more casually because there's some stuff i wanna try clearing out of my drafts #south park #sp style #love yall lol have a great dayy

[sketchy-tour]

I just wanted to quickly say thank you guys!! Like... LIKE REALLY!!! THANK YALL SO MUCH!!!! The amount of constant love I receive for my work has been overwhelmingly wonderful to experience. I don't even know how to put it all into words. BUT IM GONNA TRY!

FAIR WARNING! I'm about to be really really sappy under the cut. So feel free to ignore that if you wish. But I got a lot of emotions I'm about to try to say.

Hi hello and hi. Um. Well, it's hard to explain how much this has meant to me. How much your kind words have sent waves of joy through my heart. How much every like has made me smile. How every reblog has made me feel a rush of pride. Every person who spammed me with likes when finding my blog, every person who talks in the tags when reblogging me, every person who shows up constantly in my notifs, every mutual who interacts with me even in the smallest of ways, every other artist I interacted with who has been kind to me.

All of it. Every single notif has made me smile in some way and I cannot thank you enough. I was so genuinely shy about sharing Dandy with Tumblr because I began drawing Dandy at a very turbulent time of my life. My WH art and oc had become a place of comfort for my mind and I had wanted to interact with the community for a long while but I'm skittish by nature so it took a LOT of mental prep for me to start posting this stuff here.

And the fact I have so much positivity in my notifs! I really needed that. Truly, I did. I still don't see myself as a big artist by any means, but I know I'm so lucky to have the bit of engagement I do from yall!

I feel like I'm rambling. Needless to say...it means the absolute world to me that the art that brings me joy is given such love by yall. Even if hyperfixations change, even if time marches us all in different directions, I'm thankful to have this. Right now. When I needed it.

#welcome home #welcome home oc #welcome home puppet show #dandy leon #my art #probably gonna schedule this so I don't post it at some ungodly hour again #so if you see this I may be asleep! #me desperately trying not to overshare while also trying desperately to make it clear how warm all this is making my heart and why #but all of this. It means so much to me #so so much #I really expected more people telling me I'm weird. Idk why #I just...did. And I really haven't been treated as such #And it makes me emotional realizing I can be silly and loud about the art that makes me happy #I just want to be happy. I want to see others happy. I want to have fun and be silly and it feels so wonderful to do that #and see yall having fun and being excited with me #I love it #thank you #just thank you

[that-g3-artist]

naturally, as soon as i get a free weekend to work on fairy boys, my wrists start acting up ;-;

#you love to see it #i don't often post unprompted life updates like this but idk #i wanted to show yall whats going on with this comic #trying to take it somewhat easy but i really want to draw #so i'm settling for going very slowly and taking breaks if it gets uncomfortable #but yeah it's not going to be coming out anytime soon sorry u-u #g3 does a talk #fairy boys

[boxwinebaddie]

ngl you spoiling your fanfics on here instead of writing them is kind of a cop out :/

first of all,

congrats on being the second hate message i've ever gotten!

secondly?

Fuck You <3 :)

thirdly?

you can call me a looooot of things anon, but do not Ever!!!! EVER!!! call me lazy. you wrote me 27 words just now and i have written over 100k in under a year spanning over two extremely detailed multi chapter fanfictions...like? and that doesn't even include this tumblr which goes back 42 PAGES OF VERY LONG ASK MESSAGES.

most of them being extensively thought out lore and headcannons about two fictional boy best friends on a television show that is so unserious that over half of those hcs had to be crafted around straws and legitmized by hours/days/weeks/months of research by me???

because you guys send me "hi uncle nina, what is kyle's fav color?" and i could just send! it's blue <3 tysm for asking! :) but i Never answer my ask memes like that and again??? there is 42 pages of evidence to support that baby, so good luck fighting that fight! it's never just blue it's always Kyle's Favorite Color Is Blue BECAUSE and then i go on for several paragraphs about why kyle's favorite color is blue, i give you everything that i know about that subject. Everything.

