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Okay….

As a long term watcher and ghoul boy fan…

Yes this sucks…

Yes this is a *very* bad business move..

And yes it is tone deaf and out of touch with their audience and their watcher demographic.

But to dogpile into Steven and insist that he’s ‘evil and capitalistic’ is genuinely insane.

*watcher* made a business decision

Not Steven lim

Ryan and Shane were part of that decision too. So don’t only blame Steven for this.

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Saw someone (a man) smash a box of tampons for a video on Instagram.

“But I give so much” and “I love my wife and daughters” just doesn’t cut it when you have to time your paycheck with your monthly to make sure you have the supplies.

I’m not usually on the bandwagon of looking down on men, but when I see some middle aged bald guy doing this I’m not surprised.

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Thanks for standing up to that person from the smut vent/ask (I'm the anon).

Jokes on them tho I didn't see what they wrote and even if I did I guess they don't understand that some rando on the internet (who's opinion I did not ask for) and who is insulting (can you call it that?) me won't change my religion or convictions

(Sorry if this comes off as rude)

Not rude just honest which kudos to you and you’re welcome! We don’t need any rainbow flags that say “anti-bigotry” to come here with their (ironically enough) bigotry.

I reblogged that post to my writing/book account and had added that I don’t care if someone is a Christian, I care if they’re a jerk.

Defend the faith. Unlike them, do it with class. No need to spread fake morals with rainbow flags and anti-bigotry speeches. Yea, I added that part again because I can’t stop laughing at the irony of people like that.

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This right here? Not cool. You can vent without being a jerk. If anyone comes to this blog with such speech they’ll be blocked. Don’t think I’ll put up with this in a safe space. You can be secular or atheist without being a jerk.

No need to think that having no faith is anything to brag about when you come to this blog and practically call us all delusional. I won’t have it.

Be respectful or be blocked and never interact with this blog again.

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This right here? Not cool. You can vent without being a jerk. If anyone comes to this blog with such speech they’ll be blocked. Don’t think I’ll put up with this in a safe space. You can be secular or atheist without being a jerk.

No need to think that having no faith is anything to brag about when you come to this blog and practically call us all delusional. I won’t have it.

Be respectful or be blocked and never interact with this blog again.

#spilled thoughts #vent post #vent #vent blog #vent button is open #vent writing #personal vent #christian blog #christian faith #blocked #be nice #vent don’t dwell #don’t be a dick #don’t be a bigot #bigotry #jerk

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I feel like I wasn't supposed to make it past childhood. I'm going on 19 and yet I'm still totally dependent on my mom. I can't drive and haven't dated or even held hands less kissed someone. But more importantly I feel infantile. I can't do anything, not basic human things (brush teeth, shower, normal sleep cycle, exercise, eat right, go to the bathroom, get dressed etc) recently the person I've talked to the most is a stranger on the internet (don't worry it's nothing personal it's about fanfiction). I have no friends. I'm in cyber school so I'm alone at home all day long. I am tired all the time. When I go out it's for doctor appointments (which I can't even do those by myself) the doctors think I act younger than I am. I'm almost 19 I'm not supposed to be acting like a child. I should be doing school, having fun, going out, planning for COLLEGE.

I have ocd anxiety and depression (all sharp objects have been confiscated months ago) I'm on tons of pills and there's nothing I can do.

I can't not compare myself to normal people. I can't take a walk because I don't have the effort and have never walked the streets alone (I was sheltered all my life) I can't do anything good or productive because I don't have the energy. I can't take care of myself because I again don't have the energy effort motivation.

And I can't even do anything self destructive because of my morals and because I'm a Christian who has scrupulosity ocd so I feel triple the guilt.

I can't even pay attention to tv or books and then you just have to sit there with your eyes open.

I try to talk to my mom about this, the odd friend that i never see that claims she'll always be there for me....none of them seem to get it

I'm so tired of being different. I don't understand why I'm like this.

Gosh that’s rough. I’m going to do my best to offer some advice but don’t hold me to it as I’m not a professional.

You say you don’t have the motivation. In my experience motivation doesn’t exist. Not in the way people say it does. It comes when you do something that makes you feel good. Do something productive. Clean your room, take care of yourself.

I can’t stress this enough: Take. Care. Of. Yourself.

If you live like crap you’re gonna feel like crap and that’s just not helpful for yourself. You can’t progress that way. You have a huge “I can’t” mentality. Try “what if I try” that always helps turn things around.

Pray, read your Bible, have a relationship with God. I find I’m at my worst mentally and physically when my relationship with God isn’t striving. Read the book of Psalms, I find that to be positive which brings me to the next part.

Find positivity in your life. I hate to break it to you, and you probably hear this a lot…but you’re the boss of your mental health. Like I said, you got crap in your life and you’re gonna feel like your life is crap. You can’t get past that without positivity in your life. Look up human strengths (a psychology proven way of adding positivity to your life).

