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Sometimes I feel like tumblr is where so many ideas are born and Twitter is where ideas go to die

#thoughts #rambles #tumblr #twitter #just late night thoughts

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I can hear the trains in the distance tonight.

It’s nice.

#thoughts #rambles #train #sound of trains #night time #night time sounds #nice sounds #I love the sound of trains #and trains in general #I love riding in them #or hearing them #or anything #it’s all nice

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It takes a real sicko to steal someone’s toothbrush

#thoughts #rambles #mine is electric #I need it for my gums #I’m like an old person #my gums are receding and we don’t know WHY #so I have electric toothbrush #why would someone take that #bruh

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I am a fool. An ignorant buffoon. I thought I would be fine if I had a modicum of gluten. No. Such is not the case. I have blundered so heavily my own maker looked upon me in disdain, mocking me for attempting to tread in Their domain. My pride has brought me face to face with my maker and They are disappointed. My blight is irredeemable and now I must face the consequences of mine own actions. Fate is a cruel mistress and I have drawn her ire.

#gluten #gluten is a cruel bitch #fuck gluten #this is my own fault #why did I eat that #WHYYYYY #It was so yummy #but the consequences are horrible #don’t do what I have done #why the fuck #who the fuck #where the fuck #help #I hate gluten #why must it turn my body to play dough in the hands of one of those kids that chops up their Barbie’s #thoughts #rambles #gluten free #gluten sensitivity #no gluten #gluten is a sin and I am a sinner #gluten intolerance #gluten allergy

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What if I just learn coding, how to draw, 3D design, and all of that just to make a Trigun video game. That one announced in 2002 or whatever for the PS2 never got released or even finished, so I guess I gotta fucking Thanos “fine…. I’ll do it myself” this shit.

#trigun #rambles #thoughts #trigun 98 #tri98 #trimax #trigun 1998 #trigun video game #like why not just realease it homie #I don’t care if it’s incomplete #I need that shit #gimme #video games #spite is a great motivator

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After not using social media for a while and noticing an increase in my attention span, it’s been so wild being around my friend who is on TikTok 24/7. They’ll play a video game, and even if there’s a 10 second delay after dying or something like that, they’ll look at TikTok. It’s so wild. I love being around them, but now it’s somewhat overwhelming and overstimulating to be around that. I never downloaded TikTok itself, but I have used Instagram and the like. I don’t mean anything bad against my friend, but it was just something I noticed and something that makes it hard to hang out with them.

Idk just stuff I been thinking about.

#thoughts #rambles #personal #attention span #social media #the attention market is real sheesh #they do that even during splatoon games too it’s so wild to me #like those are so fash holy smokes

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Pinterest is a special kind of site that will probably exist past the death of our universe.

I’ve been on Pinterest (and tumblr) for a WHILE. Probably about a decade give or take, regardless of the account I use or if I’m lurking and just viewing things or posting myself. On one hand, Pinterest has all the expected “arts and crafts”, “interior design” inspiration, varying “aesthetics”, fashion, food inspo, and the usual inspirational quotes. But if you stay a while and start looking, you’ll see that almost every form of artistic form (or Fanart) has been uploaded there. I’ve known some artists say that they know they’ve “made it” when they see their art on Pinterest. Unless it’s 18+ cuz that site is fairy stingy with even HINTS of adult fun times What’s funny about this brings me to another aspect of the site: the COMMENTS. Now, comment sections aren’t new, and there’s nothing particularly amazing about Pinterest comments either. On art posts, a lot of people will who the artist was in the comments. What’s funny about comments on Pinterest is the time in between comments and ESPECIALLY responses. There are comments on pins from almost a decade ago with questions that got answered A MONTH AGO. No one says anything about it, and no one really cares either. It’s a liminal space of things just EXISTING, all simultaneously easy and hard to find. I also want to add that the translation feature in the comment section has been better than Twitter, Instagram, or any google translate I’ve used thus far and I find that HILLARIOUS

If you see the art, you’re one hop and a skip away from the full fledged Pinterest experience. This is where you see the memes, snippets of reddit posts, and ESPECIALLY tumblr posts. A lot of the tumblr posts are also in the original tumblr format too, which makes for a WILD viewing experience on a site that so clearly compresses the images so that some of these are too blurry to even read, yet people pin them anyways. There are the obvious biggest-gaudiest-patronuses, i-am-a-fish, the whole CATEGORY of superwholock, and so on, but ultimately there’s kind of EVERYTHING. I’ve found some of my best memes and most cursed images there, along with finding tumblr posts that aren’t even ON tumblr anymore.

This is where I get to my point: Pinterest is the catch-all. EVERYTHING ends up on there, one way or another. Pinterest acts as both a blank slate that can offer ANYTHING you seek, but at the same time is an archive that is void of any sense of time or space. Pinterest is the archive where things go to perish. If something is gone from the main web or social media or the like, so long as it can be an image or short video, it will somehow be on Pinterest in one way or another. FINDING it is the only struggle you will face. It serves as both a place to keep that which is archived there alive, but also as the digital tombstone of what was. Pinterest is where all things end up, and it is the place where all things die.

Pinterest is a wild place. You should visit sometime.

#pinterest #Pinterest is an archive #everything is there #and I mean everything #tumblr #reddit #this probably is more relevant now with all the stuff going on with twitter and Reddit and the flight to tumblr #so just know it’s ALL on Pinterest one way or another #Pinterest is limbo #thoughts #rambles #Pinterest haunts me #but FR there’s literally something there for EVERYONE #Pinterest is a social media if you can define ‘social’ as making expressions into the void and talking with ghosts across time #if the internet archive is of no help there’s always Pinterest #Pinterest is the cryptid cousin of the internet archive #Pinterest is a liminal space #internet history

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I just really like dogs :)

#dogs #I Like dogs okay #they’re little lads :) #so cute so sweet #just little balls of joy and kindness #they just do happen to have a mouth full of sharp teeth that could easily game end me but that’s not important #dogs are awesome :) #have you SEEN their paws? #so cute

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At what point will the people shouting about the unfairness of the so called “trans panic” realize that they are just claiming that men (or those who were assigned male at birth) are superior to everyone else.