like, i feel like some of the ask memes that i write are so detailed and extensive that they might be longer than one shots people are writing? this one about each boys favorite season was very labor intensive and i put it out in one day...uuuuugh!!! on the subject of one shots and actually writing? i licherally said i am still willing to do one shot requests or post pieces of things i had inspiration for? i just didn't want to promise you actual chapter updates because i didn't want to let you down??? like i specifically wanted to avoid this :(((

i'm actually writing the ask memes because i feel like it is the medium where i have the strongest chance at providing you with well written content, like, i could go back to updating but they would be rushed, poorly written and passionless. i put like...a lot of my heart into these.

and, my love, my hate, lmaooo, i could just not do that.

like, i legitimately have no reason to keep doing this.

i could delete this whole tumblr with 42 pages of content that i am sure people come back and reread because they ask me not to delete stuff and ask me where it went. i could also private both my fics on ao3 or i could delete them entirely...and it would be no sweat off my back, tbh. like i said, because my imposter syndrome is so bad and i was so stressed out writing my fics...i can't read them anymore. i am moderately embarassed by them and IF I HAD TIME...i would rewrite them. i would make them so much better...i wish i could.

because i DONT have time? i work a 7-3 job and i come home and answer these...i am exhausted and i answer these? and i do it because its fun yeah, but i do it because i care? about my work?

but i Specifically care about all of you. :((((

that's why this seriously hurts my fucking feelings and sucks? because the reason my fics stay up and the reason i answer these is because i love you very much and care about you getting the answers that you deserve and it makes me sad i can't write them better for u.

i write these answers because every single day, like, i shit you not, i got at least 8 asks yesterday about various things, you all take the time and share your hearts and minds with me. because i have angels in my ask box who write to me, who take the time to read my stuff and ask me questions about it, like...specifically rm?

which, not to toot my own horn baby, but it's a lot easier to get people to content about the regular ship in a fandom ( which is still not easy ) but i got multiple people invested in an AU FANFICTION with almost no cushion from the fandom, the only help i got/boost for exposure, is that i had clout from writing a different successful fanfic??? which i literally wrote anonymously? it was my first fanfic!!!!

fight me!!!! lol!!!!! show yourself, coward!!!! you charlatan!!!

tell me that you did the same, baby!!!! that's what i THOUGHT!!!

but yeah, i do this because i care about y'all and i care DEEPLY about the things that i write and that they are quality. for example, oh my god just talking about this makes me depressed...when i wrote rm4 WHICH I WROTE UNDER DURESS, EXTREME DURESS, both physical and mental? which...i loved rm4. almost all of those hcs and metaphorical things in there, i was very, very proud of.

anyways, i wrote like 16k and it was taking me Too Long in my fucked up girl brain to do it on my computer and because i was excited to get that chap you'd all been waiting for out to you and because for some reason i felt Obligated to work fast because of the stress of everyone waiting for my work, i, ON MY CELLPHONE, highlighted basically every single word, all 16k of them and meticulously formatted from like 7PM at night until 6AM in the morning the next day. i had THREE monster energies and i considered buying a 5hr energy AND POURING IT INTO A MONSTER ENERGY???? that is how fucked up my mind got trying to put out my fanfics and...

during the last 100 or so words...because i was so tired, i accidentally highlighted my whole chapter, finished formatting, felt super relieved when i clicked the Save button only to realize...

every single italics was gone.

every single one...italics i'd spent hours on...every single one was gone forever. i could not retrieve it. it was lost...all that work. :( and it's kind of embarassing, but i cried for a very long time about that. like i posted this chapter that i cared about and i was...super depressed. not even because i worked hard on formatting it for hours and all through the night ( which i have done for over 12 other chapters )

...but because i realized that you guys would be reading something with no italics. that you would be reading something that was not as good as it could have been. i was sad because you were going to read something that because you are so wonderful, i was sad to send you. i was so upset, actually, about you reading something subpar that i considered...reformatting the entire thing...i....this fucking sucks.

