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swan-of-sunrise · 3 months

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Turning Point (Tales From The SSR)

Summary: An influenza outbreak incapacitates the 107th Tactical Team while out in the field and as they work to nurse (Y/N) back to health, Steve and Peggy finally have a moment alone.

Pairing: Steve Rogers X Peggy Carter, Steve Rogers X Reader (Platonic), Bucky Barnes X Reader (Slight)

Word Count: 2.9k

Warnings/Disclaimers: None

A/N: Hi guys! This one-shot was originally gonna be about something else entirely, but it sort of evolved into this and I went along with it lol thank you for reading, I hope you all enjoy!

Turning Point March 1944 The Forests of Mount Oeta, Axis-Occupied Greece (Previous One-Shot)

Three months after their official formation, the 107th Tactical Team found themselves camping out in the dense forests of Mount Oeta as they traveled through Greece to destroy the second of five Hydra bases scattered throughout Europe. The intelligence they’d received from the SOE and several Greek Resistance groups pointed to the Hydra facility – a weapons manufacturing plant similar to the Austrian factory in Kreischberg that many of their team had recently been held in as POW’s – being located near the village of Gorgopotamos. They’d been ordered to stand by for further approval from their commanding officers at the Strategic Scientific Reserve and not long after setting up camp in a frosty clearing, nearly every member of their team came down with influenza.

Falsworth, Dugan and Morita were the first of them to fall ill, quickly followed by Dernier, Jones and Peggy; Bucky seemed to luck out, only suffering very mild symptoms that cleared up after twenty-four hours and thanks to the super-soldier serum flowing through Steve’s veins, he was spared from catching the infection. (Y/N), being the only other person who hadn’t succumbed to the illness, helped Steve and Bucky care for the others and slowly nursed all six of their comrades back to health. However, it was then that the codebreaker herself finally came down sick and unfortunately, her symptoms were the worst by far; as the hours turned into a day and a day turned into two, she showed little to no sign of improvement and an unspoken fear of losing their beloved codebreaker slowly filled them all one by one. And since he was the leader of their tactical team and responsible for every single member he’d personally recruited, Steve was wracked with a heavy guilt that only continued to grow the sicker (Y/N) became.

“Cap? You with me, Cap?”

Steve tore his gaze away from the makeshift medical tent they’d erected at the start of their camp’s epidemic and looked over at Morita, who was sitting cross-legged on his standard-issue sleeping bag and attempting to tune their scuffed Stark Industries radio. “Sorry, Morita. What was it?”

“I was just askin’ you if you think we should use the radio transceiver to call for help.” He patted the portable SCR-300 unit as his chapped lips pursed in worry. “I know that Stark said it’s only got enough juice for one long-distance transmission, but (Y/L/N)’s not gettin’ any better and-”

“That transceiver’s our only way of receiving the order from headquarters to move in and we can’t afford to jeopardize this mission by using up its one and only transmission,” Steve replied, hating the tactical words he found himself uttering despite the indisputable truth they held. “I wish we could, but we have our orders.”

A disappointed but understanding look crossed Morita’s face, and he gave Steve a short nod before returning his attention to the radio resting on his lap. Steve’s jaw tightened in an effort to remain composed as he detected the faint sounds of the codebreaker vomiting into a bucket and as he paced around the wide clearing, he took a moment to survey their camp and its morose occupants; their days-long trek through the mountains of Greece meant that they’d all been cut off from any news of their friends and family back home, and (Y/N)’s poor health had only lowered their already dwindling morale. Falsworth and Dernier – both distracted by worry for their families’ safety back home in a post-Operation Steinbock England and Nazi-Occupied France – were heading off to their sentry duties while Dugan and Jones – who were on-edge since they’d caught wind of the successful sinking of the USS Grayback by Japanese aircraft off the coast of Okinawa, yet another American ship sunk since the start of the war – were coming back from their patrol. Morita, unable to contact his mother and grandparents imprisoned in a Japanese internment camp back home in the States, was preoccupying himself with tuning their battered radio so that they could catch up to date with any news from the front. Some leader I am, Steve scoffed at himself and kicked at a fallen pinecone as he paced, if I can’t lead them like this then how am I gonna keep them safe out there on the battlefield?

