#you should see the raws

[wordstome]

I wish I could put into words the sensation I feel when I think about or see content of König. It's a very special kind of joy. I love that fanon in general holds that he's this big brutal military man who yells "HA! YOU MISSED ME!" as he smashes someone's brains in with a hammer, yet simultaneously an anxious sweating mess of a feral animal at his core. A real damp wet cat of a man breathing hard as he tries not to lose his shit because he's sitting in a debrief feeling like he needs to peel his skin off. I love the idea that he craves sex and intimacy in a painfully vulnerable way, but he can only express it or pursue it in a wildly deranged manner.

I've seen a lot of people wondering why people like König so much when the only canonical content we have is a short bio and a handful of voice lines. Obviously, a lot of people think he's hot and want to freak him nasty, which is incredibly valid. I also think some of the appeal is the fact that there's so little go on, that we can just take him and make whatever interpretation that we want.

But I think at the core of it is that the seeds of a really good concept have been sown. Even though he's a dysfunctional wreck, anxious and unable to fit in, ostracized for things he can't control, he's so powerful. His violence is frightening and harsh, but it occupies a grey area where it's a good thing that helps him.

I hope a lot of other people can relate to this, but the only way I can describe it is the urge to be a werewolf? To be able to become some wild, untamed thing who can not only defend itself, but tear to shreds anything that would try to harm it. The best way I've seen this concept embodied is the Tumblr-famous I Am A Bride comic, which is very near and dear to my heart. I love König as a character because he embodies this ideal of despite my fragile vulnerable insides, I am powerful and ruthless and strong. Why shouldn't I go apeshit? When the world has been so unfair? When all people have done is hurt and disappoint me?

And, too, I love König fans' answer to the question. Of course you should. Of course you can. This is your right. And I will love you despite this, despite your anger and your violence, despite your anxiety and your dysfunctionality. You are something worthy of being loved, without having to be changed.

#könig #konig #könig cod #konig mw2 #konig cod #konig call of duty #cod konig #König call of duty #König mw2 #obviously I don't mean like #'you should love violent people no matter what it's a good idea!!' #none of this applies to real world abusive relationships #it's just the idea of being so raw and vulnerable #and protecting yourself the only way you can #and someone coming along and saying i know you. #i see you. #i will love you #all of you #anyway forgive the essay #I just needed to express how deeply I adore this character #got lovestruck went straight to my head... #Bucca speaks

[a-s-levynn]

(source)

#sleep token #here is a thing #there are certain moments when Vessel looks.. no he rather feels.. small #i mean his.. aura? presence? but not in the non-captivating way but as in an emotionally vulnerable way #i don't really have the words to describe this but just like on this picture #bear with me for a minute because this is either gonna sound completely unhinged or make some sort of sense #it's probably just me having a little more time on my hand than i should and just want to see things but.. #sometimes he feels so present in a here-i-am as-i-am take-me-as-you-will this-is-all-i-am i-can't-give-more-nor-less it's-just-me sorta way #he feels so human in the rawest sense possible and yet so deep in character maybe even more so than when he creatures or teefs and all #like.. he is just vessel in it's simplicity and without the 'divine' if you will.. simply just vessel #in his barest of existance #a shadow of someone who used to be but not quite anymore #he is in pieces and it is willingly laid bare under the mask and all that bodypaint oh so clear to see for anyone #and that is not the outstreched hand of you-are-not-alone but the outstreched soul that cries you-can-find-yourself-in-me #and that is what i find so heartbreaking about him #this kind if raw openness because the lore says vessel is a conduit for sleep #for us vessel (and the the others) is the conduit of our emotions #and he is there somewhere inbetween the truths #just him a simple human being who sometimes seems to wish not to be human which makes him more human than anything #and that is what i can't describe better than 'sometimes he feels small' and at time even maybe makes me cry a little