Human strengths is actually a huge part of positive psychology, a branch of psychology I encourage you to read up on just to help you add some more positivity to your life.

I hope this was found to be helpful to you, and if not I hope you see I care about what you’re going through. Try this! I promise you won’t regret it. Reading your vent, I can see that you need to take a grip on the resources you have and take over your life. Everything else will fall into place.

I can talk at you, I can encourage you, but none of that is going to do squat if you don’t use it. There’s the best I can do for you! Remember, I’m no professional. I only know what I’ve learned.

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“I hope you follow us one more time.”

Bestie this isn’t Lord of the Rings, you are not the fair and wise Aragorn. You are three YouTubers asking me to fund your trips to Europe and gold flaked meals.

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I just found out they have 18 people credited for one episode of survival mode and it’s blowing my mind honestly. There are so many creators who mainly do let’s plays by themselves and get tons of views. It’s literally all about the game choice and the commentary. I watch one guy who just films himself sitting on his couch while he plays and records the screen because he’s funny!! It doesn’t have to be fancy and aesthetic and amazing looking. If Ryan and Shane sat down and played a game like until dawn and just passed the controller back and forth, it would get tons of views with very minimal editing. Why is 18 people required for a let’s play? That’s why I’m convinced they just expanded way too quickly and just don’t know what to do now. It’s like they are trying to reinvent the wheel and no one asked them to. These things already work on YouTube stop trying to force it to be something else. Also expecting people to want to pay 6 dollars a month for a let’s play is insane when they are all over YouTube already.

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My mom is one of those mom’s that get upset so easily.

Why?

Because I can’t finish a damn sentence around her.

She formed our relationship on obedience and wonders why I don’t want to be around her all the time.

Then gets into a pity party when I state the fact.

She doesn’t seem to get that I’m an adult now and she should shut up and listen when I speak. Not that one should speak over children but you know what? That’s how I was raised.

She never gave me the time of day to talk and then it’s always me that’s mean and ugly when she never let me finish my sentences so she can’t get the full context anyway.

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I couldn’t have said it better. Thanks for sharing your bit!

Im ashamed of how easily I give into reading smutty things. I don't like smut but I guess curiosity gets the best of me? I read it then pray for forgiveness and that it never happens again and then I end up reading it again. I feel awful, like my prayers aren't genuine since I keep giving in. I don't do anything I literally just read it but still.

Maybe it's because I was sheltered so now I'm just a weird teenager but it totally sucks.

I want to wait until marriage and not think, feel, or read these things but I guess I'm incredibly weak.

I don't know what to do besides pray but since I keep falling I feel bad and like that's not enough.

Sorry if this is too weird/dirty I just needed to get it off my chest.

I get it. You’re at that age where sex is very new and very interesting to you. Read Songs of Solomon which is very good at looking at sex through a biblical lens. Also, check out Roman’s. Paul talks about sex and marriage.

Just keep praying and reading God’s word. We all stumble.

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Thank you for the advice! I really appreciate it! I'll definitely check out Song of Solomon tonight!

Awesome!

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some of you people need to sit down, take a deep breath and re-read the definition of some of the words you’re using (i.e. harassment, abuse, bullying, racism, threats). some of you need to realise that those words have meanings. some of you need to realise that "what I just read made me uncomfortable/gave me a bad feeling" and actually being subjected to/witnessing the above mentioned, are wildly different things.

i've seen dozens of post trying to "call out" that kind of behaviour, but not a single post where that behaviour actually occurred. and not to pull the "back in my day" card here, but back in my day, we screenshotted this behaviour. we actually tagged those people. we named and shamed them and made them feel so unwanted and unwelcome in our spaces, that they either left or had to do some serious public grovelling.

your weird virtue signalling, the oddly specific made up scenarios you’re getting mad at - maybe stop doing that? maybe apply the good old "if you see something, say something" rule when it comes to racism, bullying, abuse, threats and harassment?

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Im ashamed of how easily I give into reading smutty things. I don't like smut but I guess curiosity gets the best of me? I read it then pray for forgiveness and that it never happens again and then I end up reading it again. I feel awful, like my prayers aren't genuine since I keep giving in. I don't do anything I literally just read it but still.

Maybe it's because I was sheltered so now I'm just a weird teenager but it totally sucks.

I want to wait until marriage and not think, feel, or read these things but I guess I'm incredibly weak.

I don't know what to do besides pray but since I keep falling I feel bad and like that's not enough.

Sorry if this is too weird/dirty I just needed to get it off my chest.

I get it. You’re at that age where sex is very new and very interesting to you. Read Songs of Solomon which is very good at looking at sex through a biblical lens. Also, check out Roman’s. Paul talks about sex and marriage.

Just keep praying and reading God’s word. We all stumble.

#spilled thoughts #vent post #vent #vent blog #vent button is open #christian blog #christian faith #christian living #christianity #jesus christ #jesus #faith in jesus #bible