Hearing Dugan and Jones’ heavy footsteps approaching, Steve wiped the apprehensive look off his face and replaced it with a more stoic stare as he turned to face both men. “How’s (Y/L/N) doin’?” The tense silence of the camp was punctuated by the sounds of dry heaving emanating from the medical tent, causing all three men to wince in sympathy. “Poor kid. I really don’t know how we’re gonna get her back on her feet, seeing as we all used up the last of the medicine.”

“That gal’s a fighter, Dum Dum; you hear how she cussed out Monty when he tried takin’ her temperature this morning?” A smirk tugged at the corner of Jones’ lips as he shook his head and slung his rifle’s strap over his shoulder. “I think I’d rather try snatching a hungry bobcat’s dinner away than mess around with a sick Agent (Y/L/N).”

Before either of them could reply, the flap covering the entrance of the medical tent was thrown open and a worried-looking Bucky emerged with a bucket in his arms, making a bee-line towards the trio of men the moment he spotted them. “All right, the good news is that I think we’re close to breaking her fever and lowering her body temperature.”

While both Dugan and Jones breathed a sigh of relief, the expression on his best friend’s face made Steve frown and brusquely ask, “And the bad news?”

“She’s severely dehydrated and the lack of food’s startin’ to get to her; things are gonna go south real quick if we don’t get some food and water into her soon.” Bucky unceremoniously thrust the full bucket he’d been holding into Dugan’s arms, ignoring the older man’s cry of protest and Jones’ snickers. “Get this cleaned out and when you’re done, have Morita give you a hand with the laundry and be sure to start with (Y/N)’s clothes first. I’m gonna take a look at our K-rations and see if I can’t whip up somethin’ that’ll be easy on her stomach.”

When both Dugan and Jones looked over at Steve for his authorization, he gave them an approving nod and watched them both hurry away to carry out their orders. “What can I do, Buck?”

“Go and help Carter cool her down; I’ve got her placing wet cloths onto her wrists, ankles and forehead, the same as what your Ma and I did when you caught scarlet fever back in ’31, and see if you can’t get her to drink a little water while you’re at it.” Despite his visible concern for their codebreaker’s deteriorating health, a ghost of his trademark grin flashed across his face. “All I got for my efforts were some pretty un-ladylike threats about where she’d shove the water canteen I offered her, so maybe you’ll have some better luck.”

Steve, knowing full well that his best friend was harboring a small crush on the team’s quick-witted codebreaker but wanting to keep his secret, simply nodded and patted Bucky’s shoulder as he strode past him; when he reached the flap of the medical tent, he politely cleared his throat and waited for Peggy’s welcome before entering. (Y/N) was lying on the cot, dressed in a sweat-soaked white shirt and khaki trousers with wet cloths strategically placed along her overheated body, and Peggy was seated next to her with a troubled look on her face as she gently dabbed a damp rag along her best friend’s face. Judging by the pallor of her skin, the dark circles under her fluttering eyes and the erratic heartbeat that only a super-soldier could hear, it was easy for Steve to see why Peggy and Bucky were so worried for her.

“Oh no, not you too,” (Y/N) croaked out when she finally noticed Steve’s presence, weakly smiling as he took a seat on the other side of her cot. “I already told Peg and Bucky that I’m as fit as a fiddle.”

“And I already told you that you’re as stubborn as a mule.” Peggy’s words were playful, but the brief look she gave Steve conveyed the anxiety she was fighting to mask for the codebreaker’s benefit. “Perhaps Captain Rogers can convince you that your only job right now is to rest, not to waste energy arguing with me or threatening Sergeant Barnes with bodily harm.”

The codebreaker let out a frustrated groan. “But there’s still codes-”

“And you’ll be able to decode ‘em when you get better,” Steve interjected, his tone gentle but resolute. “You spent days nursing the rest of the team back to health, so now it’s your turn to let us take care of you.” He poured some canteen water into a tin cup and held it out for her to take. “So, could you do me a favor and do as Peggy says?”