this makes me really sad. this makes me reeeeeally fucking sad lol. like to say i don't care about all of you? to call me lazy? say this is a cop out??? like oh my GODDDD????

i am a REAL person, you guys! i fucking exist outside of this blog? people who write fanfiction do it out of love. it's a labor of love, y'all. i have a real job. i do this for zero dollars and zero cents and i do it every single day like? fanfiction authors do not owe you anything.

but...i love you? lol? that is lame but i legitimately worry abt all of you. like even you weird, mean anon? because i assume even tho you sent hate mail you did it because you love my work? maybe? because you had to be upset enough about this, or enjoy my work enough, to be sad that you aren't getting more of it? which LITERALLY YES YOU ARE LIKE!!!! YOU ARE GETTING SO MUCH!!! we could have nothing.

i am not writing anymore because of how badly it effected my mental health -- also, very cool of you to punish me for the first time i was selfish and decided to be kind to myself....in months! <3 slay! but bc i care abt my story and you guys not getting left on a cliffhanger forever and ever, i decided that i would give you everything i have.

like just that part of the ravesey hate that i wrote yesterday...that is one of four parts...of two chapters. there is easily over ten chapters left that will probably be split up like that. nevermind pep where we have at least five chapters left...and you wanted me..to write like 17 chapters??? that would take me maybe all year??? wild??? like no!!! i'm not gonna do that!!! i don't even have to do this!!!! but i want to!!!

I FUCKING LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE ITS VERY LAME TO SPEAK TO ME LIKE THIS???? I HATE THIS!!! BOOOOOO!!! TOMATO!!!

idk...i guess i'm done now. not updating you on this blog, ofc, just with this ask message. which is not going to be the last one. i will keep updating the kind and lovely people on here who have been so wonderful to me and send me faithful, excited asks everyday. those people do not deserve to be punished because you decided you wanted to be an ahole in my askbox. i am not writing for you.

thank you for supporting my work. thank you for enjoying my updates on here which -- i have been doing this for monthes with no complaints and people send me more asks everyday, so i assume we all enjoy getting them in this format? even tho its off ao3? enough to have 42 pages of asks? also i have not written for months...this is not news, i think. we knew this was coming -- needless to say, i love you very much and i don't care if this is tiring. it is worth it for you.

to those who have been kind to me, thank you very much. i love you and i hope you heal. thank you for healing me.

and you, a-hole anon????

please check yourself.

both metaphorically and into a psychiatric hospital.

cheers! <3 mazel! :)

-uncle nina

#this made me #really fucking mad #but more than that it made me really sad #like i don't have to do this you guys #i seriously don't have to do this #i do this because i love you very much #and i think you deserve answers like i could close this blog and never ever post again and you would never get closure #but i don't want that because you send so many asks so clearly you want answers to stuff #and i have so many people who are so kind 99.9% of yall are so nice to me like my readers are so nice that i am in SHOCK #like i am so sad that you think i dont work hard like #i work very hard on these? they can take me 30 mins? 3 hours? weeks? like...UGH i am sooooo this fucking sucks guys #please don't treat me like this like i want to cry #this is very mean spirited and uncool #if you don't like the way i do my thing you can click off like? #there was no reason to send me this #idk i'm...this hurt my feelings lol please do not send another content creator something like this this is very foul #this is worse than when someone said are you ever updating #the :/ face was soooooo FIGHT ME IN THE STREET #YOU WONT!!! YOU WONT BITCH!!!