[gunstellations]

to love and be loved

#haikaveh #my art #sorry the color value and quality is so bad it started out as a random little doodle on the corner of my canvas then i got attached.. #im obsessed with their canon relationship and absolutely adore the dynamics and also i want to see them in a loving marriage together!! #i should really put more effort into making my art look appealing instead of drawing raw emotion in shitty quality and calling it a day... #genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #i tried my best to show it but kaveh is smiling i hope its legible...legible?? seeable? the art form of readable #wait i can just say readable #is that a word.. #some parts of this sketch is bothering me so much like some of alhaithams hair #and bits of the scarf especialy but im learning to let things go.... #and also the cloth on his arm being folded just wrong fuck. ok maybe if i colour this later ever ill fix those.. #sorry abt the rant as always have a great day/night and i love you

[nellienelsonspring]

its been very interesting to see some people being disappointed in the michael holden casting, especially when they say things like 'he doesn't feel like michael holden' or doesn't 'give michael holden vibes', or something to that effect... and then you see their previous fancasts and realise what the actual issue they have is

#we've seen what 2 pictures? and you can pick up his vibe already huh #wow some sort of savant #should join the police force with that sort of raw instinct #really wish some ppl would do some reflection about this #honestly don't even need to see the fancasts these people had for michael #you just know what the real issue is #even if they pretend it isnt #heartstopper #michael holden

[ombrathefurry]

I was listening to Don't Listen by jakeneutron and thought of Loading and Smallfeather if only I could animate 😭

Do you think it fits them?

Some parts, yes, but not the whole song in my opinion

I cant think of any character of mine that would fit with SF, but I know plenty of my friends characters who’d that fit with

#answered #my friends better not #anyways #I should elaborate more on loading and sf’s relationship because. It’s the one thing I see misinterpreted the most out of my stuff #for some reason #the most common thing I’ve seen is people depict loading as this big bad guy #but he’s Really Not he’s just an idiot with the capability to be a big threat but chooses not to #he’s more of the psychopath in the woods/the monster you should avoid #he’s not calculating he’s just impulsive and that’s what makes him scary #anyways he hates sf and sees him as nothing but prey #like he has no connection with him at all #it’s a very raw predator prey relationship those two #yeah loading is bad but he’s not one of sfs biggest overshadowing worries #If that makes sense #more is to come

[aritany]

i’m beginning to think there’s a kind of indestructibility that comes with the territory of your first heartbreak being from your parents.

like, what are you going to do to hurt me? my superheroes chose religion over me. good try though

#alex talks #not writing #idk how to tag this #parental trauma #toxic family #no contact #if anyone has suggestions for how to better tag this lmk #i was just thinking about how i am relatively unbothered by people hurting me like yes it sucks but is it Worse? #i’ve literally been divorced because the idea of me post Hypothetical top surgery was not worth staying married to #and that was like. ok damn ouch. and it really hurt for a while #but nothing will touch the og hurt!! #(i am thinking about this because i had two facetime calls with my parents in the span of a month #in which it was reiterated that i am an Unreasonable Child for asking that my sexuality and gender id be Acknowledged let alone respected #and that the Love Of God is our example and we can love each other through differences of opinion #finally got to vocalize how hurt i’ve been over the last decade by their bigotry and got Literally ignored) #🙂 (heartbroken) #i’ve been trying to decide whether to even post about this where anybody could see it because it feels very real and raw and scary #but you know what i have no qualms about my own side of this story being public #and i think that if my parents didn’t want to look like villains they should have behaved less villainously #thank u for coming to my ted talk that is all #wait no it isn’t #if you’re reading this and your parents have ever made you feel like who you are is not important: they are NOT always right #you deserve to exist as you are #and that isn’t possible for everyone but it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to take up space #ok that’s it for real

[sendmyresignation]

one of the things about where are your boys tonight i really appreciated and, to me, seemed like the most significant thrust of the book (but never garnered much attention, imo), was the focus on the business side of things and particularly the way the many bands never saw long term success or stability or the way a lot of very young people were taken advantage of even after making their labels and handlers metric butt-tones of money and this really culminated with the discussion about paramores record deal and the inherently coercive nature of making a 14 year old sign a record deal (not even really mentioning that record deal was 20 fucking years lmao) and yet i still see people argue she was an industry plant or whatever. sorry ig one of my fatal flaws is i give child stars the benefit of the doubt considering the fundamental exploitation necessary for that position to exist or whatever