After a long moment, (Y/N)’s jaw unclenched and she managed to muster up a faint chuckle before taking the cup from him. “I always said that ‘do as Peggy says’ should be the SSR’s official slogan…” She forced down the water and while Steve took the empty cup away, she gave Peggy a small apologetic smile. “I’m sorry that I’m being a pain in the ass, Peg. It’s just that I…I’m not used to being fussed over. I can’t…help but feel like a burden…”

The codebreaker’s eyelids drooped and her labored breathing subtly evened out as she lost consciousness, but her heartbreaking words hung heavy in the dead-silent medical tent. Although they’d only known one another for two months, Steve was well-aware of (Y/N)’s turbulent relationship with her family and the hardships she’d faced throughout her childhood; it saddened him to know that such a kind and compassionate woman was deprived of the sort of loving home that he and Bucky were lucky to have grown up in, and it made it all the more unfair that she was suffering after tirelessly caring for her teammates in their time of need.

A quiet sniffle caused Steve to look up from (Y/N)’s clammy face, and he felt a pang in his chest when he caught sight of Peggy wiping a tear off her cheek; when the agent’s reddened eyes met his, she gave him a saddened smile and quietly spoke. “From the moment we first met, (Y/N)’s been like a sister to me and since my brother Michael’s death, I can’t…I’d rather not imagine living in a world without her.”

Steve returned her smile with one of his own before reaching over the cot and tentatively resting his hand atop hers. “(Y/N)’s a fighter, Peggy. She’s gonna pull through this, and it’ll be because she’s got all of us here to help her out.” Peggy’s expression softened and Steve felt his face warm when she set the damp rag down and gave his hand a grateful squeeze. In an instant, it dawned on him that they hadn’t been alone with one another since their disastrous confrontation back at the SSR’s headquarters after his and Private Lorraine’s kiss; he awkwardly cleared his throat and slipped his hand out from under Peggy’s, picking up the rag and dabbing it into the bowl of water perched on a nearby crate as he attempted to keep his emotions in check. “I’m, um…I guess I’m not really used to being on this side of an illness,” He remarked, wringing the rag out and carefully placing it across (Y/N)’s heated forehead. “It’s a strange perspective, being the caregiver instead of the patient; I’m usually the one lying in bed with a hundred and two degree fever.”

“Doctor Erskine mentioned that your medical history was rather extensive…” Peggy stood and leaned over to adjust the codebreaker’s makeshift pillow, and her sympathetic eyes met his when he moved to help her. “I can’t begin to imagine how challenging your life was before Project Rebirth.”

Returning to his seat, Steve removed the cloth encircling (Y/N)’s wrist and wetted it with fresh water, his gaze fixed onto his task as the memories of his childhood in Brooklyn and the hazy memories of each of his life-threatening illnesses invaded his mind. “My ma – she was a nurse, you see – she always told me that God blessed her with a baby he knew she’d have no trouble raising on her own. He sure as hell didn’t hold back his punches, either; before high school, I was diagnosed with asthma, scoliosis, arrhythmia, high blood pressure, astigmatism, pernicious anemia, stomach ulcers, sinusitis, fallen arches, and I had a couple of bouts of colds, rheumatic fever and scarlet fever. But none of that ever stopped her…” His eyes stung with the urge to cry but he forced himself to remain composed as he continued. “She told me that nothing in heaven or hell could stop her from taking care of me.”

“Your mother sounds like a strong-willed woman. Is she…?” Sensing her hesitancy, Steve shook his head and out of the corner of his eye, he saw her purse her lips and fiddle with the end of her braided hair before continuing. “She'd be very proud of the man you’ve become.”

He swallowed the lump in his throat and chuckled to disguise the unexpected emotion the agent’s thoughtful words brought on. “I’m still just that skinny kid from Brooklyn, now just with a serum that gives you muscles and an iron-clad immune system.”

“You’re more than the serum.” Peggy’s gentle and affirming tone caused Steve to look up and meet her sparkling brown eyes. “The serum would be nothing without the good, kind-hearted man it empowers,” She reached across the cot to rest her hand atop his, causing Steve’s heart to race and a blush to color his cheeks. “You’re my hero, Steve.”

There was a sudden and palpable shift in the air as Steve studied the agent’s eyes and took in her words. Although he’d undergone an incredible physical transformation that saw him go from sickly to the epitome of strength, the way Peggy looked at him never changed; it was clear as day that she meant exactly what she’d said – after all, Peggy Carter was hardly one for mincing words and had no issue speaking her mind in any given situation – and that realization only made Steve’s admiration and unspoken attraction to her grow. With a soft smile, Steve twisted his hand around to intertwine their fingers and shyly replied, “You’re my hero, too.”

