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got in

fucked up my interview. absolutely zoinked it. zinked.

#wicked

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do what makes you happy

#new Thing to live by for the next two weeks #thank you kimi räikkönen #f1 is awesome #!! #are a levels hard #i am probably going to need to self study them #its ok! #:3 #ok byebye

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fucked up my interview. absolutely zoinked it. zinked.

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i feel weird but happy. i think i’ve realised that i want to actually make my dreams into reality, instead of just thinking about what it would be like. i want to start doing a bunch of things (no matter how small)to make this come true :3

#thought #my first coherent thought in a while #im happy #:3 #i wanna ummm work in space stuff or physics or space or the universe #love astro stuff #IM READING #the three body problem #very nice! #even if i don’t end up in the exact place that i want to be #i think i’ll be alright #i jut dont want to live a life of regrets #and i wanna be happy with myself #:) #ok byebye #have a good day

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i know therapy is helpful but i think a fistfight would be even better

#more affordable too! #unless you include medical bills #:3 #i need to be punched in the face

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insane how many straight men there are in the world. how? look around you. i think everyone should be gay men

#:3 #thought #its so hot #oh my god #im in bed rn and sweating my ASS off #i accidentally spoiled fight club for myself #:( #i want onigiri for breakfast tmr #:) #hangry #rice is life #so yummy and good #i like spinach but i dont like how it makes my teeth feel #also im obsessed with the sky and skydiving and jet racing and um #idk whats wrong with me tbh #ive been gaining losing interests for like years idk why #i can FEEL myself losing interest in astrophysics which is VERY BAD #fuck i wanna join the air force or do military air stuff #but this too shall pass #i want to fall #also erm um i was sortof engulfed with an overwhelming feeling of wanting to jump off my roof earlier #not in a bad way #ok wait in a like #because the only thing going through my head was like #i want to know what happens after you die #and just that on repeat #i was inclined to climb up and stare but i didnt #so yay #? #ok byebye

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more people need to know this exists. ryan gosling :-)

#idk #ryan gosling #i love ryan gosling #this sounds Very good #spreading the gospel #im just ken #music #music recommendation #? #Love This. #:3 #i didnt know ryan gosling had a band at a point??? #this isnt it but Yeah #ok goodbye #Youtube

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i think everyone should be licked by a cat at least once

#thought #:3 #cat #cats are cute #love em #my cats like to lick me #and other inedible things #like hair #and plastic #and the walls #ok bye

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sometimes i get so excited to talk about things i almost cry

#thought #out of like. #excitment #i love yapping #professional yapper #what if i made a humongous post about red-base jezebel butterflies #? #im doing it anyways im just giving you the illusion of choice #or something #i think #i just sorta realised that i can do like #anything #on here #nobody knows who i am #and the only people who'll really see are people who wanna see it #awesome #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ok anyways #MY BACK HURTS SO MUCH #OH MY GOD #i dont have a chair #:) #its 11:30pm i want to sleep #i need to do english homework #Goodbye #:3

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OMG I NEED TO READ THE MURDERBOT DIARIES SERIES I FORGOT

#??? #OH MY GOD I HAVE APPLICATIONS TO DO FUCK #GOODBYE #im doing economics homework #i dont like economics #but i like my teacher #:3

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movie list i made a movie list (of stuff i want to watch)

#movies #:3 #watch me forget about this in like two days #i made a system where for each homework i do i can watch one movie #because i cant stop thinking about movies #PROJECT HAIL MARY #RAAAAAAA #im excited #for a lotof these #like uhhhh #BLADERUNNER 2049 #bullet train #oppenheimer #!!!! #for cinematics #AND #THE MARTIAN #(yeah) #INTERSTELLAR #AND ALSO #THE BATMAN #i never even read the comics idk any dc stuff it just looks cool #DRIVE #!!! #ryan gosling #is awesome #ok bye

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yes im writing a serenade to my friend for valentines. no it is not good. yes i will post it here (somehow)

#thought #music #it’s a violin and harp duet #with a little feature of viola and cello in the beginning #i like um #cello #a lot #i wanna learn how to play it #:3 #i need to learn how to read #sheet music #bc i dont #also im like dyslexic #but for colours #(not colourblind) #basically i see a colour but my mouth just says the wrong one #like i see orange and my brain registers it as orange #but i say purple #??? #idek why it happens but it happens sometimes #ok anyways #i want more reach so ignore the next tags :3 #classical music #classical composer #composer #composition #idea #amateur #LOL #trying my best

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I ENJOY THE DEEP SEA IMMENSELY.

#i dont know shit about marine biology or anything #BUT #um #i think deep sea animals are really cool #and the shallow ones are nice too #whats it called uh #deep sea gigantism #! #its a phenomenon (?) where a lot of deep sea creatures are way way bigger than their shallow counterparts #like some isopods squids and other fellas #i was watching a short documentary about it and got a book idea so i might work on that :) #also uh #please read the martian #or #project hail mary #actually yeah PLEASE READ PROJECT HAIL MARY ITS SO GOOD ITS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE BOOKS #book recommendation #?????? #idk if more people see this the more peole will read it #i love sci fi #ya #ok byebye #my knees hurt

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playing with musescore rn here are some abominations

#composition #that feels wrong #um #i like classical music? #i dont know how to read sheet music #(lies) #(i only know a little) #i found out i used to want to be a photographer when i was younger #now idk i kinda had an existential crisis and i don't want to do medicine so that's cool i guess #i want to do space stuff but i do not have a physics elective #but its ok #:) #oh yeah #this is musescore #idk why version 4 wouldn't download but version 3 works fine????? #ok anyways #i started playing sims 4 it's sort of fun but it'd be more fun if i had Money #real money (for packs) not simoleons you can cheat for those #what else is new #i have a lot of back pain? #i have no chairs in my entire house that's my defense #MY JOINTS #im in pain everyday #ok bye

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oh my god i want to play the cello so bad it sounds so beautiful and sad and emotional and just so grief-stricken it’s great wow

#thought #cello #it’s unfair how great they sound #i’m so into classical music and music in general right now its insane #DUDE #IM LOSING MY MIND #my top spotify person thing was chopin #I WANT TO PLAY MUSIC #FUCK #im saving up for a second hand piano #:3 #i wanna do EVERYTHING #like piano cello violin saxophone #FUCK MAN #AAAAAAAA #THE URGE TO PLAY MUSIC IS LITERALLY CONSUMING ME #IVE NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE #its like i need to do it NOW and I NEED TO I NEED TO I NEED TO #ok bye now

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oh my god it its stabbing me its like i have knives in my mouth

i have an entire candy cane in my mouth

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i have an entire candy cane in my mouth

#its like a month old #tastes minty #in case u were wondering #ITS SHARP #OW