#sorry was thinking about this bc I saw some truly horrible and dismissive posts on twitter about hayleys contract #but i also think it dovetails into the general malaise that existed in the third wave that a lot of places are quick to dismiss #idk. i keep thinking about how so many ppl were taken advantage of (in the sense of predatory contracts or not getting paid victory style) #and how many are stuck in an endless loop of diminishing returns in order to be career musicians who can actually support themselves #and fundamentally this is the key linchpin in the emo nostalgia- some of the btier andlower bands Need stuff like #emo nites or wwwy to actually make a living (no matter how much you make up front a altrock hit single cannot sustain someone as livelihood) #and since touring is the only reliable way to make money. well why put significant expenses into ur new album #none of your fans care about anyway? its a pre-existing cycle. very thrash metal. but its almost worse #when you factor in shit like the fan perception of the used the canyon.... #idk ive been thinking about it a lot and i dont find nostalgia circuits reprehensible bc of the fundamental indignities #of the recording industry and all its issues #but its hard to see people shit talk the third wave for being full of impressionable kids hoping to survive of their passion #like you do realize they dont sound like assholes in that circumstance for crashing and burning? right? #(esp when you add mental health and addiction into the mix- these bands were full of sick people being denied care bc it would interfere w/ #the 'rawness' or authenticity or whatever the fuck. these bands were having their sadness wrung out of them for money) #anyway i think hayley williams should be allowed to hunt any and all current or former atlantic higherups for sport #my posts

[touchd0wn-boy]

asthenia demo version you'll always be famous to me

#demos are so fun i love seeing the creative process. especially with lyrics #the new ones fit better but the old ones are so raw and unfiltered it's great #SIXTEEN I WANNA BE DIFFERENT #SHOULD I COME BACK SHOULD I? THIS TIME I DIDN'T WANT TO #SHOULD HAVE GOT CAUGHT SHOULD HAVE GOT CAUGHT I WISH I NEVER MET YOU

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

I have this tea cup I made in highschool (it’s really cute and was designed more like those Japanese ones without a handle than it was those fancy English style with even more elements to them) but I never actually asked if the glaze we used was food safe (we all used the same glaze on those cups specifically because the teacher glazed those ones in particular and I don’t remember checking. I glazed and painted every other project but only one of them was something you would use for food and that thing broke a few years ago and was honestly more decorative) and this has haunted me ever since. It’s a super cute cup and I adore it, but I have no idea if I can use it for its intended purpose and while I could buy a lead testing kit I’m not sure how I would check for anything else that might have been in that glaze. I know the color used but not the brand, so that’s not really a help either. The teacher I had left the district after that year because our school district paid art teachers a shit wage and we rotated through them like elementary school kids needing new shoes every year. I’m not entirely sure how I would contact her, but even if I did track her down (something not entirely impossible from what I know about her life outside of teaching us for a year, I would feel slightly weird about it though, even though she was my favorite art teacher) but I highly doubt she would remember something like the glaze she used on one project her students made at a school she taught at for one year. I’m not sure what other testing kits I would need besides lead to confidently say it’s safe enough for my personal use, and it’s annoyed me for several years now.

#emma posts #it was peacock. peacock green I believe #and do you have any idea how many brands produce a peacock named glaze? #I could maybe narrow it down by looking for one that tended to be more forest green to dark blue #but that’s not really a great way to get a definitive answer #I also wish i could make more ceramic stuff right now! I’ve been hooked ever since yhat class #polymer clay sculpting isn’t quite the same (though better than nothing) and air dry clay often feels crumbly #neither of those could be used for cups and stuff #but even just making clay sculptures (my favorite) hits different with clay #I miss the smell and the feel and the way it worked #the closest I’ve gotten to the experience was digging up clay near my parents house and trying to fire it in the bonfire #it was only a half success #I tried to learn how ancient people made stone wear with raw clay and other materials added #but i just can’t seem to fire it the same way and it ends up slightly ashy on the surface from the soot #it’s also a bit more prone to cracking and I know I can’t expect the same as what it’s like working with the good stuff #and I know the clay on the farm is at least decent but not modern quality #also it doesn’t get fired all the way so if I get water on it it starts to dissolve a bit again #I should try to study ancient clay methods #it would be really fun to try to recreate some stuff in the area behind the lilacs #but it isn’t as good as modern clay #I’m getting really side tracked though #art problems #I wish I had an actual studio. I don’t see that happening any time soon though #my dream is to live on one of those houses in the woods north of town and have an art studio and room for more pets and gardens #i don’t think that’s ever gonna happen though #right now I’m just trying to figure out the local buses and stay in government housing #I can’t drive. I dropped out of college because of health problems. I’m living on disability and foodstamps. my health inssues make my #schedule and availability unreliable for a regular schedule #keeping up with the dishes is my worst enemy (aside from everything else) #i just don’t see myself doing much outside of my desk in the corner of my small living room any time soon