[muselexum]

<3

#sending you all so much love #it's crazy how a year has zipped by #every so often i'll come by and check up on the dash and i love seeing all the familiar names <33 #I'll prolly write a more official post in the new year at some point #but im so eager for this work contract to end at the end of this year #im grateful for the job in many ways but in others it was really burnt me out and drained me #ready to turn a new leaf in the new year #and hopefully get some of my creative motivation back when my mind clears #ive put even art/painting on the sidelines as well this year which is something im sad about #but on the positives I think ive had a lot of personal and emotional growth this year that im really proud of!! #(still dont have a driver's license though.. LOL OOP) #and ive really worked on my anxiety and depression. like even if this job is burning out and depressing me// I don't feel DEPRESSED ya kno. #ive just been experiencing a lot of personal growth and change #and the people around me in my life have told me that they've seen changes in me this year too so :') #BUTTTTTT #I so so miss my creative outlets and I feel like I've neglected that this year #I went from escapism to fully avoiding the outlets so now I think it's time to transition into the healthy middle #anywaaaay #hope yall have been doing amazing #love u all and ill probably pop in here for the holidays <33 #blows u all kisses #ooc #tbd

[shidouryusm]

I just realised today marks exactly one year since my breakup.

I'm so so so proud for growing into myself in this one year. I have strengthened my boundaries, I have become more firm in asserting what I want from a partner and won't be settling for anything less. Most importantly, I have realised my own worth, my own importance so so much more than last year. I discovered what I genuinely like, I went out a lot with my friends even on countless self dates, I read books about self-worth and productive habits, I worked and studied hard, I travelled, I just became a relatively more happier person than I was, from 2021 infact.

Last year Sami would not make the choices this year's sami made. As much as I was hurt emotionally and it took me a fair chunk of month to recover, I'm glad I experienced it in order to realise how much I was depriving myself of my own potential and how much I, as an individual, am so much interesting with my own set of goals and likings. As well as realising I am also an individual who has things to work on before getting with someone else. My idea of dating has drastically shifted and honestly I don't think it would have happened if I were to be in that relationship still.

It wasn't abusive nor it was degrading or demeaning to me but I was unknowingly being treated as a much much less priority in the name of "work" and "space". Now I am very sharp about these sugarcoated distancing and disrespect and won't tolerate it otherwise.

I've grown. I am thriving. I am happy.

#sams.shit #a bit long post hehe but it is me rambling #wow I was so civil talking about my ex like damn girl you really grown #not really cause this POS did not used to like geto suguru #Like girl idek how you managed to pull me with a taste like that #more like I WAS WITH YOU CAUSE AINT NOBODY TALKING SHIT ABOUT SUGU #what an ass #sometimes a girly can be mature and petty at the same time #like this so yeah #to anyone- don't let your potential and worth be suppressed even unknowingly #by someone #because you are amazingly interesting #and noone should say otherwise don't let them ever #you build your own bubble of happiness that no-one except you should be able to enter #i love yall mwuah mwuah

[5s-missing-eye]

Nine during lockdown when he's forced to do zoom calls with his class

#this is really just an excuse to post albert #i love albert sm yall have no idea #if you don't know who he is look him up #his channel is called flamingo #he does roblox vids and he's very kid friendly #lorien legacies #flamingo

[sunlitmcgee]

hey guys remember that phase this fandom went through post outpost arc where after c!Tommy said the “you have thick skin” line, everyone started to depict him as an emotionally-deaf idiot jerk who’s completely numb to the emotions of others around him and who was cold and callous towards c!Tubbo after the red festival?

Yeah

Can we agree to never do that shit again?

#dream smp #c!tommy #fandom critical #don't you dare mischaracterize my boy #he's emotionally intelligent to the extreme #he literally cried when he saw Tubbo was okay #he literally was there for him every second post respawn #he literally loves ctubbo more than anything on the bitch earth #yall really took that 1 line #that one innocent remark #and deemed it as proof that he's c!techno junior #newflash #HE AINT #c!techno critical #c!tubbo #c!clingyduo

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

Had enough items to speedrun and read both parts to Silvio's, then found more items and was able to read the sweet end for both Clavis & Jin.... aw hell yeah, triple epilogues baby 👀