Peggy’s smile grew but before either of them could say or do anything further, Bucky and Dugan burst into the medical tent; they both quickly withdrew their hands from one another before either man took note of their intimate moment, and Steve hastily averted his gaze from the equally-flustered agent seated across from him. “How’s the patient doing?” Bucky asked, oblivious to the conversation he’d walked in on as he set a bowl of broth down onto the nearest crate and moved to replace the cloth on (Y/N)’s forehead with the back of his hand; after a moment, the look of concern written across his face softened and he breathed out a relieved sigh. “Her fever finally broke; she should be okay after we get her to eat and drink a little.”

“Oh, thank heavens,” Peggy beamed and a reassured Dugan ruffled her hair before ducking out of the medical tent to inform their teammates of the good news. “Ste-Captain Rogers was able to convince her to drink a little water after you left.”

“And Peg-Agent Carter managed to cool her down with the wet cloths,” Steve added, awkwardly clearing his throat when his best friend glanced over his shoulder and arched a curious brow at him. “So, um, you made soup?”

Bucky chuckled. “Well, my ma sure as hell wouldn’t call it that, but a bouillon cube mixed into boiling water’ll just have to do.” With the gentleness of a well-seasoned caregiver, he nudged (Y/N)’s shoulder and smiled when her eyes finally fluttered open. “Hey there, doll. I know you’re tired, but I’ve got some food here for you; it ain’t easy makin’ these K-rations taste edible, but I worked a little magic just for you.”

Groaning, (Y/N) allowed Bucky to help her sit up and Steve, not wanting to be in their way, stood and gave Peggy a small smile as he made his way to the tent’s flap. “I, um…I should go and check in with the others. Would you tell (Y/N) that I hope she feels better soon and that she’s to continue following your orders until she does?”

“Of course. And Steve?” He turned around in time to catch the tender look etched across Peggy’s beautiful features, illuminated by a smile that caused his stomach to lurch in a not-so-unpleasant way. “Thank you, for opening up to me.”

Steve nodded once and returned her smile with one of his own. “And thank you, Peg.”

Arching a quizzical brow, the agent quietly asked, “What for?”

“For listening.”

And as Steve turned and walked out of the medical tent, all he could think of was the way Peggy had looked at him and how happy he was that they’d seemingly moved on from their turbulent encounter back at headquarters. When the war’s over, I’m gonna buy (Y/N) (Y/L/N) every single Andrews Sisters record and box of herbal teabags I can get my hands on, Steve silently vowed as his smile grew into a full-blown grin.

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A/N: Thank you all so much for reading and commenting! I’ve created a Spotify playlist inspired by this series, and I’ll be updating it every time I upload a new one-shot. Enjoy!

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nifolution · 2 years

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Letters 5

Pairing: Steve Rogers & Reader, Steve Rogers & Peggy Carter

Summary: Steve is living his perfect life with Peggy after the war. What will happen when he runs into the woman that broke his heart during it?

Warnings: Heartbreak, Angst, Manipulation, lies, threats, arguments

A/N: This is a revised copy of my oc fic. It is still written in 3rd person. Steve was rescued from the Valkyrie crash. He became a world hero and came back home with Peggy to start his life. No stealing, no reposts, no translations, no feeding to AIs. Comments, reblogs and likes are always welcome and appreciated.

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Chapter 5

A storm rolled in as Steve drove, it didn’t slow him down. Not wanting to risk waking the landlord, he scaled the slippery firescape with ease. A sudden deafening roll of thunder overhead made him flinch. Wiping the cold rain from his eyes, he forced open the window and crawled in before the weather worsened.

Not a moment after he slid the window closed, he was beaten with a broom. He called out to his assailant, “Y/N... Y/N, stop, it's Steve.”

Y/N stepped back, panting, “I thought you were a burglar.” Gritting her teeth, she whacked him again. “It’s two a.m., what the hell are you doing here? You scared me half to death.”

Steve hung his head, “I’m sorry… for right now and the other night. There’s so damn much I need to apologize for.” He ran his hand through his wet mane, frustrated with himself and the situation he found himself in. “Y/N, I know I have no right to be here, I know you don't care about me anymore, but there are things I need to tell you. I...”

