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#anxiety #freaking out #not my art #mental health #panic #cant calm down #whats wrong with me #im tired of not being okay

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Me to me: stop crossing your legs, it reads as feminine.

My body: *crosses legs harder*

#trans #ftm #just void thoughts #transmasc #shitpost #dysphoria #stupid dysphoria thoughts

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She stomped it to death and with the same breath

Called it mercy

I tweak the story in its telling

To avoid blurred moral metaphors that conflate kindness and cruelty, that mess with ones mental and excuse the common hate

Best to keep the story pleasant, unambiguous, concise

And give a sense of closure to the absurdities of life

But even then, they still misread your lines

So I guess

Why even

#poetry #short poem #quote #oc poetry #not my best but theres something there #shitpost #cause everything i do is shit

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I a m a l w a y s h u n g r y

T e e t h i n t h e g u t

S k i i i i i n n n n i i i i n n n n g

G n a s h i n g c r a s h i n g c l a c k i n g

T h e l i n i n g t o a n o n i o n s k i n

#testosterone #transmasc #ftm #trans #shitpost #just void thoughts

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everyone i love is so far away

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#quotes #stephen king #being alone #lonelier version of you #lonely is a dumb word #dying alone

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Self portrait.

#shitty doodles #art #doodling #doodles #shitpost #voidpunk

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#doodles #shitty doodles #art #wordart #lettering #art punk

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A bit of testosterone leaked out today when I did my shot.

Pray for me. My transition has been delayed 1000 years.

#ftm #trans #transmasc #trans man #testosterone #transgender #ftm hrt #hrt #shitpost

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*exploring sensorimotor psychotherapy in counselling*

Me: its like I have a blockage in my throat when I try to speak.

Therapist: and how do you think we can recreate that physically?

Me: can I just strange myself in your office?

Therapist:

Me:

Therapist:

Me:

Therapist: im not saying no

Therapist: but I have concerns.

#traumacore #therapy #shitpost

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#voidpunk #shitpost

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Roommate: did you just walk out of the bathroom with your pants undone

Me: what of it?

Roommate: forget the fly, you didn't even button them. They're practically falling off.

Me: its my house, innit?

Roommate: you really are a guy

#ftm #ftm win #transmasc #shitpost #trans #conversations that never happened #im not a liar im a writer

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adventures in trans™  when the pharmacist asks you to repeat your name 7 times, including spelling it, and then even verifies, “this is you, right?” pointing to the name on the bottle when she hands over your pills. 

like i’m glad my voice is starting to pass/confuse the cis more, but damn lady, just ID me or something 

#just trans things #ftm #transition #transmasc #just void thoughts #vent

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neurotypicals be like "why do you look so mad" and im like. im not? and then i remember im supposed to be performing Happiness like a court jester

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Trauma is a hell of a drug

#shitpost #just void thoughts #traumacore #trauma

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Well, tonight has been a lovely new learning experience in Ways to Suffocate as a Trans. Walked into work sporting my brand new binder (extra tioght) and a mask, and walk into a full on crisis and have to go into a restraint. I legit thought I was going to pass out on the client. X.x that's gotta be therapeutic right?

#adventures in social work #trans masc #transmasc #binder #trans #just void thoughts #ftm