I still feel very torn about how they're running things lately though, Ikepri is starting to feel much more cash cow-y with the high point requirements, the premium ends requiring BOTH readthroughs, and no more bday stories but instead grinding through events... love the characters & the storylines but like.. damn. i'm getting genshin ptsd ngl💀

#aerin.txt #same thing w genshin regarding fomo and requirements and stuff sometimes #im just grateful this isn't one that requires you to have strong cards and grinding up those cards just to progress..im so tired of farming #it's a big chunk of why i don't play obey me as much if at all these days.. and why i dropped mr love to begin with 😢 #tears of themis is lucky I'm still invested but also like that one doesn't always feel as bad #...maybe that's just bc of how behind i am idk. but the gacha rates & 50/50s still suck ass. #at least they allow you to post cards and translations in places so you don't HAVE to catch em all lol #what in hell is had is also on thin ice bc its quite possibly the WORST gacha I've ever seen. rates suck; no pity; no info/breakdowns ;; #you don't even know what characters are available on the standard banners aside from the main characters.. what if i wanted a side hoe 😭 #but anyway i think that's enough of a vent outta me. i really need to get my ass and neck away from gacha games or at least try to aksjdjf #hope everyone's been doing well and hope yall enjoy the event #i really really loved silvio's route bc of how silly they are (and how hot it was). kinda liked clavis' but jin's felt kinda meh imo. #lowkey a ventpost

[mynameisrobiniamadumbass]

warning this is a vent post

"take a social media break" i wish i could but you see that would mean taking a break from People In General since everyone around me in my real life just fucking LOVES talking about the exact same issues that keep making me cry myself to sleep.

for several days in a row now i've broken down at dinner because my parents were talking about the environment, or work, or adult things in general. i'm tired and i need some happiness and i need to believe that things aren't so shitty that nothing is worth it anymore. i have NEVER felt as terrible about the world as i am now.

i can't escape this and a lot of people seem to think i shouldn't. because "oh but you need to keep up with the world"

if the world is making me not want to live in it then maybe just maybe i should be able to take a little break from it.

you have no obligation to help me, none of you, and if you have your own shit going on i'd rather you didn't, at all. but if you do have space for me, i don't want to talk about this. if we talk please let's just nerd out about fandoms and whatnot, because that genuinely does make me happy.

ok that's enough from me. don't expect any more vent posts for a while as i still haven't figured out how to vent without feeling terrible and as soon as this episode is over im gonna feel terrible about this post but if anyone's still reading thank you.

#ignore this post #vent #vent post #tw vent #venting #personal vent #vent tag #putting every vent tag i find because again yall REALLY dont have to look at my shit ok #i promise im just having a moment ill get better soon #i think #look if you see any of my vent posts and you don't have the space for them DON'T READ THEM i love you ok i would never ask that

[smolgirlbigdreams]

New G/T Song Series With Vocal Synth

Hey guys! As some of you might know, this is a side blog and I’ve been working on a g/t novel and some other projects in secret. Well, today’s the day I unveil part of the curtain and show you part of what I’ve been working on! (And link my main blog!)

[drum_roll.wav]

Introducing Perthea-- a distant world where humans and pertheans (beings that appear human but measure twenty times taller) live in harmony. Except for Kaylin Finch and Derrick Drake. Due to her fear of pertheans, Kaylin (a human) would much rather stay within the safety of the human undercities. Derrick (a perthean), on the other hand, has been trying really hard (and failing) to become friends with Kaylin, his classmate (or “deskmate”) that he shares a desk with at school. Can these two become friends despite Kaylin’s fear?

This series uses a vocal synth program called OpenUtau, and the voices are sampled from my own and reconstructed in the software. It’s like text-to-speech for singing! I also named the singing voices after the story characters, hence the new “Storie” surname haha

Anyway, enough banter! It’s with great pleasure I finally unveil the first two songs in this series, “A Longing For A World I’ve Not Known” and “My Hands”!

And of course there’s more to come soon!