“Don’t be stupid,” she interrupted, “of course I still care about you.” Y/N set the broom aside, as well as a kitchen knife she had hidden on her, before turning on the light. Noticing the small puddle forming beneath his feet, she huffed, “You're soaking wet, are you trying to catch your death?”

She led him into the bathroom and grabbed a towel. Got him cleaned up, wrapped him in a blanket on the couch with a cup of hot tea in his belly. He let her fuss over him the way she used to, even though he wasn't at risk of pneumonia anymore.

Y/N could see he was not all right. As if him showing up in the middle of the night in this weather wasn't proof enough of that. She sat down next to him and gently grasped his hand. “Tell me what’s wrong, Steve.”

He felt a sudden lump in his throat at her words, something broke open inside him. It cracked and splintered until he couldn't hold it together anymore. “I’m tired.” Steve interlaced their fingers, rubbing his thumb over her skin, finding solace in her touch. “I try to pretend that everything is normal, but the truth is, I'm so far from okay, I don't even know what that feels like anymore. This heavy burden of being Captain America; the world depends on me, looks up to me, I’m forced to smile when I'm falling apart on the inside... I'm drowning, but I'm nobody without the shield.”

“That’s not true.”

He turned to look at her worried face, the first tear sliding down his own. “I don’t know how to put it down.”

Without hesitation, Y/N wrapped her arms around him as he quietly wept. She rested her head on his broad chest and embraced him with all she had, losing herself in the steady rise and fall. No stuttering breaths, no wheezing. Just the unchanging thumping of his heart. It made her cry; for him, for herself, for the life they would never get to have together. Real love, like grief, never goes away. It fades, it changes, but it's never gone.

The rain ended just as quickly as it began. Despite the chilly temperature, Y/N opened the window just enough to let the smell in. Steve knew it was her favorite, it always reminded him of her. Being here with her gave him more sense of peace and belonging than he'd felt in years. Steve knew he was still hopelessly in love with her. He knew it the moment he walked into the cafe that first day. He wasn’t afraid to admit that now.

Steve spotted an open box on the floor next to him filled with photographs. Noticing what caught his attention, Y/N told him he could take a look. He grabbed a handful and flipped through them as she sat back down. There were pictures of Y/N’s family, a few of him and her, Bucky and him, all three of them, him and his mom. He paused at one of the photos of himself.

Y/N smiled, “You were always so handsome. Stole my breath with your smile and your sweetness. It’s what gave me the stupid amount of courage to ask you to dance that night.” Y/N took the picture from his hand, admiring it. “You were the most beautiful person I ever met.”

“Only you would have thought that back then.”

“You were my Stevie.” She placed a finger on his head, “I loved you here,” her hand moved over his heart, “and here.” I never cared about anything else. Honestly, I hated when you became Captain America and everybody wanted a piece of you. I preferred when you were just mine,” Y/N smirked, “and Bucky’s, naturally. We both loved your smart, brave, stubborn-headed self. You meant the world to us… You still do to me,” she admitted, looking away. Too afraid to see if her words affected him, more so if they didn’t.

Steve’s breath hitched, he didn’t know what to say. So he looked down at the final photograph in his hand, finding the faces of the three people he loved the most and lost staring back at him.

They were at The Sunrise; his mom before she got sick, sitting with Bucky, and himself next to Y/N. She had just started working there. He and Bucky had scrimped and saved to be able to buy his mother lunch for her birthday. It felt like a lifetime ago. His mom insisted Y/N sit in the booth with them for the picture, TJ was more than happy to take it. “I remember this. It was a good day.”

Y/N turned to see what he meant, grinning before she could stop herself. “It would have been better if Bucky hadn’t shot spitballs at me.”

“He was just messing around. Anything to get a pretty girl's attention.” Steve smiled at Y/N, she was still beautiful, even half asleep in her nightclothes.

Her eyes twinkled with mirth, “I know, that's why I mixed a bunch of salt in his Coca-Cola.” They both cracked up, remembering Bucky’s face when he took a sip and spit it all over the table. “It was worth it, even though I had to clean it up.”

“It made my Ma laugh too, she told him he deserved it… You know, I was convinced you liked Bucky back then.”

Y/N’s smile faltered, “No, it was always you.”

