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This is one new thing that I have cravings for while fasting. Do you guys have any specific grave foods? Feel free to share yours.

I'm doing a lot of fasting right now bc I fucked up badly a little while ago. I will come back to do body check when I'm back at that point where I was..

#ana #cravings #food #ed #proana #not pro

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I want to be skinny, but..

I don't want to move at all. Sports is not my thing I don't really enjoy it, have never enjoyed. I have been doing it just because I have to.

Solution: don't eat

But... I want...

WHY??!?

#ed #edmeme #ana #proana #mia #struggle

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Reblog if you have an eating disorder but

You’re not underweight

Even a little chubby

Struggle to fast

Binge eat

Struggles to lose any weight

Maybe I’m just a fat ass…but I just want to feel like I’m not alone

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New home, new life

Oh well, things didn't started that well. I crashed my car and I have been just vomiting (and diarrhea)whole night, got bad infection.. Even water doesn't stay in. I feel super dizzy..

I thought I would love my new life but right now I feel like I want to die. This is so depressing..

#new year #new life #move #mental dreakdown #health #issues

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Merry Christmas

And happy holidays everyone ❤️ I will take it easy rest of the year. Fresh start next year, new city, new life, first of all new me!

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I move away!

I had interview today about starting studies at Kokkola (175km away from my hometown) and I got the place!!? Omg I will really move away from home which makes all things a lot of easier, living alone will be like heaven ❤️

I thought that I would be lawyer but it's not easy to get into law school. So when I was angry about the fact that I won't get in there I applied to this one and now I'm becoming pastry chef 😂

#school #life #move #news #new home #change #pastry chef #lawyer

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Body Check 12/16/2019

Weight: 74,6kg

I have been struggling but got back on track pretty easily.

Don't mind my bruises, I bought weighted (1,2kg) hulahoop, I don't know if it's shaping me but atleast I can see some changes lol

#ed #proana #ana #body check #full body #body image #body #bruises #progress #fat women #fat girls #fat

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Anyone else?

Does anyone else have weird feeling about throwing food away? My mom bought me chicken-feta wrap, I took 3 bites and threw it away. I don't need it, I should not eat it, it didn't even taste good, but like there is a lot of people without food. They don't have choice. It feels kinda bad to do that.

#ed #ana #proana #privilage #first world problems

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Coincidence?

So I went out with my friend yesterday, drinked a lot of alcohol and ate much too. (We don't even need to talk about today's eating.. I feel so sick, I'm so full.. cheat day got new meaning.. )

Anyway today at work my co-worker came to my and asked if I'm waiting baby because others have been talking something like that. I was like "Hell no." I would rather die than make a baby. But yeah.. apparently I'm so fat that obviously I'm pregnant.. I don't think that they really think that way.. Unless ?

I will work even harder now on. If it would have been small binge that would have been alright but this is far from that. Fuck me really. Why I always mess things up when everything goes so nicely?!

#anorexii #eating desorders #ed meme #fatty #ed #anorexia #ana #proana #failed #failure #fat women #fat girls #fat #pregnant

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It's so stressful..

To see your weight going from low to really high during one day..

My weight this morning was 74,5kg and now when I checked it was 76,0kg. What the actual f**k is this? Water weight probably but it makes me so anxious, I haven't even eated that much today..

#ed #proana #edmeme #feelings #accurate

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Body Check 12/3/2019

Weight: 75,8kg

I'm so happy that I have managed to do some progress. I was at my bf's home and well last time I gained a lot. Things between us are clear now. He is the first guy ever saying directly in front of me, face to face that he loves me ❤️ I'm so happy

#lose weight #ed #ana #proana #body check #progress #weight log

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Body Check 11/26/2019

Weight 76,8kg

No changes this week but I'm still kinda proud. I have somekind of crises going on with my bf and seemed already like he is going to left my fat ass bc I'm too sick (depression, anxiety, ed....). I don't know why but suddenly I started to feel so powerful and angry, like "who the hell you think you are to judge me and say that you don't know anymore. These things have always been there and they always will. I can't do anything about it."

So got my "Boss Lady" attitude back. It's me who is going to decide to be or not to be!

#body check #ed #ana #proana #boss lady #attitude #mental health #break up

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me, talking myself into binging: it’ll boost my metabolism! i might even lose because of it! i’ve fasted for 4 days straight this week so I deserve it. maybe recovery is an option-

me the next morning after i step off of the scale:

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Body Check 11/18/2019

Weight: 76,8kg

Finally good progress! I was so angry about something what was said to me so I started to work extra hard and it really works 😂 Normally I post these on Tuesday but I will go to celebrate with my friend so I am afraid that it messes this up again, anyway. I'm happy!

Stay safe ❤️

#proana #ana #ed #body check #body #body image #full body #weight lose #lose weight #progress #tattooed

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REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

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Sorry!!!

I'm sorry that I haven't posted body check pics or even those updates for couple weeks.

I have been struggling badly again. I was around 78,1 kg but well as you can guess I had huge binge and then periods started and now I'm just swollen piece of shit.. Well atleast I look kinda cute and my waist looks kinda small on my work uniform. Yes I'm Subway Sandwich artist 😂

#proana #ed #ana #body check #weight lose #lose weight #weight gain #uniform

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Accurate

I hope this hasn’t been done yet