TL:DR; I made robots that sing and I wrote g/t songs for them

#utau #sing your storie #kaylin storie #derrick storie #openutau #utauloid #g/t #giant/tiny #giant #tiny #perthea #this is actually really scary for me to post #i've been working on perthea for like eleven years now with nobody knowing anything about it so yeah this is really scary for me haha #please don't hesitate to let me know what you think im dying to know! #anyway i love yall bye

[starg1rlie]

HIIIIII LEOOOOO!!! STARBABY YAAAAYYY i was so happy when i saw the notification and even more when i finished reading!!! WOOOO THAT WAS SO GOOD I FELT SO REFRESHED thank you for the GOD TIER WORK!! No pressure in updates or anything else, take care and i hope you're safe and healthy ♡

HOSHIIII! HIHI!! you legit have no idea how happy you make me whenever i see your user pop up in my inbox like- HDHSHDHSHDSHWKLAJWLA YOU MAKE MY DAY LOVE,, pshh- nawhhhh, it ain't god-tier work. just a lil' something that isn't proof-read that i wanted to post to, yk, get it out of my system. ehe <3 my update schedule will deffo remain inconsistent with my hiatus and everything, but i'll DEF tag you in any childe fics i write in the future!! i love to see you and everyone else's comments and interactions, it just makes me incredibly weepy an' giddy inside. i'm both safe and healthy, and i hope that you're doing the same HOSHI!

#(｡･∀･)ﾉﾞ leeo replies!! #@ajaxstar #KLAJWPAWJEOAWJEALKDJAKLDJAKSD #when you post a fic and it gets immediate responses >>>>>> #like FR THO #yall make me really happy #istg i don't deserve any of you guys #y'all are going to make me cry #like i really feel like crying rn #i'm not even kidding. #though it's probably from something else #ION KNOW MAN #all i know is that you are the absolute best #and i LOVE you #i appreciate you #and i cherish our time together (don't come at me for being all sappy)

[musicallisto]

not totally sure what this says (idk exactly what it's implying), but if it says what I think it says, I'm gonna be 100% real with you- if I don't like something I'm not doing ANYTHING I will leave it behind and never look back responses take up too much energy even to decide if my keysmash looks weird

and I'm gonna be 100% real with you in return, likes mean absolutely nothing to an author on tumblr. does it mean you read it and liked it? does it just mean you read it and don't want to read it again should you come across it later? does it mean you're saving it for later? fuck if I know. with all due respect I really can't help but laugh when you say it "takes too much energy" to keysmash?? if it really is such an exhausting ordeal you can also just leave a heart emoji and i guarantee any writer's day will be made. I really do not mean to sound haughty when I say this but we have been over this already time and time again and it's straight up not fun for content creators to post anything on this website, because we don't connect with anybody. by all means, continue liking pieces instead of engaging with them in a way that matters - you are the sole master of your tumblr experience and I could never be the boss of you. just don't be surprised when your favorite artists pack up and leave.

#anon #sorry if i sound mean i really don't want to be rude. i genuinely want to converse with you anon #but the only people who ever interact with my work are my mutuals (whom i am immensely glad for and love to pieces) #and i have stopped posting my original writing on tumblr altogether because no one gives a shit. there's no connection. no interaction #which is like fine ok whatever but when there's no discussion no connection no emotion in fanwork? what even is the point #fandom is meant to be partaken in and shared and yall are not sharing anything i do not know how to put it any more simply #also i never said you can't like AND rb? or like AND comment? in fact i highly encourage you to do this #the point we're trying to get across is: likes alone don't support the creator because they're not telling them Anything!