[happyk44]

Love the idea of Zelda studying Link like he's a little creature she found. Just imagining her admiring the new guards begin their training. She's a little lost because she thought there was supposed to be ten trainees this year, but she can only count nine.

Before she can call over their teacher though, Link comes sailing down from the sky and tackles his partner to the ground. Later she watches as he blows himself up on his own bomb by accident, but dashes through the fire he caused on the course anyway, and still come in first before all the others. During lunch he eats a pile of raw meat he packed for himself.

She is utterly fascinated by whatever is going on with this guy. She doesn't know what it is yet but she will figure it out.

#happy talks vidya games #legend of zelda #idk about you guys but my link is an adhd riddled creature who scales every wall he sees #and blocks with his face because i believe in charging head first for the monsters and im bad at dodging when im using two handed weapons #during one session she watches him wrestle one of the lizard things (lizaflos or smth like that) with his bare hands and no rubberized armo #she is watching him run around in circles and scaling walls in the middle of the night when he should be sleeping #she's making little notes about him. she has like thirteen journals about link's behaviour alone #he eats so many raw ingredients but is also somehow the best cook ever #his only response to why he doesn't pack more cooked meals for himself is that it takes too much time. then he goes and chases a deer. #i know nothing about botw lore btw lmaooo i played it a million years ago and have forgotten. also i got like. four memories. so. pft #happy talks loz

[delta-piscium]

Trying? Trying??? By learning. By succeeding!

(about this and my text under the cut)

this is very nice actually thank you so much <3 <3 and like, i probably do need to give myself more credit in general but also i am still very much learning and stumbling and figuring digital art out (and for the most part it is so fun)

I’m gonna ramble about this a bit so bear with me and also i apologize lol, but that art was done after a month of getting increasingly more frustrated with everything turning out so badly and eventually realizing that I was trying to 1. copy a certain look/style that i’ve internalized is what fanart and digital art should look like and is very far away from my style/comfort zone 2. i was trying to do everything digital allows without being comfortable with it or understanding it

so (and this took me a month to realize ? ??) i did what i already knew from doing acrylic and oil painting in the past and could somewhat easily transfer to digital without having to know more than the basics, like i didn’t use a lot of the things digital provides or allows for. i used layers for my own peace of mind but without actually needing them and did some color adjusting (honestly, the color adjusting digital lets you do is such a blessing to me) but the only fancy way i really utilized the medium was making it a gif (which is so fun and a lot easier than i would have thought, like honestly watch me make any future art into gifs too) but there are so many things you can do with the medium with settings/effects, different brushes, tools to use in the process etc that i just do not understand what they are or how to implement them so i am very slowly learning digital art as a whole new medium rather than just being able to use it to adapt what i already know