#trans issues #trans rights #transphobia #sexism #trans people in sports #it’s more than just ‘physical’ sports too #they’re pulling this bs ‘logic’ in videogames #like???? do bellybuttons now also dictate how we’re able to move thumbs on a controller? #this is just sad #‘love thy neighbor’ remember? #just let people enjoy things #people are people #and therefore deserve a chance at life and happiness #even if you don’t understand #sad #feminism #no one group of people is superior to anyone on the basis of their sex or gender

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There’s something so nice about just sitting with another person. No words are said, nothing is really going on, you’re just sitting with them.

Doing different things

Just vibing

Absorbing their essence

#thoughts #doin different things but still want connection #friends are cool #especially since they let me sap their life force thru a little fruit juice straw #friends #I think one of my friends said this is called “parallel play but idk so uh google that if ya want #parallel play

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Growing up with a media is such a surreal experience. Like, that show, book, movie, comic, song, etc holds such a special place deep within your heart and soul that you can’t imagine life without it. There’s something about having true childlike wonder when you first experienced it that that one thing forever holds a piece of the innocent hope, curiosity, amazement, and joy that you can somewhat experience again by going back to it.

Trigun, Studio Ghibli Movies, the 1996 Incredible Hulk tv show, Pokémon, and the Last Unicorn movie are some things that are like that for me. Studio Ghibli especially has a knack for emulating that feeling with their movies even in adults that haven’t seen them yet. They’re truly magical masterpieces. The Last Unicorn is one that also seems to take on a similar yet darker part of that aspect. I can’t explain it other than the feelings, but I will say I have thought about that movie a lot growing up. Trigun gives a sense of both despair and hope in humans themselves, particularly for a younger me.

This is kinda a lot ramble that feels like it’s about something and yet nothing at all. It all comes down to the aspect of familiarity with things we bond with as a child. I thank the things that helped raise me and teach me while bringing me joy.

#thoughts #rambles #childhood #growing up with media #trigun #ghibli #Pokémon #1996 Incredible Hulk #last unicorn #thank you

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As a kid we had the og Trigun manga and my brother and I would take turns reading and rereading it as we also watched and rewatched the anime. However, we had a bad parent who sold the og manga for a total of like $35 !! In like !!! 2010 !!!!!!

When I tell you I was and still am furious and so incredibly upset beyond words, I mean it. I don’t know whether I should be more livid about the fact that it was sold or the fact that they sold all three books for $35. Like????? That’s almost demeaning. Ridiculous. Ridonkulous. Absolutely absurd.

Anyways moral of the story is I now would like to thank Bigolas Dickolas Wolfwood for this incredible feat, as I now will be able to reread the manga again :) When I have the funds, I’ll try to buy one for my brother as well so we can sit and read it together the next time we see each other.

#trigun #trimax #trigun manga #story time #only $35???? #cmon #their worth is in the thousands now #I know cuz I tried to find em #all for like one hit? #bruh #okay I’m done #thank you bigolas dickolas wolfwood #true savior FRFR #bigolas dickolas wolfwood

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Yknow that feeling when you suddenly want to do so many, so so many bits of everything at once with a sudden burst of energy that u can’t do any of them at all so u just sit there like a certain core that got encased in metal cuz the screwdriver slipped and now ur glowing blue

#rambles #thoughts #the adhd meds kicked in #can you tell? #but I get this even without meds so I guess it’s just adhd then #adhd #bringing a new meaning to DemonCore #ykno #like the aesthetics? #okay I’m done I apologize for my sins #demon core

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I love Trigun. I always have. I grew up on it, and there’s something so special about it to me. Trigun has affected me and who I am as a person in many ways. It has influenced how my sibling draws art which is noticeable even now. I used to talk about it at random moments whenever I got the chance, but often times found that most people didn’t even know of its existence while I was growing up. Thus, it’s been something I held near and dear but could not bond over with anyone besides my brother. We had special moments watching it air on our old CRT TV and then trade on who got to read the manga. (Sadly, we no longer have said manga. I will probably make a separate post on that tbh) needless to say, it was ver special to me and the childhood my brother and I had together. I still love it to this day, especially with some of the lessons I took away from it. I truly think Vash is the perfect (and maybe only) way of writing a true pacifist. They explore the morality Vash holds, but also dip into the consequences of NOT killing in a world that is so hostile. I love how Wolfwood acts as his character foil, and how he and Vash influence each other in opposing ways.

I love Trigun. Thank you Vash.

#trigun #tristamp #vash tristamp #trigun wolfwood #thoughts #I dont know how to tag but by golly I’m trying. #can’t believe my first post is about trigun #actually yes I can #trigun and it’s influences #growing up on trigun #I seriously love trigun sm

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Hi and welcome to my little blog.

I made this Blog to get out my thoughts and feelings, simple as that. There are some things that I think about or stay with me for a long time and I just want to put them out there. Sometimes I’ll also just feel like a silly goofy guy. If someone relates to anything I say along the way, that is great too.

I will say that some things I saw I may not like that I think or feel, but I just want to put it somewhere instead of dwelling on it. Thus, there may be some “bad takes” here and there that I know are bad, but I’m getting out instead of dwelling on it.

For the most part I won’t be reblogging anything, but any thoughts/asks are fine and welcome. I want this to be a little safe corner for me or anyone else that may stumble their way here.

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