[transboykirito]

just realised i’ve been in the sao fandom on here for around four years now :’)

i mean this genuinely, with all my heart, the sao fandom and the incredible people i’ve met through it were the highlight of my teenage years. the people i’m still meeting now are so wonderful, coming on here and talking with you all is one of my favourite parts of my day

i love you all immeasurably <3

#personal #and like next month i get to meet one of the msot amazing people in the world irl for the first time after we met on here four years ago #like yeah i met the man who ruined my life but also <3 i met so many incredible people <3 #people who are like family to me and people who got me through so much and hugged me (through the internet) when i needed it #i hope i can give them a hug irl too. and next month i get to for one of them. #like my teenage years were NOT FUN and i got into the sao fandom during a really hard time in my life #and then things got worse. they got so so much worse. BUT. this fandom and series were like a life raft for me through that time #and in this fandom i found a fiance but we don't talk about him anymore and i found a boyfriend but we broke up too #and i found my best friend in the entire world who i'm about to actually meet irl so soon it feels fake???? #and i found a guy who i still love like a brother though i doubt that sentiment is still returned #and i have so many amazing people here now who i love talking to seriously. like those 4 people are from The Old Blog but. #seriously if you've ever sent me a nice dm or a nice ask or liked a post or reblogged a post or left a nice tag or anything i love you sdkjf #yall are great. seriously. i love yall.

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

not to be a smug asshole but its kind of rich how if you say you dont like a thing on the internet everyone who likes that thing automatically assumes you just “don’t get it” and tries to explain to you why the thing is Good, Actually. like maybe i already understand why people like the thing. maybe i have reasons to not like the thing that YOU are refusing to entertain. maybe i used to like the thing because of the specific reasons that you’re writing essays to me about. but then i realized that the thing sucks shit and the reasons why people like it isn’t enough to make it good for me again. maybe my dislike of the thing isn’t because im a stupid idiot who couldn’t put two thoughts together to realize why the thing is good. and maybe i feel belittled and dare i say offended when 12 people condescendingly explain to me why it’s okay that i don’t like the thing, but also refuse to stop explaining the same 2 reasons why THEY like the thing, or even let me defend why i dislike the thing, until i agree with them that the thing is good. all because i dared to express mild disdain on the internet

#shut up pandora #i don't care if people like things i dislike and tell me so but some of yall act like proselytizing christians about it #a while ago i had someone write an essay on a post talking about why a ship i dont like is totally canon guys theyre totally in love #and the ship in questions has not had any conversations in 10 episodes which was why i disliked it #but the argument for it boiled down to 'why does this ship between two main characters HAVE to have any significant onscreen development' #'why cant we just build up this ship based on longing looks like the TJLC ppl. its impossible for you to think thats bad writing' #anyway we ended up dming and i tried to clarify that i dont think its well written to build up a relationship on 'subtle glances' #without having them actually interact with each other. at least not a heavily focused on endgame couple involving main characters #at the end of the very frustrating conversation where they just repeated the 'subtle hints' thing over and over again condescendingly #it turns out they thought i agreed to the conversation bc i wanted them to convince me to like the ship! #so they literally didn't listen to anything i said except to hashtag destroy my points with hashtag facts and hashtag logic #and like. you think i haven't looked at all the 'subtle hints' before this conversation? this is a popular ship and i want to like it! #but i looked at it and thought about it and decided i didn't like it! i even said so on the original post! #the point of the post was 'i dont think having the ship longingly gaze at each other counts as a well written ship if they dont ever talk' #and their 'rebuttal' was 'youre wrong it IS well written! why? well because they longingly gaze at each other' #anyway i was just feeling annoyed about that again #also that time an mlb fan sent me a wholeass wordpress essay on why mlb is Good Actually #after i explained i understand why people like it. i was a fan actually! i just both grew out of it and realized the writing is really bad #so bad in fact that the reasons i liked it werent enough to redeem the show for me and it keeps getting worse #anyway yes im vagueposting about people but messaging strangers to restart a months old argument is more deranged i think #i hope the people who condescendingly hop on a strangers posts to write them essays on why they Dont Get It Actually #uhhhhhhhhhhhhh maybe stop that!

