#you're the only friend i've got

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

#selfie bee #to be honest my stage 2 was just drawing the same picture of Helena Bonham Carter everyday #I still have the folder #friends not only did I drive a BIKE recently I also drove a CAR #all on my own!! （*´▽｀*） #It was very scary and I cried a few times but I did it #in the beginning I had to do a few night shifts in a different city and there was to other way to get there and in the end it was fine #I wonder what other things I am scared of are secretly fine #phonecalls? math?? （●´･△･｀） #I am actually avoiding math right this moment #I've decided to learn how to sew a skirt and did you know that sewing is secretly math #I did not know and now the skirt is very short and the living room is covered in yarn and I have not done any actual sewing yet #but I will do it and maybe its just like driving and you just have to cry a little and then it will be fine #the only truly bad thing that happened while driving is that I got into a thunderstorm one time #and it was night and there were 300 trucks going to opposite way #I tried to focus on the Lizzo song on the radio but I was also crying #if you were a truck driver and you saw a woman 2 months a go at night driving a car crying while singing Juice! Juice! (´；д；`) #I'm fine I hope you didn't also cry #have a nice day friends!! #I hope you're doing well!! ♥ :) #I will now go back to the skirt

[thatfuckinjester]

honestly i own this one to @gottagho-st because without this i would have written some trashy hurt/comfort

this is kinda of a continue to what i wrote yesterday. anyways. the first time aurora heard anything about it she heard the girls talking about how phantom is going to be sent back and it pretty much broke her heart.

cumulus was talking to cirrus about how sad it almost feels, about how she will almost miss the new quint.

and aurora was running.

phantom was already in his bunk, his eyes already closed, but just her hand on his shoulder got him to open his eyes, looking at her startled.

"rorry?" he whispered, his voice so soft and no matter how much she blinked them away the tears still fell. he hugged her then, and she hugged him back. so tight, holding onto him like he's the only thing that ever existed.

"they said that you're going to be sent back." she said after she calmed down, both of them now laying face to face in phantom's bunk, she plays with his hair as he kept his hands hugging her, their tails tangled together.

phantom just nodded, his eyes looking vacant and far away, like they're hidden by some kind of a fog.

"i'll miss you," he said, and breathed out a sigh, the rest of the sentence withering away on his tongue (just like they both knew he would do soon too).

"i'll miss you too." she said back, closing her eyes, "promise me that you'll say goodbye before, okay? please phantom."

"i promise" he whispered in to the space between them.

and then, after the tour ended after not seeing or hearing anything from phantom for a week, if not more, she knew deep down that he broke his promise.

no one talked about it, no one even mentioned phantom, except for the older quints that appetantly were looking for him too. she wondered if they knew that phantom's going to be sent back (but then she reminded herself that it's more than most likely that he was already sent back). maybe she should tell them? but there's no one but phantom who she wanted to talk about it to, and he's already gone.

every night and every morning she would knock on phantom's door, asking if he's there, she never got an answer.

not until she heard aether calling to omega, his voice urgent and terrified, that one morning. it was so cold out that even with her hoodie and pj pants she had her blanket around her as she stepped outside, and then she saw phantom again.

something was so incredibly wrong but no one was saying anything, and it wouldn't really matter to anyone, especially not phantom, but he was wearing a fucking tee when it was this fucking cold outside she just wrapped her blanket around him, hoping that maybe it would snap him out of his trance, maybe it'll clear the fog from his eyes. it did absolutely nothing and she could feel the tears falling down her face, drawing invisible maps on her pink skin.

she don't know what the fuck went down, the older quints and papa were the only ones allowed to stay with phantom.

but now she knows that they're angry, they wouldn't talk with anyone, and papa just looked at them all with disappointed eyes.

she doesn't think anyone even noticed her being gone, and if they did she don't care. she quietly opened phantom's door, the way everything was so clean, even phantom's own scent, felt like a punch to the gut.

she slowly shook him with a whisper of his name.

he just looked at her before making place for her, and she held him so fucking tight she herself felt like she can't breathe.

"you promised to say goodbye." aurora accused him. "i'm still here." phantom offered her a barely there smile.

when she started to cry his own tears fell as well.

she hugged him tighter.

