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Been a hot minute .

Shit is changing .

I’m standing up for myself .

Never thought I’d be here or he going through this .

This next year is going to be crazy .

#cadesdeathnotes #cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #rant #intrusive thoughts #weed #marijuana #mary jane #bud #anxious #depressed #change #divorce #will be moving again

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at this point you’re stalking me

i changed my number t w o fucking years ago

LEAVE ME ALONE

#cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #cadesdeathnotes #rant #leave me alone #fuck off

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can’t talk rn i’m doing hot girl shit

*dissociates*

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is it really not normal to feel suicidal like 98% of the time?

i’m almost convinced that i’m immune to all antidepressants ….

#cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #cadesdeathnotes #rant #depressed #anxious #fuck this #fuck my life #hoplessness #hopeless #helpless #ugh i hate this #when will it end #suicidal #suicide #intrusive thinking #intrusive thoughts #immune to antidepressants #that’s what it feels like

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It’d be nice not to come second or last…

Nice to not have to wait for once…

Nice to not have to continuously give and never receive…

#cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #cadesdeathnotes #rant

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any sugar daddies/mommies looking for a mentally ill 24 yo who lives off coffee & weed? I’m ya bitch.

#cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #cadesdeathnotes #rant #mentally ill #mentally tired #sugar daddy #sugar mommy #sugar baby #i’m serious #deadass #coffee #weed

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I can’t do this anymore

I can’t fake it anymore if that’s even what I’ve been doing

The physical pain

The mental pain

The shakes

The nightmares

…the fucking nightmares…

I want cut

I want to die

I want to burn from the inside out

That would hurt so much less than this

So much less than how you make me feel

How you talk to me

It would hurt so much less to just leave

The inevitable is the inevitable after all

I should have followed through before

I was so close

So

Fucking

Close

#cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #cadesdeathnotes #self harm #intrusive thinking #intrusive thoughts #mental pain #physical pain #nightmares #i cannot #i can’t do it anymore #i can’t

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If I was honest, I’d be involuntarily committed…

#cadesdeathnotes #cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #rant #intrusive thoughts #intrusive thinking #depressed #anxious #suicidal #suicidal thoughts

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I’m not living.. just.. here

#cadesdeathnotes #cptsd #depression #anxiety #mental health #mental illness #vent #rant #depressed #anxious #stressed #suicidal #intrusive thoughts #intrusive thinking

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I need an entire life reevaluation but that only has one outcome….

#vent #rant #mental health #mental illness #cadesdeathnotes #intrusive thoughts #i hate my brain #depression #anxiety #cptsd

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