[scuopsie]

hello! so continuing my comment… i just don’t get the lack of interaction sometimes. sure there are people i message on a daily basis who are dear friends i can freak out with, but sometimes a girl wants to reblog some hot pictures with an all caps freak out and get some replies. sometimes i do get replies and im like cheers im glad you agree with me… but idk?? does this even make sense? bc you can’t force it either. however, at the same time i know people who are into the same artists i am see my posts/are following me…so maybe it’s just me lol. perhaps i need to start a kpop club and host weekly meetings so i can reach my ‘daily kpop freak out with likeminded people’ needs

i also don’t want to sounds ungrateful because people interact with my writing and that is so 🥰🥰

(hopefully i don’t regret sending this. i’m sending this quite quickly and not really thinking about it too hard)

no no i get it!!! you don't need to feel bad or regret this or anything. in gerenal i totally agree that interacting with others (particularly in kpop bc thats the only fandom ive ever been active on tumblr in) isn't the same as it used to be.

it's also no secret to anyone that people just aren't rbbing and sharing content (especially original content; art/gifs/fics etc) as much. i think at least to some degree it comes down to the fact that there aren't as many active tumblr users around. everyday on twitter I see new accs who are looking for moots who say aren't new to kpop and only new to twt. there's a good chance that a lot of them are migrating from tumblr. another thing. in ur ask u talk about rbbing in all caps and expecting replies/interactions. im not 100% sure if im assuming this right (bc i can't think of any instance of u doing that with my posts) but if you mean rbbing and adding comment under the post and not in the tags, i gotta say that's a pet peeve for a lot of ppl. I did check ur archive and noticed that you're not new to tumblr and I only have been active in kpop tumblr so that might be exclusive to kpop tumblr but yeah. i know a lot of CCs especially don't like it if u add onto their posts. in extreme cases i've seen ppl get blocked for this or get vague posted about lsijdfjsd. for me personally that's not something I'd get too mad about even though I understand where CCs are coming from. it can be a bit annoying especially if its something that could've been said in the tags. so if that's what you meant by not getting interactions, this might explain it.

but even going back a couple of years when kpop tumblr was at its peak, i remember how weird the interactions between big accs and smaller ones were. i was so confused by it all for so long i couldn't understand why there are so many rules like only sending anons unless ur mutuals, only tagging and dmming ur mutuals, not adding to posts, etc etc. there was a time when big accs on here were treated like GODS(whether that was a good thing or not is another can of worms entirely). they'd get thousands of notes on their posts and get hundreds upon hundreds of asks and usually they were funny so the interactions (I mean asks and replies) were so fun! u could send anons or just read the ones posted and it was hella fun and some of them would turn into memes.

#i feel like no one else remembers any of this bc most ppl from those times have left tumblr #but sending asks was the primary way of interacting with other kpop stans #ppl would send memes on anon. ask weird questions that the reciever could answer in a clever way. anons would ask you to rank random things #and discourses #oh my god discourses #they were a gift and curse #it would start with one acc or one anon and then everyone would start talking and discussing #moots would have public discourses through rbbing each other's post abt the subject and adding onto them. whether to agree or disagree #and these would get heated up!!!! #anons would join and sometimes it would take days until ppl forget about it and the subject died down #and as annoying and dumb some of these discourses were they were a huge part of fandom experience #and they were fun a lot of times #idk maybe all the funny ppl have left tumblr #bc it wasn't just the acc receiving the ask who had to be funny. the anons sending had to be too skiflsdj #like i remember thinking at some point some of these accs must be sending the anons themselves bc how well thought of and funny the ask- #-and the answers were! they were too perfect and almost choreographed. but 99.9% were real and genuine #and its really sad that we don't have that anyore #even these dumb ask games that I myself role my eyes at when i see them on my dash used to be fun #anyway!!! thank you for humoring me and sending this!! #I LOVE INTERACTING WITH YALL SKHDFKSDH #and i love ranting as u can see #and my askbox is always open if u ever wanna scream in capslock at me!!!! #ask #anon