#yk the song “the frost” by mitski? #when she says “you're my best friend now i've got no one to tell how i lost my best friend” #or when in the fault in our stars #when she says “the only person i really wanted to talk to about augustus water's death with was augustus waters” #that's aurora when she thought phantom was sent back without saying goodbye #ghost #the band ghost #nameless ghouls #phantom #phantom ghoul #phantom ghost #aurora #aurora ghoulette #aurora ghost #phantom believing that he's being sent back to the pit #my so called “fluff”

[nagasthia]

Look a Ninjago drawing :)

#lego ninjago #ninjago #pixal ninjago #ninjago pixal #lego ninjago pixal #pixal #pixal borg #ninjago art #ninjago fanart #my art #I have a feeling you don't actually believe you are good at what you're doing #that's what my therapist said to me last week #and that made me think #when did I started resenting what always made me happy? Because all I feel is that no matter how much I try I'm never happy #I'm in a place where I'll start to get nightmares every time I post something #Don't get me wrong I am so grateful for all the support you guys gave me and I feel really happy with the friends I got here #but things are not balanced #I have been doing art for such a short time and I can see how much I have improved #but if I am not happy with my own art I see no reason to keep doing it #I've only been drawing and getting better because you gave me so much support but the support is not working now #because no matter what I'll never be satisfied with myself #I know I will hate this drawing the moment I post it but everyone following me is a follower because of ninjago and I can't ignore that #So for y'all a drawing

[lunarharp]

Very important conferences.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #some real serious discussions goin on in this atelier today. dont u doubt it. #agott is the only one who has ever thought about this because she is a 12 year old lesbian and UMM..FRIEND? LIKE FRIEND? IS THAT..LEGAL??? #this is all i drew today because silly things like this take hours lol. at least it's practice for poses -_- #i got the pattern of the girls' dresses wrong but i couldn't be bothered to change halfway through. #don't worry if you're like what is the naakiwan downs. is that name even mentioned in the main manga #ANYWAY i KEEP thinking about what if it's actually banned for professors and watchful eyes to date like that would make a lot of sense. #like maybe it should be banned. SO??? are they just low-key Aware of what the deal is and they're just Putting their feelings aside #until graduation??? take my tassel as an unspoken reminder of how i feel?? living together trial period?? this feels like it's truly it #When we're free to be together........ Sensei loves homophobia parallels without there actually being homophobia #Let's invent reasons why men cant be together. Ummm well whatever. i'm screaming in my head but it's fine. #this will probably form the theme of my orufrey for a while. i've thought of this before but for some reason today it's big for me. #i guess the tassels might not specifically be a part of that since they exchanged them before tower of books #and qifrey made his mysterious decision to be a teacher after that and..well whatever. I need more of backstory and just..everything? #But i also don't mind when vinanna interrupts my wishes with just a chapter of just being really dreamy? I love witch hat?

[snixx]

the shame of not having moved on from faberry in the year of our lord 2024. we all need that one yearny pretentious ass depressed white girl queerbait ship that we will never get over leave me alone okay

#at least it wasn't clexa godbless #but GIRL it's been fifteen years #the DETAILS the METICULOUSNESS the POETIC CINEMA #the PARALLELS #WHEN YOU WERE SINGING THAT SONG YOU WERE SINGING IT TO FINN AND ONLY FINN RIGHT #girlie got in a CAR CRASH to stop the love of her life from getting married to some jock tool #MY GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT WAS I FOUND A WAY TO BE YOUR FRIEND #YOU DON'T BELONG HERE RACHEL AND YOU CAN'T HATE ME FOR HELPING SEND YOU YOUR WAY #SHE'S THE SHINING STAR OF ALL OF US #YOU'RE A VERY PRETTY GIRL QUINN YOU'RE THE PRETTIEST GIRL I'VE EVER MET BUT YOU'RE A LOT MORE THAN THAT #i could go on #what the fuck was that #faberry

[talentforlying]

idk if john will ever realize just how many times his big sister has had to mourn him because his idiot ass showed up on her doorstep to say a "final goodbye" and then just dropped off the grid for months afterwards. figure out the cell phone thing, man.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #i think every day about the dangerous habits arc and the way he said bye to cheryl & left chas a note & then just. didn't die #and then didn't go back and call ANYONE to check in bc he got distracted catching up & getting back together with kit #he loves cheryl with all his life but he is NOT good at staying in contact #and like 60% of the time he handwaves it as 'i would have put her in danger' when that is simply not always the case #he's just truly awful at keeping in touch with people #the pitfalls of only living day to day instead of making long-term plans #this is true for most people he knows btw there's a good chance that if you're his friend you won't see him for Months on end #and then he'll just swan in out of nowhere aiming to pick up where he left off. that's not how that works buddy #tbh the best way to figure out if he's alive or not is through rumors and with his reputation? that's not a great source of info #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #sched.

