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Im not feeling too good again...

#yea

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Every once in a while i come out of my hole to see whats going.

To find out that i do not like the outside and wish to stay inside.

#im too introverted

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Someone pls rip me open from the inside.

#i have no tags

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Ayo fuck this man cuz even since he built my pc now all we do is fuckin play video games.

HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO GET ME INTO DESTINY 2. Now thats like almost all we play. Its addicting and i hate it but its so fun and so much to do on it. But like i still suck at pvp

#destiny 2 #i play as a titan cuz i liking the punching stuff #i did grow playing combat games as opposed to shooter sooo duh #its fun tho #i have a season pass and be ranking up n shit #gothgirl #goth poc #latina #gothic #punk goth #pc games #pc #destiny 2 on pc #pve #pvp

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Yall my bf built me a pc so i can play video games with him. Ugghh i love this man !!!

#text post #relationship #bf #love him #pc games #pc gaming

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Up to my bruja thingsss

#punk #gothic #punk goth #bruja #witchcraft

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I'm transferring from my current college to another. But before i leave my current one, i decided to try to get some associates degrees.

I'm really excited that today i was approved for the three of them. (One is semi pending due to the current class im taking but still yaay).

I'm getting Associates degrees in:

Two in Liberal Arts-

Social and behavioral sciences

Arts and Humanities

And General science

Aahh im so happyy

#im so freaking exciteddd!!!

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My mans and i had an argument over whos gonna die first. We dont wanna see the other one die or out live one another so we're fighting to be the one to die first.

Ya know typical couples arguments lolol

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Things need time to flourish, so don't rush them if you want to see the beauty after.

#im a bit depresso #and majorly stressed #but im pushing through #i'll be fine #ill be okay soon #text post #flourish #depresso #depression #stress #college life #college #university life #university #uni life #flowers #dont rush things

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I think imma disappear for a while again...

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i dont wanna exist anymore. i just keep fucking up.

why do i even bother to post here anymore. we all know this is just a self pity blog. i have nothing worthy of saying.

#people only pay attention to my depressed stuff #oh god that hurts #its just a reminder of how bad ive been doing #pls dont romanticize this stuff #im sure as hell not helping either by posting #well fuck look at that im caught in a loop again

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I feel so lonely. I want to ask for help but I know i'll be ignored and end up ignoring myself. i don't want to be a burden

#depresso #shit post #fml #im trying to talk to ppl but its not working #idk what to do anymore #ill just suffer in silence like i always do #this should be fun

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Who wants to study with me?

#through discord #i need study buddies #college life #college #university #university life #study motivation #study buddy #students #student life

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I'm so caffeinated rn, i can fight god and win

#im on my 3rd cup within the last 2 hrs. #this is great #imma fight god #its currently 12:41 am and jittery #this is fun

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If I die then I die. Thats my fault for not passing the vibe check

#im going through a depresso #but fr tho i shouldnt have been slackin #depresso #test post

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My brain stopped working while trying to do hw. Pls help

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Yesterday was so fucking GREAT!! My bf and I went to see Together Pangea and omfg GUYS WE WERE SOOO CLOSE TO THEM. Like deadass i was arms distanceeee

I loved every second of it. It felt so intimate to be so close to them like holy fuck. And the merch dude was so fucking cool like best experience everrr.

#this couple was in front of us and were a bit problematic with this other ppl #but we were chillin #hella vibing #best time everrr #bf and i got a shirt and sweater that we're gonna share lol #god i love this man #we both had such a great time #Together Pangea