#sorry you just wanted to say a quick thing and i went on a whole rant (welcome to my blog tbh) #like i'll watch tutorials and they'll be like 'and i just did an overlay and then a multiply layer in a good color (:' and im like ??? wdym #'a good color' what color is a good color? like i can put those effects on my work but that's just me clicking a button without knowing wha #will happen really and like i watch speed paints and see them do stuff and im just ? HUH? what was that and why? #i also do not understand a lot of these concepts with traditional art tbh like people will talk about under paintings and im like yeah sure #i hear you however i also do not- i just place a color where it should be and that's that which i know is why my colors often don't feel #cohesive which is also something i need to learn which is blah- im basically just saying i actually do not know any theory or technique #even with traditional it is all just vibes and hoping for the best which in the long run just makes me very confused about what i am #actually doing and not confident at all i'll be able to do it again so u know #we're out here literally just raw dogging art without any thought #but it's also just i do not need to do all those fancy things but i would like to understand them and i am excited to see my progress now #i just really had a shitty month of making ugly things up until now okay so i was a little fragile when i posted that #but people have been so so nice about it and ive been crying for two days straight #also people have been so lovely about the colors and colors are deadass the hardest part about digital like with paint you often buy a set #that already match and then mix them if needed and they'll look nice together but with digital you're just on your own- no training wheels #ask #anon

[waywardsalt]

ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great

#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained #so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do #likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish. #like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired #hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic #hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow #he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit #he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation #and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now #he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng #and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever #like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting #hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests #and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him #hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked #because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess #his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free #he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves #idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him #like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon #when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff #that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then #i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow #im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with #its very cute

[vamptastic]

baldurs gate is sooooo so evil for giving astarion and gale like, cheese grater cut shredded abs... come with me guys its okay we're gonna get you some water.

#its just bc everybody uses the same generic character model #they look so so scary shirtless AUUGGH. so scary. #gale baby cmere i know you i know your heart i know you would have a healthy layer of padding and that youd go down in one hit #the no abs mod tempts me but i dont wanna mess up my save for two characters im unlikely to see shirtless in this run #regardless. it bothers me. They Would Not Fucking Have Abs #AND HALSIN SHOULD BE AN ACTUAL BEAR. MAKE HIM FAT!!!!! #andi should also be able to give my tav (an archfey warlock) the body of dionysus. some hips at least. #his whole combat style is like channeling the raw power of the fey into seduction and terror and also sometimes his sword #no need to be buff!

[doberbutts]

The price of being your own zookeeper is that you have to make your own meal enrichment but luckily for me this'll feed me for the rest of this paycheck 😤

#gotta make some starches but I still have some rice and some noodles leftover in the fridge #so I'll do that when that runs out #vegetables I eat raw so you see less prep for that lmao #cooked vegetables is SENSORY BAD TEXTURE BAD TASTE BAD #veggies should be CRUNCHY #the only exception is potatoes which are a starch 🤬🤬🤬

[palms-upturned]

Reading theory like wow this somehow fills me with hope and despair at the same time. Like things could be so much better than this! But also. Things could be so much better than this.

#meg talks #sometimes u think abt how cool it is that a nearby group of organizers is setting up free food fridges in public in the city #then u think abt all the reasons it takes this much effort just to stock four or five fridges and ur like. ah. #like oh right someone has to buy the fridge. and pay for the electricity. and someone has to be willing to host the fridge #and then ppl have to donate food to it which should be the easy part bc of how much gets tossed out from stores/restaurants #but. well y’know. #and then ppl have to be able to actually get to the fridge. not so simple for the ppl who are in most dire need of free food #when public transit is so spotty and not even free 🥲 #and u see the fridge is stocked w raw produce and wonder what abt ppl who don’t have time or tools to cook #and think hey wouldn’t it be nice to have a communal kitchen to go w the communal fridge #and then u think abt the obstacles between you and a communal kitchen and you start wanting to kill ppl

[cloudcastor]

um, what size do you make your canvas for tumblr? for landscape & portrait. and what size do you make it for instagram? i’m a bit confused on what size to use…

i’m probably the worst person to ask since I usually work at about 5000x5000px (give or take) and then just crop as needed…. lol… I know there’s specific dimensions that are “optimal” for each social media site but I don’t really pay much attention to that since most sites will REALLY compress your images anyway

#my vague answer is as long as it’s not too tiny it should be okay #if you upload at a raw 5000x5000 that would be WAY too much #sometimes you can also just test upload to a side account to see how images will look before you post them as well #im the LEAST technical about this i just draw and post and disappear i’m sorrryyy #anon #asks #personal