[risingsunresistance]

apparently twitter is fightng about whether or not alpharad is Literally Rich Like Actually 1% "Eat The Rich" Rich because of his last vlog and people are mad that he was nice to his friends and think he's just bragging about having a lot of money because they didnt care enough to watch the video and only went by the title and thumbnail

anyways have i told you how much i love alpharad that guy is awesome

#man i've been here since 90k subs i've watched him go from nothing to THIS #you guys think he just got algorithm'd to fame and doesnt deserve it?? IT TOOK HIM A DECADE #ONE VACATION AND BUYING HIS FRIENDS GIFTS DOES NOT EQUATE TO SWEAT SHOP LABOR LEVELS OF CAPITALIST EXPLOITATION #YOU'RE ALL BRAIN DEAD I HOPE ELON KILLS YOU ALL 😭 #man takes his first vacation in 10 years and says he's finally happy after working so hard to fight off depeession #only for everyone to complain that he's having fun and enjoying life #''you cant be happy because im not happy!! that's not fair!!!'' #chat #sorry had to complain somewhere without a word count. simply had too much to say and priv wont cut it jhdkfh #if he ever restocks some of the graffiti designs i'm throwing him another $60 💖

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

τραγῳδίες | Goat Songs

Sophokles tr. Anne Carson // Aeschylus tr. Robert Icke // Franny Choi // Quora answer // Richard Siken // source not found // Muse Lee & Aaron Reed // Richard Siken

#btw whenever i say ''source not found'' please know that I've usually spent like an hour searching for a source and still not found it #so if anyone knows where those quotes are from let me know so i can fill in those source slots #Lu rambles #web weaving #no this isn't about anything specific haha no why would you think that haha... ha.... #actually it is kinda just an expansion of the set of quotes i dug up for magpie a while back #only vaguely related to my tenet thoughts tbh i just got thinking about tragedies and circular narratives again #however if i can find a way to apply planet of love (you're going to die in your best friend's arms) to anything? trust me i WILL #you didn't think you'd feel this way.. #compare case histories

[mintjeru]

the wolf that fell in love with little red riding hood; a remake of this au

chiluc week 2022 @chilucexchange

day 6 prompts: reverence | fairy tale au challenge: include teardrops

open for better quality | no reposts | ID under the cut

[Image description: A digital drawing of Diluc as Little Red Riding Hood and Childe as The Big Bad Wolf. Diluc’s hair is arranged in twin braids that fall over his chest. He wears a black cape with a red hood, a white button up, black high-waisted pants, and black thigh-high boots with golden laces and red bows. His cape is adorned with golden tassels and secured in place with a red ribbon tied into a bow. He has a sword around his hip and carries a picnic basket. Childe walks slightly behind him, pointing towards the side as he speaks. He has black wolf ears and a tail. He wears a white cape lined with black fur, a loose maroon shirt, gray pants, and black boots that cut off under the knee. The two walk together in a forest and are lit by dappled sunlight.]

#chilucweek2022 #childe #tartaglia #diluc #chiluc #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #doodle #if you get the caption reference. you're so cool and i think we should be friends /hj #i was looking through my old art and found the original art for this au #the brainrot consumed me for a day and then i abandoned it oops #so chiluc week was a good excuse to revisit the designs #also. i need to get better at rendering dappled lighting!! #i've been learning by studying art styles of the different webtoons i read #i still haven't got it down but more practice will help! #edit: so nobody got the ref? that's surprising /gen #maybe it's only the night series that hitoyama are popular for

[spaceangst]

does anyone else get that sinking feeling when a friend gets really into something you absolutely adore/have been hyperfixating on, but when you mentioned it, they ignored it (and kinda just ignore you unless and will talk over you to talk to their actual friends to the point where you're not even sure if y'all are friends or just acquaintances) and now they're really liking it and you just. want to gatekeep it bc that interest was (and is!) important to you...

or am i just being childish lol

#shut up k #forever frustrated with how people will act like they're in a clique online too #it's even more annoying when no one was mean necessarily #just kinda snubbing that same interest #and now you're like oh this is v interesting #this is about a twt only oomf btw not anyone here #or anyone on here and twt #but i'm just kinda annoyed bc like. link click was my thing #and i was so ready to share #but when i was you just straight up launched into talking over me to your other friend #it's the first time i've felt too old for that kind of drama #and you're both older than me so this really shouldn't be happening #but anyway i watched all of your favorites first and was excited about all of them to you first #and you ignored them all only to turn around and scream about them to your bsf three days later #which is cool #this is a rant i'm aware i sound childish i'm majorly stressed over an orgo final and this was my final straw #but it's also a pattern #idk the most childish part is wishing you never got into lc #bc now it's not just you ignoring me to talk about it #it's you AND your bsf #which is totally cool #i'm v cool with this #y'all are freaking 23 and i just barely turned 20 and this feels so middle school ugh

