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them: “oh what a cute haircut!”

me: “thx it was a necessity.”

#no bc i will want to claw my skin off if my hair is touching my neck in the wrong way #better to chop it all off rather than be painfully aware of how each hair fiber is touching my skin 😀 #sensory processing disorder #sensory issues #autistic life #neurodivergent things

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“take care of your mental health—” bro frick my mental health, what’s it ever done for me 🤨

#like i’m supposed to carry it around with me like a rag doll??? #i would like to unsubscribe from the mental health channel #it’s only caused me pain 🥲 #mental health #mental health memes #vent post #just venting

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“do you take criticism well?” the interviewer asks me and i immediately respond with a hearty “yes” knowing full well that i don’t handle criticism well but i fear the criticism i will inevitably perceive from this stranger if i say no and so i lie through my teeth hoping to make it through this interaction without having an internal meltdown cause i’ve convinced myself if i don’t present myself as the perfect candidate this person will despise me (this is literally a minimum wage job)

#it’s the rejection sensitivity dysphoria for me #like we’ll cross that handling criticism bridge when we get to it #but i intend to people please my way through this job so that we never get to that bridge 🤪✌🏽 #no actually the job was fine #but the constant people pleasing is still a problem 🙃 #rejection sensitivity #rsd moment #rsd things #adhd rsd

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maybe all the times i thought i was being social was rly just the neurodivergence speaking •_•

cause in high school i’d think “wouldn’t it be a great if i could just study with my lil friend group, like not even hang out, we’d just all be in the same room doing our individual things but we’d be together?” and now i’m like “girl that’s literally body doubling💀”

#what do you mean ppl get together to study or socialize and not bc it just helps them be more productive #adhd #adhd things #neurodivergent #its the neurodivergency #body doubling

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autistics be like “i know a comfortable position” and then contort themselves into the weirdest shape ‘cause it feels ✨right✨

#i know it looks weird but i swear this is very comfy #autistic things #neurodivergent #autistic feels #autistic life #autism memes

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you know your senses are wired a little ✨differently✨ when you touch an ~icky~ texture and your immediate reaction is "ew that tasted wrong"

#like...ok brain whatever you say #like that's a BAD texture when you got the other senses freaking out🙃 #neurodivergent #sensory processing disorder #neurodiversity #neurodivergent things

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o weak mortal, you thought your little reminder alarms and cute organized to-do lists and trite focus tips and silly reward systems could have any effect on me but those tricks are utterly useless FOR I…HAVE ADHD *thunder* *lightning* *scary organ music*

#me: depressed cackling #it’s absolutely ridiculous how many time management strategies i’ve had to come up with myself #cuz all the conventional tips don’t always work all the time #and even then sometimes my strategies get too stale for my brain so i have to find new ones #can we have some consistency please 🫠 #adhd #adhd feels #adhd memes #neurodivergent #actually adhd #adhd tips

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if you’re happy and you don’t know it, clap your hands

if you have alexithymia, clap your hands

if you’re feeling something and you don’t know it

and your face can’t really show it

if you’re happy but you don’t know it, clap your hands

me: *aggressive clapping*

#alexithymia #autistic things #neurodiversity #neurodivergent things #now that i know i’m alexithymic this song is so funny #cuz i do not in fact know how to process emotions or even identify them so how am i supposed to know if i’m happy :D #gotta love this quirky little brain #actually neurodivergent #neurodivergent

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i love how i'll read back through journals and one entry will be like "today was pretty good i guess since i didn't make a fool out of myself, also i talked at least once in class" like bro i wish i could say things have changed, but that's still basically me every day 💀

#I’ve grown in plenty of other areas in life it’s just hilarious that this thought pattern has not changed AT ALL #social anxiety #socially anxious #mental health memes #journaling #mental health

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"I'm a romantic" and "I'm aromantic" are two phrases that can definitely describe one person.

(me. i am that person.)

#it's crazy that i can only indulge in something romantic as long as it's completely external like songs fiction etc. #but as soon as it's even remotely related to me personally or even someone i know i'm like EW GET IT AWAY FROM ME #aromantic #aromantic feels #aromantism #aromantic things #arospec

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if a guy ever said to me "i just see you as a friend" i would legit jump up and shout "HALLELUJAH!!!" cause 1) aroace and 2) bro i just want friends and i feel like a fake friend all the time so i would get validation that i am impacting someone's life in a positive way and i'm not a worthless human being 🥰

#aroace #aromantic #aromantic things #but also low self esteem things #imposter syndrome #self worth issues

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autistic listening to music be like "AHHHH MY STIM SONG IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY ugh this song doesn't make me feel anything skip skip skip skip skip skip THE SOUNDS ARE VIBRATING THE NEURONS IN MY BRAIN arrrrgh why can't i find a good song nothing sounds interesting i don't want to listen to music anymore I FOUND A NEW STIM SONG, TIME TO LISTEN TO IT ONE HUNDRED TIMES IN A ROW *wild arm movements*"

#i feel like my life can be categorized into two sections #when i have a stim song #and the nothingness in between #autistic feels #autistic things #autistic culture #actually autistic #stimming

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“new year, new me!” *starts constructing new persona to show in public based on whatever piece of media i’m obsessed with right now*

#masking #autistic masking #personality disorder #mental problems

[doodleninja]

today on “why am i feeling so awful today” we have our contestants Social Anxiety, Social Burnout, Impending Autistic Meltdown, Hunger, Sleep Deprivation, and an all-time fan favorite, AVPD Crippling Low Self-Esteem. let’s all give them a round of applause!

#you never know which one you’re gonna get 🤪 #and it could be multiple for double combo points #autistic #social anxiety #avpd #autistic burnout #actually autistic #autistic life #neurodivergent things

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"hey i'm so sorry for not replying, i must've missed your email" is just so much easier to write and understand than "hey so my adhd object impermanence made me forget that your email even existed, then my social anxiety made me worry you would hate me if i replied now, and my avpd was telling me to just ignore you cause you probably don't like me anyway and i’m terrified of the rejection that might follow and honestly it's a miracle that i'm even replying now so haha i'm doing great, anyways here's the one sentence response that literally took me three months to send"

#rip professionalism #adhd #social anxiety #neurodivergent #neurodivergent culture #anxiety culture #avpd #actually neurodivergent #adhd problems #avpd things #it's a mess

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social anxiety be like:

Me: *sends absolutely harmless message to group chat* *not even 10 seconds later* Me: I CAN FEEL THEIR JUDGING LOOKS THROUGH THE SCREEN.

#welcome to my life #where i think everything i say and do could be a reason to not like me #run now before it's too late #social anxiety #socially anxious #social anxiety things #anxiety culture

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autistic life truly isn’t about the destination, it’s about the allistics we weirded out along the way 😌

#actually autistic #autistic culture #autistic feels #autistic life #autism memes