Steve choked up when she told him to keep it. He nodded, pocketed the photograph and thanked her. He placed the rest of the photos back into the box, surprised to find a pile of his old napkins. He never knew she kept them, let alone held onto them all this time. “I can't believe you saved all these.”

“I couldn’t throw something out that you made me.”

He watched her to gauge her reaction, hoping for a favorable one. “I'm still in love with you.”

She looked at him as if he struck her, “You can't say that to me, it's not fair.”

Steve cupped her face, “Y/N.” He leaned in, nose softly bumping hers.

Her heart beat faster, voice lowered to a whisper, “What are you doing?”

“Something stupid.” He tilted his head to kiss her.

Y/N wanted to give in, but as his lips barely brushed hers she blurted out, “Your wife.” She pulled back. “You’re married, this is wrong. You have a wife.”

“It was supposed to be you.” Steve lowered his hands and his head, “I don’t know what's right anymore.”

“I love you, Steve, more than I can ever say. You've meant more to me than anyone in my entire life, but we can't do this. You made your choices and have to live with them. It doesn't matter how we feel, it can't be undone. It’s too late for us.” Y/N got up and shut the window.

She walked out of the room to get ready for work, shaking her head at herself. He wasn't her Stevie, he was someone else's husband, the world's Captain America. She couldn't keep him. It was selfish to try.

She found happiness through her hardships before, she'd get there again. But Y/N needed some distance from Steve. He needed to come around less and stop showing up at her home. Things couldn’t be how they were before the war, they moved on. One day she would have to give him up completely, but it didn’t have to be today. Having him here was just as painful as not, so she’d rather have him, if only temporarily.

Steve dug through the box, as expected, his letters were in there too. He pulled out the final one, reading over the words that were not his own. His jaw hardened, how could Peggy be so cruel?

Y/N returned in her uniform, pausing when she saw what was in his hand. Her frown didn’t escape Steve’s notice. She deserved the entire truth, no matter how painful it was for him to tell her. “When things were bleak, your letters got me through it. I missed them when they stopped.”

“Me too.”

With a sorrowful smile he handed her the letter, “You should throw out this last one though. I didn't write it.”

She took the paper from him, bewildered. “I’m not sure I understand. Then who did?”

He felt ashamed, the wedding ring on his finger growing heavy. “Someone that had everything to gain from seeing us part.”

“It's your handwriting, who could have…?” The answer was all over his face. “Oh… Well that makes all the sense in the world doesn't it. Guess she's not so perfect after all.”

“She's not who I thought she was.” Taking a deep breath, Steve did his best to explain the letters they both received and the circumstances surrounding them. Unable to defend his actions, he apologized repeatedly. Sorry for believing the lie, for jumping immediately to someone else, for barging in on her life and rubbing her nose in his false happiness. He crossed lines and hurt her and he was remorseful.

Torn throughout his speech, she settled on anger. What did he expect her to do when he did nothing? Did he want her to simply fall back in his arms, let him carry her into the bedroom to make love and everything would magically be fixed. Looking into his eyes, it seemed that's exactly what he thought.

“You should have known me better. A few written words was all it took for you to fall head over heels for her. One lie and your life became all about Peggy, forgetting me entirely. I waited for you.” Y/N felt something sharp in her throat, a hard swallowed acceptance. “I don't know what you want from me, Steve, but I can't give it to you.”

Seeing the flame in her eyes dull terrified him. She was giving up on him. Fate was cruel, and he supposed he had been as well. He never meant to hurt her, not like this. He let Peggy tear them apart and he wasn’t sure it could be fixed. But oh how he’d try if she let him. “I… I know I'm asking too much, but can I hold you a little while longer? Please, I'm not ready to leave yet.”

Y/N agreed, just a little bit longer. Enough to pretend her heart wasn't breaking all over again. She clung tightly to him, wanting to feel like Stevie & Y/N again, if only for a bittersweet moment.

Steve wrapped his arms around her and kissed the crown of her head, wishing everything was different. Her scent chased away the phantom odors, no sharp burning, no rust, just her. As the clock ticked by, he prayed for a few more minutes. Please, just a few more. “I'm never going to feel about anyone the way I do about you.”

He did not resist when she pulled away. Hated having to let go when he wanted to hold on tighter. Steve agreed to her request to give her space, but was determined to still be there for her, even if she kept him at arm's length. And even though they couldn’t be together, she’d always be his Y/N.