[tonyglowheart]

following up on this post though where I pinned down that by Chap 23/24, Shen Qiao already exhibits a shift in attitude wrt Yan Wushi. Which isn't to say he still doesn't rise to Yan Wushi's provocation, lol, because he very much does. But clearly by Chap 24... like, if he wanted to leave... he could? (Yes maybe Yan Wushi would stalk him and pop up wherever he went like :3 owo did you miss me? :3c) But he doesn't

And so that begs the question for me of like... why. Why doesn't he just leave? There's that line later in the chap about how if it were just a few days earlier, then he'd be uncomfortable all over (with Yan Wushi's provocation), but stuff like the goosebumps (he got), they decreased bit by bit until they were gone. - so yes he got used to it, but by early chap 24, he hadn't yet gotten to the point of, like... habituating to Yan Wushi's provocations?

so. really. I can only conclude that actually.... Shen Qiao likes it, lmao. Cuz, like, sure if Shen Qiao gives an inch then Yan Wushi will take a mile, but I also don't get the feeling that Yan Wushi really crosses any boundaries that Shen Qiao ultimately doesn't concede.

It's not like with Bai Rong - who he sets very clear boundaries with and doesn't really yield on them - or with like Huo Xijing or Sang Jingxing or the rest of Huanhe, who I think we can all agree are on another level of Bad, and who clearly SQ also sees as a different breed than Bai Rong (and tbh I think he sees Yan Wushi as being more akin to Bai Rong than like Yuan Xiuxiu or Sang Jingxing etc.)

With Yan Wushi, it's like... clearly Yan Wushi pushes his buttons and pushes his boundaries, but so far anyway, YWS doesn't seem to have done any pushes that are just a step too far beyond what Shen Qiao can tolerate.

So. Where does this leave us. Shen Qiao finds Yan Wushi irritating and but also stimulating I would guess? And at least tolerates his provocations if not continues to tacitly encourage it by being so permissive to Yan Wushi's antics. But also it gets his blood going and gives him jitters... hm why does this sound familiar........

Is. Yan Wushi. like a caffeine high that Shen Qiao is chasing lmao?? *insert all of the coffee memes of like it's so good but at what cost, sometimes it gives you accelerated exhaustion etc* i've connected the two dots dot.jpg

Which also means that, any time anyone asks Shen Qiao about Yan Wushi and like, what the heck clearly he just pushes your buttons and tries to get a rise out of you, why are you even sticking with this old man,. this is him:

#qian qiu #yanshen #shen qiao #yan wushi #i've connected the two dots dot jpg #cuz it's easy to be like well what does yws get out of yanshen - yan wushi likes being provocative and also in a way he bonsais sq into #being on his level - like his whole thing about are you even a rival to me. but like if you think about it a rival is also a peer #and yws is so peerless in the world that his ego aside it must be hard for him to make friends #it's sort of like... yes make intergenerational friendships. but if the only ppl you could make friends w are high schoolers.... #then that's kind of awk as a like. working adult of many years. like the martial world goes by disciple generations sure and there are ppl #in his generation... but it also goes by skill level and there are very few if like. no one other than potentially sq on his level lmao #(clearly. as five (five!) dudes tried to kill him and FAILED) #(and even qi fengge himself was like. this guy has the potential to exceed me) #I do think that for yws sq goes from like. a curiosity to an experiment to like. blooming into his potential as a full peer #but the equation is a bit more difficult from sq's side #the like 'abandon trying to intepret sq as a normal guy and see the padme amidala post abt her being a freak and that applies here' #only rly goes so far. it got me part of the way there of like. okay you're thinking of this wrong you have to open your mind #but still it was like... so clearly at some point. he does in fact stick with/around yws (and must like it?? if he doesn't why would he?) #but... WHY #I was sort of halfway there of like. as much as yws sees sq as a curiosity so too does sq see yws as a curiosity? #as far as like... well I have my worldview widen it by showing my an almost ostensibly diametrically opposed one #like sq is very... unworldly? that's not quite it. like. otherworldly? very detached from the 红尘 (mortal world/human society) #the normie world ig? like he's been immersed in the Daoist/cultivation world since a young child #he really is very much close to the ideal of being/embodying 仙 #but he does also suffer from the. if you're so removed from the world that you don't know what you're removed from #you're not really doing it on purpose. you kind of are sure but you aren't really being #and yan wushi on the other hand is a very worldly guy. he's very much about worldly affairs and worldly things and worldly pleasures #and worldly emotions. etc. so they are similar in that they each are fleshed out in a way that embodies their ideal but they're two sides #of the same coin. two sides of the yin-yang equation #but on a more personalized note lol. like why does sq go along with this other than he a freak and he must like it?

