sweetjijisama

[sweetjijisama]

The most embarrassing thing In my life is whenever I see people and they ask what I’ve been up to . Literally nothing ever . Im like ohh you know this and that …. The usual ..

#or i just literally forget what I was doing a few seconds ago or months oof #or its better to not answer bc any honest answer will be too depressing... #or not interesting enough #or I try to words but my brain crashes because I have too much ligma #or I get distracted again bc sth on the floor or the texture of sth or the way the ceiling looks lol

[sweetjijisama]

How far along are you on the game 👀 looks cool

Chapter 0/intro could be released if I decided to polish the current state of the game.

But I know that I shouldn't because most of the areas will be edited and expanded anyways, so it will take much longer.

It's better to have a working prototype (gameplay & cutscenes) before I polish any graphics.

You will revisit many areas in multiple chapters (gameplay loop). Last week I started to think about the story of the alternative route (a very depressing and morally questionable one...)

Not sure if this route will ever see the light of the day. Maybe it will be added as a dlc so I can focus more on the main story.

Who knows. Maybe I will drop the game completely and make a comic instead. Which would be kinda meh because the story was created to be a game with multiple routes/endings.

Unfortunately I am having the worst time of my life again and dealing with too much trauma... I've been lying in bed since four days, not wanting to exist anymore... No motivation to live or do anything... It fucking sucks.

So yeah... It takes even longer. If someone can find my will to live again (that I've lost a decade ago...), then that would be nice. And send me a support system, new parents and true friends IRL if you can find any, thanks :' )

Unless you guys want an unfinished shitpost with earrape sound effects and not fitting music... Then I could release it instantly xD

#christmas killer #gamedev #game dev

[sweetjijisama]

Hello, I’m so curious about your ocs, I’d like to know more about them. I don’t know if you’ve already made a post explaining the story and I missed it. I think their character design is so great! Like, really amazing

Also wanted to ask if it’s ok to spam reblog your ocs posts?

My dysfunctioning ass hasn't made a single explanation post. Instead, all the info is scattered across all the images of them (if at all) :' D sorry about that. But I think you can grasp a part of their personalities at least by looking at them.

You can always message me if you want more info about specific characters. (I know myself that I can't execute this character sheet task for ages...)

You can spam reblog my art whenever you feel like it :' ) Gives me a little dopamine too when someone enjoys my art that much.

#christmas killer #my ocs

[sweetjijisama]

A mad sketch I found in my files.

I wonder what they're fighting about :D

I haven't drawn these two for a while bc no mental health is left inside my brain atm >_>

#oc #ocs #original character #original characters #sketch #sketches #digital sketch #digital art #christmas killer #christmas killer grotty #christmas killer ellie #my art

[sweetjijisama]

I wish someone would long to hear my voice and long for being in my arms...

Just as much as I longed for them...

All of them...

I could have been okay...

I could have been okay...

#personal vent #vent post #vent #heartbroken #lovesick #just me things #fuck my life #i hate this so much #i just wanted a hug and feel safe #but all i get is them to cut me off #nobody wants to handle my lovely and vulnerable side

[sweetjijisama]

Gotta be honest with you, I don't wanna be alive when my birthday comes in less than two months.

I have constant flashbacks and it's only getting worse around that date...

Wish me luck that I'll be still alive during that time... :c

#personal vent #vent #vent post #just me things #constantly thinking about ending it all #i cant brush my teeth anymore every night #and that was one of the lowest standarts I had for myself #i dont need this life #in the end you're all alone

[sweetjijisama]

A swaggie thing I tried to redraw a few times over the past years.

No final version was ever made, but the latest sketch is quite cool, I think. You can see my style changing too :' D

#oc #ocs #original character #original characters #redraw #sketch #sketches #digital sketch #digital art #christmas killer #christmas killer grotty #christmas killer ellie #my art

[sweetjijisama]

Smol wip of the city/village area near Santas factory

Sometimes I make tiles in different colors to indicate houses/nature/streets etc. when I create my maps.

And then I slap some pre-existing assets on them and call it a day XD It has its benefits compared to a hand drawn map, but it can be very annoying too. I worry about the pretty details later on, when I am satisfied with the arrangement of the elements. As long as the area feels right to walk through, I think its alright.

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

More School Area wips

I really need to change these stairs everywhere :'D Their proportions just don't make sense compared to the rest lol

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

A very chill interview with your new boss...

Which answer would you pick? Pls ignore my spelling mistakes, this was written really fast for playtesting! Almost every interaction with him at the beginning will be awkward and uncomfortable. Eventually you'll get used to him... or not... Well, at least you'll get used to being in pain... Oh wait, you are already used to that, even before all this shit happens... Yikes! :' )

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

Best House Tour with Santa EVER!!!!!!!!

More funny placeholder text during the cutscene. Love this guys motivation!!! Hope you enjoy my stunning 11/10 high quality pixel art visuals and all the details/information/signs inside this main hall :D (joke obviously...)

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

YEAH BOIIII! It's so useful.... That I am making a game about it.... bc I can't cope with it irl.... AHAHAHA......

*runs away and hides*

Spoiler: i am ashamed of my project :' )

Fml I guess

Have a nice day :'D

and is your shame helpful? is it inspiring goodness and change? or is it keeping you frozen in time unable to move on and be everything you have expanded to be?

[sweetjijisama]

It's green a creative colour?

NEIN!

GREEN IS NOT A CREATIVE COLOR!

(if u know the reference lol)

[sweetjijisama]

Cool Elevator Visuals...

Also he is so motivated to show you the factory inside :' D Also placeholder text do be like that.

Just pure facts because you don't wanna lose time on reading too much text while playtesting cutscenes.

You know THERE WILL BE awkward elevator scenes in this game (mostly with Grotty because you travel a lot with him)

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

what's your actually shitty thing in Rl?

What the fuck is a ri? :0

[sweetjijisama]

WIP of a little RIP Santa Shrine in the middle of the main hall :')

The camera will focus on this tree when you approach it, so the whole tree is visible. Also imagine some more cool/sad Santa photos/paintings on the walls xD My visuals are a banger, I know...

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art

[sweetjijisama]

Wip of your own "elf hotel bathroom" at Santas.

Its actually crazy that you get your own bathtub and not just a shower cabin. Maybe its only because you have to work your ass off and a little bath is the least they can do for you at his factory...

#gamedev #game development #indiedev #rpg maker #rpg maker mv #pixel art #christmas #christmascore #wip #work in progress #christmas killer #my art