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Peggy was not a simpleminded woman, she saw Steve sneak out in the dead of night. Phoning an associate, twelve hours later she got the answer to her husband’s whereabouts. The bastard had been playing house with his old flame. He left her bed to warm someone else’s, and according to the information in front of her, it had been going on for some time now.

She would not stand for this embarrassment, Steve needed to remember his place. He was no longer the pitiful thing he was before the serum. So sickly that if he were a pet, they would have drowned him. Captain America was the embodiment of perfection, and belonged to her. Clearly his mind had forgotten that and slipped into bad habits. She would put an end to it.

After verifying Steve’s location well outside the vicinity, Peggy arrived at his paramour’s residence. She refused to be made a fool of by some low class floozy. After successfully charming the landlord, she made her way up to her destination. Three knocks and she came face to face with the woman occupying her husband’s time.

Y/N didn’t know what she expected when she answered the door, but it wasn’t Mrs. Captain America. Nothing good could come out of Steve’s wife at her apartment. “Can I help you?” She ignored the dread that prickled up her spine.

“I see by the look on your face, that you know who I am.” Peggy smiled when the other woman nodded. “I would like to have a chat, woman to woman.”

She noticed how Peggy looked at her as if she was something she stepped in. Y/N’s anger simmered below the surface, she’d seize this opportunity to confront her uninvited guest. This spiteful, entitled, British lunatic doesn’t get to screw with her life and not expect her to fight back. “Please come in.”

Peggy sat down at the small table and asked for a cup of tea. While the other woman obliged, she looked around the tiny home with distaste, humming to herself, “Not very cohesive is it.”

Y/N returned to the table carrying the requested beverage, mentally preparing herself to have it out with this woman. As she set the tea tray down, her blood froze. Peggy was right where she left her, poised and proper, not a hair out of place, like she jumped out of a magazine… if not for the pistol casually sitting on the table.

The corner of Peggy’s mouth turned up at the clear fright in the other woman's eyes over the small firearm. “Milk and two sugars, please.”

Y/N surprised herself when her voice didn’t shake, “I do not have any milk.”

Her red lips pursed, “I suppose this will have to do then.” Peggy flashed a fake smile, taking her cup and placing it in front of her. She had no intention of imbibing whichever subpar tea was being served. “I’ll get straight to the point. I’m here to discuss my husband spending so much time with you, instead of where he belongs.”

Y/N couldn’t take her eyes off the weapon, sure she was about to breathe her last. “Steve has been a good friend to me. He’s been trying to help me out.”

“I’m sure he has. However, I must insist that whatever fun you two have been having come to an end. He should be at home with me, we are trying for a baby after all.” Peggy sighed, looking Y/N up and down with contempt, “I admit, I've been working a bit much as of late, yet I do not see the appeal. You must be very easy for him to have turned to you.” She smoothed down an nonexistent wrinkle in her skirt, then turned her dark gaze back to the other woman. “He is mine. He will never be yours. I'm all he needs. I am his love, his best friend, his home, his safety, his WIFE. You are just a hole he uses to pass the time.”

Shocked by the language and accusation, Y/N stuttered, “No we ha- haven't. I w-wouldn’t…”

Peggy held up her hand, “I do not wish to hear your excuses. Imagine if a reporter caught wind of your inappropriate relationship, his reputation would be tarnished, and you, deary, would be ruined… You will stop seeing my husband immediately lest the consequences be swift and severe.” She placed her perfectly polished fingers on the gun, angling it toward Y/N. “Do we have an understanding?”

Y/N could only nod, terrified of the unspoken threat. She’d die, and be forever shamed as Captain America’s mistress. As the woman that came between America's perfect couple. The homewrecker, the whore. If she managed to survive, she’d lose her job and her home. Her family would disown her. Even her friends would stop talking to her after such a scandal. She’d have nothing. Living on the street or dead in a box.

“Marvelous.” Peggy stood, placing the pistol back in her purse. “Oh, and I wouldn't mention a word of this friendly conversation to Steve. Stress isn't good for conception.” She took one last look at Y/N, shaking her head. “You really are a weak thing. I do not see the appeal at all.” She closed the apartment door behind her and waited. Smiling at the sound of Y/N sobbing, she left, satisfied her objective was completed.

Chapter 6 (Coming soon)

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