[musical-chick-13]

.

#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but #not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about. #that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends #that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even #considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF... #like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy) #but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car #crash or fix me soup when I'm sick. #like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad #and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship #right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go #if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through #the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!! #and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after #she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think #anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore #but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst #Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that #this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me #WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!! #*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today #and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore! #In the Vents #GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

[talentforlying]

i'm about to run off to class but i've been going positively apeshit about shakespeare for the last three hours so like: what shakespeare play would y'all most associate your muses with?? in terms of story themes, related aesthetics, character arcs/tropes, etc?? or see if i can assign them one that fits if you'd like, idk, i'm vibing

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #putting shakespeare muses on my ''hellblazer & constantine characters only'' multi? it's more likely than you think #i've already got a character from ER waiting in the wings who do i think i'm kidding #ANYWAY instincts say that constantine is aligned with macbeth bc Spooky but hear me out: Hamlet #never sure if the descent into madness is real or an act. sending your friends off to get killed. called in to solve a problem for a ghost #mourning the father. the abandonment of the love interest. natural imagery symbolism with snakes and flowers and water #accidentally making things worse when you're trying desperately to make things better #self-destruction layered over and over and over itself in a thousand forms both intentional and unintentional. guilt and grief #wee bit of goofing and gaffing thrown into the mix for good measure. main character needs a fucking cigarette #like BRUH. do we see the VISION #this is totally optional ofc i'm having brainworms about literature #SHIT that reminds me i gotta go back and do that song post too!!! i've had that tab open for like a month #but that's a problem for a later me. away to class i go

[enigma-absolute]

Today marks 10 years since I first really stepped into the Eddsworld fandom and went through an event with it.

But it also happened to be first anniversary of its creator's passing. This year marks the 10th.

I figured 13 year old me wouldn't want to feel alone in that moment, so I made this to join her and go through the flow together.

Without Edd and Eddsworld, I don't think I would've had that accessible foundation, can-do mindset and enthusiastic influence, admiration and desire to animate and make stories of my own. I was a year too late when I first entered into the fandom and heard about it, but these past 10 years taught me it's never too late to make an impact and tell your tales - no matter how long they'll take.

Thank you Edd Gould. For everything.

#chris rambles #my creations #i sobbed a lot while making this and dealing with CSP crashing a few times during progress #long post #Edd Gould really did say to a friend that last set of green lines if you hit the readmore #it doesn't feel right to tag the fandom this time #EDIT: okay so i've got myself to cry a little more and put myself together #and boy howdy i understand now what it means when an emotional overload impedes your communication #(is annoyed at spelling+grammar mistakes in-comic and description but no i'm not gonna change it) #my god this fandom had both the best of times and worst of times - moreso fandom troubles than personal but still #fun fact: i got to meet a good bunch of the EWFM crew back in the day through the years and some are still good friends of mine #(this is when things were FINE and NOT WEIRD i'm talking early-mid 2010's here people) #some are moreso acquaintances and most just drifted away (that's fair!) #only one of them i know for a fact either one of us would take a bullet for the other (and if you're curious he was a lead role VA) #(won't say who for privacy but listen. A. if you're reading this: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I AM SO GLAD WE ARE FRIENDS) #yeah the friendship goes that deep and he makes me happy to say that I'm his friend #(he's also the only one of all the online friends i've mailed and penpaled to - who has sent stuff back. Nobody else but him.) #i need to chill now my goodness #there's so much ahead of me now bc of what my time in Eddsworld gave and I'm so so grateful <3

[mobius-m-mobius]

Do you have an account on TV Tropes?

I don't, no! Tumblr is actually the only place I have any kind of social media or discussion related account, and no side blogs or anything either. Very what you see is what you get vibes over here 😂💖

#curious to why you asked though! #thought it was just a site listing definitions of the various ones and show mentions for reference 😅 #sadly between work and caretaking for my mum i've got maybe an hour of free time each day and only at the valuable cost of sleep lol #so out of all options tumblr feels like it moves at a gentle enough pace to keep up with favs and make friends without missing out 😊 #thanks so much for sending an ask and hope you're doing well!! lots of love 🥰💕 #ask